#not actually tho cuz im tired :

[luckynumberthreed]

Merry (not) Christmas ya filthy animals

#yall know who you are #REMINDER #my birthday is next week!! feel free to give me things!!! #and yes i was changing when i took this so thats why my belt is undone #here come the tags yall you can look away now #gay #gay man #me #selfie #armpit #pit #male armpit #did i get all of them? #rb this and tag what you see! fun new game :) #if any of you tag this as twink ill show up at your house with a baseball bat #not actually tho cuz im tired :// #anyways #i hope yall are having a good day!! or night!! or whatever ur having!! #love yall :) #now love me back pls #gay shirtless #shirtless #gay men #gay armpit

[romanceddawn]

the fun thing about rivalshipping is you dont even need to make a mob boss au for them because kaiba already acts like one and you just know his form of flirting includes hiring yugi personal guards to watch over him and keep him safe

#feel free to add other thots #i wanted to think up more cuz im so sure theres a lot you can do #to parallel it to a mob story #im just too tired to think more #i love them tho #also think its funny if the two of them view their relationship differently #like to kaiba its an office romance cuz the violence is a natural part of his life now #to yugi its an intense mob boss romance that hes not sure he signed up for actually #rivalshipping #yugi mutou #yugi muto #seto kaiba #yugioh #devo speaks

[hospitalyuris]

Everytime someone says I'm wasting what god gave me I grin and say good

#tbis applies to anyone visibly gender queer ur rhe ideal and i love you dearly #whatever u look like whether ur pre or post whatever #tbank you for making me feel safer with ur continued existence and thank u for reminding me life is full of good tjigs #ill probably delete this later but i was just feeling some kinda way abt my body #I've gone thru a lot of stuff accepting it and learning to like it and realize its just here to carry me around and i shouldn't resent it #when its doing tbe best job it can #its not its fault what i was got lost in translation its just meat #i dont plan on transistioning anytjme soon cuz A) im very young and B) that shit expensive even tho ive known im a guy p much my whole life #n i also dont plan on legally changing my name in the foreseeable future cuz A) i actually dont mind my legal name i think its cool #B) also expensive and they dont even get it right half of the time on future legal documents anyways #what a scam #i should just be able to walk up and state that im a guy and not have to bend over backwards to prove it for other ppls comfort #lazy trans ppl rise. divine act of creation but boy am I tired and its always Sunday #just in general most of it boils down to tje cis ppl in charge are dicks #trans #mspaint #whatever #nudity #transgender #also i have a mini vash the stampede that runs around my phone screen and he keeps gettong under my fingers while typing this

[ask-knowledgekeepers]

(( Klaus was angry so I shoved him into a Lucario hoodie... It's fair to say he's still angry but he feels better now.

#drawing #klaus opus #just some filler art #hope yall like silly drawings cuz thats what your gonna get till im done making stuff #too tired to use illusion? I got u klaus #boom lucario hoodie #i wish this was canon he would actually love it #its gets really exhausting having his illusion up 24/7 #what does he actually do when he cant use illusion in story? #he just hides #he cant do that in story rn tho cause... well #he's outside and avoiding his teammates like the plauge but normally yes #..... *casually writes note to make it canon later*

[lecliss]

Man going from the land of snow movie immediately into shippuden the movie really smacked me upside the head with the realization that part 1 nart is a million times better than shippuden nart. And I like older Nart, I really do, I like all the Narts, even the Bort one to a degree(when he's not being a shit father). But like, his immaturity and earnestness and energeticness are all cute and even inspiring when he's a kid. In the first movie I was giggling and cheering the kiddo on. But with 15yo Nart when he acts immature and yells at every little thing it's just like. Dude. Calm down. You do not need to keep acting this way. Like, I like his stubbornness when he's all "I'm bringing you home Sasuke!", but it's a little annoying when he's all like "Why do I have to follow Neji's orders?!" Like, idk, I think just the older a character is the less tolerable those traits are to me. Like it's cute when they're kids but then it turns into falling behind on the maturity scale I guess.

#i have to not start unironically calling him nart..... #anyway. like even his and sakura's banter is kinda annoying when theyre older #like. it really just suddenly hit me that theyre too old to still be acting like this #and maybe its cuz im 24 now compared to being like. 14 and watching nart. but even tho theyre 15. they just feel to old to act like that #like 12 and its cute and funny. but 15+ and its like. im tired of it man. idk. #like i feel like ichigo's moments like that in bleach dont bother me cuz his freak outs are justifiable and he doesnt act like that 24/7 #but with naruto its like constant with every little thing AT THE SAME AGE #and maybe hes flanderized in this movie? idk. its been a while since ive watched actual shippuden. #but anyway. i just like earnest heartfelt dumbass nart that gets hardheaded and stubborn towards villains #not naruto that yells and complains about neji being in charge for. whatever reason? i would think they would be on good terms #after the chunin exams at least. #personal

[sunnydice]

man.

#i had this whole post ive been trying to formulate for so so long. abt my issues w ceewilbur and ccwilburisms and #to clarify i do like cwilb he is one of my faves. ik it may seem i wanna bite his arm off smtimes and i Do but #its mostly bitterness directed to the stuff Around him if that makes sense. yk the response to lots abt him #the way the overcompensation abt how he can be villanized swinging into a state where he Cant and never Did and wrong and if you critique #or acknowledge it you get snipped at and demeaned and treated like its a targeted hit on the mentally ill when its like #a mild disagreement with one of the most popular characters in the fanbase Easily #and w cc wil i do think he is just sm guy. im sure he's a nice dude idrc abt the ccs usually but he seems alright enough even tho he has v #goofy ahh takes and opinions but that doesnt make you Evil #but when i dive into what really has made me feel so alienated and snippy its. llmao its the racism yeah lol its super very much the racism #its very very prevelent and very common and very unchallenged. and it like. upsets me so bad its why i keep bailing on making my actual #full detailed post abt it. cuz everytime i try to formulate my thoughts i just get upset and frustrated i wanna rip my hair out #its hard not to feel like im talking to a wall when its so common and unchecked and. ive seen rightful critiques of these spaces and how #ppl interact with them Openly Mocked and brushed aside and treated like 'petty sensative internet drama' that ppl need to 'just get over' #sorry man im a fucking 🇲🇽 i cant exactly log off and Stop Experiencing Racism. and sorry that me feeling alienated and tired and sad abt #it is an inconvenience for you llol #and like idk. im not upset w anyone in particular this isnt a call out post or vague who give a shit and. #eh maybe im stupid but i really really believe a lot of ppl arent doing it on purpose #its just bein parroted ik i get it but #am i rlly not allowed to be tired? why should it feel like my responsibility to hold ppls hand and go hey mb treat poc and darker skinned #ppl like ppl. maybe you should examine why you need so many things made palatable to you through conventionally attractive whiteness first #idk. idk!!! am i crazy who fucking knows #but it has been weighing on me stupid style so bad #the shrinking fanbase and primarily yk common stragglers has just. rlly felt like a magnifying glass to my already existing issues abt it #idk man. idk im tired and im at work its 100°+ and my head hurts so this is all yr getting. lea me alone #and again this isnt a vague who Cares. just wanted to get it off my chest finally #huri.txt #discourse #<- ig

[toestalucia]

in 0 gran news, i wrote up an intro thing for a sino blog cuz i Knew id regret it if i didnt write it down but. u know those blogs where u just wanna do one(1) thing and not develop anything. yeah

#stardust speaking ! #i just wanna do red riding hood going teehee do u wanna play (smashes u with a hammer) #wheres ava (<-person who can just msg them on disc) #also i have a mika promo to post but 1) 'i cant just post gbf spoilers day2 wth' -> i got into very busy very tired days 2) I DONT.. #even know what i wanna do w mika...........this update simply ended me #auigh i HAVE to talk about it soon its been over a week #+ i......still mostly wanna do my akira things........so....................teehee #PLUS !!! its almost gamer event. YIPPIIEEEEEEEE EMU AKITO MALL AREA CONVO SOON #which im 100% reading even tho im. uh. heavily behind #cuz i lov emu n emu meeting the shinonomes is like. some of the best emu content #emu vs actually using their last name with ena before ena goes um...just say ena.... #ok nonsense posting done

[bellwitchfaggot]

I do understand the way in which spirituality is like a deep-seated psychological human need and the way in which ppl seem to tend to go a little batshit crazy when that need is not being met like I think spirituality is kinda the like glue that goes in all the cracks of a person's perception of reality and I do think spirituality is extremely useful for not losing the plot of one's life entirely. This being said however I used to be a very spiritual person and then it was systemically abused out of me by the psychiatric industrial complex and like. I can see now I think that a lot of the beliefs I used to hold and the ways in which I would process and make sense of the world were not actually harmful to me and were also not actually harming anyone else and I think I was like a much happier and more fulfilled person when I was a much more spiritual person and I'm really interested in trying to reincorporate a lot of that into my life but at this point I straight dont know how to like do that without feeling like I'm cracking tf up inside due to the extreme dissonance surrounding spirituality that has been bred in me specifically by people who I believed were helping me for a very large part of my life

#going to find a snackie then maybe get blasted n take a nap idk im sooo sleepy tired #oh just realized its cuz i think i only slept for like 3 hrs #christ maybe i'll start going to church again at some point idfk #i really dont. even know where to begin with starting to unravel what spiritual beliefs i may or may not actually hold and also like for me #spirituality is soooo tied very very VERY deeply in with my severe fucking long term and still semi ongoing cult trauma i just. i really #dont even know where to BEGIN with figuring shit like this out but the mere thought of reintroducing spirituality into my life makes me #feel like such a deepseated fear and sense of danger and unease. ig i gota figure out where tf the line lies for me at some point tho #personal #like. i have very good reason to believe that during my childhood and teenage years i was specifically being groomed to be like acting as #the leader of some sort of fucking apocalypse death cult by my church and that really complicates things! #and then like at some point in my teenage years SOMEONE started to like try to help me get out somehow which took the form of me being like #introduced to like neo paganism and shit and those were some of the most enjoyable and like positive but simultaneously like apeshit years #of my life . and then i was like forcefully medically lobotomized for like years using strong prescription drugs that i didnt really unders #tand what i was being given and like basically fully convinced by someone or something that all spirituality is automatically psychosis #the thing about that is i think believing THAT has actually somewhat led to me accidentally just becoming even more fucking insane #idk its all very complicated and like at this point in my life and recovery i am aware that like i have literally hundreds if not thousands #of unintegrated parts and its just going to take some real fucking time of me like being allowed and safe and comfortable enough to like #fully start to unravel all those different lived experiences inside of me that someone or some group of ppl may or may not have been #specifically attempting to prevent me from ever fully unraveling for me to like. figure out what my own actual opinions are on this and a #lot of other things are #idk i didnt mean to type this many tags on this post or go this in depth but here we r i spose. much 2 think abt #did log

[thinkingnot]

day ratings: mid, sleepy, tired,..etc..etc :////

hhhnnnggggg feeling lethargic and wanting to dissipate into my bed but also thinking of bedrockbros like themmmmmmmm >>>>>>>

and also having maths homework and physics work like ARHHUFHFHFH URGGGHHH

and also where is the james marriott tommy vod OMG ITS HERE

I TAKE IT BACK JAMES YOU ARE THE BESTTTTT

today is now rated mediocre :|

oh look its like my profile picture :D

today rating is now: eh (added with a shrug like meh but a bit better like ehhhh it could be better but its a school day you can’t demand too much from it yk)

#anyways hows your day i am conflicted confused and also very tired #slept thru like 80% of my classes today like my brain aint there fr #my teacher was like you alright and im like ah im fine? and she looked at me and i was like its cuz its the mornin im alright and she was #like okayyyyy and now im thinking like am i really tho but even if i said anything like it aint gon work out also im looking at this #partial scholarship program and like imma try it out and hopefully grt something but im also a lil bit stressed out but like its alright #and also like why is time passing so quick and slow at the same time i need to dissolve into the waters my meant to be a single cell thought #s cannot handle this environment i am a coral actually i like the color of corals they r very nice i want to be a coral and protected from #getting stressed out of i become skelly coral #personal #hoodie’s day ratings

[yuribalisms]

Insomnia my detested

#WHY IS IT BACK WHAT DID I DO #that’s a lie I know what happened I started working evenings at my new job #and my body got really excited that that meant I would be up late and sleeping in again #so then on days I still have to go to bed early and wake up early for my other job #it just does not fucking want to cuz it was hard enough doing that when I did it EVERY day #I think that’s also why I’m so tired all the time and am sleeping so poorly in general my body is just not meant to have #a sleep schedule meant for early mornings #it does :) fucking suck tho that this is happening on the nights before I am working 15 hour days :) #it’s okay I decided im quitting my old job today im getting more than enough hours at the new place #I was gonna stick out having them both for longer cuz the money would be nice but this is simply not sustainable #first the two weeks without a day off and now days where I’ll literally be working more hours than not working #but after im done there!!! late night sleep schedule is back!!! thank fucking GOD #maybe I will actually feel rested again maybe I will not have to nap literally every day just to feel capable of functioning #kaz rambles

[kalloway]

hello, please pray for me that I don't get a DS3 NPC killed because I'm trying to NOT use a walkthru or guide for once, thank u

#delete later #dark souls 3 #i am.... scared #I already had an NPC jump into a fight I thought I messed up that he DEFINITELY COULD HAVE DIED IN #and it stressed me out so much #sometimes I wish I was a bad person and cared less about NPCs but I just........ want everyone to live LOL #like if they die *beyond* my control when I'm not around? yeah okay whatever #when i COULD have saved them tho by making a better choice? .......yikes #(or like Bloodborne again where my lack of ability got Eileen killed the first time 'round and I'm STILL upset about it) #uh in other news if u DO know of a good (WRITTEN) walkthru or guide for DS3... plz tell me #having played DS1 - Bloodborne rn I have lost all trust in both wikis I used to use lmaoooooo #well okay maybe not ALL - but enough I only look up specific things and not actual 'guides' #i ended up having to switch to an IGN guide for DS2 because I was tired of reading things that were wrong #which mind u was probably a fault of the whole 'SotFS' edition changes #BUT STILL AT LEAST *SAY* WHAT VERSION THE WALKTHRU IS FOR #okay im done the rant - I actually really liked DS2 so don't misinterpret that as me actually being mad lololol #im avoiding a guide or walkthru tho cuz I relied WAY too much on them for the other games (besides Bloodborne) #and I wanted to go in a little more blind because my friend (who has played it) is also hiding things from me to be a surprise hahaha

[ihatebnha]

what if i post this fic and then never post again

#......../hj #do. i want to leave this blog or am i just .... tired #(as in. i need to go to bed) #not even in a sad or bad way but all my motivation to be Good is like................ gone #its waned a bunch since ive started but now it feels like im skidding against the bottom of it #which sucks bc #i sorta refuse to be low effort #and i KNOW why this is happening #but its ..................... weird #even tho i could it feels like... changing my posting style would change this space #so idk how to feel or what to do u know? #anyway this isnt meant to be depressing this is just whats on my mind #bc part of me feels that thing where like. i put so much effort into something and then need to sleep for 100 years #which is funny cuz my fic is only like 5k words #*skull emoji* LMFAOOO #but u know. writing is my greatest struggle #and i put a lot of effort into EVERYTHING on here actually #so idk what to say #or what i was expecting LOL #things are def gonna change but idk how yet #sorry to put this on u tho........... i really do wish i could be the same tireless person forever #and again. i could just be tired and sad in that sense bc today was literally ENDLESS #but anyway #praying my betas didn't kill this fic #(they didnt im just a lazy baby) #but ill see yall soon #not writing #caitie thoughts

[thebuttsmcgee]

so. um. 👉👈

hi guysies.

Ig I should just say like. Hi

I haven't been posting here as much cause. Idk. Might be depression? I keep thinking its cause I've been so busy, which also wouldn't be not untrue, but these past, like, 3 weeks I think so far? I've had some free time but I haven't cause. I dunno, then again, I haven't been doing too much in general? I gues, besides very mandatory things, hell I've even been lacking in my regular skyrim hours of playing.

That, and as said, I get super melancholic when I remember just how sad and bittersweet it is that t0h is. Actually legit over. The show and experience, that is.

Oh all that and also becuz my headphones broke! Fuck! That's like number 2 in my bare necessities for when I post, do almost anything really! It's seriously been painful this past month going without headphones holy shit. Dude I've been scratching at the bit for some relief for headphones, I NEED music legitimately. Even right now, as I'm typing this on my phone, my music is on low levels.

But yerp. Its been. Rough. Really rough. I really do appreciate yall, everyone of yall. Have a sweet week everyone, ✌️!

#the butts chronicles #ogh but yea. been rough. #as said I have no idea if we'll keep this house cause man shits been fucked #uhhhh. lets see. recently my sister got into a fairly nasty argument with her husband since they were both drunk and hes a bit of a. hm #quick to being mad guy? I spose? but yea they made up and he actually apologized to me and my family for that so. its okay? #OH YEA FUCK LOL a few weeks ago fuckin tecksas got hit nasty with a hurricane and GUYS. I FREAKED OUT SO BAD LOL #cuz there was hail with the rain but since. I dont think we even ever experienced hail here I was scared that my ceiling roof broke again #and that it was the rain leaking to my room ceiling and was about to burst my ceiling so I legit started hyperventilating and panicking #with like. short and heavy breathing and almost crying badly until I went to look outside and saw hail and only slightly calmed down #oh but yea it was nasty lol. then the next day almost the entire block lost power and apparently sparks were happening cause fallen trees #uhhh. lets see. hmmm. OH OH RIGHT DAMN I FORGOT WE GOT A PUPPY LOL #we've gotten a lil pup all the way back from dec? iirc and she is now older and a shit lol shes in her teething phase and whatnot #still p cute tho and very puppyish. oh yea also during dec our power went out and ogh man dec was so freezing literally. #almost as bad as the one from. uhhh I cant remember the exact year but I remember it being within these past 4 years at least cause I read #a t0h fic during it lol. oh yea speaking of. we also changed our light company and damn. its been not bad so far! we had to pay up to 300 #in our old company and now we dont even get to 200 so far! hope Im not jinxing it! hmm oh did I already say before that I had to get a new #phone? cause I did and I did not enjoy it lol. had it for a while and now and its arguably worse cause no damn headphone plug-in #I think I did mention this but in case. I did finish counseling. well more accurately they required payments again since things and whatnot. #I think? I mentioned the stuff I got for my bday and chmisas. I got mostly neat stuff. I guess. one of them has still yet to arrive lol #uhhhh. hrm. I did get Mr. Martinet's autograph as a present! hrmmm #my other sister got another surgery a while back and its been relatively the same since. hmm. my only other living grandparent passed away #me and my ex got into a. not great argument cause mistakes and whatnot. raccoons in the attic thats hopefully taken care of for now #aaaaand the plushes I ordered a damn near year ago have been technically canceled cause of unfortunate circumstances for the creator #who just kinda. posts things now lol ig. #but yea. lots. holy shit guys. lots has happened. fuck man. I think Ive been way more tired than I thought. #not to mention the past weeks of just. reflecting. man #uhhh #long post #LOL i gues #but yerp.

[thejavavoid]

any ships in your experiment au (for the future ofc)

honestly, yes and no? i mean, i definitely wanna include raphmona and scalyboards (mondo/mikey) bc theyre so cute (mainly the 2012 versions) but i'd have to make whole designs and backstories for them too

as for anyone else, idk. im stuck debating between april & casey or donnie & casey, but since im deciding to make casetello 'canon' in my 2012 au i might stick with capril for the experiment au.

and ive decided to stay far away from leo & karai. those two can do whatever on their own idc but no ships for them 🙂

#ive already gotten alot of asks for this q&a thing #but its so late for me rn #and im tired #and my cat is sleepin on my bed rn #so i'll get to the others tomorrow? #jjq&a #tmntexperimentau #turtle tot tournament #does anyone actually use the term 'scalyboards' for mondomikey ships #cuz i feel like i just woke up and made that up one random day #lets make it a thing if it isnt already :D #why do i like rambling in the tags so much? #anyway im tired gnight #love yall tho

[klonoadoortophantomile]

lost like allllll my motivation for making art what the fuck =(

#also i want to . play video games really badly but theres also a lot of Interesting Long Videos ive had sitting in my yt watch later for #like months now and the volume slider on dolphin wont work so i cant do both X( #cuz well the video game i wanna play is. unfortunately shadow the hedgehog and its really only fun to play when youve got something else to #do at the same time (well at least in my opinion) and normally i would talk to my sister or smthn while playing but shes busy #inquisitivewaltz.txt #im really sad abt the art thing tho i have so many things i wanna draw for artfight!!!!!!!!!! i have revenges i wanna get working on!!!!! #but everytime i sit down and try to Actually Get Things Done its like. no more ideas i forgot everything i ever knew abt art. yknow ? #maybe im just tired idk i didnt get any sleep at all last night #[the fireworks were going off until like 1 in the morning. pretty much all of our nearest neighbors were setting ones off. it was so loud #AND I HAD TO WAKE UP TO GET TO SUMMER SCHOOL AT 7:30 SINCE THAT STARTED AGAIN TODAY AHGHGGHHGHHG #it was fine btw. the teachers suck (theyre like really passive agressive and rude to everyone??? also dont explain things very clearly) but #im not gonna be having any homework so ill at least have freetime one i get home =3 #okay this is just turning into me rambling abt wahtever sorry lol

[lecliss]

Constantly staring at the timer every few hours wishing it would go down fast :/

#its fucking agony waiting for HIM. #i feel like its just me and that one other obsessive nero fan on pixiv/twitter that are actually excited for weiss #and even then i can tell me and them are only excited cuz hes Nero's Brother. we love him by association only #hes just nero's brother to me. nothing else. all this hype cuz hes best boy's BROTHER. weiss is mid anyway tbh #its all about nero. only nero. #i just. IM TIRED OF WAITING!!!!!! I WANT THE STORY ALREADY!!!! YES THATS WHAT I CARE ABOUT!!!! #WEISS IS ONLY A SMALL PART OF THIS!!!! tho i am still going all in on his banner for his entire kit. HES STILL A DoC CHARACTER REGARDLESS #AND I MUST HAVE THEM ALL #personal