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like I just wanna DIE

#im spiralling and not just over this but it did push me over the edge lol #not one reblog or compliment or ANYTHING its fucking humiliating and i want to cut because well. i am useless <3 #sh ment

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Undercover - Chapter 7 (A LokixRaven AU)

Loki won the battle of New York and now rules over Earth after eliminating Thor and Hawkeye. The remaining Avengers have gone into hiding, waiting for a chance to take back their planet. Raven (OC) is their key to doing so.

This fic is pretty much porn and with this AU Raven and Loki have no previous history

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Warnings: Ooooo boy this chapter is a lot, Smut, Sex, Throne sex, Hair pulling, Blowjobs, Oral sex, Teasing, Language, Dom/Sub relationship, Chastity device, Dildos, Collar, Leash, Slight humiliation kink, Praise kink, Slight dirty talk. 

Chapter 7

Raven’s P.O.V

Two weeks later

I was unsure of my feelings towards Loki, apart of me had missed his touch and his presence, the routine he had set for us. But I kept reminding myself of my mission, why I had been sent here in the first place. Two weeks away from him perhaps wasn’t such a bad thing, it gave me time to clear my head, talk more with Agent Collins. I’d even drawn up a map of the palace with his help. Tonight would be the first night he spent with me since my last punishment. I was slightly nervous about what he had in mind for reconditioning. I just had to grin and bear it, obey and take it like a good little slave. The sooner I got back on his good side the better. I had to become his favourite. I’d already picked out my underwear for the evening and my dress. I’d thought out every little detail. I had orange scented incense burning so my room smelt nice. I’d found a new perfume to try out which smelt of lavender but thankfully it wasn’t too overpowering. I had my underwear and my dress laid out on the bed ready for me to change into later. I was planning on curling my hair later and had found a shade of eyeshadow to match my dress.

Nothing could go wrong. There was a soft knock at my door, and I glanced at the clock. He wouldn’t come this early, I still had two hours before he was due to show up. I wasn’t even ready yet, it better not be him. I opened the door to find one of the handmaid's outside, carrying a gold box. “The king asked that you wear this tonight,” she explained. I took the box from her, thanking her. She left and I closed the door. I placed the box on the bed, feeling my heart swell a little. He’d gotten me a gift. Perhaps all was forgiven after all. I unlatched the box and opened the lid, eager to see what was inside. The object inside wasn’t exactly a gift I welcomed. And this changed everything I had planned for the evening. Inside the box was a chastity device, made of black leather that had small gold detailing along the seams. A single gold lock rested at the waistband. The key rested beside the belt. I knew if I didn’t wear it, he would give me a worse punishment than before. I had no choice. I was adding this to the ever-growing list of ‘ridiculous things I do for S.H.E.I.L.D’.

I glanced at the underwear I had on the bed and sighed. I’d have to change it to fit with the theme of the chastity belt. So much for looking delicate tonight. I rifled through my underwear selection and found a PVC bra with matching gloves and stockings. I’d do my hair up in a high ponytail and go for darker makeup. I pulled the chastity device out and gasped at the latest discovery. Whilst most chastity devices denied any form of pleasure or entrance, this one came with a medium sized dildo attached to the inner crotch area. He wanted me to be filled, to be ready for him. I sighed, that would be the last thing I put on in that case. I got myself ready doing my makeup and hair first before changing into the PVC set. I looked at myself in the mirror, I looked good. I just would have looked better if I could have put on the lacier set, I had picked out earlier. I adjusted my collar before opening another supply drawer. I found lube and slicked up the chastity’s belts dildo. I was into kinky shit sure…but I never thought I’d ever be doing something as ridiculous as this.

I put my feet through the two holes of the chastity belt and pulled it up my legs. The head of the dildo pressed against my entrance and I took a deep breath before pushing it into me. I bit my lip at the feeling, I shouldn’t be actually enjoying this, yet I was. Once the belt was secure around my hips, I locked it with the key and made sure to put it in a safe place. I glanced at the clock, ten minutes and he should be here. I gave myself one last look over, adjusting anything that look even slightly out of place. Another knock at my door and I got myself into position, kneeling on the floor. As I knelt the dildo shifted a little, making me bite my lip again. There was an ache slowly growing between my legs. Loki entered the room, not wearing his usual robes. He was dressed in black suit trousers, a white shirt that was unbuttoned a little with the sleeves rolled up to his forearms, his black tie hung loosely around his neck. Oh fuck. I didn’t think he could look so good in Midgardian clothes. He seemed pleased by my choice of underwear and the chastity belt. He produced something from his pocket and secured it to the ring on my collar. A leash. “Come,” he instructed.

He opened my bedroom door and began to lead me out into the hall. I swallowed hard, my cheeks burning. He expected me to go out there, dressed like this for anybody to see. This was humiliating. And they’d see the chastity belt, they’d know that I was plugged. I forced myself on to all fours and crawled by his side. Every movement of my legs caused the dildo to shift more and more. I whined from the pleasure, hoping it wasn’t too loud. Loki looked down at me with a soft smirk as he’d heard how desperate I sounded. Thankfully there was nobody else around, everyone seemed to be in their rooms or elsewhere. Loki led me to the throne room, pausing once we were inside. “Heel,” he ordered. I paused, sitting back so my legs were tucked under me. He unclipped the leash and walked to his throne, sitting down. I waited for another instruction before moving. “Crawl to me,” Loki directed. I got back onto all fours and decided to make a show of it, sticking my hips up and out before slowly making my way to him. I reached him and knelt between his legs. I waited…and waited…why wasn’t he saying anything?

Finally he broke the silence, “have I been good to you?” “Yes, my king.” “Have I given you pleasure?” “Yes, my king.” “Have I given you rules and a schedule to follow?” “Yes, my king.” “Are they difficult rules? Do you find them hard to follow?” “No, my king.” He considered my answers for a few moments before leaning forward in his throne and looking down at me with slight disgust. “Then why did you break them two weeks ago?” He hissed. I went to answer but he cut me off quickly. “Because your selfish. Because you think its perfectly acceptable to make demands and use your king for your own personal gain. You may refer to me as master or sir, but I can see in your eyes it has no meaning to you. Today that will change, today you will understand what it means to be mine. That whilst I bring you pleasure; I can just as easily take it away. Do you understand?”

“Yes, my king.” “Did you touch yourself at all over the last two weeks or did you start to learn self-control?” “I didn’t, my king,” it was the truth. “Good. And you wore the chastity device like I asked. It suits you well. Does it feel good to have your hole filled?” “Yes, my king but its nothing compared to you.” He chuckled at the compliment, “perhaps next time I’ll have both your holes plugged.” Loki unbuttoned his trousers and pulled down the zipper before pulling his cock from his boxers. He stroked it a few times, getting it fully hard. I licked my lips without realizing earning another soft chuckle from him. “Two weeks without pleasure and you’ll do just about anything for me, wont you?” He asked. “Yes, my king.” “Understand that I don’t just let any slave pleasure me, serving your master is a gift, just like being served by a faithful slave is also a gift.”

I nodded my understanding, unable to take my eyes off his cock. A bead of precum sat at the head of his cock, practically begging to be licked off. I forced my gaze back to his, swallowing thickly. “May I please suck your cock, my king?” I asked, adding to the scenario. I knew it would get him going. He nodded once, “hands behind your back.” I did as he asked before leaning forward and licking up from the base of his cock to the head, catching the drop of precum on my tongue. Whilst normally I would continue to tease, now was not the time for that. It would likely get me into trouble so I took him as far as I could, sucking eagerly. He made a small sound but mostly stayed composed. Loki grabbed hold of my ponytail, using it to guide me up and down his cock. “I appreciate this, makes things easier if I want to fuck your throat,” he gave a sharp tug on my ponytail.

I moaned around his cock at the way my scalp tingled. I noticed the small shudder that ran through him as I moaned around his cock. “Do you think you can take more? I’d like you to be able to take all of it if you can,” Loki asked. His emotions were confusing, one minute he was scalding me for bad behaviour, the next he suddenly cared about my wellbeing. It was going to get exhausting being pulled back and forth like that. I relaxed myself and took all of him, choking a little. His breathing was heavier, and he let out a barely audible groan. I continued trying to take all of him the best I could. I went down again, Loki holding me there for a little while as I choked on his cock. I suppose the tightness of my throat felt good around the head of his cock. Eventually he let me come back up for air, pulling me off his cock with a string of spit connecting my tongue and the head of his cock. “Good girl, you take me very well,” Loki praised, “focus on your body, is the chastity belt becoming too much? Do I need to remove it?” It didn’t hurt if that’s what he meant. I felt stretched and full still. And there was the growing ache for real pleasure but other than that I was okay. “Its fine, my king,” I answered. “You will tell me if it becomes too much, won’t you?”

I nodded and Loki motioned for me to stand up. I got to my feet on slightly shaky legs. I wasn’t thinking of my own pleasure at this point, I was more focused on his and my body was responding to it. “Undress for me…you may leave the gloves on,” he spoke. I glanced down at my gloves. I was surprised he hadn't asked about them yet. But I was happy he respected my decision to leave them on without question. I didn’t want to ruin this mission by showing him my scars and scaring him off. Besides that wasn’t the only secret I needed to keep from him. I removed my bra and stockings slowly and methodically. He couldn’t hide the way he looked at me, how hungry he looked for me, how much he desired me. It made me feel good about myself, I don’t think I’d ever been desired by a man so much. I was always either too skinny, my breasts were too small, I looked too goth. But none of that seemed to matter to him. “Come, sit,” he motioned to his lap. I straddled him, keeping my hands to myself even though I wanted to touch him. But I had to show I was responding well to reconditioning.

“You’ve done very well. I’m impressed. You shall be rewarded for your obedience, providing you can continue to keep your hands to yourself. Touch me and there will be no reward,” he explained. I nodded showing I understood. I put my hands back behind my back, determined to please him. Loki pinched my chin between his thumb and forefinger and pulled me into a kiss. I made a small sound, seemingly having missed his lips on mine. Perhaps I had. Perhaps I had missed his touch, his devotion. Whilst I was slave and he was my master there were times he made me feel like a goddess, where he worshiped me like the sun. Loki continued to kiss me, taking it slow and enjoying it. Perhaps he had missed it too. Eventually he moved down to my neck, kissing above and below the collar. His trail of kisses continued down to my collar, my shoulders and my chest. My skin was tingling, welcoming his devotion. My nipples had already hardened and he hadn't even put his hands on me. I was panting, my chest heaving as I was starting to lose it. I needed more; I’d been so wound up for so long that my body craved release more than anything.

All I could do was whimper and whine, hoping he would give me more. Loki smirked against my skin, he knew how bad I wanted more, what effect he was having on me. I grabbed my wrists, making sure I didn’t try and touch him no matter how badly I wanted too. Loki grabbed my throat with one hand to hold me in place as his head dipped down a little lower, now teasing my breasts with his lips. I moaned at the pressure against my throat, arching into his touch. I felt myself clench around the dildo; I wasn’t sure how much more I could take. Finally Loki used more than just his lips to pleasure me. His tongue gently ran across my hardened peak, forcing a loud needy moan from me. Whilst normally that gentle of a touch would have only earned a soft moan from me, now with being denied his touch and my own release for so long it felt like heaven. His free hand slid lower, stroking across my belly but not daring to go any lower. I’m sure he could feel my stomach muscles fluttering under his touch. He took my nipple in his mouth, sucking on the small nub. He moaned against my skin, my eyes falling shut as I succumbed to this delicious torture. I dug my fingers into my wrists as my hands itched to grab fistfuls of his hair.

He switched, giving the other nipple some attention. He grazed his teeth over the sensitive bud, my hips involuntary bucking. The hand stroking over my stomach went lower now teasing my inner thighs. I thought I might go mad from this; he was so close to where I needed him most yet so far. My thighs were twitching and quivering under his touch and I was clenching more and more. I thought I might cry if I didn’t get release soon. Loki began to play with the waistband of the chastity belt before I felt a soft clicking sound of the lock unlocking. I almost sobbed in relief. With a little difficulty due to the position he gently pulled the chastity belt from me, the dildo dragging against my walls before finally it was released. It was completely soaked in my juices not that Loki paid it much attention as he dropped it to the floor carelessly. He released his hold on my throat to grip my hip, his other hand wrapped around the base of his cock as he lined himself up with me. “You may touch me now, and I’d hold on tight if I were you,” he warned.

He could fuck me within an inch of my life, and I wouldn’t care so long as he made me cum. I grabbed his shoulders before he pushed me down onto his cock. He slipped in easily, soon buried deep in my warm wet cunt. We both moaned at the contact, mine much louder, however. God, he felt so fucking good inside me, was it possible to miss this feeling? Because I felt that I had. Loki didnt need to give me time to adjust, both hands now gripping my hips as he fucked up into me hard. Anybody outside the throne room would surely hear my cries of pleasure. The pace was fast and rough, but it felt so fucking good. I threw my head back, my nails digging into his shoulders though his shirt. His nails bit into my hips, likely leaving little crescent shaped marks. I was too far gone to care about how loud and needy I sounded. I clenched around him as I started to get closer to my much-needed climax. Loki growled out his pleasure, one hand going between my legs to thumb at my clit. It didn’t take much and I was screaming his name as I reached my climax. He drew every last wave from me, my whole-body tingling from the pleasure.

I went limp against him, completely spent and exhausted. But it had been so worth it. He stopped the pace, stroking my hair and back. Loki didn’t rush me to move, he let me come down from my high first. I didn’t think I’d be able to move for a while anyway. “You did so well. I’m so proud of you,” he whispered his praise. I smiled softly; my eyes heavy. Eventually he helped me off his cock and into a more comfortable position, almost laying across his lap. Loki tucked himself away before he picked me up, carrying me like a small child out of the throne room. I buried my head in his chest. He placed me down on soft silken sheets, most likely my bed before laying down next to me. I snuggled up to him, making a soft sound of contentment. He continued to give me praise, whilst stroking my hair again. “Do you need anything?” He asked. I shook my head, clinging to him tighter, “just you.” “I’m not going anywhere. Rest.” I closed my eyes once more, unable to keep them open much longer. The more he stroked my hair the more tired I became. Eventually I drifted off to sleep, I’m sure he’d be gone by the time I woke up.

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