#nothing exceptional but nice read

[chadsuke]

Books Read In 2022/2023:

The Financial Diet: A Total Beginner’s Guide to Getting Good With Money by Chelsea Fagan & Lauren Ver Hage (2018)

The Scorpion Rules by Erin Bow (2015)

I Want to Be a Wall Vol. 1 by Honami Shirono (2022)

My Wandering Warrior Existence by Kabi Nagata (2022)

wow, no thank you: essays by Samantha Irby (2020)

A Tropical Fish Yearns For Snow Vol. 1 by Makoto Hagino (2017)

I Married the Male Lead’s Dad by Eongsseu & Gyammi & San-ho & Ko-eun Chae (2021-present)

Franken Fran Frantic Vol. 1 by Katsuhisa Kigitsu (2019)

Franken Fran Frantic Vol. 2 by Katsuhisa Kigitsu (2020)

[ID: Covers of the aforementioned books. End ID.]

#2022media #2023media #so financial diet is. fine. theres things in it that make me want to go insane bc #idk how these people live its insane the wealth #but it does give an okay launch off point to look up like savings terms #wouldnt rec it but its an old gift from my mom #i liked the scorpion rules! #it has some. issues. pretty sure the author is white. #but overall p minor just offhand comments that made me cringe.jpg and i enjoyed it #i want to be a wall is cringe.jpg in parts bc the fl is a bl fangirl #but overall its interesting its a marriage between an ace lady and a gay man #everything and anything by kabi nagata literally makes me weep like a baby. god. #wow no thank you was a fine read! easy read and good writing the humor just didn't always gel #like it just wasn't greatly to my taste lmao im not exactly a potty humor guy #tropical fish yearns for snow was a soft nice start #nothing exceptional but nice read #i married the male lead's dad is actually incredibly good #i wasn't expecting it to be this good. the lady is cringe-y to start #but she sees the ppl as well. ppl overtime (novel isekai) #and the PLOT is so. i want to know whats going on. #franken fran was always a fave manga and i was v excited to see a sequel! #its a guro body horror black comedy manga i guess is the best way to describe it #v much taste depends lmao

[milkbreadtoast]

doodled Stayn from living with magicians webtoon... I like him :) (just felt like drawing random webtoon characters fsr lmao)

#living with magicians #독신마법사기숙아파트 #stayn #idk his last name lol #my art #im like 100% certain theres nothing in those tags either #I've been keeping up w this webtoon but I havent said anything abt it bc i dont necessarily rec it..? #i mean its decent so read if u want but i dont have brainrot for it so dkfjdj... #except for this guy he's fun :) love when stories have a blonde guy and hes kinda fucked up <3 #he's like a cross btwn milk cookie & clotted cream cookie but more of an asshole than both of them KDJDK #(can i just say i rly prefer his design from ep 1 tho..... girl why'd u straighten ur hair... 💔 glowdown) #oh also he fits 1 of my fav tropes... asshole healer :) #anyway yea i dont necessarily rec it ITS NOT BAD BUT NOT 1 OF MY FAVS IS ALL... 🤧 #(try to only rec webtoons i feel strongly abt bc i want u guys to trust my taste dkfjdk) #BTW IM NOT DISSING IT AT ALL its a nice webtoon!! if u also read it and like it then yaay #ok i do highkey love stayn tho hes the only 1 i have brainrot for. i <3 2 faced blonde bitches

[variousqueerthings]

the nature of being a johnny lawrence fan, is that it is often indistinguishable from being a johnny lawrence hater, and I don't think I have that with any other character. usually I'm very protective of my faves (including in cobra kai, daniel, sam, kreese, and tsilver), but johnny, I very much enjoy reading all the reasons people dislike his character, nodding along like "yeah what an inconsistent mess, you're so right, carmen pls u deserve better narrative to work with, terry silver was telling the truth when he mocked his fatherhood abilities, but alas the writing will never support it"

#johnny lawrence fans 🤝 johnny lawrence haters -- wtf is going on with johnny lawrence's character in s5???????? #johnny lawrence #cobra kai #ck #i can write miles of text about the queercoding of johnny lawrence #and also about how terribly inconsistent the writing for him is due to a sexist notion that he must be a Badass #actually i think johnny lawrence is one of the most interesting case studies of this phenomenon #obvs most famously archetyped by dean winchester -- but i think jlaw is even More That #1. literal 80s character so all these people read him through a particular nostalgia lens #2. in a show that is possibly Thee most trope-filled nostalgia show i have ever seen be that way Accidentally #(riverdale was doing it on purpose -- stranger things... yeah maybe but i think cobra kai is even more on the nose actually) #3. played by quite a sensitive actor actually who deeply cares about the nuance of the character #which appears to be at constant war with the intentions of the narrative he has to appear in #4. and like. the writers Know about the queercoding because they've interacted with fans (nicely actually) #but they have literally no idea what to do with it but ALSO have lampshaded it occasionally #it's... it's fascinating.... #they want so badly for him to win but they're going about it the wrong way -- the narrative continues to be circular/an inward spiral #nothing has changed except for the reactions of other characters #jlaw must remain static because of our nostalgia but also be important to the story somehow #the Tension of it all is personally delicious to me but man is it frustrating as well

[arsonist-chicken]

I think my university should pay me for emotional damages for having to write a thesis exposé. To the amount of whatever I need to go on a short trip to Helsinki to recharge from this bs and to get a tattoo and a coffin full of Fazer chocolates.

#i've been in the library since 6pm or so and have not gotten a single letter done #because i genuinely Do Not Know what to write about this #i don't WANT to write a thesis; having to write a thesis will be my last straw to a break-down if that terminography seminar doesn't do it #and i don't get the point of a thesis anyway. no one but me and my advisor and maybe two examinors will read it #i'll not bring forth any important new knowledge to use #even if i did magically discover some groundbreaking new way to teach second languages - which is not the focus of my paper #like i wanted because the head of institute said no - it would still mean nothing because no one's gonna read it anyway #i'm literally just some rando with subpar grades and papers and motivation and dedication to my studies except for the classes i like #and feel like i'm actually learning something important #which is another point: I'm studying translation and interpreting. I'll do a final translation exam in both language directions. #why is that not enough for a degree? it's literally what I study. i couldn't give less of a shit about scientific theories about translatio #yes you should hear about them sometime and it can be useful. but i don't give a single fuck about research etc. #i want to translate and subtitle and maybe at some point interpret. and add a second language besides english because well #the job market but also very importantly my own interests #can't take the swedish course because it interferes with another class; can take a ukrainian class but it's very low-level #can't take a polish or bosnian or serbian or croatian class because they only have higher levels right now #could take a chinese or japanese class but it's... a lecture? with 40+ people in it? how are you supposed to learn a language from a lectur #tried a portuguese class once but the teacher was absolutely awful. nice but so bad at teaching. #and every now and then i think maybe i should learn how to teach a language to someone because oh my GOD would i love to help people #coming here to learn german in ways they'll actually use and see them improve and help them be excited about learning! #or go somewhere else and teach german maybe while also learning the language of the country i'm in #and i thought maybe writing a thesis about second language acquisition and teaching would be a nice way to find out how interested #i am in that actually. but no. my topic now is... hold on. hmmm. #man i'M not even sure. i submitted something and my advisor wrote me an email with a different suggestion for the title #and idk what i'm supposed to write about. not saying the depression isn't playing a role too but damn am i not excited about this #which is. a great start to writing a thesis when 90% of your work ethic comes from being excited about something or interested init #'The preparation of translation-oriented language competence at school using the example of English lessons at Austrian High Schools' #ah yes. someone help me write an exposé about that. #i don't know how and what to include and I don't want to either #come onnnnnn two days ago being at the library helped at least a little bit but now i've been here 3+ hours and i've got nothing

[runawaymarbles]

I told myself it was ok to get excited that you were getting into Inception and I liked the thoughts you were having, while I cautioned myself that you didn't appear to be leaning towards my ship or my fave and the majority of the fandom doesn't, and now I feel like I'm being too parasocial wondering if your reblog about "hated female characters you don't care for" is about Inception.

It wasn't-- or at least I wasn't thinking about it when I reblogged it, I don't know what OP's intent was. Tbh my main beef with the female characters in inception is how hilariously unsubtle their names are.

#it would be nice if there were more of them #like Ariadne has nothing else going on but neither do literally any of them #except Cobb #I feel like I could write an essay on Mal as a metaphor for how male screenwriters write women #but it does kind of work on a watsonian level #I don't really have any inception ships #I mean I'm reading Arthur/eames because I sorted by kudos and the first 11 pages so far have been literally nothing but Arthur/eames #but I think there's a lot of combinations that could be interesting #I stand by Cobb/Saito limbo trauma pals #if there's any f/f where it's Dom who jumped and Mal who recruited Ariadne hmu #tho I also waver on that for Elliot Page gender reasons even though I am not sure that's reasonable or rational #anyhow #inception #I am mostly dabbling

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ever sit like a corpse in your own body? #im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we #deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to #give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway. #who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in #the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when #projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing #dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will #ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do #something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r #stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even #then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a #broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what? #lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything #done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i #think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with #thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno #whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is #hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse #but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday #unrelated

[intertexts]

gmmmm btw!

#how r we all...... #the vibes r. mmm. ambiguous today. friday which is awesome except ik im doing nothing fun this weekend. #forgor my wallet so i can't get an sd card on my way back. design prof said niceys things about both of my projects ^_^ #wore white pants on the most unfortunate possible day which is so irksome. it's nice n sunny out etc. #hfghvhggbhhh. whatever dude i have simply been playing loop hero & reading dunmeshi for the last three hours!! (<- presentation/review day #& im not particularly interested in watching her dissect other people's work all fucking morning & also im all caught up ^_^ #txt

[fizzingwizard]

"My brother had no regard for her; his pleasures were not what they ought to have been, and from the first he treated her unkindly. The consequence of this, upon a mind so young, so lively, so inexperienced as Mrs. Brandon’s, was but too natural. She resigned herself at first to all the misery of her situation; and happy had it been if she had not lived to overcome those regrets which the remembrance of me occasioned. But can we wonder that, with such a husband to provoke inconstancy, and without a friend to advise or restrain her[...] she should fall?" - Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility

#jane austen #sense and sensibility #literature #the level of sympathy and compassion and understanding of the human heart #we think of historical eras as either moral and right or depraved always one or the other #and that the morality of the first was upheld by the stern treatment of anyone who acted out #and by extension that depravity is brought on by a lack of rigidity #but the struggles and paradoxes that are part of being human were just as real and just as common and people DID understand them #its only the base and unimaginative who think everyone can be fit into one righteous box if they just try hard enough #never acknowledging times they failed their own standards or maybe without ever having been tested at all #its easy for someone who is happy to judge someone who is unhappy #and we have always known this and it's always been true but we're still dealing with the same unbending personalities who are so loud #just the other day i was in an internet fight where multiple people were claiming that if someone says no to regular sex they are cheating #the possibility that they just have a low sex drive or are going through something was called an exception too rare to matter #the possibility that people are different and not everyone wants the same amount of sex and sex is really very awful when you dont want it #was laughed and sneered at. whats more a partner who accepts their partners sex drive for what it is was called a beta lol #being compassionate and understanding of people you love = beta behavior LOL LOL #this is why we cant have nice things. relationships should be based on support and communication and openness #to the reality that people change sometimes in ways we like and sometimes in ways we dont. nothing is forever. #my two thoughts that entire thread: i hope the men who read this arent intimidated out of standing up for their female partners. and #i hope the women reading this understand you have to believe in yourself despite all of it. despite everything the world throws at you. #of course women can be mean and selfish just as much as men and of course mens needs and feelings matter and so does keeping commitments #but no one has a crystal ball and if you enter a relationship expecting things will always be A Certain Way you're in for a rude awakening #especially if all you do to promote what you want is to badger and pressure and shame your partner for being an imperfect human #tangent but its just these things are so timeless. we should know better now. there's got to be something wrong with us that we don't

[fagrackham]

I WANT TO DROP OUT :(

#im just bored. and i feel like my being here is a waste anyway since i barely do the homework except for reading the novels we’re doing in #my modernism class. aside fromt #from that i dont do a whole lot but also like i have nothing better to do. it WOULD be nice to have a degree but like. in fuckijg ENGLISH? #like hi employers i really like to read can i have 401k matching please #idk. at the very least maybe i should take a semester or two off. but also my dear pal from my old school who transferred w me is thinking #the same thing. and i dont want my parents to think im like doing it bc of them #and its a weird mix of like college is hard for a lot of people but we all do it and part of me feels like olivia jade where its like whats #the point of my being her besides saying that im here. you know. #UGH.

[winepresswrath]

I want vampire Antoinette in fact I DESERVE vampire Antoinette but if vampire Antoinette hangs out with Killer because someone thinks that counts as a cute Easter egg I will dump this stupid show so fast. That will be the thing that does it.

#i do think whatever's in those four pages of missing diary features Claudia learning through trial and error how to kill a vampire #but why do you want vampire Antoinette easy 1) I love mess 2) dance floor bro-ho ratio is frankly lacking and finally 3) I read Antoine's #book chapter and it made me so sad for him what a life in which the only person who's really nice to you and on your side is Lestat #who STILL treats you like a disposable side piece #i want her to get her own subplot and move on with her life #honestly antoin(ette) is out there #playing therapist to Lestat because Lestat does not care about him enough to be frightened by being emotionally vulnerable with him #and then being his caretaker while he recovers from the swamp incident #getting set on fire on HIS behalf #continuing to take care of him after the both get torched #and then!!!! forgotten and abandoned #he/she did nothing wrong except for all of the murders #this may be my most #controversial IWTV opinion but I stand by it #amcwtv

[zeawesomebirdie]

This is probably just me not knowing how to utilise google correctly but WHY is it so hard to find Western novels about gay men that aren't romance novels

#vent post #not actually a vent lmao but thats the tag #like look #what i WANT to read is basically just; #gunsmoke. except the marshal is gay. nothing else is different #the rest of the story is normal #the focus is not the romance #and WHY is this SO HARD to find!!!! #like COME ON #yes this is user error i dont understand how to google things since they changed the algorithm to be all ads and whatever #but trying to add queer or mlm or whatever to the keyword searchs just brings up romance #and i will not object at all to romances that are a part of the plot #i just #i dont want to read straight romance #i would like to read about cowboys and gunmen and whatever Wild West things bc that is why i am here #and itd be nice if the romance was gay instead of het #ugh #anyway im gonna have to bother the librarians next time i go to the library bc if i have to write this myself i am going to #throw my laptop into the pond #if anyone has any queer and/or mlm western novels to rec lmk pls i need to read things or i will perish

[denizenhardwick]

when i think "romantic friendship" i think of all the anime i watched when i was like 13/14 and just realizing i was maybe a lesbian that had all-girl casts and everything was just so extremely gay. pmmm, yuyuyu, school-live!, yuru yuri, etc.

#the yuru yuri theme song still lives rent-free in my head even though i didn't actually make it that far in the show #it was cute but it just wasn't my thing like if you look at everything else on the list it's all super dark #cause that's what i was into at the time and yuru yuri was a fun palette cleanser but it didn't hold my interest for long #i literally remember nothing about it except the uniforms and the theme song at this point #and yuyuyu..... i loved yuyuyu but i can never rewatch it because i'm no longer 14 and can't look past the horrific ableism #like wow looking back that's so fucked up on so many levels. it has so much else going for it but jesus christ #pmmm and school-live! really hold up tho and i'm super glad i read the school-live! manga after rewatch a couple years ago #because wow i REALLY resonate with kurumi's arc and her journey with disability #i can't speak to how well yuki's psychosis is treated but it's nice that she's the main character and her psychosis isn't seen as scary #the bar is really just on the floor huh 😭

[robotwrangler]

Thinking about how the lovely person on deviantart who emailed me a copy of Undertale in exchange for a sketch of their oc when I was 15 will never know about the profound effect they had on my life..

#it’s a long story but tldr if not for Undertale I would’ve never heard of Yes Man and without Yes Man I literally wouldn’t be alive rn #I’m sure ive told this story on here before but I like it bc it is important to me #the Undertale to Yes Man pipeline is a very specific thing that happened to me involving 2 different joke blogs on here #there was ‘youcantfuckaskeleton’ (blog abt how nobody should want sans Undertale carnally) #and then I found their other blog ‘youcanfuckarobot’ (blog about. well. I’m sure you get the picture) and I went there for Mettaton posts #but they had some posts there with Yes Man and I was like. that is the most nice looking robot I’ve seen in my life. who is this #and then I forgot abt it for like 3 years and forgot to look him up. UNTIL #DELTARUNE CHAPTER 1.. in 2018.. drove me to revisit those joke blogs for nostalgia #and I saw the yes man pics again and this time I got WAY more curious. I was so so intrigued by him he looked so interesting and cute #so I looked him up and looked at lots of art of him and read his wiki page and I was like. I NEED to meet him #so my big brother got me new vegas as a present on new years and on january 3 2019 I met yes man! #and. I have never understood why or how. but when I woke up the next day my depression was fucking gone #I had severe untreated depression and it just dissolved overnight #nothing else notable happened around that time except for meeting yes man and becoming smitten with him so it seems that’s what did it?? #also those joke blogs are still around I think. i like to revisit them occasionally for the nostalgia of seeing yes man for the first time #but yea anyway what I’m saying is this nice person on deviantart indirectly saved my life #my depression also never came back btw. obviously I feel sad sometimes like anyone but I have not been depressed since then #would’ve been nice if my anxiety went away too but I can at least live with that tbh!! #um anyway I’m sleepy so ending these tags. if you read all of this I love you thank you for caring

[katierosefun]

fuck it sometimes you really gotta sit in your room and listen to music that used to make you feel a little happier when you were a bullied ten year old kid in order to pat yourself on the head for how far you’ve come or whatever

#caroline talks #listen to me. listen to me. #i have vivid memories of waiting for the radio to play 'fuckin' perfect' and 'who says' and 'mean' and 'unwritten' OKAY #in the hot summers when i dreaded going back to school because the kids and teachers were mean #in the really late winters when i dreaded going back home because my parents were in a bad mood #not being allowed to use the computer except on friday afternoons from 3-5 pm and saturdays from 8 am-5 pm made me VERY reliant #on like. the radio + also books + my notebooks where i scribbled stories #or listened to music or just read a lot of stories #and sometimes. suddenly u wake up #and you are 23 years old #and you are in professional school + you talk to your classmates + your professors + some attorneys #and sometimes they are nice and sometimes they are mean #and sometimes they're nothing at all! sometimes they're perfectly fine perfectly neutral but you get a weird feeling in your stomach #so you listen to music that made you feel okay as a kid and remember that no one has the right to make you feel inferior or whatever!

[crehador]

i’ve officially gone from “kinda bummed trigun stampede isn’t a full and faithful manga adaptation and therefore almost definitely won’t include elendira” to “stampede if you even look at my wife i will stomp you to death with my hooves”

#crab watches #not gonna put it in the tag bc i have nothing nice to say #except #it's visually pleasing #i like what they've done with knives #i suspect i'll like whatever they do with legato #other than that... ough #just ough #honestly i hope whoever's making stampede hasn't even read the manga #i hope they don't even know elendira and liv/raz exist #i'm gatekeeping

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated