#now i feel like a dumbass for posting

[heyitsmemel]

hi hello gals and gays. Here is a rare wav from me struggling with the flu. The virus has mainly been in my chest but my entire body is so wrecked I was able to induce super easily. No talking bc I’m literally unable to 😭 Do not listen if you can't stand harsh coughing because it gets a bit rough. If it sounds a bit weird the first half of the recording is from yesterday and the second half is from today, bc the coughing is so much worse in the second half lmao. Ok that's it thankkk you for feeding me so good lately tumblr love u all <3

also personal rant about ableism and intentional contagion in the comments :///

#ok like I haven't been this sick in literal years and cuz im disabled i'm super mindful of spreading germs to others. #and i've had some family staying with me so I was like great leave me here to rot in my cave guys #my partner has been rlly attentive and is like i don't care about germs tehe so yesterday he comes into my room #and gives me a bunch of kisses on my head then swoops in and kisses me ON THE MOUTH #like im sorry i've been lying in a pool of feverish sweat for days and can hardly breathe what part of that makes someone go ooo gimme? #like ya hes just trying to love me but i put so much effort into being clean and now i will feel really guilty when he gets sick #sorry not sorry intentional contagion is not cute or sexy at all its just irresponsible #like i would love to live the life where my body works so well that I don't give a second thought to KISSING someone with the flu #i just feel like able bodied people never think about what its like living with a disability or a chronic illness #or have the slightest inclination of how privileged they are #my partner isn't even a fetishit he is just a dumbass #but ya i just wish he and the general population would think more :/ #snzblr #snz #illness kink #snzfucker #snz wav #snzzzzz #snz blog #anyway thats all do what u want with my horn post

[ganondoodle]

as cool as their design is im really starting to dislike the sonau in general, aside from their stuff suddendly being everywhere and everything being about them and how cool(tm) they are now with the mystery stone turning people into dragons and the similarities between the sonau and the three dragons (naydra, eldra, farodra) its actually not an impossibility that they used to be sonaus as alot of people have been theorizing about ..but ...... idk that would very much ruin their otherwordly yet ethereal mystery to me

i probably sound like some hater whos trying to find something more to dislike about totk all the time but i promise im not!!

the three dragons being some unexplained mystery, beings that are there yet few can see them, timeless, nigh untouchable, they dont act on anything, they dont talk, something about them has always made me look at them in awe; if it turned out they were just yet another cool(tm) sonau guy that ate a stone ... :/

not a fan of that one lads, but dont worry, i will keep my thoughts to myself from now on, i dont want to ruin other peoples fun nor seem like i just hate everything ... the three dragons are just really important to me so i had to say something

#ganondoodles talks #tloz #totk #totk spoilers #totk spoiler #besides i have leanred that i tend to have the unpopular opinions and frankly im tired of the hate directed at me #if you disagree thats fine but please dont spam me with why you think its cool actually #bc it just feels like yet another argument starting as to why im wrong and need to be talked down to and also suck actually #sorry its been all over my timeline on twitter so i just had to throw my dumbass opinion out there again #and it was a few times more than id like in a row where my random thought posts where torn apart by arguing people needing to prove im wron #the dragons where something i just absolutely loved in botw #they hold a special place in my heart and i dont like the thought of them too being just yet another sonau thing #i feel more secure posting my thoughts here than on twitter #but still i dont want to sound overly negative so i will hold back from now on #unless im exhausted and overly tired and not feeling that great physically like right now i guess lol #ill just have to grit my teeth and try to ignore everything i dont like but everyone else loves like always #anyway i need some sleep #ill be fine after that i think #and then try to resume work on destiny and a commission i havent had the energy to get to

[oneway-closet]

nah bc the weight of the crazy together scene. the subtle coding of “no one seems to be able to understand me but you” with the both of them. will feels like mike is the only person who he can really talk to about what’s happening / the only one who won’t coddle him about it and vice versa. sometimes characters are just so made for each other they make me wanna cry

#byler #miwi #i feel like all i make is dumbass posts now but i'm also like 100 days behind because of my long break so wtv #goodnight

[moregraceful]

what jersey did you purchase today??

THEY GOT ME WITH THE GAME WORN CRISCUOLO JERSEY MAN 😭 IT WAS SO EXPENSIVE AND IT'S NOT EVEN SIGNED 😭😭

shit won't even fit i bet, that man was the size of a grain of rice and weighed less than my dog. this org has my balls in a fucking vice

#you guys know how i only wear the john leonard jersey to sharks games bc it was such an ill-advised purchase? me with this crisco jersey #the cuda should be paying ME money. i MAKE them money. by POSTING #i'm sure i make some equally normal purchase of a cvf jersey i can't wear anywhere later this week too. i'm so sure 😭 tf is wrong with me #which btw. downloading every single podcast on the face of the planet for this roadtrip knowing full well what's gonna happen is #i am gonna listen to 5 minutes of a locked on sharks episode and get ripshit mad at jdy and spend the next 7.25 hours listening to #spotify's tropical house playlist while carefully crafting the most dumbass notfic about environmental conservation #which is what always happens when i have to drive by myself for long periods of time #AND BTW. RE: CRISCO JERSEY. THIS ONLY HAPPENED BECAUSE I WAS MAD AT ONE JOB AND THEN RECEIVED A VERY ANNOYING TEXT MESSAGE FROM ANOTHER JOB #AND THEN THE ORG EMAILED. STEF GOT ME IN A VULNERABLE MOMENT. I WAS DYSREGULATED!!! I WAS NOT MYSELF!!!! #the best part is the sharks proshop called me this morning like hey your simmer jersey is ready. i was like oh yay :) <3 UNKNOWING......... #all three of my jobs made me so exhausted today guys it just never ends #but then it's like well. if i didn't have three jobs. i couldn't make insanely stupid purchases either #so even though i burned out so hard i feel dead inside a lot of the time. at least i can create THE most baffling sharkuda jersey collectio #where was i going with this. oh right. mackblack win tn schedule that selena gomez lockdown starting NOW #cage replies #tausendsorgen #LESA

[kinokoshoujoart]

note: “69” is the word “rock” written in goroawase (substitution of letters for homophonic numbers) so it’s not uncommon to see him called 69 by jp users…

“the young lady” = lumina. (the “he” saying interesting things is rock. the other “he” is an insertion…)

taelwoo = they wrote teilou and this got auto translated funny

i wanted to spotlight these posts by twitter user wl_mihaya who has consistently neat writings regarding wonderful life’s characters

somehow i read this as Wada and Matsuyama showed the writing team the reference sheet again like “Look at this irredeemable debauchee. This spoilt summer child, this pampered prodigal prince who has tasted not the bitterness of life. This libertine, this chaud lapin. Coasting on the coattails of his well-to-do family in his obnoxiously baggy clothes. Disgusting. Good-for-nothing worthless son. Into the Romance Scenarios with him.”

AnWL’s NPC to tumblrsexyman conversion pipeline scenario writing department: “ok got it boss🫡(ohhhhhh what a tragic little meow meow 🥺 are you guys even seeing this. isn’t he just the most heartachingly aware of how pathetic he is yet utterly determined to carry on this pretense of confidence. let’s secretly make him wet and pathetic and impossibly stupid and so very Adopted)”

#queue tea pie #this is canon to me now #this would genuinely explain everything about his character change between awl and anwl #it’s bizarre to remember that rock being stupid was added for anwl #in awl he was just shallow but anwl transformed him into the dumbass king we know and love #i’m always nervous every time i translate stuff myself because. idk what if i inject bias. what if someone asks why it isn’t exactly #i especially don’t want to inject bias into someone’s twitter post so instead i just . leave the machine translation alone because #in my head that’s the Neutral choice #it’s still so incredible to me that this characters name accidentally perfectly fit him #SOMEONE at marvelous decided to include a number of extremely unnecessary physical facts about rock so. it feels like they still wanted him #i’m still mad that i went snooping in the dialogue files hoping for answers about his past and instead found out how much the writers #pondered his sweaty hairless surfer twink body and needed all of it to be canon information #i will NOT be elaborating at this time you don’t need to be hit with each round of psychic damage rapidfire like i was #trickle down rockonomics. because i care #rock tumbling (sos)

[jrueships]

tbh tho i think my art is fugly af LMFAO

#not in a '>w< eeeek! i wish i could drawww 🥺 i can only cobble such measle crap with my lowly peasant paws.. *unveils mona lisa*' #sense but like a my style makes me want to hurl whenever i look at it bcs it's a constant reminder that it can only be what i can make it be #and bcs it looks bad to me then that means i cant make things look good if u get my sense like #idk man 😭!! im just sick of being scribbly!! and not clean! i wanna ink my art! have crisp lines! dark lines!! #not have to put stupid darkening filters on everything bcs i cant color or shade so my art is just stuck with the blinding white background #well the frustration is more how i CAN color and shade.. i CAN ink my lines with a darker one #lets not excuse my laziness now cmon ted omg dumbass bitch #it's just that doing so makes me . crazy #my attention span like. crumbles when i try to add color or ink over lines bcs thats Such a commitment to me #i HATE leaving things unfinished when it seems so monumental #like unfinished sketches or prompts? fine. those are sketches. little prompts. even if u post it it's shit #but starting big things is a COMMITMENT.. with CONSEQUENCES ! ! i just want to avoid them ig #it's like im stuck between art being a fun lil past time and being a perfectionist actually so no. no it is not #but also i NEED to draw i NEED to write SOMETHING! SOMETHING!! then i realize the weight of things and purposefully hinder myself #then later hate myself for hindering even tho it felt so good and right in the beginning ORGHH or WHATEVER #idk one of my friends told me my style reminded them of the new tmnt movie (which has been praised yeah #for like beautiful ugliness tho) and like. i KNOW it's a compliment... but. why did it make me Feel 😭 like i wanted to rip my art 2 shreds #once i lined my art and my friend (an artist i admire) said smthin like 'omg finally! ted lined art! gorgeous!' #& i KNOW. I KNOW IT'S A COMPLIMENT. BUT WHY AM I THINKING LIKE. SO VIOLENT. NOT ABT THEM. BUT MY SHIT NOW #like UGHHH i just HATE feeling trapped and helpless when actually theres help available but im just DUM!! JUST LINE UR ART TED #art is like playing sport is like making good grades is like working well is like being a good friend is like being a good person #literally. just be GOOD. #it's all a performance to me ARGHARGH! I HATE THE JOKER! I HATE BEING CRINGE@! RAGGHH I HATE THIS SHIT #<- mfs when no basketball #mfw i cannot avoid enlightenment via the meaningless distractions i codepently craveRAGGHG!!!!!!1!

[heffrondriving]

soooo. that new big time rush album huh

#how we feeling today rushers (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ #also yes i've come back from the dead just to post abt this like. i owe this blog *this much* at least ykyk #anyway its like 3 in the morning here and ive just woken up after a vv long and exhausting day yesterday so this was a pleasant surprise :> #i haven't really listened to it in full yet bc idk adhd things but when the mood hits right y'all know i'll be VIBING #i never talked abt it but waves and can't get enough were great earworms so i'm excited to see how the rest of the songs will turn out #also hope everyone's doing well here on the btr side of tumblr hehe y'all been absolutely fed this year <3 #is this gonna be allen's 2k23 tumblr comeback??? nah prob not i'm too in love with the fooo conspiracy atm but hey maybe also who knows 👀 #(*heckler from the back of the audience* NO ONE CARES ABOUT U AND UR TRASH CONTENT IDIOT STFU FOREVER ACTUALLY!!!!!) #but yep. life has been fuck work has been a headache and so many unwanted tragic plot twists this year. but at least we got new btr lezzgo! #also happy pride month y'all!!! just saying this for absolutely no rhyme or reason related to this post at all wdym lmao ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯ #okay thats all promise i'll shush now and it's time for old grampa to disappear into the darkest recesses of the internet yet again hejdååå #btr #big time rush #another life #album #stop it forever #lmao i hardly remember my dumbass blog tags;;; it's for the best hdbfkgk

[bi-bats]

Why is writing so hard

#<- written by a dumbass who pushed out 50k words in one week and now doesn't understand why they're burnt out #BUT LIKE I SPEND SO MUCH TIME WRITING THAT MY SPARE TIME FEELS LIKE AN ABSOLUTE VOID #LIKE. WHAT DO I DO IF NOT WRITE??? #IM CROCHETING A SWEATER IG #anyways this post was sponsered by the 73 words of know yourself I wrote today 🤙

[rutadales]

I think my least favorite thing that happens in fandom spaces is how overly familiar people act towards you. Like whenever I get a post over 200 notes I have people making jokes in the tags that aren't like outright distressing or gross or anything but that just. idk! are jokes I would only make with people I know. Like "fuck you!" or "oh this is awful" or whatever that's done in a joking tone but it's still weird. You don't know me like that

And it's not so much a problem over here because we are so insular as a community so even if I don't know you guys by name or if we don't follow each other I still recognize the person commenting on my stuff. enough to almost certainly recognize the joking tone instantly and for that familiarity there to be warranted. we're not friends but it's like, yeah! I know this person they've been here forever. It's comfortable.

But in larger spaces that casual familiarity is gone. I've literally never interacted with you before. It's like if you overheard a conversation on the street and just walked in and started joking around with them like you knew them. it's uncomfortable!! and like yes obviously I'm looking for interactions when I post and tag things that's the whole point, so it is inherently different than say a private conversation being intruded on but djakfoofjf just don't act like you know someone you've literally never engaged with at all before.

#root talks #vent #delete later #like it's not the same feeling as when people are just telling me I'm a dumbass or a piece of shit #Like what happened when I first started posting in this neck of the woods #It's a different kind of ''oh I hate this'' #And it's not just clarity of intent here that's the issue #bc even though that absolutely factors into it if I got a tag that was like ''kys /j'' from a stranger I would hate that #we don't know each other!! #Just bc ur joking doesn't mean I'm going to be cool with that joke #and again tbc this doesn't happen on this blog #it keeps happening on my main tho and it's super fucking weird! #Post gets more than 100 notes? I am going to get weird comments #The anonymity online usually results in people not really reading this as a real person receiving ur messages #which I am not the first person to point that out #and I've also had this issue especially when I was younger! #It was something I had to grow out of and a social skill I had to develop #and even now I find myself constantly reminding myself a real human person is reading and responding back to me #a person with a job and cats. who is going to get groceries tomorrow or forgot to fill their car up with gas on their way home from work #like people with huge complex lives are typing to me and reading what I say so I have to think abt what I say! #Idk I'm just thinking abt this it's been a weird time

[forest-nature-7420]

realized earlier I’m back to feeling uncomfortable around someone because why the fuck you say that about me

like I don’t even wanna be around you, but like also I don’t care enough to have a convo because it’s not that deep but it is

#dumbass bitch #was typing out a long hashtag to defend this post but I really need to stop feeling like I need to defend my posts #from now on I post what I post and if it’s cryptic it’s cryptic #………let’s be real all the cryptic ones will still end up going on my private blog 😢 #love private forms but they also cause me infinite amounts of stress

[applepies-and-starlight]

Hi hi it's 1am here and the thoughts are Not Great so scroll past if you don't want to see the pettiest vent in your life 'k thanks ♡

So you know that post about me being scared about sharing my work if it isn't the popular opinion or anything generally commonly appealing? Yeah so as I was typing out the tags my brain threw a core memory at my face and went "you absolutely know why"

Anywau basically like, i was an undertale fan during the undertale renissance (is that how you spell it?) And i was fucking OBSESSED over glitchtale (until early season 2 + before camila was outed to be a shitbag) and thought glithtale was very very cool

Ankther thing is that i was a chronic deviantart scroller at the tjme (also on google images) and i love lovr loooooved looking at people's art

So i was like "hey i could do that too!" And started making fanart for glitchtale, specifically that final battle part where they're in The Orb™ in s1

I was doing it in school because at this point everyone was basically just hanging out (my elementary's system was 1st grade to 6th grade (i was... 5th grade iirc) And also had this weird systen where the younger half of elementary would go home 2 hours earlier than the older half (1pm), idk why) and like, because there was literally just 4 people here because small school, i showed my wip to the other 3 people present in the area

They made fun of it

Yeag,,

They made fun of. Basically Everything.

The thing that primarily stuck with me was how they teased about frisk's posing and the overall edginess of the piece, but mostly how frisk looked stypid (which, 1. Y'all play fnaf and brag that you're cool though kids you don't have room to talk; 2. It was The Orb™ fight,,, of course it was gonna be edgy,,,,)

It's somewhere in a landfill now, i threw it in the trash and never fished it out... probably decomposed by now, it's been 8 years (holy shit it's been 8 years)

I... think they apologized? Idk i just know they had a "wait shit no-" moment when i threw it in the trash but i was already mad about it so, yeag

Like... i like to say that it doesn't affect me that badly anymore but i'm pretty sure it still is? I literally can't look at my art anymore without thinking of how bad it looks compared to everyone else's and i also am physically unable to Not agree with others (i literally forced myself to hate homura akemi pmmm because a friend didn't see the nuance in her character and just relegated her to "bitch" lmao) and Good Lird i have crippling perfectionism because if 1 person hates it then everyone does right??? Lmao

Deadass nowadays i just can't bring myself to make or share any ideas or pick up anything creative because i HAVE to get it perfect in 1 go otherwise i'll be ridiculed for it; I'm Trying to outgrow these problems but it's jist So Dicking Hard akfjshdjdhr and it seriously doesn't help tjat there was a seperare (smaller) incident where i found one of my drawings crumpled on the floor by someone

Man i'm kinda fucked up am i?

#cw: vent #void screaming #not gonna bother correcting my grammar or spelling for this #too tired to do so lmaooooooooooooo #[this is a filler tag to make sure the rest of the tags are put under the read more button] #man i feel like i'm gonna cry lmao #i'm actually processing this by typing it out and now i just realize how fucked up it was #semi-unrelated but did you know i tried to make art for a teacher by tracing over someone else's art? #it's kinda goofy tbh #iiii also have a tendency to get anxious and obsessively check for a response once i post something... #probably also a byproduct of the incident #who knows #my dumbass is defined by people kicking me around #sooo yeah.

[orbdotexe]

the temptation to make Exile ALSO be Crow/Wolf grows in strength every moment i think about it (please i had a horrible idea and it is 4am just kill me)

#Cayde Lives! Crow and Cayde get along! #usually that's a good thing in Destiny AUs! it means everything's OKAY!!! #not FUCKING here #We got: WOLF IS IN EXILE AND MISERABLE AND PROBABLY WANTING TO JUST D I E ALREADY #CAYDE IS ALSO MISERABLE AND CONFINED TO THE TOWER BECAUSE EVERYONE THINKS THEY'RE ACTUALLY PROTECTING HIM #CROW IS PITIED BY EVERYONE BC THEY THINK HE'S JUST ANOTHER VICTIM! AND HE'S MISERABLE BECAUSE NOW HE'S HAVING TO REPLACE WOLF AS HERO #THE VANGUARD IS EMOTIONALLY DISTANT FROM CROW BC HE REMINDS THEM OF WOLF AND THEYRE ALL IN DENIAL AND FEEL GUILT FOR #VARIOUS PERCEIVED FAILURES ON THEIR ENDS THAT MIGHTVE LED WOLF DOWN THIS PATH #(Zavala in particular is getting a fire lit under him bc I love him. what writer doesn't show their love through fucking over their muse) #someone STOP me before I start shipping them and before I make everything worse by killing Wolf before Crow and Wolf realize #orb rambles #the forsaken exile #oh yeah for people not in the know for the Content Box: #IM WORKING ON A HAUNTED POST AND A CAYDE+WOLF SHORT #be on the lookout for that? #(depending on how long my dumbass decides to take on it - considering the Stasis and Egregore was supposed to be posted like a month ago) #i have a love-hate relationship with my brain and its focus on this AU #it is way too late here and my dearest content box fools: uh... yeah.

[faultsofyouth]

Yesterday a man told me it is obvious that I am going to be an advocate for women my whole life and that I can do so much good for other women if I stay on the path I am now. and today my boyfriend told me that he doesn't want to talk to me all the time because I'm not that fun to talk to

#he backtracked really quickly after saying that. like one message later he was like 'i love talking to you we are both just busy a lot' #which makes sense but... i'm not really made for men i dont think. ive never been able to understand them or connect with them #not on the level that i have been able to with certain women. and i really like this one man but i dont know if we will ever #get to that point where i feel like we are truly connected. i dont know if i Can connect to a man the way that they wish i would #and sometimes (like right now) i feel as if i am wasting time and energy on loving a man because our dynamic will never be equal #i love talking to him and i can do nothing but text him for hours and that is s great day to me but apparently he gets bored. #like. there is no way to solve that i dont think. we are just different. different things make us happy #how different is Too different for people to work? #i want us to work because he makes me happy. except for right now- i feel like a dumbass #my posts

[lizard-dumbass]

First my ribs experience random pain and now my hip. I'm too young for this shit.

#lizard-dumbass talks about stuff #text post #i would attribute this to growing pains if it werent for the fact that my knees sometimes hurt for no reason when i walk aswell #idk what the fuck is going on here but i feel like i should get my. idk everything checked out by a doctor lmfao #oh and did i mention my jaw hinge pops when i chew stiff foods #and my temperature regulation is a mess #i need to stop lmao #im calling it right now: #im gonna develop arthritis when im older

[coern]

if I had a nickel for every time I thought up a joke of 'tsukasa as _ character in _ fandom/universe' and it spiralled out of control and became an actual au I would have 7 nickels

#my post #sitting here reading a body swap fic and racking my brains on what to do with the rest of n25 for the dumbass frontiers thing #because klesek HAD to say 'n25 ass outfit' as i was drawing sage #then 'you could make a damn good wxs and n25 frontiers au' #also the botw au which. spiralled COMPLETEYYY OUT OF CONTROLLL #EVERYONES INCLUDED EVEN THE VOCALOIDS (TECHNICALLY) #IT STARTED AS A 'lmao itd be funny if tsukasa was the chosen hero because hed suck at his job' and now I'm sitting here #head in my hands #designing zonai kagamines #in english class #terrible. horrible. dreadful. to be fair though tsukasa and sonic have some pretty damn similar lines. to kleseks credit #we have #lets see here #1. botw 2. sonic 3. spider(not yet technically but its going to. soon.) 4. halloween wxs 5. magical girl #6. that one time i got really normal about child tsukasa and thought about the sekai and memories and #solidification of your memories and thoughts and feelings #for too long #7. also an oc story i was like 'oh wxs kinda fits this........' which didnt really stick in my mind for as long as the others on here #but it left an impact

[iguessitsjustme]

There is an interesting phenomena happening lately across multiple shows where there has been an increase in viewers of BL reading the novels that the shows are based off of. I’m not entirely sure why that is, I certainly have theories, but I don’t have the data to back any of them up (I am willing to share my theories if asked but they’re not particularly relevant here). But regardless, it’s definitely happening where a large number of viewers will find a translation of a BL novel and read it before watching the show. And don’t get me wrong, that’s amazing! I am certainly not complaining that people are reading these novels. I will always advocate for more reading, especially from authors from different cultures.

I personally do not read the novels for the shows I’m watching. I have done it a couple of times, but it’s extremely rare that I will go out of my way to find the novels. There’s a few reasons for this. First and foremost is that I find the unofficial fan translations difficult to read and I would rather pay for an official translation of the novels that have to go through multiple checks and also I would like to support the authors by purchasing the novels. I know. I know that we’re just not there yet for BL where there are official translations, but I still can’t bring myself to read the unofficial ones. I really struggled getting through the fan translation of Bite Me, and there was a specific reason I read that one, but we’ll get into this in a bit. 

Another reason that I don’t read the novels is because, truthfully, I just want to watch the shows. I enjoy watching week to week and needing to wait to see what happens. I enjoy experiencing these shows along with everyone else watching. Even if I don’t particularly like the show, I enjoy watching and critiquing it along with others. And that is where this issue and clash starts coming into play. 

Whenever I’m watching a show, I watch it with a critical eye. An analytical gaze, if you will. So oftentimes, what happens is I’ll come across a show that I’m enjoying overall, but something about the show isn’t working for me. Whether that be a character, a plot line, soundtrack, etc. That is when I’ll critique the show (different than hate but that’s another post). Now it’s important to note that what I am critiquing is the show, not the novel. I can’t possibly critique the novel that the show is based off of if I haven’t read it. I also wouldn’t feel comfortable critiquing an unofficial translation (again, that’s another post).

So when anyone makes a post critiquing a show, it is actually irrelevant to bring up the novel as an argument against the critique. I understand that the novel might provide additional context that the show is missing, but that’s kind of the point. The show is missing the context. And that’s the clash. The show and the novel are two completely separate pieces of media. By the very nature of the medium that is portraying the story, it’s going to be different. So the show needs to be able to hold up without relying on people having read the novel. If I need to read the novel to get the necessary context for any aspect of any story that I am consuming through the medium of a show (or movie), then that show has inherently failed at what it set out to do. Which is to tell a cohesive story. I’d also argue that a lot of the shows that people constantly like to bring up the novel for, actually do work as a cohesive story and don’t need the context that people are trying to provide. 

A critique of a show doesn’t necessarily mean that the show is bad or missing anything. A critique is simply something that caught someone’s attention when they were watching and reading into the scene. It is a criticism based on a close reading of a scene, a character, etc. And most often, those criticisms are presented by people with the knowledge and skill set to be able to do that. (For instance, I have a degree and professional experience doing close reads of texts). Critiques are not asking for additional context from the novel. They aren’t asking how it is or what happened in the novel (unless explicitly stated that they want to know).

 It’s important that we, as the viewers, are able to draw that distinction between novel and show because they are ultimately different. A critique for the show might not be the same for the novel, but that’s the point. They are different and they can’t be consumed the same way. I would certainly approach a close reading of a novel very differently than I would a show. I’d actually probably be a lot harsher on a novel than when I’m critiquing a show. Which is another reason I’m not particularly comfortable reading unofficial fan translations. It wouldn’t be fair to the author or the translator to have me read it the way I normally would. 

And that brings me to my last point. I have read a few of these novels and the only one I ever posted about was Bite Me. And I kept those posts on my own blog. I did not go to someone else’s post or blog and “well actually” them about how it happened in the novel. Because they are two separate things and I recognize that not everyone has read the novel nor would want to know and it’s not my place to tell them how to view their media. 

If you want to read the novel, that’s fine, wonderful even! More power to you. I’m so thankful we live in a time where it’s possible and that there are awesome fans out there who put in the enormous amount of work it takes to translate things. But if you do read the novel, please remember: it is not the same as the show, someone critiquing the show is not asking for your opinion on what happened in the novel, and it is always best to make your own posts if you want to talk about the novel. That last point is especially important. People can always filter tags or block/unfollow people that they disagree with or who post novel spoilers, but that doesn’t work when people go to someone else’s post or blog to say it. 

And last but not least, it’s just common courtesy not to give out book spoilers for currently airing shows. It’s 2022 and we should all know better by now. Unless a spoiler is asked for, do not give one. 

#thai bl #japanese bl #korean bl #vietnamese bl #asianlgbtqdramas #bl drama #I’ve been thinking about this for awhile but didn’t feel like I could write it without being either mean or condescending #so I didn’t write it before but now I’m feeling less…bitter? about this than usual so I figured I’d do it now #I also can’t sleep right now because my dumbass bad caffeine today #as always this is my opinion #feel free to disagree but if you’re going to disagree with me on my post #you cannot be rude about it #there seems to be a misconception about me because I try to be nice and kind and make my tumblr a welcoming and safe space #but I’m actually not I’m quite mean and often very petty #so if you’re rude and try to start shit #you will not like the outcome #but if you’re kind I welcome the dialogue and hearing differing viewpoints #this has been your psa #this is one of the very few things i am actually qualified to speak about #i would also love to get my hands on some data of bl novel readers and when those numbers started to grow #but i have no idea how i would go about doing that #that is something that would be enormously hard to track #it would take me days to hunt down those numbers #but if anyone else is interested i might try to do it #genuinely scared to post this but my friend told me to post it anyway so here goes