#once again i need to go to sleep

[nerosdayinanime]

oh yeah some vauge idea ive thought of exploring i wanna throw somewhere before i forget- sabito as jack frost from rise of the guardians

something something other hashira as the guardians maybe but Sabito As Jack Frost. outgoing fast-paced fun-loving snarky its almost like a fuckin mirror to how i imagine him in modern aus. ultimately he just wants to protect whats his and make them feel safe & happy, going so far as to getting himself killed in attempt to do so. plus the entire fuckin ice theme & flighty-ness- i dont have to bend or break the puzzle pieces at ALL its just right fuckin' there!!

#fratboy sabito posting #once again i need to go to sleep #kny sabito #sabito #kny au #like during the movie i started thinking abt it it was so clear to me #sabito & jack frost r so alike. the rest of the guardians and the hashira im having a MUCH harder time piecing together at a glance tho #s why im keeping it for later. some vauge thought of sanemi being about saftey/security #kagaya as father time or some shit #oh wait fuck whatabout the man in the moon #whatevwr thats shit for later and/or if anyone has Ideas to share ive got next tofuckin nothing #giyuu as peace or maybe tranquility of some sort #no clue who any of them could be tho i cant find shit on other holiday personifications than the ones in rise of the guardians #father time mother nature cupid grimm reaper turkey(thanksgiving) east asian dragon(new years) i dont know if they could fit or what #other characters could fit- like groundhog & leprechaun are mentioned in the movie if anyone has any other holidays with Characters #associated with them thats not strictly us-centric id fuckin love to hear em cuz i cant find SHIT #does the rise of the guardians fandom have a list somewhere?? something to maybe look into

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

The process is a bitch and I want to fight it

#had the urge to just #delete everything and vanish without a word #because I’m once again in a bad slump but I know feeling better isn’t a linear thing!! #just fucking sucks man #yknow? #I’m fine I’m fed housed watered and loved #for anyone worried #because I know I say some concerning stuff #mostly just venting because I need to yell and sorting out what’s going on in my brain is hard sometimes!! #there is a cat purring on my stomach and another cat between my legs #the other Q is rambling about a hoi 4 game he played with a friend #things are well #so why the FUCK isn’t my brain cooperating with me you dumb clump of hamburger #stop that #I hope everyone is doing well #I need to get to sleep

[sadkois]

BTW. TO ALL NISHIKI FANS (AND ANYONE INTERESTED REALLY), PLEASE CHECK THIS OUT IF U HAVENT ALREADY.

it's the transcript of an interview with Nakaya Kazuhiro, nishiki's voice actor, held on March 20th,2023!!

THERE'S A LOT OF GOOD ANALYSIS BY NAKAYA HIMSELF. LIKE.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

CHECK IT OUT, THERE'S A LOT OF GOOD STUFF

#akira nishikiyama #PLEASE SHOW UP IN THE TAGS THIS IS IMPORTANT #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #translation is a bit wonky at parts but its def understandable #ALSO I FEEL VALIDATED IN SOME OF MY NISHKI VIEWS #theres a lot of things iwanna say but also i need to go to sleep god #LIKE NISH WAS DEF JUST FOLLOWIN WHAT KIRYU WANTED TO DO WHEN THEY JOINED THE YAKUZA #HES SO. CODEPENDENT. he good at actin chill at first bUT THEN NO AND '' I AM NOTHIN WITHOUT U''. PLE A SE #ALSO LIKE NISHIKI NEEDS MORE FRENS GOD #LIKE OUTSIDE OF KIRYUS LIL CIRCLE #see this is kinda why i wanted him to meet ichibanasdhgdfh #hE NEEDS AN ICHIBAN IN HIS LIFE #ok sorry this was suppsoed to just me be tellin ya all about this #also i have the transcript saved too jUST IN CASE #also yes i once again stole from discordasfdgd

[shepards-folly]

WHO NEEDS GOD WHEN YOU CAN BE WORSHIPPED LIKE ONE?!

#shep arts #content smp #csmp #doctor4t #this was supposed to go up after i finished it but again i went back to sleep so uhm good morning part two here's more contentsmp #my friend said it was a crime for me to draw arathain without R4T cause i talk about them together so much #anyway lol drew this really quick so it doesnt parallel arathains properly also its just kinda wack in some places #i think they were just teasing me but i mean yeah.. I cannot shut the fuck up about them once i get started #honestly i still have no idea how to draw R4T... I think this is like the third time I've drawn him :/ #scratch that actually i dont know how to draw anyone on the csmp and thats a sin I need to atone for #we'll see if i draw more lol. i keep going I should draw this and then not drawing that at all #typical neurodivergent swag moment tbh #btw the caption is roughly taken from attention seeking demon by winchifrost #i think that's the lyric but tbh rn all the stuff bouncing around my head are all just song lyrics but a bit wrong so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[chaioticcoffee]

now hold the FUCK ON.

if. the 2 previous assassin clones knew Crosshair... and Crosshair is going back to Tantiss?

HELLO? I AM TERRIFIED FOR HIM

he's been getting. more attention too and you know what happened to the last guy that started getting more character development and attention 😀

#no but like what if they all try to go for Cross' throat #out of spite or revenge or whatever #tbb #the bad batch #random thoughts are back at it #its 1am once again #i need to stop its 1am #pt2 #crosshair #tbb crosshair #i was gonna sleep but yea

[ixhkor-and-ambrosxa]

Hey #GreekMythology tumblr, I want ya’lls help on something :).

So, I’ve been thinking about starting this massive project. Like, would take years and years work of writing and research and sheerly finding the time and motivation for. And as I was thinking about the specifics, I thought: why not bring others into it as well? Because as much as I am interested in a lot of Greek Mythology, there are things that are simply not my interests and might cause writers block and my goal for the project would to be as fun as possible. So, here we are.

What is the project exactly? Well, hopefully, it’ll be a long Ao3 series/fic focusing on the individual perspectives of various figures/events in Greek Mythology arranged in (semi/good enough) chronological order. I personally intend to write for Poseidon in his/my version of the Titanomachy and (maybe) some events that follow, if you want a little bit of an idea on what I’m talking about.

The limits on this are almost completely free, all that I ask are that each of your submissions are one POV only (and by that I mean your main subject’s POV). Why do I say this? I say this because that is what I want this project to look like. It doesn’t matter if it’s First, Second, or Third POV along with all the other variants of those three, my main focus is on the individual experiences of these individuals. Kind of like character studies, if you know what I mean. I’m intending for it to be mostly formal but I will absolutely accept crack admissions that I will probably put into its own series to Separate the Vibes for whoever comes by :).

Ultimately, this is a completely open-ended project that has absolutely no deadline. I’m about to go to bed so I can’t go into too much detail, but if you want to DM me or send any asks, I am completely okay with that and we’ll all flesh out the specifics we go :).

What is my overall purpose? Not only is this project made for my own individual purposes of learning more about the gods and other Greek Mythology writers, but it’s also the chance to spread the word of other writers. I know how hard it is to get specific audiences, especially when you’re shy, so this is a chance for your work to be stumbled upon. Each post on the eventual Ao3 fic will include your socials, how to find you, and your other general works on either ao3, tumblr, wattpad, or other :)

Can you participate even without socials or a tumblr page? Yes you absolutely can :). My asks will always be open to anons and I will do my best to give credit when I eventually post everything :). If you want to post multiple submissions or simply just want a trackable (between works) name to your writing, just sign something at the end. It could be a name, it could be a potential username, I don’t mind at all :)).

How do I submit things? Well, the best way would be to DM me :). I have a personal writing email separate from most things that would be perfect to either share a google docs with or to just send a copy-and-pasted copy of it. Otherwise, I take asks. None of them will be posted unless asked or we’re ready to so it’ll be safe to just drop them off in! It’s also where I take questions :).

Any other things to note? I’d really appreciate some other moderators and editors :). There’d only be like two or three of each and we’d have to know each other decently well before officially starting, but some help would be appreciated! Also, I’d like to keep a working ‘spreadsheet’ of who’s working on what just for people to see what’s going on :). Maybe some people can collaborate or it’ll encourage those niche writers to write :). A third thing is that most questionable stuff is accepted. I’d personally rather not handle all those things other than posting it so it might be a while until I can officially accept (consensual and/or graphic) ✨spicy stuff✨ but, other than that, I’ll take any of it (also, it’s Greek Mythology, almost all of it already happened). If someone’s willing to take over the ✨spicy stuff✨ then please DM me so we can work out the details and see if it’s a nice fit :)

Honestly, that all should be it. The main point is that I’m trying to start up a long-term project on Tumblr and Ao3 about what is essentially Greek Mythology character studies that not only allows for mass communication across a wide audience, but also (hopefully) gets some recognition for the smaller writers :). Feel free to DM me or send me asks with questions but for now, I shall sleep

Tagging: @bluebellstudio @thirteen-deaths-later @0lympian-c0uncil @happyk44 @h0bg0blin-meat @sworeontheriverstyx @deathlessathanasia @gotstabbedbyapen. Sorry if I tagged you and you want nothing to do with it, I just wanted to get it out there /pos /gen

#ya know this is the one time I regret deleting all my old accounts :/ #I had such a large (ish) following on my old tumblr (neptunes-sea-of-writing btw if you recognize it) #that it’s kind of intimidating to restart again :( #need to do it tho. i just gotta #but I haven’t really written- #anyway that’s not this post’s problem #tagging everyone to try to get it out there #even if you aren’t interested #it’d be appreciated if you share anyway to get to a larger audience :) #i just. wanna build that community and know more things #as much as I’d love to tackle this project all on my own #I know I can’t and it wouldn’t be beneficial for me #but since a large portion of it is gaining knowledge #why not ask it from others? #tagging everyone to get it out there #also the general tag is going to be: #Neptune’s Big Ass Greek Mythology Project #bc why not :) #but seriously #consider it if it’s your thing #and if it’s not that’s fine #I remember being a small writer so intimidated to find people #and I’m feeling that feeling once again having started my entire platform over again :) #we’ve all got this. we’ll make it work /pos #greek mythology #also #you can write for absolutely any fandom #idc #as long as it’s one consistent pov of your focus character :) #also I’m like incredibly sleep deprived and tired rn ive been up since four am and its nine pm rn

[jacqcrisis]

What a good line. He's so genuinely bothered someone believes he's capable of being better than he thinks of himself as he's spent weeks justifying doing something Pretty Bad for entirely self-serving reasons.

10/10. Good game. Good character.

#and then we stomped the in laws #and then ronan got a sincere thanks from a once again SMOTHERED IN BLOOD VAMPIRE #he took no damage. and he was just painted in it. how. #i ask as he got four stabs in one round. just decimated one vampire in one go. this ranger/rogue build kicks ass. #ronan: can i get one night of sleep without vampires (other than the one im in a thing with) #or gith or mind flayers trying to seduce me #just one. just one fucking night. #also love the implication of astarion calling ronan's intense glaring a 'sweet little pout'. its sending me. #called out. CALLED OUT LIZARD MAN. #I also imagine the dudes were actually cuddling prior to getting interrupted by cazador's least effective kidnapping squad #'damn I need my fruity little bitch back for my super special murder ritual. I know. i'll send FOUR GUYS I ALSO NEED' #'to try and get said bitch back. yes four guys will definitely make a dent again an archmage. zariel's angriest defector.' #'and a Cleric With a Bone to Pick and a Sun Mace. this plan will work for sure.' #bg3

[thefrogdalorian]

Sometimes I find myself thinking about Din Djarin a little too much that I get concerned and think that I really should go to therapy...

Well, I'm finally doing that (again) tomorrow... :)

Feeling pretty nervous about it but hoping that because I now know I'm autistic it will help me understand/explain things a little better! Hopefully this is the start of a journey to finally become a healthier, happier version of myself :)

#the waiting list was surprisingly short so i'm excited i just hope that they understand neurodivergency #because cbt doesn't work for my brain and i hope they don't try and force a square peg in a round hole so to speak #i want emdr eventually but i have to go through several stages first it seems and it sucks i wish i could afford private therapy #but i also just wish the nhs just fucking functioned lol #anyway that was a lot of acronyms but there we go #having ptsd sucks that's part of why i love din a lot because i can weirdly relate to him. also mando came into my life when i needed it #and as corny as it sounds knowing i can make some silly little gifs and write about the tin can helps regulate me after a draining events #so knowing i can do that whatever happens tomorrow is nice :) oR TODAY it's past midnight here what is a sleeping pattern #anyway once again i just really love din djarin but now no one can tell me to gO TO THERAPY ANYMORE BC OF IT ALSSNJSSK #personal #text post #just autism things

[cal-cium-the-nerd]

Fandom: One Piece Words: 530 Relationships: Jean Bart & Hakugan Characters: Jean Bart, Hakugan Summary: “I’m not suited for it,” Jean Bart replies, instead. “It hasn’t been a month since I stepped aboard, it’s not wise to trust me with the lives of the crew.” Heart Pirates Week - Day 1 ღ Jean Bart ღ Cursed

Am I ridiculously late to this event? Yes, I am. Am I posting this anyways? Yes, I am!! I’ve got drafts for all nine days, but lately life has been bonking me with a window frame and then pouring boiling paint on my head, before rinsing and repeating, so who knows when/if I’ll finish anything else

#heart pirates #heart pirates week #heart pirates week 2024 #one piece #my writing #Past couple weeks: *rent contract ends and I have to leave* *have to move apartments* *break my back carrying the furniture* *have 1000 dif #*have to work extra hours at work* *get invited/accepted to zines and go ‘oh shit i need to work on that or i’ll have literally no time’* #*grandma suddenly started beef with my uncle (FOR NO REASON) and now there is unnecessary Drama added to the family* #*then my little cousin went to grandma’s house solely to have sex w his gf in there. once again adding to the Drama (for no reason)* #also my cat hasn’t let me sleep more than 2 continuous hrs bc the new place scares her and im tired. im so so so tired. #insert a meme of a sobbing cat. no i don't know which one. any will do.

[telesilla]

Man, I hate to be That Older Person, but every few years, circumstances force me to pull an all nighter, and every fucking time it gets harder and harder, so if you’re young and can stay up for *checks* 30 hours and counting, enjoy it while you can.

#og had to go to the vet again #so there’s the usual thing where alistair is hostile #and since nancy is on a hiring committee #that is doing interviews this week #she absolutely had to go in today #so she needed her sleep and now she’s not here #i was like…i’m taking my pills as soon as you come home #to be fair she was sympathetic and appreciative #but i still want to die right now #on top of it all #these little monsters have slept all day #and if i could sleep without meds or weed #i’d be fine #but once i’m asleep they could have an epic battle on my tummy #and i would sleep through it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the problem with not having any new fics to read bc they havent been posted yet is that when Invisible Tigers Are Hunting You, there is no distraction

#this Baseless Fear that sometimes strikes me #reminding me of my mortality and making believe it is deeply immediate despite how illogical it is #Is Getting Real Fuckin Old! #i gotta grip onto the reminder that i am Only Twenty. i have my whole life ahead of me probably. #there is Time. things will get better. someday i will Accomplish Things. #i will turn around and wish i could visit past (current) me and say It Does Get Better And You Will Not Only Exist But Live. I Love You. #but for tonight i feel very small and scared #and i am using the company of videos and stories to soothe the Invisible Tigers #i think i will.... reread some fics.... perhaps... #i havent reread stamps yet.... ill go do that #get my laughingstock crumbs #ill put on birdsong in the bg #im borrowing my friends lovely headphones. i Need some of my own. earbuds just dont do it anymore #especially since theyre noise canceling. Yummy #theyre helping immensely i think #absolutely unprompted #sorry for once again Venting on Main #i am very tired and have no other outlet <3 #its 4 am. i have to get up in 7 hours. i am still too terrified to sleep #but its okay its Fine this night will Pass #thats half the fear but all the same. there are Good Things in my future. i have hope theyre there. theyre waiting for me. #ill figure it out Ill Figure It Out. #we all will! #we'll all get there. someday before the end.

[auntie-doom]

Well, things feel like they are moving more than they were... but still glacially slowly. Did you know you can flunk out of a PT session? Just the one session, but I couldn't do the exercises I had done just 2 days before. They kept reducing and finally just said, "no, you're done for today."

And today I can't even bend over to put on pants, good grief. I am TIRED. Not frayed, not at the end of my internal resources; the engine is there, but is completely out of gasoline. Not responding when I crank it.

Just trying to do too much, I guess. PT is showing me how incredibly weak I am[*]. I thought I was spacing out Activities well enough and taking adequate rest, but... yeah, no. Ow. I think I am going to sleep until PT on Monday afternoon.

I hate suffering through baby steps. Here's Guinevere, also going through baby steps in PT (her Auntie is kindly driving her to the university) coincidentally the same time they strapped weights to my ankles so I *felt* like I was slogging through mud. We'll get through this, but the past week was HARD.

[*] I am just going to assume that when they change the weights and say "we'll try one half" that they mean "half a kilo." Don't correct me, my ego needs this tiny thing 🤣

#the 💔 saga #Guinevere the wocker #physiotherapy #they said fatigue can make your muscles just not respond #as long as this is just the once we don't need to worry #they did not clarify what we didn't need to 'worry' about #Guinevere is sleeping and resting as hard as I am I am going to assume this is reasonable fatigue #you get back up and you do it again

[icewindandboringhorror]

Misc. photos from the past year or so ~

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1. napping bapy boye sneeping on his own foot as if it were a pillow #2. The little primrose that I have seems to bloom sporadically all year around as long as I bring it inside and don't let it freeze #in the winter. This was a flower that came up randomly like mid november lol #3. Rainbow where you can see a little bit of a second rainbow near the bottom of it :0 #4. CHILDREN.... love to see them..... #5. Halloween Candy ranking tierlist. not important enough to post on it's own. so throwing it in with one of these I guess lol #I am also not really a candy person at all and prefer bready stuff like cakes rather than chocolate bars (if I even have to have sweets #at ALL which usually I prefer savory food). I suspect the apple is controversial but.. I do love apples .... huzzah #actually am having applle and peanut butter snack right now as I'm writing this lol #6. Various bowls/cups/etc. that I got from a store at COMPLETELY different times like.. years apart from each other #yet at some point realized that they all mostly match in paint color and seem to be part of the same pattern #But I totally didnt make that connection until a few years ago when I was putting up dishes. I just bought them all invidually because it's #like 'oh cool! a cat' *1 year later* 'oh cool! a cat!' etc. lol.. I guess it must be a popular design if it's been around being sold that #long. #7. carne asada burrito and matcha bubble tea... oughhgh.... again one of my very rare meals where I actually go and get something.. #probably my favorite meal currently. Something about the Chronic Anemia makes me crave beef burritos madly despite only having one #maybe twice a year or so ghjbhj.. plus the beans.... onions.... many of my Diet Forbidden foods... Also of course the little aishas #are there.... somehow they shall split the meal together even though it's like 10x bigger than their bodies.. they are also hungry #and vastly anemic... huzzah to them... #8. I've had this shirt for a long time but it fits very weird so I can never find a way to use it in outfits?? But I recently had #an appointment where a doctor needed to be able to look at my back and it's one of the only actual Shirts that I have (mostly i just own #long robes or tunics or jumper dress type of things that would be hard to lift up or etc. like... I dont even own a single normal 't-shirt' #or anyting aside from one giant tshirt that I sleep in in the summer lol.) So I wore this there.. I forget how much I love the pictures on #it.. how pleasant... little hummingbird... AND I think one of the flowers is supposed to be columbine ... ! #photo diary

[kalmeria]

what gets to me is that himeru’s idealized vision of kaname isn’t in the past. because i believe he did realize that kaname lied to him. but maybe didn’t completely understand what that meant. kaname wanted to be a great idol and so the himeru persona was created. and meru does understand that this persona was aspirational. so that idealized version is not in the past, because kaname didn’t get the chance to fully become himeru. it exists in the present. i think himeru isn’t telling himself “this is what kaname was” he is telling himself “this is what kaname could have become. this is what he can be, he should be, he will be.”

anyways, pour one out for everyone who has ever felt crushed by the weight of expectations placed on them

#enstars #once again points at tatsumi saying i love your stupidity #i believe that with the two of them working together kaname wouldn’t have become the himeru type idol #because he would have learned to lean on his earnestness as his strength #i mean this is pretty obvious in the fact that himeru is an idol from a previous era #but kaname and tatsumi were forming A UNIT!!! the thing of the next era!! #oh and also i am aware that this kind of contradicts the door of the past door of the future thing #but like. that was ibaras idea. the concept comes from him #also if you consider how himeru is an idol out of time then it does still make sense! he wants the past in the present #im gonna explode i need to stop thinking about this i need to go to sleep early today

[hailsatanacab]

NOOO I LEFT TWO OUT

they're my lighthearted predictions for the future lol

anyways thank u so much for the chapter i loved it so much

#close enough to be whole again #cetbwa #danny phantom #dp x dc #dpdc #i need to wait until im awake to answer things but i cant sleep because these are too good!! #hey have i said anything about the meta rule yet?? i know i have but idk what chapter its in #i think its in the next one so like #oh no wait was it in the last one?? #no i just checked its in the next one!! #so keep an eye out for that 😉 #also its so funny because the second one was obviously my exacts thoughts when writing that scene! #danny has such a warped sense of what a rich person has in their house - sam's parents are just like that #and having just like everything they ever need #vlad has like three secret labs and a ghost portal #bruce wayne has gotta have something and frankly Danny’s going to be disappointed in him if he doesnt #once he gets over everything else first #also also also #i know ive said it before but it bears repeating: #holy shit thank you so much #thank you so much?????? #i am enamoured with you #thank you i love you im glad you enjoyed the chapter 😊😊

[azurechicken]

It always gets me how Justice did not change at all, like, he is not corrupted at all. It makes everything more tragic than it already is. The only thing that changed was his perception, which of course, naturally came due to the change of hosts. I'm mostly taking Awakening Justice into account and how he acts because that is where we can carefully observe him by himself, without Anders' influence on the matter. And his influence is everything on the point I am trying to make.

When we first meet Justice, he is fulfilling his nature of bringing justice to the people he thinks that need it. He is very outspoken about it, and is already ready to take action with or without Warden's help. For a supposedly peaceful spirit that Anders claims to have ruined with his anger, Justice is acting pretty angry here himself (This is not the only time either). This is one of the first things I want to point out that did not change much about the spirit. Justice was always fierce about his cause. However, what stands out to me in these scenes is when the witch calls him out on his idea of justice.

Justice, is that what you are calling it? What of their punishment, burning my house to the ground and with me in it?

Well, in this case, the witch is a demon and mocking Justice for funsies. But what she says actually gives a bit more insight about what kind of a spirit Justice is. The actions do not speak louder than intent to him, as long as it is within the lines he set for himself. In a way, he was always okay with a few… casualties in the name of justice. Even though it is as simple as burning down a house this time. Isn't violence for violence vengeance after all?

While we are on the topic of vengeance, let's not forget the way he is eager on avenging Kristoff, vowing to kill every darkspawn for his cause (I mean the way he literally calls it avenging is enough debate for some people but I want to continue). So how come wanting to take revenge on the offenders that wronged not only his host but many other people, is any different? How did this route did not take him to the road of vengeance but attacking the templars, who are also offenders that wronged his host and other people, is corrupting him?

The answer is of course, that it is not, it did not. There is no difference between those two for Justice, there is no difference between vengeance and justice. Punishing the ones who deserve it is all there is. There is no gray area for spirits the way there is in the mortal world, and we see this clearly in the way he judges Velanna and Nathaniel for their crimes. Despite what I said about him seeing intent before action, now he cannot see beyond their wrongs. This simply shows that if the intent is as clear as violence for violence, he understands. But he does not understand the gray area of Velanna mistaking the innocents as guilty, or Nathaniel taking back what used to be already his.

 

There might be none for Justice, but there is a difference between darkspawn and templars for mortals. For one, darkspawn are generally mindless, and has no moral compass for us to judge. Whereas templars are just people with different ideals about life, to put it kindly at least. (Which is worse, being a mindless cruel monster, or having the mind and morals to choose to be something else but going for being one anyway? Lol another discussion for another time). Templars are the gray area that Justice lacks the understanding of. When he vows to kill every templar like he did with the darkspawn, he does not suddenly turn into a demon, he is simply punishing the ones that were doing wrong, as he does.

From here we can say that spirits' judgments and mortal's don't exactly match up. Though, there is one idea that seems to match better than others, and that is corruption. As far as we learn from Justice, spirits do not know about corruption any better than we do. Spirit do bad, spirit go bad, right? So, when Justice starts to feel things that are associated with demons, such as envy, he starts to fear corruption. He says he does not want to learn how a demon feels, but he also states that he does see the wishful thinking of a demon wanting to cross the Veil for this world. He is conflicted at best about the whole thing. Still, he does not consider himself corrupted regardless. I think that the reason behind that is simply the fact that generally, the Warden can ease his worries when Justice confides in them. And that is another thing that says a bit about him. He seems to accept the lack of understanding he has in the world, and chooses to listen to someone who does. Though, not just a random anybody, someone he deemed just.

So, let's see. A fade spirit with identity issues and an anxious spirit healer walks into a bar…

When they merged and Justice accepted Anders' cause for himself, and when they went all crazy on the Templars, Anders was scared. He feared the worst immediately because he is taught the worst about possession. He knew that Justice was angry because of him and his ideals about mages. So he blamed himself, called it a corruption he caused. And as I mentioned, Justice is accepting of the fact that he has a lack of understanding of some things. Plus, he was already scared of corruption. So, when Anders, who is an educated mage about possessions and corruption claims that he is slowly corrupting the spirit, they held onto it.

Everyone in their life from this point on, do nothing but egg them on about it, on top of it all. They might not corrupt each other, but everyone else does by pushing them the idea that they are now an abomination. Anders starts to fear the nonexistent corruption more, and Justice is confusing the inability to just wipe all the bad out with sloth. We are talking about a being who comes from the Fade, which can be bent at will and a place of immediate action. This works well in Awakening because we are already fighting darkspawn nonstop, and we are in the middle of a war. But in Kirkwall? Everything requires planning and suspended ideals. Templars bring injustice everywhere they go, yet there is not much they can do. After many years of being held back, it is no wonder Justice is surfacing more and more, itching to fulfill his purpose. Because he was always outspoken, angry at the injustice in the world and eager to bring justice. He did not change, but Anders' morals and his' just did not align the way they thought it would. They forgot that in Justice, there was always a part that was vengeance.

At the end, Justice was one of the most stable parts of Anders' story. He couldn't count his vow in Awakening complete without reaching the root of the problem, which was the broodmother. And he could not do so in Kirkwall without getting rid of the Chantry. Because chantry is the root of the Templars, and being a bystander while you can help solve everything easily is unjust all the same.

Anders and Justice had the same cause, different morality and they were just confused because they didn't know any better.

#going through awakening again made me so annoyinnnng i cant stop thinking about justice #listen i have so much more to say #justice didnt become a corrupted spirit when he went on a vengeance run on the darkspawn #and he didnt become a demon when he went on another vengeance run on templars #but once people were included they became confused #and this kinda goes to show that spirits' morality is all about their awareness of a wrong-doing imo #spirits' idea of doing something “bad” could mean something totally different like they need to be held a different judgment on the matter #demons could be just confused beings with too much feelings they couldn't understand so they became them #if they embody their name as much as spirits do there is nothing they can do about it #they cannot simply be bad because the emotion is not the bad part about such things they are the natural part #the bad part of negative emotions are the fact that they cause actions that we mortals would count as bad #at one point what of the nightmare demon eating away the fears we would be glad to be rid of is so bad? #and justice going as far as a boom for his virtue isnt something we could judge him bad for its just his nature #y'know? does that make sense? #they were right to blow shit up tho lol #im sleep deprived #i wrote this for myself but u can also have it lol #justice #anders #justice positive #anders positive #dragon age #dragon age awakening #me own