#peak dissociation

[3-aem]

Boobies

#gojo Satoru #every week follows the same trend of #working my way to experiencing peak dissociation at the middle of the week #and then immediately after during the weekends being like #AERHRHFKSKSJDKA GIVE ME GOJO #and during the week i am chipping away at a piece half dead inside like: uh huh yea mhm #i feel stupid and foolish #like a country bumpkin lured in by the big man #and then my organs are harvested for the rich to eat or use or gawk at #also why it is only Tuesday

[clotpolesonly]

Dream Thieves ch 42 // Dream Thieves ch 42 // Blue Lily, Lily Blue ch 38

#adamedit #trcedit #Adam Parrish #TRC #quote posts #he really do be going through it #i feel like there's debate sometimes about the nature of his dc hike and if cabeswater played a part in it but like #honestly i don't think there was anything supernatural about it #he's already so prone to dissociation #it's not surprising for him to reach a new peak of stress and just peace tf OUT for a day #critical mass reached #and he's one step short of it when he's going into court to face his father #walking walking walking #no thought outside the immediate moment #that's the only way to survive it #until his friends come to be in that moment with him 🥺

[soldier-poet-king]

Someone explain to me how scent and perfumes work but for like. Idiots. Because jasmine, bergamot, those scents are 100x better calming good for when I'm falling apart and are like magic for my brain, but the florals or citrusy or the "woodsy" smells, while sometimes nice, don't have the same effect. And I want more things with those smells but have absolutely none of the correct terminology for that 'class' of smells and the smell people will laugh at me

#the duality of fran #yes i took a scalding shower in the complete dark and then sat on the cool tile and used the jasmine oil bar i bought from lush on a whim #in the dark. again. idk why my brain likes this and finds it soothing #but peak sensory experience even if it feels very stupid #and i could only manage it bc no one else was home and i could sit in the bathroom in the dark for an hour if i wanted #i feel. a little dissociated. but in a good way??? the calming soothing trust way. not the panicky trauma response way #anyway. smell therapy. i need smell bags on the go #this is extremely pathetic but maybe i just have to accept it #unfortunately i had to emerge when ppl got home. and it is no longer just a void of steam and silence and darkness and jasmine smells #could i not just stay in that mental subconscious floaty space forever. it was. the calmest ive felt in awhile

[abiiors]

Awww look at him being all hot while dissociating (probs)

#ross macdonald #ross the 1975 #Ross dissociating is like peak genre of photos #husband #the 1975

[strandnreyes]

whether weather be the frost // or the violence of the dog days is such a good lyric like the pen game in evermore is unreal. it’s almost her time of the year to shine

#don’t even get me started on how this is THE tarlos ice storm arc song #the part with bon iver… that’s literally push I can’t handle it #makes me want to go back to my video edit days because I can see it in my mind ajdha #nothing quite like listening to this song/album on a snowy December night #specifically on the walk home from a college library during finals week. peak dissociation hours

[internet-schvitzinq]

My mental health is back to uuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#not great #dissociation city #and existential crisis peaks

[oneshortlove]

#ive dissociated for the past hour just doing this #whie watching Cold Justice #at 7:50am #this is the peak of my life

[nasobek]

#about me #this one is about me #i peak #i dont follow or interact though #im just nosy #system stuff #system memes #my memes #my post #dissociative identity disorder #r/systemscringe #tagging for triggers #syscourse #i made this sin

[byanyan]

pro tip: you can usually tell when byan has been inside your home while you were gone because they often leave a trail of glitter behind.

#shitposts so u know I'm alive then disappears once more into the void #sometimes the glitter trails are more obvious... sometimes they're a little more subtle... but they're almost always there #you'd almost think they exist with a layer of glitter over their skin or smth for how much they leave around smh #they call themself stealthy and yet....... the glitter trails and noisy keychains clanking together on their bag would disagree #anyway yeah today was dissociation and gaming and tomorrow will probably be similar but. #here's hoping monday looks better and I can cobble together some sentences for drafts 🤞 #love y'all hope ur doing well hope ur having a good weekend 💜 #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ shitpost ⋮ bold of you to assume i've reached peak dumbass.

[chaoticdesertdweller]

#feels like it #twin peaks fire walk with me #david lynch #sheryl lee #laura palmer #90s icons #90s aesthetic #90s #life #relatable #mental health #dissociation

[polyamoryprincess]

I wish people understood that when you have a dissociative disorder or just nuerodivergency that involves being easily overwhelmed, any emotion, negative or POSITIVE is often overwhelming and can lead to shut down or numbness.

So you can sometimes be under-reactive and unable to parse exactly how you’re feeling, usually it’s just neutral, or you do experience the heightened emotion and then almost immediately experience numbing or dissociation. It’s not because they’re not happy or unappreciative or having a bad time.

Sometimes they’re just feeling neutral and their brain doesn’t want them to get too far from that neutralness.

#Obviously this is specifically for people with dissociative responses like me #I’m sure there’s people on the opposite end of this whose emotions keep building and peak into panic attacks and mania #But ultimately the idea is the same because people don’t realize joy and surprise are just as overwhelming as negative emotions

[blueish-bird]

currently overcome by childhood memories because I decided to play an Owl City album I used to listen to on repeat

#meposting #my thoughts #I don’t know what I’m feeling rn lmao #mildly dissociative maybe #nostalgia is weird. fucking with my brain chemistry. #nostalgia #memory #music #it’s just. weird to think back to dancing and crying my childhood bedroom while I chronically avoided my homework #daydreaming about my original characters for hours on end #I’m glad I made it to this point and I’m glad I had music like this that I really connected with #I don’t seem to process auditory info well (like lectures) but I have rly strong emotional reactions and connections to audio/sound #like. jokes that include a sound element? peak comedy to me #i never considered whether I had any sticks until only recently but BOY do I auditory stim a lot #making sounds. listening to music. playing silly/satisfying audio recordings on repeat. #not super related I just feel like talking about it #adhd #auditory stim #I also credit Owl City as an early inspiration of love for assonance and fun/engaging lyrics and poetry #and electronic music #and general whimsy #if I ever publish a poetry book. I’ll probably mention Owl City in the acknowledgments lmao #right now I’m listening to The Midsummer Station #also listened to All Things Bright and Beatiful a lot #I never had Ocean Eyes but I Love some of the songs from that album (which is the one that contains Fireflies) #I think some of my favs are Umbrella Beach. To The Sky. Dreams and Disasters. Speed of Love. Cave In. The Real World. Plant Life. Angels. #perfect my creative and escapist kid brain. complimentary and formative shit #ok I’m almost at 30 tags reminiscing over

[odysseys-blood]

anyone else regularly kinda forget how they look until they see themselves in the mirror

#cliffnotes/.txt #yes i see how i look in the mirror daily when i get ready! no i dont retain that knowledge! #its like i have no permanent physicality until i see myself #not in like a dissociative way but like #i could describe my eatures to you. i do not remember exactly how they look myself tho #I know the words. I cant visualize it independently. #i know my nose has a bump and isnt quite hooked but i enjoy it all the same #i know my eyebrows are full and a little messy. they lightly meet in the middle #I know above my lip is 'peach fuzz' too dark and pronounced to really be considered that. i know theres hair on my chin #i know my eyes look lifeless if I don't open them wide. they droop downwards and look sad #I know i have a terrible rbf but my voice neve mtches that look #i know I have messy sideburns and a widows peak that creep down and frame my face so quickly after a hair cut #I know i have lashes too long to wear my glasses uper comfortably. If I push them up they graze the glass. #but i cant put all these pieces together. not in my head at least and not for long #its weird

[amaurotine]

i promise i’ll stop being annoying and posting screens for a while after this but i got some more besties to the top of the tower :^)

#➸ ｢ OOC ｣ gallery #both of the emets are pulling peak grandpa aesthetic and i just can't #venat looks so fucking annoyed and elidibus is just there dissociating