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lovelylusts · 10 months

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cloud nine // csb // 07 - bunny

summary: a group of friends form on nsfw twitter, and hijinks ensue. but when jisu starts catching feelings for soobin after filming with him, she has to grapple with her feelings while assuring her close bond with him doesn’t die.

general warnings: choi soobin x oc (moon jisu), smau, smut, fluff, angst, crack, the rest of txt is here too, aespa is also here just bc they serve, no relationships or events in this story reflect real ships and are just for the story, this is a pro sex-work story obv, lowkey probably gonna be filthy as hell considering it’s a sex work au, vague relationships lmao, she/they oc because i’m projecting, genderfluid yeonjun agenda, oc has a not-so-secret thing for soobin’s hands, they use fake names on twt :)

chapter warnings: another written chapter :3, intentional lowercase lol, sub!soobin, dom!oc, same warning abt jisu’s pronouns as before, sex toys as per usual with me, rigging (rope bunny soobin <3), blindfolding, begging, handjob, praise, humiliation?, two instances of premature ejaculation :(, multiple orgasms, degradation/slut-shaming, oral (m receiving), anal fingering (m receiving, and also mentions of soobin fingering himself), pegging (in missionary), minor dacryphilia, squirting, very very brief aftercare

word count: 4.1k

series masterlist // general masterlist

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jisu was certain she was a masochist, because why would she suggest putting herself in more situations that would make her feelings for soobin worsen? she was yet again at his doorstep with everything they would need for the filming session of the day, this time matching the different themes of the video. they had spent the days prior discussing ideas for the video which, this time, would be featuring jisu as the dominant one, and during these discussions she learned a lot about soobin that he had previously only reflected in something as unnoticeable as his liked tweets - which, surprisingly, she hadn’t gone through until the first night they talked about their second video. she knew he could be submissive at times, but she didn’t know how far he could go with the video.

soobin was no stranger to making submissive content. while he was more known for being dominant, his fans were always excited when he posted content that didn’t necessarily fall in that category. every time he reached a milestone in followers or subscribers, soobin would ask his followers for what celebratory content they wanted, and somehow it was always content where he took on a more submissive role. but what his fans didn’t really know is how much of a sub he could really be. the last time he filmed with jisu, although he was supposed to be in control, when he felt her lips around his cock, he felt himself slipping off, barely able to keep himself together enough for his viewers.

he was excited to finally be able to let go this time.

jisu was equally excited. seeing him fall apart beneath her as she went down on him filled her ego like never before. her mind was wandering as she waited for him to answer the door, her desire for him increasing as she imagined him tied up, tip leaking precum as he begged for her to touch him. or him crying sweetly as she entered his tight hole with the toy she brought. or-

“hey, jisu,” he said, knocking her out of her lustful trance. he pulled her in for a hug, a smile creeping onto his face as the sweet vanilla scent of her perfume filled his senses.

fuck, he thought to himself. why am i already so hard?

jisu could feel it too, his member poking her stomach - they were both aware of its presence, but whether it was nerves, awkwardness, or the comforting fact they had done this before, kept either of them from commenting on it. if anything, the feeling of his hard member through those damn sweatpants made the throbbing feeling between her legs even worse.

“you ready?” she asked, her chin resting against his chest as she looked up at him.

it should be illegal for somebody to be this cute while asking me if i’m ready to be destroyed, he thought to himself.

wait, what?

shaking off the intruding thought, he led her into his apartment, through his living room and into the bedroom that he had been setting up when he heard the knock on his door. the main camera was positioned by the foot of the bed, just as it had been last time, as well as the secondary camera. the comforter was different, this time monochromatic grey plaid, and it looked like he was able to fill in the gaps of jisu’s own selection toys that she brought.

“we should film now before i explode,” soobin said with a cheek smile, already taking his shirt off.

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soobin looked so pretty with his wrists tied to his headboard and a lace blindfold adorning his face, a blindfold that matched her lacey lingerie, it made jisu feel breathless. she now understood how he felt last time - even being in the position of power, he just looked so amazing that she would fold and do anything he asked her to. his lips were red and swollen from intense kisses, his distinct collarbones covered in bruises and teeth marks, his nipples hard from her manipulation. and, of course, his member was pink- nearing red, precum dripping down his veiny shaft.

“aww, look at you,” jisu said as she traced his abs with the tip of her pointer finger, chuckling as he flinched beneath her. “so hard for me and i haven’t even touched your pretty cock yet.”

“all for you,” he sighed out. his voice was strained, breathless, filled with need - he was about to cry and she had barely started. “p-please touch me. please.”

“i am touching you, onyx.” she continued tracing her blunt nail around the outlines of his abdomen, entranced by the way his chest heaved with her feather-light touches. his eyes were covered with lace that, in her own experience, he could only barely see through, thinking to herself that she would probably take it off later so she could watch his face as she entered him. “if you want me to touch you, you’re going to have to be more specific.”

“my cock. please touch my cock. it hurts, jiu.”

his words sent a new, stronger wave of arousal to jisu’s core - yeah, this definitely isn’t helping me. she very slowly, very lightly, dragged her hand down soobin’s abdomen, admiring the v-shape of his hips before pulling her hand away and reveling in the whine that slipped out of him.

soobin could feel the intense heat in his cheeks, and the embarrassment of sounding so fucking needy was definitely not helping. it was already rare that he act submissive alone, but with another person? he was sure it was only two or three times with an experimental fling in his final months of high school, but that was forever ago, and he couldn’t recall it making him feel anything close to how he felt when jisu was touching him. in fact, as her hand slowly wrapped around the base of his sensitive length, he was sure he was about to start sobbing.

jisu looked down at him in adoration as his stomach caved lightly as he choked out shallow breaths, precum dripping from his tip onto her hand.

she took her time stroking his sensitive length, her movements slow so as to draw more needy whines from his lips.

“please, more, please,” he begged. soobin was well aware of his large stature - he was tall, had big hands, and a massive dick - but he had never felt as small as he had at that moment, in the best way possible. he was slipping into a bliss he had never felt before, his hips jerking as she teased him. he couldn’t even form a proper thought. how pathetic.

“more what, baby? use your words, pretty boy,” she spoke softly.

pretty boy. the words played over and over in his mind until-

“no fucking way,” she muttered under her breath as she watched him unravel beneath her unexpectedly, small ropes of cum covering her hand as he groaned out. “you’re so fucking hot.”

soobin didn’t even have time to feel embarrassed because of her words. yet he thought to himself, my ego is never going to recover from this. holy fuck.

“more, jiu, please,” he cried out, his cock twitching and still painfully hard as he came down from his first high of the session. all shame was out the window now. he was gone. he was all hers for the time being, no questions asked.

“you’re such a little slut,” she started as she once again wrapped her cum-covered hand around his throbbing member and began stroking, only a little faster than before. “but i bet only i can make you act like this, hm? you cum that fast for anyone else?”

“n-no, only you.”

this was getting to her head way too much to be good for her, it was as if she were slowly forgetting that this was for the camera. it felt like it was just the two of them, just like last time. like it wasn’t a performance. jimin was right, their video felt too real, and this time she was just falling more. he just looked so perfect under her. so disheveled, but maybe that made him even more appealing.

“good boy.”

with what remaining thinking abilities were remaining within his foggy brain, he was convinced he was about to cum again. this was just too good - better than last time, and she hadn’t even put her mouth on him yet. subconsciously, he was thrusting his hips up towards her hand, only making her slow her movements again and making him whine in frustration.

“is there something you want?” jisu asked him while leaning forward, putting pressure on his hips with one hand to try to keep him from moving. in any other situation, he definitely would have overpowered her with no effort; but he simply didn’t want to. he could only give into what she asked of him.

“your mouth. please, i need to feel your mouth.”

“will you be able to control yourself this time or are you gonna cum early again?” she teased.

soobin whine in embarrassment, but ultimately decided that it was better to nod and ask for forgiveness later. “yes. i promise. please.”

“well,” she started, “i don’t particularly believe you, but you look so cute when asking, so i guess i’ll have to give in.” with no moment for him to take in what jisu said, her lips were wrapped around the tip of his cock as she gently sucked, hand still stroking the rest of his member.

he knew he was already being noisy before, but now he couldn’t control any of the loud whines coming from his lips. just like last time, she started taking his impressive length down her throat like it was nothing. this is heaven, he thought to himself, and even his internal monologue sounded as desperate as he did physically.

“ji-jiu, i’m gonna cum,” he cried out in an attempt to either get her to stop or let him cum again - the latter was definitely more embarrassing, yet he chased his release so desperately that he could not bring himself to care in the moment. that was for not-so-future soobin to worry about.

jisu did care, however, but she didn’t stop. she was basking in the power she held over the boy who had been occupying her thoughts over the past couple of weeks, and for some reason she had never thought about before, there was something so satisfying in seeing him turn cherry red from embarrassment. her sense of satisfaction increased tenfold when he cried out one last time, louder than his other sounds, and the slightly salty taste of his release filled her mouth before quickly swallowing it down. she pulled off of him slowly, looking up at him expecting for their eyes to meet, only to see him staring at the ceiling over his heaving chest, the sounds of him trying to regulate his breathing pattern filling the otherwise quite room.

“you did so good for me,” said jisu as she ran her nails through his soft, jet black hair. “are you ready?” she asked, aware she didn’t have to say what for. they had talked it through thoroughly, and it definitely awoke something within her - she would probably have never considered doing this with anybody else.

soobin, still trying to catch his breath, just nodded lazily. but as he came down, the feeling of nervousness he experienced in the morning came flooding back. this had always been a fantasy of his, but the most he had ever done is fit two fingers inside of himself. nobody else had ever touched him like that, and he knew he could trust jisu, but the butterflies in his stomach wouldn’t subside. the butterflies certainly couldn’t calm down now that jisu had grabbed the toy from the nightstand. even though they had split the cost of the toy in her hands, even though he had spent the entire morning hyping himself up for this, he still felt entirely underprepared. his dick, however, was having a completely different reaction, quickly hardening after again after his second orgasm and bordering painful.

she admittedly had never done this before, either, a fact that she had divulged to him as they planned the video. they were both oddly comforted that this was their first time in this situation, but just as nervous about it as well; but jisu couldn’t help but find the idea of being the first person to fuck his ass super appealing, and luckily for her they decided on a vibrating strapless strap-on, so she could be stimulated with him. she had spent the morning trying to master the toy, making sure it would sit comfortably inside her without slipping, and that the built-in vibrator was strong enough; and now, after slipping off her lacy underwear, she was sliding the short curve of one end of the toy in her wet heat, a small, quiet gasp escaping from her lungs.

jisu grabbed the bottle of lube that was placed next to the toy, squirting a bit on the fingers of her right hand before using the left to nudge soobin’s thighs apart and bringing her fingers to his tight hole, pressing them against the virgin rim and slowly drawing tiny circles, the cold, slippery substance sending a slight chill up his spine.

he tensed up subconsciously, the sensation of her fingers teasing his hole, although pleasurable and exciting, ultimately foreign.

“relax, baby. i promise i’ll be careful,” she said to soothe not only his nerves, but also probably her own. she waited until he visibly relaxed, becoming used to the sensation of being touched in such a manner, then slowly sliding her pointer finger inside of him, meeting some resistance as he tensed up again. “onyx. i need you to relax, baby.”

“i’m sorry,” he whined. he started tugging at his restraints a bit, desperate to touch something, maybe grab at the sheets or hold the hand that she currently had placed firmly on the underside of his right thigh. he tried to calm his breathing, slowing his breaths to calm down and relax himself, trying to fight the urge to stiffen as she continued to push her finger in. it was one thing to finger himself, but to give all control to somebody else scared him a bit… but it also felt so much better.

she just watched him breathe for a bit, rubbing his thigh with her left hand to soothe him while her right hand stilled to let him adjust to the feeling. “if you want me to keep going, you’ll have to ask.”

he took a short moment to compose himself, making sure he was truly relaxed, before softly saying, “please keep going. feels good.”

“yeah?” she asked, her tone becoming more playful now that she knew he was more comfortable, and while speaking she slowly began to pump her finger in and out of the hole, grinning to herself as she felt him little-by-little loosen up. “look at you. hard to believe that such a big, strong boy can be such a little bitch for me.”

it was a bit embarrassing for him, but he honestly could not have cared less as he felt her finger begin to slightly curve, just barely brushing up against his prostate. maybe it was a bit shocking that he could be such a baby, but he just couldn’t bring himself to give a fuck if it meant feeling this good.

“i’m gonna put another finger in, ok?” she asked sweetly.

“please,” he said, so softly he wasn’t sure the microphone caught it, but that was for them to worry about while editing later. “it feels so good.”

“i’m glad you think so, baby.” she pulled her one finger out of his asshole, only to immediately press it back against the rim, now with her middle finger, and slowly push them in. her fingers faced more resistance than last time, but his sounds of bliss increased as she pushed forward, until she ultimately bottomed out and stilled again, just as before, to let him adjust to the feeling. “still doing good?”

“fuck, yes, please move,” he pleaded, barely able to choke out the words because of how full he felt. he let out a low groan that shifted into a higher pitched whine as she began to move her fingers, this time angling them more than before to stimulate him more. his tip was leaking precum again, twitching at the sensation of her fingers curly against the sweet spot within. he was tired of this already; now that he knew he could handle the stretch, he had the carnal need for her to fuck him already. “jiu, please fuck me. i need it, i need it so bad.”

she chuckled a bit before answering. she wants to, she really did, but, “you’re just too tight. i need to stretch you out a bit more, ok?”

“i promise i can handle it, please. i need your cock,” he cried out. he was desperate to touch himself, but the restraints forbid him from doing so.

soobin’s words rang in her mind over and over. jisu really, truly never thought she’d be into, well, anything that had happened in the past… she had lost track of time completely due to how lost in the moment she felt. i need your cock. jesus fucking christ, she was so done for.

but she had to show restraint. the last thing she wanted to do was hurt him and ruin something that could be so good.

“you’re playing with fire,” she warned instead. “let me prep you first.”

he didn’t say anything, he just groaned in frustration, but ultimately let it go and instead relinquished control to her once again. she pulled out of him briefly, making him release another sound of disappointment, so she could cover her fingers in more lube, before circling his rim once again. he shuttered again at the cold sensation, but now he had more control over his body - he could relax now, not allowing his body to resist as she pushed three or her fingers into his entrance.

jisu set a quick rhythm of thrusting her fingers in and out of soobin’s ass, mainly because she knew that if either of them having to wait much longer was basically a fate worse than death. loose enough, she thought to herself as she pulled her fingers out. reaching over to the bottle of lube one last time, she drenched her fingers in the cold substance before spreading it along the pink dildo - wow, that’s really hot, she thought to herself, i could get used to this.

the sensation of a cold, stiff object felt different this time. the pressure of the toy pressing against his hole was definitely different from how jisu’s fingers felt, it sent a wave of excitement through his body. he gritted his teeth as jisu pushed her hips forwards, her hands gripping his waist firmly as she slowly moved her hips towards his own, his body feeling as if it had been set on fire in the best way. the stretch was deliciously painful, and the curve of the toy made it so that his prostate was being hit at just the right angle. he finally felt her hips meet his ass, groaning at the sensation of the entire length of the toy resting inside of him. so focused on the full feeling, he didn’t notice that she was reaching for the small remote on the nightstand until he felt the vibrations start.

“f-fuck,” jisu whispered to herself. her clit had been throbbing, aching since she arrived at soobin’s place, and her pussy had been so wet, just getting wetter and wetter as she pleased soobin - to finally get some stimulation was amazing. “want me to move, baby?”

“god, yes.” he gasped and nearly choked on his own breath as he felt her pull out slowly, dragging the toy almost all the way out before moving her hips forward again. “it’s so good. too good. fuck, please, please ruin me.”

“i don’t know if you can handle that yet,” she said. “i’m gonna have to train you to take my cock.” jisu really wasn’t sure what had gotten into her. the power of having a fake dick, i guess.

soobin also had no idea what had gotten into her. he had known her for quite a while and she always seemed really docile - there was no way he would have ever predicted she could be this domineering, but it made him briefly consider that he could spend the rest of his life being her little bitch. dude, what are you saying? he asked himself. this thought, however, did not last more than a mere second or two before she began increasing her speed out of nowhere, the sound of her hips meeting his bare ass filling the room, accompanied by breathy moans.

“god, i love fucking you like this,” she grunted to him, looking down to watch as the silicone penis slid in and out of his ass, his cock red and leaking precum everywhere. her hand quickly found its way to the member, slowly stroking it in tandem with the rolling of her hips. “i bet you love being fucked like this, hm? like a little fucking whore?”

“y-yes- fuck, hah. love it so much.” soobin’s head was spinning. there was not a single coherent thought behind his lace-covered eyes - that is, until he remembered the presence of the vision-obscuring material. “i wanna see you, please. wanna see you fuck me.”

“aww, so cute. since you asked me so nicely,” she taunted, balancing herself before moving her hand from his hip to snatch the blindfold off over his head, throwing it haphazardly on the floor beside his bed. his eyes were slightly puffy and a bit red, making it clear that he had in fact cried at some point - when, neither of them were quite sure, but the knowledge of it was enough to boost her ego further. both her hand and hip movement increased in speed at the sight. with each thrust of her hips, the base of the toy was knocking against her clit, which, mixed with the vibrations against the sensitive nub as well as her g-spot, was enough to bring her closer to the edge faster than she would have liked.

soobin was faring no better. his entire body felt fuzzy from the intense stimulation. being able to watch her didn’t help at all - she was covered in a light sheen of sweat, her jiggling tits slipping out of the black lacy bralette due to the rough rolling of her hips. he lowered his gaze to watch as their bodies met, her hand wrapped perfectly around his length as she jerked him off, and her hips seductively rocking against him. the visuals of the situation were only bringing him closer and closer to the edge. “i’m so close. fuck, i’m gonna cum.”

“can you wait for me? wanna cum at the same time,” jisu grunted breathlessly, her speed increasing to make him holding in his orgasm a little harder. she loved to see him squirm and beg for; but luckily for him, her orgasm was rapidly approaching. “fuck, i wish you could see yourself the way i see you right now. you’re taking my cock so well.” she finally felt the blinding pleasure reaching her, it was time. “cum for me.”

he didn’t need to be told twice. his thighs were shaking as white hot pleasure took over his body, ropes and ropes of his release shot out of his cock, covering her hand and abdomen. through the overwhelming feeling, he could feel her still rapidly fucking into him, making his orgasm way more intense. he didn’t notice but his eyes were watering again as he felt himself slowly come down.

the climax that hit jisu was equally as intense, riding her high by continuing to rock her hips, the sensations against her throbbing clit intensifying the warm fuzziness climbing up her spine until she cried out. she really tried to prevent this to keep up her dominant appearance, but she felt her own fluids releasing, soaking the (luckily waterproof) toy and once again ruining poor soobin’s bedsheets.

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it took a while, but once they had both calmed themselves, jisu helped clean up a very fucked-out soobin before they sat in his bed (of course, after she changed his sheets) and watched a random netflix show.

“so…” jisu trailed off. “did that live up to your expectations?”

soobin let out a soft chuckle. “i don’t think anything could have prepared me for that. if i weren’t worried about being able to sit properly for the next week, i’d ask you to do it again.”

jisu couldn’t help but laugh at him, commenting on how much of a dork he was.

yeah… she was in deep.

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#txt smut #choi soobin smut #soobin smut #txt fic #choi soobin fic #soobin fic #txt fanfic #choi soobin fanfic #soobin fanfic #txt smau #choi soobin smau #soobin smau #cloud nine #og work

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husbandhoshi · 2 months

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I don't think it's a coincidence that you and Hyunjin have such close birthdays. It's a sign. It was written in the stars for us to become mutuals, I fear.

My clownery aside, Happy birthday Lily 🥳🥳🥳 I already spewed some of my affection for you when I reblogged that one post a bit ago lmao but, you really don't know how happy it makes me to see you on my dash or when you're in my notifications. I kid you not, I nearly dropped my phone in excitement when you started posting again after being away for a few months (yes, I do still plan on reading your longer Cheol fic. My brain just sucks right now lol.) You are thee Tumblr funnyman to me.

I don't know if I give you your flowers as a writer enough (I was going to send in an ask about what your trademark is but, once again, my brain). Outside of being one of the funniest people I follow, you have such a soft and warm touch to your writing. I may have said this before but, your writing genuinely feels like waking up surrounded by messy blankets on a Sunday morning. It feels like my favourite cup of coffee being enjoyed while it's raining outside. I just know every time I read your writing, regardless of subject matter, I'm going to come out feeling fuzzy, vulnerable and a little raw in the best way.

Anyways, I think I've rambled on long enough. I love you. I hope you have a fucking great day and, I am sending all of the Joshua hugs and kisses and dick your way. Mwah.

rj the way this LITERALLY made me tear up……………

NO bc the way i feel the same abt u?!? like i genuinely see all you put out into making ur mutuals feel loved and seen and i TRULY appreciate you so much for that. u have a heart of gold!! AND ///YOU/// are the tumblr funnyman and i seriously love seeing you and hearing your thoughts!!!! like ur tags always make me crack up and that is a RARITY for me …

also please don’t worry ab the cheol fic ✋ you being my friend is more than enough! but i will say that seeing ur feedback always makes my day bc you put so much love into it. 🫂

love you bunches girlie i am so lucky 2 be ur mutual! ty for all the kind words i am holding them so close to my heart rn !!!!!

#ask #mutuals #rj #manifesting the day we can hang out. 🤞

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a-little-unsteddie · 1 year

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wip wednesday (ah!)

@wynnyfryd said if we saw it on our dash we’re being tagged and i haven’t done this before so i decided now would be a good time to start???? i’ll do it into tomorrow as well bc it is very late but i work all day so i gotta do it when i can.

In a reblog (or new post w/ rules attached), post up to five (5) filenames of your WIPs; not titles, file names.

Post a snippet from one of them. Snippet must be words you wrote in the last 7 days. We're posting progress here. If you haven't made any, go make some and come back to post!

After you've posted, people can send you an ask with one of your file names. You must then write 3 sentences in that file. If the filename is one you can't share from (for example, an event fic), write 3 sentences on it anyway, and then 3 more on another to share.

That's it! You can invite others to join in, or just post. If you tag me in your post, I will send you an ask request!

WIP NAMES

exhale (big bang) // (i am so excited to be able to talk abt the only thing i’ve consistently worked on for the last 6 months LMAO)

dragon age au ??

love gameshow thing

drekatum au

cosplayer!eddie au

SNIPPET from EXHALE

“What if they don’t like me?” Robin asked, barely knowing who the ‘they’ in question were.

“They’re gonna love you,” Steve replied easily, glancing over at her out of the corner of his eye, before looking back at the road.

“Okay, but have you considered, what if they don’t?” Robin asked, waving her hands emphatically, as if that was going to prove her point.

“They will.”

“But how do you know that? I’ma weirdo! It’s a miracle I’m friends with you, dingus! I just got lucky that you trauma bonded with me!” Robin insisted, running her hands through her hair, and then pausing as she realized what she just did, before pulling the visor down to redo her hair. Again.

“They’re gonna love you because I love you, Bobbie,” Steve said, quiet and soft, but full of conviction, “if they don’t, then it’s their loss. You’re my platonic soulmate.”

Robin paused in her panicking, looking at Steve with wide eyes. “Oh.”

Steve smiled at her, reaching over to take her hand in his. “Oh.” He repeated back to her with a slightly dopey grin. “Then again,” he teased, smirking at her, “you never know, I guess.” Robin screeched at him and the moment was gone.

iiidk who to tag for this?? ummm,,, @wheatnoodle and @sailors-ink ???? no pressure to either of you :D

#steve harrington #eddie munson #steve x eddie #steddie #stranger things #st #steve harrington x eddie munson #epit writing #steddie big bang

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yuukei-yikes · 1 year

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love ur shinaya breakup tbh read all of it and it's honestly accurate i think the screaming match isnt necessarily ooc bc ayano has the capacity to get ANGRY and yell honestly i think it would be more like shintaro raises his voice and then ayano snaps and starts screaming and shintaro instantly is like O_O kind of just freezes bc THIS isnt the ayano he knows (the one he usually sees/i feel like he would know that this part of ayano is a real part of her but he doesnt like it bc some part of him still relies on her to be the usual "ayano" as a form of consistency in his life especially post str bc if ayano acts like ayano then that means things r okay and normal and he doesnt have to think abt the timelines where ayano died and STAYED dead and also specifically ayak) he doesnt know how to deal with that rn so after a bit of being yelled at he basically stops talking and ayano is like WHY ARENT U SAYING ANYTHING and shintaro is just like ermmm well uhmmm which pisses off ayano even more she just starts crying bc she's so overwhelmed and doesnt know what to do with herself anymore and shintaro is awkwardly standing there and then they just dont talk abt it or breaking up but they basically break up after that erm sorry for the long ask

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES god this ask made me so excited i fell off my chair no joke. bc i was reading and i was agreeing so hard i was excited. and i um fell off my chair.

IM GONNA BE HONEST I SAID "OOC" AS SORT OF A DISCLAIMER BC ITS KINDA A HOT TAKE IG.... i was like (looks around) i dont wanna be called out or something. but to me its totally in character. i mean ayano gets angry in canon. i love that its canon that she really plays the nice girl role in front of shintaro (and haruka&takane) but at home with mekatrio we see her a lot more vulnerable/able to be angry.

the way i imagine them is usually ayano ending in tears most of the time but when They Break Up like for realsies it's when ayano is just PISSED. shitshow gone too far mode. and i think it starts off from something completely stupid like always, something casual abt WHY WONT U HOLD MY HAND IN PUBLIC!! like something totally idiotic but like i said in the other ask its just all these bottled up emotions and eventually ayano just fucking explodes lmao. shintaro is totally shocked like u say but i think it's such a relief for him somehow because this is it. THIS is what he deserved all along. THIS is what he's been searching for. ayano being mad at him. ayano making him pay for everything. and he's like YEAH!! YELL AT ME MORE!! I DESERVE IT!!! I CAN FINALLY MAKE THINGS UP TO YOU IF UR ANGRY. and that pisses ayano off even more because WHAT are you talking about??? since when is this about what u deserve?? since when am i some sort of trophy wife you feel guilty for having??? i dont want that!! have you been doing this on purpose!?!?!?!? and she DUMPS HIS ASS

everytime theyve broken up before (on and off slay) it's by shintaro and ayano ends in dramatic tears while shintaro is just like angrily pacing around his room. when AYANO dumps him this time and for good, shintaro is in tears. he's such a mess. takane who's been comforting ayano each and every single time shintaro has made her cry and per her request playing this crazy relationship therapist, goes to her fully intending to do it again. like fully intending to comfort her and talk some sense into her thinking theyre just gonna get back together like always. but this time ayano isn't crying at all, she just breathes in relief and talks about the huge weight she got off her back. and takane's like ...ohhh... this time it's different.

usually, the procedure would be ayano sobbing to takane BWAA PLEASE TALK TO HIM and then takane going to yell at shintaro but this time it's SHINTARO who's like. PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU TALK TO HER.

shintaro on the other hand is such a mess. sorry to bring takane into everything💖 but having him sob in her arms is like the icing on the cake bc his thing with her is not THE problem but one of the (many) problems and shintaro REALLY doesn't learn. he is despaired over ayano and crying on takane again, just like back then. and he loves it in an insane way. because this is so comfortable. this is familiar. it is so so painful. he is so heartbroken but it is so familiar. its not more painful than having ayano by his side because ayano's company terrifies him. her survival is one in its kind in all the timelines, and it has been so terrifying to see something new after seeing the same for so long. especially because the something new is her going out with him of all things?? he has so much regret and self loathing and guilt and FEAR OF LOSING EVERYTHING BC NOW ITS NEW AND IT'S NEVER BEEN NEW AND THAT'S SO SCARY to work through that he cannot enjoy it, he's terrified of it instead and acted the way he did essentially so it'd end the way it'd end. and yeah he's whining about wanting her back and he really does but it's like... you know, the same as back then. lol.

so like ayano, he is also relieved. but in totally different ways. does that make sense. erm. hehe

#ask tag #headcanons #ayashin divorce

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everythingsinred · 7 months

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For the writers ask: 2, 3, 4, 17

thank u for asking <3 <3 <3

2) What is your favorite fic of yours? i hope this isn't too much of a cop-out answer but my favorite fic is always the one i'm working on. a lot of love goes into each one and if i'm not fully enthralled in a story i'm writing i might as well not write it at all, imo. i'm particularly proud of atrad right now, because it took a long time, as well as lots of research and i really wanted it to be well-written. but rn, even though i'm on pause for a bit, subjectives is my fav bc it's the one i'm working on now.

3) What fic of yours do you think is underrated? it's hard to say when it comes to the ga fandom bc there's usually not as many readers at all, but i must say lack of interaction is what caused me to put not what we should be on the backburner for a few years. i fully intend to write all of it some day, but it is hard to get motivated when it's also a fic i've received negative comments on ;-;

(w the fandom that won't be named, i really liked writing trust, but it was seemingly less interesting to others so i abandoned it. rest in peace...)

4) What fic of yours were you surprised by how popular it was? i am always shocked when any of my fics get attention! my first ga fics in the internship universe on ffn got a lil bit of attention and i was genuinely surprised! but my g*th*am fic play dead getting as much attention as it did really shocked me, especially bc i was on twitter back then and i had plenty of mutuals who would "live tweet" reading whenever a new chapter came out, and it honestly felt so touching... the higher u fly, the more u have to fall and all that.

when it comes to ga, i had surrendered to having no attention especially more recently, but i think atrad got a decent amount of attention for how small the fandom is! and lots of ppl would comment and give me their thoughts which meant a lot too, and which i wasn't fully expecting!

17) Do you have any wips that you can tell us about? What are you most excited for in you wip?

obviously, i still have nwwsb, which someone asked abt recently! i'm very happy there's ppl out there who are interested in seeing it continue bc i am too <3 i'm thinking after subjectives, i'll probably continue nwwsb for a while (tho i had planned on it being rly long so i might get distracted by another project eventually before finishing it lmao)

i also wrote ~7 chapters of a zombie au a few years ago that i enjoyed but never posted bc pretty much all i saw on tumblr back then were ppl hating on zombie aus. i think i'd have to rewrite what i have though if i were to post it, which is why i'm not as excited about that project. i don't like restarting lol

and i also have a restaurant au i like, but it would likely not be quite as long as my other fics <3

and what i'm most excited abt is just sharing more fics for people to enjoy! i love writing natsumikan fanfic and giving as much as i can to this fandom and tho it seems to be in a constant state of shrinking, i won't let myself get too discouraged! thank u to all who read and enjoy my fics <3 i very much appreciate it!

send me a fic writing ask if you would like!

#ga #gakuen alice #thank u ur so nice for asking <3 #mizutaama #answered #ask games #writing asks #nwwsb #subjectives #all things rancid and delicate

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tiredstressedemotionalmess · 1 year

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okay so (mostly for my own benefit/organization) heres some shit i have coming up:

- ttid chapter 28. ik what im doing and i have a few little parts written out already, but like 99% of the chapter still needs to be written. im hoping to finish that this week since i know whats going on with that and im used to writing that story in between classes and shit. hopefully it will be out this weekend, or early next week at the latest

-the last wish au (fucking FINALLY right?). i got pretty stuck with writers block for it for a WHILE, so i decided to just put it on the back-burner for a bit. recently, though, ive gotten all my thoughts and shit down in once place, and basically created a VERY detailed outline. bc its probably gonna be shorter than ttid (like. a handful of longer chapters most likely instead of ) im planning to write all/almost all of it over my spring break next week, so i can edit/post the chapters in the following weeks

-oneshots!! i have too fucking many oneshot ideas, most of which are supposed to be gifts for people :D i tend to work on oneshots when i need breaks fron longer projects, so they will most likely (hopefully) be worked on during break in between the last wish au and potential ttid shit. ideally id like to finish one or two, but we'll see how it goes bc it really depends on my flow for other projects

-this unnamed fucking fic that i literally just had the idea for in study hall :D uh yeah. i was struck with a Concept and i wrote two pages of notes abt it in study hall, and i would very much like to write this thing as soon as possible bc it feels like its gonna be either a short multi-chapter fic or a reeeeeeeally long oneshot that takes place primarily in the city, and ive never really written anything like that before and im very fucking excited by this idea and- yeah gdhdghd at the very least i wanna try and get a better idea of the plotline or ending or something over break. ive got no clue when the fuck this is gonna come out, but im excited by it and i wanna at least start working on it soon :D

if anyone has questions abt any of these projects, feel free to send me an ask bc i am very excited by all of them and knowing people are interested will definitely help my motivation lmao

#my writing #my fics #danger days fics #ttid #i think i have like. 5? oneshot ideas that've been floating around in ny brains sooo #yeah hopefully i get some of those done finally #im mostly gonna try and work through the last wish au tho bc ive been planning that shit out for fucking EVER #but i kept either being too busy to work on it or getting dmacked in the face by writers block so #it will feel really fucking good to finally get that shit done lol

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straighttohellbuddy · 1 year

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HELLO SO THAT FIC U POSTED???? CHANGED ME FOREVER. I relate to that other anon deeply my brain chemistry will never be the same. it frankly hasn't been the same since the fic was just snippets you posted abt once in a while and now it's posted and it's A 25K DELIGHT AND I JUST---- *SCREAMS**SQUEALS**CRIES*

I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW PRESENT IT'S BEEN IN MY MIND SINCE FOREVER KQMCLWKFS I'm dying. reader is great her thing with Wilbur is great I am screaming and crying and Oh My God thank u for sharing it w us I am. /SCREAMING./

no but genuinely I've been grinning and letting out like. fickin SQUEALS for over an hour kqmflsjxkalck like I'm so glad and happy I got to read it istg. u have SUCH a way with words?????? and characterisation??????? and like. developing relationships hello????????? I am in shambles. every once in a while I return to ur writing bc it's just So Good and now I got to do it thru this fic I've been excited for for the last????? TWO YEARS I THINK. idk how long it's been but it's been A WHILE so thank u thank u thank u thank u not only did it live up to my expectations it also absolutely went over them. thank u genuinely you've made my past two years pretty much. for the last however long there hasn't been a week in which I haven't thought abt reader and Q's interaction (the snippet of ‘this is how it started the last time’) for at least an hour straight genuinely like. and haVING CONTEXT??????

anyway basically this is like a huge thing for me and I just thought I'd tell u that😭💕 like I hope u know your writing has been v important to me for a while, from what you love you devour to like. everything kinda but wylyd just struck a chord w me if that makes sense lmao and like. I would've totally gotten it if you'd lost interest but I'm glad u didn't and decided to share that absolutely amazing fic💕💕

(*25K*!!!! oh my god!!!!! I wasn't before either, but now I will literally never stop thinking abt it)

((THE GHOSTBUR STUFF WAS SO SWEET)) ((and heartbreaking in the most PERFECT manner)) ((and don't get me STARTED on Dream. and Q. and WILBUR OH MY GOD WILBUR WILBUR WILBUR WILBUR-------))))))(and reader oh my god reader I will never shut up about reader)

I'm gonna rotate your message in my head like a microwave dish for the rest of my life I love you so much 💖💖💖 I've been meaning to answer this for days but I wanted to take the time to properly answer it because I'm going to ramble about this fuckin fic I hope you know!!

this fic means so so much to me and I'm so glad that I finally got it published, but also that I ended up publishing it like this, like I definitely could have added more but I think it would have ended up kind of bloated, and it's already such a huge fic 😅😅 the vignette style makes me feel like I'm getting snapshots of the important moments while still getting the sense of the reader having a life between scenes, and the rest of the dsmp plot still going on around them

I mean this so genuinely, WIPS are always In Progress, I never forget a fic, I still reread what I have of my Mafia!Corpse AU from 2019 and wonder what I should add next, same with the other like, 20 drafts I have. 😅😅 I hope they all get published eventually, but I feel very lucky to have come back to this and recognise that it's good enough to put out there ☺️☺️

but OKAY I WANNA TALK ABOUT THE READER'S RELATIONSHIPS WITH ALL THESE FUCKING CHARACTERS BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME YELL !! im making this into it's own post because i literally wrote so much just talking about the reader and dream and i have so much to say about them and Q and WILBUR and i'll tag u xx i LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE THIS FIC IT STILL MAKES ME FERAL

#your local homosexual with no chill

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IM SORRY FOR PLANTING THE IDEA IN UR HEAD THAT I WOULD TRY TO DECEIVE U /GEN

being 14 and stupid is a valid reason. i too was 14 and stupid at one point

i get really jealous when my fav fictional characters get into a relationship (assuming i like them romantically) and so .. best for me to not ship them.. and also best for me to not fall for characters that will get together with someone. loz:totk spoilers but seeing sidon got married actually broke my heart..... i was so sad...

ACTUALLY PHOENIX AND MILES DO HAVE A RIVALRY UR RIGHT.. i dont ALWAYS hate enemies to lovers. but they were friends first.. and then they became friends again. so i think i categorize them differently in my head

kidd becoming king of the pirates sounds pretty impossible to me because.. i fully believe luffy will do it. but i can see how it would happen if like. luffy gets the one piece but doesnt take credit for it or something. i could also kinda see a route where luffy, kidd, and law all reach the end point together

in the world of pirates i guess most can be forgiven. i definitely DO forget abt how awful some characters were so his way of just rewriting them to be nicer ... kinda works..

u might have linked the wrong video bc i dont remember him saying anything about sanji's eyebrow swirl. maybe i wasnt paying enough attention,, i do think i like partially noticed that oda's signature has sanji's eyebrow swirl but ... yeah that is VERY telling

"and i want to beat him to death with hammers . who said that" LMAO i can relate..

AGHH U WORDED IT SO WELL.. "zoro is boisterous." YES HE IS... UR SO RIGHT.. like he has a lot of quieter moments post timeskip but when hes loud hes LOUD,, i watched episode 2 which is the buggy episode (idk if he shows up later or not) but i did Not Hear the fuck... i mustve filtered it out. too used to hearing cuss words..

RIGHT, they did a great job with the casting. trans koby is so good..

"GOD I WISH SHE WAS REAL" ME TOO

"thank you for showing me!! :D" <3 :)

i found out google had a record of a bunch of accounts that used my email with passwords that mightve been compromised. like . i found that a while ago. but i couldnt log into any of the accounts because . well probably because they WERE compromised. and half of it i was just like ... i dont remember this.... im just living my life with probably a million accounts on various websites that have been stolen. actually my og minecraft account from when i was 9 was stolen.. it was heartbreaking.

THAJK U i will enjoy. i will.

gasp . i.. that is very sweet of u to offer, thank u. my music taste is honestly really hard to pin down i think.. from what i have gathered from other people

"I FUNDED IT" YOU DID!!

"some people have said it seemed fake/forced" noo 😭😭. iñaki seems too genuine for that. i fully believe he was actually that excited. i think he just kinda has that awkward... dare i say autistic... energy. so his interactions with people probably seem forced no matter what. i am just speculating though

was it the zosan comic because i had seen that on my own timeline like 5 times already before u reblogged it LOL

genuinely i think its just because i have dissociative amnesia ahjdhs. but i do think its a funny story to tell people... like yeah... i forgot....

my gender evolution has been genderfluid -> cis girl -> genderfluid -> cis girl -> genderfluid -> cis girl -> trans man? -> trans man who uses he/they pronouns -> transmasc -> nonbinary/transmasc (i usually say nonbinary)

and now i am questioning my gender again. the grind never stops 💪🔥🔥

i say im non binary bc i . gave up. like i am so sick of trying to figure it out ... ill just use the biggest umbrella term.

i do remember that guy who keeps showing up on the sbs for his extremely perverted questions about women... and i would actually send in a question for the sbs but I don't know japanese and he doesnt answer questions that arent in japanese. or so i have heard. i could use a translator though so maybe im just making excuses

it IS a bop.. thank u for the context i heart when ppl tell me things so im not confused. i havent seen rupauls drag race.. i did mean to at one point and then i .. forgot about it

"I USE THAT SAME PHRASE A LOT AND ACCIDENTALLY DO THAT SAME THING EVERY TIME LMAO" IM SO GLAD IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO DOES THAT AHJDS

OH PERFECT. MAGISTRATE OF SANJI!!! u get to sit in a courtroom full of sanji fans and judge ace attorney style cases

u havent even gotten to the death pact though have you?? LMAO

YES perfect. i agree its probably just cuz oda wants them to be more intimidating but thats not an interesting reason to me .. i want canonical reasoning behind the heights

"bisexuality of man or whatever" is so funny ..

i like dofuwani too but yeah i think they only really interact during marineford?? i think listing out what ships i like would be hard cuz i LIKE a lot of them but dont Care About most of them.. i care about shuggy.. and recently sanuso.. and ofc hanyagellan. i think thats it tbh. im way more likely to care about characters themselves rather than ships.

"im ngl hannyagellan is like a funny joke ship to me but if it becomes one of those crack ships u acciddentally get attached to im gonna be so mad (i wont be mad itll be really funny)" this is pretty much how i feel... like i was joking and i think its turning into . not a joke... i think im starting to be serious.....

i also miss kuina. like she barely appeared but she has such a big impact.... i wish . she. hadnt died. also i think about how her father's last words to her might have been that she can never be the strongest swordsman, because she was born female. i hate that guy... (her dad). i have seen people say her dad killed her or something and i dont like that theory. first of all i dont think her dad is evil like that. i think hes just your regular sexist dad lmao. but also i feel like it cheapens the impact of her death.

this panel is so good and. like. idk i feel like him realizing that humans are inherently weak is so important to his character.. thats why he protects weak people. because he sees his childhood friend in them. or thats my theory anyways,,

somewhat unrelated but i have always been amazed that people can imagine amvs/animations/stories while listening to music. like my aphantasia isnt that bad but HOW... doesnt the music block out all your thoughts... thats what it does for me...

ur probably right that it really was a gender thing im just.. huffing copium. im coping. i cant handle the reality that he might also be a sexist jerk

i think seeing plays is fun but being part of the production is way more exciting. i love getting to see all the behind the scenes work and like. i like being able to work with my hands a lot. and when i was spotlight for a few shows . that was so exciting. this is kinda lame but i get chills super easily from watching things (idk how else to explain this. chills. goosebumps. because im excited.) so whenever i would watch the shitty high school theatre productions we did i was still like. so proud of all the work that went into it. and i got chills every show. most of the time i didnt get to watch the show though because i was moving things on and off set. watching plays on youtube is so real.. i watched uh.. "natasha, pierre, and the great comet of 1812" on youtube. it was still very fun to watch. but yeah in person will always be better

NO i agree i dont rly think of robin as a mother either. i honestly dont like putting the parent role onto any of the older straw hats.. like why cant they just be cool older friends. an older person and younger person dynamic doesnt always have to be parent and child. i cant find the video but have u seen that video on youtube that has a bunch of sanji mother moments... its so cute..

ateez and stray kids were my favorites!!! not sure how familiar u are with kpop .. slang?? but i was ot8 for ateez (as in i liked everyone) and with stray kids changbin was my favorite. i still love them but they arent my hyperfixation rn. i was into bts when i was uhhh.. 12??

the video u sent seems fun and i will watch it after i finish this!!

*points* zosan liker.. /lh. i have seen quite a bit of themetalhiro but idk if im following them or not!! the other ppl i am not familiar with so yippee new content

i have plenty op thoughts i can share!! im honestly not good at asking questions so i tend to just say things n hope whoever im talking to can jump off whatever i say,,. i try to stay away from anything spoilery ofc but so many of my thoughts r spoilery... which is why i havent been throwing them all at u. and also some (a lot) of them are just .... law centered..... and ... u dont like him like i do... (which is fine ofc) i just dont wanna be annoying JSHRJ

ok this isnt really a theory or anything like that but i keep wanting to tell people about this and i am barely restraining myself so . i will tell u. ace sabo and luffy are called the asl brothers right? and ace... died.. my brothers and i also have the initials asl. or we did. but my deadname starts with an a.... my deadname and ace have something in common (theyre both dead).

thats not really anything but i just find it to be a very interesting coincidence . i like to think about it.

ok heres an actual thought. sorry if it sounds awkward. some of this would be spoilery so i will just not include it but. pirates are all about dreams. they have big, lofty goals that they dont usually tell people about, probably out of shame and embarrassment. in sabaody it is hinted that kidd and killer told people that they were going after the one piece, and they were laughed at for it. not many pirates are like luffy, who proudly proclaims that he will be king of the pirates and find the one piece.

i find it really interesting that crocodile is hinted at having had a dream that was only possible through taking over alabasta. and enel's dream was to get to the "endless varse", even after being defeated he still headed towards his dream. he just ended up going alone. big mom's dream is a utopia where every race can live peacefully together. they all are willing to do awful things for the sake of their dreams.

but again, the difference between luffy and these other people and their dreams is that luffy is not hurting people in the pursuit of his dream. he isnt causing a bunch of people to suffer. in fact, he is doing the opposite. he has continuously been shown to free people from their oppressive rulers, and he crushes the dreams of those who are willing to sacrifice innocent people to achieve their goals.

i dont really have an end point to this but i think that the differences are kind of proof that luffy is going to actually succeed. because he is good at heart. because he doesnt kill people for the sake of his dream. and also i pity the people he defeated. like yeah theyre awful. but i cant help but wonder what crocodile wanted. i cant help but think about what kind of circumstances led them to that point in their life

uhm uhmm yeah... i will think of questions to ask u.. so that u dont have to worry about asking Me questions..

"also p.s. there is never any pressure to watch any of the videos i link it is more for a sourcing purpose unless u actively want to watch them" i watched them anyways!! but i rly appreciate this .. tbh, usually i wont watch something when someone asks me to (pda autism perhaps), but when u say theres no pressure im like "oh. ok. that means i can do whatever i want.." and then i end up watching it most of the time. bc i am curious.

sanji is such a mess... i love that first image what a goofy face . i wish i could send videos through asks cuz i have.. a video from the 4kids dub saved.. that i think is funny... maybe i will send it another way. but alas. i will give u this instead.

CAN’T BELIEVE U WOULD SO SUCH A THING!! /j

NO FR I ACTUALLY LIKE YONA BUT. NOOO THEY MARRIED OFF MY MAN!!!!

i felt similarly when they almost married off sanji. but i really like pudding too. also hey why the FUCK did they make her 16-!!! (will never not be mad about it. they'd be kinda cute together if she wasnt tbh!!)

yea i assume the theories that are like “buggy will find the one piece first” or “kidd will become pirate king!” all assume luffy will do it in the way that matters. i COULD see the worst gen trio reaching it together but part of me really wants all the strawhats there when luffy finds it 🥺

i absolutely couldve linked the wrong video its been a while since i watched it lmao SORRY U SAT THROUGH A SANJI VIDEO FOR NOTHING

okay but regarding zoro THIS VIDEO IM IN THE MIDDLE OF WATCHING SO I KNOW ITS THE RIGHT ONE. around 25 minutes in he starts discussing opla zoro’s issues and at 26:12 he brings up a little zoro recipe card that is exactly what we’ve been saying HAHA and dw u didnt miss the fuck its later on in the season.

all these stolen accounts….all around me are familiar faces…worn out places…..

i dont think inaki gives the impression of being autistic but with english being his second language he may just have that slight hesitation of understanding his brain working out the the english (and this is just ME suspecting and i could be totally off base) but especially in the oda video where everything oda says is translated through japanese to english but his first language is spanish kvnkd. i dont mean to imply i think hes bad at english or anything but when ppl say stuff to me in spanish (which i took for a few years) i always have to mega process it in my brain first

“was it the zosan comic” [hangs my head in shame] m..m…..maybe.,

A DIFFERENT IRL FRIEND OF MINE (who is very asexual, for reference) GOT A TUMBLR WITHOUT TELLING ME AND HAD BEEN FOLLOWING ME AND I HAD PREVIOUSLY TOLD HIM “YEA U SHOULD GET A TUMBLR BUT DONT WORRY ABOUT FOLLOWING ME U PROB WONT LIKE WHAT I POST HAHAHA….WHEN I FOUND OUT HE HAD BEEN FOLLOWING ME I WAS SO. EMBARR5ASSED. ALL MY ONE PIECE YAOI…AND VAMPIRE HORNY…ON FULL DISPLAY…I WAS LIKE PLEASE TELL ME YOU’RE FILTERING THE CONTENT . I NEED U TO PUT “ZOSAN” ON UR FILTER ASK DONT ASK ME WHAT IT MEANS,

your gender just “i forgor..”

LMAO THE GENDER QUESTIONING GRIND. WE ARE ON IT TOGETHER MY BROTHER. mine was like. cis girl -> demigirl -> still demigirl but casually bc i kept forgetting -> questioning?? -> genderfluid?? or bigender?? is where i currently am at.

I REMEMBER THAT GUY… SHOO..SHOO

he has mentioned a couple questions as being from overseas, but idk if they were sent in english originally and translated or what. we could Try

so to be fair i have only seen one season of drag race (i think it was 7. the one with kim chi) but i watch trixie and katya a lot so i absorb their knowledge. i really like drag. i kinda wanna try it someday 🧍

“OH PERFECT. MAGISTRATE OF SANJI!!! u get to sit in a courtroom full of sanji fans and judge ace attorney style cases” i literally. feel like i know exactly how this would go.

DUDEBROS WHO THINK HE’S COOL: [BANGS GAVEL] GUILTY

PPL WHO THINK HIS TREATMENT OF WOMEN IS PERFECT AND RESPECTABLE: [BANGS GAVEL] GUILTY

EIICHIRO ODA: [BANGS GAVEL] GUILTY

WOMEN WHO THINK HE’S A PATHETIC MEOW MEOW: [BANGS GAVEL] innocent

GAY PPL WHO PLAY WITH HIM LIKE TOYS: [BANGS GAVEL] innocent

(for legal reasons (haha get it) this is a joke bc all of these have nuance too them ofc. i think he’s very cool sometimes. but other times he is a LOSER. and . i guess i should give oda credit for like. making him,)

I HAVENT GOTTEN TO THE DEATH PACT YOU’RE VERY CORRECT BUT HEAR ME OUT: …THE ZOSANERS TALK ABOUT IT A LOT AND IT SOUNDS COMPELLING,

I LIKE SHUGGY. I WOULD LIKE CROSS GUILD AS A POLY SHIP MORE IF IT DIDNT FEEL MEAN WITH HOW OFTEN THEY BEAT UP ON BUGGY AND ALSO BC I THINK BUGGY BELONGS WITH MR. RED HAIR. the dynamic of shanks being desperate and pining over buggy while buggy thinks he hates him/knows but still hates him. is so funny. i love a onesided ship tbh

OH NO BRO….HANNYAGELLAN…ITS HAPPENING…

kuina gives me a lot of feelings. i love her and everything she stood for. and her time with us as the audience was so brief but we remember her too. i like thinking about what she could have been if we got to see her grown up bc she was such an awesome kid. to influence someone like zoro too. and yea koshiro seems generally pretty cool but that was FUCKED UP and im gonna be mad about it forever. i’ve also heard that “falling down the stairs” in japan can be a way of getting around saying it was a suicide and when i first got into the fandom that was compelling to me but now i dont like it bc. she wouldnt have done that. she made her promise with zoro. she was probably feeling more hopeful about her dream than ever. but then…one small accident and she’s gone. it fucks me up :/ it fucked ZORO up. ive never made the connection that thats why he protects weak people…ah . i think to me kuina made a promise, and zoro takes promises very seriously. he’s very blunt in that he takes things at face value and so a promise is an ironclad thing. i dont think hes stupid and cant tell when someone is being deceptive but i think he thinks deception in that way is kind of unhonorable.

IF I MAY in one of my fics i set aside part of a chapter (titled zoro alone. hehehe atla reference) and wrote this about zoro and kuina. its very simple and doesnt dive deep but i like it

“Zoro looks up from his walk along the path. Even in the near afternoon sun, the forest and its surroundings are grayish from the fog. Something snaps a twig. He glances over and spots a buck hopping through the forest in the distance.

Dreams. Ambitions. Drive. Do what that day stole from Kuina. Defeat Dracule Mihawk. Become the world’s greatest swordsman- for both of them. They’re lofty goals- but he can achieve them. There’s no use in doubt or regret.

He finds himself in the clearing. That same damn clearing from the first night. In fact, if he looks closely, he can still see the imprints of his boots, paced in circles in the dirt. It’s infuriating. This isn’t a good sign for his current navigational endeavors. Nonetheless, he perseveres, heading the way he remembers Sanji to have taken them yesterday.

Kuina. He doesn’t think of her as often as some might think. He doesn’t dwell on the past, only reflects on it. Today he is reflecting. The day he waited for Kuina by the lake, only for Koushirou to come instead. There’s been an accident, he’d said. She’s gone, he’d said. She’d been sick. She’d tripped. She’d fallen down the stairs.

Zoro remembered how they’d overworked themselves the day before, training together. He had some childish thoughts that day. Impulsive and hurtful. He tried not to have those anymore. He instead wanted to focus on achieving what they had set out for themselves: their promise.”

i am always imagining amvs in my head to music. i make ANIMATICS in my head to music. but do i ever actually make those things….no. i do not

as a sanji liker i am huffing copium everyday. dont worry. dont worry about it. [streteches out my hand] lets take ibuprofen together

i get chills during performances too!! its just. SO COOL!!!! TO SEE PEOPLE ACT WITH SUCH PASSION AND PORTRAY EPIC STORIES..RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!! LIVE!! AH!!! THOSE BITVHES IN THE SHAKESPEAREAN ERA HAD A POINT

i agree actually! theyre a family but not literally. the mothering some of them show is just cute. and um YES OF COURSE ive seen the sanji mother moments video. god esp pre ts he was so damn cute sometimes 😭 im reading ur message and seeing some of ur posts now and i just feel like this

“u like sanji now dont u rowan”

i think for ateez my friends favorite is seongwha…and my other friend’s bias in ateez is…i dont remember actually,

I LIKE LAW!!! LAW ME UP!!! IM THE MAGISTRATE AFTER ALL!!!! ksjncdkj no but really he isnt one of my ABSOLUTE FAVS but i really like him!! and after corazon…….law is just very compelling ok. i saved the hawaiian shirt comic to my phone as well btw.

omg…rip to ace and also ur deadname i suppose…thats kind of funny.

about ur thoughts on dreams: i…forgot crocodile had a dream beyond alabasta. i thought he just wanted power bc hes sand and its a sand country so it would be perfect for him. plus the poneglyph. now im really curious…i wonder if it relates to his backstory and the possible trans-ness of it? i mean…hm. the poneglyph was weapon related,...idk . croc backstory when…

and ur right about that! luffy is selfish and he’s not a hero but hes also NOT INTERESTED IN BEING NEEDLESSLY TERRIBLE…bc he’s after freedom and what use is it if u destory the freedom of others while searching for it for yourself? undermines your entire goal

i see ur video and i will respond to it shortly but man i DONT KNOW IF I CAN DO IT. HIS 4DUB VOICE PAINS ME PHYSICALLY

speaking of videos. i have a playlist where i put my fav one piece shits. again u do not have to watch any of these. but feel free to peruse

also HERE’S SOMETHING: the other day my friend asked me what i think the one piece is…and having not even reached joyboy/nika shit yet (i shouldnt know about that but alas. spoilers aplenty on the internet) i was freeballing but:

my friend @ liliflower137 had a crack theory that the one piece should be gold roger’s bug collection and with luffy’s love for beetles and the sense of adventure instilled from that i was like. i actually would not be upset at all if that was the case

so i think it might be related to…joyboy/nika/ the SUN…i think maybe its like a. a hat maybe. thats my guess. sun hat. from the original joy boy. its not a good guess but its all i HAVe

also…why do they call him bartolomeo the cannibal. i swear they didnt say anything about him eating people upon introduction. they just call him that. did i miss something. why is bartolomeo called a cannibal and yet when i, big mom,

to end here’s a good zoro meme for u

#march anon #asks #replies #long post

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HAPPY FUCKING SUNDAY MY LITTLE IRIS!!! I HOPE THE SUN IS SHINING AND THE BRAIN IS BRAINING MWAHHH i am here to present you another silly little tiktok hehehe u mentioned nikolai as one of your blorbos so this was JUST RIGHT it made me laugh... maybe a bit too much........... i hope u enjoy LOVE U

https://www.tiktok.com/@pencil.slipped/video/7331589407524408618

- @softgirlgonehaywire

HELLOOOOOOO MY LOVELY SUNFLOWER happy. monday ….. almost tuesday …… hey hey did u know that sunflowers turn to face each other when there isn’t any sunlight around??? idk if that’s true it’s just smth i heard ISN’T IT SO SWEET THOUGH :(((( they’re so cute i’m weeping……

PHDJDJFUFJ THE TIKTOK???? MICKEY????? 😭😭😭😭 thank u it broke me a little i think OK BUT THEY WOULD GET ALONG WOULDN’T THEY…. gojo has a thing for murderous meowmeows <333 nikolai is one of those blorbos that i havent actually Met yet but i know a bit abt him and i love him oh so much….. i also have the biggest weakness for jester-inspired characters so i simply can’t resist him :’3 i am nomnoming the nikolai content thank u my dearest mickey for ur tribute

ALSOOOO i’m using this ask as an opportunity to respond to ur other letter hehe :33 i have a lot to say sadly i’m also scatterbrained & sleepy but i’m gonna try to remember everything !!! rubbing my three remaining braincells together just for u <33

ok first off some ari lore … my fave season is autumn w summer close behind BUT since spring is ur favorite we can have a spring wedding <33 in knight!reader’s honour too!!!! they’ll be there somewhere… lurking…… sunbathing……. the meowmeow of all time

AND AND when it comes to coffee and tea i’m not picky!! i love them both!!! no matter what kind!!! i like any and all coffee combos, just depends on my mood it’s the caffeine addiction i think but my overall preference is probably black w just a lil bit of cream <333 it has to be super duper hot bc lukewarm coffee makes me deeply uncomfortable (super duper cold is fine though!!) and i love love tea i couldn’t live w/o it…… my only pref is that i like to pour some cream in my black tea, and some honey in herbal tea :33 WHAT ABT U MICKEY I HAVE TO KNOW the signals in my brain tell me u like cold coffee more than warm coffee….. but i don’t even know if u drink coffee at all…… ALSO I NEED TO KNOW UR FAV KIND OF TEA i’ll make it for u in my brain every morning 🙏🙏

moving on to until dawn ARI/MICKEY GOING STRONG AS ALWAYS ashley is my least favorite character 😳😳 i just feel like everyone else is sooo girlypop or silly or at least a lil queer but she’s just kinda There……… for the chris romance………. and ofc i can’t forgive the emily slander!!!! we need to protect our wife mickey :((( nobody gets her like we do i fear

AND AAAA A REMAKE !!! WAITTTT THAT’S SO EXCITING MORE INTERACTIONS TOO…… ok but screaming while playing it was soooo real of u if i ever played it on my own i fear i wouldn’t survive AND THE SOUNDTRACKS!!!! god mickey i just remembered i still haven’t listened to the ones u recommended before :’33 i have them all written down so trust that i’ll get to them hehe BUT THESE ONES….. gosh i’m a little enamored w them….,, the theme from the lighthouse is soooo atmospheric i can practically taste the Vibe of it all…… it’s the kind of theme that would give me immense anxiety if i watched the movie LMAO but it’s somehow so pretty too yk??? the murky sea vibe…. AND THE THEME FROM THE WITCH goshhhh it’s genuinely so bewitching pun intended IT’S SO ENCHANTING???? just so vivid…. i alr know his work for until dawn is gonna make everything sooo much more intense and authentic i’m so excited mickey …… when u play it u gotta post abt it so i can feel included PHDKDBDJDB

ANYWAY BSD YAY YAY :3333 i feel like u mentioned having finished it all in another letter… i think i might’ve forgotten to respond to it 😔😔 forgive me and my scatterbrained tendencies KNOWING U ENJOYED IT MAKES ME SOOO EXCITED i’m a little afraid that i’ll fall out of my perpetual jjk phase if i watch anything else but literally the MOMENT i start watching bsd again i’m running over to ur blanket fort!!! i’m so excited to compare favs and moments we like hehe…. nikolai is just so sillyyy and i was really moved by that One panel where he takes off his mask and tells atsushi that he’s perfectly sane i must’ve been like 15 when i first saw it??? blew my mind i think it kinda set the tone for the villains i enjoy now … nikolai crawled so kenny could sprint… etc etc……. silly little queer villains who don’t remember what regret feels like anymore <3333

ALSO MICKEY u like tecchou right….. obv i don’t know much abt either one yet but i alr love jouno a lot!! once again we’re the duo of all time >:33 AND MANNNNN….. if u ever start writing for bsd just know i’ll be the first in line to eat it up !! i just know ur dazai would be the most lovesick catcoded little trainwreck ever 🥺🥺 an image of prince!dazai just flooded my brain oh no

one last thing!!!! before i forget!!!!! a little birdie told me that u started reading no longer human….. 👀👀👀 and what u said abt the mc being autistic made me think of another existentialist book where the mc is commonly interpreted as being a sociopath or something similar but he’s Literally Just Autistic. to me. there’s lots of room for interpretation but the coding is very much there … might not be very good rep because he does kill a guy lmao but i love him he means the world to me :((( the book is ”the stranger” by albert camus btw it’s short and u can read it online here i ADORE camus’ style of writing sm…. the vibe of it all….. the main themes are isolation + what it means to be human and. idk it just really really moved me… esp the very last line…. :c it’s very dear to me!! would highly recommend hehe

ok that’s all i think…, i always worry that i forgot to mention something or comment on something hhhh my brain really is just . a bit scattered all the time T_T BUT ILY MICKEY thank u for always checking in my sunniest little flower i hope u have dreams so sweet u wake up smiling <33333 pressing many tiny kisses on ur nose and cheeks and forehead mwah mwah mwah

#ALSO UR TAGS ON THE UNTIL DAWN LETTER MADE ME LAUGH SM MICKEY i love u so dearly 😭😭😭😭#feel free to be as yan as u want this is a safe space <333 i WAS in fact writing i swear i did nothing but write all sunday …..#think i stayed up til like . 4 in the morning so im a bit of a wreck rn i hope this ended up coherent PHDJFJ #IM SO EXCITED FOR U TO READ THE FIC im a lil nervous to post it bc i really want it to end up Good yk 👉👈#and i especially want it to end up enjoyable for u!!! when it comes to knight!royalty fics ur approval means the mostest <33 #as i was writing i couldnt stop thinking abt knight!reader & prince!toru having a lil playdate w knight!sugu & royalty!reader :33 #i think prince!toru would piss royalty!reader off so badly that they’d try to bite him and that would set knight!reader off……..#so really it’s more like knight!sugu babysitting three feral puppies pdhdjeyfh #they r holding hands in my brain :))#ask tag ✩#mickey !! ✩

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