#probably gonna delete this

[otrtbs]

y’all are so weird. if you hate the way i characterized regulus in ahb! then,,, stop reading it? no one is forcing you to read it?? you can just put it down,,, you know that right???? who has the gun to your head making you click next chapter??? you can just stop reading it at any time. no really, trust me!

#but you can’t do that bc then you’ll feel like you're ‘missing out’ on something you want to be a part of #so you’re gonna force yourself to read it so you can understand the references #which is fine. i guess. #but to make that choice AND COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #PUBLICALLY #like it’s the great burden of your life #like bud just put the fic down #or shut up #pink sticky notes aren’t worth it lmfaoo i swear #you hate the writing and you hate regulus ….well i have bad news for u #neither get any better LMFAO. SO WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE? #‘forcing themselves to read it bc ppl are talking abt it’ here’s an idea. don’t. do. that. #haha 😃 #art heist baby! #probably gonna delete this #i feel like i bitch a lot on here soz xx

[hotgirlsreadsmut]

I feel naked without my eyeliner 🫣

#mine #probably gonna delete this #but like eyes 👁️👅👁️

[criminal-sen]

Ough speaking of heteronormative bullshit leaking into queer culture. Some of the shit I see on my followed transmasc tags is like 'teehheee but what if i was your cute little tboy wife who cooked and cleaned while you went out and worked.. teeheee..' and not to shit on anyones kinks but uh. Oh wait no. Fuck that. I'm shitting on your kink. Fucking. Pick a better one ffs

#probably gonna delete this #but like. come the fuck on. am i the asshole here.. really:/

[thatfinnickkid]

Pensive thoughts for the night

#probably gonna delete this #me #gay #selfie #send thoughts

[rogerzsteven]

At the end of the day, people don't care. They do not care. That person you see as online friend? Close the app and you don't exist to them. The people you're desperately trying to make yourself heard? Don't even bother. The second they have to take action for the sake of the friendship, you no longer matter. People do not care other than their inner conscience and their own comfort. You're not their real friend, you're just here for them to spend their time. At the end of the day, you're on your own and none of it matters.

#sorry to be a downer i had to let it out #im sure there are real people out there #its just im emotionally overwhelmed and regret so much #probably gonna delete this

[marvelingjules]

Me: *trying to work on a craft that takes my focus, after a long day at work followed immediately by apartment-stuff shopping*

My dad: *keeps complaining about things re: my move tomorrow. (It’s gonna be raining, he doesn’t remember where he put the directions for how to put my bed frame back together, oh the football game is tomorrow he might need to set up my TV first - and then giving me a dirty look when I say I didn’t get my wifi set up yet*

Me: I need a break.

Dad, in the most obnoxious voice possible: Take a break!

Me: *deep breaths*

#Jules vents #probably gonna delete this #I’m just super tired and I haven’t eaten today and shopping was Stressful AF #I’m pretty sure I’m overstimulated atm and it’s making me cranky

[beatriceeverytuesday-old]

My therapist: I will never understand forcing people to do something they don’t want to do for the sake of tradition or any other reason

Family member: *hasn’t stopped being upset and ranting about my sibling who doesn’t wanna wear a tie to mass and how selfish and ridiculous that is while also forcing me to wear a bridesmaid dress to another sibling’s wedding*

Me: *stuck between this unstoppable force and immovable object* *shaking so hard in this dress I’m gonna be sick but knowing I can’t stand up for myself*

#i hate it here #i hate dysphoria and how anxious it makes me #i feel like im overreacting :/ #but i cant stop the panic attack #dysphoria tw #probably gonna delete this #i just needed to say it somewhere

[grayeyedandroid]

i had to end a relationship with someone i really loved recently, because it turned out she had been lying to me about pretty much everything, and had never really cared about me. tomorrow is her birthday. i don’t know how im going to cope. i hate the fireworks. i hate that it reminds me of her. i dont know why i keep getting myself into these situations: people leaving and yet still being left to kill the relationship, forced to use my own hands to end something i knew had ended long ago.  

#wow look at that my first tumblr dot com vent post #probably gonna delete this #im simply going through it ok #if i start posting angsty notes app poetry this is why #sorry yall

[wandaswigglywoes]

Mrppp im considering opening some pet portrait commissions~ im thinking about getting another tattoo, and truthfully I ain’t got tattoo monies.

(I just want some play money lmfao)

so anyway wanted to get some opinions on whether ppl would be genuinely interested. Id probably only do headshots bcs body proportions piss me off and also I have carpal tunnel so I can only draw so much at a time without my hand aching and cramping. Probably wouldn’t charge more than 20 USD. I’ll include some examples; most are just memorial art and one was just for fun.

Latest. I would link my Instagram but… that has super old art on it and I’d be highkey e m b a r r a s s e d. Cat headshots would probably be 10 lmfao I am shit at cats. 🤡 would also be willing to try other animals for cheaper too~

#I keep going back and fourth on doing this #the extra money would be cool but my add barely lets me write #probably gonna delete this #I have more examples if anyone wants

[shanie-the-toyaddict]

I'm gonna need the Zowens slow burn to come to a full boil very soon because I'm starting to get burnt out waiting.

I'm three chapters into the last part of "Saved" and the Word file for the story is still named "Document1" because I can't be bothered to change it to the title. I have four different Zowens WIPs right now that I keep opening the files for, writing 100 words, then ignoring for 3 days. And that's only the ones I haven't abandoned. I have even more WIP ideas that I want to do but I just don't have the energy.

I'm like that meme of the guy poking it with a stick. I'm sick of waiting. It's getting frustrating to keep this up. I feel like at this point I'm expected to create content. Like people are relying on me and I'm making this stuff for them, while my personal projects are being neglected.

It's starting to affect my IRL stuff too. I'm missing medication, my sleep schedule is a wreck, and I'm getting nothing done around the apartment. There are entire weekends when I don't leave the house, not even to get the mail. I wake up, get on the computer, open my stuff and don't get up until I start shaking from lack of food, drink, meds, sleep whatever.

I'm grateful for everything Zaynee does (no really darling you have no idea) and I want to cry that Mith has returned on twitter but I need the WWE to hurry up and bring this ship back to life because I'm so damn tired.

Not angry. I love them so much and I love all of you even more.

Just... tired.

#probably gonna delete this #Ignore me

[water-h0e]

Can we get a selfie?????

Here u are

#probably gonna delete this #so enjoy it #kisses #<3

[ethan-hawke]

really tired of dealing with a piece of shit father 😒

#text post #i really think i'm done this time #can't deal with his shit anymore #probably gonna delete this

[mousegirlpodcast]

I’m having a baaaad night, any mutuals wanna watch dumb shows and braid each others hair

#H talks #i need it so bad rn not even gonna lie #Probably gonna delete this

[ffxcvxvc]

But growing up ain't what I thought it would be, nah

All I ever wanted was To be the things that I was not When I tried to touch the stars My arms were never long enough I didn't care, 'cause it felt like I was gettin' there All the summer nights that I would stare up As I wondered what's out there But growing up ain't what I thought it would be, nah [Chorus] I'm getting older, I miss the days When there was so much time left to waste It isn't over, there's still a chance

I'm getting older and I don't know how to explain the life setbacks that I've had. It makes me not want to be emotionally open with others for fear that they'll ask me ✨questions✨ about where I am in life. But also I get/am lonely and want to connect with others. It's weird. I'm doing okay financially thanks to help from my family but it feels awkward explaining that as well.

There's been times in my life when I've been "on track" and just felt so so much more confident and like a different person and I think I exuded that confidence. Being detached isn't great but I don't what else to do for fear of judgement or questions that I don't feel comfortable answering.

This isn't a fun phase of life. But- maybe just the next 6 months and then I'll be through it.

#music #song #personal #probably gonna delete this #for 13 years I had a tumblr where weeklyish I'd put my most personal thoughts like a diary #This is cathartic #but nobody *really* needs to see this or can help #So no one told you life was gonna be this way #Your job's a joke #you're broke #your love life's D.O.A. #It's like you're always stuck in second gear #When it hasn't been your day #your week #Your month #or even your year #friends song #a series i did not watch #Youtube

[love-and-books320]

I'm sad does anyone wanna make me their world

#jkjk #unless... #not trying to be a pick me i just want to be loved #i would be so easy to take advantage of when im sad #time to go to therapy #probably gonna delete this #sad #depression #hopeless romantic

[sunflowers-and-a-tardis]

attendance is stupid. like what. why do you care. i can do the homework. i can catch up. let me miss a few days PLEASE.

#not this school year cause im at a good school now but last school year #i was suffering so much #i couldn't get out of bed in the mornings #it was torture #and of course i got chewed out by teachers and principals and even fellow students #cause my attendance was shit #i missed like a day a week #my classmates were pissed at me because they thought i just got to skip school willy nilly (i didn't) #and while some of my teachers were kind about it some were NOT #it was terrible #cause i had to choose between having bad attendance marks and angry teachers and peers #or going to school despite being extremely sick (even though it wasn't “sick enough” for the school) #anyway just a rant #pls ignore this #personal #probably gonna delete this #or at least the tags