#put her on the $20

[comehomet0myheart]

Past Lives works so well for me because I am so enamoured with pragmatism in fiction.

I read and watch a lot of stories about idealized love stories and I often enjoy them too! I spent my entire childhood believing that the teenagers who got together in the media I consumed would stay together forever. And then as I got older, I was naturally introduced to more stories about romances that didn’t work out. Still, it’s hard for me to think about those as pragmatic, most of them have this desire for sadness in them. They would make me feel as though the devastation was the point, that the narrative was forcefully bent toward the saddest outcome.

Past Lives doesn’t make me feel this way. Nora doesn’t stop talking to Hae Sung because of an unforeseen tragic circumstance. She makes a choice and goes through with it. Hae Sung puts it best during their conversation at the end of the film. She is the kind of person to leave. And he loves her because she is that kind of person. The “what-if” isn’t in wondering about if circumstances were different. No matter what, she would have chosen her plays over anything else. Her husband even notes that so much of how their relationship happened is because he fit so well into the life she wanted. The whole reason this film is called “Past Lives” is because that’s the only way to ponder about whether Nora and Hae Sung could be together.

It’s such a delightfully Asian perspective on it. “In another life” films are so common, but I always feel like Western movies do it in a kind of parallel universe kind of way. I love that in this one, Nora is so steadfast and consistent in her personality and desires, that there is no real contemplation and consideration of making her and Hae Sung’s relationship work. There is only a longing and a love.

#SICK TO MY STOMACH !!! #what a movie #celine song #put her on the $20 #past lives #past lives 2023 #films #txt. #a24 #1k

[sea-buns]

Dude Adaine looks so fucking happy in her new art. She seems so relaxed and content and, like, SIMPLE. Just- look at the progression here:

There is no anxious undertone or manic look in her eyes. If anything, her eyes look curious now. Curious and open and unworried. She is simply happy.

Adaine is happy, and I am going to cry.

#seriously im so emotional about HER emotional progression #they put the innocence back in her face #you guys see it right? #cry with me wont you? #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fh #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #fantasy high junior year #fhjr #adaine abernant

[gothboyboogie]

who am i to deny the people what they want

#my art #dimension 20 #d20 #dropout #dnd #dungeons and dragons #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high #fantasy high dropout #kristen applebees #kristen chilis applebees #saint kristen #ally beardsley #yes i put her in the butch tank top #fantasy high art #fh #fhjy

[emilys-axford]

i know i talk about it all the time bc it’s one of my favourite lines from fantasy high but sandra lynn saying to fig “everything you’re going through is something that i get i was just like you” in light of her (most likely) being groomed by bobby dawn, with figs ill-advised interactions with older men in freshman year….. ya i’m thinking about it

#siobhan was bang on when she was like it’s easier for her to give me advice bc she doesn’t see so much of herself in me #sandra lynn faeth u will always be famous i’ll kill and die for u #fantasy high #dimension 20 #everytime i could write a full essay on someone i use tumblr dot com to make a vague point + then put an elipses in so u can join the dots

[carlyraejepsans]

when i was around 9 my family cat died and i was understandably upset about it. so a few days later in my elementary catholic class (italian thing. ask mussolini about it and then hang him again) i drew a picture of "what i thought heaven looked like". and what heaven looked like to me was god standing around with an arm around jesus' shoulders being like "and THEN my wonderful son did this..." with jesus looking visibly embarrassed, because that's how a good dad is supposed to act, while all the angels and souls of the departed sat at their feet looking impressed in their wings and haloes. various pets being among them, such as my cat, my grandpa's old dog etc, also behaloed and winged. except when i went to show my drawing to the teacher explaining my artistic thought process, she looked at it and went "nice. but animals don't go to heaven because they don't have souls like us."

i wish. oh how i wish every day of my life that i'd been the hypersensitive, quick-to-tears kid that would've undoubtedly triggered a whole class religious schism when my classmates found out why i was screaming and sobbing my eyes out. but alas, i just discarded her theological theory altogether. what a silly woman she was. she must've never had pets, otherwise she'd clearly know they DO have a soul. boy, was she gonna get a surprise when she got to heaven.

now that i think back on it, you have to laugh at the heartless, eye-opening cruelty of looking a grieving child in the eye and saying "sorry kid, little mina's not getting into heaven." what a succinct summary of catholicism. anyway, I'm not christian anymore.

#giving the church its due. my stance on animal souls was rather nonlinear #for example: cats/dogs had souls but cows didn't. that is because i never saw the body of my dead cats until i had to put one down at age 1 #(17 being my age. the cat was probably in her 20s) #while i used to sneak out to watch the vet autopsy the stillbirth calves at my grandpa's neighbors' farm #there was no soul in there. i specifically looked out for it #anyway. that's the biscia tmi of the day

[zeeth-scribbles]

average bad kids study session

#DID IT 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 #i love her she would so do this dumb shit #she found a random pair of sunglasses and put them on and then fig found another one and she put them on top #then gorgug found a third and she found a hat to wear as well #adaine gave her a beanie and so did fabian and gorgug gave her his headphones as well as her own headphones she was wearing already #1 million photos taken no work gets done riz tries so hard to bring them back on task but ends up getting sucked into the bit #my art #d20 #d20 fanart #fantasy high #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #d20 kristen #kristen applebees fanart

[bowenoke]

if you like florence + the machine and also kristen applebees and figueroth faeth. may i offer you cassandra

#fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 fanart #dimension 20 fantasy high #kristen applebees #fig faeth #craftie art #guys i. don't know what our fandom tag is to be honest. there's too many??? #i should've put a mic in her hands. #i dunno there's something so fun and very teenager behavior for multiple girls in your friend group to ressurrect their own bespoke gods <3

[esther-sinclair]

[id: a character card from Fantasy High Junior Year of Cassandra (she/her). Cassandra is a skinny teen girl with long flowing hair in a ponytail, wearing a tie dye shirt and shorts. She looks off to the side and floats in midair. Her description reads "Deity of Mystery, Doubt, and Night" /end id]

cassandra!!!

#dimension 20 #dimension 20 spoilers #fantasy high #fantasy high spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high junior year spoilers #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #i forgot to put her in the first batch of npc art whoops but !!!!!! she deserves her own post <3

[soup-child]

The fact that Adaine "i don't know if im asexual im 15" Abernant and Riz "why is everyone so horny im definately aroace" Gukgak both being in the same show is incredibly important to me

#like i was just like adaine at 15 and have slowly shifted more towards riz but i like that both are shown #having 2 characters with similar aspec experiences and showing how they react differently is great #and do i think adaine is ace? not really i think if she feels attraction she would put that on the back burner while she deals with her #anxiety and her family being the worst and even now thats shes dealt with all that i dont think its a storyline shell dive into #i think what im trying to get at is that having people support her being ace would help adaine regardless of how she ends up identifying #and i think that riz having a friend (one who doesnt identify as ace) is important for him and feeling like he fits in while being aroace #i dont know if that made any sense but they are best friends #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy #riz gukgak #adaine abernant #you'll have to pry aroace riz from my cold dead hands #<- thats my aroace riz tag

[gods-favorite-autistic]

Happy lesbian visibility week and autism acceptance month to Ayda Aguefort by the way

#she is my specialest girl no one gets her like me #excuse me while I go scream over ‘this is normal’ again #I have said so many fh characters are my specialest people but have you considered HER #BLEEM GIVE HER BACK #little autistic girl put in npc jail for being to awesome #autism (mads) speaks #autism acceptence month #lesbian visibility week #ayda aguefort #fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 fantasy high

[ewwww-what]

Do you think it’s possible that my god is Kristen?

#I probably won’t finish this just fair warning #figeroth faeth is actually the bane of my existence when I’m drawing #specifically because I designed her then immediately changed my mind on how I want to draw her 15 million times #now she has an undercut and neck fur and a nose stripe and god wants me dead #anyone who’s been here before knows how I feel about them #they ars so special and best friends and :(( #(putting them in the blender together) #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fh #dimension 20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fanart #fantasy high fanart #figeroth faeth #fig faeth #fig fantasy high #kristen applebees #kristen chilis applebees #kristen fantasy high #undescribed #not described #my art

[genderkoolaid]

I'm not sure where I read it - I think it was on the wikipedia page of that trans doctor from the 1920s, but I don't remember his name - but basically, it was talking about this trans man's experience being trans in the early 20th century, and his family's reaction. And it made a point of saying how his grandparents were entirely supportive and even wrote him as their grandson on their gravestones. And there's a similar story for a trans girl, also in a similar time period I believe, where her family took her to a doctor when she started Being Trans and the doctor's reaction was literally "Okay, she says she's a girl? Then treat her like a girl! Buy her dresses and call her by whatever name she wants!" and they did!!

Obviously transphobia still existed back then, and it was strong. But throughout time, there have been cases where people heard their loved one say "I am not that gender, that doesn't fit me," and their love and trust in that person overrode any prejudice or lack of understanding, and they just accepted them. Whether it's a doctor encouraging parents to treat their little girl like a little girl, or grandparents marking their grandson's gender in stone (even when, if I remember correctly, his parents had doubts), trans people have always had people who cared for us and believed us and supported us, despite what the rest of society might have said.

UPDATE: IT WAS ALAN L. HART, from his wikipedia page:

Hart wrote later, in 1911, of his happiness during this time, when he was free to present as male, playing with boys' toys made for him by his grandfather. His parents and grandparents largely accepted and supported his gender expression, though his mother described his "desire to be a boy" as "foolish." His grandparents' obituaries, from 1921 and 1924, both list Hart as a grandson.

#m. #still cant remember the trans woman but if anyone knows who im talking about add her #but like god. the love there #the grandparents thing makes me so emotional bc like #so many of us have to hide from our grandparents #for various reasons #and just. imagining them in fucking!! the 20s!! #being like thats our grandson. making it part of their obituaries #they put that shit in the news!! #HIS GRANDFATHER MADE HIM BOYS TOYS #just. the fucking love there. they had ZERO social support or anyone #to go to for help in understanding what was happening #but they just said yeah hes our grandson. im gonna make him happy

[chrisrin]

JELLIE!!!! I LOVE HER!!!!

#chris doodles #first design on the double life sticker sheet #i need to take a break from designing it to print 20 of her and put them all over my water bottle

[ribbittrobbit]

Margaret Encino: the only girlboss gatekeep gaslight that matters

#margaret encino #d20 starstruck #a starstruck odyssey #dimension 20 #dropout #the ball is rolling up #alsoi put her in slacks and monkstraps bec i like them #love dress shoes so much but i also like comfort sadly #get nsty

[kelocitta]

In honor of the @rw-ship-showdown I wanted to write about Artihunter as someone who jokingly slapped them together pre-downpour and still thinks they are actually very compelling. Just not in the super soft love wins kinda way (Although I get why people like that more) And the only way I know how to do that is talking too much so heres a far too long slug essay-

Obviously the slugcats don't offer a ton of characterization but theres not nothing to work with. Their stories, whether by their roles in it or the overarching themes do provide a backbone to work with. Even gameplay itself can provide a bit. (for some more than others) Hunter, to me, is ultimately a story about selflessness. The goal is to revive Moon, which is very much an act of kindness from both Hunter and NSH. But the weight of that action is much more significant for Hunter- Hunter is deeply sick. They're on the clock, and for all their skill in combat none of that will ultimately help them to survive longer than their body can hold out. Moon is a close friend of NSH but that means little Hunter- Hunter really gets next to nothing out of helping them, and ultimately pays quiet a bit spending their limited time alive fighting to deliver that neuron so that someone else can live.

To spend ones limited days on helping another, in a game that very much stresses the unwavering cruelty of the world and nature- is pretty notable. (And you could even say that Hunter being the Hardmode of Rain World adds another layer to this)

And then we have Artificer. A storyline that very much stands out to people as more… villainous (so to speak) than the other slugcats. Artificer's story covers a lot of things. Trauma, violence, revenge, etc. Revenge is a bit of a selfish desire- That need to see someone hurt as they have hurt you. A punishment that ultimately does not fix whatever harm was done- but feels good to see because you were hurt and now those responsible share that pain.

Artificer's actions are founded in that need for revenge, their pups killed for overstepping boundaries they didn't know existed. Is it not fair for them to be angry at that, to punish the scavengers for their violence with their own? Why should the scavengers ever be forgiven when they and their pups were not? And that's how you get that loop- Harm for harm over and over.

The original action has been lost in a spiral of violence for violence. And here stands Artificer- their very spirit scarred. Not just because they sought revenge, but because they never ceased trying to scratch that itch for violence as an answer. Artificer only has two paths for their story- killing the scavenger king (Someone who, really, has little to do with the original 'crime' of the scavengers, but represents an important individual to them- as did the slugpups to Artificer), locking themselves as karma one for good and spending the rest of their life chasing creatures that no longer even fight back in a warped sense of closure- or to dissolve themselves in the acids of the void sea because they're too far gone to find any real peace.

They can't meaningfully recover from that state, not alone, twisting in on themselves. Even if they halt their actions, they've been using violence as a feeble defense against their own pain- violence that no longer has any real direction or basis. Artificer gets no real closure from killing the scavenger king. All they can do is continue the cycle, or try to scrub it away. No real peace in a prison of their own making. So you have a creature, who even with a strict timer on their life- a body that will crumble to disease, spends its last bit of time on saving another. And another who was so caught up in the pain of loss that were eaten alive by their own anger, poisoned their own soul on such a deep level even self-proclaimed gods have no solution for them. What peace can they offer each other? For Hunter, its only a fleeting moment of happiness- of selfish love, before their own body fails them. A bit of indulgence in something for themself. For Artificer, its a single, comforting thread to ground them again, something tangible to protect and care about again. But thats a thread that will ultimately be snapped under the cruel indifference of the world. Hunters timer will tick down regardless of if it takes another with it. Its a tragedy- its doomed to end badly. Whatever good it offers to either of them to find each other will only provide the fleeting comfort of a band-aid that will be ripped away too early. But all that can be worth indulging in anyway, if only for the moment. It doesn't change the ending, but the ending was never going to be happy. Its can so yuri

#rain world #rw shipping #tagging that just cause this is explicitly about that even though I usually dont do shipping stuff #with that said i dont even think this particular interpretation of a possible dynamic needs to be romantic its just kinda #about companionship in general. companionship thats going to absolutely shred an already unstable slug emotionally but thats #the point. friendship and love in spite of the unavoidable ending #just noticed this is like 80% theme analysis and 20% 'these go together just trust me' #but also theyre both girls because i want them to and also because im channeling hornet from hollow knight #who made me so deeply ill that my rain world tags still havent outcompeted my Hk tags because i drew her so much. so so much. #hunter is hornet coded to me and artificer is like if angela and gebura from lc combined into a deeply fucked up ferret #also i did tag the poll because they kinda inspired this but also. i wasnt gonna put all this out here WITHOUT a readmore thats embarassing #but i guess this is propaganda for a ship already seen as popular but like... idk i think theres something to it even as someone #who did literally slap them together originally because they were both red slugcats i considered girls. predownpour so we didnt have anythi #anyway hi tag readers i have so much work to do im being bad by writing about gay slugs. i need to get myself together #its so late this might just be nonsense bwaaaaaaa

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

context <3

#THE FUCKING SOUND I MADE READING THAT REPLY #poppy: this is a genuinely good option <3 #sally: ...we're literally 28 #and then wally slams his head into one of sally's points. Instantly lobotomizing himself #jokes aside this is just. its so funny #theyre too short.... #they need the high chairs.... #but how are they gonna get into them... too tall... poppy has to pick them up and put them in... #except i doubt either of them would allow that #wally would probs be like 'no thank you' while walking away while sally suggests 20 alternatives #'why dont we sit on the floor? or go to my place? or do literally anything else?' #scribble salad #on an entirely different note: #AHA! I HAVE PUZZLED OUT HOW TO DO SALLYS POINTS!! #i have never been good at drawing stars but!!! i have cracked the code with her!!! #im so happy.... tonight is a night of Figuring Essentially Useless Stuff Out but being very pleased about it Anyway!!!!