#skkssk idk???

[blankno9]

can’t look at/think about my incision for very long less i fall victim to the thoughts ….

#me when i see it intially: hahaha cool #me when i stare too long: 🙂😕🙁☹️😣😖 #idk it’s really jarring having your body changed against your will it saved my life so it’s a good thing but #i feel like…. i failed myself ? and i let myself get hurt #idk i’m not trying to be real deep with this skkssk just some thots

[clonecaptains]

First of all, I love your blog so much, you're the bestest and,

Because of your top 5 post,

Top 5 Cillian Murphy gifs?

omg hi anon!! thank you <3 and omg a cillian ask skkssk HIII

idk how to answer this!!!! like UHH of MY gifs? or just like eVER? cuz that'd be a lot to pick from but i bet i could ;)

#anonymous #answered

[silenthillbunni]

sometimes i just really wanna lose weight so i can dress the way i want to but sometimes i also feel like what's the point??? nothing matters. me wearing an outfit i want is like so nonsensical.

#skkssk idk??? #like i'll just daydream abt the outfits i want and im like wow i'd look so cool #but then... what's the meaning of that? i'll rot whenever i die and those outfits wont matter at all

[drivenchaos]

im thinking of making a little bio thingy for vincent. maybe a doc but im not sure. I just have too many ideas for this guy and a lot of them play into how I portray him here, so I feel like it’s important for people to have easy access to that.

#.where the drugs at tho (ooc) #haven't even updated my nav page #LMAO #oop #but I mean #I've been busy so #this might be a wip for the next few weeks or so #why am I telling y'all this??? #idk #u guys feel like my children SKKSSK

[jungstruly]

A week in Seoul or a VIP ticket in NCT Dream's dream concert??? ThIS IS FOR SCIENCE BEECHES IM CRYING,, I NEED INSIGHTS

#i am: #TORN #IDK MAN #BUT MY BABIES??? #:c #they haven't announced yet but I frikin know my dad's gonna let us choose one skkssks ://

[swordmaid]

Your book JB us better than anything anyone can imagine

ya’ll making my ego too big

#nsnsjsjd but thank u tho !!!! #like i say this ALOT but im very happy ya’ll enjoy my designs !! i put a whole lotta effort on them 😭 #but still im iffy abt using them for fics sndndjd for canon interpretations its ok for me since its MY vision but like fics #idk if the author would b ok w that since they might see it differently in their head and i want to like #stick as close to the content as possible skkssk

[thequeenrains]

A Night to a Decade of Faith

Tags: late night walks; burnout; autumn stuff idk skkssks you'd get what i mean if you'd give it a read :>

Summary: hiro struggled with a lot of things, getting into sfit was just one. surviving it was another. a walk, he reckoned, would help with his mental state. however, little did he know, a soul would come to give him clarity... and also a little patience for a decade of waiting

Word Count: 2737

College—my, Hiro thought it was going to be just easy. He thought that it was just all about finessing your output, and with the simplest one, he could easily impress his professors.

But he was wrong. It was far from being easy. High school always had his name as the top student—the best student, actually. Which got him to accelerate and advance further than those who are of his age. It was simple to get on top of everything. College, however—the exact opposite. 

He feels like he's behind of his game. No matter how hard he studies, no matter how hard he grinds, it just doesn't feel as if he's excelling anymore. And as someone who wasn't used to this sort of feeling, he feels kinda trashy to say the least.

And it was one of those days, where burnout got the best of him. 

7 o'clock, his clock read. The cursor on the screen blinked, waiting to be moved by his hands that kept running through his hair for more than he could count. Frustration bubbled down from within, and he feels the need to lash out. 

Sighing heavily, he tried to look at it from another angle, however, the more he looked, the less he found coherency. Out of frustration, he pushed himself out of his swivel chair and up the stairs to his room. 

His project was actually due tomorrow, and because of midterms from last week, he felt really burned out and empty of any sort of brilliancy. 

All this is too tiring, he thought of himself. 

But he didn't want to fail. 

Not finishing that project would mean jeopardizing his midterm grades, and he doesn't want that to happen. But he also just couldn't find it in himself to go and actually start it out because there were no ideas coming. 

And so, in a quick spiral he went, going through a lot of things at once before actually grasping the full meaning of his thoughts that kept plaguing his mind. 

Too absent minded, he dragged himself out of bed, grabbed his jacket, and made a beeline to the front door. He didn't bother saying goodbye to his Aunt, who was still busy manning the cashier despite the late hour. 

The cold city air immediately greeted him, with the soft buzzing of the cars zooming in the distance, and the occasional honks of mad drivers in the street—yup, this was San Fransokyo.

He held his jacket closer to his body as he turned to a random direction. The city was still pretty much alive at this hour, with some of the streets clogged with vehicles rushing to get home, or to wherever their destination may be. Strangers pushed passed him, yet he was pretty much a walking corpse in the middle of a lively crowd, he let them.

He was reaching  a point in his walk where his brain shut down all the thoughts. Mindlessly, he continued to wander on to a city where his inner musings were drowned with the humming of the evening life. Only then did he found himself in the middle of a silent road, dimly lit with street lamps and quaint lanterns hung in ununiformed directions. 

For a moment, he was worried that he stumbled on a way to the cat alley where he used to go bot fighting. However, upon further inspection, he noticed that it was not the same. Sighing, he was about to try and trace his way back home when his stomach grumbled in hunger. Which then reminds him he didn't eat anything for lunch, and also dinner. 

And so, off he went to look for a diner, only to slap himself on the forehead because he didn't bring any change with him. Well, he couldn't entirely blame himself, his mental state wasn't on the most optimal.

Footsteps sounded from behind him, and on instinct, he turned to see a cute looking girl in a black leather jacket approaching him. 

She held a cup of takeaway from an open shop nearby, the smell wafting unto Hiro's nostrils, causing his stomach to churn. Letting out a discreet sigh, he just turned around and tried to mentally retrace his footsteps.

The smell grew closer and closer, and Hiro's mind only circled unto that, grasping it like it was the only coherent thing around. He mentally slapped himself for only focusing on the food instead of trying to remember the path that he took for him to get here.

"You lost?" A soft voice questioned. He turned, only to see the same girl that he had seen a moment ago.

"I—" he was speechless, embarrassed even. Because the idea just sunk in, he got lost in his own city. And it's pretty poetic, too.

With a soft smile, she immediately got her answer, "No one stumbles here unless they're actually sure that this is their stop. You new here?" She tilted her head to the side, sending him a questioning look. 

"I actually live here but—" his statement was cut off when his stomach loudly grumbled, embarrassing him in front of the cute girl in front of him. She hummed before offering him the treat she had.

One by which he, hesitating, gently accepted from her grasp.

"Uh, thanks."

She smiled, the most charming he ever saw someone smile for possibly his whole life. "Anytime, now let me help you find your way back. Trying to navigate this area is quite of a pain if you ask me, you might get even more lost. You're from the main, right? Looks like you kinda wandered a bit too far out because the city's kind of a walk from here." With that, they begin walking back, retracing Hiro's steps.  

"Uh, thanks," he uttered, digging in on the food she had with her.

"You're welcome. You okay, though?" She asked, hugging her jacket closer to her body as the cold air blew passed them, softly shaking the lanterns that contributed the soft glow of the area.

"M'fine," he answered simply, looking down at his shoes.

Her gaze lingered a bit before turning back to the road, "Doesn't look like it," she uttered. "You seemed kinda lost. Although, if you don't want to tell me, it's fine. I won't pry."

He let out a breath, white vapors escaping unto the atmosphere formed, "Just kinda burned out," Hiro replied, "but that doesn't matter anyway."

She guided him to a turn and into an open road, "Hmm, high school?" 

He opened his mouth to reply, eyeing both sides of the road before crossing along the pedestrian, "College." 

With that, she paused and threw him a gaze, her mouth slightly parted in shock from the unexpected information, "Okay, first off, I wasn't expecting a kid as young as you to be in college."

He only slightly chuckled at her response, he got that a lot so he was used to it. "Well, my brother forced me to go to college actually. "

She hummed, the tone a bit disdainful. "He sounds kinda boring," she commented, to which Hiro only laughed at. 

He refuted her statement, "No, no. The opposite, actually. But sometimes, he could get a bit... protective?"

"Hmm, what does he do then?" The both of them paused in front of a stop light, waiting for the lights to go red. 

"He actually studies at SFIT."

"Wow. I take back what I said. He sounds cool," she smiled, "And where do you study, then?" 

"SFIT," he casually replied before crossing the road, almost leaving his companion behind, the latter with wide eyes.

This kid's a genius, she mentally remarked as she caught up with his long stride.

"Okay, wow. I heard it's hard getting in there?" 

"Well, I'm not sure with the other programs but with robotics, you just have to think of a good invention that'll impress the judges and the professors—"

She felt something inside her head, something that resembled the sound of a lightbulb lighting up, "You're in the robotics program?" 

"Uh, yeah."

Aw, he's cool, she thought.

With a smile, she spoke in awe, "Okay, wow. Like how do you get your life sorted just like that?"

He threw her a side-glance, "What do you mean?"

She gave a little shrug, "Like, you people actually know what you want to do in life, huh?"

"Well, actually, about that... It took me a while to know what I want to do in life. But it only took my brother's convincing and tour around the lab to get me to decide," he replied. 

"And what about you? What do you do? You know, you're not supposed to be talking to strangers. I could've murdered you," he teasingly said.

"I like to take my chances. And says you! I could've poisoned you," she teasingly retorted.

"But you didn't."

"Some poison takes time to react with the body," he almost stopped in shock. Upon noticing his slowly blanching features, she laughed. "Oh my gosh, chill! I didn't, and why would I be leading you to a crowded place then?"

"But yeah. I really don't know what I want to do in life. I don't feel like I belong to anything. Dropped out of high school because of those bullies, and also, because of my teachers and stuff. And yeah, I'm just literally floating around, existing..."

"You'll eventually find out what you want to do in life. Just give it time. I'm not entirely sure with mine but well, here we are."

"Do you love what you do?"

"Yeah, don't get me wrong but it's just really stressful to always be up my game all the time. I also have other responsibilities aside from just being a student," he sighed, pulling her back from almost hitting a lamp post, "okay, careful there."

"Close call, thanks." 

"But yeah, you get it."

"Well, when was the last time you had fun?" She asked.

"I don't remember," he replied. 

"Well, that's exactly what you need—I know a place! C'mon, it's gonna  be great!"

With that, the two of them changed directions. How they managed to establish a slither of trust and bond in that small moment, they don't know. But they were sure that they were comfortable with each other.

He made a mental note to always put spare change in him before leaving the house—either mentally or physically not okay.

And so, their little adventure began. He could say that the feeling was a bit cliche—as if out of a fictional bestseller that sat in bookstores. He couldn't find the words to describe what it felt like running down the dimly lit streets whilst laughing at corny jokes and random memories. She was one of a kind, and that's when it all made sense—she really didn't belong to anyone.

She is a free soul.

She belongs to the stars, the skies, and the dimly lit streets of July. She was the piece of summer that giggled in the early autumn evening. She was a beautiful soul, and that, in and of itself, is a high compliment. 

From licking ice creams in the late hours, laughing at kids in the convenience store, and reminiscing about late summer ventures, to ultimately questioning what they want to do in life. 

"I have a lot of ambitions, actually," she told him. The two of them sat on a bench, eyeing the full moon that slowly rose from behind the tall buildings of the city. She looked at the bag of chips that she grasped, skimming through the wrapper absent-mindedly. "But I really can't bring myself to continue on with schooling." 

It was late, and Hiro knew that his project was waiting at home. But he couldn't have the heart to tell her about that mere fact. Nor does he even have the will power to get himself to stand up from that bench. 

It was a beautiful evening, and he doesn't have the conscience to ruin it for himself, nor for her too.

"Then, why not? I mean, we only live once. You gotta go and chase those ambitions," he replied.

"Well, I'm thinking it's kinda impossible? I mean, it's all crazy to me. And I really don't know if I can get myself to continue on... with it," she hesitated a bit. 

"Well, you really wouldn't know if you won't try," he looked at the street, "I got to a point where I almost gave up trying to get into SFIT, but sometimes, you just got to look at another angle and give it another try."

A smile ghosted her lips, one that was bordering on in between bitterness and nostalgia, "Hmm, you're right. But aside from that, I don't think there's a path for someone like me."

"Then make one for yourself," he replied with a cheeky smile.

She returned it, but it was accompanied with the feeling of new found clarity. 

"Hmm, yeah. Why haven't I thought of that?"

Her companion only shrugged.

Her phone then rang, signaling her that it was time to leave.

"Ah, that's my que," she said, crestfallen, "But hey, don't stress out too much with your academics. Trust me, you're doing great. Oh, and just hit me up if you need someone, 'kay?"

And from that, goodbyes were exchanged.

Yet sometimes, when you're having too much fun, you forget to exchange names.

...and contact numbers.

~

The next morning, Hiro woke up to the sun shining directly on his eyes. Noticing that he fell asleep on his desk, he opened his computer immediately, slightly panicking and trying to remember if he, indeed, finished his project. 

And he did.

And it was all thanks to...

...what's her name again?

He racked his brain for any sort of information about her, but he couldn't seem to remember anything about her.

Then, it all sunk in.

Was she even real?

Groaning, he slouched on his chair, he wasn't even sure anymore. 

And so, from that day on, he continued to live his life, but not without even wondering about her; Was she okay? Did she go on to pursue her ambitions and make a  way for herself? A path carved with a shovel of uncertainty—either she stops  or she continues on. He wondered if she ever came back to school. 

And with each wondering came the feeling of slowly losing her into nothing but a memory of yesterday. He didn't want that. He wants nothing of that. 

With every leather jacket he sees on the streets, he makes sure to stop to look, silently hoping that he'd see the same smile that she offered him in that chilly autumn evening. With every smile people offered him, he knew that she was different, as it spoke millions into just one grin. He tried to look for her, really, that people around him almost dubbed him as the crazy one trying to hunt something down that had little to no identity. Nothing but a soul.

He tried to locate where he once found himself lost, but she did, in fact, say that it was hard to locate even for locals. He reached a point where he just decided to let things be. There will come a time where their paths will cross, and that's for sure.

He couldn't help but sometimes feel insane. She might be a fever dream for all he knew, all was uncertain. But it's the faith that had him clinging on to the memory that she left, it was faith that had him clinging on to the sound of her laughter that rang late at that specific evening. It was the small sliver of faith that got him to claim that no, he wasn't crazy. 

He laughed at his own analogy, a free soul.

She did resemble one, because she appeared only for a moment of fun before disappearing God knows where. 

A decade onward did he begin to once again question his own sanity.

The same laughter that rang through the silence of the cold convenience store played with his ears. Blinking, he straightened up, despite the heavy box of robotic parts he was carrying back to the lab, and looked around. 

And again, it went.

He was sure he wasn't insane...

Frantically he searched for a sliver of familiarity. 

He was totally crazy for holding on to this for more than a decade but he didn't care. He was hoping...

"You lost?" 

#big hero 6 #hiro hamada x reader #hiro hamada #hiro hamada fanfic #bh6 hiro #bh6 #bh6 oc #bh6 the series #big hero six #tadashi hamada #gogo tomago #honey lemon #wasabi no ginger #baymax #short stories #one shot #oneshot #fanfiction #big hero 6 karmi #bh6 karmi #reader #reader insert #female reader

[timextoxhajima]

if you want, would you associate a moot with an enhypen member? even if they don't stan them idk maybe it's a silly game

[including only my closer moots] [also did not expect to put so much effort into this]

han @hyunjaethereal as riki: she's so energetic and like, on crack on such a regular basis i really CANNOT deal w her, plus for the longest time ever she kept fucking sending me tiktoks and sobbing over jay and she cannot choose a man for the life of me (sounds like riki deciding between his hyungs)

@bbangsoonie as heeseung: sis is kind of to herself, but opens up if she wants to and she gets excited when she's talking about what she likes? like, i vibe w her alot because we're both introverts and like, i think our energy levels are kinda low LOL and most of enhypen's just too fucking loud like i can't even-

niwa @haechanhues as jay: she's really easy to talk to and she wont shut the fuck up when it comes to teasing me, but she's also great when i need someone to listen to or someone for me to bicker with

@sunwoowuvbot ri as jungwon: okay idk why but like ri's kind of unhinged to some extent BUT she also has the morals and principles held close to herself [like in her tags for p&d and she said it's a lot of kissing but not in front of the child skkssk]

@jaehyvnsvalentine val as sunghoon: okay idk why but like she also gives me very introverted feelings but she's very ? intelligent?? and hardworking?? but she's quiet about it???? idk???

@softforqiankun as sunoo: A SOFTIE THAT NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED IDK no i know heather is older than me but i still want to give her a hug and feed her some strawberries idk

@ateez-elena as jake: idk why either but she's so excited [maybe because now she's reading lmll and she yells in the tags a lot?] like she's chaotic when she wants to be but she's so soft and sweet otherwise <3

#tth.anon #dana's love letters #bonus points #if anybody will tell me who i remind them of #doesnt have to be enha i guess

[fadeintoyou1993]

Idk if I want to root for Hope or the Saltzman sister's at this point. It seems that Hope is acting more stubborn as it seems that the only want to bring back her humanity is if Landon comes back when Lizzie and Josie are right there. Why can't she let them help her? They made a promise and now their friendship is shattered

i dont think its shattered and tbh we dont know whats gonna happen yet, but in anyway i root for all of them bc i think that their dynamic is v interesting and that hope really does need them and i think the whole thing w hope having her humanity turned off (not even by her choice like she said) will only make it more interesting imo. i dont like it when a show is just fluff all the time bc i get bored lmfao and i think hope x the twins and especially hope x lizzie are their most interesting when theyre at odds bc thats when u realize that theyre more similar than they let on and that they really do need each other. idk im just v excited for this szn as a whole and to see what happens w hope bc its 100% not gonna be an easy sail and thats always fun even if its hurtful most of the time bc thats just tvd innit skkssk

#answered #tenaciousarcadeexpert

[quirklessidiot]

Amazing chapter. I was screaming and crying at everything. Y/n having to go to hana's funeral ALONE, gojo making plans about y/n in the inevitable future when shibuya crisis happens like he maybe heartbroken by her but he'll still take care of her😭😭 fucking nanami grilling y/n and having yuji be involved it brought back memories of having awkward dinners with friends or relatives as a kid😂 fucking gojo being an imp when he came back god i love how cool headed he acted but inside you know he's a mess when he sees y/n.

THEY KISSED!!!!! OMFG THEY KISSED!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 oh my god. Look at me going crazy and fangirling over their kiss idk how I'll act when their sex scene happens. Probably flip a table over just to release all that future excitement.

LASTLY she can't get drunk cause of her technique? In recent chapters in the manga when yuji was meeting hakari when the latter offered a drink yuji rejected because he's a minor but he also said HE CAN'T GET DRUNK. Like my mind is going crazy over ch 12 already with the relationship stuff but is it a coincidence that she can't drunk because of her curse energy like yuji also can't supposedly because i may have read that chapter wrong BUT MY POINT STILL STANDS.

gojo is simply too in love when he puts his fucking heart out idk pEOPLE CAN ARGUE WITH ME BUT MY POINT STANDS SKKSSK HONEATLY WHEN THAT SCENE HAPPENS I KNOW THE READERS ARE GONNA SQUAK SKSKSNDSN 😭😭

And yes y/n cant get drunk, i sorta correlated it with her reverse healing that while the alcohol gets in her system, she cant feel the adverse effects (thats how strong it is as well so far so if she and satoru were to be in a drinking game, y/n would def win fare and square and with more drinks to spare since its technically just juice for her)

#pat.talks #customer.feedback #📝📝.minazuki mini series

[zhongliologist]

a collection of tells i received anonymously (and maybe by bots idk) and my responses

Hmmmmm cool!!! .....is this an app??

My friend (and me actually) would probably love this lmaooo we once took ask games from tumblr and answer them in our little bullet journal thing bc idk it's fun to answer skkssk admittedly, my friend answers in huge swaths of paragraphs,,, I usually stick to one or two bc i kinda answer things immediately,,, but it's fun!

#answered

[lucifers-golden-bitch-apparently]

It’s like a game there is shapes and corruptions and idk how to explain it OnO sorry

skkssk it sounds cool

#askkk

[mobagehelllocal]

I mean, when it comes to Silver, I really can’t help it since he’s my first crush in twisted wonderland. Hehe, and we’re compatible since INFJs (which is my type) and he’s an ISTJ. @jangmi-latte wrote a whole post about the boys’ personalties if you want to see what Jade is- (i think he’s an isfp or something)

oh MAN I REMEMBER PRE-RELEASE THINKING tHAT SILVER IS REALLY PRETTY 💦 he’s always been a part of my top 8 with his visuals and chivalry alone 😳💕

For me,,, my friends actually thought Leona would be my bias lol. Because I like the calm and cool guys 🤣 however I ended up being drawn to the twins because... of their teal hair 🗿

I fell pretty hard for Jade after hearing him go “oya oya” once in Savannaclaw. He also falls into this two-faced character trope I enjoy? I like the duality. Jade could be saying one thing but mean something completely different. Like idk maybe it’s because of my experience with literature but I sorta find it hot when someone is smart enough to be quick witted to say something but mean something else completely while on the spot LOL. And most of the time, these same characters have this... Grace and skill in their language that other people won’t be able to pick up on what they actually mean. 😳😳😳😳😳 MAN SKKSSK SORRY I JUST SPILLED THAT

BUT cool I am also an INFJ 😭💕💕 I will try to find and read that post 🥺💕

#aianswers #anonymous #ai simps over jade

[helahades]

Yuss it's meee 🐞🐞🐞🐞 tbh I'm the most subby submissive sub to ever be a sub, BUT every once in a while I wanna tie up a strong man and make him beg for me until he's near tears. Frank WHINING??? Yes please. But then Madani can come in and step on my face

okay hi boo!

listen,,,,, its the grunts of him trying to hold back before they melt into choked sounds and full on moans. he likes to be slapped I know it and @allaboardthereadingrailroad confirmed it in deus vult and whats more is that he’s so good at taking commands

he might get a little overexcited or assume dominance sometimes bc that’s what’s expected out of big strong men like him unfortunately 😔but you put him on the righteous path—worshipping you.

MADANI. idk if she’s the step on u type. maybe It’s wishful thinking but she gives me tough on crime, soft on her boo vibes. like Shes hard in the streets but mommy in the anywhere people can’t see her letting her guard down skkssk

when she feels safe, the nurturing sweetness comes out and how valid of her—

I can imagine her giving out punishments if you were a brat though. or silent treatment as she gets ready for work if you blatantly disobeyed a rule she set. my fave is breaking the no touching yourself rule UGH. I can really see her being hands on physical punishment or literllly giving you the cold shoulder and making you regret losing that reserve of affection she saved for you and only you for a while

#frank castle hcs #dinah madani hcs #smut hcs #mommy madani #ask tag #🐞 anon #anony mouse #frank castle smut hcs #dinah madani smut hcs

[ackermans-freedom-inc]

I have just realized your birthday passed. Idk the date (still) But um... Happy belated birthday, I guess. İ feel bad for not knowing it skkssk

NOOO it’s okay!!!!!! The time difference sucks between me and you!!!! I celebrated today with a family dinner!! So you’re still on time!!!! ❤️

#love you!!!! #don’t ever feel bad!!!’ #I honestly #I honestly don’t really share too much about me sometimes???? #so don’t even worry!!!! #my dear #cat friend #asks #anon

[jaeminscoffee]

omfg hi lyra we haven't talked in a while + your theme is so cute 💞

Hi hi my loveeee, we really haven't and that's on me, i haven't opened this app since idk, the past week and a half? And I'm super sorry about that!

I'm back now skks, well, technically back, have to start updating and shiss.

Also skkssk THANK YOUUU!💗. I'm glad someone noticed the theme XD! yours is popping btw.

How have you beeeennn???

#Akari 🍁 #moots ✨ #mutuals! #jaeminscoffee #lyra speaks ^^