#so many thoughts in my head ough

[alien-bluez]

"this isn't about who's a ninja, a nindroid, or even a ghost. Above all else, we're brothers."

#ninjago #ninjago art #ninjago fanart #kai smith #cole brookstone #jay walker #zane julien #lloyd garmadon #hey i'm not over them #i'm soooooo normal about them (deranged) #i've been watching ninjago for 2 days straight now and i am so in love with them #this is part one of many love letters to season 5 for igniting my ninjago obsession again #so many thoughts in my head ough #wanted something wholesome bc they are brothers!!! #they are family!!! #leejago art #my art

[mlm-blues]

consider this: you pull me in to sit on your lap and wrap your arms tight around my waist and keep me there for the next hour while kissing my neck. and we are both boys!!!!! consider it

#theres so many thoughts in my head right now. ough 😵‍💫 #mlm #nblm #achillean #gay #gay pride #gay yearning #gay mlm #mlm and nblm only #mlm poc #mlm yearning #mlm love #trans mlm #t4t mlm

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

more laughingstock pleaseee? 💙 💚

Yes Yes Yes i have this very small soft scribble to offer <3

#if caterpillar not meant to be held... why so narrow.... #that combined with the fun fact of 'barnaby bites out of affection' and Ough The Ultimate Fluff In My Heart Of Hearts #i just. their size difference makes me insane #i think about it for more than a second and Oh I Have Stopped Breathing <3 #grrrr RAH RAH AGH OUGH i cant i cant #scribble salad #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #them being so so affectionate with each other is so important to me #like in my head they are Always making some sort of contact #they are mutually like 'hi i love you! you're my personal arm rest / recliner / pillow / etc!' #i think if they had to remain separated but in the same space for more than a minute they'd both break down #no pda in the bodega Does Not Extend To hand/shoulder touches thankyew. or the closet #SORRY SORRY DERAILING MY OWN POST AS USUAL #i just have! many thoughts and emotions about them! consider this as Bonus please! #if barnaby held howdys waist... his fingers would probably touch... #ohhhhhhh minecraft damage noisessssssss im Deceased i am Dead i have Died Violently #i Exploded into blood and viscera and teeny tiny balloon animals and heart-shaped glitter <3

[kakyogay]

uwag something I never posted

I forgot how old it is but I know it's pretty early in the slugerators. I could redraw it and maybe try a different composition but I have other things to do right now.

I would share the drabble I have already written for this scene but idk it's old and kinda ass and I don't like writing as much as just bsing my way through a summary.

basically little pupper pebble was dumb (having rot ouchies) and fell off a pole, separating him from arti. Suns was just going to hunter for a delivery and found him. They did what any sluppy enjoyer would do and yoinked the pebble (with permission ofc). silliness and (rot) panic ensues :)

#rain world #five pebbles #seven red suns #I have so many thoughts in my head for this but ough I hate writing :( #scugerator swap

[lesbianleonardo]

read the michaelanglo macro issue and ohhh my fucking god ojhhhhh my god

anyway. this page was really cute

#I HAVE. SO MANY THOUGHTS. #so wooo ramble in the tags #how splinter talks to leo actually makes me so ill #also ​the way the three of them try to justify the children in the foot clan is so interesting #raphael saying how it would be good for self defense because he was on the streets knowing Nothing and had no support #the children being a part of the foot is awful but at least they won’t be on the streets alone #and then donnie and leo knowing there’s no where else with resources and they just Can’t say no to splinter #i got my jenny crumbs too. i’m so excited to see more of her #and godddd just everything about mikey. i really enjoy the amount of love and care idw puts into his character #he misses the father he knew and he’s not afraid to stand up to the man he is now #‘you’re Worse than shredder’ OUGH. #and then his brothers cheering him on after winning :) he did what they couldn’t do! #i’m so excited to see what splinter’s future holds. i really hope this gets through his head that he need to change (i am coping and hoping) #ok ramble over #idw #idw mikey #idw leo #tmnt idw #idw tmnt #tmnt #turtle talks

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[villruu]

me and my husband is a brim song, and i will NOT be taking criticism on this

#vrill talks #[head in hands] its sothem its so fucking them #brim my beloved #i am being deranged btw #i HAVE to do something w brim and this song #animatic or fic or anything #GOD...... #ESPECIALLY BRIM SONG IF ONE ADHERE'S TO THE HC OF TIM WILLINGLY BEING MASKED TIM AND JUST FORGETTING #HEARTWRENCHING #And all of my memories. And All of the thinngs I have seen Will be gone #<- DO YOU FUCKING GET IT #So I bet all I have on that furrowed brow #<- SO THEM SO SO SO THEM #And I am the idiot with the painted face in the corner taking up space. but when he walks in I am loved #<- NOT SANE RN #i love brim either as romantic or platonic or a inbetween #i have so many thoughts about them #i will overanalyze this later maybe gotta go sleep #i have lab tomorrow and i gotta keep idiots from getting hurt bc they keep sniffing the toxic salts ough #marble hornets #to ME

[epicene-humanoid]

what if we were two social outcasts (one running away from a background of wealth without love and one with a tumultuous childhood paving the way for years of continued abuse) and we end up in the same profession. what if we were trying to find ourselves but we found each other. what if we’re both victims of the societies we were raised in. and we’re both grappling with the confines of masculinity. and our stories are emotionally devastating for our audience as they ask questions about death and rebirth and the choice between what we want and what we’re told we deserve. what if we sat by a campfire and had conversation.

okay now what if our story was a 1991 indie film about street hustlers, but what if it was a 2022 tv show about pirates

[ID 1: the campfire scene from My Own Private Idaho. Scott (played by Keanu Reeves) is looking at Mike (played by River Phoenix) who is sitting a distance away, curled in on himself. end ID]

[ID 2: the campfire scene from Our Flag Means Death. Stede (played by Rhys Darby) lovingly helps Ed (played by Taika Waititi) get something out of his beard. end ID]

ahaha what if i cried what if i can’t be normal about this

#our flag means death #my own private idaho #ALSO. please tell me if i’m doing image ID’s right !! should they be more or less detailed i can go in and edit just lmk #I BELIEVE IN ROAD FILM SUPERIORITY ‼️‼️ ofmd is a road film despite not being a film nor having much road travel in this essay i will— #rest in peace river phoenix you would have fucking LOVED ofmd. you ran so we could sprint marathons. thank you river ily4ever. #ok river you actually wouldnt have loved that animals die in the show including the snake in this campfire scene but othER than that. love. #head full many thoughts. thinking abt ed/mike’s mom and stede/scott’s dad. ough. #don’t get me started i’ll be up all NIGHT #billy when we watch mopi prepare for me to be a MENACE #is this anything #ofmd

[xolborsaysstuff]

always in a constant battle of whether I should quit kf or not tbh it's actually funny how often I change my opinion on it

#Edit: warning. Funny post but more venting in the tags sorry #“Oughhh I hate putting in so much thought and effort and time into something barely anyone cares about I should quit” #“OUGH SO MANY PEOPLE WANNA PLAY THEIR FAVORITES I CAN NEVER QUITT” #“Ouughhh they don't care about lore or my ocs just their favorite characters I should quit...” #“ OUGHHH THEY LOVE PLAYING THEIR FAVOURITES SO MUCH I WILL NEVER QUITTTT” #“ough.... I love playing but people are losing interest I should quit ...” #“OUGH I LOVE PLAYING I'LL ONLY MAKE MYSELF WORSE FOR OTHERS BY BEING SAD IF I QUIT I CAN'T QUITTTT” #“Oughhh.... . ” #“OUGHHHhHHHHHHhHHhh” #I guess this really is just all in my head. #all of this is like the lore of the game: nobody else cares and I'm getting worked up over something that only hurts me selfishly #At least if I wait till everyone else leaves it'll make only me sad which minimizes the damage to barely anyone #if I am the one to do it people might tell me not to again #it's like if the trolley problems answer was simple and easy and only hurt one person emotionally #Wow. This is like monoxol/chrysalis/nemo lol #Me and the ocs being major pushovers at some point in our lives #Me: venting #Me: wow that vent was so fav characters coded #Something is wrong with me .👍 #vent #vent tags #vent post

[qrovidcore]

absolutely cannot stop thinking about how leshy is, arguably, the main character of act 1. and we don’t even get his name.

#if 'main character' is even an idea that holds up in a video game BUT also we don't get luke's either and that is ALSO a thought #this IS a rant i'm just at work #fucking #hi everyone im gonna start inscryptionposting again #blame anna SHE'S playing it so NOW i get to ONCE AGAIN HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS #i WILL come back to this i gotta go do my silly little experimence but ough. many thoughts head FULL today. #inscryption #the paranoid android speaks!

[fstbmp-a]

Super Amy...........................

#My Kingdom ;; OOC #Popping Like Popcorn ;; Amy #the intense urge.. i have so many thoughts in my head gods damn #i go feral thinking up so many thoughts about things i'll never write ough i loathe it #i could ramble for eons about it your honor just augh

[spocks-kaathyra]

thinking pythas and nal thoughts

#guys they r so in love....... in my head #andy robinson rly wrote like two (2) sentences implying a relationship btwn them and I took the ball and ran with it #this is songxiao all over again. me taking two minor characters and rotating them in my head like a centrifuge until I more or less have oc #they have both been so lonely for so long and only when they lose everything do they let each other in............ #in my head. nal was also part of the ''invisible'' cell and they were sent on missions together often bc they worked together rly well #which creates many opportunities to put them in Situations together #when pythas becomes head of the order he more or less makes nal his right hand man #smth abt. he loves two (2) ppl and he feels guilty for betraying elim so he compensates by going out of his way to protect nal #did I mention that they r both transgender. #I should make a separate post abt them being transgender bc I have So many thoughts abt it #ough. no one cares they r barely even star trek characters. I just think abt them so much u guys.......... #narcissus's echoes #pythasposting

[thehallstara]

the way i'm just like. oughhhhh i want to be done this fic so bad but i need to finish it and meanwhile as much i'd like to work on it i do need. quite a bit of game dialogue written by wednesday it's fiiiiiine

#s.txt #in the last two weeks of my course and like. ough it's been life changing in a lot of ways and i'm not being hyperbolic #but like. oh dear lord it feels like every thought has been zapped out of my head for the past 6 weeks #and not just w/ fic i feel like i don't have brain space for any writing outside of this #which is fine!!! #i just miss my guys and my poetry and little vignettes #and i'm very excited to have time+brain space for them even though there are. so many apps to submit coming up sjdhjsa #can you tell my brain isn't used to this level of high-paced learning anymore ksjdhfsja

[mieltelecheycrema]

obsessed with space, love her

#being held back from talking about space during any moment in time i think it is the coolest thing #but also my memory is not very good so i am always scared of spreading mis remembered info about it #like i’m 90 percent sure that the second a star starts producing iron that means its gonna start to collapse in on itself real fast but that #information might be something i dreamed up or misremembered #mielmbles #ough i have so many thoughts about her though and i like to spin facts about space in my head at max velocity #LIKE EUROPA FUCK I LOVE THAT EUROPA MAY HAVE LIFE #and like not just tiny microbial stuff like yeah thats also cool as shit and thinking about how even if it was just the building blocks of #living things in europa that that is also super fucking cool but its thought that the life on europa would be huge because of its proximity #to jupiter though i m not sure if thats true #the cause of heat on that moon is super cool though i enjoy it immensely #ALSO BLACK HOLES FUCKKKK i could talk about black holes and stars and super novas for so long and hdhjdhkgdj space is so cool ive loved her #for sooooooo long #space <3

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

anyway. wol concept i am trying to decide whether to make two different chars or one. also whether or not to put them in my light party

#the nemesis speaks #swift plays ff14 #incomprehensible ass post #anyway i just finished the myths of the realm and. my wol's patron was azeyma bc i didn't know fuck or shit about the 12 when i made her #but the idea of a wol with oshcon as a patron... in that questline... ough.... waugh... #but then ive also had Thoughts abt the relationship of eorzea w/ the wol vs. how primals are depicted for A While #and obvi the twelve only add to that. with their ''driven but altered by belief'' #primals are formed of faith and aether—beings of incredible nigh-godlike power—but YOU #there's so much faith and hope and duty- entire civilizations- on your shoulders. almost suffocating. your strength is legendary #yet to your enemies you are monstrous. you're not even eorzea's champion so much as its WEAPON. #go where they point. kill when they say. in later arcs the scions try to right this but you still fight the endsinger alone don't you #(well. mostly alone. god i have a whole second essay in my head about that battle) #you get it anyway. the wol is very nearly eorzea's primal. #so anyway. wol who dies at some point in the game but bc of their reputation almost immediately reforms as a primal #and now has to deal with that. with being the thing they've sworn to kill AND with being an object of public faith rather than a person #slowly becoming less and less like the person they used to be and more and more a mirror of what others think #''how do they perpetuate themself tho'' eating other primals. obvi #and then they don't even really need to temper anyone bc they already have the faith of so many without having to manipulate them for it #ANYWAY. these tags are stupid long. im stopping

[peapod20001]

Gbb hhjj

#random post #ough head is very feeling today hgkg #I should have <3 been screenshotting <3 nice tags in my art <3 as I got them <3 #it’s been a passing thought in my mind for like the past month cus one of my mutuals deleted their whole blog and so now #the only way I can see their drawings now are if me (or someone I know) has reblogged em and das so sad </3 #I liked seeing it on THEIR blogs man.. ye it’s more that one guy that’s been lost to the fog fsvsbd #I’m totally NOT sad about it NOR am I sad about never seeing the nice things they said ever again </3 not sad absolutely not sad about it #I experienced it in the moment and loved it as it happened I totally did not nor do I continue too #go thru my entire art tag just to read the nice things people say #like I’m reading the daily paper nope. I’m not addicted to it I like it a normal amount and in moderation #I still remember what they said anyways it’s not like I’ll ever forget but also what if I do haha noo #my brain wouldn’t do that to me 👉👈 it’s too sexy and smart and has many neurons and connections and wrinkles #sorry for going on a tangent I keep seeing their url in my dms with the deactivated thing and it makes me :’) #there’s so many.. friends lost to time I suppose #at least they’re not (to my knowledge) ACTUALLY dead cus that would be FUCKED but yea I haven’t drawn not a damn thing #as this has haunted my thoughts the thoughts of old online friends </3 #I hope they know I loved them. that I still do in a sense #ough I think my adderall wore off I am. seven hours have passed 👀 #ok ok I’m done writing about my weird nostalgia feelings I’ll be fine I won’t die I literally remember everything even if it’s from 3 years #ago at this point <3 that’s just how often I looked at it GANABSNDK