#solidified that this really happened

[evonik-k]

Something in me died

the day my hero died.

I found out at six am

barely awake

ready to do nothing at work

when I found out my hero died.

a text from a loved one,

a video from a man who shared

a love so different

But with him

i shared and shed tears

a quiet sob in a bathroom

drowned and simultaneously echoed

with the sorrow of millions

Something in me died

i don’t know what it is

but i know it is gone

maybe the illusion

of shelter

behind a shield made from a screen

maybe innocence

of laughter

shared with a good man

maybe naivete

that those we look up to

are indestructible

‘Good things don’t happen to heroes’

he once said

words that haven’t left 

my head in weeks

a mantra

i plan to etch into my skin with ink

a reminder

to never become a hero

so that maybe

good things may happen

and i may never have to endure this pain again

Something in me died, 

And much like with him,

all I have are memories

pictures in a gallery

texts in a chat

Something in me died that day.

And I’ll never get it back.

#technoblade #im bad at poetry #but i needed to get this out #cause i miss him #and i haven't really felt better in quite a while #pretty sure i was bargaining or something #but tommy's video really just #solidified that this really happened #anyways #enjoy some emo poetry #or don't #either way i hope you have a good day :) #tw death #poetry

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

its 2am im posting the friend i made for Derry since they looked lonely. they're partners in crime except not bc Derry is too sleepy to participate past the idea stage

jesterly is not their real name 💅 their pronouns are whatever is funniest in the moment 💅 also i would punch them in the face if given the chance and they would deserve it

#drawing them together is solidifying the fact that i cant draw consistent character size/height differences #holy SHIT they are all over the place the lot of em #also i resent jesterly on principle now #bc it took my like. two hours of constant recoloring to get to a somewhat decent look #i wanted to make their color scheme a little unsettling AND NOW THEYRE BRIGHT FUCKING PINK AND RAINBOW- #jesterly i am in your house with a shotgun #they were gonna have like... dark maroon felt w/ violent orange cheeks #and an equally sinister outfit #LOOK AT THEM. THEYRE A WALKING BANANA CREAM PIE. FUCK. #scribble salad #welcome home oc #why is it that whenever i create two characters meant to be partners (platonic or otherwise) #they immediately start becoming a little fucked up #whats up with that. huh. why do they always get Violent #jesterly has existed for all of three hours #and i already need to keep them on a tight fucking leash #my brain: oh and they love pranks! fun! but sometimes they take it too far and whoops arson & blood is happening but theyre still laughing- #NO!! take it back a notch bitch!!! reel it in!!!! #originally jesterly was gonna be like... a park ranger or forest-dwelling type character or something #but. i really love jesters #people always talk about 'oh prince/princess/royalty & dragon' #or 'oh knight & dragon' #name a more iconic duo than jester & dragon. motherfucker. ill wait. YOU CANT. #and now jesterly exists and i dont like them. but also im attached #theyre in my brain now and they wont leave #as a visual: im trying to sleep and theyre blasting caramelldansen in the same room #sadistic little bastard.

[yuridovewing]

thinking about how ivypool thought dovewing got favoritism from the clan growing up and continued to enforce the idea that dove was an entitled bitch, and then she participated when the clan was manipulating and guilt tripping dovewing into a relationship with an entitled creep who didnt respect her, telling her she owed him affection

#‘’my sister gets so much special treatment!! anyways my clanmates are bullying her into an unhappy relationship i better get in on that’m #idea here but what if ivypool was regarded as like a hero for spying on the dark forest and is seen as a respectable warrior now #(like ffs shes getting considered for deputy) #but dovewing is now the one getting ostracized and tossed aside now that shes not ‘’useful’’ and she didnt ‘risk her life’ #and now ivy has it all but she still insists on punishing dovewing for what happened when they were kids #because shes solidified the idea of dove as a whiny entitled spoiled brat who cries to get what she wants #and she absolutely refuses to change that view of her bc she wont let go of her spite #so shes controlling to dove and gets really guilt trippy when dove dares call her out on it #ok im trying not to seem like an ivypool hate blog. im not i think shes interesting and i think her being bitter is fine #my opinion of her has certainly soured over the years (and admittedly bc of the fandom) #also all this talk isnt ‘’omg this is canon this is why she SUCKS!!!!’’ its more ‘’this is probably how id go about it in my rewrite

[greenerteacups]

Which is your favourite and least favourite harry potter book?

while i think Prisoner of Azkaban is the best on a technical level, my favorite is Goblet of Fire. because it's a fucking blockbuster. like, this is a book that is firing on all cylinders, trying to do a million billion things at once, and it executes the fuck out of basically everything. besides the fact that it dives deeper into character dynamics than any previous book (ron and harry! hermione and ron! hermione and krum! sirius and harry! ron and percy! etc!!), it's a massive expansion of the universe: it opens up whole new wizarding hemispheres, new countries, new cultures, TONS of new characters, the Quidditch World Cup, the Triwizard Tournament, the Ministry of Magic's bureaucratic politics, the Old Guard death eaters, and the beginning of the Order of the Phoenix. it gives us Fleur and Krum and Mad-Eye Moody and Cho and Cedric and Charlie Weasley, and the first taste of Snape's backstory, not to mention pensieves and mermaids and fucking dragons, like sorry, are you seeing this shit??

and then, finally, it gives us the beginning of the second wizarding war. it gives us the graveyard scene and Cedric Diggory's sacrifice, one of the best and most important moments in any book ever, because it's the whole story in a nutshell, and it's also the moment that the plot starts. Goblet is the crux of the entire series, and it nails almost everything. (the exception being the Moody plot twist, which... I did not love, but like: must a conclusion be "good"? is it not simply enough for a story to plow headfirst off the rails in a wildly entertaining direction, and then end? i think it is.)

so those are what I see as the Objective Goods of Goblet. my Subjective Goods are: i love a tournament arc, i love a GAME, i love a set of rules and rituals and ceremonies and opportunities to demonstrate character through contrasting behavior in response to pre-ordained challenges and rule sets. i love you Yule Ball, i love you prom arc, i love you dressing characters up in silly little outfits and making them take each other on dates, i love you teenage drama and misunderstandings and jealousy and teenybopper romantic subplots. i love you goblet of fire.

#least favorite is easily deathly hallows #i've bitched about it on here before but deathly hallows just misunderstands the story that it's ending #in a way that is almost unforgivable as the last note for a series #you can't just end your seven-book saga about the world-saving potential of love and community by having your protagonist #take off on his own with only two people and bitch at them for 200 pages #reject help at every opportunity refuse to tell any of his adoptive family shit #have a war happen 95% off-page and then end with a Big Damn Battle where your protagonist becomes a christ allegory #basically solidifying the idea that no actually this guy was just Super Special all along #and the community was nice but really it was All About This One Guy fighting This Other Guy! no politics no themes here folks! #andnowtheyallhavebabies BYE!! #like sorry. L denouement bro

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[heartkade]

DreamXD: “you’re my pet. you’re my best friend. you have a debt you must pay to me or you will pay with your own life”

The Egg: “you’re mine. you have always been mine since the beginning. you’ll serve me until your last breath”

c!Foolish 🤝 c!Badboyhalo

dealing with terrifying and powerful supernatural entities who are obsessed with them

#I stand firm in my belief the egg is the devil to XD’s god #I can’t wait to see more supernatural happenings next season #and I hope this duality gets explored #dsmp #dream smp #egg lore #badboyhalo #foolish #DreamXD #it honestly just solidifies it further that they must have a connection #c!landduo really going through it #landduo

[soft-serve-soymilk]

Eugene: Harbourtown's Hollow Protector (A Meta Analysis)

The night is dim, awaft with the scent of sea-salt spray and crushed autumn leaves. A nearby cafe jingles with the sound of clinking cups, and it's heady aroma envelops the people with laughter and dance, untouched by the vastness of the sky and the sea. All but for one. His name is Eugene. He wears a neon pink jacket. He has a strange fondness for the word momentous. He's the sole "Protector of Harbourtown~!" But a hero complex-- and the insecurity beneath it-- doesn't spring from nowhere.

Not dissimilar to the melancholy ambience of New Wirral, the concept of emptiness and uselessness plagues Eugene throughout his adventures, and this comes to light in the archangel fight with Mammon.

Eugene reacts-- for an otherwise bombastic, enthusiastic guy-- quite poorly. He initially pushes back and gets defensive-- 'You don't know a SINGLE thing about me', but one can't keep up the charade of denial forever, and he begins to break down. Somewhere in his heart, he seems to read these words as true. Eugene comes from a post-capitalistic society, or at least the start of one. There, life was 'slowly' changing in emphasis from being 'rich and famous' to being generous to one's community. But even though Eugene states that it was a sudden shift in society's ways, such change never is so instantaneous. With billions of people on the earth, with a spectrum of political opinions, the hard-coding of capitalism is something that is difficult to undo. The ideal of getting a good job has been going on for decades, for instance. So to a bunch of children caught in the midst of it all, in the beginning of new change, indoctrinated into a capitalistic world that was bursting at the seams... it's daunting. Engulfing. And that's clearly what's happened in Eugene's case. He states that he was 'never very good at' the new way of life. This, combined with his reaction to Mammon which he holds to some truth-- 'I want order because you do. I crave structure because you do' shows that this new way of doing things has left Eugene feeling rather... useless. Especially since, truth be told, he doesn't see much in himself in the first place. Within the Gramophone Cafe, there's a bit of optional dialogue between him and Kayleigh. Kayleigh inquires that, with Eugene's desire to benefit Harbourtown, why doesn't he go join the rangers himself? To which he goes:

Besides the point that he is clearly putting up a front, when Kayleigh teases that he wouldn't be up to complete their challenge, we get this instead:

But! As Kayleigh tells the player after they acquire their ranger challenge, it's specific to the person applying. Kayleigh went around doing errands because that's in her nature. The player undertakes a combat challenge because that's in their forte, or at least the game assumes so. It's a bit suspicious, then, that Eugene reacts in this way. But after all, capitalism does take time away from personal development, it's no wonder that this boy doesn't understand what value he brings to the table innately, by breathing, by being alive and a good spirit, and trying and failing and trying some more. He needs to be told, multiple times, assuaged of it really, that 'You don't need to be a hero to have value'. That he doesn't need to go around heralding some grand cause to be something in the world. That niggling insecurity of his is further implied in the Aldgrave Tomb Station, with the gravestone text. The archangel for this one, Lamento Mori, as the pun also implies, is as much about death as it is the fear of being unable to live a meaningful and fulfilling life before it. The text changes for each of the party members to reflect their internal struggles, whether it is Kayleigh's people-pleasing, Felix's embarrassment over his past art, or in Eugene's case: 'All talk and no action'. And it is because of that Eugene is wrapped up in an unfulfilling hero complex. A hero is a strict role. They're defenders of justice. Chivalrous. Selfless. Brave. A far-cry from the open-endness, and thus emptiness, that Eugene sought to bury within him as he fought the landkeepers. It's a comfortable act to play, and that feeling of stopping the bad guys does well to console the ego and mind in the moment. And you know Eugene is really trying to play into it, because when he's caught in the heat of the moment, he reacts with embarrassment, as if he knows it's childish:

Which brings us to his series of relationship heart events. Because though insecurity is like a gaping hole in the heart, and Eugene has so far been trying to cover it up with the cling-film bravado of heroism, the cover can always be removed. It can be filled with something much more nourishing, like soil, which is precisely what happens. Eugene finds a new comfort in starting a community garden. And though it might initially read that he's still trapped in that cycle of constantly needing to help others, the truth is, he's beginning to liberate himself from the idea that he is useless. He takes pride in his little garden, and shows genuine confidence in it and it's potential, rather than snapping up under pressure like with Mammon, being tentative as if with the ranger challenge, or fawning over in embarrassment when the player first encounters him.

And the day is bright, and the scent of flowers and mulch lingers in the air. A nearby cafe jingles with the sound of clinking cups, and it's heady aroma envelops the people with laughter and dance, untouched by the vastness of the sky and the sea. And this time, everyone is there.

--

Thanks for reading my meta take on best boi!!! I highly recommend this other speculative opinion and it's addition by my friend @hungrydolphin91 and @millipedish, which I think is absolutely wonderful and very supplementary to mine :). I just didn't want to regurgitate the same stuff because. y'know. academic honesty and plagiarism ^^;

#cassette beasts #eugene cassette beasts #eugene #As a side preamble I really do like how his questline takes the longest #it's a neat example of gameplay-story integration. he's putting up the heroism front so of course you can't get close to him #until it's removed. and that false barrier just happens to be the landkeepers. idk man I know a lot of people find it annoying #but i just think it solidifies what he's got going for him :>

[blogmatsu]

Based on the last 2 reblogs (there was supposed to be a 3rd one but tumblr keeps bringing up an error):

Is it me, or does it seem like the Ichimatsu Incident is a misunderstanding that will NEVER be cleared up to Osomatsu XDD?

This incident has happened once in the anime, and THREE other times in the games (there might be more, but I haven't seen all of them yet).

This is probably why Osomatsu looks like he's had enough of both Karamatsu and Ichimatsu in the last ep of season 1 when Ichimatsu ends up being the only one supporting Karamatsu.

that is a face that looks like he's seen it all and is too familiar with it at this point.

#osomatsu san #osomatsu #karamatsu #ichimatsu #Ichimatsu Incident #it happened 3 other times aside from the anime #across two games already #it's too bad I couldn't reblog the 3rd one #it's what would've really solidified my point but the reblog wouldn't work unless I used my primary account.

[askhuntlow]

So Willow, what was that first date with Goldie like?

Willow: [reads this and immediately panics] H-Hey, Hunter?

Hunter: [oblivious] Yes, Captain?

Willow: Before we answer some more questions, I’m kind of thirsty. Can you grab me a drink or something? Please?

Hunter: [smiles and gets up] Of course! Is there anything in particular you’d like?

Willow: [shakes head smiling and waving him off] Oh, anything will do!

Hunter: [stands up straight like a soldier and salutes] Your order is my command, Captain!

[There’s a beat where they both make eye contact and burst into laughter, both doubling over before Hunter exits the room]

Willow: [leans over and makes sure Hunter cannot see her then she leans in closer to the screen to reread the ask fully] By “Goldie” I think you might mean Hunter. Hunter and I are JUST friends. I mean like Hunter and I did share feelings for each other when we were younger, but that was like 6 years ago! In that time, Hunter dated quite a few people. He just n-never asked…well…me. [Looks up and begins to shake her hands a little before crossing them under her arms] I-I mean, not that I mind! I’ll admit, finding out that he was dating Edric a year after Belos’s defeat was a bit …rough… but once they broke up after a year and he started to date Skara, then a few months later Viney, then those two started to date each other. Once Hunter and Jerbo started dating (and by “dating” I mean a one night stand during a very drunken after party in the Human Realm after my last grom, but no judgement), I stopped keeping track. [looks at the computer screen] I mean like! Not because I l-like STILL like him! L-like that. [sighs as Hunter walks in without her noticing from behind] Obviously I still like him! He’s my friend and he’s made a lot of progress! We can joke about his more…rigid personality quirks, Belos, all that fun stuff. Titan. I-I guess I just don’t want to lose my friend at this point.

Hunter: [soften gaze and sweet smile as he sets an apple blood juice box next to her] Don’t worry Captain! As long as you stay you, you won’t lose me as a friend! [returns back to his seat with a reassuring smile]

Willow: [jumps in shock and then processes his words] HUNTER! [chuckles and tries to catch her breath] Ha, thanks! [nervously takes the juice box and sinks back in her seat using the juice box to hide her face behind]

Hunter: Well of course! I-I mean, you mean a lot to me too. [reaches pinky over to her]

Willow: [curiously looks at his outstretched hand, then giggles and connects her pinky to his after she sniffles] Cool! Happy to help!

#huntlow #willow park #willow toh #hunter toh #yes they do use that scene as their inside joke #it’s a significant thing that happened between them and really solidified their bond #I also take THAT scene with romantic undertones #but there is a specific reason why Hunter hasn’t gone out with Willow yet

[todayisafridaynight]

would it be okay if u told me why u like aoki😭/gen😭😭😭😭BEEN TRYNA LIKE HIM FOR SO LONG I JUST CANTT but i love ur art so much so i still consume it otherwise lol

i liked tohru adachi in high school and tbh i think that alone is enough of an explanation for why i ended up liking aoki

#snap chats #haha see i told you last post's tags were relevant #anyway vLKVJEVLKAEJVLKJ IM CRYING ANON youre so funny. this is the funniest ask i coulda got thank you so much #i dont know why i like him either <- yes i do #fine lets get Real Talk about it #well first off all i thought he looked hot rolling out the elevator and i was playing the eng dub and i think his voice sounds hot there #and thats like. not athing that happens to me ever <- literally thought sawashiro was hot two frames into the game but anyway #i like politician characters. or characters that are in a position of power ESPECIALLY if they have to act like they dont suck balls #like i very much love the idea of the power of charisma and that type of thing not to mention the 'strategizing' as aoki puts it #that comes with politics. LIKE HE SUCKS DONT GET IT TWISTED HE SUCKS BUT //shrug emoji// #like its why i love the mine rggo stories i like seeing mine's thought process and how he uses his intelligence #smart's sexy to me idk what to tell you but moving on #its fun watching him lose his cool too ESP IN HIS FIGHT LMAO HE STOMPIN HIS FOOT LIKE A TODDLER SHUT UP #i also really love the arakawa family in general and thinking of aoki's relationship with each of them makes my brain explode #especially him and sawashiro that shit is painful to watch and i love it so much #i also thought him going from goth to republican was the funniest shit in the world like i howled at that AND i was distraught #aokis so interesting to me from the notion that he IS loved by his family but he has so much hatred for himself it eats him up #and as a result he cant be happy no matter what he does- how hes constantly seeking validation even if it's nothing meaningful #his lil. Dog-Eat-Dog world world belief to ichi also appealed to my edgy depressed high schooler brain. sorry. #his speech at the lockers also got to me. unfortunately. sorry everyone i empathized too hard it got too real it wasnt funny anymore #like as much as i complain bout the very end the ending is what solidified me liking aoki if not also cause of ichi's impact in those scene #plus... analyzing him and the environment around him is so much fun too.... #idk reasons for why i like aoki also boil down to personal reasons. he still sucks tho so i cant be upset when people hate him LOL #i probably have more reasons or could elaborate more i love rambling but i mean. who really wants to read all that 💀💀 #maybe for a character that WASNT the worst but. aoki is so LMAO #thank you for loving my art regardless :) im sorry i have to be attached to the worst guys ever

[lizzibennet]

the thing about each pjo book is that each of them is uniquely the best in what it sets out to do. each is so monumental in what the story ends up amounting to, picking a favorite is almost like pointless. you could not have all 5 work so well if one was missing

#tlt introduces the world and the main trio and the main antagonist #fun adventure in wacky world. normal #som piggybacks off the already established status quo of the world (fun wacky adventure) and builds relationships upon it #explores characters more. more introspection from percy and a lot raised (and answered) about annabeth #plus solidifying percy's bond w grover #ttc was my least fav for a long time because it just felt like idk off #and i now think it's bc it's where the story pivots a bit and becomes more serious #it's still v much haha fun adventure bc it's children's lit after all. but it is once again meant to solidify #percy's bond w annabeth; percy's devotion to chb and his feelings towards the prophecy #as well as being the climax of thalia's character and kind of settling the fact luke really is evil and doing some real shit #exemplified by the fact this is the first book where protags die #and thalia pretty much kills luke. like he doesn't die but she couldn't have known he wouldn't die #so percy now REALLY has an idea of what he's up against #notice how the following two books really couldn't have happened w/o this kind of certification from him #botl is like. AHHHHHHHHHH it is my fav for a reason #i just really love how it doesn't lose the footing w the pace and the fun hijinks but still manages to deepen the relationships between #the characters #especially with the focus on percy's feelings towards nico and annabeth's towards luke #like *chef's kiss* that book is so fucking good please #and with a foundation so strong there really was no way tlo could have been bad lmao #but still the fact the book takes time from Teh Final Confrotation vibes of it all #to make a point to show percy going back to his mom's. luke going back to may's. hestia's presence in the middle of all of it #rick was like this series has a theme and i will show it to you NAOW #and the action scenes in this one??? UNPARALLELED. tlo and botl the most riveting to read #if you remove one of them the story stops making as much sense!! #(i can hear you all going yeah like every other book series and NO. esp ya/childrens lit has SO MUCH filler) #ME? pjoposting in 2023? it's more likely than you think #pjo

[aceofstars16]

I feel like I’m still fighting a headache right now and I’m about to go to bed. I’d appreciate prayers that sleep helps and I don’t get a migraine cause I have counseling tomorrow and I really want to actually be able to work through stuff and if I’m miserable I don’t think that’ll happen 🫠

#I should’ve gone to pt yesterday but I thought I was fine and my mom was tired…like I try to help someone and then this happens 😑 #prayer request #I just really don’t want a migraine tomorrow plz #sometimes sleep helps and other times it solidifies it so like…the first one please…

[bisaster-energy]

yu yu hakusho is really fun

#i finished reading the manga about a week ago? #idk i can't get over it <3 #yyh is actually a big part of my childhood in that my sisters would watch it all the time but mostly the eldest #she always had anime on lmao #but yeah we used to have the first 5 volumes and i would just read them over and over never knowing what happened next #until recently hahah #anyways GROUP PHOTO 🥺😭 they're so cute!! #kuwabara wanting to share a glass with kurama is sweet too I think #URAMESHI'S DEVASTATED REACTION...I can't get over it like. The dark tournament is really what #Solidified their friendship I think I mean #Kuwabara was this guy that wouldn't leave him alone but it was fun to beat him up and then there was the righteous anger #when rando nearly killed kuwabara #but here. the dark tournament. that anguish is for one of the most important people in his life #because yusuke didn't have friends. he thought he didn't. he figured Keiko his mom the teachers kuwabara everyone was better off #but he saw for himself the effect his death had and now he's on the other side of it. Idk smth about it #kuwameshi #Sort of?? Romantic platonic wtv they're all close and care about each other so much <3

[bunnihearted]

.

#ummm what to do if you're rlly in love with someone and it doesnt stop but u also have no idea whats going on #or what shape that love will take. can it live? does it have to be quelled? is that love reciprocated? could it perhaps be? whats happening #but even so... the love only grows stronger day by day. even with minimal contact. it just grows and solidifies and strengthens #im completely drowning in it and im going crazy bc i dont know!!! i dont know what to do with it bc i has no release atm #but it is all i can think of. every day. all day. im being driven insane by longing. and aching. im going crazy by it. really truly #i want it to be real and happen. it's all i want. but idk if it will. bc it is not only my heart in this equation..... hmm

[reikunrei]

i just need. i just NEED. scott to be the key that solves everything. i need him to be there with henry. and i need the party to come back to him. i need them to remember/realize that scott was there when they were kids. mr scott clarke who solves all of their specific theoretical hypothetical questions so they can solve their problems and figure out what’s going on. i need him to be there to tell them about henry and make them realize they are Not Dealing With Henry. i need scott to clear henry’s name!!!

#im literally going insane he's TOTALLY THERE #they would NEVER FORGET ABOUT SCOTT!!!! #i say things #stranger things // #also i dont give this any real weight but like. it's fun to pick out moments that parallel one another thru the show #and a lot of them happen like. things that happen in s2 are mirrored in s4 #or things that happen in s1 are mirrored in s3 but NOT directly mirrored in s2/4 #like so some things that happened in s1 and 3 i'm like oh it'll happen in 5 too so we get 1 3 5 #so im like. if in s1 scott helped them w the sensory deprivation tank thus allowing el to find barb and will #and if in s3 scott helped joyce figure out her magents #then in SEASON 5 he'll show up and HELP THEM with their HENRY PROBLEM #he will be the thing that really solidifies the distinction between henry and edward i can taste it #he will have a hand in it so help me god

[starlit-roses-ships]

before i change my theme to suit my current f/o fixation i suppose now is a good a time to mention that asta.rion from bg3 is an f/o now lol 😅

#eve speaks #united there is nothing we can’t do 🤍🩸 #I solely blame YouTube for this btw. unfortunately i don't really have a way to play the game #(or the time to play if i'm being honest since I'm very backlogged with games and have a limited amount of game time to play anyways) #but the YouTube algorithm decided against my will that i needed to know about this game and ast.arion so here we are lmao #i think the countless hours I have spent watching any and all related content with him has solidified this for the past couple months lol #literally i knew nothing about the game or this character aside from the very few reblogs i happened to scroll past #which admittedly i wasn't really paying much attention to before bc i was so busy with coursework that so much shit slipped under my radar #so i didn't really know anything about him until the yt algorithm decided i should lol #however the yt algorithm man...it'll getcha everytime lmao