really love characters who have varied panic responses. kirk stating himself that he does not panic outright, externally, not in high-stress dangerous situations, but instead becomes tense and level like a wound string, on-guard: mostly because his role as captain necessitates that he maintain level rationality even when facing potential death as his training as 'the guy who tells you what to do when shit hits the fan' requires, but also because his childhood experiences taught him early that drowning in the desperate haziness of panic won't help you survive. especially as kirk already follows his intuition so deeply. he learned to grasp and contort the feeling. spock is the main person who represses his emotions, of course, but kirk does it to those deep-set, personal ones (this includes how he doesn't reveal anything truly personal about himself willingly 90% of the time, only what others already know/shallow anecdotes) in a much more subtle way that's really interesting to me. certified expert at avoiding the subject as long as he isnt caught out on the lie. professional bluffer.
in terms of past or parents we dont know much!!! hes known as the heart-on-his-sleeve guy!!! like yes he yells, he gets irritated, excited, hes a whirlwind of quick-thinking and plans and intuition, he goes out of his way to connect with his crew and shows it, when he puts on a little act or bluff he puts his heart into it and clearly enjoys the dramatics so much, at times he wears his heart on his sleeve, he laughs openly and is honest to spock about what he means to him, he's very sun-coded to me in a burning, passionate way, always intertwined with the stars and seeking them out, but when it comes to genuine deep-set turmoil? we dont actually know all that much about him??? hes so full of emotion and character (i love fics where spock characterises jim's mind/bond as a whirl of colour and sensations, hes a quick thinker!!! intuitive!! lively!!!) and yet its still so outwardly surface level. tarsus iv gets mentioned like twice? so especially here where kirk gets briefly jumpscared by the creature, because like:
its subtle but his eyes. his eyesss!!!!! kirk commands with his emotions but there's always some sort of level of control to it, or he transforms them into something that spurs on others or uses them to ascertain a goal: seeing unguarded fear/distress in his eyes even if its faint and brief (in this instance) makes me go insane every single time. like!!! its such a small moment!!! he isnt even panicking!!! really, he just got jumpscared!!! its insignificant!!!!!!! but seeing a two-second flash of actual, naked apprehension is just...oughhh,,,,,,,,,
oh god, and dont even get me started on the galileo seven episode where he assumes a tense level-headedness throughout the whole thing, irritated and apprehensive but not panicking, making sure he maintains intelligent rationality, even when he has to leave them behind, but when spock and the crew are confirmed safe and the bridge is occupied the camera pans to him and his eyes look like they're fucking watering and he's so achingly relieved. don't even talk to me. im. fuck.
he shows so so much but at the same time reveals so little.
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*takes a shuddering breath* okay but…….y’all hear me out okay😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 just— just LISTEN FOR A MOMENT
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I’m about to go back and clip every single radio message from Daniel’s career where he says, “understood” so people stop wringing their hands about his Q2 radio.
It’s time to reclaim “understood” back from the McLaren era, folks. The only time he stops yapping is in the car.
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aaron hotchner top five autism moments
“its a dog” lmaoo “maybe a dad knows” my ASS thats the autism babe
any time he stims. especially in eps like psychodrama or ashes and dust
wearing a whole ass suit no matter where they are. especially when the others complain about the heat like in a thousand words
“where are my clothes please” frazzled and out of it and being vulnerable in a new place without anyone he knows without his suit without any of the usual things that can ground him. still unerringly polite but his voice is raised and he’s growing louder and louder bc he’s upset (not angry) and there’s too much happening at once that he isn’t in control of
in revelations when reid calls him a narcissist and he immediately leaves the room and starts leafing through the bible while he asks everyone what his worst quality is. like yes it’s a little bit self deprecating but it’s mostly a genuine, practical question—even while his hands shake. he distantly knows that he’s making everyone else uncomfortable with that question but he has to ask so he can be sure he’s on the right track and he can’t waste time trying to make it easier for them to understand that
there are so many more that im probably missing but these are the ones i can think of atm. @eldrai would be a better person to ask
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sometimes I'm like "why am I still upset about something that happened when I was a kid/teenager. its been ages" and then remember that my parents are still upset about their childhoods and they're 60
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I’m not even joking, no one, and I mean NO ONE. Talks more about Charles Leclerc than Max Emilian Verstappen. Literally he can challenge the whole of Italy with his eagerness to be close to Charles. So if one is to belong to the other. You know Max would run at Charles command.
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