#sorry. I really should sleep now

[verraising]

i am short of breath standing next to you. i am out of my depth at this altitude. -♡-

#ffxiv gpose #myrrbert #wolbert #a'myrrhis venko #ardbert hylfyst #hello. i've been having A Time lately so i decided to cheer myself up with some disgustingly sweet gpose shenanigans #and it worked ;w; look at them... babies..... #and MAN i am kinda proud of these esp how the lighting and the angles worked out!!! and the hands!!! i had to futz with the fingers so much #but they line up quite nicely which is very satisfying #i am commited to their matching bracelets too. it was a joke initially but they are canon now. lil keepsakes for when they are apart #also ignore me with the sleeping at last lyrics again lmao but they're just. so perfect. #also just as a side note these are NOT wedding pictures lmaooo my partner saw them and was like #'aww they're getting married!' but that was not the intention #they're just in all white because i thought it'd look really nice with the purple forest #(and i was right about that) #ANYWAYS #sorry for the ranting i am just. excited. to have produced something really nice imho #and to see those two together <3 #i should talk about them more but i always get shy and embarrassed lmao but maybe i will do that sometime #anyways!

[b4kuch1n]

I actually for real feel like my phone's scanning quality has dropped monumentally while I was away on thing so that's a fun thing to figure out now. anyways

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #answering of ''sure'' whenever they ask ''are you gay'' strikes again #gods. genuinely at least on the export the quality of these dropped like to half. whats up with that #sorry if these are impossible to parse #anyways. scribbled these during ''holiday'' ''vacation'' ''getaway''' #sometimes it really is the simple things. hallucinating vividly about the casual life of a pair of teens to survive being in a car for 6hrs #WITH da family #so glad I picked up scribbling on paper again. I actually got stuff to do digitally today and!! literally it feels so much cleaner #like I feel like I relearned a bunch stuff doing traditional ink again for a sec #but yeah. u guys should know by now how much I think about food as a concept #took 3m off last year to write about it in fact. but now Im just microdosing by drawing langa #I'm also actually so insane about reki being a scaredy cat it's so. something. it means so much to me #this of course means koyomi is a jumpscare champion. among siblings that are close in age there must be #the one who sleeps in the lower bunk. and the one who ties a doll to a string by its neck and lower it down to be next to the others face #'why is that so specific' no further question. thank you #gods okay. I need to lay the fuck down it is now my time. to be in bed #Im onto some real exciting stuff rn! and when this piece is done I'll return to ink for a sec #so uh. ink comm maybe not this week. but the next #happy late labor day! seek and destroy. have a good night

[nanatsuyu]

what makes you like kandrew so much?? what drawns you to them??

(not trying to sound rude or condescending or anything im just curious lol)

I really adore characters that bite and snarl at each other for the purpose of enrichment in their respective enclosures.

On a more serious note lol—other than the fact that I have A Type when it comes to pairings (davekat, edxizzy, amberprice, etc), I enjoy characters that have somewhat of an unhealthy codependency on one another. Which is the extremely general way of putting it. I like characters that are kind of doomed to the narrative to never really be sated by what the world has to offer, but their person makes up for that (not that they always recognize it as such or that it's entirely positive or sometimes even completely mutual). And I don't mean doomed in a "never amount to anything" way, but in that bittersweet tone where both of these characters, wherever they fall into each other on the timeline, are at a place where their lows sync up, and that harmonizing rattles something to the perceived tune of "we're the best we're ever going to get". Again, that's all really general for the vibes of why I was drawn to them. There's a bit more nuance for them (and the other pairings ofc).

I like that they have a deal that encompasses both of them trying to push the other into being a better version of themselves but they're both too stubborn/scared to move first because realised potential means you have to recognise it too. Kevin can't expect Andrew to try his best when he himself is not, and Andrew can't expect Kevin to show him his worth* if he doesn't bother to try in the first place. (Though I know their deal was labelled more as moriyama protection for Kevin, I think that kind of encompassed the idea that Andrew would be a crutch till Kevin could stand on his own if that makes sense)

Not to quote the ec but it's one of like 3 parts I would willingly print and eat:

Andrew is the kind of character I adore because he says this and he really genuinely means it. Keeping what little he has left of himself is a last ditch self preservation tactic because he can't get hurt if he has no hopes/expectations/aspirations. No one can let him down if he doesn't let them. But he's so wonderfully flawed in his own ruleset because he keeps doing just that in the hopes that maybe someone will be different this time . Like maybe this time someone will be right when they say he's worth it** like maybe Kevin is right and he can make Andrew see what he's been refusing himself.

I also love that their deal extends far past the deal itself. In the most basic of terms, it was: 'you go, I'll go.' Andrew didn't have to trust Kevin beyond that. But he gave Kevin his meds and trusted him not to abuse that. Kevin had even already promised to help him figure out a way to wean off them before if they could earlier (and I genuinely think his fear of Andrew getting off his meds early was both a kneejerk 'the game/my safety' reaction because Kevin has a lot riding on this semester too, but also because he knows he made his own promise to Andrew and he thought Andrew coming off his meds early might have been an obstacle even Kevin's stubbornness couldn't hurdle when it came to helping Andrew on his feet after). Likewise I have to imagine that very few people put their trust in Kevin with much of anything outside of Exy given his temperament and wallflower disinterest in team building extra curriculars. So for Andrew to willingly give Kevin his meds to hold onto that he's gotten violent over before probably created a very morbid sense of.. pride, I guess? Like I trust you to hold onto the thing that ruins me is so... clenches fist

There's also this rough handed care that comes with all of that. They're unforgivably honest with each other at the best of times and unnecessarily biting at wounds just to get a genuine reaction at the worst. But then they also have these quiet side/off screen moments that are unyielding in tenderness? Andrew inspecting Kevin's hand for injuries. Kevin covering for Andrew when he's sick on court. Andrew telling Kevin to trust him during a panic attack and that he'll take care of it. Kevin turning his entire attention away from the Raven's to pull Andrew up to his feet. Them smiling at each other first genuinely?? Being idiots on the court with playful mocking shoves that don't get heated?? Like you give me these two characters who make it seem as if their hearts will genuinely stop beating if they stop nipping at each other, and then show me that they're actually wrapped up in one another so tightly that they're rarely seen apart? And are burdened (affectionate) with the task of keeping the other from doing the very thing that drowns themselves?? Okay

Also a looooot of this is from my perspective on Andrew's perspective on Kevin since we're given a lot more to work with, but I genuinely think Andrew was the first to push back at Kevin and make him prove things to Andrew and himself. Kevin had maybe a couple people at most before he fled to the foxes. Like he had nothing other than his name and reputation, good and bad, when he showed up at wymack's door. I can't help but imagine some part of Andrew saw this as amusing but also rather tiresome when it came to seeing Kevin constantly shut away in hiding. He was so loud before, where is all that roar now? When Kevin left Jean, he really left his only friend behind (sorry Thea fans I know she's there I know). So here you have Andrew, offering a deal that becomes this codependency because being out of the nest alone most certainly took its toll for a while, and it sounds too good to be true but most things are. So Kevin snatches it up and then there's the trust in the meds and the constant presence (in the sense of comforting consistency in spite of any disagreements (but abandonment issues kandrew is a whole other post now innit)) and the care and it all looks a lot like what someone might call a friend. And I mean they could both say they're not friends till their dying day but they're the only ones they're still trying to fool.

I just like that they gnaw on the scraps that they snag off one another, these leftover cuts from failed attempts at love and kindness, and act as if they didn't hand the pieces to each other themselves in the bed they share.

—

*Andrew is worth more than his ability to play Exy obviously, but I'm working from the angle that these boys have a very limited vocabulary in how to express that given their upbringings lol ie: my absolute Favourite part of the ec:

Like again I have my hangups with some of the ec but this provides soooo much more context to their beef pre-canon and the history behind Andrew's failed recruitment. Not to mention Aaron internally calls out Andrew for blatantly lying to Kevin when he tells him he doesn't care. (I think Andrew probably holds a certain disdain for Kevin struggling to verbalize how he measures worth and how that might differentiate off the court, because that line between wanting to be told you're worth putting in the effort for versus being told it's because of your latent potential is most likely rather precarious. Shipping goggles on: I imagine wanting to get someone's attention whose love language was built up around Exy is a tad difficult even if Andrew does in fact hear what Kevin's trying to say. I also don't think Kevin's malicious in his inability to truly express that Andrew really could have everything and it's infuriating to watch Andrew self destruct.)

**And for me, this, coupled with the above conversation with Renee, really puts into perspective how agitated Andrew is with Kevin for squandering his potential. He thinks Kevin has zero self preservation skills when it comes to maybe not putting all his balls in the exy basket, but that's also why he's so drawn to him because he has this insatiable drive to live for this one thing? And yet he's not even giving it his all like he's asking of Andrew despite that? It'd be easy to dismiss Kevin's overzealous love of the game as gross infatuation that's bled into Andrew's life, but if he smothers Kevin's drive and doesn't encourage him to be exactly as he sees Kevin, this person who really can achieve these things, what is there for him? He wants Kevin to thrive, but Andrew also wants Kevin to be right and that he can thrive too.

#im sorry anon do you regret your question now lol #im kind of bad with articulating my points sometimes because theres A LOT #like i think how they view themselves and each other is blurred with how others do #and what they tell themselves versus what they themselves can articulate makes it really messy #and thats what i gobvle up about them #theyre messy and mean and have a vice grip in each others collar and constantly demand more #and at the same time theres a certain kind of devotion that comes with promising to be the reason someone wont break thats so #agonizingly tender #kiss with a fist‚ love from the back of a broken hand etc #thanks for coming to my ted talk hope literally any of this made sense #aftg #aftg meta #kandrew #nana asks #otp: did you have fun #i should be sleeping but im thinking about ✨them✨

[arthur-r]

hello new self portrait just dropped which means this is officially what i look like now

#i have glasses now!!!! i’m not very good at drawing them but i sure have them on my face at all times shdhdf #and i recently started growing out my hair!!!! my distinctive bowl cut had a good run but i’m officially moving forward #i’ve also started exaggerating my big droopy sad eyelashes a LOT in pictures lately it’s part of my core identity now or something #(that’s not true shdhdf but i think my face knew about my puppydog destiny long ago and gave me puppydog eyes) #anyway i just haven’t drew anything in forever like i think i’ve drew four things that weren’t JUST notebook doodling. all this school year #(and one of those was vent art on paper and the other one was coloring with my little sister. so i’ve drew two things on ibispaint at all) #anyway i think my glasses suit me really good and i’m also really excited i can see the world really good now #i still have some vision problems from POTS that aren’t fixed but like. i can see detail in brick walls now and i’m obsessed #house fucker behavior i’m so sorry shdhdhdff (THIS IS A JOKE AND LIE. I DONT FUCK HOUSES) #(and i’m apparently a house m.d. kinnie so i wouldn’t fuck him EITHER cause we’re the same person i could never) #ANYWAYS i can see well finally and that’s good. and in conclusion i’m real tired and should go to bed #i took my meds at 9:30 then started drawing at 10 finished at 11:30 #and now it’s midnight and i’m long overdue to be asleep already. so goodnight world!!!! #i have a sleepover tomorrow night which is very exciting. and also work and homework as usual shdhdf #but in the meantime i get to sleep. for up to 12 hours!!!! here’s hoping #ok anyway!!!! goodnight!!!! #P.S. text or call if you need anything!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later (probably)

[lizardlycrimes]

I just read your tags on your reblog (of the thing I stole your tags for 😅) and - you know the moment in the cartoon where Kash says "we were hoping Earth Wind and Fire here could assist" and everybody looks at Keyleth and Keyleth looks the other way first like "...oh you mean me??" That was 100% me ^^' I am HIGH KEY flattered, but also I'm very much "??!???!?" at the thought of anyone fangirling over me, of all people! whyyy (for real, though, really!?)

(also always SO SO GOOD to find someone else who fucking loves Scanlan 'Patented Disaster' Shorthalt, warts and all 💜)

I don't think I've gotten an ask before!!! This is exciting!!!

Also I love that scene in TLOVM so much I get what you mean by the whole "oh you mean me thing" sjshdjdn I'd probably be a lil shocked too but I'm genuinely am like. A big fan. Getting even this ask got me fangirling all over again!! I love your art so much and you have such an accurate way of portraying Scanlan it drives me nuts!! Both your design and characterization in comics and such just ahh!! Being able to say that's my boy!!! Is so exciting to me!!

It's so hard to find people who are decent about Scanlan it's insane though!! I've seen Scanlan be put through such hellish miss characterization and exclusion. Often times treated more like a thing than a person in my opinion. (Sam's characters as a whole I think are very slept on. Like even with big character reveals the only time I've seen fcg really be posted a LOT about was in relation to romance) on the rare occasion where I see someone who clearly appreciates Scanlan's complexities they basically get immediately engrained into my brain just like you have. Though with how much you've posted of him I think you're past simply engrained and just are part of my brain now.

Also warts and all is a funny way to put it while also being very accurate ajshsjsn but if I dive into that this post though I'd end out discovering what's the word limit on Tumblr 😅

#am still exhausted so gonna sleep soon #i have no clue how to tag this properly 🤔🤔🤔 #asks #i should have a proper cool ask tag name but ill probably forget about it next time i get an ask cause i rarely get them. #anyways i love talking about scanlan i can never get enough of it so yhis whole exchange makes me really happy #theres also a layer of like. when any artist i admire chats with me i have yhis moment of like. holy shit picasso is in my dms #even if we've been friends for a while im like.. woah. #ok update words are not wording anymore but if i don't reply now ill forget so sorry for that #i think things should mostly make sense so it should be fine??? but like if you do end out wanting to reply to this too feel free to ask #me to explain wtf i was trying to say. dms are open and so is the asks button #though i guess you could always comment 🤔 ehh whatever you wanna do

[satari-raine]

Sometimes I really wish I could give everyone countless dollars (or insert your relevant currency here) to go enjoy the things they want to enjoy and get the things they want to get, be it wants or needs. I'd do it in a heartbeat if I could.

#Satari rambles #To delete later probably #Seeing people upset about the chaos that was getting Sleep Token tickets mainly inspiring this #But also it just sucks to have to spend all of your time and money on surviving and not being able to indulge #This isn't too say people who can should feel guilty #Not at all #Everyone should be free to enjoy what they want with no shame #I just hate that it's so hard for that enjoyment of experiences and possessions to be universal #Granted I'm also struggling to find a job and pay bills #Like hell I can afford concert tickets even if they are in my state #Sorry this is really dumb I just #Giving everyone a virtual hug right now who is struggling with the hell that is a life with and without money

[lume-nosity]

sorry complete change of vibe but i think i need to take a little break i was just hit with devastating news and i definitely need time to process this

#📣 lumes announcements #☁️ lume speaks #i’m sorry for making this post rn if any of you are having a good day #or are in a good mood #i know i haven’t been as active with posts lately here but #i just want to be on break for a bit so i’m letting you all know in advance should i just stop posting/interacting all together #<- (on all accounts) #why did it have to happen again #and why now. the year just started #two people on the same day. #sorry my mood turned sour as soon as i heard of those said news #idk how i managed to take it in maturely but i really need to let out some steam #i really had to hear this before i go to sleep wth #ahghrf i don’t wnat to go through this cycle again #because i never cried in moments like these before as i was always the ‘strong one’ in the family #ughfbsbc but even so i want to cry since this is close to being the last straw #but at the same time i don’t want to bc i want to be the pillar for my family #nvm i almost threw up bc of everything that’d led up to this point #i haven’t been vulnerable like this for a long time but here we are #gonna have to reach out to family members to comfort and be with them for the time being #and i’ll be going to sleep. in tears i think #okay enough of that i’ll see you lovely people in a bit. just need some time for myself. thank you <3

[derpiedoxie]

Ey, get your foot off them, I don’t think they like that

Some art I finished during school!

Haven’t really played off yet (I really really want to but I keep getting distracted) but I still felt like making some fanart!

Warning: Blood

Some space here so that the picture appears under the cut

#I don’t know what I did right with the shading and just the overall look of this drawing but I want to only draw like this from now on #also the proportions and the pose in general I’m really proud of! #making this composition was so much fun too! #fanart #digital art #digital fanart #off fanart #the batter #the batter off #off #off game #off game fanart #tw blo0d #cw bl00d #drew this in sketchbook btw #not as good as Krita but it was fun experimenting! #they do have really good brushes though #I should probably stop writing the tags and go to sleep #also sorry for being inactive I’ve been busy and lacking the motivation to draw anything ‘big’ other than this

[xxcapybaragamingepic1337xx]

If they didn't want people sleeping during the day they wouldn't have made beds so comfortable

#hi I just woke up and my blankets are so soft and it's the perfect temperature as well and I have so much work that needs to be done #it's a cruel world #I've also lost all concept of time and barely know what day it is but whatever #maybe.... another 20 minutes... what's the worst that could happen #sorry for rambling just woke up with very strong feelings about how comfortable I'm feeling rn #also unrelated to anything I think modern oil paintings are really interesting especially ones that are more realistic and focus on everyda #scenes or still lives #personally I always associate oil painting with very classical art and that comparison brings a whole new layer of appreciation to the #piece like yea you've painted your McDonald's happy meal and hundreds of years ago somebody painted this bowl of fruit #and the medium in which you did it stayed the same the whole time #it's similar to how I feel about (modern) art in museums in that because it's placed in museums it gives it the feeling of an important #art piece and something that you should study intently #love modern art btw don't think it has only value if it's placed in an museum I just think it's interesting how much impact the surrounding #have on what we consider art #which is a fun thing to try out like for example if I say my IKEA chair is art that gives it a different value #making me study it more closely and in the process I'll realise yes it is art to me the way the pieces fit together #how the form was designed etc and it works for everything and makes your day much more fun #ramble over if someone's still reading this here's a fun little guy: 🐕 and sorry for taking up so much space on the dashboard #I'm going to go back to sleep now (bed is still veryyyy comfortable) #delete later

[justablah56]

damn I miss playing wolves in my friend's back yard .... rb to play wolves with your mutuals in their back yard<3

#just blahs #i dont really think this needs any other tags sbhsjsjs #but i am going to kinda vent in the tags still feel free to rb this tho :] #i miss my friend tbh #she was my best and only real friend for like 3 years and then she moved away and now we only talk 2-3 times a year #and i dont.... know how to change that #i just want my best friend back #but i dont want to seem clingly because what if shes moved on ? #what if shes gone and shes doing just fine where she is now and she doesn't miss me like i miss her #what if shes perfectly content with me just being someone that she talks to a few times a year #meanwhile i have nights that i literally cry myself to sleep because i cant just go see her #she doesnt know that i want so badly to turn 18 just so that i can move to the same state and maybe live near enough that i could see her #and i dont think i can tell her that because what if she doesn't care that much. #what if im being ridiculous and i should be over our friendship that should have ended the moment she moved years ago #that i should have just moved on and it's weird that i haven't #anyways sorry for the vent in the tags of my silly goofy post #mutuals come play wolves with me in my backyard <3

[larabar]

Please give more info for your Frontiers au, it makes me very happy

HI YES ALWAYS

this is late because i wanted to have a little more to show you than i had before but Anyway

ok .ok so

each character in the game had their own Main Issue/Thing. amy's was .idk love and wanting to share it with others. knux's was his ancestors and his own past, learning to get off angel island once in a while. and tails' was all about his independence

but for sonic it was really hard to find something sjdnfj since he doesn't really have anything to go off of (flat character and all that) but. i got thinking about how cyberspace affected each character and just how it Works

from what i understand, being stuck between cyberspace and reality has no feeling to it, no sense of being 'grounded', and all that other fun stuff .

and that sounds like a living hell for sonic

he can't do anything. he can run but it doesn't give him the same feeling because there is no feeling. the most he can do is just sit back and wait till everything's fixed.

y'know what just take this

not finished but it gets my point across and also im so normal about these two

#also .little things #when any character thats trapped in cyberspace gets angry or something i think they should get more glitchy. like theyre flaring up #this is just an excuse to let sonic hang out with the koco more #they love him a lot its like second nature for sonic to get along with little guys #pretty sure theres a cutscene with tails where he just. runs through a portal HE MADE into cyberspace #so can they move freely between the two realities ?? #really really hoping the dlc gives us more info on all this half ghost stuff i must know #OH AND im still trying to figure out if the cyber ghost characters could hypothetically leave their respective islands #like are they literally stuck there or is it just the fact that theyre islands and theres no clear way across them #can they meet each other in cyberspace ? or is it different for everyone no matter what so theyre always in different places #can the cyber ghost characters touch each other or is it the same as anything else #um anyways .thats all for today =] <cant sleep because of all these thoughts and more #its .1am.goodnight #<ME LAST NIGHT #it is afternoon now .sorry this took so long i just wanna talk about this so bad but i have no idea how to do that #but uh yeah thanks for asking about it !! genuinely made me so so happy #i wanna finish that cutscene concept sometime soon they are rotting my brain as we speak #sth #doodles #asks #sonic frontiers #sonic frontiers spoilers #frontiers role swap

[eudikot]

Wawa ass

#Becoming delusional as this sickness continues on #But I was watching this scene and knew that if you stopped it at the right time there had to be a perfect shot of his ass and I was right #AND ACTUALLY THERE'S AT LEAST 3 #I hope whoever got to animate this enjoyed it #Anyways sorry again I'm going to go sleep now and hope my appetite comes back tomorrow because I really should eat something #but I also need to go to the store because I have nothing so it's a double whammy #That is why I resorted to being fed in this way thank you Wawa #serizawa katsuya #mob psycho 100 #mp100

[crescentfool]

never in my life did i think i need to makeout with a piece of software so badly but here we are i guess

#lizzy speaks #OK IM BEING OVERDRAMATIC AND I WOULD ELABORATE BUT I NEED TO SLEEP BUT #DO YOU EVER JUST #FUCK !!!!!! #IVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO COME ACROSS A PIEC EOF SOFTWARE #i need to fiddle around with it some more but everything ive seen about it is MIND BLOWING to me #ive been waiting my entire life for this moment i think #i feel like it's funnier if i don't say what the software is. i wanna be mysterious so bad but i cannot shut the fuck up #literally been suffering through notetaking and organization softwares and im like ohh i think i finally found the one #this is the minecraft of sex i think its like wowza i can finally do all those writing projects i want to do #boys (me) don't want girls they want an organized database of notes that they can easily reference at anytime #sorry for being unhinged but like its like past midnight lol im sure i'll wake up in the morning and be like 'what the FUCK were you doing' #BUT!!! i think ill come back to this post to reblog it with like actual shit about the software when i figure out how i want to use it #i think everyone should experience joys in life. and sometimes that joy is having organized notes #bonus points if anyone can figure out what im talking about just from the tags alone i think this software will change my life #it has fucking tag functionality i literally love tags #sorry about the vocabulary but this rivals like. my love of spreadsheets. which are like. a wonderful thing i think but ANYWAY IM RAMBLING #anyways goodnight i wish you all on the dash a very lovely evening i just needed to share this because im so overjoyed right now o7 #if you have a software that you really like thats changed you feel free to tell me in the tags or something :) i like learning new things

[passthroughtime]

i’m starting to suspect that i just fucking suck 🤔 unsure yet though, but there are lots of signs already pointing to this... gotta mean something 🧐

#not to imply anything and didn’t want to vague-post but i really don’t think i have the right to complain #i mean people say a lot of kind words to me. and i cherish them #and i know it’s just post-publishing depression #or how should i call it #i don’t really want more comments? but maybe i want to know which thing squicks people the most about my writing #i know my biggest problem is the characterization and i want to discuss this so bad #please tell me where i fuck up. please tell me how you see these characters interacting. please give me more food for thought #i just want to talk about the chatacters i think about for several months #ok i’ll. i’ll try to get over myself #💪😞 #i know asking for opinions is not the answer because i should figure this out myself #and i’ve started kind of. analyze every canon scene a bit deeper. #if that would make the difference... we shall see #though i think the people who’d be able to tell me what’s wrong just. don’t go that far into the story lol #understandable. don’t blame them #fuck okay that’s quite enough of tags for now. i should go to sleep. maybe it’ll be easier after #sorry you had to witness this. i’m not well in my head

[harmonizewithechoes]

It’s my middle child’s 3rd birthday today 🥺

3 years ago my partner was deployed overseas and couldn’t come home for the birth because the military didn’t want to spend so much time quarantining their soldiers. Fortunately I had help as my parents were watching my son (at the time just a month shy of 2) for a few days before my due date and we had moved across the street from my partner’s parents when we found out about the deployment. So I had his mom with me at the hospital holding up her phone while we got to have a rare video call with my partner as we welcomed our daughter into the world after a very quick labor. I then had two months with our two very little kids by myself before he came home. It was an incredibly hectic time and I’m still not quite sure how I was able to get through all of that but here we are with the sweetest little 3 year old (let’s call her C) we could have asked for 🥰

C loves to play dress up and she has specific characters she’ll play as where you can’t refer to her as her name or she’ll get mad. She’s not C she’s Dr C or Baby or Baby Kitty or Princess Bucket (this was her first character and yes she does put a bucket on her head as a crown). Her favorite game to play is hide and seek and she loves dance parties and drawing and she’s obsessed with her 1 year old sister. We love C so much and I’m so excited to see how she grows and changes and learns over this next year ❤️

#personal #tonight her and her little sister are sleeping in their beds in their very own room for the first time #they’ve had their beds in my bedroom since we moved in and very often just ended up in our bed #but I’ve spent the past few days getting the room we’ve used for storage ready for them #and they’re doing really well so far #I’m sure they’ll end up in my bed again at some point but this is at least a step in the right direction #our crib that we’ve used for all 3 babies turns into a toddler bed and as I was taking it apart and putting it back together in the new room #my son started crying because he didn’t want his sisters to be big girls in their own room #he wanted me to put everything back and make the 1 year old 0 again so she could keep being a baby #I should point out that he is also obsessed with his baby sister #I told him that’s not quite how it works and kids are meant to grow up #and then he asked yet again for a baby brother because he loves babies so much and then he’d have a brother just like him 😅 #he’s very sweet but also…. that’s not happening lol #I’m slowly becoming a person again and being able to focus more time on hobbies #and my partner and I now have our room back #all of that would be reset again with another baby not to mention another year of nursing and diapers and sleepless nights…. pass lol #I’m emotional about my babies growing up but I’m also so excited to learn who they’ll become as time goes on #sorry for rambling I get sappy on their birthdays

[glass-trash-bab]

You know. I really did not need to watch the hunger games on a Wednesday night after a long day with family over. I think that was a bad idea, I'm way too sensitive for this

#im just really sad now #we watched the 4th movie. you know where more children then usual die. not feeling too great rn #it was my brother and cousins idea and i shouldve just pretended to be asleep the whole time #how tf am i going to sleep tonight. these are too many emotions #i feel like such a little bitch saying that the last time i watched a thg movie it gave me nightmares #but its true :( i really should not be as upset as i am #i think it might have something to do with. seeing actual children on screen. i dont like seeing children upset even in fake #idk maybe this is how the writers wanted me to feel. who knows. all i know is this is not the 'lets get together and watch a movie' kinda- #-series for me. sorry tumblr dot com for rambling #it will happen again