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thefanficmonster · 3 years

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I may or may not have just sent the 3 word challenge in my real account instead of anon... I'm sorry. Please don't answer there. :)

When you post, post answering here please.

Again, much love,

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Don't worry dear! Your identity shall remain a secret 🥰 Here's yet another fic with my Resident Evil OC: Gwen Winters (she’s an adult guys, don’t worry. However this is still an Older Man/Younger Woman relationship)

The words dear 📚🌻 Anon gave me in their previous ask were: Unruly, endurable and system. Please enjoy!

What happens in the gym....

Pairing: Chris Redfield x Female OC

Warnings: Swearing, Spoiler Free 😊

Genre: Angsty Romance

“Sure, throw me in the fire like you always do, Leon!“ Chris snaps, clenching his fists tightly as he glares at his best friend while the two stand in the dimly lit gym.

“Chris, you’re a BSAA captain, for the love of God! You should know better than to complain about something as little as this!“ Leon, while significantly calmer tone and demeanor-wise, is glaring daggers of his own.

“Why me, damn it?! And why her?!“ Chris is not done with his attempts to get out of the situation Leon’s trying to land him in and his partner’s honestly done with it.

“And why not?! You see the same potential I see, why would it be so hard to train her? She’s a quick learner, she’s disciplined when she wants to be and she’s already skilled to a certain degree. You’ve made soldiers out of total wimps before, why is she such a hassle to you?!“

“Because she’s disciplined when she wants to be and I guarantee she won’t want to when she’s around me. She’s unruly, selfish, arrogant and a Chris-phobe. I’m telling you, she hates me!“

It’s about time Leon’s had enough of this conversation. To be honest, he was done with it as soon as it started but he stayed, thinking he’d be able to change Chris’ mind but seeing as how this is a hopeless case, he’s just been wasting his time. “Does she? Or are you projecting your hate for her onto her?” Slinging his duffel bag containing his training gear over his shoulder, Leon finally makes that realization that these are ten minutes of his life he’ll never get back and storms out of the gym without another word.

Chris doesn’t attempt to stop him, in fact, he’s relieved he left. He sighs, silently hating himself for all the shit he said and how he meant none of it. It was all hard bullshit and he doesn’t know whether to be thankful or disappointed that Leon didn’t realize. Either way, he’s been cleared of possible suspicion, even if training the newest BSAA rookie still remains as his task.

Gwen Winters, she’s such a fucking handful. One cannot tell if it’s because she’s angry with the world, angry with herself or just straight up picked up on the habits of the family that took her in when she was rescued from Raccoon City where she was held as an experiment hamster. A chemistry project basically. Ethan and Mia were recovering from the events back in Louisiana at the time, still probably are, that is not some shit you get over, so they thought having another person in the house would help them. And help Gwen did. See, Gwen isn’t a handful with everyone. In fact, she’s a real sweetheart and Chris knows it too, despite his bogus claims. He knows she’s got a heart and soul of gold and is built with the will of a BSAA soldier already. All she needs is a bit better fighting skills and she’s good to go.

He sees how she acts with everyone around him. She’s been quick to make friends with Jill and his sister Claire and she’s even got Leon’s liking and trust which is hella hard to get, especially after all the shit with Ada. She’s overall a super sweet and lovely girl, even with him from time to time. He’s seen her welcoming, friendly smiles whenever he stops by the Winters’ home. He’s heard her laugh at the jokes he rarely cracks.

Then why does she act like she hates him so often? And why does he claim he hates her?

Chris is snapped back to reality by the sound of rough impact. It’s a very distinct noise, one he places immediately: the sound of fists hitting a punching bag. It’s the middle of the night, almost midnight actually, and knowing how lazy the soldiers on his team are, he can only assume it’s either his sister or Jill, given that Leon just left. However, they’ve had people sneak in to train for free before, so it’d be for the best if he went to check who was releasing some pent up energy on the poor punching bag. Judging by the intensity of the punches being thrown, sounds like the person might be angry as well.

And they have every right to be. Because they are Gwen.

Chris’ face goes a bit red at the sight of the infuriated rookie giving the punching bag her all, punishing it the way she’d want to do to her superior she just heard call her all the names she hates being referred by.

“Winters I-“

“Unruly?“ Punch “Selfish?” Punch “Arrogant?” Punch

She stills herself, sighing and wiping the droplets of sweat from her forehead with the back of her hand, “You say all that and expect me not to be a Chris-phobe?” She lets out a bitter laugh, rolling her shoulders before continuing her wrath over the piece of equipment she’s threatening to destroy. She hasn’t spared him a single look yet, something he’s rather grateful for because the last thing he wants to see is whatever her gaze is hiding right now. “I’ll talk to Leon.” She says, her voice leveled and breathy, far from the pissed off tone she was just using. This calmness is a lot scarier though. “I’ll tell him I don’t want you to be my trainer. To be perfectly clear, I never wanted you to train me in the first place. I’m just not the type to complain, you know. I’m not picky. Beggers can’t be choosers. I take what I can get. And you were all I was offered, but...” she trails off, delivering a particularly hard punch, “It’s not gonna work. I may not be picky, but I know when to draw the line. I know when I deserve better.”

“Kid, you really have no idea what the case really is here.“ He attempts desperately, taunted by the thought of acting on his instincts and approaching her even if that means being the recipient of one of those hard punches.

“You know, I’m strong. I’m skilled. I can hold my own in a fight quite nicely. I’m endurable. I’m not afraid to work my ass off and sweat and pant like a dog after workouts. There’s not a line I wouldn’t cross, but you still choose to make me feel lesser than any soldier you’ve ever come across, that’s really lovely of you, Captain Redfield.“

“Winters, please...“

“It’s ok, I won’t tell Ethan and Mia. I’m sure they’ll send you to hell over it. I’m not petty like that.“

He’s had enough. He’s had enough of hearing that hurt tone in her voice. He’s done hearing these words she’s so certain are true but aren’t. He’s done lying to her and to himself. Before he can even think twice about it, he grabs her by the arms gently but firmly, turning her to face him despite her hostile attempts to free herself from his hold like a wild animal caught in a trap. He’s surprised when she relaxes, probably seeing that as a quicker way out of the situation rather than struggling though if she tried to free herself any longer he would’ve probably let her go.

“Fucking hell, Gwen, listen to me.“ He looks her dead in the eyes, catching onto the spark of shock created by his use of her first name. But he also sees something else, something that looks dangerously a lot like tears. He knows she won’t cry, especially not in front of him, but knowing that he’s the cause behind the welling of those crystal droplets in her always shiny, always smiling eyes breaks him. When she doesn’t look away nor protest, he continues, “I can’t be your captain. I can’t be your trainer. I can’t be any of that. I’m a strictly professional man, and it’d be highly unprofessional of me to take you in as my soldier.”

“But why?“ She’s fully aware she sounds like a whiny kid - exactly how she thinks he envisions her sometimes - but she couldn’t care less. She wants and needs answers. She knows she won’t be able to fall asleep or keep coming back to the training center if she doesn’t get them.

It’s blatantly clear this is far from easy for Chris. His first instinct is to look away, let go of her, run away like he always does - not that she’d let him do such a thing but still. He’s finds the words impossible to spit out yet he oh so desperately feels the need to get them out of his system. And so, he gathers all the strength within him and finally forces himself to say it.

“Because a captain isn’t supposed to look at a soldier the way I look at you.“

Sure, it sounds cryptic as heck but he has no doubt she’ll catch on. Gwen is a smart and sharp girl, among many other things. She confirms this when barely three seconds after he’s said it, he notices her eyes widening

“Sir, I-“

“Don’t.“ He says simply, a small, regretful smile playing across his lips as his hand slides down her arm to take hold of hers, “I just admitted my dirtiest secret to you and you are still gonna remind me how unprofessional I am by using my title, Kid?“

She purses her lips, the shock momentarily replaced by her signature mild glare, “Well, you just admitted your biggest secret to me and yet you still choose to call me ‘Kid’, huh?”

He chuckles, letting his other hand repeat the movements of the first, “Sorry, force of habit.” His thumbs brush against her knuckles briefly as his head falls, his gaze fixating on where their bodies are connected, “You know, I didn’t tell you this to get myself any pity or anything. I just wanted you to understand and....wanted to get it off my chest. Ethan will kill me if he finds out, won’t he?” He suddenly asks, regaining the courage to look up at her once again.

She giggles, “Who says he’s gonna find out?”

Chris bites the inside of his cheek, shaking his head, “You’re right, there’s nothing really to find out abo-”

Gwen has never been a chatter nor can she tolerate when people beat around the bush so she’s quick to cut them off sometimes, no matter how rude that may seem or sound. However, just to clarify, her chosen method of cutting a person off isn’t always kissing them. Just saying - this is a special situation requiring special methods.

Taken aback by the sudden feeling of her lips on his, Chris’ eyes close automatically but not even a second later he responds to the kiss properly: wrapping his arms around Gwen’s waist as her hands travel up to cup his face. The kiss is short - too short if either of them is to be asked - but it’s worth all the words they didn’t say despite wanting to.

When they pull away, Gwen gives him a mischievous smile, “Now he could find out about that and then shit would go south. That’d suck, wouldn’t it Chris?“

He’s only ever heard her say his name twice, once in passing conversation with Claire and once earlier when she paraphrased his term ‘Chris-phobe’, both time spoken with some dose of dislike he now realizes was a cover-up all along. Turns out the two are a lot more alike than they initially thought. Regardless, hearing her say his name with fondness instead of bitterness makes his heart flutter, his body yearn to have her closer, his lips wanting to be in contact with hers again. But he’s a patient and self-controlled man, he’s nothing if not willpower sculpted in a human body, so he keeps his distance, waiting for her to pick the moves, waiting for her to make the decisions just like she’s his captain.

“Big time.“ He manages to say, voice coarse all of a sudden, barely able to leave his throat. “So it stays here, right?”

She giggles again, bringing her lips within an inch or two away from his, taunting him, threatening to break his self-control, “What happens in the gym stays in the gym, Redfield.”

Golden rules of discretion, ones he mustn’t break ever. Especially not when his captain - Captain Gwen Winters - holds so much power over him.

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literallynothingbutvictuuri · 7 years

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I noticed in your FAQ that you don't really read many fics, and I just wanted to know why? I'm not trying to be rude or anything! I'm also curious at what draws YOUR attention to fics? Because, you do read some fics, but most of the ones you recommended that one time weren't very popular, and I was just wondering what brings your attention to fics? Does this make sense? ^.^' sorry if I'm being too confusing haha!

No, it makes sense! Don’t worry! :) I’m going to make this a whole “read more” situation though so I don’t clutter up people’s blogs. So if you want to know what personally turns me AWAY from and TO fics, I guess, read more ;) (that’s so vaguely threatening ioahfnsakh)

Well, personally, I actually don’t really know why I don’t read very many victuuri fanfictions? Honestly, I think it’s because the anime itself was enough for me to satisfy my ~needs~ so I just don’t go looking very often lol.

That being said, I DO read some fics and I guess what draws my attention the most is honestly the summary?

Personally, I’m not a huge fan of LONG summaries. If it looks like a huge paragraph, I honestly won’t read it lol. Which is a shame because I’ve probably missed out on a lot of fanfictions. But my biggest tip to anybody is to really focus on your summary. I’m also turned off when people put “I suck at summaries.” Be confident in your abilities! (says the person who hates everything she writes whoops).

I’m also not a fan of too many tags? Sometimes, when there are tons and tons of tags, I just don’t want to read it lol. Of course, tags that are very important to the fic are necessary, but do you really need to tag every single character in it? But then again, I’m all for the ~mystery~ of what fics could contain so you’ll catch me opening up the fics that have a one-word summary (not many people do this though- that can be a turn-off for a lot of people).

(Also, this is just a random tip but I know people will “blacklist” authors if they don’t appropriately tag their works with things that could be triggering. If you personally want to choose the whole “chose not to display warnings” that’s okay! but maybe try to reiterate that the fic IS mature/explicit whichever and might have darker undertones.)

I also don’t really go “looking for fics” so most of the fics I DO read either come from other fic rec lists (usually @victuurificrec 😘 ) or I look at fics created by the people who comment on my own fics! I’m a really really big fan of looking at the fics my commenters make because I’ve discovered some really great fics that way. :)

Titles don’t really matter to me, personally. I don’t think I’ve ever really been turned off by a title. But I do know that I’ve opened up fics BECAUSE of the title. For example, I’m a big e.e. cummings fan so when I recently saw a fic with a line from one of his poems, I was already hooked lol.

And then there’s the obvious– and that’s simply whether or not I like the premise of the story as well as the fic itself. I have opened up tons of fics and sometimes, I’m just not into it. And that’s okay. Other people will be, but maybe it’s just not my cup of tea.

Also, you mentioned that a lot of the fics I read aren’t very popular (for victuuri), and that’s mainly because I do love giving love to the writers in this fandom that aren’t really appreciated, if that makes sense?

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve read some 1k+ kudos fics before for this fandom, but I know with how popular YOI is and with how many fics are posted daily, sooo many fics are often drowned in a sea of other fics.

So, when I see a fic that looks interesting and has 10 kudos, I usually open and comment lmao. Because I’m not really a big writer, and I know what that feels like sometimes when you work so hard on something and only have 9 people kudos it. But when I read the really really nice comments that are left on them, it’s worth it lol. So, I like to do the same and try to encourage writers that aren’t really focused on :’) Plus, like I mentioned earlier, some of those fics are really VERY good!!!!!

(Anyway, here’s my other stupid turn-offs for me for any fic. Please don’t take this personally! This is just my personal reaction/experience! I’m just trying to be maybe helpful.)

-For some reason, I’m not a huge fan of indenting in fics. I don’t know why. Even with really good fics, it honestly turns me away. But then again, I’m probably annoyingly picky. Sorryyyy :’)

-That being said, I also don’t like huge, huge chunks of text in fics. If I open up a fic, and it’s immediately giant chunks of text, very rarely will I even try to read through it. :’)

-Once again, maybe don’t have 100+ tags! Try to narrow it down to the most important tags and only tag characters that show up frequently throughout the fic (that doesn’t mean a background character that’s mentioned like twice- no need to tag them, I swear!)

Honestly, I can’t think of anything else? I don’t know how this became a “Tip for Fanfic Writers” thing but somehow it turned into that.

I hope this somewhat helped you!!!!!! Or answered your questions! If not, please send me another ask and I’ll try again :)))

much love xxxx

-dianna :)

#ask #not victuuri #what do i tag this as #fic help #??#this took longer than i thought it would lmao whoops

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