#still stressful as hell though

[loumands]

There are literally 3 euros left on my bank account

#i should get tax refund and pay for my summer job this week i guess i'll survive #still stressful as hell though #i don't want to complain too much cause i know i'm privileged living in a country with a broad social security system #but it's also chaotic and bloated as fuck with a million different benefits and no one understanding how it works #my previous social security benefit ended in may so i had to apply for a new different one #but i needed a medical certificate for it and only had doctor's appointment last week #and getting the decision on that application takes time so meanwhile i applied for the last resort income support #but my application for that was rejected for unknown reasons and i complained about the decision but it's still in progress #so now i'm just waiting here with no money from anywhere whatsoever 🤷 #bro what they expect me to do #go begging from the church? go shoplifting? #if this post is incoherent to you i feel the same #keanu.txt

[sysig]

Flowey has become my on-theme spacefiller and he’s so happy about it (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Flowey #Lol #He's a perfect spacefiller! He's tiny so he can fit anywhere but his text can also be as big or small as needed #He ends up reacting to nearby doodles in inappropriate ways which is fitting lol #Like the UGHHH one was in reaction to babybones lol ♪ They're so cute! And he is tired #Mostly he's just being silly and grumpy normal-style tho haha #He is also a great expression of my frustration with hell boxes ughhh (lol) #It's nice though since lately I've been less bothered with leaving some extra space on the page :) #He can still pop up! But just as an invitation not as a necessity #It's nicer to have a fully filled page of course haha but it's not so bad to have a little extra space here and there #And mostly to not have Worry about it to not be stressed about Having to fill a page #Still - having a little extra with a funny face hehe that I got toss into the mix and make my brain happy - it's nice! :D #Options ♪

[danwhobrowses]

Well another week of Tal and Ashley putting Callowmoore through the emotional ringer. I'm kinda okay with where it's at right now (okay less kinda but I can still see an end goal for them), of course it wasn't the most ideal direction I thought up in my head but it rarely ever is. There's time, there's room, and maybe in 2 3 (again guys? mental torment for 3 again?) weeks time - because no show on Thanksgiving and then Candela Obscura - Tal and Ashley will pull the trigger and not leave me an anxious mess like they have the last month and a half every Friday Morning when I have to work XD

#don't get me wrong I expected Fearne to show stress and it is good that Ashton apologized as personally as they could #I just desired a sweeter shippier flavour of events...but I can wait #not forever mind you I still crave the positive emotional payoff #kinda bummed after all that the shard rejected Ash though seems a bit like sour grapes from Matt - but it's his decision #like if you can make callowmoore a thing as an early birthday present that'd be cool just throwing it out there #Ashton did make some good character steps though and it was cool they had a talk with Percy #critical role #bells hells #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #callowmoore #ashton x fearne #fearne x ashton #taliesin jaffe #ashley johnson #glad we can get rid of this manipulation discourse though they were pretty clear that it was just stupidity rather than manipulation #feel like they have to have their talk before going to the key so I'm hoping for something even more precious and irreplaceable being share #cr3 spoilers #critical role spoilers #c3e78 #the whole feywild 'couples retreat' would be a good way for Fearne to realise her fear of losing Ashton is because she loves him #the whole 'love is enduring pain' theme being thrown in a lot this ep #While Ashton uses the feywild to connect to the earth and be better and realise that he loves Fearne and they're (k)enough as they are now #probably some Orym guidance/ass kicking needed for that too #idealism of course but I need to hope it goes good because if it goes bad it just ruins my week(s)/life #Chet was great this episode with the tough love and challenging Ashton to be better but of course Laudna needs to be kept an eye on #I accept the character directions but mentally and emotionally I am not okay

[okkennymay]

Hi Kenny, how's 2024 treating you?

I feel a little bit like i'm running down an incredibly steep hill but I'm managing somehow 💖

I got to briefly join my sisters hens/bucks party weekend getaway for a few hours near the start of the year, it was an amazing experience and to have gotten to join in on the fun with family and friends and celebrate my sister and her fiance's marriage-to-be was an experience I never thought could happen! ♪(^∇^*) I mean sure I spent most of it hidden away, in the lil cabin my parents were renting a bit further away from all the party people, resting between moments of interaction but it was AWESOME!

and then I lost my 'no major episode' streak (almost 5 months!! A frickEN MiRAcle!!) a week later and have spent most of the time recovering 9w9" ahh all that recovery torn away and damage redone ;w; But i have been quietly working on commissions in the shadows with those who have popped up in my Instant messages- yah boi got bills to pay and a DSP don't quite cut it, so I got some nice art to post when i can get out of my own head for a minute to do so wOOOO ╰(*°▽°*)╯ my clients are my hero's honestly, it's one of the reasons why I pour so much love into my work

Sorry if that was a bit more of answer than yah wanted Anon <3 I feel a lil bit like all the people responding to Elmo's "how's everyone doing" but I tried to keep things lighthearted 💖

#ahhh paying for a house between two when we started with 4 ;w; don't look up Adelaide rental prices if you want to keep your sanity #still though the constant stress of money is still BY FAR better than my ex-friend and her wet sock of a boyfriend living with us #i've had some awful housemates but they took the cake and life and my health has been so much better without them #meanwhile I learned the other day that they were kicked out like a month after they moved into some strangers place using flatmates 👀 #Karmic retribution is delicious and I hope to hell they understand just how patient we were with all their bullshit in hindsight ╰（‵□′）╯

[ghosting-fox]

you all know that audio from bladerunner? "you look lonely i can fix that"?? my brain wouldn't let me rest until i haven't drawn that with Sun n Moon

but jokes aside, really self-indulgent comic bc both Security Breach and Ruin came out when i was at a low point mentally and helped me greatly just be able to move forward and get through each day (and i won't even be getting into how much these 2 fictional robot jesters have helped me refind my passion for drawing)

i really hope that more people can relate to this :))

#anyways i mean it when i say my brain wouldn't rest until i whipped my pencil out n started drawing #tbh i stumbled upon the audio waaay back like 5-6 months ago?? #but just now like literally just now i though #damn that REALLY fits Sun n Moon #i think it might be bc this semester was really stressful for me #and this last month has been hell #i was honestly drained physically and mentally #but i managed to go through each day and move forward #n just when my whole energy was running out n just when i had a couple of days left where i had to work more than my body could carry #right then Ruin came out and it was like;; really a breath of fresh air #my brain was suddenly thinking about the lore and theories and not anymore stressing abt projects and exams #while i still had to work Ruin gave me a push to be able to finish what i had to do #now i'm taking a small 2 week break where i'm gonna go easier with uni work and letting my body heal itself :)) #but anyways enough rambling n everything #i really hope more of y'all can relate to this comic :)) #now onto the tags #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf superstar daycare #sundrop #moondrop #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #moondrop x y/n #sundrop x y/n #tw eye contact #doodles #traditional doodle #comic #Ghost doodles

[fromsupernaturaltof1]

he did it once, he can do it again. he's with people he trusts, people who love him and will help him with whatever he needs. he knows how to drive, he still has it in him, I have faith. he knows what he needs to do.

I wish him nothing but the absolute best🙏

#i will probably be asleep wgen the test starts because ET 🙃 #i will ve stressed throughout the day lol #i trust him to know what hes doing #im still nervous as hell though #daniel ricciardo #Silverstone test 2023 #redbull racing #pirelli tyre test

[tswwwit]

Bill being forced to say the truth is such a fun concept though. I imagine Ford's the most likely candidate to hit Bill with a truth spell. Now he can expose Bill's nature once and for all! And find out what secret evil plans the demon has involving his nephew. 😠

Only it completely backfires because Bill acts the exact same as he usually does? After all, Bill usually doesn't have a reason to lie to the Pines family. Will he omit the truth? Totally! But rarely does he outright lie.

(But anyway, the plan backfires and Stan and Mabel are not convinced. "Yeah Bill's a jerk but he's not actually harmful", they say, with no knowledge of the countless atrocities he's committed.)

So Bill continues to act like his usual asshole self, completely unaware that he's under the influence of a truth spell. Until he sees his husband do something smart/cute/whatever. Before Bill even realizes, he's saying the sappiest, most gooey sedimental shit any demon has ever heard. Like "You're perfect, I love you so much". Completely unfiltered thoughts. The stuff he even lies to himself about. "You make me so happy. I'm so glad I met you".

The best part is that the situation is even worse (for Bill) the angrier he gets. "I hate you" comes out as "I love you". "You're the worst thing that ever happened to me" comes out as "The best thing". At one point, he accidentally says you're lucky I love you when he meant to be threatening. Everything is terrible. Dippers trying to figure out a cure and Bill can't help because he's to busy throwing up his organs. All the sedimental bullshit is making him sick.

#This much sincerity is terrible for a demon like Bill #It's like he's got a terrible cold as well as throwing up all the time as his organs rebel against the honesty #Bonus: Ford DID learn Bill's horrible plan for his nephew. Eventually #Except what Bill ended up saying was something like #'I'm going to keep him until the stars burn out of the sky and this entire galaxy crumbles into dust AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME' #He hissed it out while hugging Dipper to his chest so tight that he almost squashed the guy #Trust Ford to focus on the 'can't stop him' part and not the rest of that statement #Dipper absolutely caught the rest of the implication though #Dipper already knew he was in love himself but hearing all of this is just. So Much. #It's so so nice. Really nice! But also waaaaay overwhelming for him #Anxiety and overthinking go hand in hand. Stress from Ford being around and trying to fix Bill exacerbate it #He knows it's honest but it leaves him confused #What the hell did Dipper do to cause this? (deserve this) #Is there way to fix Bill?? (is he ever gonna change his mind) #He's happy and he's worried. Again he's overthinking #He's flustered and he fumbles and wow he *really* should cure this before they both die of embarrassment somehow #I bet these two assholes still find a way to miscommunicate during a bout of magically-induced honesty #But THIS time it's all on Dipper #SMH my guy he's your husband and he loves you #Too bad overthinking gets in the way of enjoyment. #Also Bill puking a lot. That puts a huge impediment in the way when Dipper can't find an outlet for his feelings #His FIRST impulse was to kiss Bill senseless but since he couldn't do that his brain got stuck in a loop of unexpressed emotion #What a shame; he probably wants to do it so very very much #answers #Once Bill is cured he's grumpy. Turns out he loves Dipper even *more* because his human doesn't want him to suffer just to hear ily #How Dare He love Bill back so purely. He's never going to escape for that sentiment

[todayisafridaynight]

any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

#snap chats #no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game #oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH. #id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k #OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think #my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious #rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final #HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE #i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that #i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki #someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it #like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but #i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital #the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe #cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion. #yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3 #its a real head scratcher ... #a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think #it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little #and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened' #im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways.... #sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly #idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me #THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED #i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell #is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form #i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments #BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow #im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE

[zappedbyzabka]

Daniel and Billy both want the pretty blond boy to themselves on Saturday—but did not communicate that so now they’re fighting over the phone about it (because Daniel is not the biggest fan of his twin) with Johnny as a “moderator”.

(russolaw alternate.)

#tw gun #he was having an intrusive though ok #Same as my other tags #Younger Johnny isn’t quite as nonchalant about the fighting as older Johnny though. He feels bad that they’re fighting over him despite #still finding these older men fighting over him hot as hell. Like yeah daddies fight over me and get all sweaty and mad #But they both try to chill a bit when they realize he’s stressed out #lawrusso adjacent #Larusso twins x Johnny #johnny lawrence #daniel larusso #Nsft

[gabe-lovebot]

by today's standards minos looks OLD but if you think about it a man that lived in the bronze age like him probably wouldnt be above 35 because the life expectancy was so much lower back then

#the white hair? the immense stress of being a king i suppose #idk man im not an expert #unless he didnt look like his portrait when he died #(for the first time that is) #like if he continued aging for x years while in hell this whole post is invalid bye guys #he's still a grandpa to me though #void.txt #ultrakill #minos

[topaztimes]

Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time... #Still more time... #Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough? #It certainly is now #Alright start: #I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state / #/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not / #/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I / #/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my / #/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with / #/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

[arolesbianism]

I’ve been finally getting to working on design concepts for my iterator ocs from Slivers local group, so here’s Stars. She is sooooo normal (lying)

#keese draws #oc posting #oc art #oc #ocs #rain world #rainworld #iterator oc #rain world oc #as the eldest of the group along with being on the older end of iterators in general her puppet is a bit clunky #staring at it sitting still it looks fine but the second she starts moving it becomes clear it was made with too heavy parts #the plating on her arms and neck in particular tend to be problems since they tend to get stuck #this is a particularly annoying problem with her since she moves around a Lot and pre great ascension was basically constantly spinning #around in her chamber and had to be checked on and fixed up frequently #she didn’t mind though since she loved her city and the ppl in it dearly and would often actively seek out opportunities to talk to the #m more #she was one of the first to notice the great ascension was happening and she understandably freaked the hell out #in fact this fucked her up so bad that it actually resulted in a good amount of physical damage due to all of that stress #after that she became a lot more bitter and closed off from the rest of her group and sliver by extension #I’ve already written abt all of this before ofc so I won’t go into much more detail #but yeah she eventually shut off her communications and didn’t open them again until long after sliver was dead

[imwritesometimes]

nothing like waking up and immediately having horrible migraine aura followed by a horrible fckn migraine to just completely derail all the plans you had 😖

#last week was very very VERY stressful & busy and a lot of my day to day shit fell to the wayside #and yesterday was really good in terms of getting back to normal! I was like hell yeah crushin it! #and then I started getting the tell tale pre migraine headache last night and I was like I'll take meds to combat this now! try and prevent! #lot of good that did me! haven't had the aura shit in a while fckn doozy of a day had to scrap everything and crawl back into bed #feel slightly better? vision still isn't uhhhh... like I wouldn't drive rn lol but at least it's a little better #head is still fucked but it'll probably be that was until tomorrow #god I hate this I know it's from the massive weather change coming gonna rain for a week straight 😞 #and because I'm so fckn old now AND have nerve damage my whole body is just FUCKED from going back to cold ass weather #I did find out today my brother and I experience different migraine auras though which was interesting #still can't wear my glasses tho so lmao def can't drive or do practically anything at all 🙃 #just now able to look at my phone (only apps in dark mode fck u tumblr for being one of the only apps that has dark mode) #can't even brainstorm on fic which is killing me I can only sit like a potato and just exist #brain cannot imagine things only pound pound pound #erin explains it all

[kohakhearts]

cons of going to a “good schoolTM”: insane workload, unbearable classmates, next to no support when you have any kind of extenuating circumstances Including literal hospitalization, etc

pros of going to a “good schoolTM”: the 9-5 lifestyle is genuinely a major improvement

#taylor.txt #the extenuating circumstances point was not me btw. i know someone who had his degree delayed an entire year because of two weeks in psych #we’re in a co-op program or else maybe it wouldve just been one semester but. lol #i hate it here…i hate it #but hey…at least i have the world’s shittiest health insurance! #some of my classmates say they dont feel like working full-time is easier than going to school full-time but it so is #for me. anyway. even when i fumbled my time management bad on the field and make no mistake i was incredibly busy plus i chose a field #notorious for Unpaid Overtime and Taking Your Work Home. even then. it was still easier than this #i would never do undergrad again. i loved everything i learned. i took interesting and awesome classes #but i would never ever do it again. miserable overworked spent most of it friendless until i got on the field #i have a friend who keeps being like idk how you did 4 physics classes this sem and im like girl we are education students…thats an average #semester for a physics major. how must THEY feel #also i have to say just you know. generally. ive worked full-time while living with my parents #AND while living alone. and 50 hours a week was incredibly manageable in the former arrangement. i even wrote and edited an entire novel #in the beginning stages of a pandemic while working 50 hours a week of retail and fast food hell. 40 hours full-time with weekends off #while living alone though? thats hard. i still managed to go to the gym almost every day #currently? i cant get out of bed in the morning. i am putting in 12 hour days and then goinng to bed unable to sleep because im so stressed #i have dreams about school. tangentially theres a really good marxist poem i read last year about this phenomenon in workers #ANYWAY. i have just 8 more days 4 exams 1 research paper and video project #i think i can pass and then thats it. my next semester is hell but just because scheduling the actual classes will be easy #and then i get to go back on the field and actually want to wake up every day. lol #and 8 days from now i will have my christmas shopping done and my apartment will be clean and i will be a fanfic writing machine #also my friends and i booked a demolition room so im sure that will be beneficial kfldjfldndks

[mars-ipan]

the hinata kinning is strong tonight

#marzi speaks #once again. shoutout to izuru for calling me out on that enough times for me to realize it’s the truth #crazy thing is i keep finding out how correct it is in different ways #like i realized recently. i have no idea who i am or who i’m supposed to be #i think i know who i wanna be? but i might already be that person and not even know it #and the other night i was sitting there. and i thought ‘who the hell am i.’ and then i realized that’s such a fucking hajime ass thought #identity issues moment. teehee !! #i didn’t… think i had identity issues??? but shit i might !!! #it might be genderfluidity having a moment. it might be stress. it could be anything #anything could be responsible for the way i am. if i would be likely to do anything given the right circumstances #how can i know that any choice i make is truly my own #…i need to go to bed. it might be bedtime #do you see what i MEAN though??? goddamn. i should work on getting a therapy appt set up or smth #on a more lighthearted note the whole hajime kinnie thing is SO funny in hindsight #when i asked izuru why he thought i was a hajime kinnie he just went ‘oblivious and gay. among other things.’ #and i said ‘what other things?????’ and he went ‘i’m not gonna bore myself with the details. if anyone would know it’d be me trust me’ #and well. shit! a bitch was right and that still irritates me a little. how the fuck did that fucker know that much about me #it is a super funny interaction though. izuru kamukura came to my blog called me a faggot and left. slay

[daftpatience]

i want to post about comms because need money to live BUT my queue is still pretty long so i feel bad!!!! gah!!!!!

probably i will make a better post later but i really hate making these advertising posts grr bites rips shreds

#especially cus i have to like #keep doing it because this is the only thing i am doing #hi! i still need to pay mortgage and electric and food pls comm me even though ive been so burnt out and through hell last couple months #and didnt work for a long time from the stress so my queue is super long !! sowwy #i dont wanna complainer but the reality is hard and i also cant really pretend it isnt a big deal!!!! #every comm and every shop order means the whole world to me i love you guys