#stop repressing <3

[chickenshashlek]

hob: i think youre lonely-

dream (tearing up, hyperventilating, collapsing to his knees, throwing up): you dARE..,..,,.,.//.,.,..,.’;,./.,

#like babygirl its okay #we get it #u just want a bf #stop repressing <3 #youll ruin ur eyeliner <3 #the sandman #sandman #sandman netflix #dream of the endless #dream x hob #hob gadling #morpheus

[greencarnation]

eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed? #mine

[anxious-bisexual-0]

THIS IS REPRESSED CHEMISTRY?

Girl I’m gonna cry

#bridgerton #bridgerton netflix #nicola coughlan #luke newton #polin #romancing mister bridgerton #bridgerton s3 #bridgerton cast #bridgerton season 3 #pen and col #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #we just stopped repressing it #Nicola you’re trying to kill us

[fuckitwebhaal]

kyr’s whole bit is that he is the hypocrite. like he tells all of his companions “oh we will defy your fate!! we will find another way” and is meanwhile foreshadowing his own seemingly inevitable demise.

to Gale, Lae’zel, Shadowheart; they need not let gods and masters deign their fates

To Wyll, Karlach, Astarion; you are not monstrous, you are not what others made you to be

But for himself? To stand at the edge of Bhaal’s oblivion? that’s his fate. That’s always going to be his fate. It’s in his blood, it’s inescapable. Oh, he’s the lamb. Oh, he’s the scapegoat. Oh, the gods are bleeding him over Faerûn and he is the one with the knife to his throat.

There’s another way for you. Not for me, gods no, not me. But for YOU.

#it’s kind of silly and funny of him #to just repress everything the whole time #fall in love with wyll #and then just 🖤 #‘actually my divine nature is inevitable’ #‘and I will either succumb to it or I will stop myself First’ #but he’s saying things like ‘don’t worry about it 👍’ when they ask if he’s fine #bg3 #baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #oc: kyr #bg3 oc #oc: kyrran #fuck it we bhaal #bg3 dark urge #dark urge #durge #durge spoilers #bg3 dark urge spoilers #dark urge spoilers

[freensrcha]

NEO TRAI as KAN and LOUIS THANAWIN as THUA | THE ECLIPSE (2022)

#the eclipse #the eclipse the series #neo trai #louis thanawin #JUST THEY THEY THEY </3 #GOD I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #I LOVE THE REPRESSION I LOVE THE EYES THE LOOKS #HAVE I MENTIONED I LOVE ANGST #JUST ALL OF IT DRIVES ME INSANE #111gif #my laptop's fan makes so much noise. literally sounds like it could fly away any second 😭 #i will stop for today cause i'd like my laptop to survive the next 3 years

[rawliverandgoronspice]

hmmm getting hit by another little "being heartbroken about tp ganondorf" moment :)

#ganondorf #tp #twilight princess #thoughts #he's just........... like........... #and him and fucking ZANT together what a toxic shitshow you guys #extremely repressed psychosis + terminal stage of burnout sure is the combo of all times #both fueled by revenge resentment bitterness and hatred in their own special way <3 #I'd eat fanfic that dissect these two being codependant and horrible and untreated open wounds prancing around in hyrule #making it everyone else's problem :) #ganondorf being the most callous god-complexed heartless bitch that will destroy everyone and then himself if you breathe at him wrong #because if he stops to move and reflect on everything he will literally implode probably #and zant really really reaaaaally having it under control and never ever once threatening to fucking lose it terminally <3 #holding on to the.... “god” he found for his sense of worth and power and stability (mega lol your man is in shambles zant sorry) going lik #“can we keep the weird angry god from the light world I picked up from the sidewalk midna? no?? okay :D *coups the twilight realm* ” #I used to not get this relationship conceptually or why people shipped it. I get it now. #awful awful time for everybody involved 10/10 #not even getting into the Mega Divorce because wow #but seriously it's genuinely sad that two men who were *severely* wronged by fate and gods ended up being each other's undoing #because they were too.... toxic and fucked up to be anything but toxic and fucked up about it #queer infighting :( #girls hurting girls :( #SORRY about the novel in the tags I am unbearably like this everytime :((((

[digital999placebo]

oh hell naw Ludwig is forced to reconcile with his own selfish actions and battle through personifications of his trauma and guilt.

hetalia but make it survival horror au

#dshbbfhhj me forcing gerita into everything i make lol #yes it would make more sense for vene to go through it bc i feel like he has a lot more to b guilty about #but i love torturing germany soooo #but then again maybe hes confronting his anger issues n subconsious glorification of anger n violence in the name of honour n its-- #--consequences #hes forced to face all of his repressed emotions #lol #n man look theres his toxic ex (vene) showin up all over da place #its not his day #tw glitch #tw epilepsy #if theres any more i need 2 put just pm me n will :) im p new to the tw thing so im happy 2 learn #hetalia #hws germany #hws veneziano #gerita #YEA im forcing gerita into everything try n stop me u cant <3 #999art

[ankylosaurusthesaurus]

i’m rewatching stranger things because i forgot 90% of what happens in seasons 1-3 and i forgot how fucking funny will is like all day he’s trying to get lucas and mike to play dnd with him but they won’t because they’re fucking losers and then el breaks up with mike and instead of consoling mike will goes “now can we play dnd”

#i just really love them #will byers supremacy #stranger things #byler #will is so mistreated like all of season 3 #i don't get why no one will play dnd with him dnd is fucking fire #but all episode he's just like can we play dnd and it's just so so so funny to me #i love will byers he is my current designated blorbo #will byers needs a hug #and a better dnd party #and for mike to stop repressing his feelings

[girlwithfish]

crazy how bad of a person my ex is like there is no reason for him to have smothered me that is fucking insane and the fact that he minimized it so hard and str8 up denied it

#top 3 most traumatic things to have happened to me #and i didnt tell anyone abt it until december after i left and processed repressed trauma #i dont even remember when it was ;( all a blur #a couple months or cld have been earlier in 2023 ihave no idea #its just so fucking evil #man was in denial abt it too it was so weird #youre forcefully on top of me like literally putting ur full weight on me and shoving a shirt over my mouth FORCEFULLY bc #obviously i was freaking the fuck out and resisting so he was trying pretty damn hard to keep me down #its just so fucking evil and he was so evil during it too like telling me if i stop screaming hell take it off like i will #literally slap u if i see u again like what the fuck lol #nd ofc i got no real apology abt that btw #just shwos how little he regarded his actions and brushed over them to avoid responsibility #and the gaslighting for months abt it bc its not like i got over it either id bring it up and hed deny it and mock me and say he didnt do #that or it wasnt smothering and its just insane #abuse tw

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

☆Is this how you do it?

i have caught it in my teeth, yes <3

#thank you!!! you're all being very nice tonight #stop it im too emotionally repressed for this #kidding kidding <3 yall are amazing <3 #rambles from the bog

[villalunae]

stop 👏 telling 👏 lesbians 👏 to be 👏 attracted 👏 to 👏 MEN

stop 👏 telling 👏 lesbians 👏 to be 👏 attracted 👏 to 👏 MEN

stop 👏 telling 👏 lesbians 👏 to be 👏 attracted 👏 to 👏 MEN

stop 👏 telling 👏 lesbians 👏 to be 👏 attracted 👏 to 👏 MEN

stop 👏 telling 👏 lesbians 👏 to be 👏 attracted 👏 to 👏 MEN

stop 👏 telling 👏 lesbians 👏 to be 👏 attracted 👏 to 👏 MEN

#personal #SAW A POST. LOST MY MIND #''nothing changed u mistook a man for a butch and were attracted to them so really youre just small minded and should be okay with that #attraction bc clearly you hate yourself <3'' #This Is The Lesbophobia We Are Talking About When You Guys Pretend We Cant Have Boundaries #like ohhh ishould just love a man instead <3 i should change my sexuality for you <3 i should just fuck guys huh <3 #how fucking dismissive of our experiences. how deeply sick and disgusting of you. i hope ur an adult so i wont feel bad ripping ur hair out #like how dare you! how dare you tell me NOTHING changed. how dare you look me in the eye and tell me that its the same #its not! its not. sorry some people are comfortable with labels that assert boundaries xoxo to you but im a lesbian bc i like women. not bc #i have an aesthetic attraction to a person. if i see a butch i think oh! a butch! a fellow lesbian! and am attracted #turns out to be a guy? oh! not a butch! not a fellow lesbian! nevermind :) and omg i am so normal for that <333 #like god. GOD. what a fucking piece of shit to tell lesbians we should just Let ourselves be attracted to men bc we secretly do anyway #top ten reasons i hate associating with ppl who flout no labels like it works for you im glad but you keep shoving that down my throat #and im going to commit vehicular manslaughter #i have boundaries for a reason! i am attracted to women! i dont like men! WHAT IS SO HARD TO GET THROUGH YOUR HEAD #stop TELLING every lesbian theyre secretly bi but theyre repressing and too attached to the label i will FUCKING kill you #ANYWAY. IGNORE ME LMFAO

[robinsnest2111]

idly wondering with what experts would diagnose me if I was 100% truthful and could remember every single thing that happened to me and every single quirk I developed because of it <3

#like esp. at the start my mother would sit in on all my therapy sessions #and i didn't yet grasp what therapy was for at age 11 so i just talked about my day #and showed the nice lady my latest drawings orz #all that got me was a 'oh that kid is just shy and a little scared going to school just force him to go it'll be fine <3' #never said anything about the nefarious bullying or the things going on at home #because at that point i was so naive i thought it was NORMAL #and other therapists later on only ever focused on my weight and how sloppy i dressed. never addressing all my other issues so i gave up #never talked about all the other stuff for a while. #also that ONE situation i can barely remember but that fucked me up the most i think back in kindergarten... never told anyone about it #except a friend last year. wondering what therapists would say about that if i ever opened up about that to them #after a bit of thought it'd also explain my aversion to being touched/examined by doctors in that area. great. #ANYWAY just wondering <333 #also all the 'negative' feelings i immediately throw in the repression bin. like jealousy frustration anger annoyance entitlement etc #been told one too many times that these things are ugly and shouldn't be displayed. should stop acting like a spoiled brat #never learned how to handle any of that <333 #recently have taken to being overly analytical about it all. trying to find what triggers these emotions and then rationalising them away <3 #they do still fester deep in my soul tho <333 #good thing i'm so good at repression that i forget about it all eventually until something makes me remember and then i suffer #but then i repress again and i can live in blissful ignorance again <333333 #wish i could be a dumb silly billy more often and not think about things too much like i usually do haha #maybe that's why i'm so drawn to and fadcinated by the bimbocore subculture/movement...... 🤔 #anyway anyway just thinking haha

[violence-infatuation]

William Petersen as Will Graham in Manhunter (1986)

#films #this is the stupidest critique i've ever made but william petersen was too hot to be will graham. ye know what i mean? #idk maybe i need to reread red dragon too bc i don't know will graham as a character that initimately (INTIMATELY??????) anymore #and maybe it's too much exposure to hugh dancy will but idk the will i rmr isn't supposed to be this cool and swag. idk maybe that's just m #i love william petersen tho <3 funnily enough i had the urge to rewatch fear after this (bc of the setting. for some reason?) and when #i looked it up he was the dad in it omg???? i used to have a crush on him! #but i hated that movie so much i must have repressed every memory of it except my hatred for mark wahlberg #anyway #william petersen as will graham you have to stop you smoke too tough your swag too different your bitch too bad they'll kill you #btw that wasn't a diss to other wills btw i love my wills the way he gets into the mind of who hes pursuing is just too funny to me. #i think it should look more painful for him 🚬

[autistic-katara]

the autistic urge to write ur blorbo having the most dramatic ass meltdown to make up for the fact that while ur overwhelmed asf and will probably spend the next few hours anxious-stimming at the very least u for some reason cant fully outwardly express allat so this is the next best (and safest) option

#“for some reason” my ass ik almost exactly why #*stares at my parents who used to use the terms “meltdown” and “tantrum” synonymously and only rlly stopped recently #cause an autistic leader at a thingy my younger brother goes looked at that kid and went “dude hes fucking autistic”* #like happy hes gonna grow up less fucked up and wont be automatically repressing his meltdowns #but damn guys itdve been nice of u to do this 3 autistic children ago #anyways would use be interested in a fic abt miles morales having a meltdown and dealing with it in a healthy way #/someone helping him deal with it in a healthy way? #cause idk if i have the energy to write this i might just let this burn itself out (even tho overall that’d be way more draining) #so yk #autism #actually autistic

[aviangrian]

thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!

#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically #she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11 #i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything #we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had #like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties! #she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w #she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs! #last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since #this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭 #never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay #you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho #crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me #i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday #at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that #this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND #probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since #this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡

[carlatsukinamistolemyhamsandwich]

In a move that may surprise some of you, I've actually voted for Carla in round 2 of my poor little meow meow poll. Reason being that while Yui is by far the character who deserves the most sympathy in the series, I would argue that anyone dubbed a poor little meow meow should be at least a bit pathetic and I would not have said Yui is.

Carla, on the other hand, is both royalty and hideously powerful and yet in all routes but his own and a couple of bad endings nothing has gone well for him in his entire life.

#like all of the diaboys had awful childhoods #but with Carla it just never gets any better #1) he's dreadfully abused by Gies which messes him up for life #2) this treatment also drives a wedge between him and Shin made worse by Carla's issues with emotional repression #3) Gies starts a war for no good reason #4) Krone #tries to oppose Gies and gets locked in the dungeons #5) Krone catches Endzeit and pleads with Carla to kill Gies which puts him under tremendous strain #6) Carla actually does fight Gies to try and stop a war that may dooms the founders #technically wins but gets thrown in jail and the founders ultimately loose the war and then nearly all of them die of Endzeit #7) and then even in modern DL Carla's dying + has to live with the thought that had he done things differently perhaps all the founders #would still be alive #admittedly some of that is a very deep dive into hus character but yeah