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greencarnation · 5 months
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eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him
#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds#but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve#when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was#but ok listen#its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him#episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun#episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind#and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people#episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing#all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror#like obviously we know why but amy didnt#this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry#and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate#you would make a good dalek ect ect ect#anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go#i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great#doctor who#eleven#amy#eleventh doctor#matt smith#dr who#dw#i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him#eleven was careening completely out of control#how long til doctor means warrior indeed?#mine
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sonknuxadow · 4 months
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you know i do wonder how many sonic characters actually have living parents. like knuckles is the last of his kind so obviously his parents arent around anymore. both guys who could be considered shadows dads are 100 percent confirmed dead. sonic is canonically an orphan im pretty sure. and on the other side of the coin cream is like the only character in the game cast who has a living parent we actually see onscreen. but what about everyone else i dont think theres a straight answer for any other character. other than rouge's mom being mentioned a couple times i Guess but we dont even know anything about her or if shes still alive just that she existed at some point. are these kids constantly putting themselves in danger because they dont have parents around to stop them or because their parents just dont care
#like what about tails. im guessing he didnt have any sort of family he was attached to if he left to be with sonic so quickly#but that doesnt really mean he didnt have parents at all. maybe he had parents and they just sucked i dont know#what about amy. what if she had parents this whole time we just never see them.#what about blaze. considering shes a princess id assume she was born into that role#but i dont know if her parents are ever actually mentioned#maybe theyre dead and there was no one else to take on their role and thats why blaze has so much responsibility at such a young age?#silver . he was born in a wet cardboard box all alone i cant really imagine him hvaing parents sorry#considering charmy is 6 and living with vector. an adult whos obviously not his biological dad.#i feel like something probably happened to charmys parents#espio i dont really question as much#becuase it feels very common in the sonic universe for teenagers to have more freedom than would be expected in real life#or maybe its not that common and the teenagers we're actually following are just living the most fucked up lives ever. i dotn know#but either way. espio where are your parents buddy. are they still alive. vector where are YOUR parents are they still alive#i dont know if i actually want canon explanations for all this though#because its kinda fun not knowing every detail about every characters life and being able to speculate and insert your headcanons n stuff#to be clear im talking about game canon#i know stuff like archie sonic and the sonic movies and the 90s cartoons will sometimes give characters new family members#or talk about their family situation even if the games dont say anything about that sort of thing
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cartoonrival · 9 days
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3 15 16 22 smirks
3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr
ok if im being honest im STILL thinking about ytp/exploding hotdogs inthe micrwave-amy. NO SHE WOULD FUCKING NOTTTTT you guys just think that any girl liking traditionally feminine things automatically = no personality so the only way you can wrap your head around "fixing her" is making her less "girly". im still going to war over what ppl are doing to amy. literally no one on the planet understands amy like i do and shes not even one of my faves. i dont even enjoy understanding her like she's my own daughter i do it like its an obligation like im legally required. i also recently learned that "does naruto having blonde hair and blue eyes mean he's white-coded" is legitimate discourse and i fr think you all need serious help
15. that one thing you see in fanart all the time
ok this is my biggest hater opinion and i KNOWWWW its like unnecessarily pissy so i havent said antyhing abt it until now but i think you might understand me. I DONT LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE GIVE SHADOW SOME LITTLE THING TO TAKE CARE OF. I DONT LIKE HIS CHAO AND I DONT LIKE [expunged for my and others' safety] AND I DONT LIKE WHEN PEOPLE JUST GIVE HIM CATS. HE CANT TAKE CARE OF LITTLE CREATURES HE DOESNT CARE TO DO THAT HE DOESNT WANT TO HE JUST DOES NOT HAVE THE CARETAKERS SOUL LIKE HES NOT DOING THAT. HES NOT DOING THAT. BUT PPL DRAW IT ALLLLL THE TIMEE.......... IS THERE NO OTHER WAY WE CAN SHOW HIS SOFT SIDE THEN GIVING HIM SOME LITTLE CREATURE. HES NOT DOING THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!!! its so stupid bc its not even like ooc NECESSARILY i mean his chao exists in at least some canons and theres nothing really saying it COULDNT happen and its such a harmless thing to be a hater about BUT I HATE ITTTTTT also when ppl make the hedgehogs wag their tails BE SO SERIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)
literally every ship with amy. i think you guys just are desperate to ship her w someone. AROACE AMY SWEEP. ASK ME ABOUT MY AROACE AMY AGENDA!!! also i know youve talked about this 1 million times but i cannot fucking stand how the greater fandom talks about scourge bc none of them even KNOW HIM AT ALL and miss literally EVERYTHING that makes his character interesting and fun bc you didnt even READ ARCHIE you just decided to take this one dude out and sand him of everything of note so you can make him a sad little meow meow ToT SONIC HAS PLENTY OF SAD LITTLE MEOW MEOWS CANT A GUY JTSU SUCK??? CANT HE JUST BE A TERRIBLE LOSER? COME ONNNNNNN but ofc you wouldnt understand bc you didnt even READ ARCHIEEEEEE.
22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores
JULIE SU. JULIE SU. JULIE SU ALWAYS. theres literally so much that could be said and expanded upon w her family and background and not even in the way that canon didnt give her anything at all and you gotta diy everything, shes SUCH A FUN CHARACTER shes so funny and such a jerk and everyone writes her off as "girl knuckles" so fast that they wont even LOOK at how much unique personality she has and how UNIQUE her relationship w knuckles is LIKE.... ken penders actually gave js a fun and unique and dope personality, the FANS are the ones writing her off as girl knuckles. ummmmm its not looking good for you people! and theres the assumption ig that all the romances in archie just suck bc theres sort of a lot of them, obviously i dont like every one COUGHken and sallyCOUGH but like ToT KNUXSU IS SO SO SO GOOD.... THE WAY THEY TALK TO EACH OTHER IS SO GOOD like you guys wipe every characters personality to put them in a ship, then talk about knuxsu as if thats the issue with it and why you dont like it, but. ITS NOT EVEN LIKE THAT. AND IF IT WAS SHOULDNT YOU LIKE THAT SORT OF SLOPim sounding like lorillee rn. QPR KNUXSU AGENDA WILL NEVER DIE
and in the same vein as js, lien da also. ppl just in passing say that either shes hot or shes ugly and no one talks about that creepy as fuck issue where eggman surgically put her back together. that issue was so fucking dope. shes so awesome. i love you lien da you are terrible and i love you.
obviously literally just all of archie. nobody talks about archie. i fucking love archie but everyones too scared. i wish i could make that au
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ashtraysystem · 5 months
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System Convo~
Liam👾: damn i cant believe its our birthday soon.
Cole🥾: We used to be kinda an asshole about it.
Ash🍄: yeahh. It used to be that if our friends didnt care enough to do something for our birthday that we would feel like they didn't care about us. Obviously thats not true now or then. Gift giving is just one of our ways of showing love so it was one of those things that made us feel reassured in the relationship.
👾: yea. its makin me think about all those things in like, elementary school, ya know?
🍄: yea, i wish i could go back in time and observe younger me. figure out why we did things and dont remember actually doing them, just the aftermath.
👾: Like that one time Meghan said we had called her a fat ugly bitch at the water fountain
🥾: I'm pretty sure that was actually just her being a bully.
👾: yeahh probably.
🍄:what about the time in 6th grade where we were called into the counselors office for "not going away when we were told"
🥾: oh that bitch annika definitely just wanted amy all to herself. cuz nikki wasn't on board with that, remember?
🍄: oh yea...
👾: what about that time we said to a kindergartener we had a knife in our backpack?
🥾: oh yea my b
🍄👾: WHAT
🥾: yea my b. that one was me.
🍄: WHAT DO YOU MEAN
🥾: why do you think my name is cole?
🍄👾: .....*remembers we had a classmate in elementary school named cole that more or less fits cole exactly* OMFG WHAT. WHY???
🥾: i just wanted to be left alone... yknow, dealing with siblings all the time, a little kid bothers me and.. yea. not proud of it but we were a kid, we didnt know how to express that properly.
🍄👾: omggggg.
👾: wait so was that you back when we- [used to beat up our friends bc we didnt want them to leave]
🥾: yea no, i have no idea who or why for that one.
👾: wiiild
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glame · 2 years
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A/N : ANGST SHIT. toxic!jack swearing, cheating, phone call, mention of alcohol. ⚠️ your a suoermodel. and Jack is Jack.
English is not my first language.
Summary: Jack obsessed with you. but you broke up three months ago. calling and spoiling you but you are so much hurt.
"Jack we broke up!" you yelled through the phone.
"nah, you keep telling this shit but its not real. i didnt brake up with you." he was calm. and looks like he wasnt serious. he was amusing. obviously.
"are you fucking me? Jack you cheated on me! with my fucking best friend! you ghosted me. for weeks! and now youre calling me? we broke up three months ago. and you keep calling me since our brake up." you yelled again.
"no. no, baby. dont tell this shit. i love you. you know that. i miss you." he was mumbling.
"who are you with? i cant stand you anymore. is Urban there?" you scoofed.
"why do you want to talk to Urban? your boyfriend is here. he has nothing to talk with this." he sounds surprised. "baby, lets forget all about this. i promise you, imma be better. i really love you. please baby. i need you."
"no, Jack. give the god damn phone to whoever with you are." you bored. he keeps calling you, texting you, giving you gifts, ordering you foods of coffees, showes up to everywhere you were in. even come to your home when its late at night.
"i have no one around me. i just wanna be with you. can i come?" he was really a baby. "baby please. i cant."
"Jack, are you drunk? you have not drank for a year and a half." you mumbled.
"you make me drunk baby." he laughed. "but nah, i didnt drink anything. youre still being concern about me. your love didnt end." he was satisfied.
you didnt answer that. "imma sleep. please give up. you hurt me so much. i dont wanna hurt you either i dont wanna forgive you." you breathed heavily.
"no. dont go to sleep. please. talk to me. i miss you baby. i know i hurt you but i wanna heal you. give me a shot." his anxiety, he sounds like hes gonna start crying.
"Jack, i cant. how can i trust you one more time? how can i let myself? please understand me." your voice was low.
"i swear you baby. i never do this shit again. shit happens. relationships are like this. you cant avoid some shits." he was so comfy. and thats what drives you insane.
"for the last time im saying we broke up Jack. three months ago. three fucking months. i dont wanna talk to you. i dont wanna see you. i dont want any of your gifts. you bought me a fucking Cartier? for what, turn back to you? you bought me Swarowoski diamonds, Prada bags, YSL shoes, your fucking NB collection? for what Jack? im not gonna turn back to you. never! dont spoil me, dont do anything you do to her. i hate you!" you started crying.
all 4 years, all things youve shared. met his family, Miami's, songs about you, he came to your runways, he met your family, birthdays, anniversaries, thanksgivings, xmas', New years... your parties for him, his parties for you, his NB collections includes your name on the laces of one of the sneakers. your Tommy Hilfiger collection includes his one song about you writes on a bra... him custom made chains for you, your custom made rings for him. the nails you get matched. basketball games you watched together, babysitting was best with him. his little couisins ot nephews. his friends, your friends. your photos, videos on YouTube, your red carpet looks, your dads love to talk car races with him. the Kentucky Derby you attended together... and it all ended with a cheating. you still love him. hell, its true. but you cant trust him.
"say anything, but dont hate me baby. please. i cant take this. i love you. you know. i love you so much." he was in pain.
"its not enough Jack. please."
"your my angel. forever." he hunged up.
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edenreid-bau · 3 years
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Cops-N-Robbers (prt1) the one where the 99 lost a detective
I sat at my desk finishing up the paperwork on the Kim murder, or my 'sweet murder case' as Jake would call it, when He walked into work, making a B line for my desk.
"heyyy hotstuff! watcha doinnnn?" he said as he sat down on the chair next to my desk. Rosa, who occupied the desk right in front of mine, rolled her eyes. "I'm doing my job, what were you doing that was so important for you to be one hour and 30 minutes late, 'hotstuff'" Jake stood up and laughed "I! was fixing up my car! so whos the one doing their job now?" I looked at him incredulously "still me, and how did you even get the money to-" I couldn't finish my sentence because Jake turned and noticed Amy coming out of Holt's office. He immediately walked towards her and they started flirting.
I rolled my eyes, for weeks now Jake had been drifting away from me and towards Amy more and more, as a matter of fact everyone had been. It was getting to a point where the longest conversation I had was fighting with the vulture. It was getting insanely lonely to work at the nine nine.
I had started looking for a new job in police work, I may have been the youngest detective on our team at 23 years old but that didn't stop me from wanting to join the Behavioral Analysis Unit as soon as I heard about it. I finally sent in my application for the Quantico team. I flew down for my interview with Aaron Hotchner soon after.
I followed the Stoic man up to his office, passing by a few people who all gave me slightly confused looks, before I found myself entering the small office. "Detective (y/l)" The man said as he stood up and held out his hand for me to shake "Agent Hotchner" I took his hand and gave it a firm shake before we both sat down. Agent Hotchner opened my file and quickly skimmed over it. "It says here that you finished high school at 15 years old, went to university in Mathematics, Computer Science and Mechanical Engineering, and have an IQ of around 190. It also says you got to detective in only one year and quickly became the best in your Precinct. this is highly impressive, what made you want to join the BAU now?"
"I love being a detective and I love New York, but I think its time to move on to new things and to help more people. I saw the BAU and did research on what you all do and I thought it would be the perfect job for me." Agent Hotchner nodded slowly before standing up. I did the same and he shook my hand. "welcome to the team Agent (y/l), you start in one month." "Thank you sir, have a nice day". As I left the office I caught the group of people whispering to each other and starring at me. when they saw I was looking at them they all ,very obviously, looked away into every direction and all scattered walking to their desks.
I found an apartment close enough to my new workplace and finished writing my two weeks notice in the plane back to new york. when my two weeks were over I walked over to the captains office as soon as I arrived, where the Sarge already was.
"Captain, Sarge?" "ah! Detective (y/l), please, sit down" I closed the door and sat down at his desk "sirs, I'm sent in my two weeks notice much earlier as im sure you've heard, and today is my last day at the 99" Terry and the Captain looked up from the captains computer simultaneously. "What??" the Captain looked insanely confused and i was sure Amy was peeping through the window but i didnt care. "I've gotten a job with the Behavioral Analysis Unit of the FBI in Quantico Virginia, and I start in a few weeks." The Sarge looked down at me sadly. "I care for you all as if you were my family but I need a new beginning and Virginia as well and the BAU seem like a perfect place for me to do just that" "alright. you are our best detective, and It was a Pleasure working with you" the captain gave me one of his rare smiles before I left and the sarge closed the door behind me.
I turned back towards the bullpen, preparing to walk back towards my desk and pack what little belongings I had there when i was met with Amy and Charles surrounding me. "Hey, What was that all about? I totally saw the captain give you a sad smile and- holy shit" she looked back towards the office window "are they crying?" sure enough, when we looked into the window the Sarge was fully crying and the Captain had a few tears running down his face, they were obviously trying to have a serious conversation and failing. "What the hell did you say to them (Y/N)!" Charles said, quite loud, the team looked towards us, without me noticing. "Todays my last day at the 99, their making it a bigger deal that it actually is really" The team suddenly walked towards me all sounding insanely confused. they were all talking at the same time making everything seem like a strange jumble of sadness, and anger "What??" "why??" "couldn't you have told us??" "What are you going to do?". I finally stopped their rambling by answering "I got a new job that, I think, will suit me better. I care for you all but I need a fresh start" Jake was, for once quite serious, he really looed heart broken to see me go but i knew if i never left, i would be stuck there forever like Hitchcock and Scully. Jake looked up and said "What's your new job gonna be?" I rolled my eyes slightly smirked at him and left, but not before throwing a "You'll never find out" as the elevator doors shut on my friends.
what i didnt know was that they would, in fact
Find out.
AN
hey! this is my first series and so please dont be too harsh when judging me, i take requests and just message me your username if you want to join my Cops-N-Robbers taglist!
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darling-blurbs · 3 years
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Him Draft
(This is so self indulegent. skrael x me. you know the drill. also this is the past of Them which is going to be a Skrael x oc x Douxie but might be an x reader depending)
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“Hello?” Esther asks with caution. The last thing she remembers before waking up was falling out of the sky and off a mountain. Now she somehow ended up in a forest with three people staring at her and two of them with weapons ready.
“I don’t mean any harm. I just woke up and I don’t remember much.. other than my name of course,” She giggled uncomfortably.
“I think they are telling the truth,” The little one with a green type outfit on said.
“They can still be a threat,” said the one with more of a red aesthetic going on. “Though we could use a servant. Do you have any magical powers mortal?”
Esther got a little annoyed when they called her a mortal and wanted to put them in their place but she realized that her background was slowly coming back to her. Waving her hands around, pink magic danced around to turn into a horse with wings and after blowing the dust of pink away, the horse came to life. 
Turning back to see the reaction of the three, she saw that the Green One looked excited and started to inspect it as well as the Red One but the Blue One just started at her. Their eyes seemed cold and the tension was thick but she didn’t know if it was sexual or if it was hatred. She remembered her father saying something like ‘it’s a very thin line between hatred and love. Make sure you can tell the different.’
“Okay. You can be our servant for now. You have proven your skills,” The Red One said. Their voice seemed very distorted and Esther’s ears were having trouble keeping up. “My name is Bellroc. Keeper of the Flame. Leader of the Arcane Order.”
The Green One hopped over to Esther. “My name is Nari of the Eternal Forest and that is Skrael of the North Wind.” 
Esther looked up and locked her eyes with Skrael. She then remembered that she had no idea if she was in her mortal form or not. 
“My name is Esther of Venus,” She silently cheered in her head. Thankfully she was slowly remembering things about her past.
“The planet?” Nari said, tilting her head.
When Esther giggled, it was like sparkles appeared around her and little pink butterflies appeared. Her hair bloomed a flower that looked like a rose. It was a beautiful white rose.
“Sure dandelion,” Esther pet Nari’s head who purred. The flower slowly turned pink. Skrael was staring intently at her, even though Esther thought it was in anger or hate, it was more Skrael was confused at what the heat in his chest was.
Skrael was used to being cold all the time. Other than when his siblings were near would it be warm on his blue skin but this feelings felt like he was going to stumble over his words if he even opened his mouth around her.
“We need a home. The cave was uncomfortable. Do you think you can make one servant?” Esther thought for a moment before nodding to the eldest of the demigods.
“Yup! What do you guys want?”
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If someone told Esther that years later, there would be a Wizard population that would have her as the princess, she would have laughed and go on with cleaning the castle she built.
It was almost like someone changed the past or something because one minute she was singing Nari to sleep and the next, she wakes up with a maid calling her Princess Esther and that her father wanted to see her.
When she arrived at the Throne Room, after looking all around for the Arcane Order, she saw a man that looked ungodly like her father...
It was her dad. She almost face palmed. Her father brought her back to Greece. Right after she finally got Skrael to laugh and this happened?
“My little Cherub!” Says Ares, walking to his daughter and hugging her. Her father was a scary man to anyone who was not him. He looked big and youthful but his bloodlust and quick anger made anyone scared.
Esther’s flower turned black as her hatred became known. She pushed her father away and glared at him before crossing her arms. “What do you need father that you had to get Hermès to bring me back to Greece? I was having a lovely time in England!”
Ares was shocked by his daughter defiance. Seeing the pink of her eyes while her hair seemed brown instead of its usual blonde, he knew he messed up. Her eyes were turning red slowly meaning that he had to calm her done.
“Doll? What did I do? Can’t your dad miss you? I’ve been going to therapy and gave Zeus a good talking to and he said it’s fine if you came back! Though Hermès was the one who wanted to kidnap you,” Ares mumbled the last part.
Aphrodite felt a disturbance in the air as soon as she walked into the room. Seeing her daughter, she was happy but seeing the emotions of love for another, anger towards Ares, and want to go back into another’s arms that wasn’t her parents, Aphrodite thought against hugging and went straight to Ares and pointed a finger in his chest.
“Can’t you see your daughter obviously wants to go back? Why didn’t you consult me before-“
“I wanted it to be a surprise that I brought Ami back. But her anger found you didnt it?”
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Post #1: Relationship Patterns
okay im gonna annoy you a bit further so i completely get it if you hate my guts but i need to get this off my chest. obv ur not my friend or therapist or anything like that and you dont owe me anything, its just something i feel like i need to ask someone because i really need an answer.
something about me seems to seriously exhaust people and i cant figure out what. ik i sound really naive and stupid for not noticing something that apparently so obvious about myself but i seriously cant see it. maybe its my persistence and inability to let go of things/certain topics?? idk im in the right ball park but still really far away from figuring out the actual definite thing,,if that even exists,,theres something about me that makes it difficult to talk and i wish i could stop. this has happened time and time again and again and again with multiple different people over and over and over again. first impressions are neutral or good -> we get closer, things get better -> this disgusting part of my personality rears its ugly head and ruins the relationship. idk whats wrong with me in the first place so how am i supposed to fix it?
im not even talking about the whole "hating the world and hurting other people" thing because thats separate and very much a joke even if you dont believe me. im moreso talking about how the flow of that conversation went.
ur prob wondering why im asking this from you of all people when we dont really know each other that well at all but the thing is, when relationships end, people really just want to be over with it asap and move on so you never really get a chance to just like sit down with the person and like have a proper discussion about the relationship; what went wrong, who did what, what couldve been done better by which person etc... you just never get to review and reflect on everything that happened bc you just dont care for each other anymore.  and since that conversation never happens, neither person *explicitly* learns from the relationship. everything is just inferred from the reactions of the other person, "oh when i did this, they seemed to like it so i should do more of that in my next relationship" and obviously this is a shit method of improving yourself because you're operating off of unreliable data.
And that is exactly why im asking you, selfish as it may be.
something about the way i talk really irks people and i need to know what it is so i can stop doing it. a long time i ago i thought it was because i made a lot of self deprecating jokes and that started making people uncomfortable. i never really understood why bc a lot of other people made the same type of jokes but no one ever had any problem with that. (when i tried to have this "Reflection" conversation with those friends they mentioned that it was only uncomfortable when i did it bc they knew i was being somewhat serious,,but isnt all humour based in reality to some degree anyways,,idk). and now im seeing the same thing reprising now, where i make a joke similar in vain of what amy says but for some reason its only weird when i do it,,,and i dont know why. anyways, to fix this whole low-self-esteem joke thing, i decided to go in the opposite direction, i'll be so overly (and obviously) egotistical and proud that it'll put everyone around me at ease because who doesnt love confidence right? clearly, as you pointed out,,,still does not work (for me). because now instead of coming off as small and pathetic i come off as big and arrogant. this puzzles me yet again because it seems to work for girls really well; when you know ur conventionally attractive and youre confident in yourself and you say you are the most important thing in the world (regardless of weather you genuinely believe it with your heart or not), it just works and everything is fine. why didnt it work out for me though? did i do something wrong? i still don't get it.
in the aforementioned previous reflection conversations people mentioned that my straightforwardness and open willingness to talk about unconventional topics (sex, human behaviour, feelings, etc...) put them off at first and made them really uncomfortable but over time they came to expect it from me and it wasn't that bad. I don't know what to do with this information,,is this quality about me a good thing or a bad thing and should i change it? an impossible question for you to answer yet i ask it regardless. I feel like I'm not a particularly funny person even when people tell me otherwise so i tend to default to these super serious topics which i've noticed really brings down the energy of the room and i feel super shitty for doing it but idk what it is about me that does it so idk how to fix it. even when talking about lighthearted topics it just doesnt feel authentic and i mess it consistently. i dont want people to always be serious around me but thats the type of environment i end up creating.. im not even sure if this is something that needs to be fixed,,?
I'm stuck between wanting to change myself to be a better person and staying true to who i am,,,whoever that is.
anyways, i went from hating myself too much to -> loving myself too much -> and now we're in the hating the world phase. to reiterate these are all just failed attempts at humour where i seem to keep missing the mark. again, ive other people do this style so much better than me and they make it work yet my hollow imitations cannot compare. they dont hold the same weight and despite the over-the-top absurdity, it garners criticism and distaste (as exhibited by you and everyone else there). so,,what did i do wrong? how can i fix it? these two questions weigh on my mind on every relationship that ends against my will (mutual ones too ig, bc in that case i genuinely want the other person to be better as well but i digress).
throughout all of these phases however, one thing has always prevailed and thats been the fact that i constantly self-sabatoge myself by making me, or my character, the butt of the joke (maybe this is the key, the answer to what ive been searching for, im not sure). you saw it today, there was the nurse thing, and countless other examples. i put myself in a demeaning/embarrassing position because it makes people laugh! and it brings up the energy which as i mentioned has been one of my major goals. yea it might not be the most conventional way to do it but its all i've known and its whats worked for me. is this a bad thing? should i stop it? how would i even go about accomplishing that when its so ingrained in my personality? if i were to remove it who would i become? how would i make people like me?
all of these questions and these *things* i've painted out for you are things that people generally dont think about, but i do. i overthink a fuckton and i've been thinking about this shit for 19 years so i cant just pretend i dont have these thoughts and just be the casual chill dude that everyone gets along with. that person thats the "glue" to every friend group, i envy that person a ton and that has never been me; ive only recently realized i do actually want to be that person but idek how to start on that journey. i cant sit here and pretend i dont care what people think of me, i genuinely didnt care for a long time and that was really attractive to some people but now i do care. and it is exhausting. i care about how i look, how i speak, how i come across, i care very much about how i talk, the things i talk about and other's perception of me. im not sure i care about this to an unhealthy degree but i've decided that i do in fact care now. thats why im here i guess. i wouldnt be asking if i didnt care.
but maybe i care too much? as you can probably guess by now, all my relationships (btw when i use this term i refer to SO's, friends, and just generally people who arent aquaintences in my life) have been relatively short. i dont have any childhood friends, i have moved around quite a bit, and ive just been in that cycle i mentioned for the majority of my life. maybe my inexperience with long-term relationships contributes to this but obviously i do not know what i dont know. anyways, since i move from one relationship to the next sequentially, with about a handful of relationships at a time, i tend to hold onto them very tightly. you might think this odd since most kids who moved often eventually developed thick skin and placed a certain degree of emotional distance from even their closest humans because they feel like at some point it could all be ripped away from them. this is normal. this is what most people did. i did not. for some godforsaken reason i went the opposite way. instead of emotionally distancing myself, i go into each relationship headfirst with open arms and nothing to hold back (now ur starting to see why i overshare so much). i know i'm going to turn them off, i know im going to get hurt, but i do it anyways bc that connection is a high. having someone who truly understands you on such a foundational level is fucking intoxicating, and once that relationship is taken away from me, i must search fervorously for the next one. this *blind rage* of sorts obviously sours things and destroys the precautions i had in place to not repeat my patterns but i guess i just can't help myself. anyways, once the initial surge wanes and the rose-tinted glasses come off the relationship stagnates and it is my fault and i dont know what to do. as you can probably guess by now im  *bit* dramatic with my life; so what do we do in dramas when things get stale? we start some ACTION! i will be spontaneous and do/say weird things or try and push the relationship further by getting to know them on an even deeper level;;;;i'll do anything to convince them (and i guess myself?) that i am not boring. sometimes it works well and they reciprocate and it goes really well, or theyre turned off and pull back. thats really unfortunate. now we're at a crossroads, let me walk you down both roads bc this clearly isnt long enough already!
Path 1: they pull back see at this point any reasonable person who would recognize the situation would probably just sit back and let things return to normal and continue the relationship with a safe and healthy boundary. not me. i notice them pulling back and i get fucking terrified. i dont know if its permanent or temporary or what idk it just freaks the fuck out of me. so what do i do? i go even deeper because i dont want to let them go. i dont want to go through the pain of losing another person remember that shit hurts really fucking bad so i will do everything in my power to ensure that this relationship does not end. as you know by now, i dont shy away from these topics that really should be left alone so what do i do? i get confrontational. i ask them what went wrong, what did i do, how can i make it better, how can i make me better etc.... This obviously (to you and other normal people perhaps, not me tho) has the opposite affect and turns them off even more and the relationship ends and my questions stay unanswered yet again.
Path 2: the reciprocate (oh god im doing paths i rlly am an npc :sob: ) omg they reciprocated! this is great! so fantastic! i'm going to keep this person close so they never leave me and hurt me. i'll always have someone who i share that integral bond with and i can never let that go, its so precious i have to protect it, i have to protect them. i get clingy,,,*really really clingy*. this is not a good look. obviously it turns them off. but they love me as much as i love them....or do they? who likes who more? who is more invested in who? who will be more hurt when the relationship ends? the relationship will end at some point, we're not gonna be this close when we're 80,,, i should prepare for that. These thoughts plague my mind. i set everything up so that i am not hurt and appear okay. they text me, i do not respond. on imessege, ig, snap, even tiktok, i ensure that they are the last person who talked so that my monkey brain experiences a false sense of superiority like i was the better one who didnt need them. They reciprocated my love for them and i respond by destroying them [im just now realizing as im writing this that maybe the evil, destroying people thing wasnt a joke after all lmao. maybe it still is; its prob some combination of both]. Anyways, i set everything up to end smoothly so this means i should be able to have my perfect trademarked "Reflection Conversation" right? wrong. at this point, theyre too tired of me, im sick of them. the conversation might happen, it might not. even if it does it isnt satisfactory. they dont put their full effort it, why should they? the relationship is over right? why try? they dont get feedback, they dont give it to me. we continue with our lives doomed to make the same mistakes over and over and over again until someone points it out for us,,or they dont and we're doomed to be the creatures of our own ignorance destined to never truly connect with another human on that *true* level and actually have it fucking last.
Thats why im here. i need someone to point it out for me i think. because i won't magically realize all the ways im fucked up by myself. i understand that its pretty fucking dumb to ask this task from someone like you when even people who loved me weren't able to do it. if you take the time to read this and actually provide guidance for someone who's basically a stranger, I thank you. if not, well i cant really blame you.
thanks, and sorry for pissing you off yet again. im clearly very talented at this so i need to get my ego boost from somewhere
P.S. this ended up being wayyyyyyyy longer than i thought it would sorryy :3 i think once i started writing i just got a bit carried away and just went all out. its a bit messy and all over the place but its from the heart (or lack thereof lol. apologies once again for the length but i hope you do read it.
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so i know a lot of people dont like season 5 of ats, but personally i think its my favourite one - when i was thinking about my favourite eps of the series, most of them were from season 5 (obviously you’re welcome, a hole in the world was just BRILLIANT and brilliantly heartbreaking, smile time and the girl in question were both incredibly funny, lineage explored more of wes and i love wes with all my heart and power play and not fade away just kept me at the edge of my seat and honestly i loved every single episode of this season so much!!!).
i love how spike was brought in and became a part of the team and was quickly accepted and trusted (unlike with the scoobies), and i dont think he was out of character much (he did make some questionable choices and i dont see why he didnt contact buffy right away, though i kinda understand his reasoning). i love the relationships between the characters - fresley (its my otp and my heart broke for them), friendship between fred and spike and spike and angel being an old married couple, wes taking care of illyria, spike calling gunn charlie-boy. 
i was honestly prepared to hate illyria bc i love fred so much but i ended up loving her, too (amy acker is such an incredible actress - fred and illyria and illyria posing as fred!!!!). my heart broke for wesley who is only my favourite character ever. there are so many scenes that i just keep remembering, like illyria asking wes if there’s anything in this life but grief at the end of shells or wes’ death scene, or fred’s death scene, or fred telling spike he is a champion and so so so much more.
so yeah, season 5 is my favourite ats season and i cant wait to watch it again (i also have this au in my head where angel asks buffy to join them in w&h and shes along for the ride but its gonna be a while since i ease back into writing fanfiction, so i might want to hold onto that idea for a bit). 
and i feel like writing a lot of long-ass posts about everything buffyverse so look forward to that too
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Hi, I'd like to take a moment to talk to you all about boom! Shadow :)
I'd also like to preface this by saying I have nothing agaisnt boom and I dont actually understand why people dont like it when it's just a fun series. (Its not even canon cmon)
I'll talk abt the series first, since shadow appears more than once there.
His first episode is, hm, to say the least. Rouge and omega arent canon characters in boom, leaving him with absolutely no friends, and I'm also gonna guess that gun and Maria werent canon either. (This brings up alot of questions on how he came to be but that's for another day.)
His first episode has eggman manipulating footage of sonic "slandering him", he falls for it pretty easily (again, gun worker shadow would never) and goes on a mini rampage to attack sonic and friends.
This is, out of character, to say the least, shadow going so far as to try and not fight tails in sonic x when he was trying to get to Cosmo. He also holds a great respect for Amy, (and I dont think he has a solid opinion on knuckles, it changes from annoyance to tolerance on a whim.)
The fact that sonic is genuinley confused as to why shadow is randomly attacking them is also incredibly telling that a. His character is wrong and b. Shadow is not normally like this, but then again, shadows character has more flip flops than a Florida man.
The second episode he appears in is mostly just him being angry at eggman and wanting to beat up sonic, which, okay, wanting to be better than sonic is (unfortunately) part of his post adventure 2 character arc. It's a pretty entertaining episode if you havent gone into shadows character too much. He also says the next time they fight it will be on his terms, which.. no it wont sadly boom was cancelled.
Honestly though, hes just lonley, it also canon in boom that he lives in a cave alone, (couldnt even give the man a house huh?) So hes bound to be just a lil lonley.
To the games then because that's all we get from our boy in the series.
Rise of lyric is pretty generic when it comes to shadow being in the game, he appears for a boss fight and a cameo at the end, the boss fight is.. interesting, honestly.
Theres a brief cutscene with shadow and eggman, but shadow dosent speak and hes not seen again till the boss fight.
The cutscene before has pretty "normal" shadow dialogue, calling sonic weak because he has friends, which I'm starting to see a pattern here. Sonic also knows who shadow is, and tries to dismiss him pretty quickly.
He does get angry when shadow insults his friends however, which is pretty in character, and they initiate the boss fight with shadow saying hes going to prove how weak sonic is.
(Obviously, you win, your the player.)
The last we see of shadow for the rest of the game is him awkwardly stumbling after being beaten. (they animated his ears to droop too, not relevant, just cute <3)
Hes kicked through the portal and you go about your game. Sonic also does ask what time he was sent too, so he does care, even a little.
He appears again at the end of the game, no explanation as to how he got back, and is immediately ready to fight until he sees the defeated lyric. He then stops and walks away, claiming that sonic and co got the job done.
(We're never explicitly told what side hes on in this game, but hes certainly not working for lyric.)
Shattered crystal is up next, again, pretty generic, but better than the last.
Sonic actually greets him sarcastically in this game, as if he were a friend, and gets confused when shadow (who's being mind controlled) acts strange. He initially is not hostile, but on the assumption that shadow knows where the kidnapped Amy is, he does get briefly angry.
Then a mini boss fight, and shadow wakes up, no longer mind controlled, and acting like a feral cat that's been caged, hes just as confused as sonic and friends are and it probably didnt help that knuckles wanted to knock him out again.
Then when they start trying to question him about Amy, he gets defensive almost instantly, and insults sonic, before remarking that he was talking to lyric before he blacked out. He then tells sticks very firmly that he is not working for lyric and passes the mind control device to tails.
(Again, very calmly passes it, flip flop flip flop)
Once they figure out lyric mind controlled shadow, hes angry, and immediately sets off to find lyric to fight him for using him. Sonic tries to stop him, but theres no stopping shadow when his minds set on something.
We don't see him again for the rest of the game, until he shows up and actually deals the final blow to lyric, he sticks around to listen to sticks get the concept of teamwork wrong, and then leaves, insulting them all again. (Are we seeing a pattern here?)
Sonic then tries to say that they did beat lyric as a team, but shadow is having none of it, and leaves, calling himself Sonics superior. Sonic then says he'd make a great member of team sonic if he werent such a hard case.
Shadow dosent appear in fire and ice, so.
The main theme of boom shadow is pretty much just a massive inferiority complex around sonic, and a whole bunch of insults towards his friends.
Again, shadow has 0 canon friends in boom, and is seemingly annoyed by just about everyone, but it's also not out of the question that he'd end up sucked into the friend group should he ease up on his temper.
For all his talk of being weak for having friends, its my guess that he dosent want to be seen as weak, given how quick he was to fight sonic for such minor (and fake) insults against him. He has no friends and distances himself because he wants to be "strong".
Boom!shadow is certainly not the same as sa2 shadow, and I think if they met, sa2 would be, very embarrassed to say the least.
I could talk about shadows character all day but this has been long enough so uhh, yeah :)
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Book Series I Need to Read (Part 2)
*drum roll* I'm back! On popular demand! Just kidding. I need this list for myself. Just doing the leg work for you guys. The best things in life are free! :P    
Buckle up, book nerds! Because this list is even longer than the last one. Let's begin…
1.Camp-Half Blood Chronicles by Rick Riordan
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Yes yes, I’m a terrible person for not having read these, I even saw the movie without reading the book *my brownie points have been revoked* but i liked it. dont know why they didnt continue the movie series. I usually wait till I read the book. Psst! still haven’t seen Crazy Rich Asians. Anyway. Its Greek mythology, you can’t hate it. It’s super interesting! This is one of the longest-running series though, 36 books!
2. Caraval Trilogy by Stephanie Garber
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I love the covers so much! If you’ve read the night circus it’s a little similar to that, the whole challenge thing set up but disguised as a circus thing. But I'm not sure if this is a love story. It follows the story of two sisters and It’s been a while since I read siblings.
3. Illuminae Trilogy by Amie Kaufman, Jay Kristoff
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This book is set in space. The year is 2575 and we’ve found several planet B’s to replace Earth. Also it is sci-fi but like there is also a plague probably like symbiotes like in venom. So it’s basically Captain Marvel meets Venom. Not sure. Just making wild guesses after reading the blurb. Also, I'm not a sci-fi girl. But then again I was surprised I liked the Neuromancer (book review coming soon) so... anything’s possible. Also this book is told through documents: like report entries and stuff so…
4. Ready Player One Duology by Ernest Cline
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Lots of people liked this one. Surprisingly (not!) it’s another sci-fi, futuristic setting. This time the year is 2044 and the race is for pop culture from decades over? Like there are clues hidden in pop culture. This book is for millennials and gen z definitely. It’s like Gamer (movie) meets the Hunger Games because the world is virtual reality…  
5. Winter Night Trilogy by Katherine Arden
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This feels very much like a fairytale retelling but maybe Russian fairytales? Sounds intriguing because its main plot is “superstitions-come-to-life” because they stop warding their house against the spirits and they wreak havoc. I do not enjoy horror books at all but I’ll give this a shot since it’s so “popular”.
6. The Folk of the Air Trilogy By Holly Black
The cruel prince is EVERYWHERE!!!! And I love the minimalist book covers. (couldnt post a picture since tumblr has a 10-picture-per-post-limit). This is fantasy YA. Centered on conniving faeries and obviously the “cruel faerie prince”… Looking forward to this one.
7. Everless Duology by Sara Holland
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I don’t know why I keep confusing this with heartless by Marissa Meyer (a standalone) it sounds the same right. But it is not related to Alice in wonderland at all. It's kind of sci-fi but not futuristic since it’s a kingdom. (But kingdoms are in outer space too right? Like Asgard is a kingdom so…) Not sure. It's based around that concept from that movie Time where the rich keep increasing their time to live while feeding off of the poor…something like that. Also it has a love triangle so yay! arent the covers something!
8. Truly Devious Trilogy by Maureen Johnson
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I love the blurb of this! (I've linked it so read the blurb!) This is definitely my kind of book. Gave me vibes from another series I adore (will fangirl about those in another post) plus like I love books centered on a boarding school or an academy. They had me at anonymous killer! Besides sometimes you need a break from fantasy.
9. Millennium Series by Stieg Larsson
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Old I know I'm not sure if I’ll read these. But they were quite the hype when they came out. I haven’t seen the movie either but when do movies ever do justice to books. This is a mystery-thriller and your girl here is a HUGE fan of these. It's also romance and family drama and political corruption and lots of sexually gory scenes which I'm not a big fan of so… we shall see. 4 books in total
10. Legend Trilogy by Marie Lu
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The blurb on Goodreads is supper concise but also vague and mysterious. It has that enemies to lovers (maybe) trope so it’s a win already: P
11. Chaos Walking Trilogy by Patrick Ness
This book sounds very interesting. Todd is infected by the noise germ in which you can hear everybody else’s thoughts and they can hear yours. I mean we've all wished that at some point (hearing other people’s thoughts not projecting our own OBVI) plus a mute girl is involved and she’s a rarity cause it’s a “man’s world” (pun intended) and he can't believe that one still exits cause they'd all been wiped out! Read the blurb guys I may have confused you all... : P xD it’s a trilogy till now…
12. Arc of Scythe Trilogy by Neal Shusterman
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Sounds so gore-y training two teenagers to take lives to keep the population at bay. Dystopian. We have conquered all that ails this planet. Poverty, climate change, world hunger. Peace. It's like either learn to kill or be killed. Not sure how this isn’t standalone and has progressed into a trilogy. Will just have to read to find out.
13. Crazy Rich Asians Trilogy by Kevin Kwan
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A trilogy centered on well Crazy Rich Asians xD. It's light funny and hilarious. And people really enjoyed the movie so the books must be much better. I got eBooks for these so this is going to be my first read, out of this list! J
14. The Thousandth Floor trilogy by Katharine McGee
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Also futuristic. Manhattan, New York in 2118. Five teenagers (so I guess Five POVs) struggling to find their place at the top of the world. Sounds very high tech. not sure if the teenagers are human or android or something else entirely.
15. The Girl from Everywhere Duology by Hiedi Heilig
Involves a magical map that can take you any place in time you want. Even places from stories. Centered around a girl whose dad doesn’t give a single hoot if she disappears because he's obsessed with finding her mom in the past when they first meet. So this girl could very well disappear because she wouldn’t exist. I love books with time-bending cause they a paradox. Cause the beginning is the end and or vice versa.
16.  The Girl in Between by Laekan Zea Kemp
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Another fairytale retelling with a twist. This girl has a disease kinda like narcolepsy. But when she sleeps she goes to another dimension to live a life made of her memories. And obviously there's a boy who is a stranger but might be her knight! Very interesting no? Plus I love the covers!! Series has four books! And the first is told from the girls POV and the second from the boys POV. Maybe she alternates. Will have to read to find out! im excited about these!!
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17. Ash Princess Trilogy by Laura Sebastian
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This is not as popular but I've seen a few pictures here and there. The story sounds interesting. The main character sounds very badass. Plus she has mind powers or some kind of power that will set her and her kingdom free. Pretty covers though. 
18. Binti Trilogy by Nnedi Okorafor
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I thought the author would be Arab because her books name is Binti which literally means daughter in Arabic but she isn’t. She’s Nigerian-American. Also this book looks very interesting.. Sci-fi cause it’s set in space. Gives off very Ravenclaw vibes cause the main theme is wisdom and how to put it to use. I love the ethnic covers!
Which one are you excited to read? Which ones have you read? Let me know...
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I’ll talk abt the series first, since shadow appears more than once there.
 
His first episode is, hm, to say the least. Rouge and omega arent canon characters in boom, leaving him with absolutely no friends, and I’m also gonna guess that gun and Maria werent canon either. (This brings up alot of questions on how he came to be but that’s for another day.)
 
His first episode has eggman manipulating footage of sonic “slandering him”, he falls for it pretty easily (again, gun worker shadow would never) and goes on a mini rampage to attack sonic and friends.
 
This is, out of character, to say the least, shadow going so far as to try and not fight tails in sonic x when he was trying to get to Cosmo. He also holds a great respect for Amy, (and I dont think he has a solid opinion on knuckles, it changes from annoyance to tolerance on a whim.)
 
The fact that sonic is genuinley confused as to why shadow is randomly attacking them is also incredibly telling that a. His character is wrong and b. Shadow is not normally like this, but then again, shadows character has more flip flops than a Florida man.
 
The second episode he appears in is mostly just him being angry at eggman and wanting to beat up sonic, which, okay, wanting to be better than sonic is (unfortunately) part of his post adventure 2 character arc. It’s a pretty entertaining episode if you havent gone into shadows character too much. He also says the next time they fight it will be on his terms, which.. no it wont sadly boom was cancelled.
 
Honestly though, hes just lonley, it also canon in boom that he lives in a cave alone, (couldnt even give the man a house huh?) So hes bound to be just a lil lonley.
 
To the games then because that’s all we get from our boy in the series.
 
Rise of lyric is pretty generic when it comes to shadow being in the game, he appears for a boss fight and a cameo at the end, the boss fight is.. interesting, honestly.
 
Theres a brief cutscene with shadow and eggman, but shadow dosent speak and hes not seen again till the boss fight.
 
The cutscene before has pretty “normal” shadow dialogue, calling sonic weak because he has friends, which I’m starting to see a pattern here. Sonic also knows who shadow is, and tries to dismiss him pretty quickly.
 
He does get angry when shadow insults his friends however, which is pretty in character, and they initiate the boss fight with shadow saying hes going to prove how weak sonic is.
(Obviously, you win, your the player.)
 
The last we see of shadow for the rest of the game is him awkwardly stumbling after being beaten. (they animated his ears to droop too, not relevant, just cute <3)
 
Hes kicked through the portal and you go about your game. Sonic also does ask what time he was sent too, so he does care, even a little.
 
He appears again at the end of the game, no explanation as to how he got back, and is immediately ready to fight until he sees the defeated lyric. He then stops and walks away, claiming that sonic and co got the job done.
(We’re never explicitly told what side hes on in this game, but hes certainly not working for lyric.)
 
Shattered crystal is up next, again, pretty generic, but better than the last.
 
Sonic actually greets him sarcastically in this game, as if he were a friend, and gets confused when shadow (who’s being mind controlled) acts strange. He initially is not hostile, but on the assumption that shadow knows where the kidnapped Amy is, he does get briefly angry.
 
Then a mini boss fight, and shadow wakes up, no longer mind controlled, and acting like a feral cat that’s been caged, hes just as confused as sonic and friends are and it probably didnt help that knuckles wanted to knock him out again.
 
Then when they start trying to question him about Amy, he gets defensive almost instantly, and insults sonic, before remarking that he was talking to lyric before he blacked out. He then tells sticks very firmly that he is not working for lyric and passes the mind control device to tails.
(Again, very calmly passes it, flip flop flip flop)
Once they figure out lyric mind controlled shadow, hes angry, and immediately sets off to find lyric to fight him for using him. Sonic tries to stop him, but theres no stopping shadow when his minds set on something.
 
We don’t see him again for the rest of the game, until he shows up and actually deals the final blow to lyric, he sticks around to listen to sticks get the concept of teamwork wrong, and then leaves, insulting them all again. (Are we seeing a pattern here?)
 
Sonic then tries to say that they did beat lyric as a team, but shadow is having none of it, and leaves, calling himself Sonics superior. Sonic then says he’d make a great member of team sonic if he werent such a hard case.
 
Shadow dosent appear in fire and ice, so.
 
The main theme of boom shadow is pretty much just a massive inferiority complex around sonic, and a whole bunch of insults towards his friends.
 
Again, shadow has 0 canon friends in boom, and is seemingly annoyed by just about everyone, but it’s also not out of the question that he’d end up sucked into the friend group should he ease up on his temper.
 
For all his talk of being weak for having friends, its my guess that he dosent want to be seen as weak, given how quick he was to fight sonic for such minor (and fake) insults against him. He has no friends and distances himself because he wants to be “strong”.
Boom!shadow is certainly not the same as sa2 shadow, and I think if they met, sa2 would be, very embarrassed to say the least.
 
I could talk about shadows character all day but this has been long enough so uhh, yeah :)
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again but better thoughts while reading
@polandbananas20
 so my spelling is terrible in this but you know i was more focused on the book than how to spell. 
Chapter 1) good intro and good starting tone. The lady next to her sucks. Good small establishment of shane.
chapter2)shane characterisation is still consistent. I like her two new roommates (will be best friends) . My guess is the boy in the kitchen will be pilot. Family means but not intentional. Has no confidence. I was right about the boy
Chapter 3) intro of pilot properly. He's good. I love the inner monologue of shane. Trying to keep eye contact, the surprise of having a normal conversation. It sets her character well. Intro to her blog which i would love to actually read (i hope there's at least one entry we can read) pilot is a musician but not. Business major. What crap. 
Chapter 4) i really feel like shane, she is just typical fangirl/ dork and i love it. Its weird being english and reading about the things that shock them like pasta in bags.i understand the watermelon.we do get to read ‘shanes writing’ but its her personal jornal not her blog.
Chapter 5) fun chapter. Intro to rome. Love the idea that shane is heavy handed and violent. Short, not alot happened other than small character establishment.
Chapter 6)intro to creative writing class which i want/need in my life.more beatles. Woman on plane works at starbucks, will she make more appearances? 
Chapter 7) the drama???or at least wht will be the drama. Pilot has a gf, called amy (wish it was me) (wait no, bc i know that plot doesnt actually like amy anymore bc he obviously likes shane. So i take it back. I want to be shane, i mean i basically am like her but oh well.)
Chapter 8) parents. Overprotective, think they know best. Urgh. guarantee one of shanes new friends fight back to her parents to support her life choices, that do not include doctor.
Chapter 9)gets an internship at travel mag company. Thats it…..
Chapter 10)rome. Looses purse. Pilot to the anxiety riddled rescue by telling his own life story about his wallet to help calm her nerves.distracts her. Basially he would do anything for shane already.re count of rome trip from her jornal again which is a good touch to further the plot. This is making me want to read dan brown (ish) all of two books i own of him
Chapter 11) the postcards are a nice touch that i hope someone reads???? Travel buddies..just saying.chad..hmmm,im like shane,well see if he is good enough for babe. Her GODDAM stupdi mean cousins being mean on her facebook, and babe seeing (best friend moment) about pilot and the whole teasing about having a boyfriend.
Chapter 12) he didnt see (but i think he did but istn sayin anything) paris i shappening. Babe is bff confirmed and i want her as my friend 
Chapter 13)angry birds addiction starts. Level three, weak, shoulder touching it romance confirmed.awwww pilot 100% waited to sleep so he could see shane safe in bed
Chapter 14) pilot with a french accent, enough  said. The flirtinggggg.  The plane woman  is back??in paris with them????
Chapter 15)pilots choices of the back in time thing are both wit shane. Its so obvious and i love it. Pilot as a fake fangirl about the eiffel tower. More flirting,kind of. Oh god chad no.he did it. Goddammit.nooo he wull run babe and shanes friendship and maybe her and pilot. ‘Assbucket’ indeed. Her an pilot are fine and i really believe her and babe will be because when she nearly gets robbed babe giver her a sympathetic smile. Not much to go on but i have hope.
Chapter 16)okay so, fav chapter, she finally spills her guts that she has anxiety basically, that she is premed with strict parents and this is scary whilst pilots lies in bed with her to relax her bc he heard her crying. He only ecoureges her slightly before going back to his bed and sleeping. My heart, i swear, soon the roles reverse and pilot will say why he is in london and all that.
Chapter 17)babe and shane bffs confired. Chad is the worst confirmed. Of course it wasnt  break up call. Of course she wants to vist. Of course pilot is to cowardly to break up and just accepts them going to paris together. Of freaking course.
Chapter 18) do not get over pilot, it wont work. Rugby guy nooooo!im team pilot how dare you kiss shane! Wow, city of glass mention. I want to make a list of every bookmentioned.
Chapter 19) pilot is not himself (obviouls) shane is worried. She is still lying to her parents an feeling bad about. Rugby guy is thankfully a no go. Pilot finds out about the kiss and guy and is clearly silently jealous. 
Chapter 20)aww shane! Im sorry pilot sucks currently. And a stupid guys trip with flat four. No. and devil chairs. 
Chapter 21)1)love the book talk.  The loneliness is kicking in, pilot man up for gods sake
Chapter 22)this red-head plain weirdo is back and going through her list like some sort of mentore. Omg!!! No. amy is here, i dont hatte her but can she not. Also, her dad…. No! (this is the stand up moment i was on about, i hope)
Chapter 23) i do not like her dad. At all. Nooo shane...no. they found out. And acted like assholes.
Chapter 24) n1!ahhhh no! Amy has her notebook. The end is nigh.im going to cry i feel like shane. 
Chapter 25) the family dinner-family outing. Niether of them manuped and shane is depressed
Chapter 26)back in america. Still hasn’t told pilot but you know it is a slow burn
Chapter 27) I, wait? Marry, some guy? Like no. I know it’s been what six years but no. I refuse.i don’t like this so called Melvin. It’s okay she doesn’t want to marry him. She goes to see pilot and finally mans up and tells him and asks if she made it and and pilot finally man’s up and tells her no she didn’t. They get stuck in an elevator
Chapter 28) the elevators doing something. Shane wants to re do London cuz she hates life
Chapter 1?) they are both back in London? Both having the same what ever is happening? 
  Chapter 2) omg. Plane lady took them back to staRt over and pilots mad about it (obv)
Chapter 3)so… they got mad but started over and I’m excited. 100%they won’t press the restart button. I’m calling it now. Cuz pilot knows he now has a chance to do the what if’s/
Chapter 4) they keep there distance but we all know it won’t last
Chapter 5) tipsy Shane? Shawarma
Chapter 6) babe thinksthere is something going on with them( again)
Chapter7)the story about fake pilot, and the kiss. Ahhhhhhg
Chapter 8)they found the button. Shane doesn’t want to go back. I do t want them to go back. They don’t go back thank god
Chapter 9) da Vinci code flirting somehow.. Shane tells him it won’t happen u less he breaks up with last Amy.
 Chapter 10) he will break up with Amy and laris is gonna happen. 
Chapter 11) so Shane is happy again, pilot broke up with amy. Shane tried to make peace with the devil chair.
Chapter 11) they are so adorable. Aswwwwewhwhehruysnwjw
 Chapter 12) Uwuwnfhueia we get more Shane and pilot flirting, 
Chapter 13) the opposite game is adorable. I like that they get to be themselves together without the awkwardness. The start of the move game. Thats my fav. 
Chapter 14) they still have the angry birds obssesion but unlike me and supercard they know when to stop.the dance ‘move’ ahh i love. The line ‘but you do.’ just shows how much they know each other and how pilot would do anything to make her smile. And the lost move (not really a move but totally a move.) once again proves their love. Also we had that plot moment where he talks about why h chose to go to london. I adore shanes rant (?) about the things she loves. And then pilot doing the same thing. Shane vs chair is my life, like i battle chairs too. 
Chapter 15) what is tfios? Ooohhh. Fault in our stars. (i googled it)i probably shouldve known by the whole always part. The dance move came back to bite pilot in the ass and now they are dancing together. Ew chad. Yes shane! That is what chad deserves. 
Chapter 16) they get intimate and gigly and happy and aaaawwwhww
Chapter 17) im glad shane still rememebers to be friends with babe and not forget her in her lovestick state currently.
Chapter 18) her postcard….the questions that haunt her so much. Sort of accepting them herself too. She finally got to do wrecking ball, they miss internship , oh no…. Start if a downall?? 
Chapter 19) shane and pilot have fallen HARD
Chapter 20) the article is off the table. Amy is there. What the hell. No. omg pilot no, you moron. THEY BROKE UP!!! Which is fair, a break is needed. They both get back on track and then try and find a balance. Hopefully. Oh her laptop….shit...the feels when all your work is just gone. Tries to reset bc she is so depressed bc she thinks she failed again. 
Chapter 21) she cant go back (thankfully) a bookstore is always a good haven to go to when your breaking down.
Chapter 22)the redemtion (?) time to try and fix everything and get back on track.the determination and the readiness to try and make everything better for herswelf, herself, and no one else is good. She makes friends with the people in her office and works harder than befire, try to get herself out of her comfort zone and experience things
Chapter 23) the confrontation with her parents. Oh god. I hope this goes well. Its going as well as it can go. Im happy shane is sticking up for her dream so she can be happy, uugh the whole dad speech of ‘i do everything for you, i know best because im older,’ i hate it. Ooohh she is making up with leo, talking ot him this time. Im happy. Leo is gay. Cool. i hate how he got broken up with becuase of his stupid family, it sucks. ‘There is no normal.’ perfect words. 
Chapter 24) her thing is in the thing!!!( also good job me with words.) her article got published (there we go)this is where she learns she can be with pilot and be successful because tracy is with a famous author and they make it work with harder schedules. Trys to talk to her parents. This time she will make there relationship work.
Chapter 25)urgh ‘you live under my roof,on my dime…’ blah blah blah. We hate controlling parents that dont see that overprotecting and controlling their childs life does more damage than good. Babe suggest self discovery trip. Babe is a grat friends. 
Chapter 26)the button thing will work…’im mad at pilot. Or am i mad at me.’ she cracked the code. She loathed herself because of her fear of failing, but because this time she worked on herself to make herself happy she no longer hates herself. Yet she still feels the same (ish) feeling that even though she worked harder and got further that she has no summer job when she gets back to the states, her parents still wont allow her choice of work.PILOTS BACK!!!!!!! She was about to press the button and he swooped in with his music.
Chapter 27) he still follows her blog and got help from babe. His speech, finished with lamppost. Where can i get a pilot?he uploaded their song. Working through the divorce thing again but it will be better because he has shane to talk to about it. Ahhh she got a job!!! Happy ending!!! My heart!!!eeeee…
epilogoue) she becomes a successful author. Her parents have accepted her and support her. Pilots a musician. He takes her to the weird plane lady and they gobe the locket back, then he makes the ultimate move. With pictures of where they fell in love he uses the beatles russain doll things to hide a ring and when she finds it she obviously says yes. And that its unfair cuz she cant top that move. 
sooo...thats it.
i really enjoyed this book. i cannot wait for her next book. this post is longwinded i apologize but oh well? again i will link my website and review as soon as its done. so far in about five hours all i have is a paragraph so it may not be as soon as i want it to be
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Scorpion Season 2
Here we go season 2 and my personal favourite season.....
2.01 - there has been a break between episodes supposedly over the summer whilst Walter recuperate, Paige tries to improve the office, Cabe is working on a film, Sly tried to evolve, Tony was outdoors and Happy developed a paint gun
The question is have Happy and Toby been spending their time together they walk into the garage together??
No fratanisation at work...... but that doesn't mean out of work? Happy's look to Toby makes me think they see each other a lot out of work
Notice how each time they say no fratanisation 'at work' is always added
I love the way Toby's tone of voice changes when he is taling just to Happy or caring for her
Last scene they are off to Kavalskis together
Favourite quote- 'what do you see' 'a rare and delightful fungus' - this is a very Happy type compliment definitely there are still feelings there but she is still torn between wanting to move on with him and wanting to remain friends
Favourite scene- Toby taking care of Happy and her eye, his hand casually placed on her leg she once hated any form of contact now she didnt even flinch
2 02 - poor Toby obviously feeling the frustrations of being sidelined by Happy so he directs is attention onto poor Sly
The look Toby gives Happy when she said Orphanages suck a look of pure luck and he could help heal her wounds
First time Toby uses the nickname 'Hap' also the only person who calls her this
I love Dr Toby seeing him use his skills either medically or behavioral is when his character shines
Favourite quote- it's like jumping off a really high diving board going 100 miles an hour, exposure therapy
Favourite scene- not my favourite scene but definitely the cheesest was paige coming out the sea slow motion and Walter's face pure cheese
2.03 - this episode doesn't have much Quintis in it but I love Sly having an episode revolving around him he overcomes some fears and opens up to Megan
Ray is a very funny character 'the right way, the wrong way and the Ray way'
Poor Toby overhearing Happy's conversation thinking she is moving on meeting someone at a club he looks so hurt and Happy looks regretful that Toby overhead
How does Toby know Happy doesn't like to dance? Maybe suggested they go dancing together?? Happy's face when Toby actual fights back a bit at her half impressed half annoyed
Chet turning up at the end broke Toby's heart he needed to release some tension. Happy wanted him out of the garage so the team wouldn't know what they meet at the club to do
Favourite quote- Slyvester you and I are about to have a very uncomfortable conversation
Favourite scene- Toby talking g to Sly over the comms picking a fight in the jail yard
2.04 - Happy coming in with Chet either Happy is clueless on what effect this has on Toby or she is trying to make him jealous either way Happy is doing wrong this time
Starting to get some humour from Happy..... I wonder why!
I feel this is one of the first turning point episodes for Happy starting to acknowledge she doesn't need to be alone and there are people especially Toby who will stick with her and support her
Toby is so worried about Happy during this episode he even admits his love to her dad - good advice from him to let her come to him
Happy wants the list to go to Toby none of the others a subconscious decision that proves she relies on Toby
Happy acknowledges she is in denial!
The look she gives Toby over her dads shoulder what do you think she is thinking?
Favourite scene- Toby giving Happy the dolls house, he just wants to spend time with her even if friends
Favourite quote- I am surrounded by Robots!
2.05 - such a fun episode off set with the seriousness of Sly and Megan
Toby looks hot boxing 🔥🔥
Toby giving Happy a gift then saying there just friends - someone is in denial
Toby only worrying about Happy being in danger how does she not pick up on this?
Plus the minute she says she's stuck Toby is out the van to rescue her
Notice how they play dumb about knowing anything about Superfun guy yet in season 1 when Sly was in hospital they all sat and read the comics!
Toby saying no to hanging out with Happy must have been so hard for him but he obviously is feeling too much hurt not being with her but did she overhear him saying he was done with her, she wasn't far away, how would she have felt?
Question is the orange van the same as in the Cuba episode and the episode with Mya Hernandez??
Happy looks so impressed with Toby when he punches the guy, think she likes that he can be tough when needed
Favourite quote- with great responsibility comes great wedgie or dear diary it finally happened
Favourite scene- seeing the team dressed up nice to see the comedy side of the show
2.06 - part 1 of a double episode a really good episode showing Walter being taken advantage of and the guys all in danager
Toby trying the show his independence from Happy but taking it too far they work better together.
Toby looking fine in a suit!
Favourite quote- I kicked that habit cold Turkey, I need Happy like i need necrotizing fasciitis
Favourite scene- Happy creating a speaker and using it to put out a fire great mechanical engineering
2.07 Part 2 - Happy put her life in danger for the greater good in the sub but when Toby was in danger in the server room nothing else mattered but rescuing him
Toby will never know how much she fought to get him out
The look of pure fear and worry about Toby dying was excellent acting and showed such emotion and perhaps made her reevaluate her relationship with Toby
Happy was quite hostile towards Toby when he thanked her why was that? I think it was a defense mechanism he shield going up because she was scared to loose him
Favourite quote- with the clarity of one just risen from the dead, you're being a grade A tool
Except you cant unring a bell - Toby knows he cant easily get over his feekings
Favourite scene- Happy trying to get Toby out of the server room this first real sign that she really does have deep feelings for Toby
2.08 - Toby in the boxing ring he is trying to toughen up the ond thing Happy is known for iz being tough
Happy at the comedy club trying to be funny the one thing Toby is known for
I think there interests are a way to become closer to each other and understand each other
Mighty love oak - Toby finally realised if anything is going to happen he needs Happy to make the first move he has been as open as he can she needs to make the decision herself to get into a relationship with him
Favourite scene- Happy at the comedy club Slys reactions were so much funnier then the joles
favourite quote- this is nuttier then squirrel poop
Yes I know I drive crazy, just give me the keys
Suicidal genius says what now
2.09 - very sad to see the decline in Megan and what Sly is dealing with. How Walter deals with it is unfair to them both and quite selfish although I appreciate everyone handles these situations differently
Happy and Toby support Toby the only way they know bh giving him money.
Happy and Toby seem in sync in this episode just good friends with a deep connection
Toby is focusing his energy in predicting the future possibly to keep him distracted from Happy
In previous episode Toby has been seen with smart phones why all of a sudden is his phone old??
Favourite quote- dental hygiene is beautiful
Favourite scene- no real favourite scene but I do enjoy this episode the team hring scared of the unknown is hilarious
2.10 first time I watched this episode I was hooked and confused and loved the twist of Scorpion playing on Cromwell
Happy and Toby stood next to each other again mimicking each others postures
Walter finally accepting Megan's condition and her relationship with Sly is a heart warming moment and one of the few moments I like Walter
Favourite quote- are we heading to England for a spot of tea
Favourite scene- the team relaying how they duped Cromwell
2 11 - a really sad but beautiful episode with a touch of humour at the right times
Toby shines in this episode with his medical ability
Toby's face when Happy collapses and the lady is in labour his heart wants him to ho to Happy but he knows he must deliver a baby.
I would like to know what Happy thinks when she wakes and sees Toby?
Such a heart breaking scene 💔
Notice how Toby instinctively stays by Happy in the garage providing emotional support
Happy doesn't deal well with the situation so excuses herself to make the drinks
Favourite quote- i have super powers, I am bacteria man
Am I seriously the only doctor in the house
Favourite scene- the end scene with Megan's video and the team gathering to hear Walter's story a beautiful end to a touching storyline
2.12 - really liked this episode finally Happy giving into her feelings for Toby plus seeing them all dealing with their own issues from college gave some of the funniest moments of the season
Seeing cabe trying to talk wrestling was hilarious
She also admitted Toby was cute!
What Mavis said to Happy got her thinking she needs to let her shield down if she wants a Toby/ a family
Meeting Quincy Berkstead I don't think Toby's issue is him stealing Amy away it's a reminder of what a bad place he was back then and that Quincy was a better person than he seemed to be. Quincy said some things which hit close to home. Let's remember Toby is a doctor Quincy is just a psychologist!
Favourite quote- you were cute, what happened
Favourite scene- Happy and Toby dancing this showed real feelings from Happy she wanted to.do something nice for him when he obviously felt so down. I imagine that they all heard what Quincy said to Toby she she knows how it would of effected him
2.13 - quite possibly my favourite episode of the season maybe all 4 seasons
Happy seems uncharacteristically happy at the beginning embracing Christmas or looking forward to a possible future with Toby
Walter talking to himself, Megan's ashes in his car - Toby has his work cut out for him this episode
Sly talking about his love for Megan and not wasting time really gave Happy something to think about
Grandma got ran over by a reindeer! Supposedly some or all of this wasnt scripted just shows how amazing the actors are
The pure panic from Toby when Happy gets pulled under water shows his love and then change in his voice when talking to her is a beautiful moment
Favourite quote- at least we got a doctor in the house, who has 2 thumbs and rocked his GI rotation
'Quality kiss doc, good work' ' now that was a Christmas miracle
Favourite scene- the kiss! Need I say more you can even hear Happy hum during the kiss perfect chemistry
Toby waited so patiently and it paid off Happy came to him and initiated the next step
2.14 - perfect Quintis episode
Toby full of new year spirit wonder why??
Happy is also uncharacteristically Happy perhaps thet both had a good new year together.......
Happy trying to change be more positive maybe to help in a relationship with Toby, so much to surmise in this episode
The look happy gives Toby when he asks to make out is not a never gonna happen but a not now later look
Notice how when Happy is separated she repeatedly calls for Toby. Instinctively that's who she knows will rescue her
Toby is never seen as the brave one but when happy is in danger he is willing to risk his life
Near death has changed the dynamic between them. Happys dad points out she needs to find her Happy- then looks longingly at Toby
Question what everyone wants to know is what happens in the tent!
Favourite quote- who are you and what have you done with unhappy quinn
Favourite scene- Toby admitting he never thought he could die being so lucky with Happy in his arms
Such an honest and emotional scene excellent acting by #EddieKayeThomas
2.15 - poor Toby not feeling well love the thought of happy quickly scribbling down instructions for Ralph on how to look after Toby. Starting to show her feelings more openly
Paige and Walter singing was actually really good
Favourite quote- this is what I get for trying to help Walter date, influenza
Favourite scene- truth is I'm falling for the guy - finally Happy admits it then if only to Ralph - I do think Toby here her and probably calls her out on it later
2.16 - poor Walter trying to do something normal and it all goes to pot!
Toby and Happy going to Kavalskis under the pretense of taking the dish back..... sounds like a date to me that they dont want the others to know about, one of many over the course if the last few episodes I think
Favourite quote- that was a compliment knucklehead lob a little ear candy at her
You got sent to the senior section of speed dating and now your trying to Benjimen your Button
Holy ball boomerang Mericks back
I might only be a psychiatrist but they taught me at med school blowing people up is bad
Toby is on fire in this episode with his one liners - I wonder if all these jokes and sarcasm is because he is finally happy with Happy
Favourite scene- no favourite scene in this not much Quintis action but Toby was in fire in this episode great behaviourist skills and jokes
2 17 - love seeing the dynamic between Walter and Toby in this episode, seeing them in therapy is funny
Toby is definitely the more antagonist one is this episode he says its because he is happy with Happy I think he hates keeping secrets from his best friend and so he is distancing himself
Happy starting to side with Toby shows character growth
On a separate note I love Sly and Ralph's relationship in this episode they are a great duo
Favourite quote- hands at 10 and 2, check, seatbelt on, check, eyes firmly on the ramp in front of you, check, dont tell your mother, check
Favourite scene- the end scene Happy and Toby together at Toby's home confirmation the are together how long has this been going on is the question we all want to know
2.18 - Quintis is announced!
Walter being so upset is a bit strange surly he should be happy for his friends- maybe he's jealous he doesn't have what they have or maybe he is hiding something else........
Comparing to quintis to brangelina maybe not such a good comparison
Walter punishing Toby by making him stay behind is petty and not the first time he has tried
Toby is obviously very excited about his new relationship but suffocating Happy slightly
Walter giving them the ultimatum is uncalled for and Toby is not happy with him
First time we discover Happy's fear of blood, seeing Happy slightly off kilter and Toby supporting her is nice to see
Happy looks do happy when Toby says he is proud of her
Toby using his tone of voice he only uses with Happy, this is his caring soft voice
Oh Toby tracking Happys phone not a good idea I get why he did it and I think she does but not a wise move without talking it over first! I like how they experience normal bumps in the road in their relationship
Happy standing up to Walter was a big step and an important moment in showing she is all in and she looks so Happy when Walter says its ok
Favourite quote- for a million reasons the answer to that question is yes but believing in you the most incredible person I've ever know, no that does not make me crazy. You hear my voice now you hear how calm it is......
Favourite scene- Toby talking Happy through medical procedure
2.19 - Gambling addiction is a very sensitive topic which needs to be dealt with correctly
It is always alluded to Toby being addicted we are lead to believe over the past few years largely thanks to Happy it has gotten better but is obviously an issue for Happy
I dont buy that he gambles more cause he is happy but I'm no addication specialist
I think this shows real growth with Happy 1 year ago she would of just called it quits but now she raises her concerns which are genuine due to her childhood and Toby agrees to give up gambling for her - now that is true love
I feel Toby needed to hear this from Happy he had cut back a lot but the risk of losing Happy is too high and he knows he needs to stop
I think they really played into the gambling references this episode when usually it gets one or 2 mentions if that!
Favourite quote- 'that Pantera is the sexiest thing I've ever seen' 'second sexist'
Favourite scene- the end scene with Toby and Happy, Jadyn gives probably the best performance of the series so far so much emotion
2.20 - playful team is nice to see makes a pleasant change!
Toby shows his medical and behavioral knowledge off well In this episode
I really like that happy is comfortable in her relationship with Toby to show affection ftomt of the team by falling asleep and hugging her
Favourite quote- that guy doesn't respect the game
Well you make friends wherever we go
I know I'm the oh one wearing a hat, hold on to your hats I'm gonna profile the crap out of this guy
Favourite scene- the team waiting to see how Olivia gets on following her surgery
2.21 - so we meet interloper Tim, going to he controversial now but I quite like him.as a character!
Toby doing dares as a way dealing with giving up gambling - Happy should be supporting him not belittling him after all he gave it up for her
Toby compliments Happy and gets told off for doing it st work 1. He is allowed to shower her love and compliments at home 2. She turns her face and smiles secretly likes the compliment
Toby marking his territory with Happy when Tim talks to her its shows his jealous side
Happy chastise Toby for truth or dare he says he still needs to adrenaline rush so she kissee him and compares the adrenaline from the kiss to the gambling adrenaline. This shows how she must feel when she kisses him and is encouraging him to lean on her when he feels the need for the rush
I've also noticed that most kisses on screen she goes to him he also doesn't speak after the kiss until she does - shows he is learning from their first kiss
Favourite quote- 'just dance monkey', 'a 20 year old just called you monkey is life working out how you planned'
Favourite scene- happy kissing Toby on the piano
2.22 - this is a good episode considering it lacks in quintis moments - something which highlights the difficulties in gaining closure with missing military personnel
Oh no Toby lost his hat, I hope this isnt the one Happy bought him hopefully he keeps that safe at home!
Toby asking Happy if something were to happen to him would she move on, Happy saying no she wouldn't just shows her love for him.
Also theoretical marriage proposal and Toby asking Happy to think about it..... could a ring be on the cards although Happy's face is not convinced scares or hiding something
Favourite quote- dont use humour on a date because your not funny
Me and the hat are a package deal
Favourite scene- Toby asking Happy if he was missing would she move on
2.23 - not many quintis moments in this episode I start to look for the small moments in the background the looks std justices telling as the big scenes
Happy and Paige both outting Toby in his place when he makes a joke is funny
Funny how this time Happy doesn't have an issue with Toby crawling behind her in the tunnel
Toby has his arm around Happys shoulders swoon...
Happy puts her arm around Toby when they celebrate its these small things which show the couples development
Walter may diss Toby's skills but he does value and listen to them
Favourite quote- she is very much EQ for my IQ
Crazy man says what now
Favourite scene- Toby and Happy talking at the table playing cards - do I sense a proposal on it's way...... too soon surly they have only been together a few months???
2 24 - Toby Toby Toby winding up mark collins may prove to be a big mistake
Happy actually taking Toby's feelings into account doing a guessing game when Toby isn't around
Happy's jealous face when Toby said a show girl made him a man so sweet
Favourite quote- medically speaking hes nuttier then peanut brittle
I will always give you what you need whether it be emotional, spiritual or romantic so here it is sugar plum
Oh no Toby is in trouble what's going on......
Favourite scene- happy talking to Walter about Paige. This just shows the growth in her character willingly having a this conversation also picking up behavioural tips from Toby
2.25 - there is so much about this episode to write about from the kidnapping to the marriage proposal to the rejection.........
Happy comes in thinking the worst of Toby is he gambling lovd the fact she references the fact they text and meet outside of work - obviously they do but it's never referenced
The minute she hears Collins escapes she knows Toby is in danger and is worried
What is Sly hiding Happy knows he is and isn't Happy that Sly wont say anything
Seeing how worried Happy is, is a refreshing change from her normal closed off self. Her love for Toby really shows through in the episode
You can see Happy's frustrations Sly keeping a secret and Walter not giving up his researched
Happy's face when she thinks Toby is being electrocuted, she looks in pain telling Collins to stop the fear in her voice must be reassuring for Toby to know how much she loves him
Happy face when Collins outs the proposal, she blames herself for Toby getting snatched whilst picking up the phone, is there another feeling there aswell???
When Toby talks to Happy there is so much emotion in his voice saying goodbye, he uses that soft tone he saves just for Happy
Happy risking her life to save Toby shows her commitment to him
The first time I heard the proposal song I thought it was so cheesy but the more I watched the episode the more I realise it was perfectly Toby
Happy face when Toby is singing and proposing is the first sign of any guilt we have seen from her. She is obviously distraught that she has to say no and admit she is married to someone else. Utter heartbreaking scenes acted out superbly
Happy actually had tears in her eyes she must of been so devastated to have to had said no
Toby has never lost his ability to smile or joke but he looks completely heartbroken not only to have had his proposal turned down but to also find out the lovd of his life is already married. So much so he doesn't want to talk to anyone just hit the bottle.
Anyone notice how guilty Walter looks??
Favourite quote- hey is that hat wearing dipstick here
Its Toby Curtis, Doctor, Harvard trained. Were the smartest people in the world why is it so difficult to locate a 168lb wise ass
Favourite scene- there is no favourite scene I love this whole episode even Tody drowning his sorrows in tequila
Season overview - Sly has dealt with alot this season falling in love and then losing Megan he is now trying to look forward still keeping his love for Superfun Guy
Walter has had a few good moments this season mostly with Megan and he seems to deal well with kids. He is still obnoxious and struggles to communicate with people and says the wrong thing
I don't like the say Paige is going she is losing the qualities she was known for at the beginning kindness, compassion. I do like her relationship with Tim
Quintis- the start of the season started with them trying to get back to being friends and they had a few moments early on and then Happy merry Chet which made Toby jealous and he eventually realised that he needed to wait for Happy to come to him. A string of events finally broke down Happy's walls starting with her thinking Toby was going to die then Megan passed away, she met Mavis who encouraged her to lower her shield. Sly then told her to life in the moment and she finally kissed Toby from then things moved quickly secretly at first then in public before Toby gets kidnapped, proposes to Happy, gets rejected and finds out she's already married.
Questions are who is Happy married too?
Why didnt she tell Toby before? I think because she didnt want to ruin what they have and was scared to tell him and the more time passed the harder it got
How is Toby going to deal with this news?
Season 3 will certainly be interesting.......
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cptnsantiago · 4 years
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take me home
5/?
~ new years
read on ao3
“What the fuck is Jake Peralta doing in our house?”
Amy had dragged her two oldest brothers into the kitchen, her thoughts moving a million miles a second. Whichever of her brothers invited her ex-boyfriend to their family New Year party was going to pay. She reminded her brothers that her new boyfriend was coming, to warn them not to embarrass her - they somehow exceeded that far beyond her expectations. 
“He was telling me on the phone that his mom was going on a cruise and he was going to be all alone, Amy.” Her oldest brother Luis breaks free from her grasp, leaning on the bench behind him. “Come on, you see Jake at work every day you can’t be that mad at me.”
"I am mad!" Amy hisses, being at work and being at their parents’ house was different. "My ex boyfriend AND my current boyfriend are in that room with OUR parents!"
"Okay, but how we hang out with him and you focus on Teddy!" Tony offers, "I promise this will be the best New Years of your life! There's no need to start braiding your hair!" 
"This better not bite me in the ass." Amy growls again, shooing them out of the kitchen to give herself a moment to breathe.
"Better not bite me in the ass title of your sex tape..." Amy lets out a breathy laugh at her ex-boyfriends joke. "I'm sorry if them inviting me upset you.”
Jake walks closer to her, and she thinks this might be the closest they’ve been since they broke up almost a year ago. “No it’s fine, you don’t want to be alone on New Years - it sucks.”
Amy remembers infinite other New Years she spent alone; with her family but then leaving soon after midnight and going to bed alone. The memory of the previous countdown to midnight struggles to stay in the back of her mind. Jake laughing and joking with her brothers, making a good impression with her parents and most importantly he spent the night showering Amy with love. They left early that night, but Amy wasn’t alone. 
“I was told that you approved of me coming.” Jake shifts awkwardly on his feet, “I honestly wouldn’t have come if i knew Tod wasn’t coming or if you didn’t want me here or whatever.”
“It’s Teddy…” Amy corrects softly. 
“Maybe I shouldn’t be here.” Jake looks like the embodiment of discomfort, so much that he struggles to maintain eye contact. “I’m sorry, Amy.”
He begins to turn away from her, but a moment later her brain clicks into gear and she’s holding him by the wrist. “Stay. I don’t want you to be alone.”
Jake stares down at her hand, the energy in the room changing rapidly to an intensity she remembers from what feels like a millenia ago. His jaw begins to clench when he finally looks up at her, and her chest only tightens. 
“Hey Amyyyy!” Her obviously drunk younger brother is yelling from the other room, “Can you bring me the mayonnaise? I need change Teddy’s universe!”
Amy drops her hand from his wrist, rushing to the cupboard to get what her brother needed. “You can leave if you want, but I would like it a lot more if you stayed.”
~
Jake does stay. He stays out of Amy and Teddy’s way, that’s what he does. Luis and Tony, his favourite of Amy’s brothers, feed him beer after beer. Even though they’d both told Jake repeatedly that he should be with Amy, they do their best to distract him from how happy she looks with Teddy. 
He remembers to clearly, no matter how drunk he is, when Amy first told him about Teddy. Kylie had introduced them at trivia night and they apparently hit it off. One date turned into four, then they updated their dumb Facebook status and they were together. Jake tried to hide his bitterness, but when he was alone and he wouldn’t be able to sleep for the third consecutive hour, he couldn’t help but scroll to months earlier when they had posted about their relationship. 
Charles Boyle: IT FINALLY HAPPENED!!!!!! I TOLD YOU DIDNT I?????
Terry Jeffords: Happy for you both!
Gina Linetti: Yay no more nerd tension just cutesy nerd crap. Also Rosa says dope. 
Karen Peralta: I always thought you liked her! I’m very happy to see you two together x
Where it all went wrong is something Jake struggles to define. Maybe it was his inability to have an emotional conversation without saying noice or smort. Jake couldn’t blame her; he was a mess and she was Amy.
The alcohol in his system made it easier to bear when the clock strikes midnight and everyone is cheering HAPPY NEW YEAR, especially when he sees Teddy kiss Amy. They decided together that it was a good idea to break up, he can’t be upset that she moved on. Jake doesn’t expect what comes next; Teddy gathering her entire family around him and Amy, before slowly sinking to one knee. 
Jake feels light headed watching it unfold, and the jealousy goes from a light simmer to boiling violently inside of him. He was not at his ex-girlfriends parents’ house watching her new boyfriend propose to him as in the first minutes of the New Year. 
“Amy, I love you so much.” Teddy pulls out the ring from his pocket, taking a deep breath before he continues. “I know we’ve only been together for seven months but I’ve never been happier than I am when I’m with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I know we haven’t talked about this but I was wondering… Will you marry me?”
Amy is frozen in place; the moment Teddy had pulled out the ring he had been watching her and the shock plastered on her face was solid. His heart shatters into a million pieces once she finally lifts her head to meet his gaze. Now he can see the tears swimming in her eyes, the light of the campfire making it all the more obvious. 
What was she thinking?
“No.” Amy breathes out, ripping her gaze from Jake and looking at Teddy’s falling face. “I- Teddy, I’m sorry… I-I can’t.”
~
“Do you want to get married one day?” Amy’s question is sudden, and certainly not what Jake expects when they’re hanging out on the couch eating Chinese. 
“Ames, are you proposing?” Jake does his usual deflecting, trying to rid himself of emotional talk with humour. “Usually a girl would get down on one knee to do this.”
“No, dumbass.” Amy rolls her eyes, hiding a smile. “I’m not trying to pressure you or anything. I was just wondering if you’ve ever thought of it.”
“Uh, yeah, I guess.” Jake shrugs, his heart beating out of his chest as he looks directly at her, “I want to get married one day.”
~
Amy sprints back into the house as soon as she gets the words out. What the hell was Teddy thinking?
Proposing to her. In front of her whole family. On New Years. After seven months of dating. The worst part was her ex-boyfriend standing behind her brothers, looking devastated like nothing else could go right in the world. 
She manages to get into her bedroom without fainting from the lack of air in her lungs. What a start to the year. Her head buried in her pillow, she can’t get Jake’s face out of her head. Why did they break up? The feelings she had for him had remained buried since she met Teddy and her relationship with Teddy was fine. 
Amy knew Jake’s feelings were just as strong, hence his unabashed heartbreak and she’s never been more confused about anything. Did they make a mistake? Wasting the last eight months being just colleagues? 
She expects that maybe her dad, or one of her older brothers, would come to talk her out of her spiral. Teddy was even possible. But when Jake walks through the door, she couldn’t be more relieved. Despite their entire relationship and fall out of said relationship; they were still partners, still each others confidants. 
“Hi.” Amy wipes her nose with the back of her hand, her eyes wandering around the room before landing on him again.
“Do you wanna talk about it or do you need some classic Jake Peralta defecting humour?” Jake sits next to her laid out form, watching as she giggles weakly and sits up.
Amy struggles to find the words to explain her precise feelings on the matter, but with another deep breath and a groan, she rests her head on Jake’s shoulder. “What the fuck is 2020 so far?”
“Welcome to the 20’s, darlin’.” Jake imitates, and it makes Amy genuinely cackle. “A new decade, huh?”
“I don’t think I love Teddy.” Amy blurts out, “Not as much-”
She shakes her head, and Jake seems even more attentive. “Ames…”
“What are we doing?” Amy huffs, “What were we thinking when we broke up? I loved you and I know you maybe loved me but we just fucked up. Tonight is making it more clear, ugh, you know this is the first time we’ve been together without the squad being there to buffer?”
“I know…” Jake is looking at his hands now, “I did love you. I’m sorry I could never share my emotions good.”
“I’m sorry too.”
“What are you gonna say to Teddy?” Jake asks gently.
“I can’t marry him - can’t be with him - not when…” Amy slides her hand over his twisted hands, “Not when I still love you.”
“We’re dumb.” Jake snorts, “We really- I love you too.”
Amy moves her hand to his jaw, turning his face so she can kiss him for the first time in eight months. They were in a decade but if felt like the past months hadn’t happened and they never broke up. Teddy wasn’t downstairs waiting for her to come down with her reasoning for rejecting him - for which she had a large list she had begun writing a few days earlier, starting with his uninteresting personality. 
Jake’s fingers were tangled in her hair as he tried to deepen the kiss, but Amy turns her head so that he’s kissing her jaw. “Say it again.”
His smile grows as he leans back enough that their foreheads touch, “I love you.”
“Wanna hear my 2020 resolution?” Jake nods, and her heart explodes with warmth at the look he had been holding back since they broke up. “It’s to not fuck this up again.”
“Oh my god, samesies.” Jake replies dramatically, and Amy can’t hold back the barking laughter.
“Okay, and 2020 is also the time to get rid of the word samesies.”
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friends I went to see bts w last yr made plans to go see them and got tix without including me & are posting their conversations online and it kinda just irked me? they obviously know i like bts and we even had a bts gc and I think they made a new one without me... I want to go see them again & was planning to get tix today but dont wanna go alone. Should I just swallow my pride and ask why they didnt include me in the plans/amI taking this too much to heart/do I have a reason to be upset
:/ they don’t really seem like “friends” to me if they deliberately go out of their way to post their convos and leave you out of it!!! Clearly there’s some sort of miscommunication here, and judging by the fact that you have no idea what’s going on, then it’s on them. You have reason to be upset!! I don’t know if they’re Ur Friends friends or just bts friends u went with last year, so I don’t really think I can give u advice about confronting them :( But have you talked to any of them recently outside the context of bts and tickets ? They’re being super sus that’s for sure
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