#stuff like this fascinates me u know

[flxmekeepr]

& juliette nichols.    —     09     /    ??       mutuals   can   reblog.

#* the last flamekeeper / juliette. #anyways #first episode to the last #stuff like this fascinates me u know #to see the journey from beginning to end #i cannot wait to see the rest of book one on screen f u c k

[andrewknightley]

Maybe is my very particular interpretation but for me gods are very much a Concept more than people so the whole gale/mystra thing is very much a wizard falling in love with magic itself as an artist falls in love with art itself. And oh man no matter how much you love it that cant never love you back. Not like a real person. But you feel something is missing and you dont know what it is (it is real human connection and people who actually love you) so you are like. "Ah i see i could become Better At What I Am I just need to Improve." And thats your thing ! and what people said you were good at since you were a kid thats where your value is isnt it!!

#mystra telling gale to kill himself its a metaphor of thinking you have to crunch and overwork in this essay i will #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #anyways i find gale/mystra fucked up thing fascinating narrativelly in like #oh This Really Would Fuck Up Someone Big Time Wouldnt It #in a loving gale way in a “im studying what happened here” way not in a shipping way u know #like this story its so good. #so many things that in the first game were like xd gale really loves u for doing the bare minimun haha lmao lol #are like. oh boy he didnt even have the bare minimun #sometimes in his romance he says such sad stuff like “its nice to feel wanted :>” #bestie thats the bare minimun in a relationship what did mystra did to you #a friend who just started act 1 told me “gale has very low standars for a guy who fucked a god.you would think he expected more from people #makes u think..... #he is like some colleages tried to contact/visit me at first #like colleages not friends gale?? did you had some friend apart fron tara before the game???? #gale of waterdeep #mystra

[itspileofgoodthings]

Taylor returning over and over to the falling through the ice accident in the Bolter—everything to me

#like. just. the shock of it all #there’s something about Taylor where her experience of life is so ….. brutal #like I don’t know how else to say it but it just is. life is not easy on her it is always ready to CLOBBER her #and in a way she’s not easy on life. there’s some kind of magnets/opposite poles stuff where she’s just always drawn to the worst things #to feeling them and experiencing them and almost ??? creating them #like I don’t mean to overstate it. and I know she has a family who loves her (thank GOD) #and also she’s very practical and industrious about creating this very Instagram worthy life full of Fine Things and a Fun Time #and of course all the resources in the world at her disposal to create all the trappings of it #whether it’s a celebrity Fourth of July party or the eras tour #and she’ll do it and love it. but as all the best critics know and point out the most fascinating thing about Taylor is always the music #and it’s where all the weirdness and stubbornness and difficulties of her life. her a c t u a l longings her actual fears #her actual terrible awful experiences that she charges headlong down the paths of #is set free! and it’s breathtaking in the most shocking way #like falling through the ice! I always say the first thing that always hits me about a Taylor album is the bitterness #just this blast in the face. and her music is so gentle! in so many ways #and the packaging is so appealing and her voice is so soft and expressive and there is none of that weird experimentation #even musically (remember when she shut down imogen heap for putting a minor chord in clean she was like absolutely not. I’m obsessed) #(with that moment forever) #but like. so much of Taylor’s packaging and life and HER really does SEEM so basic or ordinary or just rich girl ordinary I guess #she likes basic things and wants basic things. but also she is so hungry so restless so angry so wounded the rich internal life is CHURNING #all the time. every second. and it’s spectacular to watch and also I will worry about her until the day I die #or just—-I don’t know. it’s going to be spectacular and it is sometimes going to be awful #but she will keep furiously writing her way through it!! #there IS such a woundedness to her. and it makes me love her so much because it’s packaged in such a way people think it must just be #whining or privilege. but it’s not! it’s just. the human condition and Taylor’s own flaws #okay I’ve lost the plot here a bit in my ramblings but yeah the ice metaphor. insanely perfect

[suffarustuffaru]

I don’t speak Japanese so I’d LOVE to hear more about the differences between the English and Japanese Re:Zero fandoms

yeah sure its very interesting to me now that ive noticed it more lately :o !! though ok disclaimer - i dont speak japanese either hah so if anyone is seeing this and does speak japanese + is familiar with the japanese speaking side of this fandom please add info if youd like!! and of course ill be mainly speaking from the english side of things bc im more familiar with that yes (sorry anon again im not a japanese speaker T^TT so sorry if i tread on info you already know!!). but yeah im speaking from my own experiences given the Topic at hand. ive been in this fandom since... 2019?? which is so wild to me aljsdfljsd.

anyway so - i think the big difference is mainly that the english fandom and many english speaking people that engage with rezero are. to put it bluntly, misconception runs Rampant to a very Interesting degree. to the point where it seems like the english speaking side of the fandom is More. Aggressive. than the japanese fandom. not that the japanese speaking side of the fandom is perfect - also bc what fandom is ever perfect 100% of the time, tbh - but that the louder people in the english rezero fandom are. well its a Very low bar. Very low. and from what little ive seen and heard so far, the japanese fandom tends to understand rezero and its characters better than the english fandom. which ig makes sense bc you know, rezero is japanese media, and also im sure cultural differences come into play here as well (im not familiar enough on this to speak about it in depth but the cultural differences feel Pretty Clear even though i cant 100% put my finger on what they specifically are).

but also bc yeah. its not That hard to beat some of the english fandom when it comes to media comprehension. misreading rezero is unfortunately Extremely common, both in and out of the rezero community. its Everywhere - youtube, myanimelist, ao3, ff.net, reddit, twitter, various rezero discords - and from what ive experienced, rezero tumblr basically kind of feels like finding an oasis after crawling through the desert for days on end lajdslfjs. which is probs bc rezero tumblr is Smaller and also a lot of us seem to be lgbtq+ in some way or be allies, so you dodge a lot of the misogyny and homophobia that happens in other rezero english circles. its why you see a lot of openly queer rezero-related posts on here while its a bit more. barren. in other rezero english places yes. bc its more safe to post queer rezero things on rezero tumblr rather than rezero reddit for Sure.

im not sure how the japanese fandom is with that exactly but theres some interesting differences between whats popular in the english fandom vs the japanese fandom. i mean as an otto fan ive been noticing how hes more popular with the japanese fandom—and on top of that, ottosuba is Way More popular in the japanese fandom too. reinsuba and julisuba seem to usually be the most popular mlm subaru ships in both fandoms but ottosuba is like A Little Up There in the japanese fandom. not sure if its on the same level as a ship like reinsuba but ottosubas Definitely loved as a ship. from what little ive seen it also seems like ships like vichisha are more acknowledged by the japanese fandom? im not entirely sure on like—Complete differences regarding what the japanese fandom finds interesting that may differ from english fandom, so ill really have to look more into the japanese fandoms fanart and fanfic when i can bc im pretty curious too. in general though, it seems like the japanese fandom has a bit more variety…. you can find fanart on So Many characters in rezero (which already has a very Massive cast full of very fleshed out characters) there. not that you cant in the english fandom bc theres a Bit of variety too, but id more so contribute that a little more to the Big Cast and less to having actual variety in fancontent. and of course im not saying that the japanese fandom may be a bit barren in some areas of fancontent—bc inevitably when u have a big cast of characters, side character content is gonna be more sparse compared to the main characters, but to me it does feel like the english fandom lacks variety in comparison. (and also yeah. seems like the japanese fandom acknowledges gay ships more in general tbh.)

whats focused in fancontent makes it easy to tell what may be popular in a fandom in terms of how fans perceive the source material and what fandoms want to do with the source material, if that makes sense. and its very easy to tell that with the english fandom if you just hop on rezero ao3–or even better, rezero reddit given theres a fanfic ideas thread thats usually pinned right at the top of the site. again i havent looked at japanese fanfic for rezero yet (bc i dont know where to look oops ajdndn) but when it comes to the english fandom you can tell that theyre generally more focused on the female cast both in fanart and in fanfic bc. theyre women and many fans on say, reddit or various rezero discords, are cis straight men, so inevitably… well lets just say you can tell when a man makes content for this fandom o.o theres also the. very weird reaction fic trends and trends following popular fics in the fandom, the two biggest being the watching him die again and again react fic and re:forgotten, the former of which includes a harem plot with subaru and the main girls of rezero while the latter is one of those subaru gets tortured by his ooc friends and then he gets revenge on them fics. which i suppose says something about the english fandom too.

of course on ao3 its dominated mainly by english fics (of course not all fics on there for rezero are in english— big shoutout to all the non english fics on rezero ao3 ur doing great <3 — but the majority are in english). and while yeah ur occasionally gonna find stuff like queer content or side character content or rarepair content, its definitely not that big in amount and also comes with the risk of. Hate. if anyones reading this and remembers the lone star stuff. (if u dont know—lone star was a julius x emilia fic where they NTR subaru or some shit and then it got bombed with hate bc of the ship? yeah.) so yeah english fandom is very cis straight oriented, ironically with the nastiest people being the very people that rezero criticizes. though this is also my personal experience, i do know several people personally whove been in this fandom for a while or were here for a while and yeah english fandom isnt very welcoming at times???? and it seems like at the very least the japanese fandom is A Little Less Aggressive than the english fandom is.

otherwise. yeah im very very curious about more of the differences in popular content between the japanese vs english fandom. i mean the english fandom’s main focus on the female cast for. Interesting Reasons other than their actual character depth is… interesting. and the astreas being popular in general vs otto + ottosubas popularity fluctuating is also very interesting to me (but i have several guesses as to Why that is), among other things. yeah id love to know what else the japanese fandom likes about rezero and see more of their content. i also have to wonder if characters like emilia and subaru are hated less by the japanese fandom…. T^T well that and the english fandom and many english speaking people engaging in rezero have this interesting pattern of either hating subaru No Matter What, wanting subaru to Not Be Subaru (ie using him as a self insert almost or attempting to change him into virtually another character), or putting subaru on a pedestal and ignoring his flaws and mistakes and that he Can do wrong. like theres Really not a lot of nuance there. so i wonder if the japanese fandom is. A Little more chill when it comes to character opinions like this too.

#rezero #tldr: english fandom sets the bar so low (unless ur on rz tumblr) that the japanese fandom def seems a bit better by comparison #in terms of. Calmness levels. #every time i step into a rezero space that isnt tumblr i get a little worried my heads gonna get bitten off by someone HAH #recently someone tried arguing with me over how i interpret otto (this was on reddit) and then said stuff that showed they did Not #understand his character that well so that was awkward 😭😭😭 #even just by looking at otto fanart from the japanese fandom it seems like more people understand his character there. in the english fandom #he is. either Not There or his flaws are just handwaved away or replaced with Different flaws #atm hes the most obvious example i can think of when it comes to. how differently characters can be percieved by different parts of a fandom #for rezero. like hes near invisible here but ottosuba being almost on the same level as REINSUBA in jp fanbase is crazy to me #kinda reminds me of the disney’s duffy and friends line and how it failed in the us but its SUPER popular in asia. really fascinating #and also yeah some of the english fandom seems. more loudly misogynistic and homophobic which is very unfortunate #also im sorry ill never forgive that random person on reddit i just said one (1) thing on otto and they came for my throat like fr 😭😭😭 #ask #i do wonder why reinsuba is so popular but thats probs bc reinhards well loved too and also hes op. which is a bonus for the english fandom #bc theyre into all the power scaling stuff. and also reinhard gets the other bonus of being a guy and he isnt shafted by canon. hes treated #very sympathetically which is another bonus akdnsn #i say this as a reinhard fan btw but as an emilia fan im also crying bc theyre SO SIMILAR and yet why do people hate emilia…. #but u know. reins a guy and we havent got his pov yet so there isnt much to hate.

[astrxealis]

sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO #it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think #bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular #endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me #and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL #it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep. #to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late #bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play #(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.) #actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone. #to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have #sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things #but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black #ffxiv... the game that u are..... #it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine #but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah. #it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow #like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities #and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and #idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs #both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me #and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah #anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab #yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow #kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too #so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda #lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine. #and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway

[lemongogo]

#his and elendiras powers r my fav i think.of the 10🤧 #livio/razlo a close third but hes more akin to super regen right . w the eye of michael stuff & all #me asking u like im not supposed 2 know the answer by now #legatos whole wire control bit is super fascinating and elendira skewering opponents w massive nails is visually awesome #need to post her confrontation w livio too LMAOO #though i think i wanna go back to the rooftop scene first before i post ab her stuff in ch82 #legato #vash #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun spoilers

[darabeatha]

SERVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!!!!!!!!

#;ooc #ooc #I LOVE HER SOOOOOOO MUCH!! #i just finished her companion quest #AND AJRGHGRGHRHGRGHGRAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #the second pic is me at g.epard btw #DONT GET ME WRONG I love him so much and i think his actions and words made a lot of sense and came from a place of #genuine concern over his sister and lit wanting the best for her #BUT ALSO AGHRHGRGHRGHRGH!!!!! #i know it wasnt his intention but im left with that lingering feeling of #u know when someone asks u 'are you SURE you want this-' and it keeps going on until u waver- #and i knowwww it wasnt his intention at all; just lemme ramble o k #I KNOW SHE HAD TO FACE HER PAST and it is fundamental #bc otherwise its like how they said; she'll keep 'running' from situations/the past but I wished they further expressed that- #-if she -still- wants to travel the galaxy; she -can- whenever she wants to/feels ready to #that yes there is still a lot she can do to help the people in b.elobog but also that #she won´t be selfish if she wants to go; #she can always come back; or help from wherever she is; #im a sucker for characters that have such a strong independence; not in the sense of not relying on others #but in the sense of; they will fight for what they believe in; their dreams; their aspirations; their curiosity; their wish to keep growing #bc sure she fixes stuff and all; but there's that other side of her that is fascinated by machines and researching #and i get her position and all; BUT!! HER RESEARCHER HEART MAN-!!! ITS IMPORTAN T TOOOOOO #s.erval nameless N O W #going emo over fictional characters again

[flovverworks]

after a billion yrs i added a lil line about my gbf verse.....<3 one day i might flesh it out to something in-universe, but since gbf is so "oh ure from another world? ya that happens..." i....am gonna keep w that..........(also cuz i do think discussing the different ways of magic, moon-enemy & this n that is more fun like this

#stardust speaking ! #i do wanna write but im unsure when ill do so #anyway i need to talk abut that one 1.5 moment with that weird car horn sfx after murrs fancy speech cuz i #was thinking about it again due to one of the descriptions in the alterego event #i still didnt check the website btw is it available info why snows adult and whites a kid or is that a waiting game cuz #that..... #sometimes when i think abuot paradoxroid i think about them. that one was fkd up #snow&white r so fascinating to me #snow & white & figaro & oz are even more fascinating #oz who only started learning abut the world because arthur asked things about the world................. #oz who made arthur pancakes................................. #they make me ill. figaro feels like he should be the most welladapted cuz in some ways he IS. guy who lies about his power and age and love #humans and that one offhand line in 2nd anni about how he has cared for kids!??!? dude i need to reread 2nd anni did that ever get brought #up again #but figaro & love is................guy who leaves when he thinks he isnt loved anymore #<-guy who was taught by snow&white who valued e/o the most #2nd anni makes me lose my mind. figaro and fausts convo. both who felt like it was the other who left LIKE FIGAROS SURPRISE WAS UNREEEAAALL #somethings deeply wrong with him i am so intrigued #i need to go reread his pt2 parts like what the actual hell dude #the mental gymnastics he does in one part is ? id like to study u and the twins under a microscope #this is all shallowly/casually speaking about it btw theres a lot of things left&right about all of these topics that makes them very yummy #i think what gets me the most about pt2 is that a lot of it is things that we alrdy knew regarding characters feelings etc. such as figaro #but seeing them say it themself makes me faint #OH MY GOOODDDDDD THE FLASHBACK CONVO WITH OZ AND FIGARO? ABOUT WOULD U SAVE THE PERSON U LOVE OR THE WORLD #AND HOW FIGARO ENDS UP FALTERING DEAR LOOOOORRRDDDDDDDDDDDDD #fucked up family (affectionate) #i need to think of modern aus again i thought about arthur calling snow & white granpa for one second and everything hrut #ok im sorry i dont know what possessed me. i promise ill be rereading stuff soon #one more thing. fausts part in pt2. god. but in this cursed world the sage trusted me...

[loverofallthingssmart]

not to be a stem nerd on main but like something about science makes me feel really good about myself. like being into science has actually increased my confidence. ik its not everyone’s cup of tea but WAH what a dear thing to me..

#its the knowing that ur simply just atoms existing. made up of elements which are made of protons and electrons and such. #that theres an electron cloud MULTIPLE in fact and orbitals and so much when ur broken down…it doesnt matter ur size or ur imperfections… #the fact that ur body is full of proteins and enzymes and cycles that keep u running. #the fact that ur blood has a buffer so no matter the pH (which is tech just abt the concentration) of stuff u eat #ur always relatively neutral so u SURVIVE and its like. yeah maybe im not stick thin skinny. but like my body does INCREDIBLE things…and #its full of incredible processes and who cares abt the way i look in this one dress when theres so much science in me :) #ive had this thought for a while and so idk if i said it properly…ugh i hate that bc i think its such a fascinating thought and a comfort t #me but #this kind of sounds weird like idk how to articulate it and its just how i feel but like. yeah im in love with science its bewitched #me mind body and soul…literally!!! #i love science so so so much every single one is incredible to me in every way.. #found this in my drafts and i feel like posting it this is so so true i love it sm...yeah..science makes me feel good :] thats it

[tillman]

MEMEMEMEMMEMEMEME I KIN YOU ON THE ZATO BLINDESS STUFF. Yes he has a magic shadow dude to see for him, that's great and all but holy shit I want Zato's blindness to be remembered as an actual thing. I often think about him post-ressurection getting back into reading, buying braille versions of his favorite novels.

One day arcsys will remember they wrote a blind man and not just have him randomly be totally ok using computers with no explanation and shit. On that day I think I will die cus its never happening but I can dream. Like I dunno its Tragic that he lost his vision to his hubris. Theres stuff there.

But hes also just like. A blind guy who can exist. I dunno. Let eddie actually be shown functioning as a mobility aid and seeing for him. Give him a white cane it can even be black and red to fit his aesthetic cmon. At least have some note somehwere that like because he does still have some remnant of sight through eddie (in his xrd system voice he can see at least vague glimpses of light of like. Peoples souls...? Its unclear but so interesting) maybe theres stuff there with how magic interacts with disabilities in this world. I dont know. Sucks we have to explore this through fucking zato one but cmon can I as a mostly blind guy get anything beyond its fine his shadow powers let him see and use tech completely normally!!!!!!

#him getting back into reading is nice .. u know the guild probably has a huge library of historical shit squirreled away #im sure he had his own litte library of stuff as well… cute… #like idm that he can see somewhat. I really love how in his system voice he can recognize people by this faint glimmer he CAN see. #thats so fascinating… how does he see the world after he lost his vision to shadow .. #but no. we just get zato gaming. which made me so upset when I watched strive. sorry. #like sorry to be a sensitive bitch but that pissed me off so bad .

[hella1975]

my mum: what are your plans today :)

me pausing the documentary im watching about sword forging and the playlist on youtube im halfway through about different metals and their qualities when being smithed: what

#i love being a writer #like girl you don’t even KNOW how fascinating damascus steel is #they literally don’t know how to manufacture it anymore and it was george r. r martin’s inspo for valyrian steel r u seeing this shit #im in a researching sinkhole rn babes #pros of being a fantasy writer is I never see any of my research as a chore bc I genuinely find it fascinating #cons is that I find it fascinating and forget im actually trying to get stuff done #oh drako and ur pathetic little sword obsession you are KILLING me boy

[dandyshucks-moving]

proship ppl don't always like the shit you mentioned. You meant comship lol.

This is the only thing I'm ever going to answer or say about any of this subject on here. This blog is literally just a very silly and self indulgent space where I'm having fun, and I despise this subject in its entirety. The only reason I am answering this is to have something to point to in case it ever comes up again so I don't have to say anything further.

I could not give less of a hoot about the label somebody uses. If you think fiction has no affect on reality, and/or if you think creating (in any form) jerk-off material about kids is even remotely okay or normal, then I need you to leave and block me. Doesn't matter what label you use - just block me so I do not interact with you. I'm not interested in arguing; at the end of the day, underage and incest fiction make me incredibly uncomfortable, and that's reason enough to avoid it.

The reason I specified any label at all in my pinned post is because I think sometimes people skim through pinned posts to find that word specifically so they know if somebody is safe to follow or not. I included it to be easily visible so people will know I'm safe to follow. I'll probably take it out honestly at this point to avoid ... [gestures at this ask] happening again, and if someone can't be bothered to read through the post and see my clearly laid out stance, then that's on them.

#this is also making me laugh a little tbh like... you saw my sideblog with its silly pfp ... #... and u thought ''yeah this is someone I need to anonymously Um Ackshually about this'' ???? hello???? #i am absolutely FASCINATED by your thought process sjdfjkl but also please do not attempt to converse further w me about this #im just having fun over here my friend. what are u doing. why did u think this was needed LOL #gave me a good opportunity to lay things out though sdfjkl #dandyshucks #hmm i should add a tag to find it later for quick reference in case it comes up again. uhhh what am i going to remember later LMAO #stance #yeah we'll go with that fsdjkl #also yall let me know if you need this CWd at all !!! i am unsure if it needs any CW tags so pls feel free to lmk !! #i won't be posting anything like this ever again so this will be the Only Post here about any of this stuff!

[murcielagatito]

just wrote the shittiest like 600 word prompt like bitch if i actually wrote this fic i could probably get a couple ks outta it but i suck at this shit so bad

#yeah its for ava and janine what about it #their dynamic is too much fun to leave unexplored #every time they have scenes together its just so fascinating to me #i wanna put then in a little controlled environment and see what happens #also theyre both such sad people that mask that with fake smiles but in completely opposing ways that i think they would fit so well togethe #okay not fake smiles per se pero like hiding their pain behind positivity yaknno? #i want them to get the love they so desperately need and deserve #man janine just needs like a million hugs from everyone and even then it still wouldnt be enough #janine-> so much love in her heart for others #ava-> heeping her heart in the thickest ass vault known to mankind #i know janine could crack the code i know it #avanine #ava x janine #janine teagues #ava coleman #abbott elementary #i am so sorry i keep abbott posting the brainrot is real and i have like one person to talk to abt this stuff and i dont wanna annoy them 😭 #abbott posting #<- for my silly little abbot rants if u would like to block the tag LOL #we r at like 800 words of JUST planning the story out 😵‍💫

[padfootastic]

not to be rude or anything but i wanted to ask, why do you like james so much? i love sirius almost unhealthily, but james always gave me the ick. idk tho maybe i'm over analysing it, but he always gave me slightly creepo vibes because of the whole asking lily out constantly thing yk?

:o

no one’s ever asked me something like that hahaha

idk, man. i guess it’s like sirius—the traits that james has (and what i envision him to be like) kinda just speak to me, yeah? i mean, obv we don’t have a lot of stuff about him, but i fill in a lot of blanks on my own and the rough picture i came up with, i adore. he’s also a character that i can relate to & project on, which is always fun.

it’s also like—if i go to my earliest works, it’s all about james and his friendship with sirius so that dynamic if is what really, truly drew me in. like the j/s relationship (platonic or romantic) has me in a literal chokehold and i think everyone here knows that lol in addition to that, i adore james as a dad and a son & i think he just lends himself to some really good interpersonal interpretations ykno? the centrality i believe he held in the marauders, is another thing.

also like the barebones traits he has—loyalty, protectiveness, moral fortitude, generosity, helpful—i just find him to be a really decent guy lol.

the lily thing—i mean, fair ig. he was kind of an ass in SWM but i personally just don’t believe he was asking her out constantly, ykno? like. it doesn’t fit what i think of him; it doesn’t exactly feel like something a 11-15yo would do; and i’m so sure that this perception of him came from all those jily fics (and even r/s let’s be real) where he’s portrayed as a near stalker bc lily has to be deified and morally superior. i mean, i personally believe most of the fics with james in it have done him a great disservice and entirely ruined his character for the sake of fandom or wtv (but again, it’s a character we never saw alive in real time lol so what leg do i have to stand on anyway)

so that in mind, i’ve personally always hated the lily connotations of his personality and tend to stay away from that.

in general, i’d say, i love the possibility/potential that james has? a bit like sirius, he feels like a larger-than-life character, a little fantastical. and it’s just downright fun plying around with him ykno? there’s also this, element of subversion with him for me. one, how close he is with sirius. (how close i write him to be). him being such a caretaker contrasting w his cool dude jock vibes. being the protective mother hen in jily. being emotional and sensitive and crying and not being ashamed about it. he just. seems like a much deeper character than what we get on the surface *shrugs*

#james potter #i know a lot of this is conjecture/HC territory #but i do think james had a solid canonical base that’s often overlooked #bc portraying him as a goofy fool is more important #but i’ve never subscribed to that idea #i think the biggest reason i love him is rly just bc of his relationship w others? #like we barely got stuff about lily ykno #(which is almost def bc of jkr’s biases too tbf) #but so. many. people. talked about james post his death #from friends to even enemies. like dude. even voldy gave him a compliment 😭😭 what more do u want #remus. mcgonagall. rosmerta. dumbledore. sirius. #all of these people had something good to say about him #and the kind of—loyalty that he evokes in people? it’s so fascinating holy shit #and i just. i wanna everything ab what makes him tick ykno? why is he the way he is? #then. i love him in his capacity as a family man—a son and a father and a grandfather #he lends himself so well to those roles #just. idk haha sirius is my. favorite person #but james is like my baby. my child. i’m so protective over him #and i kinda wanna keep him tucked away and with me from everyone else #like i only rly talk about sirius here but it’s james i feel the urge to gate keep most often lol #hope that made sense? #bc i can understand getting the ick from james—he has not been treated kindly in canon or fanon #and lowkey i put that down to the prevalence of snape fans but let’s not go there lol #but he’s just. so much more than that ykno? he has *heart* in a way most don’t #hehehe i’ll stop waxing poetic now #thank u for this ask!! 💜 #pen’s asks

[hirokiyuu]

i do occasionally think abt how none of the adult stratos are ever oging to be able to do therapy with a real human being again regardless of whether or not the helio has people trained for that bc every single one of htem is going to be deeply aware for the rest of their lives that their previous therapist killed herself over trying to therapize them

#i really do think instances attitude when she talks abt besk is so............... man #i get it. when someone u love kills themself sometimes u blame them for a lot of dif reasons right #it makes sense. why she talks like that. it just also makes me incredibly sad #besk's death is this like......... incredible shadow over everyone's lives and no one ever talks about it bc of guilt or shame #the twins barely know anything about her besides her being an alcoholic which htey already knew #and her suicide #ITS JUST REALLY SAD.......... the hole besk's death left in the ship and the colony is not super obvious at first but like #u can really see it the further u get into the game #in convos with the twins during stuff at the bar just like...... everywhere. u kno #its really fascinating i love besk a lot #again. limitations of child protagonist people arent going to talk abt her as much as u want #its v interesting tho i like besk.......... in case u couldnt tell #anyways. #suicide ment #teenexo stuff #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers ? #oh yeah going back to instance. i do get it. i do have sympathy #but again Instance Is Trying Her Best And Her Best Is Worse Than Her Not Trying Would Be #(thinkign abt tang) god #(thining abt how tang talks abt her mom) GOD

[starlightkun]

reading scientific articles on human scent glands to write one scene of a fic. sigh. guess what fic this is for.........

#human pheromones arent real. but also people do like have a smell. underneath their perfumes and colognes and detergents and stuff. #like individual people have their own smell. you know? #anyway i just wanted to find out if there were areas where it was more concentrated or not lol #the answer is: it depends on what kind of gland ur talkin abt bc theres 3 kinds that science generally considers to b human scent glands #very fascinating and did not help me #lots of like scientific journal articles available online for free on this tho lmao #its bc its the evolutionary pop psychology schtick that pickup artists and other shitty men love #if u cant tell i dont think very highly of evopsych #bc theres no way to actually prove it experimentally in a way that u can generalize to any population in modern day #anyway thats enough of my former psych student tangent lol #talk #text #mine #and if u got this far and hadnt already guessed this was for #f: changer #au: strawberry sunday