I HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF THAT THE LITTLE AUDIENCE IN MY HEAD ISNT REAL OH MY GOD
Please tell me I'm not crazy and other people get this too right??
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its all fun and games, all “your skin is beautiful <3 <3~!” positivity when eczema is an abstract “vaguely red rash” to someone.
Real easy to SAY someone looks good with eczema when your whole experience with the condition is “has some dandruff sometimes”.
Then someone will see your body half bloody and raw all over. They’ll actually SEE your scalp sloughing skin while you have big, angry red marks underneath. See the furrows your nails dig in the inflamed tissue, even if you’re trying to be so, so, so careful.
They’ll see an eye swollen near shut while the lid peels.
They’ll see the hunks of dead skin in your eyebrows, the flakes on your glasses, notice how the skin on your hands cracks.
Then it’s REAL. Then its a barely restrained ‘ew’ response. The fight to keep a straight face so they don’t show you how gross they think you are. Or worse, a look of pity.
Its really easy to slap together a positivity post when you don’t know that most of us don’t care about looking beautiful-- we’re way past that. We’re firmly in “would like for people to not react like we have the plague” territory.
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noticed one of the reasons tek8 is rated T is for "suggestive themes"
now i'm curious to see the scene(s) that is considered suggestive.
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im enjoying booping . my stony visage cracks into a smile etc
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Neighbor's annoying me
Loin rupture operation annoying me
Bad teeth annoying me
Eating issues annoying me
Insecurities annoying me
Autism annoying me
Bad concentration annoying me
Loneliness annoying me
Depression annoying me
Shitty youth following me
Trust issues annoying me
This fake fucking society annoying me
Drug dependency annoying me
Money issues annoying me
No real bond with family annoying me
Stress of not being able to fix most of what's wrong annoying me
No hope for the future annoying me
My pessimistic useless existence annoys me too
But if you ask me I'll be doing good <3
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ok mutuals. so we’ve established that i am extremely mentally ill about my job due to fomo and projection issues 🤪😻✨so i rarely let myself turn things down or take breaks or whatever. but im trying to be better about that and in the last couple of weeks like.. i took 2 days off last week and will take another one tomorrow and yesterday i started getting cr*mps so i pulled out of facilitating the orientation sessions bc i was like im in pain and this is one too many things and like.. if it sucks hit da bricks yk. but last night i got my p*riod and i didn’t sleep well and i feel so lightheaded and my cramps are horrible now… and it’s like. literally the only thing i have to do on campus today is orientation which is a nightmare anyway. so maybe i should skip it again and work from home today bc i NEVER let myself do that anymore bc im afraid to miss anything in the office (and also i don’t take anything like pain meds bc my family is insane 🤪 so i would be going thru cramps relying only on my heating pad and i do have one in the office but it’s obviously not the smae thing as like lying down with it and also if i do orientation then im flying solo for 2 hours ON MY FEET the whole time and this time id have to walk around a lot more bc of some of the changes we made). but then im like well ive come to work w worse cramps before and also i feel bad leaving my one colleague bestie alone in the office todsy (the other one is on vacation) esp bc im already taking another day off tomorrow. but then it’s like.. well i shouldn’t worry abt that i need to do what feels good for me. so idk that was kinda rambling and i was going to ask if u think i should stay home but i think typing that out… i am going to.
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One thing is, if you had really bad executive dysfunction (like with depression, ADHD, etc) then not only would the fruity four take such good care of you, but they’d also make sure you never felt bad about it.
Anything you need help with, one of them is already extending a helping hand. If something’s going on, and there’s a reason it’s worse atm, they’re all sitting down to make sure whatever’s bothering you is fixed. And they know sometimes it just happens, there’s no reason behind it, and they won’t get mad at you for falling behind, even if you’re scared they will be. Once you explain about your ed, they really try their best to be understanding, I think some of them have even experienced it too (definitely Eddie has).
You’re their number one priority. So they’ll either lift you up and go help you do the thing you need, or they’ll take care of it for you if they can so you’re not stressing. They get in a semi-bad habit of doing the things themselves, because they don’t want you to feel bad or worry, and they want to help! Even if sometimes they know they should let you do it yourself, just with their help, they can’t help taking care of things for you! They’re doing it for you before they can even think about it. Or they’ll even tell you how it’s not important, and nothing to even worry about doing at all.
They just try to make sure you know that they could never think any less of you for what, struggling with an actual neurological issue, that already makes you feel bad for not being able to deal with it in the first place? They couldn’t do that to you. Their number one priority is just making sure you’re looked after, you’re loved, and you fully know it.
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✨✨✨✨I can't focus on anything✨✨✨✨
I'm doing that thing where I'm just sitting in silence for hours without realizing it until it's time for me to go to bed and I DID NOTHING AGAIN. This is so FruSTRaTINg.
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