#suicide cw -

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for not telling my partner about the other people I'm with when I plan to break up with him soon?

I (19) and my partner (18) have been together for a few years. We are polyamorous, to be clear. His only thing is that he wanted me to let him know & let him meet any new partners of mine. However, for the past year and a half or so, he's barely been around. I'm lucky if I get to talk to him for maybe an hour per month. So in the past 4-ish months since I have had other people ask me out, I haven't gotten to tell him much more than letting him meet 1 of them and telling him there was others I wanted him to meet. And even there, I'm not entirely sure he got the memo that these were my *partners* and not just people I was close to.

However, I know this relationship isn't going to last longer. From the beginning, my friends, other partners (not the same as the ones I am currently with, although my other current partners also hate him) , and family + therapist have said my relationship is not healthy or even abusive and want me to leave him. But I never had the strength to walk away. I loved, and still love him, too much. He's made it clear that if I left, he would be completely alone, and feel isolated. That's not something I want to do to him. On top of that, although he hasn't done it in several years now, at the beginning of our relationship he would regularly tell me how finding me saved him from suicide, how he would be gone without having found me. Treated me like I was his reason for surviving. I know he didn't mean that in a bad way, but it still stuck with me, and a part of me worries for what will happen if I leave. Plus, he knows everything about me. I don't believe he would, but I know if he wanted to he could easily make my life hell, and that makes it terrifying to try to walk away from him.

So I'm not sure when we actually will break up. Just that we will. He's talked about breaking up himself before, but when I suggested we just get it over with since clearly neither of us where happy in this relationship, he said it "wasn't time yet". So I'm just kind of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Which makes me worry I'll be the asshole and cheating on him if I avoid telling him about my other relationships because I know ours is going to end. It feels heavy to tell him, between knowing we aren't going to keep being together, and the fact that he never reacts well to my other partners. Despite insisting he's okay with my polyamory and my relationships when I ask, he seems to almost always act aggressively when he meets my other partners. He acts rude towards them, and very possessive about me, often even siting how he was "here first". That's not something I want to put my partners through, especially not for someone I know is going to break up with me. Plus, a part of me feels guilty. Even though it's not going against boundaries, and I do really love all the people I'm with and do everything I can to make sure they all know that and feel loved and respected by me, it feels like I'm doing something wrong by being with so many people at once. It makes me feel ashamed to face my partner and go "hey so I'm with all these people too now! They all asked me out within the past 4-5 ish months yeah!" and like I'll have to find a way to justify it otherwise it'll look like I don't take our relationship seriously and am cheating.

WIBTA?

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[nitewrighter]

#superman #dc #fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck #i'm not sure if this annual inspired the TAS 'Unity' episode but if it did fuuuuuuuuuuuuck #context: those brains were originally being used as telekinetic batteries by the villain of the week #while the organic material of their bodies basically got blobbed together into a shoggoth #and after Superman beat the villain of the week the brains are like 'hey we can't go back to our bodies you gotta kill us' #and Superman is like 'I cannot stress enough how much I cannot do that' #and they're like 'yeah we figured--sorry about this' #and they telepathically controlled him to pull their oxygen switch #suicide cw

[cryptovexillologist]

Encountered today: a math professor wearing a shirt his grad students made for him, depicting him as a Moomin saying “I will literally kill myself if I don’t mention the orthogonal group”

#suicide cw

[chongoblog]

#elon #suicide cw #twitter can be sillay

[t4tails]

if sun dies im killing myself 👍

#og post #liveposting #suicide cw

[couriersixty]

regrettably might really like this show

#fallout 2024 #fallout #fallout spoilers #am i pirating it. yes! obviously! #but it captures the fallout tone i love relatively well #even if i have certain bones to pick #suicide cw #SIDENOTE she actually really does look like kyle maclachlan. it works. #tv #its so goofy and violent <3

[incognitopolls]

We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

#polls #incognito polls #anonymous #tumblr polls #tumblr users #questions #polls about relationships #submitted dec 9 #suicide cw #suicide tw #tw suicide #suicide mention #mental health #tw suicidal ideation #suicidal ideation cw

[comradesummers]

i know we talk a lot about how buffy is the "came back wrong" queen and she is, but we need to further appreciate how insane it is that she came back wrong specifically by not coming back wrong. because the concept of "coming back wrong" implies an external change to the self that is entirely beyond the control of the person who changed. buffy wants to have come back wrong because then she can finally allow herself (for the first time in like seven years) to direct her guilt and shame and self-loathing towards something other than herself. the horrific realization, then, isn't that she came back different—it's that she came back the same. that the same girl who bravely sacrificed herself to save her sister's life is also a depressed, traumatized, suicidal wreck, and that she already was all of those things before she died. that's some galaxy brain shit right there. no one's doing it like her.

#this is basically what i wrote in the tags of the latest came back wrong poll that i reblogged but longer #i just realized i had a lot to say about this #because buffy was truly insane for this #buffy summers #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #suicide cw

[rslashrats]

#suicide cw

[pixiecaps]

Heres a portion of Maxo’s ending monologue and some meta commentary.

q!Maxo: And what if I stay? At least they won’t have that planned out. How can I be so stupid? Of course, they know about the bomb. They literally know everything, see everything, its an all seeing eye, of course. They already knew about my plan.. But there’s a plan they don’t know. And it’s that I’m going to stay here. It’s over. Besides, I’m a danger to everybody, I’m turning into a code. I know now that I’m not the only one but at least it’ll be one less, right? It’s the desperation of not being able to do anything against the Federation. They always get away with it, man. They always get what they want. I don’t- I don’t know why I’m even still walking. … They’ve taken my bomb and stolen my idea and now they’re exploding it. They don’t care. At least, we found a way to escape. (Timer runs out)

cc!Maxo: (Closes game) And like that is how he dies. “Are you coming back as a ghost?” As of right now I am not thinking about returning as a ghost. (Plays sad music) Rest in peace qMaxo. Rest in fucking peace. I did all I could chat. I did all I could. … If I had reached the boat I would not have gotten on. I think what I would’ve wanted is to reach the boat, say goodbye to everybody, and die. But I suppose due to the timer the bomb blew up before that could happen. … So I’ve died. That is how it goes. This was the only thing I could do that the Federation could really not control. Killing myself.

cc!Maxo: (When a chatter mentioned the people who didn’t reach the boat) Chat I only know that I’ve died, it’s what I wanted for my lore. That I would’ve stayed there with the atomic bomb. In a fantasy world like the QSMP, of course I could revive, finally turn into a code, or whatever but for the moment all I know is that I’m dead. And I don’t have anything else scripted, from this moment on I’m dead and thats final. Thats the reality, and thats why I’m not… happy because I will for sure miss the QSMP. But since I personally take roleplay very seriously, for me there is no going back. I am dead. I cannot return as cubito Maxo. I can return as a spirit that haunts Roier once in a while, periodically, I could, I could but qMaxo is dead. It’s sad, I’m not super happy because obviously I spent a really great time on QSMP but by my own lore, man, I couldn’t do it any longer. I couldn’t handle returning to Quesadilla Island knowing I couldn’t do anything against the Federation. If I made a fucking atomic bomb and the boss of Purgatory goes and says, “Oh you have an atomic bomb? Okay. In fact, that’s a good idea. Let’s explode it, run to the boat, returning again to the island that you were in, because thats likely what will happen, and you’ll continue suffering.” I can’t do it anymore. I’ve lost Trump, my son, I’ve lost- I no longer trust people who can kill each other amongst themselves, by the lore.

cc!Maxo: The players themselves are super fun people and I’ve had a good time. What makes me feel shame is that, that I can’t roleplay with them anymore. To say it one way or another. Well, there could be things in the future the admins offer but as a player it makes me feel shame. Also, while it is true that recently I hadn’t been logging in a lot, the times I did I had a good time. I did a lot of cool things with these people.

cc!Maxo: I lost SOFIA, I lost.. everything. Everything that I’ve done, every idea that I had thought of for myself and others has been taken by the Federation. … I think that the Federation has so much control that is impossible to do anything against them. And everything you do against them they’ll use to further confuse the people. … For me I will no longer play [as qMaxo] because I am dead, that’s serious to me, I’ve decided my character has died in an explosion. Another thing is that I could occasionally log on as a spirit or something. If they allow me that then great! But if dying means not being able to play on the QSMP anymore then so be it. … This was necessary for the roleplay. … I didn’t die thinking, “Wow I found the answer.” I didn’t want to die because I found any type of answer. I died because of desperation. To say, look man I couldn’t find any answers.

Maxo mentioned it did leave him with a sour taste in his mouth that he didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to everybody since he ran out of time. So a chatter suggested he does canonical pre recording goodbye video to everybody. He said he’d likely consider it and do it so that his character gets the chance to tell the other characters goodbye and that he’s gone.

Rest in peace qMaxo, the original founder of the Theory Bros, and someone who gave his all to escaping the island no matter the cost.

#qsmp #suicide cw

[roguemonsterfucker]

If I see a single person celebrating this, it's on fucking sight.

No.

He doesn't deserve death.

He deserved to lose all the credit he got for the content he stole.

But he doesn't deserve to die.

He doesn't deserve to be told the world would be a better place without him.

He's a human fucking being and he deserves love and acceptance and comfort.

I really hope the note was just a ploy for sympathy and attention because I want for him to be okay. I want for him to be able to move on from this and live his life.

#james somerton #suicide cw #i feel sick to my stomach #i really hope he's okay #i've been worried about him from the start of this

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

i can't think of a creative title

👽 for finding later because look at him he's a little alien :D

so anyway i (15F) had this girlfriend (16F) a little bit ago. we honestly didn't do much together, even though we're both in high school. never went on a proper date and we never even kissed.

whenever i would try to set up a date or anything, she'd kinda be like "ok." and then never follow up and i wouldn't wanna do it because i have really bad self esteem issues and i didn't want her to stop liking me because i was being too clingy or anything.

we were texting like normal one day and she just sent me this text where she was like "i'm literally so selfish lmaooo i already knew i was gonna break up with you by the end of the school year but here i am still dating you and wanting to kiss you 🤪" and i just stopped texting her right there because. because what? she was literally planning to break up with me and she knew what day she was going to do it and everything? then what was the point of even getting together with me? because she knew i really liked her and still did that.

anyway, we agreed to talk during our free period/study hall at school the day after. i had totally freaked myself out and i was completely prepared to just go and apologize over and over again, even if she was in the wrong, but when i met her, she immediately started talking about how i put her on too much of a pedestal and how my self esteem was too low and how i have a tendency to say "im gonna fucking kill myself" (not in like a serious way or anything but it just became a thing i'd say sometimes, we both knew that i wasn't being serious about hurting myself but i see why that would make her uncomfortable and it's actually a habit i've been trying to stop) and these are actually all pretty valid concerns. i did have a little bit of a tendency to put her on a pedestal because of my previously mentioned terrible self esteem. so we broke up.

but then a little recently, a friend, who i'll call miku texts me and she's talking about how my ex, i'll call her uh... rin? anyway, rin texts miku and rin allegedly said that she thinks that she's more mature than all of our friend group ( we mainly have the same friend group, me and rin are still friends) and miku tells me that (also allegedly) miku wasn't really all that affected at all when we broke up or even when i randomly stopped texting her after that text. so. idk. was i the asshole? i feel bad about ghosting her, that was kinda toxic and abusive and definitely something i shouldn't have done, but it freaked me out.

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[pterygoidwalk]

heterosexual afterlife partners

#suicide cw #guns cw #jean vicquemare #harry du bois

[benzatthanin]

BEETLEJUICE 1988 | dir. Tim Burton

#filmedit #movieedit #beetlejuiceedit #horroredit #horroredits #cinemapix #dailyflicks #holidaysource #filmgifs #userbabysitter #horrorwomensource #userstream #tvandfilm #moviegifs #beetlejuice #horror #* #suicide cw #self harm cw

[helloanthy]

06.09.2023 💜 today's anthy!

[saionji voice] nooo dont kys aha ur so se[gets shot]

[ID: the first image is a drawing of anthy from revolutionary girl utena. she is wearing her school uniform. she is smiling as she holds a gun up in front of her face, as if taking a selfie with a phone. a chuchu keychain, along with a fuzzy pink pom pom and bow is attached to the hammer of the gun. anthy is holding her other hand under her chin, posing gracefully.

the second image is a text conversation between jelly and munke. jelly says, "also this is totally unrelated but this is very anthy core". attached below is a shutterstock image of a blonde person holding a gun up in front of them as they smile and pose. munke replies with a keysmash and says, "stop / im using this as a drawing reference". jelly says, "please do ill die laughing" in all caps. end ID.]

#hello anthy! #anthy himemiya #revolutionary girl utena #少女革命ウテナ #9.23 #2023 #🙈 #📽️ #suicide cw

[t4tails]

tumblr poll simulator

HOW DO YOU FEEL?

happy :)

sad :(

angry >:(

notes: #um wheres the option for only a little sad but not entirely happy either #like nobodys ever really happy

#how is angry winning i hope everybody who votes angry kills themselves

#my abuser was sad once so i have horrible memories of this subject yet will still talk about it in the tags of a strangers post online

#wheres the horny option

#og post #suicide cw