#that she eats there far too much

[soldier-poet-king]

i didnt rlly eat dinner bc i had a fuckton of spring rolls at like 3pm but i think i deserve a bowl of mac and cheese for putting up with this shit

#the duality of fran #i also made way too much homemade mac and cheese yesterday #and i have to eat all the leftovers before my friend gets back tuesday #bc she doesn't eat pasta #and i have mac and cheese AND pasta salad #far far FAR too much food #IM A CLOWN OK. I MEASURE THAT SHIT WITH MY HEART

[hamartia-grander]

Jesus fucking christ I hate the US south

#Cw gun mention I guess #I was feeling super nauseous so I went into the kitchen to get ritz crackers #And we're at my grandma's rn for Christmas and she has windows in the kitchen that look out at the road/other houses #And NO curtains or blinds because she's old #And anyway I turned a small light on so I could see the crackers and I hear a fucking man outside shout “WHO'S OUT THERE” #In the heaviest southern accent. Mind you every fucking person in this area has a gun bc there's lots of trees with squirreld they shoot #And logically now that I am calming down I know it was just a bad coincidence and he was probably yelling at smthn in his yard #But jesus fucking christ I felt such immediate intense fear my head went cold #Ran to my baby brother's room bc I was certain someone was gonna come kill us #Then the rationality took over and I just told my mom about it. But now I'm sitting outside his room eating crackers bc I'm fucking paranoid #It is almost 4am and I haven't slept a wink I cannot do this rn #But literally the last time I went for a walk around here my dad told me not to go alone and also not to say anything stupid #And also stay far away from houses bc I could get myself shot #Literally what the fuck is this. #“Afearican” except I'm still very much in the US #Not to mention almost every fucking house has a blue lives matter flag and some have isr*el flags now too like #I fuuuuucking hate it here

[alphacrone]

look, i like to hate on almond moms too but they’re also usually victims of diet culture and disordered eating. let’s move onto hating on dads who don’t give a shit about their diets or bodies or health but care WAY too much about YOURS.

#i love my father but CHRIST #cw: disordered eating #cw: eating disorder #cw: diet culture #ok to rb #like i get the pain and struggle of the almond mom i do #my mom wasn’t quite there but she was always dieting #and i had friends with almond moms who would critique me #but my father cared far too much about my weight and my athleticism and how much i ate #and what i ate and how quickly i ate and on and on #i love him but it really really affected me #he’s a victim of diet culture too but not in the same way

[gardenofdelete998]

if i could change one thing about myself it would be to not hate seafood. cant shake the feeling that somewhere in the future i will be stuck in a situation where this will be a huge detriment. like being stranded on the ocean

#also when i was a gradeschooler my parents did this thing where they didnt let me leave the table untill i finished the meal which often led #to me staying in the kitchen well into the afternoon propably crying and if i told them how i cant physically force it down it keeps coming #back my mom just said if i vomit into the meal she will make me eat the vomit back up too. i dont think this ever happened but i think ther #were a couple occasions where i vomited and got a new portion the size of what was left of the previous one #my mom denies it to this day that any of this ever happened luckily my sisters remember it too #my parents were pretty much allright parents but this is deffinitely a fucked up thing #then one time well into my teenager years she did this again and i was feeling too old for this kind of shit so i just packed the whole meal #into a couple of napkins and fling it out the window. i was aiming for the roof of the house across the street but couldnt throw that far so #it sploshed onto the building's wall and it was winter so it froze there and i could see the petrified remains for years

[yourqueenb]

To follow up on what previous anon wrote (I'm not that anon to be clear) but thank you also for writing the truth about Nia and calling PB out on her way too favorable treatment which led to her unofficially becoming a main character in this book.

Refreshing to read seeing as not a lot of people saw an issue with that, but the problem is IT REALLY WAS AN ISSUE and I hope to not see that in book 3. Like ffs we are the main character, not her.

Yeah, I mean it wasn’t necessarily meant to be a call out. It was more so me just venting my frustrations, but of course I agree with you about how annoying and detrimental to MC’s story it was. I really just don’t get why they would center a supporting character that much, but it’s not like they haven’t done it before in other series. I think it’s just that in this particular situation MC and Nia basically switch roles, whereas in other series like OH and TRR certain characters got much more screen time, development, and care than they should have, but the MCs still felt like the main characters for the most part

#choices bolas #choices blades #blades of light and shadow #choices stories you play #playchoices #well except for in OH 3 #Ethan was already eating up far too much of the story in books 1 and 2 but I think they took it to a whole new level in 3 #now that I’m thinking about it again the way they favored and centered Ethan might have been even worse than Nia #and I say might have been bc OH is not fresh in my mind like Blades is #but it’s def impossible to forget how insane the writing in that series made me 💀😵‍💫 #like Ethan is still one of the Choices characters I hate the most to this day #whereas I don’t actually hate or particularly dislike Nia #there were just certain parts of her personality that were a bit grating #and again it was annoying how she was basically written to be the MC #choices #choices app #choices ask

[andthebeanstalk]

My gender is whatever the Monkey King has going on; my gender is trickster spirit that would make an excellent anime protagonist

#journey to the west #sun wukong #the monkey king #so guess who just learned about sun wukong on youtube today #overly sarcastic productions #original #i watched all the parts they have released so far and then watched a 2 hour chinese movie from 2013 & then another from a different studio #is it inappropriate to ship the monkey and the monk? they shipped the monk with a lady in the movie. really like... way too aggressively #like he was NOT INTO HER and they REALLY SOLD HOW SHE WAS NOT BEING COOL ABOUT THIS #and then at the end it is like and actually he DID love her and I'm like #y'all. what is this a marvel movie ?? i liked basically everything else in the film though #so far the slapstick in these chinese action movies fucking rules i love this horrible monkey demon and pigsy always makes me laugh #i gotta watch more foreign films #also rip to all those little girls getting eaten to show how evil these demons are i was NOT prepared #both movies introduce demons with them eating entire families #i want to cosplay as the monkey king but i know enough to not do that because i am white. so i will just very much love this character #i also really like Sandy aka WATER DILF #and tripitaka's case of Resting Damsel Face and being The World's Most Edible Man #like if aang were absolutely useless in a fight it is so funny #all monkey does is rescue this man and we love to see it

[apollo-zero-one]

Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!! #or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head? #This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch. #No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings. #bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!! #and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck. #Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he? #was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board. #Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself?? #'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person?? #Are you just living in some other reality??? #callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

[furrama]

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#I think tomorrow will be my cat's last day #She's 15 #And she's been going downhill #I have a vet appointment tomorrow #Last time I went I thought it was the end too but they thought she just needed some pain meds and fluids #It did help a little bit for a little while #But I really do think she's been suffering this whole time and I wish they had listened to me #Now I'm going to bring her in again and try to convince them that I don't want her to die for some convenience which is the vibe I got #She's not eating or drinking on her own she's not keeping much down when we give her some pain meds or water or bone broth #She can't walk far and she can barely meow #She's skin and bones and clearly dying #It's awful and I don't wish this on anyone #Pet keeper or pet

[hauntingblue]

JINBEEE I LOVE YOU!!!! JINBEEEEEEEEE

#there is no man more consistent or noble than him. he really is the gentleman of the seas (or knight idk with the translation) #i think he has like a luffy is going to die detector built in. he was about 5 seconds away from ripping his hands out #FLASHBACKS FLASHBACKS FLASHBACKS #luffy needs to eat the food sanji made for pudding..... do you see... #reiju was suspicious from the start.... hell yes #sanji going insane again... to the liat #reiju has her mind straight.... end germa and save sanji yeah.... but dont die girl... #so reiju has feelings because her mother is not the same as her brothers??? and like germa didnt go that far with the tech yet??? #bc their mother just complaining about the four and not her daughter.... idk she calls her mom still.... maybe its just the tech #that wasnt as advanced when she was pregnant with her so she has feelings still #oooohhgg the toxin only worked with sanji... thags why he is normal.... #being beaten up on his mothers grave.... christ..... #reiju is an older sister for reals.... having to deal with her mom being worried about sanji and then worrying about him too #reiju knows their father doesn't like her as much bc she has feelings too deep down... poor girl.... #jesus christ sanji take her with you!!! if she doesn't end up happy..... #nothing more to say reiju i love you too girl #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 819 #reiju you don't need to die!!!! i get the symbolism but you can be good too!!!! #you tell em pedrooo!!! fuck that egg!!! AGAIN!!!! #NOT AGAIN!!! #pedro with the explosives again qjdhakshka he came PREPARED #luffy strangling a guy for info.... this one is a first.... #so brook just came to steal the poneglyph with no paper or ink????? wtf #roger could hear everything and thats why he could read the poneglyphs.... #well luffy killed that man (to me) #reiju changed the bracelets omg!!!! QUEEN ICON SISTER OF THE YEAR OF THE DECADE #think about what matters sanji!! *thinks about luffy* OMG AND LUFFY LOOKING FOR HIM!!!! #episode 820

[devilbrakers]

OC DUALITY

was tagged by @morvaris​ to take this uquiz for my ocs >:) thank you nico this was super fun!!

tagging: @numbaoneflaya @time-is-a-lake @aartyom @nuclearstorms @girlbosselrond @druidgroves @malefiicarum @swordcoasts  @aldcaldos @sufferthorn @steelport @calenhads @lavinet​ and anyone else who’d like to join in !!

you and the hat man

oh boy you're fighting demons aren't you? it's like you're in a constant staring competition with something that's always in the peripheral. what the fuck. (at least, that's how people who don't know you would react). at this point you've probably gotten pretty familiar with the hat man. he's a reliable kind of guy. keeps to himself, sure, but you can trust him to be there. maybe a haunting isn't too bad if it's never left your side. you can only imagine what it will be like when he's not there any more.

god-hungry scientist and their abominable child

you stitched something together inside of yourself and gave it life with light from the sky and now it won't die and you can't kill it because part of you loves it and you're not quite right in the head or the person you used to be but at the end of the day it's simply a beast of sadness. you crave the mercy you didn't get from your creators and so i'm telling you please forgive yourself. please hold the monster by the hand.

moon curse of the werewolf

you have found yourself hungered or sickened or ambitious to the point of emotional carnage. you are fine, until you're not, and then you could rip someone in your way apart with your bared teeth by complete accident, and later claw at yourself in fits of pain trying to apologize. do you look at the moon that blessed you in her name, at her marred beauty and baneful eyes, and wish she could just crush that loving-hateful heart of yours before it crushes itself? every bite you take out of flesh is a response to the threads of silver bullets in you that haven't healed. the duality is that the human inside is howling too, gnashing, and without the wolf pelt, everyone can ignore it and turn away. at some point, you got tired of the moon being your only witness. now the wolf is there to make sure others know that you are hurt, and deserving of humanity, of attention to wounds. because that wolf loves you; all of you; and knows when you are hurt better than yourself.

#feel free to ignore this if you want !! idk how many people have already been tagged fjsdkl #anyway. going to be annoying abt this in the tags now <3 #the main thing that gets me abt gray's is the 'maybe a haunting isn't too bad if it's never left your side' #like????? ik the hat man thing is probs supposed to be funny and it kinda is but it fits them so well #almost everyone close to them has died or left them atp but maybe it isn't so bad. just to have one constant #dmitri :| yeah. yeah #everything he felt he had to become to save his sister who was dead the whole time anyway but ended up being a better survival tactic anyway #so he just stuck with it until he died but then he comes back as a demon and now he has to live with what he did forever #i don't think he really could ever forgive himself. mainly for failing nina but it's started to eat him alive less and less over the years #mainly bc he does everything he can not to think about it too much but he also doesn't really want to totally get rid of that part of #himself. the part that was capable of torturing and killing all those people bc it really was powered by love and desperation to some extent #and that proves that maybe he has some shred of humanity left even if she's been gone for decades now #not that he does shit like that anymore. but he's capable and willing to for those he loves even if they'd probably hate him for it #and miko's :( #yeah #lashing out at people when it gets to be too much which is often given the life that she lives and then beating herself up for it nonstop #but it's also a way to protect herself and even tho she died young it got her pretty far #and it helped her protect other people (mainly gray and blake) when it came down to it because she couldn't stand seeing them hurt either #idk if i articulated myself v well but yeah jfdsklfdjs my dmc gang are all my blorbos #my ocs #tag #gray #dmitri #miko

[mrpsychokiller]

i life is fucking falling apart out of nowhere and i dont know what to do sbout it

#im so so fucking tired and stressed and angry and upset and i cant do anything #my cat is hurt and in pain and we cant even get her to eat even though she hasnt eaten in days #but i dont know what to do about it when she refuses to eat #and weve spent over $600 on her medical care so far and we already dont have lots of money to waste #and its all our fault snd its all MY fault for letting her leave the house #but i cant DO anything about it because even now my mom leaves the doors and windows wide open for the cats to go out snd get themselves #killed because she just doesnt fucking care and i cant DO anything about it i cant keep them safe on my own #i dont even know if shes going yo survive this or if shes gonna have long lasting effects forever #and now my computer keeps bluescreening repeatedly and im not good enough with computers to know how to fix it #and im too fucking stupid to follow instructions and i dont know what to DO #and im scared my computer is gonna die for real and then whats gonna be of me #im spending so much money more money than i even have to pay for this computer #and its one of the only good things i have in my stupid fucking life right now and i cant do anything as i watch it bluescreen #im fucking scared and stressed and anxious and i cant fucking do this #whatever sorry. rant over i just needed to talk

[alongtidesoflight]

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#it's been two months since my mom was hospitalised and #i don't think i've had that much stress ever in my life before #rough times sure #but there's something really off about having #to take care of all her stuff on top of my stuff #while watching doctor after doctor misdiagnose her #treat her for the wrong thing for two weeks #then wheel her into heart surgery as soon as they diagnose the right thing but WAIT #she needs another heart surgery #but WAIT #the misdiagnosis wasn't that far off after all so let's treat her lung too #and before you know it a month has passed and she's taken to a physical rehab clinic #and staying in there for another month #while her insurer is already delivering oxygen tanks to our home because she might need them #and sending us disability forms to fill out #meanwhile the doctor at her rehab clinic is convinced that if she just attends the entirety of her programs she might not #need oxygen at all because her lung apparently looks healthy and he doesn't think that diagnosis is accurate after all #ONLY by this time my mom is deeply depressed not eating and not attending her program's courses at all #and everyone's her enemy and she's gonna leave the clinic right now right NOW #she's released tomorrow #a week before her actual release date #because she made such a ruckus they finally allowed her to leave the clinic early #and i just wish she'd at least put an effort in #from day one she refused to give that rehab clinic a chance #every now and then a doctor or a nurse made a little breakthrough and she agreed to try #attended maybe two or three fitness programs #then gave up again #i'm convinced the doctor at her rehab clinic is right and her lung disease is a misdiagnosis after all but we'll never find out since she #refuses to exercise her lungs at all #and after all the effort we put in to make sure she recovers well i'm just exhausted and disappointed in that

[hella1975]

okay so im staying the night at my friend's in my Uni City on sunday bc my maths exam is monday morning and i dont have any accommodation there anymore (which is really stupid on the uni i feel? like they expect kids to be paying the train and accommodation fares AND navigate the current rail strikes AND revise during heatwaves when they could just very easily in this post-covid world put the exams online? baffling) and this is my one coursemate that's super super good for me in that she's VERY disciplined and WILL yell at me if im not working like i should be. she's also the econ student who asked me in the corruption lecture if tax evasion is legal but that's neither here nor there. anyway my point is she lives locally hence why im staying with her and i cannot stress enough how much she singlehandedly holds my academic life together. like i am going to show up on her doorstep with all my notes and just burst into tears im sure of it

#guarantee she'll teach me more for my resit the night before than i managed to do in 4 weeks alone #the only thing is her parents are SUPER fucking nice and keep offering me shit #and im so so miserable during exam season like i need to just stay in a room all day revising and not talking to people #otherwise the stress will just eat me alive #so even though it's a pain im then gonna come HOME on monday after the exam just to stay at hers again #on the 3rd for my macro exam next thursday #nightmare #BUT her parents keep insisting i stay the entire time like keep in mind they've met me ONCE #and tbf parents always love me like it's just one of my charms <3 but inviting someone for FOUR DAYS when i wont even be leaving #the house the entire time is mad #like mad in a good way bc they genuinely are just being stupidly generous #BUT STILL #and they always offer me a shit ton of food and im a nightmare for refusing free food #like one time the uni converted part of the SU into a langar and i went with this exact friend actually #when i tell you it was the worst combination in the best way my god i have never eaten so much in my life #she was like 'just say no when they offer' i was like bestie i CANT you dont understand #and it's like that with her parents too im in heaven and hell simultaneously every time #so im just gonna be teary and stressed out my mind on the floor surrounded by notes as far as the eye can see #and my poor friend and her parents are gonna be TOO NICE and it's going to break me like i have been holding on by a thread all month #watch me on the verge of a breakdown and the thing that tips me being the absolute angel that is my friend mum #once again asking if i want anything #her: are you okay in here can i get you anyth- #me: *immediately starts sobbing* #AND IM ON MY PERIOD ARE YOU INSANEEE #hella goes to uni #anyway im feeling normal about this resit how are you

[aroace-cat-lady]

Man, sometimes I'm like Hey, I might not be as fucked up as I think I am, and then I remember I'm a compulsive liar and gaslighter cuz I do everything to keep a perfect picture of myself in everyone else's head and then I'm WORRIED

#I can't even explain how far it goes #one friend messed up my birthday date one time and I pretended for years it was a week later so she didn't get uncomfortable #one of my someones doesn't know i hate shrimps and when i found out i was allergic i felt relief cuz i had an excuse now to mot eat them #and the list could go on and on with small little tactics i use daily #and I literally can't stop myself it always seems like a good idea until it grows Too Much™

[astrxealis]

sorry (not really) guys if you see me return to my obsessed w final fantasy (all), ivalice ffxiv voicelines, bloodborne era rn

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i'm such a NERD !!!!! #i know a lot but i still need to know MORE. #but ya ivalice voicelines... <333 #tbh ivalice as a whole i am SO interested in. not just bcs of ffxiv or ff #the stuff between ramza and delita yes? #iirc. ivalice in ff is like the worlds of tactics + ffxii !! i might actually be wrong but i've been sure about this for years LOL ?? #so yeah. REAAAALLY intrigued about both tactics and xii. xiv gets a lot of refs from xii #so i'm aware of the scions of light and the scions of darkness a lot and i find the correlations w the ascians super interesting #and yes. the fact that Emet-Selch is the Angel of Truth makes me very very very sad. it's so good :(( #bloodborne on the other hand okay i may have not properly played much. i always chicken out #but a lot of the times i did try it out wanting to get far are really bcs of ludwig and lady maria #other themes i was in lov w too but mostly ^^ but now i reaaally want to more now bcs The First Hunter !!! and other songs too <3 #also bcs i'm older and hopefully less cowardly... (if you must know. okay i'm literally srsly a coward w scary stuff in games #as in ffxv daemons terrified me for the longest time until a while into act 2? and automata. a simple cave made me so scared <//3) #speaking of cave i miss ac odyssey... i want to play that more sometime! very fun game. i havent even got to do sailing or shit yet tbh #yea. so tjat's that. and on ff as a whole i am always so in lov w ff but ever since fulgur talked abt it more aaaaaa #I SHOULD ASK MY TITA FOR. ff8 soon... says me but i shld finish x and ix SOBBING. she also has xii so WAHHHHH #but time to eat now <3

[shoechoe]

Went to the zoo today and sat with a silverback gorilla. Best experience of my life

#not jojo related #rambles #he went right up to the glass and sat down so i sat with him #we stayed there for a while looking at each other (no eye contact obviously) #that shit was magical man... gorillas are one of the coolest animals on earth #i also saw the orangutan exhibit. a female one went up on the balcony and looked at me #she had very pretty hair. apparently she likes giving eye contact to people #there was a flanged male with biiig flanges but he was shyer so i mostly just saw back views of him #(interestingly most male orangutans tend to be the shy ones like that) #there was also a juvenile climbing in the trees and it was amazing #there were also chimpanzees but they were far away so i didn't see them too well #they were mostly concerned with themselves they were just in a big group and eating #i love apes so much