#the lines feel so very blurred

[canisalbus]

Hello! I hope I won't sour your mood with this ask but I have been thinking a lot about your gay dogs this month especially.

I'll just try to keep the context short but in general I'm someone that has accepted being romantically undesireable. It was hard but in the end I have built my life just around me, my humble family and at this point in time I don't even think I have the time for a partner. And considering that it's the love month and a lot of people are preparing to celebrate it with their SOs I assumed that, actually, this is a thing that I sort of have in common with Machete.

From the miscellaneous lore on your profile I see Machete as someone that also has kind of rejected love. That also has built his life around his job, possibly hobbies, his family or mentors (depending if we're talking about canon or modern au). Who kind of forgot that relationships are a thing and that people bond with others in that way. Well, at least he did until meeting Vasco.

I just love thinking about their awkward beginnings. Machete being 100% sure that Vasco is just joking, maybe even sometimes teasing him (in a friendly banter type way) or just explaining to himself that all that kindness and interest is just him being a very considerate friend. And then we have Vasco that just tries to be subtle, as if he was trying to pass a fawn without it noticing and running away, but also with time gains confidence and tries more risque moves. Vasco being all smug and Machete being flustered when their hands or shoulders or tails brush in passing. And then when both are sure of their feelings we have Machete who has to choose between God and his love. Who, at first, unwillingly accepts that divine wrath will be worth their brief love.

I just love your boys. I swear they are all the love supply one might possibly need

Thank you for such a long and thoughtful message! I don't know why you thought you might accidentally sour my mood, I'm utterly delighted whenever I hear that someone has been pondering my little guys (rotating them in their head, as they say), and when they go through the trouble of sharing their findings and conclusions I'm so happy I could crawl up a wall.

I think you deciphered Machete's inner workings very well, especially those of the original canon version. The concept of love is of course prominent in Christianity, so even as a kid being raised in a religious environment that discouraged overt displays of affection and close personal bonds, Machete wasn't completely alienated from it. But it has always been a nebulous, unperceivable and unattainable thing for him. When he was old enough to lock down his career choice he readily accepted he'd never have romantic relationships, spouse or a family, and I think he must've been too young and socially inexperienced to think of it as a significant loss. Either he consciously blocked out the need for companionship by studying and working like his life depended on it, or he didn't really consider that being genuinely befriended, appreciated and loved as a person instead of a respectable and competent authority figure was even an option for him, at least not until Vasco came along.

#I think it took some time to get through his initial defences #especially since when they first met the stressful apprenticeship period was still fresh in Machete's mind #the years under his explosive and gaslighting mentor's wing had made him very distrustful so he preferred to just stick to himself #Vasco is good at winning people over and once he convinced him that he didn't have any ulterior motives they became besties pretty quickly #and even though the line between platonic and romantic started gradually blurring Machete kept convincing himself #that his feelings for Vasco were just Very Deep Friendship #and Vasco has an eye for noticing these things and a bolder personality #so when he tried to reciprocate a little bit Machete thought 'what a good friend he is' #'so kind and considerate and I'm so grateful and lucky to have him and I must not ruin things by getting too personal' #it was awkward and at times a little bit painful but I'd like to believe the progression was for the most part smooth and natural #considering the circumstances it could've been a lot more distressing #as corny as it is I think they were just happy to have found each other #they advanced at the same phase and reached the 'I think we've become a couple actually' stage at the same time #at least that's how I imagine it at the moment #answered #anonymous #Vaschete lore #long post

[commsroom]

once again, wonderful art of eiffel and hera from @quibbs!! 💫

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #hera wolf 359 #hera w359 #eiffera #!!! #thank youu oh my god. images that make me feel insane #i am always blown away by your art the lines and the motion and the lighting!! #these colors are so gorgeous + with the motion blur and the hairstyle you gave her. very 80s vibes i think eiffel would love that #and the light trails + smoke + bits of rim lighting ough #and i love how you drew them; i LOVE how angular hera is + such a good eiffel pose #he's the slobbiest guy ever and i am in love with him. his shirt riding up... sorry. #i love this so much #thank you thank you #💙💙💙 #art

[rachedurst]

anyways i love you people that are both gay and straight, in whatever way that presents. being nonbinary often can mean a complicated relationship to sexuality and how one perceives it within the societal restrictions of homo and heterosexual, and i think bridging those definitions and having "contradictory" labels like lesboy or whatever is really cool. i support and stan he/him lesbians or butch lesbians or she/her gay men or femme gays or she/he pronoun users and whatever else, be it cis or trans or both. if you feel like youre both cis and trans that also rocks. dont let people force you back into a binary within the queer community, stay strong!

#queer #nonbinary #genderqueer #cis / trans as opposites is a false dichotomy and only harms nonbinary people. #same with straight/gay. these things can and will overlap if one for example feels like both a man and a woman #and of course beyond self identification alone #the way society treats you will also influence that #anyways op is a binary trans man. im very much a hundert precent a man and dont want people blurring the lines there. but that doesnt apply #for everyone! what makes me hapyp will be misery for someone else. so the reverse applies too. #peace and love on planet earth #fuck up with that gender everyone #gender nonconforming #bigender #im not vaguing the person i responded to btw im just gonna state my support again while its on my mind #multigender

[gomzdrawfr]

[tags: angst, implied mcd, post mw3]

I see you when I close my eyes

until I don't.

#hello im back again with angst :3c #i havent draw big Soap in so long i...forgot how to draw him #and then that got me wonder #that feeling when you forgot how someone look like after being separated for a /very/ long time #:] #and it hurts the worst when its the one feature that strikes out the most #the blues of johnny eyes #now remain a hazy memory #the pout on johnny's lips #now blurred into undefined lines #anyways #gummmyart #doodle #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soapghost #ghostsoap #call of duty #call of duty mw3 #cod mw3

[secondbeatsongs]

I love being someone's science experiment

#personal #read: #my top surgeon continues to be fascinated by me #last time it was because I said it was fascinating to watch him pull stitches out of my chest #(he said the last guy had passed out so he kept asking if I was okay) #this time it's because of how well my nerves reconnected on one side #apparently it's not very normal to have good skin sensation in nipple grafts #but here we are #he put a note in my chart and seemed...excited? #he really looked like he wanted to say ''oh cool!'' or ''weird!'' #but he just said ''huh!'' and seemed enthused #he also kept saying ''oh you look *good*'' in a way that was very genuine #and he's right #my chest looks great #but some part of me wants to be like #intense about his reaction. like #o sculptor of flesh. how do you feel when you behold your creations? #is your vision of yourself one of an artist or of a doctor? is this the line you blur? #anyway that'd be weird so I don't say stuff like that #but I do *want* to #sbs rambles #in the tags #gender #top surgery

[dashiellqvverty]

we NEED to get weirder (hornier) about royjamie

#royjamie #ppl are a little bit weird about them but we can do MORE #THEYRE very weird and the fic energy doesn’t often match #i’ve burned through just about every amount of d/s dynamic/bdsm/whatever #and i am really scraping the bottom of the barrel in terms of quality now #AND so few of them even capture the vibes that feel Right for them. to me. #more s1 era that gets agressive and a little too genuinely mean #more weird messing around with the coach dynamic and blurring of lines with training and sex stuff #there’s a little of that but not the way i WANT #i don’t have anything specific to write tho <3 i will only know what i’m looking for when i see it #r.txt #ted lasso

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

a couple times when i taught first grade i used frog and toad to do a little mini-unit for a small group (of first graders who can more or less independently read frog and toad, which most can't for most of the year) about character, because frog and toad is great for that because the books are never like, "frog is cheerful and optimistic. toad is a loyal friend but very grumpy and gets upset easily," but the characters are so vividly drawn across the stories that the vibes really come across, so it's good training wheels for the concept of, "we can figure out what characters are like even if the author doesn't come right out and tell us." there's this one frog and toad story where frog wants to hang out, but toad doesn't because it's january, and he wants to sleep until spring, so he goes back to sleep and tells frog to wake him when its spring. so frog rips off the pages off his calendar until it says may and then wakes toad up and says "wake up! spring is here!" and and toad bounds out of bed all excited and the last page is the two of them contentedly heading out into the snow while the text says "and they went out to enjoy spring," or something like that. it's real cute.

anyway. so i did this story with a small group one year, and when we were discussing observations we could make about the characters that we could then turn into inferences about their traits, one of the things the kids decided was a takeaway re: frog here was: he's a bad friend. why? because!!!! he lied to toad!!!! you shouldn't lie to your friends!!! they were very offended on toad's behalf, that frog had taken his earnest request and used it to trick him. and, you know, i couldn't really argue with that. i could, and did, tell them that frog's behavior as a friend would be much more upstanding in upcoming stories, and that in this story he sure wanted to spend time with toad which is a good-friend thing to do, and i could and did attempt feebly to explain that i thought the author maybe was trying to be a little bit funny and show us that toad was being a little dramatic the whole time, but that type of sophistication was i found beyond even these slightly precocious first graders, for reasons less to do with reading comprehension and more to do with their general developmental capacity for complexity of thought and psychological reasoning. but, ultimately, if they decided in their personal value codes that lying to a friend for personal gain was really really bad and they would never consider someone who lied to them for personal gain to be a good friend, like, that's their right as readers. (i think eventually they landed on, frog is mostly a good friend but not always, which was about as much nuance as i could hope to squeeze from their tiny brains and left me satisfied. lol.)

but my point is: they knew that it was their right as readers. they felt no compunctions whatsoever about exercising their own moral judgement on the text, regardless of how unpunished frog's transgression remained. i didn't have to teach them that part.

#kids can definitely also be susceptible to the influence of fiction in questionable ways #but like sorry that comes down to parenting and is not the responsibility of authors / tv crreators / whatever outside of extremes #eg when i was a kid for a while i decided it would be funny to be mean to my little brother bc clarissa on tv was mean to her little brother #so my mom banned me from watching clarissa explains it all until i got my shit together #very simple solution A+ parenting move #being persistently unable to tell right from wrong or reality from fiction is a problem of parenting not of media exposure #and like i genuinely think that having these experiences where the lines get blurred & then reclarified is important developmentally #and to think otherwise is like. straight up fundie talk sorry #do we still say fundies? that feels very aughts internet to me

[raatopaikka]

#Fake planets made out of dry acrylic paint inside the lid of a tiny tin jar! #free resources #free to use #artistic resources #png #transparent png #planet png #i just made these for fun so feel free to use them for any of your own art projects/fanart/edits or whatever! #they're not very hq but im sure they're fine when used in small size in unofficial things! #and i seem to have fucked up with krita at some point cause they had these circular geometric lines in them that i've tried to blur out 🤡 #so def only use in small size! #also the red ones have a white background when you view them individually 👀 i'm guessing cause i inverted the colour? 👀 #but they all definitely have transparent backgrounds i promise! 👀 #which you can see if your post background is set to dark mode on the app #or if you open this blog on pc #2022

[jacksintention]

Concerning the conversation about love and hatred, I've compiled a few of the lines I've saved through these last two years that at times make me think of Jack when it comes to this topic

Estas manos, que son tuyas,

pero que al verte quisieran

quebrar las ramas azules

y el murmullo de tus venas.

¡Te quiero! ¡Te quiero! ¡Aparta!

Que si matarte pudiera,

te pondría una mortaja

con los filos de violetas.

¡Ay, qué lamento, qué fuego

me sube por la cabeza!

(...)

¡Ay qué sinrazón! No quiero

contigo cama ni cena,

y no hay minuto del día

que estar contigo no quiera,

porque me arrastras y voy,

y me dices que me vuelva

y te sigo por el aire

como una brizna de hierba.

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Love has no middle term; either it destroys, or it saves. All human destiny is this dilemma. This dilemma, destruction or salvation, no fate proposes more inexorably than love. Love is life, if it is not death. Cradle; coffin, too. The same sentiment says yes and no in the human heart. Of all the things God has made, the human heart is the one that sheds most light, and alas! most night.

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It is sometimes said that the sword wears out the scabbard. That is my history. My passions have made me live, and my passions have killed me.

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Stronger than lover’s love is lover’s hate. Incurable, in each, the wounds they make.

I adore you, but I hate you too. You’re a prison smothered in flowers. I can’t stand this enchantment anymore, I can’t stand being bewitched like this–when I look at you, my gaze turns to nothing but a mirror of light, I’ll stare at you hypnotized for ages, and when I stop seeing you I’ll feel you, and when I stop feeling you I’ll die.

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Someone tells me: this kind of love is not viable. But how can you evaluate viability? Why is the viable a Good Thing? Why is it better to last than to burn?

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Life is a series of obsessions one must do away with. Aren’t love, death, God, or saintliness interchangeable and circumstantial obsessions?

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she is the only thing of importance, because I have a God-relationship to her.

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it is not she who binds me, but I who have made use of her to bind myself.

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The thought that you exist is so divinely blissful in itself that it is ridiculous to talk about the everyday sadness of separation—a week’s, ten days’—what does it matter? Since my whole life belongs to you.

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What have you done with me? he asks. I have repeated you.

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But I do feel strange-almost unearthly. I’ll never get used to being alive. It’s a mystery. Always startled to find I’ve survived

Walking home, for a moment / you almost believe you could start again. / And an intense love rushes to your heart, / and hope. It's unendurable, unendurable

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I clung to him as though only the one who had inflicted the pain could comfort me for suffering it.

I could be free … If I could pluck out the memory of him from my heart as easily as his heart was plucked from the fire, I could be free.

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I am imprisoned by devotion. I shy away from people. I am alone. I fall into depression.

She was the world That he was losing; and the world he sought Was all a tale for those who had been living, And had not lived. Once even he turned his horse, And would have brought his army back with him To make her free. They should be free together. But the Voice within him said: “You are not free. You have come to the world’s end, and it is best You are not free. Where the Light falls, death falls; And in the darkness comes the Light.

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I miss you like a knife in my throat.

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Only love can save me and love has destroyed me.

Should I be grateful or should I curse the fact that despite all misfortune I can still feel love, an unearthly love but still for earthly objects?

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My songs are filled with poison - Why shouldn’t that be true? My heart bears a nest of serpents And also, darling, you.

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their love is like hatred

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She did not yet love him enough to be cruel to him.

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our hatred is almost indistinguishable from our love

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under the sincere guise of hatred I simply loved […], only in this type of love (repulsion) I loved him with greater strength than had I loved him in the simplest form — attraction.

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Perhaps he was handsome, perhaps I found him attractive, perhaps he repelled me too.

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Struck by the abstract nature of absence; yet it’s so painful, lacerating. Which allows me to understand abstraction somewhat better: it is absence and pain, the pain of absence—perhaps therefore love?

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Eroticism is the brink of the abyss. I’m leaning out over deranged horror (at this point my eyes roll back in my head). The abyss is the foundation of the possible. We’re brought to the edge of the same abyss by uncontrolled laughter or ecstasy. From this comes a “questioning” of everything possible. This is the stage of rupture, of letting go of things, of looking forward to death.

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Love is madness. Doesn’t everyone agree that you’d do anything, endure anything, to be with the ones you love? So either you’re willing to let them use you with any sort of cruelty, so long as they keep you—which makes you a fool—or you’re willing to commit any cruelty, so long as you get to keep them—which makes you a monster. Either way, it’s madness.

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This madness is so deep-rooted and so useful that it is impossible to realize what would become of each of us if it were someday to disappear.

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If I must die of fire, why not let me die of yours: knowing that you are the author of my doom will make it more endurable to me

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His desire for loyalty was naive, he hadn’t understood that being loyal wasn’t so tidy, being loyal means being disloyal to everything else.

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I have always loved you / Always dreaded you

You will betray me, as I have betrayed, / And I shall kiss the hand that does me wrong

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Listen: the way I loved you / was like my palm over a flame.

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If I have the destruction of something that I once loved to carry with me at all times, isn’t it like I still have a companion?

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One can fall in love and still hate.

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and I will kill thee, And love thee after.

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Yet, other characters, namely Heathcliff, Catherine, and Lockwood, remain more actively at war with love in their adult lives. Some force, as inexorable as the wind sweeping over the moors, seems to have bent their lives into a pattern of frustration that their own struggle for relief only aggravates. Their need for love is expressed, not through loving, but through the anguish of loneliness. Paradoxically, though they do not know it, this loneliness is the one condition necessary for the fulfillment of their most profound fantasy concerning perfect love: a love, that is, perfectly protected against the threat of abandonment that in childhood these sufferers learned that love entails.

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I feel you there, in every pore. Your silence clamors in my ears. You can nail up your mouth, cut your tongue out — but you can’t prevent your being there. Can you stop your thoughts? I hear them ticking away like a clock, tick-tock, tick-tock, and I’m certain you hear mine.

Odi et amo. quare id faciam, fortasse requiris? nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.

I hate and I love. Why do I do this, perhaps you ask? I do not know, but I feel it happen and it is excruciating.

#These were just the ones I had more at hand. I have so many lines linking to this kind of dynamic #and overall the paradoxical yet logical bond between love and hatred or resentment #I think Cathy's and Heathclif.f's relationship has a lot of this but in general Wutherin.g Heigh.ts is full of these dynamics #(I adore what is going on with Isabella when we last see her in that regard. How true‚ the fact that these loves get messy) #Charles and Adam and even Cal and Aron from Eas.t of Ede.n too #I think there's much of this explored in certain arthuria.n texts #Overall it's something I adore. The blurring of lines when it comes to feelings and relationships #To me it feels way more human and way more... realistic #How things blur into each other and get messy and dark even at times and hard to define #I don't know... I really think the fandom as a whole is always paying too much attention to that line without reading the entire text #I also dislike the claims about Jack ever only loving her and doing it all for her ✨💕 I also think it simples a lot what it's happening #But it doesn't bother me nearly as much because I don't see it that often #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #'too much attention to that line' I mean the one about hating her #Full of typos but I can't bother to change them I'm feeling very lazy #Tumblr never implemented the tag modification for the app. A pity

[moe-broey]

The Amy comparison is actually gonna drive me sicko insane like. At First I was ABSOLUTELY imagining Ratatoskr like movie Sonic spying on Tom and Maddie and eventually (after many antics) getting forcefully adopted. But the Amy comparison is actually driving me SOOOOOOO INSANE BEYOND any superficial level bc of Classic Amy's entire fucking backstory. Idk I haven't been deeply autistic about the Sonic series in a hot minute but she literally foretold her meeting with Sonic, her idol, and first thing she does is hug him and come on WAY too strong (Sonic CD) and LITERALLY. OPENING CUTSCENE. LITERALLY WHAT RATATOSKR DOES. TO ALFONSE

Which like to be super fucking clear I'm insane about it in an aromantic way where like I'm p sure a part pf Amy's lore is she has severeee abandonment issues which is why she dreams of true love and why she comes on SO strong w Sonic who's both an idol and a love interest but if you're Insane you could read it as the romanticization of romance itself anf Sonic is just the face she puts to it. Because she does geniuenly look up to and respect him.

And like the comparison IS very loose and there is so much more going on here w Ratatoskr and with Alfonse, together and separately. I'm just trying to parse out the dynamic while also still avoiding a romance here bc I'm not interested in that angle. Mostly cause I can't really see Alfonse ever returning any romantic feelings Ratatoskr could have, and also I am absolutely fascinated more by the angle that Alfonse is an idol to her that may Look like a crush. Also I just stilll think yhe mistranslation was so fucking funny I am still so diehard about the possibility of them ultimately being siblings. Man who cannot stop collecting sisters. Sisters Georg

#ratatoskr #like i don't mean to blur the lines here in a weird way i'm also just still figuring shit out #as someone on the aro spectrum who has a lot of discomfort w romance and is also endless fascinated by dynamics #that exist outside of romance #i'm also trying to figure out how the hell moe fits into any of this. ESPPPPPP bc of how EXTREMELY SIMILAR ratatoskr/moe are. #it's insane actually. i feel like they're opposite ends of the same continuum. and somehow #alfonse is supposed to feel two very distinct ways about these guys here #but also i don't want to do it in a way that feels about to ratatoskr like if anything feels bad i'm gonna throw and and cry #much like. how ratatoskr is gonna throw up and cry. #i'm cooking SOMETHING and it is silly but i think it may just come down to the fact that moe is a freak. #whatever the fuck moe has going on. it's like enrichment for him. #i. don't think i'm maintagging alfonse here i'm so sorry. i'm burdened by the knowledge that someone outside of my circle might see #and just completely misinterpert me and killl me pn yhe spot. SAD.

[knowlesian]

one of the most valuable life skills is discerning the difference between “this is bad” and “this is not for me”

#sometimes things are not for me BECAUSE they suck #sometimes… they’re just not for me #and since we don’t really culturally do a lot to incentivize knowing the difference and we do encourage thinking it’s always the same #it’s genuinely helpful to consider: is this thing bad or do i just not like it #i fucking hate raw carrots for example #no idea why they just don’t taste good and i hate the texture and always have #i might say “carrots are gross” jokingly but i need to be aware no they’re not #theyre just gross to me #and this sounds so simple but somehow it is very much not #i know this feels like a duh but it’s shocking how often i blur that line despite knowingfull well there IS a difference #and doing a pretty basic check on bad/not for me actually does a lot of deeper work in the long run #it allows me to interact with people the thing in question is for in a much less combative way #and to have a view of the world that doesn’t quietly assume my subjective preferences are empirical fact #little tools for big change in the longrun are a fav ngl

[dutybcrne]

Fake dating/fuckbuddies with a hearty helping of requited unrequited love plots my Absolute Beloveds-

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Its about #//Person A proposing the arrangement bc they are hopelessly Down Bad for B but don’t think they’d feel the same way #//So they come up with a pretense so they can have even SCRAPS of the love they want; even if it hurts knowing it’s ’not real’ #//Meanwhile B is actually Very Much also pining and agreed for the Very Same Reasons #//And now they are both Aching but also Thriving on having their affections returned; even if in that brief moment #//Until one or both start flubbing things up and lines start blurring and suddenly what they have is NOT enough #//And either or both break the ice and ‘admit they caught feelings’ #//Either bc one tried to break things off bc it got Too Real and painful; or it impulsively happened in a Moment #//And they BOTH realize they’ve been dumb fucken idiots this whole time #//Bonus if they butt head fucken CONSTANTLY before all this #//Yes I read a good fucken hk.vh fic; NOBODY LOOK AT ME jdhfb #//But yeah; holy SHIT #//This trope combo is like crack cocaine to me in fics

[lollytea]

Because of being such slow and clumsy typer Hunter would write text drawfts before hand(in notepad so he d copy and paste), speculating how the conversation would go.

Also beside sending flapjack pics he d for sure infodump her about plants (after a while) (she d infodump back + send pics of clover and her plants)

//they both are such lovable dorks pls i need s3 not to make it into any kind of big love story but teenagers crushing/in love pleasee

He initially typed Like That (h.EELlo) because he was rushing himself to get the texts out. He worried that if he took too long, she'd lose interest in the conversation. But eventually he gets more accustomed with the keypad and only makes typos as often as the average teen. And when he's Not talking with Willow, he likes scrolling through their chat log. Makes him smile. However he cringes an awful lot because he used to be really REALLY bad at typing.

Once he's realized that she's not gonna ghost him if he doesn't answer her immediately he's comfortable enough to take some time to draft what he's gonna say. He even weighs the pros and cons of specific terminology. He's like "should I use this word? It's a big word. Shows her I'm smart and I know big words. Or maybe it'll come across as pretentious. Should I use the word pretentious? It's also a big word and it shows I'm smart but--"

But once they get in The Zone (i.e. a common interest in the usage of plants in magic.) he stops worrying about structuring his texts so much cuz he just gets carried away with all the yammering. She's also yammering. He likes that. Makes him feel less annoying. And he likes to read what she has to say. She's really smart.

(I admire people who have standards and actual wishlists for what they want for Hunter and Willow's relationship in season 3 but listen to me. Listen very carefully. I am starved for them to just have a single goddamn interaction. Hunter called Willow by her name in King's Tide and it was barely audible and it sustained me for weeks. I will take whatever the fuck this show chooses to give me. They could go all the fuck out with fireworks. They could never acknowledge Hunter's crush ever again. Just so long as they INTERACTION. I am starving, for the love of God.)

#i dont entirely understand what the definition of a big love story is #and how it differs from teenagers having dorky crushes #considering lumity IS the former but like. they are the silliest most awkward disasters ever #so im pretty sure the crew is gonna remain accurate to how teens clumsily navigate romance #but also also #gotta keep in mind #hunter loves willow so much. platonically #like he loves her and gus to pieces #so what they have is like. a very deep and very strong platonic bond #but also. he has a silly crush on her at the same time #this might kinda blur the lines on how their relationship unfolds #they could have a poignant scene or two that demonstrates just how much they care about each other #but would hunter's feelings existing automatically make these scenes inheritently romantic #idk idk. i have very tangled feelings about this relationship #and how it kinda interweavea between platonic and romantic and neither are lesser factors than the other #i dont know how to articulate this properly so im just rambling #cannot grasp at the point im trying to make #this might be unrelated to the point i started with. anyway #huntlow

[todayisafridaynight]

Loving all the Mine chat today! In a world where neither of them have Daigo to fixate on (for whatever reason) what do you think interactions between Mine and Masato/Aoki would be like? All your comics have them obv pitted against one another (always gives me a giggle gotta say!!) but I'm curious bout your thoughts on them/their potential interactions if Daigo wasn't part of the equation. I think they could be so evil together in whatever capacity. Real "I could make him worse" territory.

Sorry if this is a bit silly (I know removing Daigo removes a lot of other things too) I just love listening to you talk about guys ™️ lmao

i am a renowned Guy(TM) Talker this is a fair thing to assert

BUT honestly they'd probably like. not be friends or Sincerely get along but they'd probably use each other one way or another if given the opportunity: aoki wanting to exploit mine's skills, knowledge, and wealth, all the while mine At Least keeping an eye on aoki's influence (and if he wanted to do his homework probably keep tabs on the arakawas) and considering if it'll have potential use down the line. it's not like it's hard to imagine them having similar ideologies or morals either

mine'd absolutely loathe aoki's pride in his philosophy tho- even if it does align with his own somewhat LMAO

#snap chats #tl;dr they could be collaborators that hate each other #aoki'd prob be gaga over mine's potential use to him tbh lol #LIKE yes mine generally has a distrust of people and doesnt believe in them but at his core he also wants to #hence why he'd just. despise aoki's blatant narcissism LMAO its a gross mirror to look at #at the very least mine wasnt proud of his philosophy when he told kiryu about it. it seemed more of an unfortunate fact of life #very big difference compared to to aoki's enthusiasm and almost giddiness to use and dispose of people #all the while without harboring /too deeply/ of a want to connect with others #evidently we find out deep in his evil black little soul he did want SOME kind of connection and normalcy #but it wasn't as. so to say as much of a 'romantic' want as it was for mine #and i dont mean in terms of ACTUAL romance just in that. take mine joining the yakuza for example #he had a very romantic idea of 'the bonds between men' and so on and so forth #like ultimately his goal was sincere relationships- all the while aoki's goal was. ???? #like i KNOW what it is but as a person.. scratching my head now that i actually have to label it #i guess he really did want admiration from others in the end and to not feel so 'weak' or 'broken' anymore #idk i guess the lines can blur if you try hard enough but im rambling LOL bye

[vegaseatsass]

Theory of Love is definitely one of the hardest BLs to take seriously that I've watched so far (NOBODY SPOIL ME PLS I am up to ep6 and hoping we're gonna switch at some point from Gun POV to Off POV and turn the perspective on its wet-from-water-bottle-showering head, but I don't KNOW for SURE so don't tell meeee) but one thing I'm really vibing with is just how well it captures the sheer disastrousness of disastrous gay friendships!!!

I don't love watching a bunch of dudes be toxically masculine @ every girl that walks past them (though I understand that this performance is the sibling to the boy craziness I performed at all the girls I was in love with in grade school), but I just love the dynamic within the friends group of like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? WHY ARE OUR FRIENDS SUDDENLY ALWAYS MAD AT EACH OTHER??? WHERE IS ALL THIS DRAMA COMING FROM?????

The drama is coming from Disastrous Queer Friendship. From two friends who cannot/will not communicate how they feel for each other or why "just" friendship is not working. There is no escaping it my guys all you can do is ride the ship through the storm at your bros' side

#and to be very fair to bone and two they ARE doing their level best to ride that ship through the storm so far!! #no idea what's happening one minute to the next who is in love with who who is mad at who whose side to take #but they are gonna stay in it with their bros!!! support whoever has a crush on whoever!! keep the Gang together through hell or high water #i'm watching this very quickly for me b/c i neeeed that pov switch lol i am going to be fr disappointed if we don't pov switch #BUT DON'T SPOIL ME!!!!!!!!!! #theory of love #dear diary #it's jsut interesting because if i watched this idk 10 years ago i'd be very annoyed w/ both third and khai for a lot of their behavior #third being sooooo bitter every time khai kisses a new girl khai treating third's housework and support the way a spoiled kid does his moms #but it's all just so real in a Disastrous Gay Friendship (tm) #it is so hard to unblur and untangle all the different blurred tangled lines and actually communicate past the giant feelings #when third was like 'i meant to be the third thats his friend but i once again ended up the third thats in love w him. i'm angry at myself' #SO REAL! #he knows he is being unfair but he cant HELP it he doesnt know how to navigate his way out of the role he's caged himself in #friendship isn't a cage but it's real easy to convince yourself it is when you see your queer feelings as a threat to that friendship #and it's real easy to see queer feelings as a threat to friendship if you live in a society!!!! #lol this is prob all self-evident but i am just truly enjoying the messiness #back at it again in the shower with my clothes on. bawling.

[1dhq]

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#i thought about those anons i received yesterday again #not the content or the tone #but about what it says about the so-called parasocial relationship with louis #i know louis‘ and our fan relationship is special #but if everything surrounding that is so consuming #i don’t think it’s healthy to stay tbh #not because you‘re not wanted here #but because there’s a line of separation has become very blurred #we are not his saviours #or know him/his life better than he himself or people who are actually close to him #we have no obligation to stay #so i would implore people to ask themselves #is this still making you happy or does it feel like a chore? #if it still makes you happy #would you say that feeling is stronger than other feelings? #sorry for the long text #but my mind was stuck on this