#the middle girl in the line up is ME

[hellafluff]

Body diversity in Dwarven Women,,,,, Ryoko Kui marry me

#crying screaming etc #the middle girl in the line up is ME #i am also appreciating the variety of fantasy underwear #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dwarves #dwarf #crazee talk

[sea-jello]

@nyaskitten tumblr ate your fucking ask uhh ignore how this is months later BUT i finally watched dr s2 AND

I GET IT NOW. I UNDERSTAND.

#i was asking for art recs and you said cinder back in like. december. if you dont remember #v messy please give me a clear ref without the fur thing and with the shoulder pads please please #google refs are 5 by 5 pixels and either youtube thumbnails or minifigs #what’s going on with his design by the way. why does he have blades strapped to him #pretend his hair is smokey okay idk how to draw smoke #when i saw his design before s2 came out i clocked him as a cold tundra ish terrain design cause of the fur and the wolves #so i gave him like winter gloves even tho that’s unpractical for him but whatever #something about his hair being smokey the way your breath fogs in the cold you understand #the crosses and lines on his armor idk i searched up samurai armor cause i have no idea what they’re supposed to be #he’s a middle aged man to me so it’s kinda funny he’s beefing with a teenager (jordana) #i wanted to see a grudging solidarity under the cat guys rule sort of relationship but no the girls are fighting i guess #what happened with the old guy by the way how does that timeline work #cinder would have to be born after s4 and there’s NO CHANCE this guy is younger than kai #did the pacing of this season feel weird to anyone else or have i just not watched ninjago for too long #anyways #ninjago #lego ninjago #dragons rising #ninjago dr s2 #ninjago cinder #cinder ninjago #i hope thats his name i dont rember #ninjago dr spoilers #sort of #jellos scribbles

[rabble-dabble]

and by the way i fucking deserved better. you came back with your hand held out and asked me to love you again like i was a fool, like you knew i wanted you to do but you forgot friendship is a two way street and i loved you deeper than you loved yourself. i heard myself in your words and i knew the answer before you asked the question because i spent a year grieving and a year growing and another two years healing and three more years forgetting and you sent me a message asking me to forgive you as if i already hadn't done so. you asked to try again and i almost became the fool that did it because once upon a time we were best friends then we weren't and i cried at night wishing you'd come crawling back to say those words to me again. and i thought of all the ways i could tear you apart with my teeth before carefully mending you back together with my sparkly glue and my shaky sowing needle.

but in reality i knew if i let you in again that i could forgive you but i'd never be able to forgive myself. i'd be looking into the past and spitting into the face of the kid who gave up everything he felt about you to become me and i needed to let you go like the sand between my cupped hands. the ocean cleans away the grit and leaves seashells in them. its a reminder that there are still things to find and cherish. i deserve to love the world and you will not be a part of it. i am not sorry for that.

#text post #rabble poem #friendship #vent #the audacity of ex best friends to message you like 'hayyyyy' #begone bitche #and also imagine my face when i find out my message to her was in the echo of the vent letter i wrote in a vent book #i could forgive her but i'd never forgive myself <- fav line btw. no i am not being normal about it #also yeah i blocked her ass she was like 'i miss youuuuuu i miss our friendshiiiip' #girl. 6 years too late what. we homoerotically broke up /queer platonically in MIDDLE SCHOOL move ON #me as i say the most fucked up writing possible. listen i deserve it i was normal about it for like a MONTH #imagine my surprise when i open my facebook messanger at work and i see her name like i almost threw away the whole damn phone #she said she couldnt stop thinking about me tho like LMAO i live rent free in ur head?? have fun with that bye <3

[bumblingbabooshka]

What being Sarek’s Favorite Child Does to a Motherfucker AKA: Mutiny Specialist

[Comic One Transcript] Michael looks off to the side as she speaks with Spock. They are both children. It is implied that Spock has asked Michael to tell Amanda she loves her. M: Why don't you just tell Amanda you love her? Instead of trying to live vicariously through my humanity. Spock appears flustered, caught off guard by the accusation. S: That's not-! I am simply... You are the only one who can do it, Michael! You are the only one and yet you will not- you will...not...n-not... Michael’s gaze stalls Spock’s tongue. Her expression is impassive with a hint of distain. Real or perceived? Her control is iron clad, unlike her Vulcan brother’s. Spock stops speaking, intimidated and suddenly self-conscious. He has seen this look before.  S: Those eyes...the eyes of Vulcan. [Comic Two Transcript] An adult Michael looks tired and disgruntled, vaguely annoyed. She has wrapped a ratty blanket around herself and she is speaking to Spock, ostensibly out of view. M: Spock, I could have spent every second of our childhoods telling Amanda how much I loved her. Seeking out and receiving hugs, kisses and praise. It would still never have been enough for you. You would still resent me. Because it was never about me and my (real or imagined) distance from Amanda. It was about yours. Michael pulls the blanket tighter around her. She looks remorseful. Her previously iron clad control has softened to a circle. M: ...And I am sorry. I'm sorry you could never say you loved her. None of us could, in the end...I wish I could have said it for you. I wish I could have held her for you. But I think you would have only hated me more if I did. [END]

#Michael Burnham #Michael Burnham art #Michael is paler when she's in her freshly-graduated form bc she just stayed inside studying all day #Michael and Sybok mirroring each other with Spock in the middle.... #Human girl who acts Vulcan VS Vulcan boy who acts Human #and then Spock's in the middle #Michael being very conscious about how she carries herself how she phrases things what her face is doing etc etc etc is real to me #I haven't watched a single episode or clip of discovery this is all off the dome #Sarek seems like the type of guy to subconsciously pit his children against each other (does not mean to) #Shows Michael clear favortism bc she's the most 'well behaved' (acts most in line with what he views as Properly Vulcan) #Michael's trouble with facial expressions comes from multiple things #No one around her using facial expressions while growing up on Vulcan + Michael's own anxiety around what her face is doing causing her to #overthink even when she does want to make an expression + I can imagine her consciously training herself not to do things like laugh/smile #Michael favored Sarek over Amanada and Spock favored Amanda over Sarek #and by 'favored' Sarek I mean she spent more time with him. She doesn't really know if she likes him or not...she...it's complicated #She knows him better than Spock or Sybok do but Sarek knows very little about her v_v #I also like the thought of Michael's vocal inflections being a bit off to humans because she was raised amongst Vulcans #Anyway yeah Michael being More Properly Vulcan than Spock despite being fully human is a nice concept to me #angsty #Girl who is your sister and you love her but also a symbol of your own inadequacy so you hate her #star trek #star trek art #that's all for now #Michael: (monotone) that's really funny. (pause. grimace) /I/ MEAN it. #I don't know what Michael and Spock's canon relationship is - again this is just my own heart talking #they love each other so much but also problems problems problems #bea art tag #comic transcripts under the cut bc I know how I format text is confusing and small #Spock #Sarek

[garbagequeer]

the only girl i'll ever love is andrew in drag ass day today -> 😁

#11am wake up. put on castiel outfit. go to my lesbian reading club. talk to the lesbians comma middle aged #they compliments my outfit. i think i dont have time to explain why i (femme) wore this today. i say yeah im doing butch today #they go yesss girl fluidity slay. but it's castiel. #see my friend she compliments my outfit. i pull up castiel image on my phone. she goes oooh cause he was gay right? RIGHT #we talk shit crazy amounts of shit talked. friend leaves wishing me a good castiel fag day #i run into people from my other book club in line for the magnetic fields #magnetic fields play. singer stays a while signing stuff. and the only thing i have on me is giovanni's room #great use of 12 hours #look its my face

[bluejaybytes]

Anyways this is Jenna and Maggie to me. Maggie wakes up and realizes she was murdered and Jenna's like damn ! I wonder if they made a Forensic Files episode about you. and then she does not say that

#my OCs #listen i know I said Jenna was a 'regular person' in comparison to Maggie but let me be clear. She's a massive weirdo #its just that Maggie eclipses everyone with her weirdness being on previously unseen levels #Jenna finds a teenage girl passed out in a field in the middle of the day and instead of getting medical help she just kinda hangs around #She didnt believe in ghosts prior but when Maggie tells her she sees ghosts her reaction is 'okay makes sense' #She basically instantly latches onto Maggie and vows to help her based off of. basically nothing #BUT THATS PART OF THE POINT. #Jenna has a horrendously shitty homelife that she wants ANY excuse not to go home #and helping Maggie is a way to get there. Of course- it all IS real so she ends up sticking around out of more than just not wanting to go- #-home- but that doesnt mean Jenna isn't any less weird for just. attaching herself to the first person her age that lets her #the point is theyre both intensely lonely! Jenna by force and Maggie by choice! Their bond with each other is them breaking out of that!!! #NOW: ARE THEY DATING? great question! they dont know either #they're both allergic to communication so neither of them talk about it but they definitely blurring the lines there

[maddy-ferguson]

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying) #we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time? #and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭 #like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

[deregirls]

Actually crying over that comic thinking about the strangers I think about all the time

#💝 #the girl that BELTED let it go with me during one of the magic kingdom fireworks shows #the two girls that looked to be in middle school or so #that swam up to me while i was floating in the wave pool at the waterpark #just to tell me they think im pretty #the person who photobombed a selfie i took at disney world #they were wearing a red raincoat bc it had been raining all day #and were standing all dramatically w a peace sign #so many people ive talked to in line at theme parks

[moophinz]

#h u h #what does it mean RGG #that is certainly a thing that is going to happen I guess #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #like a dragon #lad8 #y8 #I will now use the rest of the tags to rant #I REALLY hope this isn’t about to be a romance focused game I detest the majority of romantic media in any capacity #I’m well aware of the fact that the game is apparently going to have a huge plot but personally I’m not a fan of someone trying to #sell me something under the idea it’s heavily linked to romance in someway #yeah I know that this is only a fraction of things to come but this Ichiban/Saeko stuff feels really out of left field #nothing in 7 set that up and I’m sitting here like oh god help I’m so confused #it doesn’t help matters that I also don’t care for lead boy lead girl romances unless someone can ACTUALLY put effort into them and do #a good job crafting the relationship #I have no idea where this is going at all or where it even came from #feels like I’ve been thrown into the middle of point A and point B but I can’t see either of the points like a line that blurs either way #into the distance #and what does Kiryu mean with what he said??? #if they throw another lady at him I’m going to roll off a cliff #being honest I don’t feel hyped right now I just feel deeply confused over well literally everything #I’m just soooooooo completely lost 💀💀 I really hope they start connecting the dots eventually #so yeah on a personal level I feel very 😐🤨 about what they’ve shown so far #the America thing is curious but nothing major but the everything else is h u h? #RGG is taking me on a hell of a bumpy road and I keep hitting the roof of the car

[muirneach]

‘modern country music isnt conservative!’ i cry, as i press play on a colter wall track for the millionth time

#i feel like hes every left-aligned country liker’s guilty exception #we do tastefully ignore that hes the SON OF AN CONSERVATIVE PREMIER because he. idk. carefully toes the line of centrism? #and cause his songs are so good….. #honestly he cracks me up sometimes like these lyrics girl what are you on about. ur dad… #its like hank williams iii to me but worse because hes the son of a very important politician. like be real #not a nepo baby. something much worse. esp for the genre hes in #anyways hes doing a good job of being a centrist and everyone loves him so idc #he was honestly the first country musician i listened to of my own volition way back in middle school #grew up listening to country ofc but he was my first new find #tbh i dont even listen to him much these days but occasionally ill listen. hes good 🤷‍♂️ #anyways. last time i talked about colter and his dad i got a hate anon about it LMFAO so we’ll see what happens next

[kittlyns]

Just got a check from the IRS that cured my depression

#at least for a month or so 🥹 #apparently my taxes got fucked up so they owed me that + interest so girls.... fast food dollar menu is on me tonight ✨️ #no but fr I can make a substantial dent in my credit card debt and have a bit left over for savings which is HUGE #since the whole phone incident wiped me out #my mom was saying stupid shit like 'it gets bad before it gets better' but for once she was actually right. even if it's just briefly #I actually cannot stress how much this means to me and I think I might actually cry in a minute #I try not to complain much cuz I know there are so many people worse off than me but it really has been bad lately #and I don't really have anyone to talk to it about irl cuz my family can't help so they'll just feel bad and suggest I work more #and my friends are people who (while I love them dearly) HAVE family who are fully capable of helping them financially without trouble so #they're always like 'just ask ur mom' and I always have to explain that there is literally not a single member of my family who has savings #like I said I do love them but that is the one area that frustrates me the most. they joke about growing up poor when in reality they were #actually middle class and then I was born and raised well under the poverty line and don't remember a time we werent on WIC or food stamps #I'm a little bitter about it. esp because they still rely on family to help and that's never been nor is it going to be an option for me. #but whatever. little rant over. tonight I can go to bed knowing I can cover my bills this month and hopefully next month is better #time for me to go have a cathartic cry.

[eggsnatcheskneecaps]

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#no because my parents have always been so weird to me from a medical standpoint #or abusive? neglectful. I don't know what i could possibly call this but #my Nystagmus. barely doing any research WHEN THEY ARE DOCTORS it's not like they don't know how to look stuff up #barely giving me any information on it. which crashed badly a few years ago when the dude at one of those glasses shops got scared by not #being able to give me full vision which promoted my parents into bullying me about possibly going blind and trying to twist it into being #my phone's usage fault. when low and behold! we go to an actual doctor. my vision didn't increase or decrease much and she says that #Nystagmus cannot be 20/20 THEN MY MOM STILL TRIES TO PROVE IT'S THE PHONE'S FAULT #also how they treated my Lyme Disease when i was little but I'm not. talking about that publicly. #and the fact that they were completely obsessed with the idea that I'd have a speech impediment back in the day #which was probably caused by the fact my sibling was Learns Very Early How To Talk And Does It Really Well flavour of autistic and I was #Barely Talks Very Late And Badly flavour of autistic #which meant they would force speech classes down my throat and when the teachers would go 'Nothing actually wrong with this kid' they'd #send me somewhere else #also the constant 'If you don't learn to talk correctly everybody will think you're stupid and they won't talk to you' which ok. ableist. #anyway the 'speech impediment' was your average 4 y o cannot pronounce r which i got over and they were still turning my life into hell #over it years down the line which meant i was in middle school convinced i had a speech impediment which at that point #WOULD HAVE BEEN A HEALTH ISSUE BUT WE DON'T TALK ABOUT THAT DO WE MOM/DAD #and i realised I don't only because my best friend went 'girl tf no you don't' #that is without to mention my father tried to ask me if i wanted surgery for my (inexistent) speech problem because he heard it fixed #someone else's kid problem #also in middle school i had some blood tests and they supposedly came back saying I'm anemic + i had strep but they didn't do anything #about that and at most blamed my anemia on my period which. i should probably get myself some bloodtests as an adult lol #then there is the one time they forced me to go to school with a mcfucking fever lol lmao #oh and also i would try to talk to them about these weird head tremors/seizures i have and they once again tried to blame it on my phone #only for my mom to see me having one recently and go 'oh yea lol i have them too it's normal' yes thank you /s #and they generally don't listen to me trying to sound the alarm about possible health issues i have unless my brother points them out... #aaaaand there is the entire shitshow they did to me when i was diagnosed with depression and put on pills #at least they are currently nicer about me saying i have autism but they didn't take me seriously at first neither... #egg.txt #vent

[dhmis-autism]

just spontaneously developed a baby crush on a very specific humanization of my main boy. a truly shameful time of my life.

#this is horrific. #lines on a screen gave me heart palpatations in the middle of my class i give up im falling into a ravine #IM BI FOR THE RECORD. BUT WITH SUCH A HEAVY PREF FOR GIRLS IVE ONLY HAD LIKE. 3 CRUSHES ON GUYS EVER. THIS STUPID IDIOT THING GOT ME. #HES NOT EVEN REAL I HATE IT HERE #seconds from begining a career in shame based alcoholism #anyways back to drawing summer funtimes with the trio

[sailorstarr-chan4]

Me, watching any media with Real-Life Actors: "Ugh, of COURSE the Main Couple gets together with zero chemistry, build-up, or tension besides some Bullshit Miscommunication for the sake of the third act's climax 🙄 Where's the Slow Burn??? Where's the Pining??? That Jane Austen Levels of Unrequited Angst and Longing Until the Sweet Release of Inevitable--"

Also me, watching virtually anything animated or reading manga: "Insta-Love Drama go BRRRRR 😍"

#Starling ramblings #fandom stuff #shipping #romance #can I still enjoy slow burn in animation? HELL YES but I'm VERY particular #Skip Beat has ruined me; if a slow burn isn't at Skip Beat level it ain't worth it #magical girl and harems are the worst at it: they think they're writing Slow Burn when it's actually One Giant Cocktease #Inuyasha has the happy middle ground; not as delicious as Skip Beat but not NEARLY as obnoxiously teasing as harems/magical girl series #but if Flesh and Blood People are on screen? GET OUT WITH THAT INSTANT LOVE SHIT!! GIVE ME MUTUAL PINING AGONY SWEETNESS OR GIVE ME DEATH!! #meanwhile over here in the anime/manga department: *casually snorting up Insta-Love shoujo series like a line of cocaine on a bar* #and don't get me started on Disney lmao I will DIE on the hill defending instant romances in those (animated) movies!!! #this is also why my fanfiction tastes in reading and writing gear towards Established Relationship or Insta-Love/Attraction lmao #my ONE outlet for Friends to Lovers 'slow burn' are Harmony fics (most of which are oneshots anyway lmaooooo) #but that's because THAT ship is NON-CANON; if the canon source material tortured me with a cockteasing slow burn #you'd BETTER FUCKING BELIEVE that I'm throwing myself into Insta-Love shit in fics lololol

[el-im]

Cyrano (2022) dir. Joe Wright

Last Saturday the 19th, I saw you. And then a week passed in which nothing important happened. And now here I am again. 

#making my own gd post so i can be mean in the tags #films #girl if u are just gonna ignore literally all the writing of the book in favor of quips and arrhythmic beat poetry... just make a different #movie ? lmfao #this was so disappointing. i guess i should have known better than to expect for it to be good just because it was. supposed to be cyrano. #which it hardly is #but. god. idk i'd seen dinklage in a few things i thought he was really excellent in but he did Not have the cyrano presence here #and his delivery was so... so bad. which i don't think is his fault necessarily. i can't imagine a way to say the lines he was saying well #or decently #this was just. so affronting. #i dont think i can come up with any story with as much cultural weight as this where verse is so central to the story #and to see it just. eviscerated in this? hard to watch #also... SO hard to listen go. good lord. #i literally went and watched the jose ferrer 1950 movie in the middle of this to give my brain a break #but i wanted to finish it. so... here goes. #i did like how they filmed the awkward silence w them together standing above the party room but thats been the 1 high point so far #joe wright i have literally never been more disappointed in you. you let me down. #you massacred my BOY #resisting the urge to give this a 1/2 star review on letterboxd even though theres literally an hour left in it is the hardest thing i have #ever done in my entire life #i cant believe they nerfed ragueneau #this movie felt like they tried to make it a comedy but stripped it of literally all its original comedic elements #'without art' yeah u can say that again #cyraNO #oh my fuckign god

[bluemoonrabbit]

I suddenly wanted to listen to this song for the first time in ages, and it took on a whole new meaning for me. The members and I were 12-14 when the song came out, and in our teens/twenties last I listened to it. So much has happened for all of us between now and then. They've moved on to individual careers and lives– half are married, several are mothers, and I've moved to Japan and back. I'm struck yet again by just how amazing it was to have grown up together with Berryz. In honor of that, here's a translation.

I saw a movie

That made me think

I guess I'll start a diary

Somehow or other

I've kept it up for two years

It's unexpectedly

Pretty fun

I've decided

I won't reread it

At least until I graduate

I wonder if someday

When I'm grown up

I'll reread it

And cry?

I wanna have a youth

That I won't regret

But also

I won't write any lies

It's fine if it's a mess

As long as it's honest

I got a fountain pen

So I wanna try

Being a little

More grown up

But I guess

It's not like what I write

Will grow up just like that

The new kid in class

Seems kinda like a bad boy

I'm interested

But that doesn't mean I like him

One morning when I'm a grown up

I'll drink strong coffee

In one gulp

I'm never gonna stop

Laughing happily

And I wanna hang out

With my amazing friends

I'll write it in my diary

The name of the person I like

I'm never gonna stop

Laughing happily

And I wanna hang out

With my amazing friends

I'll write it in my diary

The name of the person I like

#I know no one here follows me for jpop but too bad #berryz koubou #berryz工房 #translation #jp lyrics from projecthello I do not love their english translation :/ #the magic of it is its simplicity and childishness #it captures the speech and thought patterns of a 13-14 yo so well #the line about the fountain pen always gets me #because I remember having thoughts like that #oh I have a grown up pen that means I'm grown up now #the girls are always saying that Tsunku really understood their feelings #and I think this is a perfect example of that #don't even get me STARTED in the part where Yurina #who's about to graduate elementary school #leaves her randsel behind on stage 🥺 #in Japan a randsel is like a symbol of elementary school #getting one is a huge deal #it's saying you're a big kid now #and when you go on to middle school you leave it behind as a sign that you're on your way to adulthood #I'm not crying you're crying