#there's 1 less day to wait

[la-galaxie-langblr]

screech

#tag rant incoming #the wait until results day is killing me #6 days 17 hours until I log onto ucas and see where I'm going in less than a month #time will not go faster no matter what i do I'm an anxious mess all the time and all I look forward to is going to bed so when i wake up #there's 1 less day to wait #I want to get into my first choice so so so badly and I'm not sure how I'll take it if I don't #my second choice is an equally good uni and course but it's just not the same to me #I'll go anyway if that's what ends up happening cus I know I'll enjoy it eventually but yeah #god has a plan everything happens for a reason etc etc but I'm Scared™ #ok positives #today i bought my new laptop that I've been saving for for months - there wasn't any in stock at currys so I'll have to wait for delivery #so now I can finally join discord calls and make silly PowerPoints again #the end of my job is in sight - I wasn't put on the schedule for my last week so now I just have 2 ish weeks to go #on Monday I'm going round to a friend's to play stardew valley #rwrb movie comes out tomorrow #no matter what happens on results day my friends and I are going to a gay bar in Belfast which I'm so excited for #followed by a sleepover with another friend #the future is happening very soon and it's very overwhelming but I will get through it #I am just the unfortunate combination of anxious and impatient #ellis exclaims

[wundrousarts]

For any Nevermoor fans that've ever been interested in getting their hands on the UK hardcover editions of the series, with the wonderful cover designs..... I think they might be out of print (which. makes sense with the gold foil) so. goodluck and godspeed for finding them secondhand, because it was surprisingly hard to do online.

#nevermoor #full disclosure I discovered this like a month ago but wanted to wait until all of mine arrived correctly to share just in case 🫣🫣🫣 #I was terrified they’d send paperbacks or non-UK editions instead lol #I now have three sets of first three books. mental illness. can silverborn come out already 😭😭😭 #afaik the wundersmiths are still in stock officially just based on some wording the supply is dwindling lol #got nevermoor and wundersmith in the mail the other day as I posted about. 😁. #hollowpox arrived today from a different seller and with less damage from the transit but oh well #bc one seller had 1 and 2 while another had 3. 🤷😔 lol #they do seem to be in stock signed! normally + used but I didn’t want that bc I think the neon plain sprayed edges are soooo ugly I’m sorry #also I’d love to get my books signed personally one day. all….. nine and counting of them…… lolllll…. #I have the american hollowpox signed bc I got it thru the owlcrate box which was fun! #RIP to chances of a silverborn box though now that owlcrate jr is discontinued 😭😭😭

[oatbugs]

thinking abt when i was in iran before getting femto LASIK at this insanely good eye clinic and the receptionist, without looking up, was like if ur nervous take one of these and pointed to a candy bowl full of beta blockers

#i saw the same candy bowl on like several other receptionists' tables and didn't clock it was full of tablets #anyway Irans medical care is in fact actually insane. still reeling from the fact that i got femto lasik just by calling the eye doctor #asking if he has time tmrw and he was like...yeah sure ill pop into the clinic #and also another surgery that was done like 1 or 2 days after the consultation. this isn't to say they do a rushed job #bc they are phenomenal im just baffled abt the speed of it all. ig im used to the uk where u have like...2 yr long waiting list #but tbf there are a) less qualified ppl here and b) there is def s better work life balance for medics #compared to iran #anyways #also most receptionists were like. recently graduated doctors. so theyd be on their reception shift and then when they finish that they #go straight into the clinic offices and start treating patients etc it was so sleek and fast as a process #anyway i also heard the most horrifying stories there bc this was during the protests do ppl would also come in bc like #their eyes were fucked up by gas or being beaten by the police etc etc it was rly heartbreaking sometimes

[b4kuch1n]

been scribblin with the dip pens to prepare for inking the next comic (yuuto⏫’s “origin story” kind of basically) and wow turns out I can do anything I want forever

yuuto’s new friends names of amy and linh >:]c

#UTAU #sawayama yuuto #bakuspecial #[comic tag pending] #I'll be drawing about just the beginning of this whole plot this time round. but boy oh boy if I were paid to serialize this!! #well even if I wont. I will hopefully get to chip away at it a bit at a time. over the next uhhhhh ten years #in another news. I think somethings up with the dip pens. about anything comes out looking good with them #its scary!! I kept looking at my sketches like no way these are gonna work out. but I'll do it for the practice hour #and then I do it and it always turns out pretty good. what the hells!!! thats weird!! thats kinda scary I like it!!! #and like I'm absolutely not even that good with a dip pen yet!! 1/Ive just had these for uhh. two days. and 2/my hands are NOT steady #its why u see me undo and redo a line 298473987 times twice a half hour. it was caught on stream multiple times #but!! the dip pen's making me commit to a line. and also I'm slowly internalizing that anything'd come out okay with them #as long as I have a sketch. boy oh boy is freehanding with these hard #its so. idk its so nice!! its so fun. somehow a lot less pressure than the usual stuff I do lol #I cant wait to really get into drawing this comic... I cant wait to force all of u to look at yuuto&co #you WILL see and hear my baby boy #dskjfhsjk Im so glad the senpai lets me do this. I mean even if he doesnt I will do it anyway. its just gonna suck #but Im so happy I get to do this with him actually #hehehe >:]c

[boxwinebaddie]

an uncle nina update...i mean UPHATE!

okay there's a couple lines at the bottom i didn't fill in...i don't want to talk about it...that's a problem for future me idc idc! it's done, okay?

BUT AT LONG....LONG LAST....I AM FINALLY....FINISHED fuCkiNG WRITING RM6 AND AM EDITING AND FORMATING IT ON AO3!

when i tell you there are tears in my tears...oh my god...please, clap.

i am going to start deletion progress of probably 1k worth of spaces between lines ( whoever decided that when you paste a google doc it double spaces everything...please meet me in the pit, motherfucker! ) running a fine tooth comb through everything, figuring out where certain italics/blockquote goes, writing the sh*t i put off at the end & crying to taylor swift loudly over the sound of my cracking fingers.

but first...i am taking...a nap....or i'm gonna try. #freeunclenina

because i pulled a writer girl all-nighter.

...and brain hurty so, so bad.

-uncle nina, making miracles happen on the last day of nanowrimo

p.s. if you see me on here answering ask memes and being a circus clown, please close your eyes...i miss her ( my not-stressful inbox )

#call my hands and eyes shelley marsh the way they b burning #i cant believe judgement day is finally upon me #and by that i mean everyones gonna judge me for my mess #which its kind of a mess but u know what! *white mom vc* bless that mess! she is chaotic and very cute to me #i worked...hard on her #when i tell you i had to split...my original idea...into three parts...i need to go to jail #or to the insane asylum or sleep and jail again #but this is gonna be part 1 of either 2/3 i guess #buckle up #there would be less parts but i gave us a little ravenstan pov as a treat because you all waited patiently #but its mostly kyle...in rm its crazy kyle season sorry #but uh! you're all always nice to me but please be kind to me and i'm sorry if its not out by tonight #i am literally so tired like i'm typing so slow rn because my brain is so drained and my hands are strained #BUT ITS COMING GUYS! I HOPE ITS WORTH IT WHEN IT'S HERE BECAUSE WOW...I AM LAUGHING AND CRYING

[lynaferns]

School is draining any small motivation I had for art

or creativity in general

(tw: I got pretty much depressive in the tags but I needed to dump this somewhere and this may not be the best place but is where I feel better talking about my problems or insecurities, so feel free to ignore)

#vent in the tags #tw vent #i'm tired #and I hate that I'm tired #everytime I try to finish education is worst than the last time. my head can't take any sort of information from the class #no matter how many times they try to explain me or how many times I read and reread the same text #I can't focus. I can't memorize anything. I'm just sitting there in the classroom waiting for the 4 hours to finish to go back home #and spend the rest of the night just doing nothing. staring at the walls or doomscrolling till I have to go to bed and wake up again #for another day of fighting against an stupid anxiety attack in class because I'm going to fail this again #I hate school. I fucking hate it. the most boring stressing overwhelming way of learning #having the teacher talk for 1-2 hours straight and the student listening the whole time not saying anything is stupid #it's so fucking stupid they only want them to be mindless sheeps that only listen #because if you say anything 'no. you're wrong. I'm the teacher and I know better' fucking bullshit #this system is bullshit #and how am I supposed to study a whole school year of history. biology. math etc in less than 4 months?? #everybody was like #'oh it's just 4 months and you'll be out of school!' 'in 4 months you'll get the education!' 'you can finish this in just 4 months!' #I fucking can't! I can't do this in such short time! I can't. focus. on 6. subjects at the same time. my brain can't! #and it's so fucking depressing. I have 4 opportunities to finish this. the longest it could take me is 2 years #I could just focus on 1 or 2 things each time but if I fail too many times I won't have another opportunity like this ever again #and I won't be able to finish highschool education and I. just. can't. #I'm tired of giving my biggest effort and not being enough. I'm tired of getting no satisfaction from any achievement I get #I hate so many things right now #and I have a lot more things in my head right now but I better shut up #you don't have to comfort me. it's ok. I'm not searching for confort. I just needed a place to dump my frustration or something #idk #you can ignore this #I might delete this later

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[maddy-ferguson]

what's fun about byler tumblr is that it's so cyclical i can always answer asks from weeks ago and make it seem like i just got them

#i have asks about hosegate and asexual will hcs that have been waiting for me for a month. + 1 day #just making sure i fit in...... #i'll probably wait for the next time this topic is brought up though i'm really into asks i can answer in three sentences or less these #days #or maybe i'll answer them when no one's talking about it to be different #and like i say: brf slt

[stairset]

I had Spider-Man 2 mailed to my house when I pre-ordered it and it hasn't arrived yet so I've just been spending my entire day dodging spoilery Youtube thumbnails like Tobey Maguire dodging Green Goblin's razor bats in slo-mo in that one scene.

#honestly i need to stop having games mailed to my house when i pre-order them cause it just makes it stressful to wait for them #like it just makes me nervous that they're just not gonna show up #even though that hasn't happened yet like i did the same thing with jedi survivor and mortal kombat 1 and they both arrived on the day #so like this one shouldn't be any different. ideally. #yet i get nervous about it anyway #i think part of it is these last few weeks in general have been incredibly stressful #two of the jobs i applied for got back to me at around the same time #and i gotta pick which one i wanna go forward with but i don't wanna burn bridges with either of them #so i'm basically just stringing them both along until i can pick one #and i'm still doing the online graphic design course but all the job shit is making it hard to stay caught up with that #AND i got a transaction notification for something i didn't purchase so i had to deactivate my credit card and get a new one #idk who got my credit card information or how or if i can get that money back but hopefully it doesn't happen again #basically i just need this damn game to get here on time so i'll have one less thing stressing me out #also another reason i need to stop having these games mailed to me is they always arrive in the afternoon #abd modern games take fucking forever to download onto the console #so even when you get them on the release day you gotta wait a billion hours to start playing #so when they arrive in the afternoon it basically means they won't finish downloading until well past midnight #so basically you judt gotta let it download overnight while you sleep and start it the next day #so yeah after this i should probably just go back to picking uo pre-orders at the store #especially when i get an apartment i wouldn't want the mail person just setting a $70 game on the floor outside my apartment while i'm gone #shut up tristan

[radioscientist]

I totally forgot how Doumeki starts off in the first few episodes of XXXHolic, and it amuses me to no end how he spends his interactions with Watanuki switching between “very polite/thoughtful young man” and “incredibly antagonistic because he finds it funny to rile Watanuki up”

#anime #XXXHolic #xxxholic #holic #radiowaves #*yeah it’s my Annual Rewatch I’ve been waiting all year for so I might post a lot sorry!* #*but yeah idk he obviously is less scathing later in the series but it’s a fun contrast* #*I LIKE him going out of his way to wind him up it’s great* #*just re-watched Angel (I’m doing 1 ep a day) and HONESTLY*

[agerefandom]

All Agere Requests Open!

For a couple days, I’m opening all request types, so you can request: 

one-shot fanfictions 

headcanons 

art 

moodboards

paci/agere edits 

DNI banners 

After this, I will close writing and art requests for a while to catch up, but I will still be taking moodboard/edit requests! 

Just a reminder that writing requests are not 100% guaranteed to be filled, and may depend on my motivation and my familiarity with the specific character(s) requested! Feel free to follow up on your request if you don’t see it coming out, I don’t mind. 

Art, moodboards, and edits will definitely be completed, but they might take a while, as I have a busy inbox! (currently: 29 requests waiting) 

Writing requests must come from my fandoms (see below ‘read more’), but art/moodboards/edits can come from any source, aside from youtube/bandom (including stage/content personas)! 

Fandoms I Write For

The Adventure Zone (Balance/Amnesty) Animaniacs/Pinky and the Brain American Horror Story (seasons: house & asylum) Avatar: The Last Airbender Be More Chill (musical) Boku No Hero Academia/My Hero Academia (seasons 1-4) Calvin and Hobbes Castlevania (netflix seasons 1-2) Check Please! Critical Role (campaign 2: episodes 1-82, campaign 3: episodes 1-10) Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc (game 1) Death Note Deltarune Disney movies Doctor Who (9-13, some companions I know better than others) Doki Doki Literature Club Glee Good Omens Gravity Falls Hannibal Harry Potter Homestuck (original only) Hazbin Hotel (but not Helluva Boss) Heathers (movie/musical) The Magnus Archives (season 1-4) Marvel Cinematic Universe (pre-Infinity War era) The Mechanisms Les Misérables (book/musical) Night In The Woods Ouran High School Host Club Phantom of the Opera Rick and Morty (main family cast and Pocket Mortys only) Sandman Comics Sherlock (BBC, Robert Downey Jr, and originals) Skulduggery Pleasant Star Trek (Original Series/2009 reboot) Star Wars (episode I-IX) Steven Universe (haven’t watched Future) Supernatural (seasons 1-9) Twilight Undertale (includes horrortale, underfell, underswap, and swapfell, no other AUs) The Untamed Welcome To Night Vale (episodes 1-100) The X-Files (seasons 1-4) X-Men (movies)

#edits are currently a 0-1 day wait #art is 2-7 days #moodboards are 2-7 days #headcanons are 3-14 days #and fanfictions can take a month or more depending on energy #but they might also take less than a week #it's a roll of the dice!!! #fandom agere #requests open #blog update #sfw agere

[deus-ex-mona]

tfw you really wanna be productive but you just can’t get into the right mindset to start </3

#to think that my initial plans were to finish the ramen double date event this weekend… lol #‘i’ll start on chapter 3 after playing this game for an hour!!!’ [ends up playing it for 4 consecutive hours instead] #‘i’ll rush home after visiting the laundromat and speed through 2 chapters today!!’ [ends up touring my new neighbourhood instead] #‘okay f i n e i’ll tl the entire thing today!!!! it’s sunday!!!!’ [ends up taking sporadic naps till the day ends] #and now it’s monday，i’m exhausted，and still as ✨unproductive✨ as ever… though i did manage to get through like 1/3 of chapter 3…? #then again all of these chapters are really short so i should’ve gotten more done than this… ughhhhhhhh #does anyone even read my tls anyway? much less wait for me to upload them…? i’m sure i’d be disappointing them if they did exist… #then again i’m used to being a disappointment anyway so it’s nbd… maybe. hm. oh well. #well… i’ll get the chapter up by the end of today i think… provided everything goes well… #no promises though </3 it’s all subject to whether i’m alive enough after the workday lol #also if anyone has tips on how to focus it’d be g r e a t — #inedible blubbering

[shineemoon]

ONEW’s JAPAN 1st ALBUM “Life goes on” will be pre-released digitally at midnight (June 29)

#onew #SHINee #life goes on #I've been so excited all week and finally today IS THE DAY #I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR HIS JPN DEBUT FOR YEARS AND I CAN'T BELIEVE WE ARE LESS THAN 1 HOUR AWAY

[crescentmp3]

went outside today! was quite fun ^^

#we went to the place we've been going to for... about six(?) years now #its either five or six. #they recognize me by now! #my dad had gone there while going back from work and was waiting for us #while me and my mom were going she went into her little yarn store (shes in love with crocheting/knitting) so i went ahead of her. #when i went in they were like ''is your mother not coming?'' which was very flattering account of hehe im recognizable #i had chicken wings! which means i ate like a feral cat that hadn't eaten in two days #the only times i shimmy with joy when eating food is when i eat chicken wings. by god they're so good #only if its made like my favorite little places do it. i've gone to burger king once (1) and i absolutely refuse to try anything chicken #theres many of the mainstream english-speaking-country places in super markets but i will never go there. never #they could never do it like this tiny little place we've been going to for years that have an average of zero customers at any given time. #by god i love that place. hope i get to go there for my entire time in high school #we want to move to yenibosna after im done with high school... #we were actually living there when i was an infant! we had to move due to Landlord apparently. #which happened for most of my life. #honest to god i moved every year when in elementary #which means i got to experience four (4) different elementary schools! quite an experience. #the first one i went to elementary in was all the way over in acıbadem (near other side of istanbul on a metrobus) #ahh reminds me of my best friend in first grade. her name was sümeyye i miss her but at the same time i could not care less #it was fun! it was fun. we sneaked out of the elementary during break time to go to the adjacent primary school we used to go to #reminds me fourth grade! there was a primary school next to that one too #is it called a primary school? its not a kindergarden... #oh! sorry. preschool #what was i saying? #well only god knows i cant read my tags. goodbye forever #♚ — rambling ! #oh i should talk about my day! #today in english class the teacher did a .. shoobadoowhatsit. can i stop forgetting words #is it called a verbal quiz? verbal exam? verbal something. you understand #hi i ran out of tags. i'll continue in a reblog

[iced-souls]

Bro, i go to bed at like, 9-10pm. 9:4something today. And then end up actually sleeping lie an hour later i think.

But BRO. I LITERALLY CANNOT SLEEP RN.

I GOT IDEAS JUST BEFORE BED AND NOW IM ALL GIDDY THINKING ABOUT THEM

They’re for tomorrow for school and i cant shut my mind up for it to calm down and just sleep.

Help—

#i had to express this #possibly ranting here might help actually… #ok so we’re making a trailer for a course I’m doing. #and 1. its supposed to be 2 minutes long and i think with what we’ve got so far its only like a minute or less. #2. i only have had a base idea of how its all gonna be laid out. #UNTIL NOW #I HAVE MADE A GOOD GOOD SOLUTION TO BOTH OF THE PROBLEMS #i got new scenes I LOVE and i figured out the layout/ length of scenes #and in my mind its looking EVEN BETTER than before #so now i just have to wait until tomorrow to explain to my group members what I’ve got. #and then plan a schedule for how when we do what. #and then storyboard some new scenes #and then figure out pacing of the day #etc and yeah #and then I’ve got a physics test in the morning. so i wanna finish up another project before that starts. and I’ve got the idea ever for tha #but yeah #okokokk #hopefully that rant helped; #i shall go back and try to sleep again now. #ciao— #have a good day

[solradguy]

I came to terms with the Sol kinnie thing months ago now because honestly who gives a shit, but every now and then I'll find myself in a situation where I wonder if whatever it was I was about to do was/is a pre- or post-Guilty Gear interest lol

#textpost #Most of them have been pre-Guilty Gear interests which is honestly hilarious #Like of course I don't have proof for most of it but my fursona is the funniest one #He's basically bootleg furry Sol Badguy BUT he was like that MONTHS before I got into GG #I've been thinking about this over the last few days though #Because I was doing some Queen stuff and had a thought like 'am I only doing this because my brain's weird or do I actually care' #And went through like a checklist of things. I do actually care #Sol is like frighteningly relatable though and sometimes I wish he wasn't lol #I typed this at 2am last night but saved it to my drafts instead of publishing it haha Still kinda feeling it this morning though tbh #I wish I could better articulate or find a term that describes how I relate to Sol better because 'kin/fictionkin' feels too... #Hmm.... Psycho-religious? A lot of essays I read while initially figuring this out related the kin tag to something more like a- #-Philosophy or something similar to a religion #But for me it's more like my brain filling in empty spaces within itself because No One was like me growing up and #now that I'm also trans there are even LESS people who are like me #So my brain sees a character that's similar to me and is like 'oh holy shit it's us. Let's be like that' hahah #This got really long I should've put it up in the post sorry lmfao #Anyway this is something I've done my whole life and 'kinning' is really the only term that fits what it is even if it's not a 1:1 fit #It usually doesn't bother me but knowing that some of the things I enjoy now I probably won't later once my interests shift again does #I still keep waiting for it to happen with Guilty Gear but GG is so different from anything else I've been into I'm not sure it will #Since most of the things I like about GG were things I liked before getting into it. Like heavy metal & weird scifi/fantasy #I'm not going to elaborate on how exactly I relate to Sol also. My blog is too public for that #and this post is already a little too personal #kin tag