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bambirosedoll · 9 months

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@bambi-disciple wrote a really good post on BS and if it really works (which ill link to at the bottom of this post), and while i have been on a sort BS hiatus for a little while, i wanted to write a little about some of what i have noticed for me?

At the time when id first run across it, the bimbo and hypno scene were still very cis, het, and essentialist. Most bimbofication material out there was heavily cishet. some the point of being actively transphobic. Hell, tbh a lot of it still feel pretty antitrans... but anyway...

I started listening to BS in April of 2021. I had heard of it before, and might have even listen to the initial release once or twice a few years before but had been a little reluctant to really dive into it. Id played with hypno before (ok, like lots), but BS seemed like it might want to be more extreme than i was ready for and very cis woman centric.

Skip forward a few years, and it wasnt until i started seeing some of the bimbofication and stepfordization creators making more gender inclusive content that instarted feeling a little more comfortable dipping my toe back in.

I am a trans woman. I went on hormones and socially transitioned almost two decades ago and in the kink scene for over three. I knew how to do my makeup and be cute and all those things, but like, i wasnt keeping up with them.

I was needing that internal drive and encouragement to be prettier. To push myself further. So for me it was less about self acceptance as a girl or submissive and more about wanting to be a better good girl. And i figured i might want to check out if BS could help.

Im one of those folks who would check all three of the boxes described by @bambi-disciple - wanting it to happen, beleiving it could happen, ans being aroused by the idea. Even with those they doesnt always mean automatic success. My mind often "stays awake" in trance, i am very reluctant to give up control (even when i think i want to and even to myself), and just a host of other issues which keep me from.being consistent or internal resistance to asepcts to the file. There have been some changes ive noticed tho:

* im much more open with my partners. Im still reclutant or shy to talk about my stuff, because i dont want them to be uncomfortable. But that might be more me projecting on them.

* wearing making up much more constantly again. Almost every day or at least when going out.

* pink. A lot more pink. And much more comfortable wearing pink. Previously it was all mostly black.

* eating healther. I now eat a lot more healthier. Salad are much more common for me. As well dried fruits and the like.

* much more casual in my writing. More willing to make typos and let them slide. More willing to just use txt speak and abbrevations and such.

* more comfort with posting myself on the interent, including a brief stint of doing porn sadly the latest stunt feom my stalker (hi stalker) wrecked the relationship with the studeo i was working with + i simply dont have the time with having to go into work and taking care of the family and home. Still it was super fun.

Those are the biggest changes ive noticed over the past couple years. I havent listen to BS for a few months rn. Im not really sure what my future plans are with it. I will prob stsrt up again at some point, but like i have a lot of upcoming things whjch require a lot of focus. It's like i have this desire to relapse but im holding back? Idk.

As promised, the post link. I didnt repost because it is really long and not under a cut and i wanted to be nice to my followers feeds. Sry. And if u have read this far you should check it out

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m6bjo4fu0 · 3 years

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4:12 am - spoil

Timeskip! Akaashi x gn! reader

Word count: 280

Warnings: reader accidentally staying up, fluff, Akaashi calls y/n darling

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With soft sunlight shining through the small crack of the curtain, you knew you accidentally pulled and all nighter again. Not that you didn’t have fun though. You finished the season for *favorite show/anime* and also finished the book you’ve been reading for a while. It was great until you hear a shuffle from your bed and a soft mumble following after.

“Y/n?? Darling?”

Akaashi said, softly with a deep morning voice

“Yes Keiji?”

He didn’t reply. Instead, you heard heavy footsteps approaching you.

“Did you pull an all nighter again, darling?”

Akaashi asked as he wrapped his arm around you from behind. You held his hands and replied,

“Maybe…”

“Darling I told you many times already it’s not good for you.”

“I’m sorry Keiji, sometimes I just get so involved in the story and I don’t notice the time.”

He sighed as he closed the desk lamp you used for reading. He kissed your forehead while picking you up bridal style, ready to retrieve you back to your shared bed.

“Actually Keiji… I’m a bit hungry…”

Akaashi looked at you, the weariness still in his eyes.

“Okay, the usuals and an ice latte with less sugar, is that right?”

“Hehe you got it!”

He gave a content smile at your light chuckle.

“I’ll buy you them on one condition - you stay in my arms without any attempts to leave after we finish eating.”

“Of course Keiji! I’ll be waiting in the living room!”

Akaashi knows he spoils you too much, but how could he resist when he can see the bright smile of yours?

“I love you, Keiji!”

“Love you too, don’t fall asleep before I come back.”

Author’s notes: this is so short im sry😭 so uh i started writing this at 4:30 and after 8 mins of finding icon for akaashi (i alr have one but I realized that one looks exactly like another writers so i went on Pinterest to find a new one) anyways it’s currently 5:02 am on july 2nd💛ill most likely post tomorrow tho idk

7.3.21

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