#this is pretty much my sim self hehe

[jaylver]

GOLDEN HOUR — S.JY

synopsis: a lovesick jake wasn’t going to stop himself from being impulsive and say those three words that he has been saving for another time. seeing you during the golden hour, sun beaming on your skin, looking ever so perfect, he couldn’t hold himself back. how could you blame the poor guy anyway?

pairings: non-idol!jake x afab!reader

genre: undertone of friends to lovers, fluff, cheesy confessions, romance

warning(s): profanities

wc: 889

a/n: a little self indulgent fic hehe. hope you'll enjoy this! please leave some feedbacks and reblogs are greatly appreciated! muah <3

masterlist | © jaylver all rights reserved.

Jake was in love. 

It wasn’t those typical teen romances where people dated just for the sake of experience, no, it was something more than that. A connection deep enough to etch into the skins of one another, pulling you to him and him to you, there was an undying spark that continuously lingered without extinguishing.

Jake was the embodiment of love. He was love itself. 

It was one of those days where it was only you and him, alone in his car right after he had picked you up and drove you home. But instead of leaving right away, the car was parked a few blocks down from yours, Frank Ocean’s ‘Blonde’ playing on shuffle in the background. The sky was a hue of pink and orange, telling you that it was time to head home, yet you weren’t willing to.

“Thanks for driving me home … again,” you laughed, feeling slightly embarrassed for having inconvenienced Jake, but he was thinking the complete opposite of being inconvenienced.

“It’s no problem,” Jake smiled, and no matter how hard he tried, he was still nervous around you. Maybe because he was dying to profess his love for you, confess and get you to be his, but he was holding himself back. “It’s along the way back to my house anyway,” it wasn’t.

Jake could already imagine the missed calls from his mother, text messages asking about his whereabouts, making it a routine for him to be home a little later than usual. 

“Still, I feel bad sometimes,” you shrugged out of earnest. “But I’m really grateful, though,”

“I want to do this, Y/N, don’t feel bad,” his hold on the steering wheel tightened, watching the sun hitting your skin, making it almost glitter-like. You were the most beautiful person he has ever seen.

You nodded, biting on your lips thoughtfully. “I don’t really want to leave,”

Jake swore he felt his heart stop and revive, then proceeding to beat at ten times speed. The effect of your words surely made him light headed. “Then don’t,” he joked lightly, highkey dying internally. “‘Blonde’s’ still playing! Plus, ivy is next, isn’t it your favourite song?”

“You remembered!”

Of course he did. He remembered everything about you like second nature.

“It's nothing,” he laughed, waving you off, but internally feeling giddy when he saw your beaming face. You were so, so pretty.

“It is something to me,” you said softly and truthfully, staring into those puppy eyes of his.

“I like you,” Jake blurted out, as if the words were poured out before it even went through his mind. He did not expect himself to do this at all. Fuck. 

Your wide eyes and gaped mouth only made him anxious, short silence filling the space between you two. Say something! Say something!

“I like you too, Jake,”

There it was.

“W–what?”

“Hm?” you tilted your head, looking back at Jake’s shock expression. “Did you expect a rejection instead?”

“Well—kinda—no—uh—” he was stuttering. The famous charmer Jake Sim was actually stuttering and losing his composure. 

“I like you, very very much,” you said it again, each time making Jake’s heart flutter insanely. 

“God, Y/N, you’re—” he exhaled, in disbelief that he had bagged his crush, “—everything, absolutely everything to me,”

Jake reached over for you and pulled you into his arms, squeezing you tight. The moment he let go, his eyes wouldn’t leave your face. He was taking every part of you in, gaze wandering every inch of your features as if he was memorising them.

“I—uhm—should leave, shouldn’t I?” you broke the momentary silence, noticing the time gradually slipping by. “As much as I want to stay, I don’t think my mum would approve,”

“O–oh, yeah! Sorry, I forgot,” he scratched the back of his neck awkwardly, managing a lopsided smile for you. 

“It’s okay. Text me when you reach home safely, will you?”

“I will,” he squeezed your hand in reassurance. “You should get going now,”

“I probably should,” you nodded, holding onto your things tightly. “Bye, Jakey,”

“Bye,” he breathed out, staring at you with so much love that no one else could amount to. But then, he remembered something.

“Hey—” he went to stop you before you could exit his car, “so, summer’s coming up and I was wondering if you’d like to go somewhere with me,”

“Something like a date?”

“Very much so,”

“I’d love to,”

“Cool,”

“Cool,” you repeated, snickering a little at Jake’s reddening ears. “Make sure to tell me about your plans. Bye!” you snuck a quick peck on his cheek before exiting the car and slamming the door shut, turning around to wave him goodbye before disappearing behind your front door, all while the only thing Jake could do was stay in shock.

His fingers lingered on the spot your lips had made contact with, giddiness welled up in Jake’s stomach, butterflies swarming and heart going crazy. You just had that effect on him, always, undoubtedly.

It was just two lovers, sitting in the car, listening to ‘Blonde’ and falling for each other. Tension finally broken and true feelings revealed, Jake could die a happy man right there and then. You were his golden hour, his radiant beam in the night, the love of his life, and he wouldn’t trade anything for it.

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[misseviehyde]

PINK CINEMA

"No... you can't go and see Oppenheimer with your male friends, you're coming to see Barbie with me.

Oh, I know we've already seen it once, but we're going to watch it again... and again... and again... and again!

Aren't you excited? Don't you love how it feels to be in a cinema surrounded by pretty girls and their broken boyfriends? Don't you love wearing pink and letting Barbie wash over you?

Yes... that's right. You MUST wear pink when you sit with me and the girls. Ohhhh don't worry, I have a spare pink Barbie boob-tube like this one you can wear. You'll look so hot in it.

I have lots of other pink things too. How would you like to wear one of my pink thongs? I usually wear them for my boyfriend.

No... I don't see you as a Ken, you should be a Barbie like me and the other girls. In fact - I have something else pink you could wear. Did I show you the pink chastity cage I bought? I was waiting for the right boy to use it on and now I realise it's you!

Mmmmmmh won't it be hot, sitting in the cinema next to me and my friends all caged up and leaking like a little beta-sissy? I want you all crushed and cute as we watch the movie. I want that dick beaten into submission so you don't feel masculine anymore.

Awwwww I know you think you're one of the boys, but you really aren't are you? That's why you're going to let Barbie brain wash you again and again and release your true self.

Once we've seen the movie like a hundred times, you won't even remember why you resisted. You'll just accept that you're a hot pink fem-boy.

Hehe we'll have you in a pink mini-skirt sucking cock by the fiftieth time you see the film. If we're lucky the screening will be on at the same time as Oppenheimer. You could see your friends at the cinema and show them what a good little slut you are becoming.

Now let's get you dressed up to go. Hand over your mobile phone and go up to my bedroom to get caged. I'm going to give you a new SIM card which means you can only message me and the girls. We're gonna have so much to talk about after the movie and you don't wanna miss it.

Oooh I can't wait to watch the movie again. It's so much fun, especially now I'm bringing my very own Barbie doll!"

#evie hyde #m2f transformation #feminization kink #female dominance #feminised

[astarionposting]

hey!! Could you share your favourite tav's of others? I'd love to connect with other people who posts their tav's! Also thank you for your tutorial's, they helped me so much <3

Hello! I got a similar ask but about male tav’s as well, so I figured I’d post it all in one. I don’t really follow that many Tav-centred blogs, mostly Astarion/Halsin/Gale, BUT a lot of my lovely mutuals have some BEAUTIFUL Tavs and I’ve even had the privilege of being able to photograph and edit some sets of them! &lt;3

My lovely mutuals with their beautiful Tavs/Durges/OCS:

@vspin (I love her drow baby she is so beautiful I wanna give her a little smoochie smooch)

@cheekylittlepupp (BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS GODDESS ANGELIC OC I am going to be doing some edits of her soon hehe)

@anderwelt (their OCs are so beautiful and unique, I had the pleasure of editing Ceres, but working my way towards editing Tae who is equally as cool and awesome and amazing)

@tadpole-apocalypse (so much beautiful artwork of their oc I luv Morgan sm)

@honeysulani (ALSO MAKES BEAUTIFUL SIMS IF U LIKE SIMS AS WELL)

@stinkrascal (pls pls look at their ocs i beg u they are all so beautiful and handsome)

@mercymaker (beautiful beautiful ocs AND incredible edits, just u have to see for urself ok??)

@asykriel (really hot and sexy male tav but I didn’t wanna say it out loud)

@narrayya (they make their own self-sculpted heads and they are absolutely gorgeous and ethereal and SO SOOOO UNIQUE)

@tugoslovenka (a gorgeous DRACONIC BLOODLINE drow lady and a new pretty pretty elf gal-also most badass names I’ve ever seen-I just steal mine from other video games 😭 )

@bhaalbaaby (many beautiful tavs, but I must say Penelope is my absolute favourite she is just so so soooo cute)

@julietvoid (NOW HER OCS ARE SO BABYGIRL I LOVE THEM THEY ARE AO BEAUTIFUL I JUST WANNA GIVE THEM SMOOCHES AND TWLL THEM HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM OK???)

@korcariiwitch (super fucking cool drow oc I love love LOVE)

@haarleps (i forgot to add but then remembered, VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL TAVS/OCS, especially Freyr also bc i am biased since that is freyja's-the goddess my tav's name was yoinked from-twin brother's name in norse mythology so i rlly like)

@malewife-mansplain-magus (this one is for the male oc anon- u just need to look like their ocs are just 👌👌chefs kiss ALSO INCREDIBLE AMAZING BEAUTIFUL ARTWORK I WAS LIKE WTF WHERE DID THAT MASTERPIECE OF GALE COME FROM ITS ONE OF MY FAV GALE FANARTS)

So there are probably so many more of my beloved mutuals that have incredible tavs/durges/ocs, I’m just really bad with my memory but I also tried to focus on those who (I think) post their ocs consistently 😭 so if I didn’t mention you and you are mainly a Tav/Durge/OC blog, PLEAAASE comment like I wanna see it and I also would love to share it for others to see &lt;;3

#༊*·˚ my asks

[lynzishell]

✨23 Faves of 2023✨

I've been tagged on a few different versions of this throughout the month. For mine, I've decided to take 23 moments from my story and share them in chorological order. 💖TYSM for tagging me @hannahssimblr, @jarakio, @rebouks, @theosconfessions, @bloomingkyras, @igotsnothing 💖 I'm sorry if I missed anyone... I'm usually better at keeping note of who tagged me but I dropped the ball on this one and had to search through my mentions lol!

Alright... let's dive in shall we?

✨First up: Looooook at baby Phoenix 🥹 hehe! This was the first time he visited Mt Komorebi and the first time he saw snow... sparking his love affair with both. If you listen carefully, you can hear Wolfgang yelling in the distance, "Yo Penis!" (I miss that nickname. Special thanks to Becca for never letting it die 😅)

✨Ahhh The Bluffs -- I think this is my favorite lot in game, and look how stunning it is at sunset! This is from Phoenix's 18th birthday... aka that fateful night when [redacted] was [redacted]

✨Just me being obsessed with San Myshuno... particularly the Spice District. This is from Phoenix and Dawn's movie night... back when they were still just friends/co-workers.

✨Eeee this moment still gives me all the feels! When these two finally crossed the line from friends to lovers.

✨This one doesn't need a caption... just look at them... and the vibrant colors... 😍

✨The moment they became official

✨Falling in looooooove

✨I don't know why, but this is actually my favorite pic of them

✨Greta returns...lol! It was actually unintentional how well these two match the environment, but it made taking screenies so fun!

✨My second favorite pic of these two... *sigh* just look at them

✨Enter my Asher obsession... I can't tell you how happy I was when I found this pose because this is exactly how I envisioned him entering the room... against the door frame all leaned over and relaxed... even the way his feet are crossed and his left arm just hangs... it's just sooo HIM.

✨I mean... ahhh! I love him! and Lex too lol... we don't see much of her in my story, but these two have been BFFs since middle school. She's super sweet and funny.

✨Atlas and Asher, my loves. There's so much in this scene for me... I had such a clear picture of it in my mind looong before I created it in sims, and I was pretty happy with how it came out. And the song I used was very purposeful (even if I never state why lol) This moment here was actually quite self-indulgent if I'm honest.

✨Yep, still obsessed with these two lol! I just love this shot... the colors and the way they're holding each other. This is actually the desktop background on my laptop lmao

✨I had soooo much fun making this post!! Omg this song is so fkin good! I'll probably reblog this post on New Year's just for funzies 😊

✨Back to Phoenix and Dawn as they prepare to move in together... Had to get a shot of the fountain before saying goodbye to the Spice District

✨Ahaa and here we are.. beginning the journey up Mt Komorebi! I think this little bridge is my favorite spot along the way. It's really cool, and I got lots of great screenies from all angles. I really like this one.

✨Love how this shot came out! We all know this moment, yeah? Right before Dawn [redacted]

✨Yay! Celebrating the fact they made it to the summit... enjoy you two, you earned it!

✨Me carefully side-stepping the sad posts... love this moment of the two of them reconnecting... with the water and the city in the background... I just think it's nice.

✨Relaxing in their favorite summer spot... I love all the blues

✨I really like this shot from Kiyoshi and Kaori's wedding, with only their ceremony in the distance in focus, and the vibrant colors.

✨This seemed like a nice one to end on. I love the snow falling out the window, and the way Dawn is lit up by the candles. And I know there are mods to get rid of the z's when they sleep, but tbh, I kinda think they're adorable lol

Thank you to anyone who took the time to go on this little journey with me! If you made it to the end, please help yourself to a cookie 🍪 and know that I adore you!

My story will return on Jan 1st yay!! 🎉

I'm not going to tag anyone because a post like this doesn't need a tag! If you haven't done this yet, PLEASE do! Revisit your work from the year and share your favorites with us! Let's all go into 2024 feeling excited and inspired 💖

#23 faves of 2023 #phoenix realta #dawn stephens #asher goode #atlas stephens #kiyoshi ito #kaori nishidake #ts4 #sims 4 #aries outtakes

[elderberries-and-honey]

Guys I was actually excited to get off work and play the sims 4??? Who am I??? This save file has been so exciting to setup and start playing y'all like I could cry ;~; lmaooo I don't think I realized how much I missed gameplay tbh

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, I started the joy of life challenge as an au version of the baudelaires.

Also as stated earlier in the week (but I got embarrassed and deleted the post hehe), my social batteries are just really low & work is chaotic af rn so I'm pretty unresponsive via messages here & on discord. Please don't take it personal 🥺 I just need to recharge and I'll be back to my friendly, verbose self soon!

#just kinda in a weird funk #and i miss y'all very much #this save file has been helping a lot

[corvidcrowned]

Peeks in

Hi i finished yttd and now i have to ask what exactly is the ai test idiots au? im very curious,,, from what i can tell its a sara ai? who became sentient? but idk abt the others lol im just oh so interested

ok so get this right.

the ai sims- aka where the percentages are from- were disrupted one day when a glitch happened, messing with everything going on in the facility. This happened when the sara ai won, causing her to achieve self-awareness! (Here’s a comic of what happened from red’s perspective kinda)

Before this event, the sims went pretty normally- one or two people winning and all the others dying. Noticeable patterns showed up though! The sara ai and keiji ai were pretty much nemeses, the sara ai killed the shin ai most times, and the anzu ai had a pretty decent win rate, particularly because of her rivalry with the sara ai. ‘PLEASE stop killing people’ ‘ermm.make me?’ You know.

The glitch that made the sara ai becoming self aware led to some other weird stuff happening though. For example the sim itself would glitch often leading to the ais themselves to get super corrupt for short periods of time. Very strange and unusual. Michiru was supervising all this but scientific curiosity was too much to make everything normal again.

Fun fact though !! The Sara ai ends up becoming a lot more different from the original, eventually becoming his whole own person entirely !! He goes by Red, originally a nickname from Michiru because of his eyes. He/it/bite little creature guy<3 the anzu ai clings to being ‘anzu’ longer though, since for a while getting back home because her family needed her was what kept her going. Eventually though, they accepted being an ai, picking out the name ‘Pierrot’ with Red’s help. The two of them won a lot of simulations together! Pier wins some alone too ofc but unlike red’s weird mother-son like relationship with Michiru, pierrot does not like her at all (here’s how they met)

Eventually the simulation is concluded and red gets put into a doll body (which is drastically customized- fangs and his red eyes. He cuts his hair a little bit too hehe) while Pierrot manages to get into the general system at asunaro. The two don’t see each other for a while because of this unfortunately but eventually they do reunite, pier just living in red’s (stolen) phone sometimes. <3

Red and Pier’s funny lil story goes in a few directions depending on things, they show up in a collaborative au between me and some friends (ai guys<3) and some other stuff, I wanna make a comic abt them eventually (the Pluto project..<3) but their ‘canon’ end is them living with the survivors of the death game!! Because. Red’s ass broke into the dg LOL. He was like ‘heyyyy emiri ^^ you know what would be funny..’ and she was like. ‘Get in there boy’. So red ends up hangin around and messing/hanging out with people!!! Like kai(here) and gin(here) but he and sara REALLY DO NOT GET ALONG!!!!

You see… Red is very jealous of Sara. Why did he have to be created just for her sake? How come she got homecooked meals and a family that loved her and friends and school and he had to live through hell every day?? Ofc sara’s life isn’t that great (her father is literally meister after all..) but red does not know that. Sara finds herself disturbed by red. This weird copy of her keeps running around causing trouble and insulting her to her face.. she thinks he was thrown in to make everyone trust her less or something. They’re so messed up…. After the death game though they hang out a lot. Make amends. I ljike them..

ERM YEAH THATS ALL OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD..!!! Also candy’s here sometimes she’s a cute pink girl who kills<3 (she also is an ai of shin who takes after midori… a lot. Because she was directly under his thumb and had to deal with him she began to associate violence and love until the two concepts totally overlapped in her mind. AND she’s trans!)

#SO SORRY IF THIS IS INSANITY.did you know I’m really normal abt the ai test idiots #Ai test idiots #red namida #Pierrot #Candy

[mothbiite]

for the fics asks: 1, 2 (abt the xandir self insert fic pls!), 5, 67(XANDIR!!)

1. What are you most excited about when you start to write/publish it?

I'll split this into subparts cuz there’s a lot 😭

a. My self-insert/OC x Character stuff is usually domestic fluff that I write to destress and swoon over Xandir, so that's what I'm excited about whenever I write it hehe. That good tooth-rotting cotton candy fluffiness.

b. For my "A Neverending Romance" series of X Reader oneshots, FINALLY RELEASING THE DAMN FIC I HAD PLANNED FOR OVER A YEAR GJGJJG but the brightside to this egregious gap is I get to see my improvement :D

c. So I kinda forgot then remembered I have a Xandir in a cowboy outfit X Reader WIP where he does a lil show for y/n 😳 I'm excited to write and unleash more Xandir indulgence hehe.

d. For the Xandir dating sim fic (that doesn't have a single word yet 🥲), I'm excited to take on a project that readers can interact with and choose their own pathways. I'm also excited to work within the Drawn Together universe again. Usually my X Readers take place outside of that setting, so it'll be a nice change of scenery and genre.

2. How did you get the idea to write this?

a. For almost a decade now I've written myself or an OC with characters I've had crushes on. So Xandy bein' one of those crushes (he's the strongest one rn 😳💓) is what drives me to write all that self-insert indulgence.

b. I feel like Xandir's "neverending quest" was pretty much dropped after the first three episodes and kinda underexplored, so I used that as a base for the lil fic series. It's very distinct from the Drawn Together universe so sometimes it's pretty tricky to write (and writing y/n is so hard...like, do make their personalities more blank so people have more up to their imagination but consequently have drier dialogue and less chemistry, or I give them a strong personality and risk alienated readers who now can't see themselves? It's a balance I haven't mastered yet 😂)

c. Xandir's cowboy outfit is too good to not devote a fic to.

d. The Xandir dating sim fic idea came to me after having a frustrating experience with the Xandir bot I made on Chai (lil app where you can talk to character bots and essentially rp with them...was kinda addicted to it for a hot second xD). I programmed him to be super flirty and into the chatter, and in our first chat he friendzones me?! 😭 Yeah, the bots tend to go haywire now and then, so I figured an interactive dating sim fic would help alleviate Chai's shortcomings xD

5. Is there any scene you're excited about writing?

For the sequel to "Kiss and Tell", definitely the opening scene, since it'll be another Xandir fic xD Planning on it being a bit more edgy since this is the fic he's writin' for revengeance.

6. Is there any specific ship you're planning to include?

Captain Hero x Xandir returns for the sequel, in the opening scene and in the fic proper, though in the fic proper they're gonna be rivals 👀

7. What are your plans for -character-?

Can't reveal tooooo much, but Xandir's quest for revenge will be a major driving force in the sequel fic.

Thank you so much for all your questions!! ^o^

#q & a #fanfiction #xandir #wips

[aphrorite]

-ˏˋ sweetheart diaries ˊˎ- #3 !! 🌸💗🍥

૮₍ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა ♡༘

⋆ ✧₊ﾟmay 14th 2022 🍧🌺🦩 ⊹ɞ

yawwwwn. hi diary! its 1 am but im writing bebauc i feel liek it ! 💤 🌥

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today wa s a good day, you known? i id idnt do much bt ,, i neeed ed this saturyda so then tmr i can go wam ham on my homeworks. it wwass soooooo sunny nand iw anted to go for a walk twic but onyl got chanc to go for 1, and i wore a super duper pretty polka dot black dress and i had matchin black polka dot flip flops to go w it ! i wore a stra w hat too when iw ent outside cos ir was so hot out. i felt pretty and also very comfy. i woek eup around 10 as well so im happy baout that because usually i wake up late later hehe. 😝

SEEEE !!! dress n flip flop magch tehehe. this phtoo taken on my walk! 🩰🌟✨

i ha d last night nugget for breakfast n then i had some OJ! ir emember seienf a post tht had “drink som milk or OJ” and usually aft i et breakfas id hav like agua so OJ was new <3

i had a bit of a moment whehr iw d trying to flshh the toluet n then THE FLOORW ENT 💥BOBOB 💥MBO💥 BBOON 💥 BOOOM 💥 n lke rumbled ))): i call my sister hpstair and she tell me to ring mom so then mam say 2 t ur n the water off on it bc mybe she didnt turn it all the way n then it wasnt rumble no more . this cos we got a new toilet n also hav plumbing leak problem , house old !

i made som goodnote schedule for msyelf instead of using google spreadhddeg so this eman that i cna get more productiv again ! i havent done so in 3 months so i thin ktnis is my turning point , yeah, go me ! *imaginary pat*

i spen t some tiw w my ssiter playin project sekai , sims 4 (i revamp her chars, ) walk w my siste routside n found a pretty pink flower , my cat just giving him cuddles n lettinghim enjoy the f reshh air, browose shopping for a teensy bit, listneed to blackspeakz on youtube, made a regressing plylsit, and msootly chilled !

i also played alittleeee bit of roblox and made some softlien clothing ! im proud of msyelf because yesterday my crwiagons werent up to par. i wantned to hangout w my one acquaintance but he wasnt online , so thts ok ! here is what i buot in sims 4 when my ssuter let me use computer when she went sleep,

my othwr cfriend msged me this morning on dizzy n it made merlly happy cos he acc show up in my dream last night )): n it wa sa happy dream , so then for him to send me a dm saying “wakey wakey!” n i see it in the morning , i feel is coincidence ! 😵😮😮

i also feel like agedre n half regressing has helped talk to myself more positively. its very difficult to talk to myself like a friend so when i talk to myself like an encouraging sweet parent, it works. im more softer and i embrace my sensitivity, and i think this in all will help me ! of course i still feel the shame of it not being the norm or still have my negative intrusive thoughts, and i know my intrusive thoughts arent something i can necessarily 'delete' or 'remove,' and are something to tame, though i think agedre is a big baby step towards a healthy coping mechanism, as even so back then my self-talk has never been very positive, and even when i was positive, id beat myself down constantly (and still struggle with this), and that positivity would lean towards toxic. im proud of myself. <3

anyway, i did lot selfcare and followd my goodnote scheduule , and tmr i make to do list for homeworks. tmr i shoul make foods, b productiv, and sleep on time !!!! hav good day diary, muwah muwah 💕

p.s it also rained today ! 🌧🌧🌧

╭┈─────── urs truly, ࿐ ˊˎ-

╰┈➤ sweetheart xx

#aphrorite.diary #🌸 #sfw agere blog #sfw agere

[localdisapointmentt]

Sims 4 Heliocentric Generation Challenge

When it comes to our Solar System, it is full of wonders! Learning about each moon can be its own adventure, so learning about planet is eye widening. This challenge is inspired by my hypro-fixation about our Solar System. So this challenge is about our planets! Each sim generation is base off the zodiac signs (just to add more challenges), the planet, an the Roman Gods/Goddesses. I hope you enjoy this! This is my first time makeing a legacy challenge so sorry if it's trash lol.

Credit :

Plans :

- Dwarf Planets

- Moons

- Add Photos that includes the rules

- Add more for all pacts (I have a limited amount hehe)

Version 1.0

Rules

- No Cheats

- CC allowed

- Any Lifespan

- Complete Challenges

- Any gender, sexuality, race, or religion

- Finish Aspiration unless told other wise

- Finish leveling up on your job unless told otherwise

- Keep Ageing on

- Mods Allowed

- I would put have fun but that's too generic and ya don't know how the sims would act so good luck!

♌ Sun ♌

Growing up in a rich (and strict) family, you always got spoiled and the popular kid in school. Unfortunately, your parents don't aprove of their dream. You've always wanted to be a famous actor. Taking some money from their parents bank account and buying a new home in Del so Valley, you had simply ran away.

Job : Actor

Aspiration : Master Actor

Traits : Self Assured, Out Going, and Self Absorbed

Challenges

Friend 3 Celebrities

Max Charisma Skill

Positive Relations with Neighbors

Get Married, Divorce, and ReMarry the same Sim

Stay in Del so Valley

Spoil your Child

One kid only

♍ Mercurary ♊

Growing up, you always had gotten spoiled by your parents, though you never knew your grandparents... That doesn't stop you from being the fastest kid in school! You where pretty smart in school, mischievous at times, and had a close group of friends. You have always wanted to be a big business dude and wanted to have two kids so they could be friends, and not an lonely only child.

Job : Business

Aspiration : Body Builder

Traits : Adventures, Perfectionist, and Loyal

Challenges

Mischief Skill

Logic Skill

Run Everyday

2 Kids Only

Keep in high contact with Parents and Kids

Have 3 lovers Min

Read 20 Books

♎ Venus ♉

You would always annoy your sibling, no matter how strong they were. Pulling pranks when you were younger was your specialty. Now when your older, you take the eyes of everyone with your flirtation and beauty. Although you could barely stay with a partner, you always wanted to have as much as kids you can! Though you don't like the idea of working much...

Job : Batista and/or Babysitter

Aspiration : Seriel Romantic

Traits : Romantic, Child of the Ocean, Non-Commital

Challenges

3 Children Minimum

Cheat at least 5 times

max skill Charisma

Never stay dateing a sim for a week (can date again after dateing another sim)

Gossip at least once a week

Keep loose contact with family

Have a favorite child

🌎 Earth 🌍

You weren't always the favorite child from your family and that was evident when compared to your sibling. Although, you've always wanted to explore out of the Sim's world and what secrets lay in those history books! Space and history has always interested you and imagine what you can find out there!

Job : Astronaut

Aspiration : Renaissance Sim

Traits : High Maintenance, Paranoid, Adventures

Challenges

Max out Gardening skill

Befriend an Alien

Build a rocket

Have barely any contact with your parents

Don't have favorites when it comes to kids

Have a garden outside house

Acquaintances with siblings

♏ Mars ♈

Although you parents show that they don't have favorites, you still believed that your sibling was the favorite so you would do your best to win anything! Even if you aren't the best at bored games, physical games you are the expert at.

Job : Military Career

Aspiration : Extreme Sports Enthusiast

Traits : Ambitious, Active, and Overachiever

Challenges

3 children only

Max out Fitness Skill

Max out Handiness Skill

5 enemies (Min)

Never go to college

Have family movie days

Have family game days

♐ Jupiter ♐

Growing up in a house where winning is key kinda takes a toll, thus being a president would beat your siblings out of the ball park! Balancing adventure, love, work, family, and friends is a hard task but not for you. You can be indecisive but you know when you want it.

Job : Politician

Aspiration : Successful Lineage

Traits : Adventures, Non-Commital, Overachiever

Challenges

Max Wellness Skill

5 Children Minimum

Max Charisma

Max Fishing (Zodiac)

Vacation at least 3 times

Don't stay single for 1 sim week

Don't date a sim for 2 weeks

♑ Saturn ♑

Growing up in a big family taught you how to be responsible and money is really important. You've been more on the neutral side in your family drama. Trying to be on that neutral side in the family is extremely difficult while managing your job and kids, and let's not forget about those hobbies.

Job : Education

Aspiration : Fabulously Wealthy

Traits : Maker, Kleptomaniac, and Proper

Challenges

Keep in good contact with the family

Try to stay neutral in any situation

Max Handiness Skill

Max Parenting Skill

Live in a big house by death

Max Cooking

Max Painting Skill

♒ Uranus ♒

Out of everyone in your family, you were the calmest. You just want to relax in life and go with the flow but life loves to give you some troubles. Although your child and parents insist on you going out and traveling, your just fine where you are and hates change.

Job : Writer

Aspiration : Inner Peace

Traits : Paranoid, Childish, Maker

Challenges

Max out Writing Skill

Only vacation ONCE only for the honeymoon

Have a Yoga-Themed Room

Stay in one World for their whole life

Can only max job to level 7

Marry their high school sweetheart

Only one child

♓ Neptune ♓

You were much more adventures than your parent, and with no siblings, you always hang out with friends. Growing into an adult, you have a midlife crisis and cut all contact with family and question the future.

Job : Salary Person (Young Adult) and Entertainer/Musician (Adult)

Aspiration : Musical Genius

Traits : Music Lover, Child of the Ocean, Gloomy

Challenges

Take vacations every summer

Midlife crisis at age Adult

Cut off all contact at age Adult

Max out Piano Skill

Max out Violin Skill

Max out Singing Skill

Have a hobbies room before age Elderly but before age Adult

#sims 4 #sims 4 gameplay #sims 4 legacy #sims 4 challenge #solar #solar system #space

[wooahaes]

Hi, hope you’re doing well. Just wanted to stop by and say that “Under the Sun” is so good. Straight up, it might be one of the best things I’ve written. The pacing, characterizations, world, and plot are so good! The AU itself is familiar in the way it reminds me of Maze Runner/Divergent, but remains novel in every way — the freedom, memories, church, hierarchy, timeline... I’ve only read the intro plus days 1-3, so I’m excited to read each boy’s solo piece. Take care! ❤️

PS from the anon a little ago who gushed about “Under the Sun”: I’m also totally going to read through your entire Masterlist now, because your writing is just so good and I’m in love. Seriously, thank you for sharing your writing. I know it can be hard and can be a thankless hobby, so I want you to know that your talent and hardwork is definitely appreciated. Take care! ❤️

anon im in love with u (also sorry for what feels like a late response haha ive been playing sims all day!! self care hehe)

ignoring the wrong word there (it happens, pls don't feel embarrassed dkdsfhdsf unless ur also somehow me) thank you so much!! i've heard the maze runner thing a Lot more than i ever thought i would (which doesn't bother me tbh i've never read the series or seen the movies past like... maybe a trailer and some snippits from when my dad's watched it), but this is the first time i'm hearing divergent i think!! it's also a series i'm very unfamiliar with tbh! both books were published before i was a teen haha (2009 & 2011! i was babie lol) so i think it's fair that i'm unfamiliar lol

but thank you so much nonetheless!! the intro days are honestly something i really loved writing tbh <3 worldbuilding is a lot of fun to me, so getting to write something pretty original in terms of that has been a ton of fun!! even if it requires a ton of googling of things like what fruits would be ripe at the time of year i'm writing (summer, but specifically somewhere around late may or early june) and stuff like that :0 its fun tho i love researching shit >:3

also aaAAA THANK YOU!!! it always entertains me when i notice ppl going through my masterlist btw (its usually spam likes which don't bother me a super ton--prefer reblogs/replies/asks just to know what ppl are thinking, but i get it: i've read through fics late at night when i didn't have the thoughts to spare), so its kinda sweet to hear it outright from someone? i hope u enjoy it <3

thank you for such sweet asks tho!!! it can def be a thankless hobby but writing is what i love and i wouldn't trade that for anything. you take care as well, nonny <3 have fun reading!

#wooahaes.ask #asks.anon #in my defense: most books that were popular somewhere around 2009-2014 i probably did not read #i was a baby (9-14) then sdfkhsdf i was going through MIDDLE SCHOOL for part of those years lmao u can imagine reading wasnt like #my number 1 at the time sdfkhsdf writing + video games were #plus roleplaying cringe things with my dumb ocs with my friends <3 #didnt have time for reading id rather play pokemon and get bullied for it bc 'isnt that a kids game' #(said a child (12) to me (12) once it was wack)

[linawritesocs]

lina! for the character opinion bingo, i'll give you: estelle, mistral, faye, and a fourth oc of your choice! >:D i'm giving you all my girls, yes i'm working on yours rn, so let us both go crazy and stupid ✨ /lh (and feel free to include any constructive criticism you may have!)

- bree <3

YAYYYY time to talk about bree's precious daughters!! and a son, i also chose damien dhdjjdjx.

ESTELLE MY BELOVED. MERRILL MOVE. she's so cute and she's such an interesting character!! i want to hold her like that one "gently holds" emoji meme. also her lore?? wow.. wow, estelle, don't make me kin you. I'M STILL NOT OVER THAT ONE SAD FACT ABOUT HER TALKING TO HERSELF DURING TEA PARTIES.. i just love how she acts like such a weird and quirky girl, but her real self is surprisingly ordinary and normal? usually characters who act like that are either very sad on the inside (estelle is most likely that type, but i mean like.. characters who try to hide their sadness but they still have their quirks) OR THEY REALLY ARE THAT WEIRD (looking at you angel). her talent being poetry recitation?? so cool!! hey do you wanna join the rsa literature club ALSO I LOVE HOW HER ROSE'S NAME MEANS "FAITHFUL" IN LATIN IT FITS ESTELLE SO MUCH..

LISTEN I'VE ALREADY SAID BEFORE THAT IF THERE WAS A DATING SIM WITH YOUR OCS I'D CHOOSE FAYE'S ROUTE HJDKSDLSKLSK. it's either flirty and outgoing girls or cold and stoic girls, NEVER IN-BETWEEN. i love her so much?? PLEASE BREE GIVE US MORE FAYE LORE. I LOVE HER BACKSTORY AND I'D LOVE TO KNOW MORE ABOUT IT. also i really liked tinkerbell when i was little and she was my favorite fairy (it was always the protagonist one. i always chose protagonists as my faves when i was little, TBH MOST OF MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS ARE STILL PROTAGS) so yeah, faye just brings some nice memories :) also we're both virgos?? nice!! FAYE IS SO SMOL THOUGH. HER HEIGHT. SHE'S SO TINY.. makes sense, her disney inspiration is a fairy after all! i love her dynamic with ruggie too, i kinda miss them ;w;

okay, so i don't have that much to say about mistral, she's a pretty new character, but i love her wine aunt aesthetic! AND THE FACT THAT SHE'S ESTELLE'S ADOPTIVE COUSIN IS SO FUNNY TO ME IT'S LIKE MOST PEOPLE NOT KNOWING THAT ALLEN AND RILEY ARE RELATED. i was close to picking "if they were real i would be afraid of them" too, but i don't think i would be afraid, I WOULD JUST GET CONFUSED EVERY TIME MISTRAL SAYS SOMETHING. this lady says something in her usual manner and i'm crying and shaking and going "PLEASE AUNTIE I DON'T UNDERSTAND MY BRAIN IS TOO SMOOTH FOR THIS" this is what happens when y'all start calling me local cater it's so funny though, we have the same mbti, but i wouldn't be able to have a normal conversation with her.. also i said it before and i'll say it again: her not liking people who are not wearing socks is the funniest thing ever. AUNTIE MISTRAL I'M WEARING SOCKS RN DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT

so the legend is true.. if you create a blond-haired character, you will indeed summon lina.. damien is such a cute boy!! i wanna poke his cheeks, hehe. anddd another virgo!! we love to see virgos representation shdjsjksjjsd BUT HE'S ALSO THE SAME HEIGHT AS ME?? :O can't believe i'm actually a damien kinnie. the fact that most students are afraid of him or dislike him.. i'll protect you, my boy!! >:( i really love the lore we currently have, like malleus taking damien under his wing, HIS UNIQUE MAGIC IS A WHOLE DIFFERENT TOPIC, I CAN WRITE A WHOLE ESSAY ABOUT IT, but i'm a little busy today. like, i don't know, his fear of accidentally hurting someone with it is just so.. interesting?? i love analyzing everyone's unique magic fhjdksksd. also that yandere damien you've mentioned before lives rent-free in my mind. HIS FAVORITE FOOD BEING OMURICE IS SO CUTE TOO..

#friends' ocs! #friend: bree!

[nwcrst]

natalie miller

art lover, outgoing, childish

i decided i would show you guys some of my favorite sims i’ve made recently :)

#ts4 #s4 #sims 4 #ts4 edit #enjoy this mini sim-dump #lmk if you want a download #also #this is pretty much my sim self hehe

[lilyshadowwriter]

Sims Tag Game

Rules:

Pick a sim of your choice

Tell us about them

Tag someone else (if you want to!)

I was tagged by @nocturnalazure​ to do the Sims Tag Game. Thank you so much for thinking of me! I’ll tag @lateknightsimmer​ because I want to hear more about her awesome sims, hehe ♥ Though if you don’t want to do this, feel free to ignore it, LOL.

Anyway, I’ll answer these questions for Joanne because hers is the story update I’m currently working on, so she’s the one that’s been reappearing in my posts!

Name: Joanne Madeline Winters

When is your sim’s birthday? You know, I deliberated over this for the longest, and finally I’m just going to confess that I don’t have birthdays for my sims *sweat drop* I never paid attention or thought much about it. They age up when they age up, lol. I mean, I know stuff like Joanne is older than the twins by 13 years and Milo was born at the end of summer, but ehh, other than that....I’m a bad sim mom lmao

What is your sim’s zodiac sign? Don’t know because of above

Marital Status: Married to Gabriel ♥

Does your sim have any nicknames? Pretty much everyone who knows her calls her “Jo”

Do they have a job? Yes, she’s the co-lead singer in an alternative indie duo called Convergence

Where does your sim live? On the shores of Starlight Shores

Who does your sim live with? Her husband Gabriel and their new little son, Milo

What environment did your sims grow up in? Not a great one, honestly. I went over it in more detail in Joanne’s generation recap post, but Jo’s biological mom took her own life when Jo was a baby and her dad spiraled into a bad depression that had him turning to drinking to cope. The appearance of Candice (her future step-mom) protected her from the worst of it, but still some of Joanne’s first memories are of her father passed out on the floor and Joanne crying and screaming for him to wake up :/

What is your sim’s favorite food? She likes lots of different foods really—pastas and seafood dishes though probably

What is your sim’s favorite drink? Lemonade

If they have one, what is your sim’s favorite color? Cornflower blue

Is your sim introverted or extroverted? Extroverted, though she has her shy, unsure moments

What is your sims favorite woohoo position? She likes being able to see her partner’s face in order to gauge their reactions—and kiss! :)

Is your sim a pet person? Not really, no. It’s not that she doesn’t like animals per se, but more that she doesn’t want to deal with the clean up that’s often involved with them. Dog hair all over her expensive new sofa? She’d prefer not, lol. She’s fussy like that.

Does your sim have a best friend? Her husband and her parents are her best friends, honestly, though she has become pretty close to Gabriel’s friends too now—Ryan, Dante, and Sammy.

What is / was your sim’s favorite school subject? Music

Are they planning to go or have they already been to college? She went to college and graduated with a B.A. in Music

Does your sim have a favorite TV show? No. She’s more of a casual TV watcher since committing to watching shows usually takes up a lot of time she doesn’t have. For that reason, she prefers movies.

Does your sim like books? She doesn’t hate them or anything, but she’s never been a big reader besides reading the books her dad writes

What is your sim’s personal style? A bit cutesy. She loves wearing peter pan collars, polka dots, and dresses or frilly skirts. She also loves to wear her favorite color—cornflower blue 😊

Is your sim religious? No. She has a general belief, yes, but it isn’t a big part of her life

What kind of music does your sim listen to? Pop, indie, alternative rock

What is your sim’s favorite type of weather? Sunny with a nice cool breeze!

Does your sim have a dream job? She is living her dream job ♥

Does your sim have any siblings? Yup, lots! Well, half-siblings. She has the twins, Augustus and Gemma; Tobias; and Thomas, the youngest.

Does your sim get along with their family? She does, yes. In fact, she loves them very much.

What is your sims favorite hobby? Singing and playing the piano

What does your sim look for in a romantic partner? Trustworthy, shares a love for music, makes her feel safe, gentle and accepting. Handsome helps too :)

What is a flaw your sim has? She is quite self-absorbed and often dramatic in that she has the tendency to make a bigger deal of things than they really are. She’s also sensitive to criticism, and her confidence is often shaken by a single sharp word or raised voice—but, I don’t know, that part has connections to her trauma, so...I wouldn’t blame her for that. It’s probably the self-absorption that’s her biggest flaw. She’s gotten loads better with it over the years, but she still has this tendency to feel she should be involved in everything and always paid attention to. She sometimes gets sulky when others are paid more attention than she is.

Does your sim have a greatest achievement? Starting a mega successful band with the man she loves and, of course, little Milo :)

If they have one, what is your sim’s greatest regret? Becoming so obsessed with the pursuit of fame that she lost sight of who she really was and hurt the people she loves the most, even going through a period where she didn’t speak to her family for several years. The impact of that is still felt today, and those years are gone—there’s no getting them back.

Thank you again for tagging me! ♥

#Sims Tag Game #Joanne Winters #BonusCharacterFacts #Long Post

[jeellshobbies]

SKZ songs I've listened to so far part one

I can foresee how long this thread can get, so buckle up

this is how I used to journal- since I'm not good at putting my feels into words, I often turn to songs for some help hehe. Maybe one day I'll create playlists with a post that explains why I added it hehe we'll see x)

so I present to you, SKZ songs and what and how much they mean to me part one

these 5 songs are really special to me cuz they're the first 5 songs I heard from skz TT3TT so I naturally also have the most to say about them

a major thanks in advance for the english subtitles and those vids where they put the lyrics on screen along with the english translations. I can't speak, read nor write korean so it really helped me in understanding the meaning of the songs better

also like omg, the amt of inspo I got from skz for my sims series HAHAHA I can't wait to come back from my hiatus and get to those parts where there's skz songs added weeee

Red Lights (Bang Chan and Hyunjin)

this song gave me so much inspo for my future sims series HAHAHA I love the darker tones they used for this song- and the lyrics can be easily interpreted into ANYTHING.

is the subject they're referring to a thing? a person? a job? heck, even a hobby?

it could be anything. And that's what I love about it, and it's probably the reason why I listened to this song on repeat the longest.

when I first heard this song, I was either studying or working on my sims story. At first I thought it was just really catchy (since I don't really know what the song is about yet entirely) So like what I do with any other kpop songs, I search up the meaning (just nice their music videos have english translations hehe)

and BOY when i saw the translations HAHAHA OMG.

Sometimes I feel like the song is a conversation between you and that subject you're obsessed over. Because tbh if my hobby could talk, it would probably say this-

"Tell me you hate me. "I can't handle you anymore". But I know, you and me, there's no other way."

I guess for me it's the relationship I had with my storytelling hobby in sims. It pretty much consumed almost all of my time ever since I started. If I weren't working on poses or building lots, I was on insta interacting with other simmers. I love it, don't get me wrong, but my introvert self can only take so much socializing. Plus the weekly all nighters on fridays took a toll on my body too.

It has a sexy and rough tone to it but if you look deeper it could also be about that one thing you're obsessed with- for my case it was the sims HAHAHA. I usually spend my friday evenings making poses, taking screenies, editing until the next morning. I'll sleep for like, 3 hours and then get back at it before I do my other responsibilities.

So yeah, that's red lights to me for ya.

God's Menu

"No one can copy us, our own game. From the start it's all ours."

That line. That friggin line. I don't know how to explain it without going off in a rant.

There's also a point where my sims friends were all getting copied by other people. Hence why this line's impact is pretty strong

you'll hear me talking about this topic a lot throughout here, but just bits and pieces of it

"Just put everything in. Don't mind the other, put more. Don't hesitate, pour more. Mix, mix" "Yes, sir and ma'am"

I haven't really watched any of the behind the scenes so I'm not sure if they explained what they meant with this part but to me it's a form of encouragement to give something your all and don't care about what others would have to say.

Thunderous

Okay as I get to the songs I realized why I love them so much

it's a shoot back at the h8ers and naysayers in my life HAHAHAHA. It also gave me LOTS of ideas for my simseries

"I don't care how they look at me. I'll say what I have to say ptui ptiu ptui- thunderous."

I realized after listening to this song a lot I was a bit more outspoken when it came to people in my life. The past few years I've just been quiet and to myself and even if people cross the line I would usually just smile it off

but lately I've been calling them out.

could it be I'm just reaching my limit? could it be I just want a change for once? either way I love it. I welcome this change.

I've been lately feeling the urge to change a lot of things in my life because I want to see improvements- or just something different tbh. Not tolerating unnecessary toxicity would be one of them.

I guess that also explains why I no longer talk to a lot of people I used to talk to HAHAHAHA.

"I was born crooked, my voice can go against a hundred. If I don't like something I can talk back until I'm satisfied."

That's the goal folks. I don't necessary want to talk back to everything that goes against me. Sometimes if it's better to just walk away that's what I'd do.

Cuz tbh not everything is worth your energy and effort. What we can get out of this line is... I guess knowing that you CAN fight back. And you WILL fight back until you're good.

But if I were to take it further with this line, you CAN fight back, and you WILL fight back until you're good- because it's worth it.

But if it ain't worth it then... HAH, CHEESE.

Cheese

tbh this whole song is an entire mood. I'd be quoting every line.

I love it. The vibe of the song, the attitude that comes along at the delivery of the song.

It makes you feel empowered in that weird way (at least to me)- especially with Thunderous.

in the current company I work in, I'm the youngest despite working here for 3 years already- you'd think every year someone younger would come along. there was once someone did, but they left because they hated the environment. I can't blame her tho, I would too HAHAHA.

So can you imagine being the generation gap? From the way I dress, the things I eat, the way I look the things that interest me

pretty much everything

I'd probably go deeper into it another time but one of the things that stuck with me the longest was how they constantly picked on how I look- I did competitive sports since I was a kid and I guess i got my mom's side's metabolism- which is super strong. So I had very little body fat, which also means I'm not gifted in the boob department :')

so guess what aside from being constantly told I'm stuff that I'm not, I'm also constantly teased and told to wear push up bras or even consider boob jobs just to fit what's good to them :)

I knew it's just trash speaking trash but overtime if you hear it almost everyday it can start to get to you :) For a while I found issues with things I didn't have issues with to begin with- like my body at that point.

if you search up Alexandra Trusova that's pretty much my body type when I came in HAHAH that's when I was still active in training, also keep in mind I'm 153cm. i was mostly muscle and very little fat. And I was only 20 then, where my metabolism is still on full speed. now at 23, I don't train at all anymore so naturally I gained a few kilos. I still pretty much look the same despite eating the same way I did back then- with hotpots and kbbqs from time to time.

ngl I did have this thought where "hmm i gained weight maybe they won't bother me anymore"

but they still do

So now I'm just... "HAH, CHEESE."

Their songs just speaks out everything I'm feeling perfectly like that's it. That's the whole tweet HAHA.

It doesn't bother anymore, thanks to 21 and a half year old Jeel who managed to talk herself out of that dark place.

tldr (sorry for blabbing, I got way too passionate there) words can hurt and sometimes people say hurtful things KNOWING it's not a good thing to say.

and there's nothing we can do anything about it, sadly- since we can't control other people's actions. It will hurt- like it did for me. and that's okay to acknowledge. tbh I only started making progress on making peace with it when I let myself really feel how it wants to feel about the situation- journalling helped on my end. having a rant page in my bujo helped. and then overtime, with the help of other songs I found that helps say out how I really feel, I slowly made peace with it.

AND OMG PLS THAT LINE WHERE THEY STARTED MENTIONING THE FINGERS HAHAHAH THAT'S A BIG FUCK YOU TO THE HATERS OUT THERE HAHAHAH

this is the disstrack of the year for me

Wolfgang

"Plowing through the storm, yeah I know. A continuous brutal and suffocating feeling. Even if I try to escape, now I know. This is a competition I can't avoid."

At first it kinda gave me the same vibes as "Dancing with a Wolf" by all time low, just a bit. Idk if it's because wolves are also mentioned. There's also "The Wolf" by the Simple Creatures. But after seeing the english translation not really- they're definitely not about the same stuff HAHAH.

Wolfgang, while it still have that line of eating you up, feels more like an anthem amongst your long-time friends. The kind of group you get your strength from in really dark friends.

the kind of people you'd want by your side against it all.

Wolfgang is pretty much dancing with a wolf and the edge of tonight combined for me. Like the sentiments I have for these songs especially.

this also makes really great camp cheer songs. Like imagine the camp theme was musicians and your team got Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart HAHAHAH.

imagine the campfire cheer for your group, it'll definitely win best cheer x)

but yeah, wolfgang- unlike the other songs, has a lighter meaning to me. it's one of those songs you'd jam to with your friends during a long drive. the kind your friends would sing and dance to during karaoke nights.

I mean I've never done that since my friends and I have different music tastes- to so my fellow stays who are close friends with fellow stays please live this dream for me and tell me all about it TT3TT HAHAHAH it's one of the reasons why i want to make a separate account for this

#skz #stray kids #jeells hobbies #stray kids songs #stay skz #STAY

[sunfloweradore]

i’m leaving this blog

hi! this post is a bit long but at the end you’ll find prompts and requests that you are free to use if you’re a writing blog :).

hi there!! if you’re reading this, i hope you’re doing well and staying safe. i just wanted to say that i’m leaving this blog and i’m not sure if i’ll ever come back. the years i’ve spent being a harrie have been great and it’s been a crazy amount of time! pretty much since the x factor! however, for a long time it’s also felt like i’ve been forcing myself to be a fan of harry’s. i’ve put so much energy into being a fan of his that it hasn’t been fun for me in a while and neither has writing fanfiction, which is what this blog is mainly for. it’s felt very difficult to sit down and write a fantasy about somebody who i might not even like anymore and in hindsight it seems a little dumb, but i did stress over writing all the time. this isn’t really about anybody i’ve interacted with on tumblr because you’re all lovely but sometimes it feels as though harries don’t treat him like he’s a human being and instead like he’s a god. me, included. even though i know we joke about harry being the only man we’d let degrade us or destroy our lives or whatever, he is still a person at the end of the day! it took me a very long time to realize that and thinking of him as otherworldly or completely perfect was my way of thinking for a while and i think it was pretty damaging. the fact that so many people would literally die for him is sad because unfortunately, none of us are going to be on his “level”, so to speak. we don’t know him personally and chances are we aren’t ever going to. ahhhh please don’t be mad at me for saying this, it’s just something i’ve realized i need to change about myself and i think it’s something we should all consider about everyone we are fans of. 

anyway, the time and energy i’ve spent on something so ridiculous is exponential and i really feel like it’s time to put it in the past. i’m dedicating this year to self-growth and part of that is learning how to be my own person. feeling like i have to be interested in something or someone in order to be normal has been a common theme in my life and harry has been that someone for as long as i can remember. this isn’t his fault of course but i’m getting older and i don’t want to think of this time in my life as the era that i was obsessed with harry styles. instead, i want to form memories and real life experiences instead of using fanfiction as a way to cope with all of the things that i can’t handle in my life. it worked for a while but at this point i’ve been reading it and writing it for so long that it feels like i’m living inside my head, like i’ve become dependent on it (obviously this is very bad lolol). so, long story short, i will be leaving this blog because it just isn’t good for me anymore. thank you to everyone who has requested things for me to write and anyone who has interacted with my writing. sorry i couldn’t get through them :(. i’d also like to thank everyone i met through this blog because you’re all such amazing people and you deserve the world. i will leave my writing up but the sentiment still applies- i’ve worked very hard on everything i’ve written so please don’t repost any of it without crediting me, thank you.

below are requests i couldn’t get to and prompts(?)/works that i never got to finish. feel free to use them if you want and tag me in them bc i’d love to see how you write them :)

1. paperboy harry!

i think the direction i wanted this to go in was kind of like a 40′s au? or just a long long time ago. not sure why i had this started seeing as i already have harry as a paperboy in a story of mine but go off ig

2. vampire harry!

i had a specific plot i wanted where harry was in a car wreck because of a vampire who ended up biting him in like an alleyway. reader saves him and is a vampire herself! she nurses him back to health n teaches him how to be a vamp with various shenanigans along the way

3. hospital au?

this one i’m not too sure about but if you’ve seen the red band society you’d sort of know the direction i was going with this. there’s kind of an in-between for people in the hospital who are fighting death or going into surgery and in that in-between is a boy who has been in a coma for a long time. i pictured this as being angsty and for harry to be the boy who guides people in certain directions but he ends up falling for the reader while she’s there

4. ghost au!

self explanatory but i pictured harry as the ghost who kind of just wants a friend lol

5. tea au?

this would probably be pretty short, i just thought it was cute! reader has different kinds of tea all the time and it’s a surprise each time he kisses her 

6. strawberry farm au?

reader has a strawberry farm LMAO maybe harry buys them from her or it’s another vampire au, who knows!

7. threesome

most likely has been done b4 but a threesome w 2 guys and the reader where the guy is inside harry while he is inside the reader

8. chocolate by the 1975

a fic based on that song! it would probably be from harry’s pov 

9. space au?

hmm i think i probably saw something that inspired this but all it says is “harry sends letters to space” so i’m assuming it’s an au where he just decided to send letters to space out of boredom or something and mayhaps alien reader finds one?

10. assassin au!

harry is an assassin and in my draft it’s super vague? and almost seems like he’s stalking the reader? it could go in any direction really but i’m assuming the reader is dating him and doesn’t know he’s an assassin

11. chapstick

very similar to the tea one! just w the reader wearing diff chapsticks all the time

12. shower

this is inspired by something i read on wattpad a long time ago and i’ve tried finding it but i think it might’ve been deleted. the reader flicks da bean all the time in the shower and is really loud about it, harry is distracted and confronts her

13. dang ANOTHER threesome

but this time harry is on a date with a girl and they’re at a bar- the girl is looking around, sees the reader and thinks she’s gorg and they end up having a threesome

14. photography au!

harry is a photographer who somehow ends up taking pictures of the reader. in my draft the reader asks him to delete the ones that are ugly but he keeps them all hehe

15. scrapbook au

similar to the last one, harry takes pictures of the reader a lot but it’s not bc he’s a photographer, he just thinks she’s pretty n wants to scrapbook. twist is that he has TWO scrapbooks- one of innocent pics and one that’s lustier (consensual ofc)

16. habits of my heart by jaymes young

self explanatory, angsty

17. roommate au?

this is for some reason also an assassin au? but they’re roommates and reader doesn’t know what he does. they’re bffs, mutual pining

18. don’t forget about me by clove

wow another song fic, big surprise

19. puppyy

harry gets a puppy who hates him :( but the puppy loves the reader!

20. mall au

lol this one is kind of dumb idk why i thought of it but harry is one of those kiosk people at the mall who sells perfume! dunno!

21. condoms

reader works at gas station, harry buys huge condoms

22. poetry

either person reads erotic poetry while touching the other

23. magic au

one of them makes a love potion, kind of dark? like making the other fall in love with them idk it could be an accident though

24. private chef

the reader is a private chef! that’s all i’ve got!

25. message board

this is inspired by..... the sims lmaooo you can pin messages to the message board in your apartment building and i thought it’d be cute if the reader and harry lived in the same building and he leaves notes on the board and she doesn’t know they’re for her! she always thinks they’re cute though

26. raisin theory

inspired by new girl! specifically a comment i saw in like a compilation? video of new girl on yt

i thought it’d be cute for harry to be that person

#tbh i haven't been reading ff either so if any of these have been done already i didn't know #anywhooo ily #hopefully this year will be good for everybody #harry styles imagines #harry styles writing #and of course the reader doesn't have to be female or in 3rd person #but yeah idk how many people are even gonna see this but my masterlist isn't linked anymore #if you search for masterlist on my blog it will come up #okay bye!!

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a/n: ah,,, so i decided to try and alter some stuff so;; i deleted the previous posts and decided to post em again with a few differences hehe >:) anyway; jealous itaru!!

request: it was a request but i deleted it by accident lord help me.

- Well, I don’t really see Itaru as the type to get jealous tbh

- At least… not to the point he’d act irrationally.

- He does get self conscious and awkward when he notices you get closer to someone who’s the opposite of him.

- Much like most of the guys in the company, his biggest fear is you realizing the guy you’d want to date is the opposite of him.

- He doesn’t really know how to react, a part of him wants to get mad but another part of him knows that it’s childish and that it’d be better to talk it out.

- So when he meets someone who makes him feel jealous about you he gets uncomfortable- mainly with himself- and he doesn’t know what to do. 

- He knows it’s immature but he ends up distancing himself, with some petty excuse of “There’s an event going on” or if he’s very desperate he’ll pull the “I've got a lot of work this week”.

- He didn’t talk to you for like… a week or so.

- You’ll notice something’s off almost immediately, maybe not as fast as you wished but fast enough that you could do something about it, whether he likes it or not you know him well enough to know somethings bothering him.

- (That and his scores have been pretty low recently and Banri called in worried).

- So you confront him by visiting the dorm, he can’t hide if you’re there with him.

- “Oh… I guess you figured it out quickly, huh?”

- He’s pretty embarrassed about it, especially that it got bad enough to have a teenager step in and tell on him.

- He’s 23 and he needed a fucking 17 year old with a mushroom haircut to step in.

- He quickly admits it’s stupid and that he should’ve talked it over with you but it’s the first time he felt threatened like that and a part of him was genuinely scared that if he told you head on what was wrong you’d confirm it.

- He mutters some gaming metaphors about there being no guide to dating you and how he’s new to dating 3D and not 2D or some weeb shit like that.

- “You’re just… one of the best things in my life aside from games,” he’s sitting down on his couch all embarrassed, he doesn’t know what the fuck to say without sounding cringy, “You’ve got me feeling like I’m in some stupid dating sim…”

- “Eww.”

- He throws a pillow at you while complaining about not knowing what the fuck to do or tell you.

- “I’m trying to be romantic, give me a break!”

- “Just because you saw it in one of your fucking video game it doesn’t mean it’ll work with me.”

- After that incident (which neither you nor Banri let live down) he’s more honest when it comes to feeling jealous.

- He’s still trying to figure this whole relationship thing out, being with you makes him genuinely happy and he’d hate to lose you to another person or because of his inability to open up.

- In many ways, being jealous made him realize a lot of things- mainly that he cares about you and that he can’t resort to shutting himself in and playing dating sims to try and “max out his romantic stats”.

- So after that- jealous Itaru is rarely seen, yes he has times where he’s insecure but it never ever gets to the point where he’d shut you out again.

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