#this....got ahead of me somehow

[baaad-omens]

shoutout to the magnus protocol ep. 5 for actually existing i genuinely thought i'd make it up for the past month or so.

#what happened is i must have accidentally listened to protocol instead of archives VERY very early on i guess. and somehow jumped ahead??? #it must have been the most recent episode at the time. before i figured out how the podcast app works #i remember being delighted by it. one of the episodes that really got me. got me into the wrong podcast but still #and then. i couldn't find it when relisteninf to archives #so i'm glad ive solved that particular mystedy because it was rlly rlly good #i wonder how i made it through the dialogue moments at the beginning tho. and whether ive secretly listened to more protocol than i thought #tma #tmagp #the magnus protocol #original post

[gregoftom]

awful, just awful

#succession #tomgreg #biting my pillow like that dog meme #where do i even begin with this TOM IS LIKE A SCHOOLBOY WITH GREG ITS ACTUALLY INSANE #he reverts to like 20 years younger from his emotional swings to his obvious crush #and his EXPRESSIONS THROUGHOUT THIS SCENE BY TALOS MY STOMACH IS IN MY ASS. MATTHEW!!!!! #his hurt at the thought that greg might somehow be trying to blackmail him again to just sadness because of greg's fear of going to jail #his downcast eyes as he says ''yeah'' SHUT the up #like yeah maybe he's reflecting on his own hurt and pain at the fact that he's going to jail and shiv handed him another rejection #just before. or maybe. he doesn't like hearing greg suffer like this. i mean. from what i know about later #that tom is fully prepared to go to jail and ''throw it all out for love'' or whatever tf for greg's sake #it's just. it's plausible is all i'll say. it's very plausible when we think about that future scene. #idk i just think that people refuse to hear when anyone would say tom is absolutely GASPING to love somebody. like yeah he's got issues #but who tf is well adjusted in this economy LMAOOO even in these rich fucks' worlds nobody is #so i know. i'm not stupid i know he can be nasty. but so can all of them. GREG WAS PREPARED TO SUE GREENPEACE AJDLAKDAD #i mean idk if he will. but my point is if tom wasn't like that he wouldn't be such a good character imo. if he was just a straight up #asshole. who would care if something bad happened to him? i wouldn't. something that makes him so compelling to me #is that he can be SO WRATHFUL AND MANIACAL #but he can be so. so fucking soft and vulnerable at the same time. and matthew plays him so organically i just wanna fuckin WEEP #and then GREG here. he wasn't even thinking about using a connection of any way to get ahead he just wants to be saved. he's still early 20s #i believe anyway. and tom has taken care of him. looked after him #protected him. he always listens to him. he's learned that tom is there for him so ofc he's gonna plead for help but like. not directly #''just asking for advice'' = i'm fucking terrified how do i make it stop help me #hoe but keep it fashion #SORRY GOD I KEEP DOING NOVELS IN THE TAGS BUT GODDDDDD THIS IS SO MUCH evyerhting is sos oafujfdmwkqfd #ok i'm stopping now but anyway. they're important to me. sorry. sorry bye

[disdaidal]

I got accepted to a school! 🥳✨ I should be starting my studies as a playgroup supervisor on August.

#personal #i applied to three different schools #the one closest to me rejected both my applications #the next one still hasn't answered so i'm waiting for their response #the one that accepted me is ofc located at the furthest away from where i live #which i dunno could be a slight problem #since i have no desire to move anywhere from where i live now lol #i've got everything here so #anyway i accepted my position as a student there for now #there are still some things i need to do. or may have to do #so i'll see how it goes #maybe i can find a place to study closer. or arrange it somehow that i wouldn't have to be present every day #that way i wouldn't have to move or at least my traveling wouldn't be too expensive #the summer's still ahead so #maybe i'll figure something out #in any case i'm still happy about this opportunity #no matter what happens

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A drawing of two scavengers from Rain World, one labelled Sanic and the other one Shrek. Sanic's fur is light brown, with darker extremities, a messy row of pale green spines down its back, and bright blue eyes. They sit contentedly, staring at the screen, with a couple grenades by its feet. Shrek has pale fur, a green head, hands, and feet, and brown eyes. It's facing to the right, with their arms splayed out and an explosive spear on their back. Beside each scavenger are a few woefully-compressed screencaps of their in-game appearance. End ID]

An ode to these silly beasts, who accompanied me on my second visits to Industrial and Chimney

#peridots-art #rain world #scavenger rain world #...usually only draw set characters of games and not. creatures. so that's new for me #absolutely love specbioing these guys though!! buggifying them scratches the right itch in my brain especially when they could reasonably #be buggy in canon!! #bugs #clarification on the ''shrek is maybe two guys'' thing ahead. first we'll argue for One Guy #1. both found in the same region at the same time 2. remarkably similar coloring and mannerisms (seemed to be the pack leader) #and now evidence supporting the two different guys theory: #1. travelled with a different pack of scavengers the second time vs when i found it 2. second time had slightly duller colors and noticably #longer horns (without the little gradient at the end) #so now you see why i didn't notice anything wrong until after reviewing the screenshots. BUT!!! secret third option!!! #the first one with the short horns was found first when i was using the entrance-to-industrial shelter #and the one i mostly relied on for reference was near the higher shelter. shrek numero dos. the canon shrek. #but i have a screenshot of shrek 1 in the place shrek 2 was found. hanging out with one of shrek 2's pack members no less. #conclusion: ??? #ok now that that's ''settled''. don't let this all distract you from the fact that the simple act of SWITCHING TO THE SHADING LAYER #got me out of a four-month-long mental rut. i can't say that it was depression nor that i know anything about depression in the first place #but even if it wasn't very serious? it Sucked. even if it was just a nagging thought at the back of my mind my life was duller somehow #i started to feel a little unmotivated. lonely. anxious. like the days blend together. the things i liked weren't bringing as much joy #and all of that got worse recently. the main reason i haven't posted any art for like a month? art stopped being fun. #which is a TERRIBLE thing for someone like me who loves to draw so so much. so when everything that's been building up over the past months #just vanished completely? without warning? you better believe i teared up over a doodle of a scavenger for making me feel right again. #i'm overjoyed to be free of it. i'm hopeful again! i love myself again! i can fall in love with the world all over again!!! #i have no idea how this happened. but i have motivation and determination and i feel like i can change my life for the better now. if i try #maybe this was my normal but it's the striking opposite of what I've been feeling--i'm finally proud of my accomplishments! and of myself!! #which was something i couldn't say in earnest even before december. #and reader? i call you tag-wanderer for i have no way of knowing who you are. maybe a treasured mutual or maybe a stranger. but i love you. #and i hope you make your way out.

[rottengurlz]

My coworker lied straight to my managers face about me today like can you just quit already god damn

#the same coworker who lied to everyone on Saturday and said I told her to go home instead of cleaning her rooms #even tho I told her to clean the rooms I assigned her after she got back from her lunch 😒😒 #I talked to her today about her rooms she keeps leaving not fully finished because she’ll say it still needs a comforter or something #instead of just washing the comforter ahead of time and finishing the room #but she was trying to tell me she did wash her linen but somehow still didn’t have enough #but then she was saying she looked through everything and couldn’t find any already clean and ready linen so she didn’t put it in the rooms #DID U WASH IT OR NOT 👊🏼

[iliketrainmen]

The main reason behind Roark becoming one of my blorbos

#Roark shitposted so hard he Undertale'd us before the damn game even existed #at least thats what i like to believe #simultaneously both behind and ahead in world events #pokemon #gym leader roark #roark #somehow forgot where i got the initial footage is from #if ur the owner of it just shoot me a message so i can credit you #im probably gonna make another version but with bdsp

[scattered-winter]

last grief vent post lads

#i wish there was someone to blame. i mean there Is but it wasnt really her fault so i cant blame her really. #a driver had dementia and somehow slipped away from her caretakers and got on the road with her car and now my friend is dead #and there's nobody to blame for it. shit happens. she didnt know what she was doing. i know that she didn't mean to. #but the fact is that she got in her car that day when she shouldnt have and now a 20 year old girl with her whole life ahead of her is dead #and i am not gonna lie guys. im fucking pissed. #its unfair. its so fucking unfair. #but its also unfair for me to point fingers when it wasnt really that driver's fault. #she doesnt even remember causing the accident. she doesnt know where her injuries came from. #and i KNOW what dementia is i KNOW that thats part of it and it isnt her fault at all #but im really angry. not even necessarily specifically at the driver tbh just . angry #but. the funeral is over. so i think ill be ok from now on. #there was a beautiful sunset while i was driving home today. it was pink and orange #pink sunsets were her favorite. it was beautiful to see one today. #winter speaks #grief tag #tw death #tw car accident

[shirogane-oushirou]

after a scary health day, i've decided -I- make the rules of my AUs and -I- decide the level of "plot" they have. no, brain, my silly little pkmn AU doesn't need some grand conflict for us to overcome. poke!ren can hit the same balance of "takes care of me in every way he can while also recognizing my autonomy" as the other rens. fuck you, brain. <3

#so basically that whole long post i made? yeah it's going in the trash KJNASKDJN i don't have to spend a single minute of my #existence dreaming up someone who makes me feel more exhausted than i already am actually!!!!! #i can still have that 'LUGIA???? HUH???' moment without it being preceded by any amount of infantilization. #he'd be shocked even if i was able-bodied. like. hello???? #i wrote that whole thing as sleep meds were kicking in... and rewrote it as sleep meds were kicking in. so i'm gonna blame it on that ;;; #i also have that 'between hyperfixations' feeling rn so i think i was trying to create a spark of interest. somehow. #and it didn't work for obvious reasons imho lkamsklm. #anyway. new tv room ep dropping tonight so hopefully that gets the brain juices going + i see a doc tomorrow so maybe i'll get #some answers on that front...? and maybe get back to drawing a bit...? one can hope!!! #📌 [ my posts. ] #✏️ [ my scenarios. ] #🦔 [ used to be easy. ] #🐸 [ look ahead. ] #<- i also still need to change these tags omg every time i read 'you're my daydream' i think of avr.il lavi.gne instead of #the ark.nights song i got it from. :(

[gailynovelry]

Sometimes, living under late-stage capitalism is just like. I'm tired of being asked to spin straw into gold in exchange for a plate of stale, soggy bread crust.

#i genuinely like my day job #but (rant ahead) every month i am being asked to do more and more with less and less #i am being scraped thinner and thinner #and the customers are somehow getting a more raw deal over time too! #i'm honestly watching for my company to accidentally cross that lovely invisible line where people get fed up with the service #and finally abandon it all at once #like with the warner thing #management thinks that if they boil the frog slowly enough it will never notice #i think eventually the frog says to itself “this sauna is too hot wtf” and jumps out #girl i just want to clean and do maintenance and count money and do a few customer's laundry for them . . . and ideally have days off #my days off. got halved since feb. i had four days off in march. TWO OF THEM WERE FOR SURGERY AND RECOVERY. #i am doing 90% of certain kinds of work for the store and 100% of other kinds #and i had to work with a potential concussion because i knew no-one could fill in #if they don't give me that week off in may then i am walking out and letting the store i am single-handedly holding up #c r u m b l e

[piledrivemytombstones]

New punk edit and new flashing warning ⚠️

Also a little fan fic weakly based on the song I used.

Song: valonkantaja by tehosekoitin

(The name translates to holder of the light)

No matter what rumors are true with CM Punk, one thing’s certain:

He has done a lot in his wrestling career. He has shown so many young kids to be themselves. To not let anything stop you. To do what you gotta do. Sometimes it hurts but it’s better to do it than to regret it.

Punk left the company he loved dearly. Tears covering his eyes. To see what’s on the other side. In the scary big city of pro wrestling. WWE. The place you might not succeed in.

But because he took the offer and made sure people will see him and how dedicated to this sport he was, he succeeded. He was on the top. Many times. He held the light for people like him.

For the people who started from the bottom, wanting to be on top.

Because of his determination of succeeding, he opened the doors for indie sweethearts to get to the big city.

He was the holder of the light.

But he felt miserable. Like he wasn’t taken seriously in the city of the big dogs.

So he left. He wanted to give the love he was giving to wrestling, to himself too.

For seven years of not being part of the thing he was so passionate about, he thought trying again.

As always, there was nothing to loose.

So he went to the big town of wrestling. AEW. Thinking it would be different from the city.

This was going to be his home.

Somewhere where he can continue to hold the light up high for others.

And he did.

He helped many of the talent younger than him.

But not everyone liked him.

To them he wasn’t as innocent than he supposedly wanted everyone believe.

And he wasn’t. He let his anger get him.

Twice.

But he still didn’t let this stop him to give all on his last match.

He knew this was his last match there.

And he had nothing to loose.

#tw flashing #cm punk #cm punk edit #cm punk fanfiction #wrestling edit #sorry got a bit too invested in my own edit #dont Play Kat finnish Rock from 90’s and 2000’s or this’ll be the consequences #or play. idk. I’m not the boss of you #if you like me getting too mushy and invested. go ahead and play me Finnish rock music and say how it’s so that wrestler #and even if it wasn’t so that wrestler based on the lyrics #I will make it somehow very well fit for that wrestler

[ihearttaylorswift]

The eras tour movie was amazing!!!!

#i had a blast there with my sister #she even got me the special popcorn box and an extra cup #so in love with it #sadly the cinema somehow messed up the audio and ever since all too well the audio was like two seconds ahead which was a bit annoying #but I tried to ignore it after like 5 songs lol

[thinkingnot]

Shicmuon really got them craziest cracked genes ever

#wait let me find more flattering ones his parents literal monsters (in reference to their power and overall everything) #so you got this reckless lookin’ actually always somehow 3 steps ahead dude with the brains and brawns of a main character #and this lady who can turn into a magical beast and got this cool ancestrial thingy magic thing idk anymore but like op as hell #and their love ended in a tragedy but holy damn #shicmuon is like the personality of both his parents at their craziest without a valve restriction thing #the parents got struggles and circumstances and each other kind of calmed the whole insane thing but i know damn well its underlining #shicmuon really got to fully unleash the combine unresticted cracked nature of the both #lanoste really went well you know i had to reign in all my life and i dont really know of fathering and griefed and disappeared to so eh #mans was like imma miss like the first several years of your childhood due to the empire keeping ya but let me just go around and through #politics and personel make a force to be reckoned with and grt ya lil boi back and then give him just free range #anyways #ranble #personal #black haze #manhwa #manhwa blogging #lanoste #shicmuon #eperia #mans a legendary crazy magician AND the heir to the archduke whose position is only under the emperial king but also is over since hes got #them pure blood and all that #not mcyt

[viulus]

I just finished the Big Encounter tm in Disco Elysium, and... Jesus fucking christ, man

#vu's posts #disco elysium #so uh. heavy spoilers ahead in the tags. so if you haven't gotten very far in the game then stop reading this #... #ok now that spoiler-free people are gone. i need to ramble #by 'big encounter' i of course mean between the scabs and the hardie boys. just to give context #not long before the encounter though i finally met ruby. and that was also a tense situation. like my god #anyways. once i headed to the whirling i saw the whole thing start yknow #as soon as kim dropped a 'fuck' i was so Tense because like. he *never* swears. so i knew that things were gonna go down #i managed to pass both the rhetoric and suggestion checks.. somehow. but that didn't do anything in the end really. #i didn't ever find my gun so i was left on the defensive 😭 luckily i put on the chestplate... thing. #i'm pretty sure that that's what kept me alive tbh #i got hit with two bullets but like i said. the first one hit the chestplate. that took most of the damage there. my leg got hit though #AND i kept kim alive yippee! i have a hunch that he can die if you fail a certain check #(i.e. the one where you warn him about the guy behind him) #also i got a bonus on that check that said that kim *really* trusts me and... 😭😭 #ok i think i got all my thoughts out! for now... #i also screen recorded the whole thing. thinking about sharing it tbh. who knows though #WAIT. one more thing. i am *so* shocked that kim made *that* shot. because yknow. he's got vision problems yeah? #like what a fucking badass. like hello #ok NOW i'm done. and i gotta go to sleep now 😂 #va4 rambles in the tags

[trans-estinien]

People my age going "life is pointless and difficult so my plan is to die by the age of 20" make me so sad.

Life is difficult sure, and yeah we're all going to die in the end anyways, so why not have fun with it? Enjoy the little things. Love fully and openly. Do the things you want to do. Y'know?

#sorry im. having a moment #cause like. my life is a fucking disaster and i hate it as much as the next guy #but it will get better because im going to make it better. somehow #im not sure how but by the gods I'm going to fucking do it #its going to take. a long time but that's ok #ive got my whole life ahead of me to figure that shit out #suicide mention #by the way i think endwalker managed to make me not one of those teenagers:tm: #something something hope and love in the face of ultimate despair something something #i think all my friends should go play endwalker too but. cant be advertising a viddy game in the middle of a emotional heartfelt post

[honeyedlashton]

It’s a big night for girlbosses

#listening to this album…and I actually despise it?? #I have a rant and I’m not being nice sorry y’all scroll past if you don’t wanna read #girl I used to be on your side… #I’ve been here since day ONE bestie since 2006 and this is what you’ve given me?? #I was a stan before I even knew what stanning was and this is how I’m repaid?? her 10th album has some of the most heignous lyrics EVER?? #I have no more respect for this woman anymore #she lost me tonight lmfaoo #fr fr #fuck that #(I’ve been so negative but I really expected more from her) #how did the lyrics get so bad #didn’t think anything could get worse than cocaine colored wedding dress but yk what? somehow? it got worse #damn no wonder there was no lead single #I wouldn’t wanna let people know ahead of time either #whatever I’m so glad I no longer blindly follow her cause this is some of the worst shit I’ve ever heard #and I listened to that 30 second clip of I feel funny by Justin Bieber… #this album is like if I did something bad and me! had a baby. just process that… #how are we as a society supposed to recover when TAYLOR SWIFT puts out a flop #and I keep harping on the lyrics are so bad like she really is just a capitalist bitch huh? #it’s like a carbon copy of my Pinterest feed in 2014 🤮 #some things were made to be left in the vault #I will probably not listen again willingly #2.5/10 #nothing more to say goodnight #midnights spoilers #not even really a #hot take

[sylhea-raemi]

"Isekai Tensei, Ore ga Otome ge de Kyuuseishu" is good.

#maybe it's just bc it's late that i wanted to go ahead and post this but okay. #it's got a... kind of harem aspect? since it's an otome game. but it's not the type that i LOATHE #no. this one's funny #it's in an otome game setting and i still dig for that shit no matter how trashy it is. right so. #the thing is there's no 'love' aspect yet and the mc is trying so hard NOT to raise affection levels #the mc ACTUALLY wants to go home and there's SOMEONE who he can keep in touch with from his world #the villainess i assume is not reincarnated but someone somwhow formed a connection with her from the outside of her world #and managed to change her from who she was in the game. so shse wants to come to thw other world to meet the person who helped her #the OG heroine of this otome world came later and wow it was fun lol #typically in these OI stories the og heroine is either a bitch or an ally of the mc #the og heroine of this one's gives me a vibe that's between an actual person who got isekai'd and an a.i #how do i describe this manga lol #there's even a siscon here but it somehow didn't annoy me??? it showed for like... only two chapters tho so maybe that's it #there's even a yandere here which i didn't like as much but that didn't annoy me as well????? #this manga just managed to entertain me even with these tropes sihdkshsjs #sylhea talks animanga