#those who are the closest to you?

[ii-zi]

Love how obvious it is when something trends organically vs bot activity just looking at the trending tab

#also kinda embarrassed about hititng tag limit in that last post lol sorry about that #feel free to feel like im offering you my diary to read even tho i never kept one and idk if that's a thing w diaries #like sure they're supposed to be private but like that's it? or is it like a sort of self/auto pen pal thing that you show to #those who are the closest to you? #do ppl exchange diaries? like in that one manhwa with karno and the pastry chef princess? #i have what my sister calls a junk journal that i fill with what little bits n pieces i can #it even has a little mirror! bc her friend broke the oreo sandwich themed mirror hair brush thing i let her borrow lol #so i took the loose mirror and washitaped it to the lil notebook #and a top loader with a lile sticker?? draken polaroid a friend got me from a sort of themed event in an anime themed café or something #and a lot of post its with my doodles lol #and one doodle my sister made! #it's a round frog heehee i put keropi in another smaller note under it and a han (skz #skz like his little mascot thing) underneath ith #personal #vent

[wolvesofinnistrad]

I know Tommy is technically friends with Chimney and worked with everyone except Buck and Eddie, but I'd love it if Tommy just like... retroactively takes Buck's side in every past trauma Buck has had where he didn't have anyone truly on his side.

Aka Tommy being like "Chimney PUNCHED you?! They laughed when they found out your Therapist had SEX with you during a session!!? He called YOU exhausting??!"

#tommy kinard #evan buck buckley #listen i just have a lot of feelings about how sometimes no one was truly in bucks corner for a few of those moments #probably the closest was Hen who really has always tried to see bucks side #which in retrospect like... queers flocking together amirite #bucktommy #kinkley #tevan #what do you mean its 2024 and i should be over those incident im sorry i hold grudges on behalf of my blorbo #if buck wont be angry about it ill just have to do it for him

[zer0point5ive]

not arguing with a man with big blue eyes and one less foot than he woke up in this bathroom with whatever you say beautiful ..

#i miss him. lawrence come home #they were so real for getting a pretty pretty gorgeous guy to play the gay doctor who does all That. so real .. #sorry what was i saying again oh yeah. if i was locked in the bathroom w lawrence well i would do anything he asked but thats just me #who up being unwell about that doctor i need to watch saw tomorrow for the good of my health to be honest #lawrence withdrawal is real nd can affect those closest to you this is why my dr prescribed me with 10000mg of l #📹 #saw 2004

[panncakes]

stuck thinking about when day gets crowded and overwhelmed on his birthday he calls out to gee of all people there to remove him from the situation; and how when day tells her he wants to be alone she makes sure he knows she wants to understand him and he can talk to her (not to help him or to fix things for him; simply to understand him) and when day reaffirms a boundary she accepts this and doesn't press further. he's her friend and she cares for him but he's still an adult and she has no problem treating him as such and i think that at the moment she is the only one from day's past who is actively able to do so

#last twilight #gee best girl #i know disability is difficult on loved ones as well and it is very easy for those closest to you to fall into pitying and babying you #but gee has been working very hard to not let that happen to her friendship with day #she is immediately ready to keep teasing and playing with day whilst also quick to adjust to the new aspects of their relationship #she wants to learn how to guide day through the badminton court to take over from 'his mhok' and is more than willing to take day #to the bathroom in the bar but when day assures her he can handle it she doesn't infantalize him #she immediately invites day to the bar without any hesitation and then continues to invite him to her game because that's #an important aspect of their friendship #and when he shows up she isn't afraid to joke around and tease him #she's extremely good at not treating him like a broken piece of porcelain whilst also quickly taking cues in how to adjust where it is #necessary #im glad day gets someone from his past who doesnt need as much time as his family to readjust to his new normal #and it is also an incredibly good parallel to how bad augustus' assessment of the situation is #last twilight the series

[bonefall]

Feel free to ignore you've probably got a lot going on right now, but considering you know a lot about DOTC and Clear sky, I had a question...

We know that he's a terrible, misogynistic, woman beating and war mongering lunatic who was excused of all his actions because his equally misogynistic brother said " But-But he's nice! Deep down! This isn't the real him! "

But! In a world where the Hunters could write such a character, what do you think Clear Sky would look like as an actual sympathetic villain?

Idk if that makes sense, but what I've thought of doing is taking purely cannon Clear Sky and attempting to change him enough that he's still an antagonist, but not too far where only Reddit defends him.

I don't think he works as a sympathetic villain, on any level, ever. I think you're making a huge mistake to even try, and I have never seen an AU where it was done well nor am I interested in entertaining the thought.

Characters. Are. Tools. They exist to tell a story. The story that people tell me, by obsessing over some alternate universe where he was "ACTUALLY sympathetic and had a REAL redemption arc," is that they're not fucking interested in his dozens of victims. Nor do they actually care about the abusive impact he had on the minds and feelings of his family. They're JUST interested in Clear Sky himself.

Just like the Erins. Everything that happens in DOTC revolves around him. Everything. All his wives die so he can be sad about it. His brother defends all of his actions and BEGS you to sympathize with his pain so he can be 'redeemable.' One Eye comes out of nowhere so that there can be an example of "real" evil to contrast Clear Sky so he's less bad in hindsight.

The first three books of DOTC are bad, but the last three are fucking insufferable because SUDDENLY all that Gray Wing apologia pays off, and they take their main villain and throw him out a window. You CAN'T have "redeemable" Clear Sky and the plot of DOTC without dragging in someone else to drive the conflict, to BE the bigger threat to "unite" against. Slash and One Eye have to be conjured up out of thin air so Clear Sky can WHINE about how people only suck his toes instead of deepthroat them after he killed all their friends.

And yet, in spite of this absolute failure of an attempt, we continue to see this bullshit "redemption" be a mistake because Clear Sky is a fantastic villain, with major antagonist roles in nearly EVERY bit of follow-up material for DOTC that came after.

He's the most consistent monster in all of Warriors.

He's a fragile, egotistical, self-absorbed megalomaniac who ALWAYS sees himself as the victim, REFUSING to self-reflect and blaming everything else for all of his terrible choices. He will USE your love of him against you like it's a chain through your nose, step out of line and he will yank you into place with guilt trips, manipulation, public shaming, and violence.

He's a child abuser. He's a tyrant. He abandons the sick and disabled as soon as they're of no use to him, with grand speeches about "illness" and "weakness." He's a murderer who stands above the shredded corpse of his victim and bellows, "I'M NOT GREEDY! I'M JUST STRONG!"

And you'd write a "good" redemption arc for this, why?

Why are people so chronically unable to accept that there are LOTS of people like him, and you can't save your abuser? Why don't you ask yourselves why you're not interested in exploring Thunder, or Petal, or Gray Wing, and how his toxic influence impacts them? Why does the sympathy fall on Clear Sky? What about the DOZENS of victims who are dead by Book 3, and how THEY could have been saved?

Why ruin a perfectly good villain?

What's behind this trend where a billion people say to me, "Yes Clear Sky is a walking cavalcade of fucked up abuse apologia, and an incredibly realistic depiction of an abuser, but how would you change this while keeping it all the same?"

I wouldn't. You can't. It wouldn't be the same story, or it wouldn't be the same character. Never seen it done well, and I have seen it a lot. So I don't entertain this deeply frustrating "Well What If Clear Sky But Nice" impulse.

#The closest I'll ever get to that is Fallenleaf. And she lost it all #And spent years in the time-out tunnel #BAD KITTIES GO IN THE PEAR WIGGLER TO BE SUFFICIENTLY WIGGLED. #I don't think people in power typically change. If they do it's so rare it's not worth entertaining. Camel through the eye of a needle shit #and I mean ALL powers. this goes for abusive relationships too. I think they need to lose that power before they change. #When you have power. REAL power. You can fill those holes with it. You can force people to not leave. #so im actively hostile to stories that winge and cry about giving powerful people endless sympathy and chances #You've already shown me what you want to do with your power and as long as you keep it you haven't seen your consequences. #Power reveals. #It doesn't corrupt. It reveals. #DOTC hate #clear sky's redemption arc #If you're in an abusive relationship or under a terrible boss or in some other bad environment. You won't fix it. #You are not responsible for fixing it. #You can't fix it. #And they will not change. so GET OUTTA THERE #And that's who he functions best as. To me. #He's the bastard you need to escape. #And that's infinitely more compelling to me than Nice Clear Sky Attempt 32324 #I don't write stories that beg you to sympathize with tyrants and keep your heart open to some maybe-change on the horizon #I write stories where they ruin everything they touch and have to be forcefully yanked out of power before they hurt more people. #And also screw every related take that's like 'ohhh after 5000 years of having his toes sucked he regrets it a bit :(' #no he fucking wouldn't. he had his toes sucked for 5000 years. He's vindicated by how fondly he's remembered. #You can't fucking tell me that he doesnt REVEL in how violent the culture became. That him being offended about the clan's exile- #--was anything but him being offended his namesake was going away. That he wouldn't parade around like every choice he ever made was right. #''I made some vague mistakes which I will never name. BUT Im never wrong and always did it my way even if it was hard'' #If you haven't met a person like that I envy you. #bone babble #Nothing makes me mad quite like this character #Again I yell about his brother a lot because he's widely loved by the fandom

[neechees]

You know I've seen a lot of people say "People always say you're not allowed to like villians but I always love the villians!!" But in all my years on the internet & fandom spaces, I've never actually seen anybody say nobody is allowed to like the villians

Like are people ACTUALLY saying that or do you just have a victim complex about it

#saw a lonely post about character morality & now ive lost it #like the closest ive seen MAYBE is like people saying theyre uncomfortable around fans of a certain character #who is a villian bc of the weird behavior of those fans regarding the character esp if that character is meant to be evil in a specific way #(like they're hyper racist or something) #but I've never actually seen anyone ever say 'youre not allowed to like any villian character at all & if you do youre a bad person'

[miahasahardname]

school is my number 1 top priority

#HUZZAH! ANOTHER MIAHASAHARDNAME MSPAINT SHITPOST! #tmnt community i feed you well (not really) #btw human mike jumpscare!!! i was limiting my use of custom colours to just be for skin so the colour scheme is off for him #(dark red is the closest i could get to the brown hair i gave him) #yeah i was too scared to write ‘fuckin’ because. school #womp womp womppppp #tmnt mikey #tmnt donnie #april o’neil #2012 mikey #2003 mikey #(as a human) #((i have struggled immensely with making human designs for the 87 and 03 turts idk why but all i have out of those generations is 03 mike #(who looks awesome) and 03 don (who looks. ok i guess?))) #2012 donnie #2012 april o’neil #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #tmnt 2003 #shitpost

[msbhagirathi]

The Madhumati Gupta Buaji Weekly

Mugzeen Adison (Magazine Edition)

Namaste Nandkisore!

Aasaa karat hain ki, nandkisore, aap sab logan theek haai. Hum logan bhi theek haai, nandkisore. Sasi babua bhi ab theek hi haai bas pahile se tanik kamjor hui gaye, chhari ke sahare chalat haain ab. Aoor humka bataye rahe ki oo ki ee halat bhi oo Syaam ki kirpa rahi. Humra mann toh karat raha ki oo sasure ko ek ghumaai ke lagay de ki jindagi bhar phir aisan kucho karat ki jurrat naa karihe, haa.

Chalo choro babua/bitiya. Arre nandkisore ab tanik aapan baat bhi karau, ghar mein sab logan theek haai na? Tohre Amma-Bauji, tohri kauno humre jaisan Buaji hau toh oo sab theek haai na, nandkisore?

Ab kaa batyay tohka, nandkisore. Kal parso ki baat rahi, Sanka Devi aayi gayi phudakti-phudakti Laxminagar. Humka kahine lagi ki Arnav babua ke daftar mein kauno mugzeen-wugzeen ke khaatir humka kucho likhna haai. Hum kahe ki ab nandkisore humre jamane mein toh hum aoor tohre phuphaji itni chitthi likhat rahe ki bas pucho naahi. Toh oo kahi ki theek haai buaji aap chitthi likh ke humko bataay dena hum aa kar le jayenge, ab humri buddhi bhi umar ke kaaran mand pari rahi, oo ka jaaye ke baad, hum bhi bhul gaye nandkisore.

Saara kaam karke aaike baithe the, ki oo ka fone aayi gaya, humka puchi ki chhitthi likhe haai ki naahi, toh hum kahe, nandkisore, kaam mein thora byast hoyi gaye the, abhi likhat rahe.

Ab hum kaa bataay, nandkisore, humri jindagi mein kauno bataane layak khaas toh kucho haai nahi. Athaarah (18) ke the, amma-bauji ne byaah karaaye diya, tohre phuphaji un dino rail maashter kaa kaam karat rahe. Byaah ke baad humka liye eehan Delhi aayi gaye Laxminagar, ab nandkisore tabahu se hum idhar hi rahat haai.

[Buaji aur phuphaji honeymoon ke liye puri dilli ghume the. Phuphaji jab bhi kaam ke wajah se dusri jagah jaate toh wahan se buaji ko chitthi likhte the. ~Buaji ki pyaari SD ;)]

Sabahu theek chalat raha tha. Byaah ke teen saal baad, ek din khabar mili ki kauno train mein aag lag gayi haai, aoor bohut logan ki jaan gayi haai, a phir hum bhi chakkar kaat kaat kar thak gaye, nandkisore, daftar se aspataal aoor aspataal se phir daftar, phir unke daftar se ek din chhitthi aaye ki tohre phuphaji toh milat naahi toh unki penson ki raakam ab humko mila karegi, hum bohut roye oo din.

Bohut hi ache insaan the, nandkisore, hum behad prem karat the, ab kaa karaein, oo din ke baad se hum aapan nandkisore ke charno mein samarpit hoye gaye. Khair jaane do nandkisore. Ee sab toh bohut purani baat rahi.

Aye nandkisore, agar tumlogan ka kauno dikkat paresaani rahe toh humka bataayi dio, hum tohka tanik samajhaai denge, aoor baaki sab humre nandkisore ke haathon chor denge, theek haai naa? Bilkul kauno dikkat rahi toh bitiya humka aapan buaji samajh kar, eehan aaike bataai dena, mann bhi thora halka hoat jayi. Aoor hum toh waisan bhi jyaada kaam-kaaj naa kar sakat haai naa, toh pura din bas baith ke hi gujar jaat haai. Tohka chitthi likhan ke khaatir humra bhi tanik samay beet jaye.

Ab hum thehre bujurg, humse kaun baat karihe? Oo bhi chitthi likhke, nandkisore? Aajkal toh naa jaane kaa oosab bhatsup-discaard bhagwaan jaane aoor kaa-kaa aayi gaye haai, chitthi likhne ka phursat kaun ke paas rahai?

Khair choro. Humka toh aoor kuch soojh hi naahi rahat haai nandkisore, aoor kaa likhe? Chalao phir rakhte haai kuch batana hau toh likhat dena theek haai naa?

Aoor haan. Humka sunne mein aawat haai ki Sanka Devi ki kauno saheli ka aaj janam din raha? Ee baat sach haai ka, nandkisore? Janam din ki bohut bohut subhkamna tohka, nandkisore. Khub kaam karau, mehnat karau, Arnav babua aoor titaliya ke jaisan naam-paisa kamao, aoor tohka pati-parmeswar toh bohut hi bhagyawaan raha ki oo ka tohre jaisan patni milat rahi, nandkisore (byaah kee ho ki naahi, nandkisore?)

Aoor humri taraf se kauno meethaai wagerah khaa lena, tohka ghar ka pata (address) hota toh dukaan se jalebi aoor kucho dusri meethaai bhijwai dete par kauno baat naahi bitiya muskuraayete rehna. Jindagi mein rone ke bohut mauke milenge par muskuraaye ke mauke khud hi dhundne parat haai, nandkisore.

Chalao phir, ab rakhat haai. Garima ke saath mandir jaanat haai nandkisore. Namaste.

P.S. : Lol. I got this idea today like literally today and then thought of getting started but now I am kinda confused about something whether I should continue this one from buaji's POV only or I should write from all the characters' POV's. Let me know. And also ket me know ki yeh kuch samajh mein aaya bhi ki ekdum kachra kar diya hai maine. Lol :') Ok so I should have added this bit in the beginning but nvrmnd *shrugs* So I have considered double 'a' for आ sound, double 'o' for ऊ sound, double 'e' for इ sound and single 'a' is for अ sound, rest if you find any kind of confusion, please feel free to ask for help, considering this is not regular Hindi so :) Ok. Bye. God bless you.

#arshi #arnav and khushi #arnav singh raizada #ipkknd #khushi kumari gupta #there is a friend who follows this blog and it's her birthday today like yeah after 12 am #from being the follower to ask/wait for my Live Blogs to being one of the closest friends within a month #we came a long way #happy birthday to you dear :) #i hope this matched up to your expectations :') #may you achieve all your dreams and have a happy life ahead nandkisore #and also to all those who read #do tell me if you found it weird or did you get irritated #by the number of times i chose to throw 'nandkisore' after every two words #lol #ok bye y'all #have a shubh ratri/prabhat whatever #ok bye #and also nandkisore guess who added the parts in brackets ;) #yes our beloved titaliya improvised her buaji's letter a bit y'all :)

[meirimerens]

I've only now noticed Eva Yan's scars on your drawings of her, is there any story or headcanon behind them?

keeping it real babygirl [gender neutral] the story is that this woman canonically kills herself, canonically contemplates suicide, quite explicitly mentioning the method she intents on using to you (with implications that she has, at the very least, thought about it/thought it through before), and lives with broken mirrors so she cannot (/doesn't have to) see her face like i just think She Is Mentally Unwell. like as a long-term, enduring, persistent thing, She Is Mentally Unwell and the plague is just worsening her condition, while it didn't cause it. the storey/headcanon is that she is mentally ill, openly and canonically has self-destructive tendencies, so. the scars are here because she lives with a lil something something in her mind which drives her to plenty of destructive acts in ways big and small. ywkim

#like when i jokingly and lovingly called her a ''mentally ill bisexuelle''. i wasn't joking. ykwim #man i've given eva those for a long ass while i can't even rember when i started. i give some to peter too for the same reasons #(except he doesn't succeed in killing himself. but he does try.) but like. he has long sleeves & pants when i post him on here so. elusive #suicide / #self-harm / #what's that diagram showing how the closest you are to dankovsky the more suicidal you are. as someone who's been there #i can reclaim chuckling about it #ring ring (answers) #anonymous #& even if she doesn't die in my mind [bc she doesn't in every route] well. she still has those. she lives through them; and then with them #and lives on. you know. real recovereds will get this etc you get the jist #this is equal part story and headcanon on that one but there's also this pattern that eva throws her whole body into destruction. ykwim. #the way she kills herself is fullbody; entire physical body out of a window; it's not like how she first mentions it to dankovsky #it's a complete and utter destruction [which is not destruction *to her*; because; well we see how it ends] #it's also easy to see how her constant seeking of companionship; her sudden infatuations for a stranger and her offerings of companionship #can also be read as her ''throwing her whole body'' into it [here; into something that; maybe; can ''fill a void'' left by her spiritual #emptiness. so in the spirit of ''putting her whole body'' into destruction/into trying to fill an intangible void left by emptiness and fel #well. scars and the act make sense to me at least. because there is that attempt to exteriorize an inner suffering with acts like those

[littlekingbergara]

Having some “Ryan & Shane aren’t really friends” demons which I know is stupid and parasocial and like not born out by the literally all the evidence that we have but I can’t help it sometimes. 😭 I just rly love their dynamic on screen, I hope it’s similar off screen.

oh those ARE demons!! they are Best Friends!!! a huge reason their onscreen dynamic is the way it is is Because they're Like That offscreen. you can fake a lot while making content but the kind of easy chemistry they have and the way they joke with and poke fun at and just talk to each other... you Cannot fake that. AND what we see is most often a Toned Down version of who they are off camera so i have to believe the bestieism is even more than we know.

also the first mystery files debrief when ryan legitimately could not think of Anyone he would be able trust on a bank heist Except For Shane. like yeah that was a jokey scenario but it means something that he believes shane is the Only person he can trust would not turn on him in a high stakes situation. like... ryan threatened to kill shane earlier in the episode he Did Not need to turn around and be that sincere. that's real.

ALSO also reading the interviews they did for ghost files and mystery files and seeing them in other people's content (shoutout my fav trypod episode) it's soo clear in the way they speak to and about each other that they really do love each other and working with each other and they make each other better creators.

and! shane was in ryan's wedding!!! his wedding that yes was published in a magazine but was not publicized in a way that matters for their brand. if they were just trying to push some fake friendship image they Absolutely would have taken advantage of that.

#ryan and shane #anon #💌 #have you seen the gf bloopers?? or Any bloopers?? i think outside of like ww and livestreams those are the closest we have to seeing who #they are off camera. obc theyre On Camera but like. they're flubs. they're bits and bants that dont belong in the episodes bc they got too #carried away with or laughed too hard at a joke or went off on tangents or were just too silly. #also their instagram posts and stories when they're traveling are such a good look at this. theyre just goofing!!! #and on that note they wouldnt make so many shows where they have to travel together and spend so much time together. #there are ryan shows and shane shows but theyre all Ryan And Shane Shows. they dont make anything without each other. #i know a lot of the bloopers and stuff are patreon only but some of them arent. and some get posted on socials too. #but yeah theyre friends my goodness u guys. they are best friends.

[resssistance]

Happy 25th birthday to Shoma Uno! To all your smiles, and many more that are yet to shine. Thank you 💙

#shoma uno #figure skating #i do love him smiling #but him smiling mid-skate is truly on another level. the closest i can describe it makes me feel is heart palpitations but good ones #happy bday to my wonderful boy #can't believe he's 25 omg #i theoretically can write a wax poetic essay full of bday wishes and how great he is and what his skating means to me but i can't #and if anyone tells you i cried today when i was watching him skate and kept thinking about everything and still too overly emotional #well.. that would be heinous lie of course.. #so happy birthday to an athlete with 3 olympic medals. an athlete with a career grand slam. a hardworking practice demon #happy bday to a skater with great control and patience gorgeous lines delicate musicality smooth skating sharp steps amazing spins #that skates so beautifully you can cry #happy birthday to a dog dad. a gamer who hates vegetables and whose diet consists of meat on 99.99%. a rare starfish specimen #happy birthday to a sleepy creature with an 'on/off' switch. to a student of stepffan lanbeeal that will make him go bald from stress #a short king himbo. an unintentional comedian. an english PhD #the only real person that gives me extreme cuteness aggression #and many many many other things that he is #happy birthday you sunshine with those sparkly eyes full of dreams #be happy be healthy be true to yourself #💙💙💙 #p.s. bring another blue costume. soon.

[iggy-hands]

Ik everything in that scene got overshadowed by ~the kiss~ but having it be "you make [me] happy" as a declaration of love, from two men who were both indifferent about their own deaths before meeting each other, is so unreasonably romantic

#it's not just. i love you #it's i like you. and i like myself more around you #and you make life worth living. you make my life better. you make me happy #😭😭❤️❤️ #having that from two men who were both feeling so lost and listless - for different reasons - and experiencing it in different ways #and to have them find each other and immediately have that connection like 'yes. i know what you mean' #and then to help each other out of it too. to find each other. to make each other happy outside of any romance #especially contrasting it with stede/mary. izzy/ed. who. regardless of how you read those relationships #are the closest relationship each of them have prior to meeting each other. #having it go from. relationships defined by #'we can't seem to stop hurting each other' #to. 'you make me happy' #like. are you Kidding Me 😭 #woes of emily #ofmd #our flag means death #blackbonnet

[dcviline]

every time I see people insist that the stark sisters will automatically hate each other and say that sansa "bullied" or "traumatized" arya (or vise versa) my eyes threaten to roll out of my skull. some of y'all truly have no idea how real sibling dynamics work.

#᯽ ooc. ⊱ ── ❝ 𝘖𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘪. ❞ #the irony is I'm saying this as an only child #the closest thing I had to siblings were a bunch of cousins I was raised with #and if I had to live with those bitches every day of my life for my entire childhood? yeah we would fight all the time too #why are we sanitizing EVERYTHING?? why do we put everything into a black&white box when these dynamics are more complicated than #being mean to someone = you hate them?? #you are not gonna have a perfect conflict free relationship with anyone who is THAT close to you in your life #if you do??? if you never clash even over something stupid or petty or irrelevant??? consider. you are not actually close to them. #your relationship is not evolving. you don't truly *know* each other. #because anything that goes deeper than surface level projection of self image requires going mask-off to varying degrees #and having someone close enough to see the worse parts of you. because they DO exist. every one has flaws and bad behaviors #carefully hidden beneath the layers of the image we project #closeness requires letting another person see that #and sibling dynamics (non-withstanding traumas / abnormal childhoods / other factors) are most exemplary of that #because sometimes your biggest rival that you swear you would be better off without is also the person you would die for

[divine-construct]

honestly i dislike the words ‘transmasc’ ‘transfem’ ‘transneutral’ ‘transneumasc’ ‘transneufem’ ‘transfemmasc’ ‘transneumascfem’ and, if there’s more, those too. they imply that you transition to a binary masculinity/feminity/neutrality/mix of those, and many trans people i know don’t.

the male body i want is not inherently masculine. even if i want a male body, i don’t actively want to dress masculine. transmasc and transfem are just new words to reinforce the same male = masculine, female = feminine binary again. my little brother (amab) has long hair and a sidecut, wears ‘masculine’ clothes, and still keeps getting read as a girl because he’s short and has a rather high-pitched voice (because he’s a kid!). not even a masculine presenting amab person is inherently masculine.

in the end, my transness means that i want a male-looking body, but not neccessarily a masculine one. and, apart from that, i as a whole am not and do not wish to be masculine. i am neither only masculine or only feminine—i am both—but if i had to choose just one? then i’d be transfeminine. i enjoy dressing mostly fem, appearing mostly fem, looking mostly fem. in a male-looking body. but i cannot call myself transmasculine for the wish of a male body, if there is no masculinity i am transitioning to.

#this is NOT about people who like and/or use those labels #i love you folks and i am happy for you. i am glad that you have terms to describe yourself that fit #but i do not. and ik there’s enough others who don’t either #the closest to transfem and transmasc i am is transmalefem i guess #but i just. do not like these trans labels #i am trans. that’s it #my existence is inherently queer and inherently not binary #and i will always be both masculine and feminine. and unable to choose just one #i am not a feminine transmasc i am not a transmasc i am just trans #trans #transgender #queer #transmasc label #transfem label #transneu label #divine rambles. ` 🕊 #the divine — basil. ` 🕊

[amatres]

hello everyone. i will stop editing every little detail of this and finally post it.

the template you can get here!

#layla (oc) #pwotr pals #im still going to be picky with this but i need to stop messing with it and just post lol #symbolism can always change but those were my gut reaction symbolism stuff #a girl can be so night coded and be in love with a guy who is so day coded. to me. #im pretty sure i filled everything out. theres so much on here. #and no theres no athleticism. her husband does that stuff while she sits watching lmao. #him sparring her is the closest she ever gets to be athletic. unless you count dancing i suppose lol.