#to me to ME it is very fascinating and very sad

[syoddeye]

task force 141 and karaoke. according to me, for shits and giggles. several youtube links below. (thank you @pfhwrittes for your duet suggestion.)

soap always starts with kiss from a rose by seal (the vibe), and drags gaz into it usually with gaz. soap is a…passionate singer. if no one will sing with him, he’ll do both parts.

starstrukk by 30H!3

fernando by abba

hand in my pocket by alanis morissette

torn by natalie imbruglia

gaz is an average singer, has decent range, but a natural performer. he goes for those high notes, but they hurt.

he wasn’t man enough by toni braxton

somebody to love by queen

beggin' by madcon

free fallin' by tom petty (price signs him up for this)

it's raining men by the weather girls (soap signs him up for this)

once they get going, soap and gaz are unstoppable. almost obnoxious.

wannabe by the spice girls (with choreography)

don't go breaking my heart by elton john and kiki dee

promiscuous by nelly furtado and timbaland

as by george michael and mary j. blige

price is a terrible singer. someone told him he could sing once and he believed them. if you’ve seen mamma mia, think pierce brosnan. still. it’s karaoke, so he is entertaining when he takes the stage.

angels by robbie williams

don't look back in anger by oasis

you've lost that lovin' feeling by daryl hall and john oates

roxanne by the police (could you imagine the moulin rouge version though...?)

islands in the stream by dolly parton & kenny rogers (with me)

and ghost? conveniently missing. soap will sign them up for something like especially for you by jason donovan and kylie minogue, but when ghost doesn't come to the stage? obviously, soap'll cover both parts. with tears in his eyes.

#tf 141 #task force 141 #gaz #soap #ghost #price #please let no one take this too seriously #i hope everyone has a wonderful week #and a very silly fun day #please let me know what you think they'd choose i am fascinated #and yes price is very sad i believe that wholeheartedly

[shivroythinker]

rewatching mass in time of war and the whole shiv-kendall interaction where they're arguing over whether she knew about cruises and she's like i never got in the pool with any of those creeps and he's like yeah because dad let a gang of creeps run cruises and she's like no kendall because i was fifteen is just so. like interesting to me. it feels like one of very few direct, in-your-face reminders that shiv was both the only girl with three brothers but it wasn't just her brothers, she was a girl SURROUNDED by mainly men for most of her girlhood. and i think for all of kendall's posturing in that scene and his maybe-partly-authentic interest in dismantling the sexist abuse in waystar he has probably not considered that his only sister had an entirely different set of experiences considering he thinks a fifteen year old girl not getting in the pool with a bunch of grown men must mean she knew that those men were involved in large-scale sex crimes,,, and like whether she or any of them knew or not as children is a different conversation but i just think that scene is interesting from the perspective of like. we hear so little about their childhoods and it feels like a glimpse into the isolation of a girlhood without a present mother or sisters or anyone to guide you or contextualize your experiences. materially you have everything you could ever want but still you are profoundly alone

#this is not saying anything new this has all been discussed i'm sure #but you cant stop me from writing it out anyway !!!!!! #like the show engages with this peripherally i feel #with little throwaway lines like that #to me to ME it is very fascinating and very sad #shivposting

[thermodynamic-comedian]

imagine ianthe's suffering rn. its so funny to me. girl all u wanted was power and i respect that but turns out that the side effect of power isnt the moral implications or whatever, its dealing with god's personal drama.

#ianthe/john dynamic is so fascinating and amusing to me. #theyre equally awful in such different ways #post-htn especially. #ianthe's so much for the grind for the power of it all yknow. theres only one person she cares about really. #and she has to deal with the most powerful guy ever being just a very sad very lonely wet kitty of a person. #i imagine at some point the (toxic codependant) instincts kick in and she starts like. genuinely caring for him #in the way she cares for people. which is by endlessly tormenting them #and he starts caring for her the way he cares for people which i can only assume is by constantly asking her if she hates him #theyre both the worst. they can be the worst together. #the locked tomb #tlt #ianthe tridentarius #ianthe the first #saint of awe #htn #htn spoilers #harrow the ninth #john gaius

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT? #LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page. #but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW? #ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much.... #AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012. #almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS. #only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess. #i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

[clownprince]

finally reading the metal/death metal arcs and related stuff and the timeline is just so insane. like. first batman chooses his family over joker, rejecting him and breaking his shriveled black heart. joker's reaction to this is to kill batman and destroy gotham, as one does. then they both make the executive decision to commit homoerotic murder-suicide. but they're resurrected with dionesium. joker in his new persona all pleads with batman not to go back to the way things were.

batman, now re-batmanified, captures joker, locks him in the batcave for several months, extracts the dionesium from his body, re-jokerfying him (???). bruce proposes to selina, presumably at the same time he has joker imprisoned in the cave. then despite joker all but begging him not to, batman effectively breaks the multiverse and opens the door for barbatos, the batman who laughs, and a whole other host of cosmic horrors. nice one, bruce! joker later teams up with batman to fight tbwl even though, again, this entire mess is very much bruce's own fault and joker was actively trying to prevent all of it! even though bruce Locked Him In A Cave. For Several Months. and broke his heart and literally killed him...

and joker's later reaction to all of this unfolding is to team up with lex luthor who's trying to take control of the multiverse because ofc he is. however joker fully intends to backstab lex the second he gets close to succeeding, and then to murder the entire legion of doom and show off their bodies to batman. but this plan is derailed because luthor is working with the batman who laughs who joker DESPISES.

then when tbwl resurfaces to target batman, joker shoots himself in the heart to infect batman so he can fight tbwl. bruce holds his dying body so very tenderly in his arms and then has alfred perform open heart surgery on him, refusing to let joker actually die even though alfred is basically begging him to do so. then joker escapes but comes back to wish batman good luck in fighting tbwl. batman asks joker to kill him if he becomes like tbwl. joker agrees and ends up keeping his promise and shooting batman (who ends up fine ofc because y'know, comics).

then like a year-ish later everything with their dark designs and joker war goes down. and some time during this the whole batcat marriage and best man arc takes place (not sure exactly when, the timeline makes my head hurt). like... how am I supposed to be normal about any of this.

#this is driving me crazy #joker's behavior between dotf and joker war is just so fascinating to me #and like for the most part he seems to not be doing a whole lot of legitimate crime? like he's still doing stuff #but no like. killing any robins or crippling anyone #i don't know. it makes me very sad it just seems like he's trying to desperately to regain the connection #he feels like he used to have with batman before he really started to grow the batfam #and fill his life with people and other shit #but he just doesn't know how to connect #and bruce is just doing things which he probably interprets as rejection/abandonment #mainly like. selina and the gotham rebuild project thing. but also leaving him at the end of joker war #he makes me very sad!!! #batjokes #joker

[yellowocaballero]

Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?

Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!

I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.

I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.

I am going to talk about the prologue.

The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.

Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.

But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.

They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.

I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?

Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.

Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.

At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.

What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.

It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.

But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.

ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?

When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.

#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences #i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason #its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience #that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told #it's. incredible. #in stars and time #start again start again start again #start again: a prologue #isat #god and there is so so so so much more to say here #what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby #i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all. #i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did #but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim #and i write about it a lot #and video games about being video games are wonderful #as are stories about being stories #and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us. #never played a video game that used its medium so well #i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think #stories about stories have to be about why we love stories #and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art #i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while. #some people need to be anywhere but here #and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever #baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot

[andrewknightley]

Maybe is my very particular interpretation but for me gods are very much a Concept more than people so the whole gale/mystra thing is very much a wizard falling in love with magic itself as an artist falls in love with art itself. And oh man no matter how much you love it that cant never love you back. Not like a real person. But you feel something is missing and you dont know what it is (it is real human connection and people who actually love you) so you are like. "Ah i see i could become Better At What I Am I just need to Improve." And thats your thing ! and what people said you were good at since you were a kid thats where your value is isnt it!!

#mystra telling gale to kill himself its a metaphor of thinking you have to crunch and overwork in this essay i will #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #anyways i find gale/mystra fucked up thing fascinating narrativelly in like #oh This Really Would Fuck Up Someone Big Time Wouldnt It #in a loving gale way in a “im studying what happened here” way not in a shipping way u know #like this story its so good. #so many things that in the first game were like xd gale really loves u for doing the bare minimun haha lmao lol #are like. oh boy he didnt even have the bare minimun #sometimes in his romance he says such sad stuff like “its nice to feel wanted :>” #bestie thats the bare minimun in a relationship what did mystra did to you #a friend who just started act 1 told me “gale has very low standars for a guy who fucked a god.you would think he expected more from people #makes u think..... #he is like some colleages tried to contact/visit me at first #like colleages not friends gale?? did you had some friend apart fron tara before the game???? #gale of waterdeep #mystra

[quietwingsinthesky]

the last unicorn post from earlier has me thinking about the master. that yana is still in there, you know? is still someone he was, if even for a brief flash across the life of a time lord. there’s no way to unlive that life. there are ways to twist it later, sure, to make utopia into hell on earth. but the life was lived. in much the same way that the doctor can remember, can feel, the love he held onto as john smith even as that life is ripped out of his hands. the doctor choose denial and then grief and then to shutter it all away. and so john smith died, and so professor yana died, and the doctor and the master live on. the doctor has done this before, and he lives in orbit around humanity, trying to keep the best parts of them and hold them deep enough to take root (which he can pretend he gets to choose, as a time lord. as a human, it all floods in and can’t be dug back out.) but what about the master, right?

to borrow a turn of phrase: i think there are two time lords left in the universe, and they both learned how to regret.

#regret here meaning less feeling the emotion of actual regret obviously because time lords do not actually funxtion on unicorn rules. they #already get sad just fine on their own. no humanity needed for that. #but i dont know. i just dont think he brushed it off so easily. i think he did a hell of a job convincing himself he did. #and what better way then to twist his own great works and destroy the species he was working so hard to save at the end of the universe. #but what about the knowledge that he *could* be that person. that somewhere in him exists a version that wanted to save people. #a version that is painfully too much like the doctor. even. now is that part worse or better than the human part? #but if past regenerations are ghosts i think yana deserves a haunt. #anyway maybe ignore this one im rambling about nothing here #theres just. i dont know. what if you were the last of your kind and in surviving you made yourself Not Like Them in a way you’ll never #escape. #i mean doctor who is just so concerned with all these plots about hybrids and children of the tardis and clones and What Makes A Time Lord. #but they’re so obsessed with it in just. a very Lore way. is what it feels like. we get brushes of more like with jenny and how she’s #physically a time lord and the doctor denies her that inheritance. a shared suffering… #but me myself im just fascinated with the doctor and the master as the time lords who survived. but they survived Wrong #its. its. children of gallifrey that don’t belong to her anymore. you know? #i dont care if river’s got time lord dna!!! or the metacrisis is physically human!!! i dont care!!! talk to me about what it means beyond #their blood and bones!!! what’s it like to have your sense of self stripped from you like that!!! #what’s it like when so much of you is the shed skin of time lords past. but one of you was human. one of you was painfully *humiliatingly* #human!!! #enough about how much dna you need to count as a time lord. i want to know how much they can mutate until they can’t be recognized as one. #does that make sense?

[milksnake-tea]

Why did ppl hate topaz?

it was back in the aetherium wars event over in belobog, tldr she comes in to retrieve an age old debt that belobog has to the ipc, does the typical ipc thing of offering to assist (aka turning belobog into one of the ipc's planets or smth along those lines) with the eternal freeze; however she doesn't really mention that the thing only has a 66% success rate.

people didn't like her because of the colonizer (i think? i don't remember exactly) vibes she was bringing and to be fair she was an antagonist in that event, but in the end she does agree to hold the ipc off after seeing belobog put itself together, and even takes a demotion as a hit so i wouldn't say she's that bad, she's just morally grey and very misguided (she sees the ipc lowkey in rose tinted glasses) and sometimes people don't like that and categorize characters in good and evil - and topaz got stuck with evil

#mail 🏵️ #anon #again like in my post !!! i'm not saying you can't not like topaz #that's completely fine we can agree to disagree <3 #i just find topaz fascinating as a character and i love her so !!! #she's a very complicated character in terms of morality so it's natural that ppl have different views on her #it just made me sad for ppl to overgeneralize her character sometimes (thankfully its not like that anymore. i think) and stick her as evil #but hey !!! to each their own

[vulturevanity]

normal thing to say about your dear friend who you think is really cute and charming and hard-working and basically the perfect wife material

#hamefura #my next life as a villainess #otome game no hametsu flag #aaand rewatch done! now my honest thoughts #good start. the middle is kinda boring. ep 8 doesn't exist don't worry about it #this anime draws me in in the same way that Futari Wa does #in that it has a fascinating main cast and a very vague skeleton of a worldbuilding that leaves me wanting to overthink it #unstructured thoughts incoming: #Geordo's still a creep and no matter how much the story wants me to like him I just can't #Keith's siscon is very Yikes! and that's so bad because I love his and Katarina's relationship as siblings #Katarina lowkey thinks Sophia is a freak but never kinkshames her and that's so bestiecore of her. they're soulmates your honor #Mary is SUCH A LESBIAN holy shit. I did not remember how much lesbian she is #I'm lowkey annoyed that the show frames her attraction to Katarina as “haha funny isn't she weird?!” #like in the sleepover episode she was describing the things she'd like to do with her beloved and she's being like. normal about it #but the soundtrack does a silly and I'm like. wow this anime does not like her huh #I swear Geordo and Keith are even weirder about Katarina than she is but the anime always gives them slack about it #unless they're having their homoerotic squabbles. which is to say the anime does Not Like The Queer Coding of the story #I'm sure there are worse examples of weeb homophobia but there are a couple moments I saw in the manga but not here! #anyway where was I. Oh right. Ascart Sibs Autusm 👍🏼 #Nicol doesn't have much presence in the story due to his quiet nature which is so sad because his inner world is intriguing #he's such a good friend. loyal and caring. I wish we got more of him in this season #and finally: Maria. God. what is there to say about her that I haven't already #the girl came in with a 7 year disadvantage on her rivals and yet Katarina is all over her! #rewatching season 1 is so weird because I could swear she had more presence than she really does because holy shit #Katarina loves her! so much! wtf #maybe I'm remembering season 2? #anyway these are my thoughts on doomflags season 1 #2nd watch edition #oh I almost forgot #romance in chiaroscuro

[jorrated]

literally the only good thing i can say about hellava bust is that they are introducing the seven deadly sins in the same order as dantes divine comedy, like following the order of the 9 layers of hell from shallowest to deepest. only smart reference in the whole show

#everything thing else is ass tho #plus they ruined it by introducing lucifer in hasbithc hotel #kinda fascinated by that show ngl #it somehow fumbles the most basic of criticisms of evangelical and christian moralities #and still wants to say its sooooo edgy and transgressive #if youd saw the transgressive media i want youd hurl!!!! #it hardly engages with the themes of sin to rather make melodrama and paint abusive characters as poor lil sad boys #and worst of all #HOW IT LOOKS GIVES ME A HEADACHE #i literally play games that have extreme seizure warnings with drowning music #flashing neon colors and harsh contrasts #how can i take those better than that show #literally there are some shots i genuinely get lost caus ethe visual clarity is god awuful #id talk about the designs #but theyre just not for me #even tho i very much dislike how they look #i guess they are effective with theyre targetaudience #asmodeus is good tho. only good design i can think off.

[sysig]

You’re gonna die if you keep that up (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Kayako #And Teisel's there technically #*Die again - he's sticking with his track record lol at least he's consistent #Ghost/Curse GF arc!! I enjoy seeing ZEX happy but I am Concerned for him lol #ZEX be attracted to something/one that won't brutally murder him challenge - difficulty impossible #His affection for the grotesque and monstrous - I mean while it's admirable he does regularly put himself in dangerous situations! #Runs solely on the Suspension Bridge Effect lol - attraction and fear so conflated in his mind <3 #I keep thinking of his human instincts as specifically Max's instincts since it's his body - Max's self-preservation and fear and hunger #Which ZEX dutifully ignores lol Max's body tells him to bolt and privately replies like ''Yes yes in a moment'' haha #His fascination wins out! To his own detriment haha #Although I say all that as though I don't relate in my own way - I have maybe just a few too many notes relating to ZEX lol #It's always been hard for me to get into horror in the way it's intended to spook and scare because I tend to get sad :') #So many monsters and ghosts and creatures are victims of circumstance! Like Kayako! As she is here she's not even malicious just dangerous #I've never seen the Grudge so it's only speculation but it seems very sad that she was tethered as a Curse rather than a malignant spirit #Like a battery moreso than an individual - what a terrible after-existence! It makes me sad to consider! #ZEX reaching out to her in his own way is very sweet <3 He's so biased towards his darlings hehe #In a way being human does suit him - we'll packbond with anything that Might have even the slightest inclination to not maim us lol #And the way he personifies her! (VUXonifies her?) Reading intention or emotion into her actions with no proof and no understanding! #The way he ''tries to read her face'' as if he hasn't been struggling with that this entire time - with other humans who can tell him so ♪ #His pride is so delicious <3 He is so easily blinded to his own shortcomings in the face of pleasure and the potential for connection! #It's no wonder DAX worries about him so much hehe ♥ #It also always makes me so happy to have something fit together so perfectly like those last two hehe <3 #That vine didn't exist when this happened! But there it is!! I love newer memes on older media hehehe ♪♫

[veliseraptor]

Honestly I really feel that by Yi City Xue Yang isn't mad at Song Lan any more. He's moved on from all that arrest and massacre business. If he IS mad it's probably on XXC's behalf, not his own. All this is just going to make Song Lan even more furious, though.

I feel like the arc of Xue Yang's feelings toward Song Lan goes roughly like:

You really pissed me off that one time so I'll remember it forever.

I'm actually more mad at Xiao Xingchen so this isn't really personal but you suffering is a fun bonus

Largely forgetting about his existence for a while

Wow thanks Song Lan for setting things up perfectly so I can move in with Xiao Xingchen, this is great and your contribution is appreciated

Song Lan is so stupid, unbelievable that he ditched Xiao Xingchen, why would you even do that, guess that just goes to show how useless he is

Song Lan, that fucker, how could he ditch Xiao Xingchen and hurt him like that, very rude, 0/10, obviously Xue Yang is better because he will absolutely never do that

SONG LAN RUINED MY LIFE, FIERCE CORPSE JAIL FOR SONG-DAOZHANG, FIERCE CORPSE JAIL FOR ONE THOUSAND YEARS!!!!

This is all Song Lan's fault and a little bit a-Qing's, if he'd just not gotten involved (again) or died faster there wouldn't be a problem now, why does Xiao Xingchen care about him so much anyway, he's boring and the worst

Song Lan is still stupid and still the worst but if Xiao Xingchen comes back he might think about keeping him around if he's so important, probably he can make that work, he just has to figure out the right balance of free will to controllable and he'll make a great bargaining chip to keep Xiao Xingchen from doing anything reckless and regrettable, this is a genius plan

A boy's best friend is his fierce corpse he's controlling and can have one sided conversations with and occasionally cuddle when things are really rough, this is normal behavior and everything is fine.

but yeah, if Song Lan knew how much time Xue Yang spends just straight up not caring about him except as an incidental problem and/or a vaguely fond memory of the nifty two-birds-one-stone temple murder plan, he would be very unhappy about it.

#conversating #anonymous #song lan #xue yang #i can tag this as #songxue #if i want to #aggressively headcanons #the sad queer cultivators show #but yeah i am FASCINATED by their dynamic #because that is the thing! the span of time where xue yang actually actively hates song lan #is pretty short all things considered #mostly song lan is an incidental casualty in his psychological warfare on xxc #up until he very suddenly is much more of a personal problem for xue yang #in an au like ilcbt xy is legitimately kind of like 'why are you even so upset with me' because for him the whole baixue thing #just doesn't register as a major event in and of itself. he's over it so why isn't song lan #weird that he can't just let things go #(and obviously when it comes to the chang clan he was just right so #all moral objections are wrong and invalid actually)

[pocketramblr]

I love reading the old Nintendo's players guides, both because of the lovely art but also because you get fun lore things like "For the first two games, Hyleans are effectively filling the same role as the Zonai for the rest of the Hyruleans", and "Nevermind we know we said in Adventure of Link that that Zelda was a different princess than the one in the first game, but they're the same person now! Unlike this other Zelda, or this other other Zelda, who are still different."

#like really the Links Awakening player guide is so fascinating. 'Hyleans' were supposed to be rare and ancient. but then they changed it to #'Hylians' and now they're just the norm huh. got to invent a new precursor magic people every game since they won't let Hyleans fill that #role. but yeah #Also very very sad and contradictory explanations of what og Link is doing between games shdhfhbv #in the castle letting the darkness spread? wandering around alone trying to figure out why he feels something bad coming? #it's all very fun #and it makes me wonder what versions i should use for Arrow #and what versions Jojo used for Hyrule #makes me wonder if canon Rulie is even going to have two princesses but mmmm anyway

[mintcrows]

man i still dont know what to think about the emperor lore, other than im glad i didnt finish/post anything related to it before advancing more of it SDLAKDL

#i feel like its justified in a lot of the way it acts #but at the same time it should get therapy or something #i dont think its an ''i can fix it'' but you know #therapy would do it good #i do find very fascinating how it processes things as a mindflayer #i'll take its word for it that it feels grief but maybe it doesnt but it forced itself to do that #bg3 spoilers #crows caws #i feel its kinda losing its status as a blorbo but i dont dislike it but it makes me sad #maybe i fucked up my perception by doing all the nice stuff first and then messing around with it and making it mad SLDKAL

[catominor]

This Years Thoughts On Reading. tbh

the past year i read a lot more than i had in quite some time. to be fair, i didn't finish most of the books i started, didn't start most of the books i want to read, and spent most of my time wasting time on social media still (i don't know why i can't stop doing this. i don't even enjoy it past a certain point). i didn't do well in my university classes. but for a really long time i've found it very difficult to read at all, even to read fiction. i read a lot of fiction (by my standards) this year, especially historical fiction set in ancient rome (though i also read some other good books, favorites among which are probably queer by william burroughs, night side of the river by jeannette winterson, and invisible cities by italo calvino. i also read quite a few short stories and a bit of poetry), i read or started /some/ nonfiction, i read or started /some/ ancient literature, and i had a poem and a short story published in my university's poetry journal and newspaper respectively...

but, really, i feel a little in over my head. i don't really feel like i can do this, by which i mean i still don't think i'm trying hard enough at university. i feel behind everyone else, despite the fact that since i've transferred to a different university having done 2 years before, i still have this and another year before i graduate. even though most of the people in my year will be 2 years younger than me i feel like i am behind them (did i mention that i did badly on my exams last year?)

especially before university i was never a particularly good student, honestly (i was like. a C average, though in my 3rd and 4th years of high school i started to try a little harder) and i think i spend a lot of time now fruitlessly wishing that i had tried harder and taken more of an interest in things. i still wish i tried harder. i still wish that passion was enough to fuel me to actually focus on filling out my historical reading. i wish i just didn't feel so stupid sometimes, honestly. sometimes i'll open a book that's a bit dense or technical and it just makes me feel like the biggest idiot in the world. i wish i was better at articulating my thoughts. i also wish i understood literary analysis or criticism. in a lot of ways now i feel dumber than i was a few years ago, and i don't know why.

#on a lighter note at least i can post about cato on here.even though i may be stupid i think i can be a little funny about history sometimes #tbh. books that made me feel stupid this year: thomas yingling's hart crane and the homosexual text. i tried to read this and it was #utterly incomprehensible to me. which was so sad because i absolutely adore hart crane he's my favorite poet. and also weird cause crane's #poems are also very obscure and hard to understand but one of the few things that makes me Not feel stupid is that i enjoy them and at leas #sort-of understand them to the degree one can (even people who study him admit that he is very difficult) #and books that made me kind of feel stupid but also feel like reading them was making me smarter: girard's violence and the sacred. i am #only like. 2 chapters into it and it takes me days to read one because it's so dense however it's one of those books that like. i can feel #it reordering the way i think about things. it's sooo fascinating and good and i started it cause i heard ppl talking about it on here #honestly i think a lot of my problems around the kind of thing in the post with school though is that i was always this person where everyo #would constantly tell me how well i could do if i would only try harder. but the problem is i just Couldnt try harder. i dont know why and #still dont know why i cant do it. it was constantly told to me that i had Potential. but i can never.actually access this supposed Potentia