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oh-hush-its-perfect · 3 years

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do you think there is any significance that alex's colour scheme is green and pink? or do you think rr went "u know what this character needs? to look like a watermelon"

((Prefacing this by saying that I'm giving RR way too much credit here, but you shouldn't take anything an author does for granted— even a serial author who often makes blunders and mistakes.))

A while ago I saw a (pretty unfair) assumption that RR made it green and pink because blue and pink would be too obvious, but that his intention was obviously to reinforce the gender binary by using two distinctly gendered colors for a character with two distinct genders. Of course, they did not phrase it so delicately. No offense to whoever made that post, but I disagree.

Although that may have had to do with it, there's other things to consider. One of them is color symbolism. And oh. OH. I ADORE symbolism— especially flower/plant symbolism (Language of the Flowers and all that jazz), seasonal symbolism (there's a reason that evermore is my second favorite Taylor Swift album), and color symbolism.

GREEN

Let's talk about green first. Green can symbolize a lot of different things, and there are a few that can be applied to Alex's character. The most obvious thing that green often represents is jealousy— hence the expression "green with envy." But envy is not really one of Alex's character traits. Feel free to argue with me if you think that Alex is significantly envious. Just because I couldn't think of substantial textual evidence for it does not mean that there isn't any.

One of the traits that Alex does have is wealth. Green is the color of American currency, and since both RR and Alex are American, it's safe to take an American lens while looking at this color. Alex's socioeconomic background effects her in a big way. I mentioned in a previous post that I think that Alex's fatal flaw is her sense of entitlement. That kind of entitlement is a quality not exclusive to but common among the upper class. However, her distance from her wealthy background enhances the sense of irony in the story, which is a VERY big thing that we NEVER talk about within the fandom.

This is kind of a little thing, but it's worth noting that when it comes to Valhalla and everything, Alex is "green"— as in new and inexperienced.

The color green also emphasizes Alex's connection with nature. This is one of the parts of Alex's character that the fandom consistently underplays, which is an absolute shame. I don't think I have to explain why the color green is associated with all things natural. Alex's association with nature provides a few key things to her character:

It makes her a more well-rounded character. Another criticism of Alex I believe is totally unfounded is that "being genderfluid is her only personality trait because it influences her philosophy on pottery, which is her only hobby." I'm probably going to make another post in, like, a few minutes about why I find that argument a little silly, but the primary problem is that pottery is not Alex's only hobby. She also loves camping, hiking, and ice wall climbing (I bet y'all forgot about that last one!)

It gives her a connection with Magnus. I mentioned in a previous post that Magnus and Alex are foils, but I neglected to bring up why that also makes for very good chemistry between them. Of course, yes, they have different goals and philosophy, which is what makes them foils in the first place. But foil relationships function best when the characters also share some traits. As it turns out, Alex and Magnus share several hobbies, and one of them is a mutual love for nature. This is a very unexplored thing in fics. Start doing it more plz.

Finally, and this one's kind of minor, but the Alex's green gives her a connection to Natalie. I know, whenever Alex and Natalie are compared, either in canon or in fandom, everybody kind goes "eww. Oedipus complex." Which is very fair and true. But they really do have a lot of similarites. The green of Alex's hair and clothes connects her to the green of Natalie's eyes. It's worth saying, too, that Alex has one amber eye— and amber is pretty close to dirty blonde, like Natalie's hair.

If I had more faith in RR, I might bring up the concept of intextuality and how Alex wearing green is an allusion to The Great Gatsby and how Alex is elusive to Magnus, just like Daisy is to Gatsby. But I don't.

PINK

To give credit to the person who wrote the post I mentioned at the beginning of this spiel, I do believe that part of the reason pink was used was to support femininity. Please keep in mind that Alex dresses in an androgynous way— not that there is an actually "gendered" way to dress, since gender as we perceive it is mostly made up. But Alex's existence as a transfemme person (which I will maintain until my dying day) means that pink has a certain significance to her. A lot of AMAB people embrace traditionally feminine things because if they don't, they will not be accepted as genuine women or genuine nonbinary folks, since masculine dress is unisex and kind of the default. So Alex wearing pink probably had something to do with her gender, yes. But that's not necessarily a bad thing, and it's certainly not an unrealistic thing.

Speaking of Alex's gender in relation to the color pink, let's talk about pink's use as a queer rights symbol. Alex was RR's first character to be introduced as a queer character from the start. This was not an insignificant thing, especially in the year of our Lord 2016 (which, despite popular belief, seriously had an entirely different landscape of queer rep. Though it's commonplace now to include genderqueer characters, it was exceptional at the time— especially by such an accomplished and mainstream children's author.).

Let's go back in time to Nazi Germany. Some of you might know this, but for those of you don't this transition must seem jarring. I swear there's a point. In addition to Jews, Romani individuals, people with disabilities, and Poles (among others), gay men were victimized by the Nazis. If you're wondering why lesbians weren't persecuted, it's because the Nazis didn't see them as a serious political threat, or as a threat to the perpetuation of the Aryan race since they assumed gay women could be forcefully impregnated if need be. Yeah, ew. Anyway, much like the Star of David being used to mark Jewish people, gay men were forced into concentration camps and forced to wear a pink triangle. Years later, after the gay population somewhat recovered, the pink triangle was reclaimed and used as a symbol for gay men. Some people who were not gay men used it, too, but that's somewhat controversial since it wasn't their symbol to reclaim. When the first pride flag was created, it had a pink stripe at the top to signify sex (this was later dropped so flags could be more easily produced). The pink triangle (inverted) was used during the AIDs epidemic with the caption "Silence=Death."

My point is that this is a very important color to queer folks. Having one of the first genderfluid characters in kid's lit wear pink...... I mean, it makes sense.

The last and final thing that pink represents, in this context and in general, is innocence. Granted, this kind of connects to feminitity since women (especially white women) are often infantalized and seen as innocent— which is another issue. In any case, the use of pink to represent innocence in Alex's dress is ironic. Alex has been robbed of her childhood innocence, first by her abusive parents, then by her life on the streets, and then by her eventual death at age sixteen. But then she actually regains her innocence. At the beginning of the—

Hold on. I just had a revelation. I'll make a post about it soon.

At the beginning of SotD, Alex is acting a little childish. The most obvious example is him jumping on Randolph's bed to "make noise." Alex's life is stable and relatively healthy for the first time in the years, and she experiences something that a lot of queer folks experience: a re-emergence of childhood at a late stage.

I imagine you didn't expect a post this long. I either make essay responses to asks or I add on one sentence and post it. Oops. Anyway, I believe the mcga fandom can be more creative than calling Alex a watermelon. Here are some other (kinda romantic) pink-and-green alternatives:

Roses

Dragonfruit

Grapefruit

Cherry blossom trees

#mcga #magnus chase #alex fierro #mcatgoa #magnus chase and the gods of asgard #sorry for the long response lol #thanks for the ask! I had a go of it!

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cat-sapphics · 3 years

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Hey!

I follow the" aroace lesbian" tag and your recent posts have come up in my feed so I just wanted to say that being arospec, acespec (demiromatic graysexual, both labels in the aromantic and asexual spectrums) & lesbian is completely OKAY and you should not let anyone tell you the contrary. Especially uneducated people so 😚🤍

Many aroaces use the term aroace to encompass being in both aromantic and asexual spectrums; this means you experience little to no romantic/sexual attraction and that's more than valid. You can be both arospec and aspec! 🔥 Or arospec and asexual. Aromantic and acespec 🥺🤝

The way YOU experience romantic and sexual attraction is just different to the average allo person, & that doesn't make it any less valid. Attraction is an abstract concept and we shouldn't be putting ourselves into boxes but letting feelings be that, feelings.

Your experiences are necessary and important to our diverse & big aro/ace communities as an aroace lesbian! An aspec person is that who experiences little to no romantic attraction. That's it. THAT'S OKAY 🥰

And being an aspec lesbian is more than valid too, it's not a contradictory term because the little and fluctuating romantic & sexual attraction you DO experience, is ONLY towards women/nb so; I don't see why lesbian isn't a term you can't use. A lesbian is a women/nb female aligned person who experiences romantic, sexual and/or emotional attraction towards women/nb female aligned people. Check, check & check ✅

All in all, ace lesbians, aro lesbians and aroace lesbians are ALL part of the lesbian community & our unique experiences with romance and sex are necessary and valid for it 💓

Sorry if this got long, hope I made my point clear. Aroace lesbians have always been lesbians so don't let any exclusionists steal your peace 🧡🤍💖

thank you!! thank ya thank ya thank ya!! i really appreciate it <3

i will say, i think some of the anons i got did make some valid points (obviously not everywhere you look but they at least gave me something to think about in general) but it really took me by surprise how condescending and disapproving they all were. super uneducated too, i said i experience attraction differently or at least less frequently than average allo people and like ?? that doesn't mean i'm secretly a self-hating lesbophobe ?? you don't get to determine that for me if i'm genuinely happy even though i participate in lesbian discourse and am passionate about keeping the definition specific and closed ?? lol i didn't redefine lesbian or take away its initial meaning so it really had me peeved

i think most of their comments reflect on how they don't believe in aromanticism and asexuality being a spectrum, which i guess i invited by my own doing since i have some conservative and exclusionary views on the lgbt community and that affects my following/audience, but my response to that is that i use these labels because they bring me personal comfort. when i say i'm demiromantic i don't mean that alloromantics have zero standards when it comes to a potential partner or are completely mesmerized by the idea of hook-ups, just that the connection they need to start crushing comes within a decent time period with a personal connection, but not a super strong and deep and loving one that makes it exceptionally hard to fall in love despite however much we may desire to. the label doesn't exist to imply something bad about """normal""" people, it exists to name an experience many people have but to an intense degree. so, yes, it's a pointless social construct, it probably means nothing to you and that's fine, but it still means something to me. i'm not crying oppression or marginalization, and i'm not claiming that i'm lgbt on the basis of being demiromantic/greyasexual, but through being a nonbinary lesbian. that's the difference between mspec lesbians and aspec lesbians, is one is actively harmful to multiple groups and actually Does spawn from a place of internalized lesbophobia and/or biphobia, and the other is just "mmk this is just for me and affects nothing at all, it doesn't drag you into anything at all, i still qualify for lesbian the way you (should!) see it as technically even if you do believe it's redundant, so just... leave me alone" cause it reflects more on them than me when they make it their business by unfairly assuming things about me

same applies to me being greyasexual. still trying to figure out if it means that i experience sexual/physical attraction less frequently, less intensely, or both, but does that matter?? genuinely?? this is also redundant but i didn’t wanna leave it out of the paragraph about me being demiro fk;ljslkgbdvhbs. the aro disapproval part isn’t acceptable at all but i can at least see it since romance is so normalized and is a core part of, y’know, lgb relationships; the greyace disapproval however....... i don’t wanna label it as acephobia because i don’t really believe in aphobia being a thing, but it still kinda rubs me wrong to claim that sexual/physical attraction is a requirement ykyk... NOTHING WRONG WITH PEOPLE WHO HAVE SEX OF COURSE (i myself kinda wanna try someday if that works out) i just think frowning upon someone who doesn’t UNLESS they try to claim they’re lgbt on that basis is.................. not really cool. i really hope people who read this understand what i’m trying to say and don’t label me as an ace inclus who thinks aphobia and oppression are real, i was just trying to make a point about my personal experiences oops lmao

and then it became "aroace means NO ATTRACTION AT ALL" okay... so i'm angled aroace, that's a sub-term since aroace is literally an umbrella term, actually (unlike lesbian, shit's complicated ykyk). "YOU'RE NOT AROACE THEN"....... they don't even like the idea of oriented aroace now either, so like, what then, are aroace people just never allowed to feel love or positive feelings from other people ever? jesus christ. i'm not even getting into this, i consider aro/ace identities to be secondary to describe one's attraction so this debate should not be as important as, say, discourse centering the L, G, B, or T. it's just dumb all around tbh

hope i addressed all the arguments against it, but i can't really care at this point if i missed something :/ i'll probably get a mean anon about it so don't worry!! /s jslgjgjkshkj;lhfp

speaking of, i've had to delete so many anons and even turn off the option to ask anonymously because of this discourse. it's so pointless in my opinion, so i've just stopped giving them my time unless i think it's worth answering - but even then, i try to keep it fairly short. i genuinely was not expecting my take on (cishet) ace discourse to turn into myself failing to be seen as a "real lesbian" despite literally meeting its definitive qualifications and then it just kept building up ?? stan behavior tbh, especially since plenty of them obviously come from the same users

i apologize for the rant. i just never really felt like i'd be listened to if i tried to explain my identity, so i gave up and just tried to ignore my way out of it. so i really genuinely appreciate your ask, especially since i can identify you. it really feels like i actually have someone on my side now, so even if you ever disagree i'd know you wouldn't harass me about it. it really means a lot, i really needed this from you and i don't wanna dump more shit but i feel that you deserve to know. so thank you again <3

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mrbutchdyke · 4 years

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may i request info on your novel please

@pacificrimdyke YES and sorry this took me so long to respond to lmao

I’m more of a panster than a planner so I have a Concept and not many Hard Scenes or very much of a Plot at all but I DO have characters. Many of them.

So the premise: These college kids (who used to be high school friends) meet up again to spend a weekend at an uncle’s cabin for nostalgia’s sake and to finally reconnect after a few years of college slowly pulled them apart. Everyone’s trying to Get Back To The Good Old Days, but everything is slightly off and uncomfortable and it turns out some of them just don’t vibe anymore? Anyway it’s about growing and changing and letting people go and that not always being a bad thing!!

The main character is Nadine Graves, a lesbian math major with undiagnosed ADHD (me? projecting? in my novel?) and absolutely no idea who she is. She tends to be defined by the people in her life (River’s twin, Indigo’s ex-girlfriend, etc.) and she’s trying desperately to figure out how to move past that and into her own person.

River Graves (they/he) is her twin and best friend. They are nonbinary and bi. He’s a conspiracy theory enthusiast but NOT a conspiracy theorist, as they like to argue. He’s the comedian of the group. He got held back a year because his ADHD got diagnosed WAY too late, so they didn’t graduate high school with Nadine. He’s pretty pissed that Indigo brought her girlfriend to their friends-only weekend trip because HE wanted to bring HIS girlfriend (trans icon Laika Armstrong) but Nadine convinced them not to.

Indigo says it’s her uncle’s cabin so it doesn’t fucking matter if River wanted it to be friends-only or not. Ramona has been invited and it doesn’t matter. At least she didn’t flake like Robbie, who chose to spend the weekend with his boyfriend Nash instead of hanging out with people he hasn’t seen in a year.

There’s also Aminah and Sterling (both bi icons), who have this weird kind of? tension? between them? And Nadine would focus on figuring it out except she’s kind of trying not to fall in love with her ex-girlfriend’s new girlfriend. Oops!

#THANK YOU for asking me about this #pacificrimdyke #ej talks #ej answers #ej's book #ask

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mhaccunoval · 4 years

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7, 8 and 18 for the iasip ask game 🙂

➣ 7 - Which ep is the most underrated?:

though i'm not sure how much love it actually gets, probably... hm,,, i kinda wanna say quarantined,,, really anything where the gang is actually being wholesome,,, (because we all love the wholesome moments but i don't think many of the fan favorite episodes actually an abundance of them)

➣ 8 - Rank all the sunny ships from fave to least fave:

❤️ charbitch (yes because it's other universe newmann. yes because the potential) ❤️ deetress (lesbians. need i say more) ❤️macdennis (codependent losers... and are practically canon at this point) ❤️charmac (friends to lovers... just very soft) ❤️frank/artemis (they... Work... most of the time) ❤️ch*rdee (yes i'm still hung up on the incident. what of it)

➣ 18 - What was the most surprising moment for you in Sunny history?:

[oops this one turned into a ramble]

to further explain my answers to this question last time, i’ve realized charlie more/less canonically coming out as nonbinary more so than mac coming out,,, because while mac coming out himself was really nice, if you look hard enough (which isn’t too hard truthfully) you can see all the subtext that they’ve littered throughout episodes through the years that can be easily connected to the arc,,, but with charlie, it’s sort of... out of left field,,, sure, he’s not as concerned with hypermasculinity as mac or dennis (unless they get him thinking about it) but still,,, to insert a line into an episode already dealing with one of the big things lgbt folks already have to put up with (gendered bathrooms & accessibility to said bathrooms) and insinuate that two or more members of the gang are (canonically) lgbt is 😳, but a good 😳 ofc,,, then reaffirming it with the “i don’t identify...” line in right to chop,,, i mean, yes, there’s plenty of subtext you can draw from to say charlie isn’t cis but to have basically a verbal confirmation is something i wouldn’t have expected to get out of people like RCG but i will gladly take it (especially because i’m nonbinary & charlie’s my fave)

#ask game #sorry this is like the second or third time i've delayed answering your asks because i was half asleep first reading them #newt-no-newt-yes #pant rambles

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sierra-writing-blog · 3 years

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Questioning

I messed up and might be turning this in late as I assumed the class wouldn’t end until the last day of finals, oops oh well here goes nothing

There have never been another four colors

placed so neatly together

that have inspired such fear

anxiety

hope

belonging

all at the same time.

I can't remember the first time I saw them.

I remember the first time I saw a gay man.

well, probably not the very first, but the first obvious one.

An un-apologetic icon who wore a light pink bow in his hair my first day of Freshman year.

I wanted to learn more and do more to support such beautiful open souls, and be a hand held out to those who still hid

like flowers waiting for the right sun to bloom.

I wanted to be an Ally.

My heart was soft for anyone, hate and exclusion had no place in it.

I wanted always to embody acceptance, compassion, kindness, love.

I remember seeing and meeting trans people for the first time.

I remember wondering what that would be like, feel like, to agonize over the way the world perceived you, or even the way you perceived yourself. I don't remember the first time I learned that Nonbinary existed.

For a long time, I thought the binary was the only option.

Woman or man

trans woman or trans man

I didn't know for a time that there was another option.

I didn't know there was a word for not relating to the experience of everyone around you

not fitting in with one or the other.

I remember being a kid.

I Hated pink. Hated dresses. Hated Barbies.

Was it just stereotypical femininity I was rejecting?

Or was I rejecting an identity that didn't suit me and I had no way of knowing how to describe that experience?

I was told and believed for so long that I was just a "Tom Boy"

a masculine girl.

It was the best I could come up with, and it fit decently enough.

I remember 7th grade, when I sat with a group of girls I became a part of in 6th.

I remember trying to be a part of their conversations and felt....lost.

"They aren't like you."

"The boys aren't like you either."

In those moments I would breathe in the words

"There's no right or wrong way to be a woman.

They're just more feminine than you, that's all."

That phrase has always felt like clinging to a piece of driftwood

in a stormy sea.

Of course It's okay to be a woman and like masculine things.

Another thing is this

I like men, I'm not a lesbian.

My sexuality is one of the few things I've been certain of. Well, at least until I found myself drooling over a few more femme-aligned AFAB nonbinary folks too.

I'm gonna stick with "Heteroflexible" though.

Why then, did something light up inside when my sister told me I looked like "A Dark Academia Gay"

Androgynous people of any assigned sex are breathtaking to me.

I really have to wonder now

am I just attracted to them

or want to be them?

Why did I, out of pure curiosity, put on an old small strapless bra that hugged just tight enough to hide the bumps under my new clothes

when I also playfully jiggle them in the mirror after stepping out of the shower?

I don't want them gone.

Maybe just....flattened out sometimes.

I'm in so many LGBTQ+ spaces, always trying to educate myself and feel like I was a part of something bigger than myself.

The words that flowed from their Youtube videos

in the dark of night

while I lay in bed grasping the phone

watching in secrecy like I was learning some kind of forbidden knowledge.

They planted tiny seeds of questions.

Of doubts.

I never felt like I truly knew who I was.

I still don't know who I am.

I started watching these videos.

I feel like I wanted to be told that I was wrong.

That I was just a woman

overreacting

overthinking

as usual for my scattered neurodivergent brain.

I wanted a kiddie pool of basic reason

and they gave me an ocean with the singular answer being

"Only you define who you are."

I saw a comic once.

I don't remember the title.

An AFAB nonbinary person describing their experiences in a gendered world

who cut their hair

looked into the mirror

and saw themself for the first time.

"Oh" they thought.

"There you are"

Something resonated about those pictures with me

but the idea of being in that position

feels like standing on a cliff

about to look down over an edge

into an abyss below.

They say as you look into the abyss, so too does the abyss look into you.

Will I like the answer?

As soon as I cut my hair, wear round glasses instead of my usual rectangles like I daydream and make Picrews of now.

Will I feel that way too?

Or will I hate the look, hiding my short hair in shame and praying it grows back quickly?

Will I hang the flag of yellow, white, purple and gray over my door someday

across the short hallway from my sister's Bi flag?

She has so much Pride

and confidence in herself

her identity

and I have none

and I am jealous of her for it.

I feel silly for even asking the questions.

.It's too late...right?

I can already hear them in my head

the voices of friends and family.

"You should've known sooner that you were different"

"You will always be a girl no matter what you call yourself"

"You will regret this"

"You don't have dysphoria, how can you be anything but a girl"

"Girls can be masculine too"

How can I defend myself

if I don't know whether they are right or wrong?

Aren't I too old to reinvent or redefine myself?

The truth is that I don't know the answer.

Am I a "She"?

Am I a "They"?

I've lived this one way so long already

I don't know I could live any other way.

The truth is that I will never know

until I take the leap.

Until a glint of scissors in the light

sends loose hair to the floor

affix the round lenses that keep coming up in Facebook ads that call to me.

Will I look into the mirror

and finally see myself too?

#ICWwithDrG

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canoncabbit · 5 years

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hypatia + rowan 👀👀👀

IS IT REALLY A HEADCANON IF ONE IS MY OC LMAO

- Hypatia -

1: sexuality headcanon

I project and feel like Hypatia’s a really repressed lesbian tbh. Probably had a thing with Vasco because it was the most consistent human contact she had through her job, but it wasn’t really it for her.

2: otp

I like her with Billie or Rowan. Billie’s one of the only people who seems to treat Hypatia with any sort of humanity or compassion and I feel like a ship based on two women fighting their demons and recovering is right up my alley lmao.

3: brotp

Lucia Pastor! Though we never see them interact beyond one letter + the implication they’ve been communicating, I feel like they’d be good friends.

4: notp

gonna get slapped but I hate seeing her shipped w/ Emily (I’ve also seen her shipped with Daud of all people wtf).

Not put off by the age difference so much as how people tend to portray the ship (please please please stop making Emily act like a literal child, she’s 25 and it puts an unpleasant spin on a relationship with a woman in her 40s).

I’m not 100% opposed to the ship itself, but it does make me uncomfortable because the vast amount of content for it is… not my thing.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

she’s trans yo

6: one way in which I relate to this character

That feel when your mental illness and repressed feelings turn you into a literal monster. Oof.

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

I get a kneejerk reaction to the uh. Audiograph where she describes what she wants to do with Vasco’s corpse dkhdjkf

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

She’s definitely a problematic fave lmaooo

- Rowan -

1: sexuality headcanon

she’s a nonbinary lesbian lollll

2: otp

UHHHHHH

Rowan/Hypatia because Rowan was originally a Dishonored OC and I shipped her (still do) hard with Hypatia.

In her homeverse she’s with Caly.

She has a thing for doctors with a monstrous side.

3: brotp

Orion in her homeverse - they’ve known each other for decades and are pretty much childhood friends. Clove / Aureumon in Metanoia - they’re literal soul mates / Clove is pretty much her daemon.

4: notp

Rowan/Orion - they’re like siblings, it’d be fucking gross.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

She was definitely an obnoxious horse girl growing up.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

this is my OC and a literal projection of my complicated relationship w/ gender and sexuality lmao

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

She started out as a trans man and into men. I think she’s gone a full 180 oops.

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

Cinnamon roll who comes off as a problematic fave.

#replies.txt #typhon.txt #ask meme #dishonored #oc: raisa amarok #long post

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tieflng · 4 years

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chocobox 2020 letter under the cut, because i do things and participate in things now i think.

dear chocolatier: thanks for writing for me! my actual requests were sparse because they were. quite long. especially the pyre one, because it turns out i have a lot of thoughts about minor/historical background characters as seen in the book of rites. so my prompts are all here, along with the dnws just repeated for good measure. thanks for reading all of this, i hope you can find something to have fun with.

pyre -

oops!! all golathanian! i was just really drawn to him reading the book of rites; there's something about an ordinary (certainly flawed) human man making the choices that brought every event in the game to pass and turned him into a godlike eldritch basketball saint. also, 'you gave your freedom that i might yet have mine' is a line i've been thinking about for an entire year. also, the g in lgbt is for golathanian. i'm really into the idea that the man the commonwealth could lionize as the ideal of strength is admirable not as a conqueror or warlord, but as someone with commitments to others that make him overcome his flaws-- someone who does the cooking for the group and makes dry comments and lectures out of worry and has a stupid laugh and acts like a grouch when he is secretly a giant softy. (and someone who is visibly gay and gnc, because the base of my mazlow hierarchy of needs is gay/bi men presented as admirable figures of authority, and i think that's something that should have been in the game, even if the commonwealth in-universe was going to erase it.) the heart and idealism and earnestness is what makes him worthy of respect, and that he's human, even if technically he ends up as a demigod sports-omen star.

i'm firmly in favor of autistic scribes (solidarity with chae) and scribes as large-r Readers. aside from soliam and khaylmer who both have cis energy i'm very up for any of the requested characters as trans or nonbinary, and near and dear to my heart especially are transfem chae and triesta and a nonbinary/my-gender-is-just-gay gol. explicit lgbt identities in general are a plus. environmental details-- i adore the richness and mystery and wonder of the downside, but i'd also kill for some sahrian imperial court ambiance. adventure is good, character study is always good, shenanigans and mischievous escapades between friends, misunderstandings that work out or not, angst with comfort is fine, moral or philosophical dilemmas or conversations (perfect for this group). it'd be nice to see something about titans, about (r/R)eading, the downside as an eldritch landscape, the simultaneous decay and might of imperial sahr, about turning into celestial bodies, a good old fashioned slow burn/mutual pining.

ha'ub & gol - i've always imagined these two are best friends - the first two scribes, 2/3 of the og triumvirate, and both dealing with the fact that 'mercy' means they have to keep soliam murr's fool ass alive. ha'ub is a chaotic little bumpkin who's never belonged anywhere, gol is an increasingly long-suffering visitor to purgatory dimension-- i feel like for all that he knows more about survival here than his new Big Friends, ha'ub feels just as indebted to them for being able to relate to him. it can't be easy being the first imp with human-like intelligence, or at least surely the only imp you know. misunderstandings between different species, teaching each other about sahrian human and downside imp customs, teaming up against howlers (did the howler/imp distinction exist yet, if all imps were wild and drive imps didn't exist??), learning to communicate with someone whose speech and language are very different. gol standing up for ha'ub in the 'why does an imp get a triumvirate' debate. why is ha'ub accursed? too, if there's gol/soliam, there's an opportunity for 'just kiss him already', or whatever misunderstandings imps have about human relationships/will-they-or-won't-they tensions.

gol & chae - please call the vagabond girl chae! i loved her basically at the moment i saw her and her arc means a lot to me. she’s autistic coded but her belief in the scribes-- in actually hearing and speaking to the scribes-- is never undercut by the narrative. and she’s immensely strong! she’s survived in the downside by herself from 17-19! and imo at least the scribe known for being strong and resilient and untiring, not to mention idealistic and loyal, would admire the absolute fuck out of her. i’d like her childhood as moontouched/homeless and displaced, her topside ending as a religious leader and inspiration in the sahrian union, wandering alone in the downside, her role with the nightwings-- i just really want to see what conversations these two would get up to, i want them to learn from each other, i want chae to have support and encouragement and comfort from everyone’s favorite nomad scribe. what does she ask him? what does he tell her? passing messages from ti’zo or the heralds? looking for advice/help on behalf of the nightwings, or just comfort when she’s feeling out of place? god, the fact that she’s in the companion class that parallels khaylmer-- do they talk about that, or how does gol feel? there are so many damn good interactions here. please don’t infantilize her or portray her beliefs and reactions as nonsensical or weird.

gol/soliam - i have so many thoughts about these two that i almost don’t want to say everything. my sense is they didn’t get together until the downside, with a very long enemies > grudging allies > friends > lovers, at least on gol’s end. you don’t jump over the edge of the world to kill someone and immediately kiss and make up. topside before he gets disillusioned there’s potential for that good courtly love - gol pining hopelessly (and perhaps obliviously, depending on how soliam acts towards him) for his beautiful distant liege, sol who so very clearly did not feel anything genuine for anyone as emperor, but who maybe has some ‘oooh, master-general ;)’ poking out of the hedonism-flavored depression. and then he falls down the river and realizes he was a big idiot. i could do very early sweet moments, courtly aesthetic and accidental intimacy, seeing a tender side to the emperor that most people never get close enough for/soliam murr Almost having a real feeling other than physical attraction. i could also do rebuilding their trust and rapport in the downside, mutual pining, growing closer despite everything and wondering privately if they couldn’t actually work out. or established relationship tenderness and fluff. i could also very much do explicit content with these two.

gol & khaylmer - ahh, yes. enemies. i got the impression from gol’s account (and gol’s account is really all we get) that these two hated each other, to ‘put his picture on the bull’s eye of the dartboard’ levels of hatred-- but also, maybe, that they had more in common than they wanted. gol and khaylmer as the only two grownups in a decadence-obsessed imperial court? certainly as the closest advisers to the emperor, whatever that means when your emperor is soliam murr. i always got the impression that gol was a bit more of a bastard than he let on-- nomad masteries are very ‘now i’ve thrown him off his rhythm!’ and you can’t tell me ‘preferred to fall on his enemies by surprise under the cover of darkness’ Isn’t the trait of a highly slippery character. then again, their worldviews and beliefs might as well be from two different planets, but then again again, do we really get an unbiased opinion on khaylmer to know what his worldviews really is? two driven and idiosyncratic people, more similar than they think, who just deeply hate and misunderstand each other at a fundamental level. also, please a deep dive into khaylmer’s head. lot of opportunity for backroom dealing and court drama here.

scribes & scribes - scribe adventures! or scribe shenanigans and arguments! i see these eight as having strong and contrasting personalities, but fundamentally caring about each other, even if they can get into real drama and conflict. fighting titans, exploring together, writing the book of rites, becoming eldritch basketball gods. found family is great, early stages of found family that grouchily insist they're business associates is better. there is so much you could do with these losers as a collective and i love them with my entire heart.

dnw: fantasy homophobia or transphobia, dubcon/noncon including under the influence, hand/eye trauma, unsanitary things, angst without a positive/hopeful resolution. in terms of explicit content, please no humiliation or impact play/physical pain. fandom specific: don't undercut chae's feelings or beliefs or write her in an ableist way. i also see gol and soliam as gay, and milithe and triesta as lesbians, so i'd prefer no references to past/current m/w relationships for them-- not because having m/w history invalidates gay peoples' identities, but because for me personally that'd be a horrible experience and it makes me sad thinking about my favorite characters going through that.

hades -

i did not expect to like a large soft-spoken honor-bound minotaur who duels you in honorable combat as much as i did, but probably should have knowing basic facts about myself. anything asterius-focused is great-- i really want to see him well-received in elysium and with a partner who cares about him......! he deserves nice things! elysium as a setting is so lush, environmental details, moments of respite, greenery, the river lethe, the elysian stadium, the beauty of eternal paradise And the fact that the people who live here decide to just beat the tar out of each other for fun.

this game has a really strong cast, and i'd love to see mentioned or featured olympians/house denizens/run npcs other than the requested characters. patroclus is a strong possibility for a fic in elysium, but achilles, hypnos, hermes/artemis/athena, and eurydice are also favorites of mine. i'm always down for explicit gay/bi identities, and i've been toying with trans masc zag and/or nonbinary aster.

Asterius/Zag - the inherent romantic tension of having a standing date to fight someone in hand to hand combat. but also, meeting outside of the arena in some way - a peaceful moment in a fountain chamber? maybe aster helps zag in a tough spot with some exalted? they both meet up in patroclus's chamber? i like how aster respects you for your strength and ability and the comparison he draws between them both as having been born monstrous/in darkness could use some (gentle) exploration. both of them uncovering hidden depths or softness in each other.

Asterius/Theseus/Zag - the inherent romantic tension of having a standing date to fight two people in hand to hand combat. i very much see this as an aster-centric v-- i don't really buy these or zag being into each other on their own, but learning to get along for the sake of their mutual boyfriend is good, and the comedy that ensues. anything i like in aster/zag or aster/these would be good here. absolutely not opposed to an aster-centered threesome (he deserves it).

Asterius/Theseus - how did these persuade hades to move the bull of minos to elysium? how did they become champions in the stadium? fighting by each others' sides, aster discovering after a mortal lifetime confined to a labyrinth that he's into men, these feeling weirdly compelled to show off or impress him. theseus training him in 'heroic ways'. theseus's lines about ariadne felt needlessly gross/borderline misogynistic and i'd like for them either to not come up Or for aster to sit him down and give him a piece of his mind. that's his sister, you idiot.

Cerberus & Zag - just a boy and his dog! cerby comforting a younger zag when hades is on his bullshit, or kid zag sleeping all cuddled up with his pubby. growing up and watching the house change. zag venting to cerberus or asking for advice, like you do with your pets when you don't expect an answer (and maybe getting one??). something in styx would be good, or zag finding any other kind of treat or toy and smuggling it back in from one of his runs.

dnw: fantasy homophobia or transphobia, dubcon/noncon including under the influence, hand/eye trauma, unsanitary things (please light on the descriptions of the satyr sack, lmao), angst without a positive/hopeful resolution. in terms of explicit content, please no humiliation or impact play/physical pain. as far as fandom specific: please nothing that portrays hades as good or justified in any of his actions. nothing zag/meg or zag/than; i really prefer zag and meg to have acknowledged their feelings and decided to stay friends.

arthuriana/let’s be real i’m here for the gawain and the green knight -

......i'm just in this for the inherent homoeroticism. explicitly gay/bi gawain and bi bertilak is great, bertilak and his wife both being in on it is great, threesome? more christmas games? courtly flirting? being cozy inside? going on a dangerous quest? anything sounds great, just have fun with it!

dnw: homophobia including period-typical (just not why i read fanfiction), dubcon/noncon including under the influence, unsanitary things, hand/eye trauma, cheating/negative feelings between the hautdeserts, angst. in terms of explicit content, please no humiliation or impact play/physical pain.

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aleinnilatibae · 7 years

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Ace!Sportarobbie part 2: The Word Asexual

He had FINALLY done it.

After all these years, Robbie Rotten had FINALLY found a surefire way to make the notorious SportaACTIVE slow down! He had been practicing the method for the past few days, and he was ABSOLUTELY SURE that it would work, this time.

All he had to do, was wait for Sportacus to come flipping down the street, doing some perfectly AWFUL acrobatics, and…put the plan into action.

“Sportaflip!” Robbie called, alerting Sportacus to his presence by waving his hands around.

Sportacus skidded to a halt right next to him, and flashed Robbie a bright smile. “Hi Robbie!”

Robbie extended his hand. “Sportacus, would you do me the HONOR, of…taking a walk with me?”

He leaned close and smiled extra-wide, for extra persuasion power.

Sportacus’ eyes lit up. “Of course, Robbie!” he said, taking Robbie’s hand and lacing their fingers together before setting off at a leisurely pace.

Robbie couldn’t help but let out a villainous snicker. It worked!

“Where did you have in mind?” Sportacus asked, to which Robbie stiffened.

“Oh,” he said, “I didn’t plan, uh, that far ahead,” he admitted, sheepishly.

“That’s okay Robbie, YOU know that I’m okay with going anywhere, as long as you are by my side,” Sportacus reminded, winking.

Robbie turned red.

“But,” Sportacus continued, “Might I suggest…City Hall? It looks like Stephanie is preparing it for a celebration!”

Robbie snapped his focus ahead again, and sure enough, City Hall was a whole lot more…COLORFUL than it usually was. Rainbow decorations on all the pillars, streamers everywhere, Robbie had seen her style of decoration for enough years to know that this building had STEPHANIE written all over it. Now WHERE was that pink-yep, there she was, raising a bright, yet familiar rainbow flag up the flagpole-

“Is that…the PRIDE flag?” Robbie asked, pointing at the flagpole.

“I think it is!” Sportacus confirmed, squinting up at it. “And there are more hanging from the building!”

“What could she be up to this time…?” Robbie wondered aloud, but Sportacus didn’t hear him.

“Wow, look at all those COLORS, Robbie!” he was saying, gesturing at the rainbow decorations adorning City Hall with his free hand. “Aren’t they fantastic?”

“Ugh, they’re HURTING my EYEBALLS,” Robbie complained, shading his eyes with HIS free hand. “I never understood why the pride flag had to be a RAINBOW!”

“I like it,” Sportacus said, shrugging.

“Why?” Robbie asked grumpily.

“Because, it reminds me of MANY things that I like,” Sportacus said cheerfully. “Like flower fields-” he held up one finger, “-and sportscandy-” another finger, “-and…being in love!” he finished, grinning widely at Robbie.

Robbie’s mouth hung open in shock. “Sportadoof, you-you-” he struggled for words, “You absolute SAP!” he finally said incredulously, but kissed him on the cheek anyway.

“ROBBIE! SPORTACUS!” Stephanie called, setting down a large box to wave at the approaching couple. “HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!”

“Is that what all of these decorations are for?” Sportacus asked as they approached her.

Stephanie nodded. “Uh-huh! We’ve been learning a lot about identity for Pride Month at school,” Stephanie explained. “One of my teachers said that it would be a good idea to celebrate the LGBT community in our home towns, so I thought…we should throw a party! Since I know YOU two are gay, and my uncle’s-”

She cut herself off with a gasp at the exact same moment that Sportacus’ crystal beeped.

“Someone’s in trouble!” he gasped, letting go of Robbie’s hand and dashing away.

Stephanie turned back to Robbie, looking sheepish. “I forgot to tell Sportacus,” she said, “My uncle told me to send him over as soon as I saw him,” she smiled apologetically. “Whoops.”

Robbie chuckled. “Sportasave AND your uncle will be just FINE,” he said, flashing an OK sign at her. “That’s why he even WEARS that blinkity rock in the first place.” He started to examine the cardboard box next to Stephanie, which was filled with what LOOKED like little pride flags, except many had different colors or fewer stripes than the rainbow one he was familiar with. “What are-”

“Ooh, ooh, Robbie look!” Ziggy squealed, appearing out of nowhere and grabbing Robbie’s hand to get his attention. “That’s the GAY flag!” he announced, pointing up at the flagpole.

“I know THAT, Candy-boy,” Robbie scoffed, pulling his hand out of the sticky grip, “Who do you think you’re DEALING with here??”

“Oh yeah,” Ziggy said, shuffling his feet. “Heh! I forgot!”

Robbie rolled his eyes, as Ziggy ran inside. “However,” he said, turning his attention back to the box of differently colored little pride flags, “I don’t know what all THESE are.”

“These are the decorations for the cake!” Stephanie exclaimed, bouncing excitedly. “I made them out of lollipop sticks and colored paper, so we can have ALL the pride flags on the cake!”

“There’s…” Robbie said slowly, “There’s more than ONE?”

“Of course,” Stephanie said, tilting her head. “Haven’t you ever seen any of these before?”

“Uh…no?”

“It’s okay! I can tell you what they are,” She said, plucking one of them out of the box. “THIS one is the bisexual flag!” she said, holding up a blue, pink, and purple striped flag.

He carefully plucked it out of her hands, like a flower, nodding. “Ohh, okay-”

“And THIS one is PANsexual!” she said, giving him one with pink, yellow, and lighter blue.

“Mhm-”

“And transgender!” she continued, handing over another one.

Robbie transferred the bi and pan flag to one hand while he accepted the newest gift. “Slow down, pink girl-”

But she only sped up, handing him little flags at the speed of light, which he scrambled to hang onto.

“This one is genderfluid, and this one is demiromantic, and THIS one is the asexual flag, and this one is for nonbinary in general, and THIS one is for lesbians in particular-”

“STEPHANIE!” Robbie boomed, and she froze in her tracks. Robbie using her real name was usually enough to give her pause in the middle of an excited speech.

“Pink girl,” he said, attempting to juggle all the flags she had thrust at him, “It’s been nigh on TEN YEARS since I’ve even SEEN a pride flag in person! I don’t even know what half of those words you said MEAN!” he said, losing his grip and dropping one of them on the ground. “Oops.”

“Sorry Robbie,” she said, helping him tip his handful of flags back into the box. “I got a little bit carried away.”

“I can SEE that,” Robbie said, bending down laboriously to pick up the one he dropped.

“ What’s THIS one for?” he examined the purple, grey, and black gradient. “Seems kind of DARK for a PRIDE FLAG.”

“Oh, that’s the asexual flag!” she said cheerily.

Robbie furrowed his brows. “What’s that?”

“It’s for people who don’t experience, uh…” her face colored a little bit, “sexualattraction,” she almost whispered.

Robbie froze, dropping the flag right on the ground.

“What?”

“It’s where you-it’s where you don’t experience sexual attraction,” she said again, stronger this time.

“That’s-that’s-” he sputtered, looking from the flag on the ground then at Stephanie, back and forth. “That’s a THING?!”

“Sure,” Stephanie shrugged, “I have a friend from school who is that.”

“Are you allowed to be-be-” he bent down and picked up the flag, “THIS, if you-if you’re GAY?”

She nodded. “You can still ROMANTICALLY like whoever you WANT, if you didn’t that would be called aromantic. That’s a different thing, but my friend from school is both at once.” She reached behind the box of flags and pulled out what looked like a business card. “This is the informational card about it that I was going to put in front of the cake. It could probably explain it better than me,” she said, smiling a little bit.

Robbie set down the flag on the table and held the card with both hands as he read, nose and mouth twitching a little. His brain was WHIRRING with about a million different thoughts.

“I-uh-er-I-” he shook his head quickly and snapped out of it, realizing where he had to go. “I need to go see Sportacus. Right now, immediately,” he said, turning abruptly and starting to run away.

He froze, realizing something, and ran back to Stephanie.

“I’m gonna need THIS,” he said, plucking the flag from the table, and starting off again, before freezing and running back for one more final thing.

“Alsothankyou,” he mumbled, patting Stephanie on the head twice and running away for good this time.

He finally FOUND his flippity elf of a boyfriend…well…FLIPPING down the path that lead back to City Hall from Stephanie’s house.

“Hello Robbie! Whatcha got there?” he asked.

Robbie tried to explain, but he was FAR too exhausted, breath coming in ragged gasps. He bent over, trying to catch his breath, hoping some part of his point would get across by waving the little flag in the air and wheezing out “ASEXUAL.”

No luck.

“What did you say?” Sportacus said, smiling a little as he peered at the flag. “This flag isn’t ALL white, or I’d say you were just surrendering to my charms!” he winked.

Robbie flashed a murderous look at him. “I RAN…to GET here…SportaJOKES,” he said, between panting breaths, “It’s IMPORTANT.”

So Sportacus waited patiently, in a handstand position, until Robbie’s breathing slowed and he straightened up, adjusting his vest.

“Anyway. THIS here is a Pride flag, like the gay flag, for ASEXUALS!” Robbie said excitedly.

Sportacus tilted his head. “For who?” he asked, flipping back right-side up again.

“It’s people who-wait, let me read this,” he pulled out the card, clearing his throat.

“Asexuality is defined as the lack of sexual attraction to others,” he read out, “and is NOT the same as celibacy, or abstinence, which are choices. An asexual person may still date or fall in love, but they possess no innate desire for sexual contact.”

Sportacus’ jaw had gone slack as Robbie was reading. “What?” he asked incredulously, snatching the card from Robbie and reading it himself, lips moving as he read.

“Read it and WEEP, Sportaflop, that’s US! Asexual!” he said urgently, tapping his finger on the card at a frenetic pace. "ASEXUAL!!“

Sportacus finally looked up from the card. "Robbie, are you telling me that there’s-there’s” he sputtered, gesturing wildly, “There’s a NAME for that?? For not-not wanting-”

“Yes!”

“That’s fantastic!” Sportacus said excitedly, letting out a short laugh and looking off into the distance. “A-sex-ual,” he said contemplatively, nodding. “I like it!”

Robbie turned the card over, seeing that the back was patterned like the ace of spades. “Why is this-ohh, I get it,” Robbie said, rolling his eyes. “The ACE of Spades,” he chuckled, “Clever.”

“I don’t get it,” Sportacus said, brow furrowed.

“You know…” Robbie said, waving the card around, “Ace of Spades? Ace-exual?”

“OH!” Sportacus said, laughing as he understood the joke. “That means that whenever we play cards together, I can always have an Ace in my hand!” he said, grabbing Robbie’s hand.

Robbie groaned. “Uuugh, Sportaflop, you just learned about asexuality TEN SECONDS AGO. Could you REALLY not wait any longer to use it as a…FLIRTING PUN against me??”

“Sorry, Robbie,” Sportacus said, with an easy laugh. “I just saw the opportunity, and…”

Robbie sighed. “I know, I know, you COULDN’T resist.”

“I never can,” Sportacus said, grinning and kissing Robbie on the cheek.

But his grin disappeared in the next moment. “Wait,” he said, brows furrowed, “Can you be gay and asexual? At the same time?”

“Who cares what you’re ALLOWED to do, I’m doing it ANYWAY!” Robbie said decisively. “Plus, I guess Pinkie said that you could still like relationships, or it would be a different word, like aerodynamic? Aromatic? I don’t know, who CARES how you smell!” he said, waving the flag next to his nose. “This…this is everything I have been telling people since I was a TEENAGER!”

“And if STEPHANIE knows about it,” Sportacus said slowly, “That probably means there are a lot more asexuals out there than just the two of us.”

Robbie went slackjawed. “I…didn’t even THINK about that,” he said, a bit awed at the implications.

“Searching out others will have to wait until after the celebration,” Sportacus half-chided. “No matter how excited we are. But in the meantime…do you think Stephanie has any more of these flags?” he asked, taking it from Robbie and twirling it between his fingers. “I think I really, really need one for the airship.”

“Yes! Let’s go get one!” Robbie exclaimed, grabbing his boyfriend’s hand and pulling him along the path, heading back to City Hall with the little flag held between their clasped hands.

#lazytown fanfiction #sportarobbie fanfiction #i've been having a god damn fantastic time writing ace sportarobbie its my lifeblood #robbie-rotting #this is for you #stephanie is like #in middle school #a middle school that has a way better curriculum than all of ours

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nickiswithoutidea · 7 years

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From the pride month ask: 1, 11, 18, and 30?

Thank you so much!!

(Tumblr fucks up the text format, will fix this later)1. what is your sexuality?I’m absolutely sure I’m somewhere on the asexual spectrum, until very recently I saw myself as completely asexual, but at the moment I think I might be gray-asexual or maybe demisexual. Could change again though, I believe in the theory that sexuality is fluid and can change over time. 11. tell us about your first crush?Oh, let me think. Like, first kindergarten crush or first real crush? And first crush on a guy, girl or nonbinary person? Let’s do all of the above, I can’t sleep and I love to overshare on the internet.My kindergarten crush was a guy called Axel, we very seriously wanted to get married, but got out of touch after kindergarten. I only saw him again once by total chance when I had an internship I needed to do for school at my old kindergarten and he visited us there one day. He promised to text me, but never did. I got over it. The first time I had a crush on a girl I was in seventh grade I think and it happened to be my best friend at that time. I wrote about it in my diary and was so sure that I would never like another girl except her because I projected my own body dysphoria on girls and was kinda appaled by them, oops. Anyways, I never told her back then because I was a little scared and very sure she’s straight and she had a boyfriend at the time and I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. Funny thing is, two or three years later another friend of us told me she had a crush on me at that time too. We talked about it and she told me she would’ve never confessed to me but if only I had been brave enough to do so we could’ve been a couple.I mean it was probably for the better it didn’t happen, but still, I wonder how things had gone if she would’ve been my first girlfriend. Until today I still have some of this deep admiration for her. We recently saw each other again and I was hoping to rebuild our friendship, but it just didn’t happen. My first real unrequited crush that ended in heartbreak was on a guy named Dustin, I was 13, 14 or 15 (not sure right now) and we were together on a language study travel thing for teenagers in England. He was two years older and I was really into his whole attitude and style and his way of living like he didn’t care about what people thought of him. I was the only person he was interested in hanging out with and I felt so special, he asked me to walk around with him on trips, showed me his music and promised to invite me to one of his band’s concerts. I mean, he even sang One Love by Bob Marley and another cheesy love song I can’t remember now for me, so of course I thought he liked me back. Never had the courage to tell him I had a crush on him though. So, long story short, after we were back home I asked him if he wanted to meet up again because we got along so well, and he said he absolutely didn’t care about me. Poor me was completely devastated. I still sometimes think about him today and still got a photo of us because I’m nostalgic and bad at letting go, lol.I actually never had a crush on a nonbinary person, so there’s no story to tell about that. Come to think about it, I had very few serious crushes in my twenty years. It’s been forever since I felt any romantic feelings for someone. 18. what’s your favorite parts of lgbtqa characterization in media?Hmm, probably when multiple queer characters are portrayed in very different, unique ways without their sexual/romantic orientation or gender being the main focus of their personality.Like, you know, when queer people are just shown to be people. Not masculine gay men written to turn on straight women, not lesbians exclusively portrayed as hyper feminine and conventionally attractive written to appeal to straight men. Not trans people whose storylines only focus on them suffering because of being trans. Just people who go on with their lives and just happen to be queer.Don’t get me wrong, I also love stories where being queer is the character’s motivation to fight for justice and equality, those who are unapologetically queer and proud and uncomfortable on purpose. But these stories always have a sad side to them and lots of injustice and pain. So yeah, I love just seeing queer characters being as diverse as possible without portraying them differently than non queer characters. Give me the friendly lesbian neighbours that aren’t the punchline in a joke, the teenager’s best friend who’s also trans but mainly the best friend, the gay teacher that can casually bring his partner to school events because nobody treats them any different than straight couples, the bisexual person who’s not constantly asked for threesomes or if they’re confused and sex crazy and maybe just once speak out the word ‘bisexual’, the nonbinary colleague at work who’s refered to with prefered pronouns and never asked inappropriate questions, give me asexual characters with happy romantic relationships whose sex life is not explicitly discussed and shown, give me an aromantic character living a fulfilled life without a romantic relationship who is not treated as abnormal or unlovable.Give me queer people in all age groups, with different ethnicities and beliefs, just give us someone on tv to relate to that doesn’t feel like a desperate clinging to a boring stereotype out of non existent alternatives. 30. what is your romantic affiliation?This means who I’m romantically attracted to, right? I’d say panromantic but also demiromantic? I had crushes on multiple genders and I don’t think my romantic feelings differ between genders. But I do think I’m demiromantic because I always take a lot of time to develop feelings for someone, I really need to feel close to them, I can’t really go on a date on someone and decide if I could probably fall in love with this person after meeting them once, twice, three times or even more often. Also, most of my crushes developed from friendship into romantic feelings, so, yeah. Statistics speak for demi-panromantic.But just like with sexuality, I also believe romantic attraction can change, so who knows what it’s like in a year.

#asks #queer stuff #nick babbles

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