Abuse -- Veran Kuriensu English Lyrics
Song by veran kuriensu
VO: Kagamine Len
CW: it's not graphic but it is in the title, the lyrics of this song contain heavy implications
English Translation
My heart is for you
Wrapped in a sweet and gentle love
When I was very young we made a pinkie promise
"You have to grow up kind and strong"
Half-remembered things drawn in crayon
I can't recall your face
I just scribble over and cover it with blank color
The white drawing paper stains black
Apartment building floor 43, on the other side of the curtains
The sky is right up close
The lights of the town are far away
There's no sound save for the wind
My heart is for you
Wrapped in a gentle wish
Both my heart and my body
Were given to me by you
A shaky hideout made of building blocks
That I redo every time it's destroyed
My crushed expression must be unsightly
So I curl smaller into a ball to keep it from being seen
Apartment building floor 43, the outside world is scary
So I hug a stuffed animal
And alone again today
I go to sleep
I understand it, that to you
I am unnecessary
Kindness and warmth
Are they in the sky on the other side of the curtains?
My heart isn't wanted by anyone
It's best to get rid of such unnecessary things
On the other side of the curtains, the light is far away
In the moment that I draw closer, I dream something
My heart is for you
Wrapped in a sweet and gentle love
When I was very young we made a pinkie promise
"You have to grow up kind and strong"
Your voice grows distant
JP original under the cut (Kanji/Romaji)
ぼくの心臓 あなたにあげる
優しい愛を込めました
幼い頃に指切りをした
「優しく強くなりなさい」
Boku no shinzou Anata ni ageru
Yasashii ai wo komemashita
Osanai koro ni yubikiri wo shita
"Yasashiku tsuyoku narinasai"
クレヨンで描いたおぼろな記憶
あなたの顔が思い出せない
ぐるぐる描いて塗りつぶす顔
白い画用紙 黒く染まる
CRAYON de kaita oboro na kioku
Anata no kao ga omoidasenai
Guruguru kaite nuritsubusu kao
Shiroi gayoushi kuroku somaru
マンション43階 カーテンの向こう
空が近い
街の明かり遠く
風の音だけ
MANSION yon jyuu san kai CURTAIN no mukou
Sora ga chikai
Machi no akari tooku
Kaze no oto dake
ぼくの心臓 あなたにあげる
優しい願い込めました
ぼくの心 ぼくの身体
あなたがぼくにくれたもの
Boku no shinzou Anata ni ageru
Yasashii negai komemashita
Boku no kokoro Boku no karada
Anata ga boku ni kureta mono
つみきで作る脆い隠れ家
壊せるたび作り直すの
ぐしゃぐしゃにして踏み潰す顔
見えないように小さく丸まる
Tsumiki de tsukuru moroi kakurega
Kowasareru tabi tsukuri naosu no
Gushagusha ni shite fumitsubusu kao
Mienai you ni chiisaku marumaru
マンション43階 外の世界怖いから
ぬいぐるみを抱いて
ひとり今日も
眠る
MANSION yon jyuu san kai Soto no sekai kowai kara
Nuigurumi wo daite
Hitori kyou mo
Nemuru
わかっていた あなたには
ぼくは必要じゃないと
優しさも ぬくもりも
カーテンの向こう 天にある?
Wakatteita Anata ni wa
Boku wa hitsuyou ja nai to
Yasashisa mo Nukumori mo
CURTAIN no mukou Ten ni aru?
ぼくの心臓 誰もいらない
いらないものは捨てましょう
カーテンの向こう 明かりは遠く
近づく一瞬 夢をみる
Boku no shinzou Daremo iranai
Iranai mono wo sutemashou
CURTAIN no mukou Akari wa tooku
Chikadzuku isshun Yume wo miru
ぼくの心臓 あなたにあげる
優しい愛を込めました
幼い頃に指切りをした
「優しく強くなりなさい」
Boku no shinzou Anata ni ageru
Yasashii ai wo komemashita
Osanai koro ni yubikiri wo shita
"Yasashiku tsuyoku narinasai"
あなたの声が遠くなる
Anata no koe ga tooku naru
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Little Talks
Part five of Merged
When was the last time he had slept?
To be honest Legend wasn’t quite sure. He was tired plenty but couldn’t sleep. He definitely passed out for at least thirty minutes last night but did that really count? With his eyes squinted Legend continued to walk forward, each step feeling as though he was wearing Time’s iron boots.
It was reaching a point though, the world was to bright, each motion to fast, every joke too funny. Legend fully realized he was in a downward spiral but to be honest he couldn't find the energy to care. He was better off than some of the others, Acidic didn’t bother him much, mostly only for snappy retorts, but even those were few and far between.
He could see the way some of the others suffered, though they tried to hide it. Time’s tight expression and rigid posture, Wind’s constant miserable expression, Hyrule’s silence. Even Wild and Four who seemed the least affected had changed. Just this morning Legend had caught Wild pruning himself using his mirror, but immediately stopped whenever he realized Legend had been watching. Four was just quiet, quieter than normal, and not just because he couldn’t talk.
“Legend, Legend, Legend. Acidic!” Time snapped. Legend pulled back from his thoughts quickly seeing Time’s slightly annoyed expression.
“What?” Legend asked quietly.
“Um, you’ve just been standing there for like five minutes, we’re supposed to be moving.” Twilight answered coming up from behind him to put a hand on his shoulder. “Are you ok?”
Legend quickly shrugged out of Twilights grip and stepped back. “I’m fine, just dont touch me. Let’s just keep walking.”
Time sighed. “We can stop for the night if you really need to. I was hoping to make more progress but it can’t be helped.”
“No let's keep going. I’m fine I promise.” Legend said forcing a smile to his face. He turned from the others and began walking, each step still heavy but he forced himself to keep going, to keep walking, to keep…
Legends eyes reopened to a starry sky. Sitting up slightly Legend winced as pain throbbed in the back of his head. Sky was sitting next to him, sword sitting across his lap. As soon as he noticed Legend was up Sky sat the sword aside, was it just the light or did it almost look red?
“Are you ok?” Sky asked worriedly. “You passed out. You’ve been out for almost sixteen hours.”
“I’m fine.” Legend slurred pushing away Sky’s concern and reaching hand.
“When was the last time you slept?” Sky asked recoiling slightly after being brushed off.
“Wouldn’t you like to know sky boy?” Legend snapped, his tone turning sharply bitter.
“Fine.” Was all Sky said as he turned away from Legend and sheathed his sword before walking away. Legend finally got up the energy and pushed himself up into a sitting position. Four was seated at his other side, looking concerned.
“What’s really wrong?” Four wrote before passing his journal over to Legend. This particular page had a picture of a sleeping person in one corner, likely Legend, and the words near the middle.
“Nothing. I was just tired.” Legend huffed hoping to look better than he felt.
Four gave him a pointed look before scribbling, “It's more than tired. Was it Acidic?”
Legends face grew red, almost embarrassingly so. “No, it wasn’t. He’s been quiet honestly. It’s just... I don’t know.”
Right there in front of Four Legend almost started crying. He’d never been one to want to talk about his emotions, maybe this was an Acidic thing but he just needed someone to vent to. So he started.
Four was a very attentive listener, not only because he couldn’t speak aloud. He listened adding in comments at certain points as Legend spilled his thoughts. About this whole situation, how Veran coming had been his fault, how he physically couldn’t sleep even though he was dead tired.
Once he finally finished Four had a whole page of notes and Legend felt a million times better. It wasn’t his way to be so… emotional but damn if it didn’t feel good.
“Thank you Four and Shadow. Both of you for listening. Sorry you had to deal with that.” Legend said, having relaxed and laid back on the ground his gaze fixed on the stars above.
Legend heard the sound of Four’s pencil scratching on paper before being handed the journal. Holding it above his face Legend read. “You helped us, we want to help you. Besides we’re your friend, we’ll always be here for you.”
“Thank you.” Legend handed the journal back and put his hands behind his head, for a moment a smile graced his melancholy features.
“You need to take better care of yourself. Or I will. I’m not going to let you kill us before they can figure out a way to seperate us.” The quiet and nasally voice of Acidic chimed in Legends head.
“You do care.” Legend quipped back. Acidic merely huffed and then his voice was gone. Legend’s eyes closed lightly on the night as Four shuffled closer and sat just within reach, just in case he was needed. Legend took a deep breath and for the first time in many days drifted off into a willing and calm sleep.
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