#very sincerely yours

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[ashanimus]

For @lollytea, fanart of her fic Pages Remain!

#toh #the owl house #the owl house hunter #toh hunter #hunter wittebane #hunter noceda #toh willow #willow park #huntlow #the owl house fanart #ash art #this was going to be one or two and became five #please read the work it's amazing #there were so many parts I wanted to illustrate but this part stabbed me just that much harder than everything else #thanks for the pain lollytea #but also for real you're very skilled #if ever an anxiety demon pops up for you #with respect to the craft #treasure the sincere admiration of your readers against it #that goes for all fanfic writers #ALL #okay time for bed now it is very late for me

[egophiliac]

I saw that post about you feeling down on your art lately and decided it best to say something cause anon was honestly so real with you being an inspiration.

It was legit your art that made me want to pick drawing back up after I abandoned it for months. I was feeling low looking at my old works and thought it was a waste of time. But then a few weeks back I went to look through twist content and found myself laughing at the jokes and admiring the cute art and wishing I could learn to draw like you.

I mean when I look at your art is see great poses, unique character builds, and smooth art. It’s all very lovely!

So I picked up some books and YouTube tutorials to start practicing things like anatomy a bit more and such to hopefully improve on my stuff. That reignited fire is largely because of you. So thank you! I hope that you get a bit of that creative fire back too and you don’t feel low about your art, it’s really wonderful content you post! I look forward to seeing your future works!

anon, I am crying right now, no joke. this is SO sweet and SO amazing to hear; there have been people like that for me, and I am honored to be one of those people for you. 💚💚💚

one of the things I try to remember when I feel really bad about myself and my art is that drawing is just...fun! the process of drawing is really fun! even if the outcome isn't what I wanted it to be, I try to let myself enjoy the actual act of making it, because that's worth something on its own!

...hopefully that makes sense! and if not, may I offer you this gif in your honor:

#art #gif warning #gifs that will do a sick kickflip over your head warning #i hope this doesn't come off too stupid #i am really sincerely touched by this! i'm just very bad at words! #thank you anon! #💚

[modmad]

You're wonderful! Not very good at expressing thoughts meaningfully so that's all but you're wonderful!

YOU'RE WONDERFUL TOO ANON AND THIS IS A VERY EXPRESSIVE AND MEANINGUL MESSAGE SO THERE

#DO NOT MISTAKE USING LOTS OF BIG COMPLICATED WORDS AS BEING BETTER AT COMMUNICATING YOUR THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS #YOU HAVE ACHIEVED A LEVEL OF PURE SINCERITY THAT HAS MOVED ME THIS FINE MORNING AND I AM SO VERY THANKFUL FOR YOU TAKING THE TIME TO MESSAG #I GOT CUT OFF #BUT YOU GET ME

[spookberry]

@nunnatheinsanegerbil I actually had the initial idea of them like two years ago, but the boys have all become better fleshed out than they had at first

the initial sketches^

the plot is more or less Marisu, the daughter of two former Harem Anime Protagonists, reaches high school and suddenly finds boys are very interested in her(as goes the family curse). There are Five boys in particular who stand out, and at first glance they seem to fit into general anime romcom tropes. Slowly though Mari gets to actually know each of them and they all wind up learning more about each other and themselves.

#my art #my ocs #very slice of life romcom type nonsense to the plot #but also a healthy dose of sincerity and the struggles with coming to terms with your identity and being queer

[presidentheartbeat6]

cuties (:

#I actually really like how this turned out............. #my art #temeraire #john granby #william laurence #tenzing tharkay #this picture is after a few drinks btw #I think Laurence secretly likes being touched but yk he's very stoic and he REFUSES to ask for it so everyone kind of assumes he doesn't?? #but it. comes out a lil when he's drunk. #Tharkay is very unused to it but he's definitely not. opposed. to being touched. especially if its by Laurence... #Granby meanwhile does this all the time. #hes always falling asleep on people and clapping them on the shoulders and nudging them with his hip to get their attention #but it takes him like a bajillion years to hug Laurence for the first time cuz yk. Laurence is. Laurence. #and Laurence is also hesitant to initiate things like that bc he doesn't want to be weird (ITS NOT WEIRD TO HUG YOUR BEST FRIEND LAURENCE.) #tharkay meanwhile has never had very much desire to get close to someone physically or paid very much attention to it #and then he meets Laurence. who barely ever touches anyone. and suddenly whenever their hands brush tharkay is hyperaware of it #I have no idea what I'm saying #I've got a big fat cold and I deadass almost took my ADHD meds on accident instead of ibuprofen... it's 11pm. #that is to say. I'm a touch delirious #so I apologize sincerely if I completely mischaracterized them

[touchd0wn-boy]

Lima, Peru | March 12, 2024 [x]

#hey what the hell are you guys talking about <3 #when your boy bestie is shit talking you so you very sincerely have to tell him that you love him #blink 182 #mark hoppus #tom delonge

[jolselin]

msp is so nice because this gaggle of teenage boys resolves everything by actually talking about their feelings and the main love interest's defining trait is being the most whipped guy in the history of guys in love and somehow it's genuine enough that it does not come across as boring or overly didactic... like the screenwriters aren't trying to show you An Example, they're just telling a nice story and since they're also making it not just earnest but also silly and goofy at times they're succeeding at actually making television you watch for entertainment. this is probably why it reminds me of shoujo manga like kimi ni todoke. they're just applying the same storytelling methods but on guys. it could've been incredibly boring but it's really well-executed so instead it's a highlight of the week

#idk it's just... they're a bunch of guys but none of their problems are resolved via posturing or anything #but everything written for them feels natural and unforced it's like genuinely a very positive example of male friendships and romance #some may find it overly sweet and that just means this is not the show for them and that's ok #my school president #hilariously enough on paper it does not sound like a show for me either but they're selling it because it's just really well-made #idk every once in a while you need a silly sweet sincere show and then you can go back to your regular tastes

[silverwhittlingknife]

i have a special place in my heart for "show don't tell" storytelling, especially in comic books. comics are a visual medium!

#tim drake #jack drake #comic ref in description #this is the last panel of the comic #and something i really like about it is that i feel like... it has a certain amount of respect for the reader? #you might not notice/get the irony of the batsignal showing up behind them #and the way the batsignal foreshadows that actually this /isn't/ a resolved happy ending #because the conflict between bruce and jack - and more directly between tim's values/priorities vs. his dad's - #hasn't actually been resolved even though they're both sorry and hugging #which means the conflict will inevitably occur again and again and again #which is a very clever grace note here #but if you don't notice that's okay! the comic isn't panicking trying to spell it out for you #if you catch it it's fine and if you don't catch it that's also fine #it has something that i really like about a lot of older comics and sometimes find missing in new ones (at least the ones abt the blorbos) #which is that it assumes that the /readers/ can realize things abt the situation that the /characters/ don't #i read both tim and his dad as both perfectly sincere in this reconciliation - they're caught up in the moment #and physically neither of them can see the batsignal #but we-the-readers can see both the batsignal and the looming future conflicts it implies even though they don't #the narrative isn't telling you what to think! no character emerged to announce 'But In Fact Tim You Still Have A Problem!' #instead the artist has just left the batsignal there and let you make the obvious inferences ON YOUR OWN #similarly in nightwing 110 (another one of my favorites) there's a conversation between dick and tim where they're both lying #if you're only a nightwing reader you know dick is lying but you probably won't figure out that tim is lying (or at least not the extent) #but if you /do/ read tim's comics then you understand what's going on in a way that neither of the characters do #there's just a general understanding that the characters are not fully self-aware nor do they perfectly understand each other #plus the gradual / slow-build / layered conflict #tim's mixed loyalties between bruce and his dad are a constant background slow burn tension #dick's complicated feelings about loving tim but also feeling a little threatened by him are also a low-key thread in the nightwing comics #the writers don't need to have a surprise! sudden! fight! nor do they need all-fluff-all-the-time #instead these tensions are mostly dormant except when they get exacerbated by extreme situations #there are plenty of things that 90s comics do *not* handle well but the character voices and longform style always draw me back <3

[zabiume]

like this is why i like ichihime so much, because orihime's main arc is all about adapting to her strengths and standing on her own two feet to protect someone while ichigo's is all about letting his guard down and letting someone protect him. it was so important for ichigo to acknowledge that (even though he didn't mean to) he did hurt her, and because he never meant to, he learns from his mistakes fairly quickly and regardless of how short that battle was, it was the sentiment that counted, the fact that he wanted her to not only be a part of his civilian life, but also his shinigami life, and that he wasn't shielding her from anything anymore because that's her job and he trusts her to do it

#they say cancer men are insane but honestly i think very few of you have what it takes to handle that deep sincerity #and that expectation that you'll grow throughout your life together as individuals #<- i am talking about ichigo and midorima pls do not mention any real life cancer men to me except my best friend lionel messi thx #ichihime #the fact that midorima & ichigo both have their decisive 'battles' when they trust their partners and stop taking everything on themselves #sometimes the shonen really hits huh #kisses & confessions are great but what if i invited you into a space i held scared & trusted you with half of a whole #that i usually manage on my own #MIDO/TAKA AND ICHI/HIME MY BELOVEDS🫶 #*sacred #when a character realizes 'i can do this alone but i don't have to' >>>>>>

[dayurno]

my advice for anyone whos growing more and more frustrated with the state of aftg and fandom at large is that arguing is fun but you need to be happy. ok. you need to. its hard when bad faith takes are dropped to your doorstep but you need to be happy and enjoy yourself and have fun or there's no point in anything at all ever. ok. fandom is not real and nothing is worth more than your enjoyment. i love you please make sure to have fun and reach out to a friend today. for me

#this goes doubly for fans of color if i'm honest #i say this bc a lot of my mutuals either currently or in the past have been very upset about how the fandom acts #and ive Done My Rounds with that ok #ive survived great wars even. and they did not make me happy #yes i was right and yes i should have said it but ultimately there was no material harm to choosing to have fun instead #lifes hard as it is in the real world where real things happen why would you waste your precious fun time on fighting crusades #and trust me i understand deeply the wish to fight crusades. Ive Fought Them. it got me hate mail and #an overall loss of passion for something i held sincerely in my heart #theres nothing more worthy than your enjoyment im serious. none of this is real and the world is hard out there #you need to get a good thing while u can #i dont remember a single time where ive actually felt vindicated by arguing with people online about. anything really but even more so aftg #but i remember in perfect and fond detail every time the (now defunct) kandreil discord server came up with an au #or even just normal casual conversation #i remember asks i got years ago about kevin day hcs that i hardly even agree with now but still love #trust me you will Not remember these squabbles what you will remember is what you loved and if youre lucky thats a lot of memories #so have fun ok. for me #txt

[quietwingsinthesky]

no wonder missy is insane about him. she just mindmeld trauma bonded with him and got confirmation through him that she was right the whole time about the thing that happened to her, AND then they traded life-saving moments. of course she wants her friend back. she needs him to see her again, as clearly as he did in that moment. she needs him to be like her, because among time lords, she is alone, but with the doctor, she isn’t.

#and also he looks like peter capaldi now and she wants to fuck that old man so bad #missy is very. masterlike in her affections. of course she is. but she’s also so so sincere about them too? #its jarring compared to simm!master because you have similar moments right u have like. ‘oh davros is your archenemy now? ill scratch his #eyes out.’ and yeah i could see simm!master saying that same thing same tone. because they are both freaks about the doctor #but this is the same scene where she tells the doctor he’s walking into a deathtrap and when he doesn’t back down. she walks into it with #him. it’s like she made a decision at some point that Of Course They’re On The Same Side Now. #that’s why she offers him the cybermen. that’s why she gives him clara. this is their side and it’s going to be the side that. if the #hybrid shit had come together as expected. would have destroyed gallifrey. and then there would be no time lords. just them. and they would #not be alone because of this. #and the thing is that. again havent started s10 im getting to it. but the thing is that missy decided this was true. #the doctor is not on the same page as her at all. #and that’s why its soooo! okay <3 break my heart forever then <3 #the doctor thinks missy has to earn. has to work at. being on his side. and missy thinks she already is and that it’s so so obvious. #u understand? #missy dw #the master #doctor who

[grapejuicegay]

sooooo we all saw not just how excited day was at the thought of having dinner with just mhok on his birthday but also the way his eyes lit up when mhok asked him what status he wanted right? and when he mentioned how different the vibes felt from when they went to a restaurant to practice we were all thinking about mhok flirting with day and being all romantic and how day wanted those vibes again right?

#what im saying is day likes mhok too #just as he is #just like he liked august as he was #and clocked it immediately when august wasn't behaving like himself #and whatever your thoughts (and mine) on august #day liked him as he was - flakiness and selfishness and all #and day likes mhok as he is too #(see his happiness when mhok explains why he has two of the same bracelet #he LOVES when mhok reveals parts of his life whatever they may be #and that was a very big part of mhok realising on the roof that day is far more upset than he let on #because he didn't even react to mhok's latest tidbit) #and even when mhok was flirting at the practice restaurant #his jokes are also always lined with sincerity #because everything mhok does is lined with sincerity #and day wanted more of that #last twilight #last twilight series

[defiledtomb]

I am sorry for my radio silence :< I am attempting to gather my thoughts on some topics I want to address, while irl has had me in a merciless grip lately. I will be back as soon as everything stops spinning so god damn fast 😵‍💫

#ouroboros-if #interactive fiction #choice of games #twine #I have been waiting for COG staff to make a statement on their current leadership and the discontent in the community #but it seems that they will opt to ignore and deflect this issue too #ngl it doesn't inspire any confidence in me regarding the company's longevity #and since HG would own the IP of a published game in perpetuity. I am worried that the world of Ouro is a bit too #precious to me to be handled by a company like that #they treat their authors with wildly swinging favoritism and downright contempt which should raise eyebrows #and have no intention on even addressing the problem when authors leave in droves #anyway. thank you all of you who have q's in my inbox still waiting for an answer #it's very overwhelming in there (and everywhere) so I have decided to take a break a little longer while I focus on work #I have an ongoing progress report being written for april so you'll see me then if nothing else. thank you sincerely for all your support💖

[solsticethebatearedfox]

when u really really desperately ship a ship bc projection juice (aka using said ship as a means to work through your own internalized shit about being aroace) vs your desire to respect characters canon identity and not erase what limited representation people have

#fabriz #idk just reading discourse in the tag #and i don't really wanna get involved #and tbh despite being very “i ship fabian/riz!1!1!!!” i also sincerely doubt it will be canon and i think that's a good thing? #i mean obviously i hope for it #but i think having a canonically aroace character who isn't interested in romance is more important #but also i have never seen canonically aroace characters interested in romance #which is a big chunk of the reason why it took me so long to realise that could be me - because i didn't realise it was an option #in conclusion #i think fighting over shipping isn't worth it #we should all be advocating for more queer content in general #especially aspec rep #idk feel free to reply with your thoughts just plz be nice!

[blueskittlesart]

me, thinking that i have at least a base level understanding of botw: :)

blue, about to write a 1,000+ word essay that is going to completely revamp my understanding of the game and interpretation of its events: bada bing bada boom

i dont know how you do it. i am incredibly impressed and using all of this for fic inspiration. keep writing

every time someone asks me how i do this shit i have to regrettably inform them that the real genuine answer is that i am fucking insane. my 2 passions in life are writing and video games and the place where the 2 converge fascinates me to no end and i am that special kind of crazy that is capable of latching onto something and not thinking about anything else for 10 years. so. the only thing i have cared about deeply for the last several years of my life has been the way video games are written and constructed. and zelda is one of the most interestingly constructed franchises i have found to date. these games are just like. the absolute perfect story for my brain to work with and i truly do not know who i would be without them. and i am genuinely incredibly grateful that ive been able to build a platform where people like. CARE about what i have to say and take the time to ask me to think about the games because like. i would be doing it ANYWAY but knowing that there are people who actually read my analysis and appreciate the amount of thought i put into this stuff makes me really happy lol

#i sincerely think video games are an art form and that so many stories benefit from being told interactively via video games #and i'm especially fascinated with the way loz chooses to tell its stories because the games are almost always designed so that the player #actively makes every decision in the storyline even though every game only has one preset ending. that's SO COOL. #ive found myself frustrated recently by rpgs that are super cutscene heavy and i was struggling to articulate why until i went back and #looked critically at the way zelda games are designed and i realized that there isn't a single cutscene in loz that openly takes away the #player's autonomy. cutscenes are almost always reserved for dialog or the beginnings of fight scenes but link almost never makes choices #without the player's input and that's a huge part of what keeps the games engaging! YOU are link. he's not a vessel you occasionally #control. he is you. his decisions are always yours. #and that's generally easier to do with a less complex storyline but the way botw kept that autonomy despite its complex story is SO clever #by making the cinematic cutscenes MEMORIES there's never any percieved loss of autonomy because the player understands that this is #something that has already happened so obviously there's no way they can alter link's choices. that's SO SMART #ANYWAY. i didn't mean for this to be a tag essay about video game mechanics sorry but tldr i am so so so passionate about this LOL #if you cant tell. very few people irl will listen to me talk for this long. this is why i love tumblr #asks