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#we got the ocd! adhd! anxiety! and autism! up in this bitch
mars-the-witch · 1 year
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When you try to write a short Steve centric Steddie fic about your OCD and accidentally trigger yourself working out one of the details and basically have a panic/anxiety attack but midway through not being able to breathe right, you write down the details abt said panic/anxiety attack in your notes app bcs you can never fucking remember them after the fact and you wanna get that good content as fresh as possible so your fic can be authentic af:
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chaosismynamemf · 1 year
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Here are headcanons bc i decided im not going to wait for someone to ask for them bc im not a wuss PT. 1
I SAID IT BEFORE AND ILL SAY IT AGAIN
REGULUS ARCTURUS BLACK IS REALLY FUCKING TALL
Remus and lily are also pretty tall
James and sirius are short kings
peter's average height and hes chill with that
hes also carries himself really like idk proper? idk. He just unconsciously has really good posture. its so fuckin elegant (Bc you KNOW that shit was drilled into him asap. sirius was the same way i think lol. I think my mans literally trained himself to slouch.)
ALSO- I regulus has autism (ik its a popular hc but idc if its popular i agree with it and i love everyone being nd and gay and pwinpiwnpinqfp I NEED REPRESENTATION ALR??)
Reg also has bipolar disorder and anxiety ptsd and depression
Sirius has bpd and ocd and ptsd bc i have bpd and ocd and i said so
james has adhd
remus has depression and anxiety
peter is the token nt friend lmao once again hes just chillin
hes vv supportive tho and is as helpful as he can be you wont catch him slippin and being ignorant and weird about his friends and they mental illness. Nuh-uh no sir.
Ok so i dunno much about the slytherin skittles or like Marlene, dorcus (is she apart of slytherin skittles?? idk man) ,mary, etc etc
But i see them everywhere in the fandom sooooo yall best be aware ive gotten attached to these fuckers
Marlene
She is SO FUCKIN HOT
Gods
So hot
She could step on me
Her and sirius are besties. Leather jacket duo if you will.
OK BUT REGULUS IN PLATFORMS???
Just thought of that and i am in love
Ugh this man is my everything
i honestly just wanna be his best friend
deadass
but anyways
i actually like the idea of regulus and sirius having similar music tastes and exchanging music reccs
dont come at me lmao
Literally reggie and sirius are just 2 sides of the same coin
this post is getting really fuckin long. BUT IDC
i wanna talk about my VERY MUCH ALIVE AND WELL AND HAPPY gay wizards
i dont know much about other cultures or anything like that.
so im not gonna go willy nilly and assign a bunch of headcanons on race or ethnicity or whatever
but i am TELLING YOU, YEA YOU
my wizard babies were not all white
We can all agree on this yes?
james has a little bump on the bridge of his nose.
And dimples
regulus and sirius getting drunk would either be really really funny or really really depressing
There is no in between
regulus is the type to not heavily drink all too often but when he does? my mans is blackout
the next morning? he dont know shit, legit if he DOES remember anything? hes like "mustve been a funky dream"
Yes regulus says funky
i honestly dont gaf that marauders era is set in like the 70's
Regulus deadass acts like gen Z incarnated, and you wouldnt be able to snatch this from my cold dead hands
even then i wouldnt let go
id wake up to bitch slap you
bitch
ANYWAYS
I think that regulus has like really explosive anger and sirius actually has like the quiet, you know im angry, what'cha gonna do about it?
my logic is that regulus has for the longest time kept all of his emotions and opinions to himself bc he literally couldnt express them because he was barely surviving as is
regulus speaking his mind about anything would be suicide
Now the opposite is for sirius ofc
sirius from pretty early got to scream and shout what he thought and felt until he lost his voice
He got a lot of it out of his system
he hasnt HAD to bottle up enough anger to be explosive
Also jus sayin i set all of this in a everyone lives, nobody dies universe
voldemort is killed in the 1st war because regulus survived the cave and ended up on Order of the phoenix's doorstep bein like
"Let me in, i got sum shit to tell you"
Man's is soaking wet and has a look so intense noone can tell him no
And so my mans joins the order and ends the war MUCH MUCH EARLIER
pop off buddy
love ya, mean it
nobody really trusted him at first
and i mean it
regulus was vv alienated at first (Not by dorcus, but dorcus is only one person and cant keep the caution and disgust and animosity away completely)
and you know what??
He was hurt he was angry he was depressed and he was so so over this shit
So he screamed until he was hoarse and told them to get their heads outta their asses bc he was here to help and here to stay
he knows he fucked up and he is self aware to know that he couldve been called the "bad guy" on many occasions
but that doesnt fuckin matter anymore because hes apart of their little hero club now and he is not being shunned just because he was a dumb kid who made mistakes
long story short my dudes like "SO-if you're going to talk shit, either say it to my face or keep quiet. ight?"
vv quickly after that people choose to keep quiet and actually yknow interact with him and see for themselves that he is not the boogie man hiding under their bed waiting to fuck them over.
I love angry, unhinged, doesnt gaf anymore regulus
Hes been through too much to be calm cool and collected towards people who he doesnt give a shit about (i mean he will but still)
ANYWAYS (can you tell i have adhd? if not i vv much am)
Regulus yanks his school besties (Even and barty) away from voldemort. I think my mans straight up yoinked them.
after the war he reaches out to pandora
this is getting really long so i will make another part lmao
LOOK YOU CANT BLAME ME
these characters couldve been so dynamic and complex
and jkr ROBBED US
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Jane the killer character and story redesign!! >:D
Jane was 15 years old when Jeff and Liu moved in the next door over. She wasn't very social, but Jeff didn't seem to be either, and Liu was so overwhelmingly friendly that she wanted to speak to him again. They would often chat in their backyards after school, leaning over the wooden fence, and eventually both her and Jeff opened up well. They all became fast friends, and even started hanging out on and off at school. They would come over to Jane's house to do homework, hanging out in her living room with chips and pop and laughing so hard their stomachs hurt before the boys remembered they were tutoring her in math.
At one point, there was an incident where three girls from the next grade up, Jeff and Liu's grade, shoved her down the stairs and called her a dyke. Jeff and Liu caught them on the school yard, told them off, and Jeff fought the oldest girls boyfriend so hard they didn't bother her again.
They became basically inseparable over the next 11 or so weeks, almost 3 months, and then Liu was arrested. Jeff was inconsolable. Jane came over everyday, and for the first two days, she wasn't allowed into his room. On the third day, and for the rest of that week, Jane went in and laid with him in bed, hugging him tight and consoling him. She cut his hair again for him, she helped him wash his binder to cheer him up, she brought him snacks and held his hand. Jeff told her he loved her like a sister the day before his accident, and they both cried.
The day the accident happened, Jane had gone over to see him, and there was a note on his door saying Liu said to go for a walk. Delighted, she ran out to find him, and ran up basically as he was lit. Everyone was screaming, Randy was laughing. She stabbed him in the eye. His friends dragged him away as he screamed and cursed at her, and she ripped her jacket off, smacking out the flames and desperately calling 911. She saved his life.
Jane went with the Woods' to pick Liu up from Juvy, and stayed overnight with him for two days when he got home because they were both so upset. She wasn't allowed into the room for the first two weeks of him being awake, but Liu and her argued with the nurses enough they let her visit. She came when she could, but she was a high level student and her parents were forcing her into a lot of higher classes, so eventually the boys had to tell her to take time for herself, because she was worn so thin. She came for the ride when they went to pick up Jeff, and rode with them to drive him home. She hugged both of them tight, gave them her new cellphone number, (and they gave her theirs, she hadn't had one before), and said if they needed anything to call her immediately. They assured her they'd be alright, and hugged her goodbye, and she walked back home.
She was sitting in her room, still up doing homework at around two am when she heard a crash downstairs. Startled, she got up to go check, when she heard Randy's voice carrying up the stairs to her room.
"I know she lives here. Find that stupid bitch." Footsteps. Terrified, she ran into the small bathroom off her room, locking her door. Shakily, she called Jeff, the first person she could think of, tears streaming down her face. He answered on the third try, obviously out of breath, but she was too scared to notice.
"Jane? Jane I can't really talk right--are you alright?" His worry seeped through the phone and she almost sobbed, whispering.
"They're here. Randy and his friends, they--they're in my house, they're looking for me, Jeff I'm so scared--" She was cut off by a loud bang on the door, and a call of "RANDY, IN HERE!", and that was when she remembered her parents were out at a party for the night. She whimpered, backing up further into the bathroom. She heard Jeff cursing, then telling her to stay safe, stay there, he was on his way.
It was a matter of minutes before they broke down the door. Randy was there, grinning wildly, a large eyepatch over his right eye. Where she stabbed him, she remembered faintly.
"Heeeey, Jane. Who's that on the phone?" One of the boys mumbled something, and he barked a laugh. "Our old friend Jeff, huh?" He grabbed the phone from her, laughing, and she could hear Jeff furiously yelling into the phone.
"Ah, ah, ah, Jeffery. Don't be rude. I have a little debt to repay Miss Winters here. I'm sure you remember what happened last time we met." He grinned, and Jane felt faint and sick to her stomach. "See you around, Jeff. Welcome home, by the way." Jeff screamed, and Randy hung up the phone.
About fifteen minutes later, sufficiently beaten up, Randy's friends dragged her into a chair in the kitchen, tying her up. Randy crouched in front of her, grinning wildly.
"Now, Jane. I'm sure you know we can't just let you off that easily. You ruined my life, did you know that?" His face got dark. "You ratted me out, you stabbed out my eye. You and your stupid brat friends took everything from me." Some sort of liquid splashed over her body, and she gagged from the smell of chemicals. Randy was grinning again.
"Consider this payback, dyke bitch." She saw the window behind Randy smash to pieces just as everything got very, very bright, and then very dark.
Jane woke up later, how much later she didn't know. Everything hurt and she felt like a mummy, wrapped tight in bandages all over her face, neck, shoulders and spotted all over her torso and legs. Someone was sitting next to her, gently placing a bandaid on her thigh and mumbling to themself. She tried to speak, but her throat hurt, and she whimpered. The person jumped, frantically grabbing a bottle of water.
"Here--Here. O-Open up. It's just water." She recognized the voice instantly, opening her mouth and gratefully drinking the water down. Jeff sighed, and she cracked open one eye to look at him, proceeding to gasp and choke on her water. Both of them panicked, Jeff apologizing profusely as she sputtered, coughing.
"Jeff--What happened to you?" He blinked, gaping for a second, then looked down, rubbing his neck. "That's...a long story. But I'm okay, alright--?" She groaned, reaching out and slapping his arm, and he jumped, looking at her bewildered and almost looking like a kicked puppy.
"You are not, stupid. Those need stitches. My god, Jeff, you're a disaster. I love you though." She laughed faintly, and he blinked, flushing and perking up. "Heh, I--I guess so, yeah." They smiled at each other, and he looked awkwardly off to the side.
"....So, do you know how to do stitches?"
"....Shit."
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Jane: (notes)
- 15 (At time of incident.) 5'9", broad, naturally more muscular. Hair was burnt off and has scarring all over face and head and scattered down body.
- Lesbian, butch but not masc presenting
- Jeff and her just furiously rub their two braincells together to figure problems out
- Has PTSD, OCD, ADHD, Autism, compulsive tendencies, mild hypochondria, and general anxiety disorder.
- Knows karate, almost graduated fully before accident
- Helps Jeff with murder shit
- Neither of them know how to cook and they basically exclusively eat like, pasta and canned ravioli and takeout food
- Loves to read, steals books constantly
- Compulsive girl lover and flirts with Every Single Woman
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jamiebluewind · 4 years
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D20 Riz, Gorgug, and Ragh
Dear god you just asked for a bunch of um didn't you!? XD
Riz
Favorite thing about them: How much he's grown as a person. He's gone from someone who viewed friends as just something to make people comfortable to help him solve mysteries to willingly giving up all his secrets to the enemy to save his friend's life! 
Least favorite thing about them: For all his skills, he can be a little oblivious at times.  
Favorite line: oh god. There are so many good ones! (to Fabian) "Don't tell anyone about this! I'm doing this because of you! You figured it out. We need to go in his ass! Fabian and Riz... Don't worry Fabian. I'll do it for both of us!", (to Kalvaxus) "I don't know how long it's gonna take me, but I'm gonna eat YOU bitch", and (to Calina) "I dont think now is the time to get nostalgic. I wanna know that my friends are okay. My father's already gone. If you want information, you would have to... I would need to know that they were safe. "
brOTP: with Adaine. They are the braincells of the group. I also like with Fabian both romantic and platonic.
OTP: with Fabian. My favorite romantic ship in Fantasy High ^_^
nOTP: with Biz (also Kristen, but that's more because I always try to respect canon sexualities)
Random headcanon: goblins can eat anything, but their dietary needs are similar to grasshopper mice. Riz is actually tall for a goblin at 4 foot tall, but seems short due to his friend group. 
Unpopular opinion: I think Riz is neurodivergent and either has mild autism, OCD, and/or ADHD. It explains his love of coffee (it can help neurodivergent people focus and is often used to replace meds in younger people), his fixations, his issues in social situations and trouble making friends, and his difficulty keeping a sleep schedule. I have OCD, my best friend has mild autism, and I have friends and relatives with ADHD and I see a lot of what we deal with in him.
Song i associate with them: Hand In My Pocket by Alanis Morissette and Tiptoe by Imagine Dragons
Favorite picture of them. As there are very few canon pieces (and no animated gifs when I search for any of the characters), I'm just gonna link a couple of my favorite fanarts for each ^_^
Gorgug
Favorite thing about them: His kindness and empathy. He's a barbarian sure, but he uses all his agressive energy to protect the people he cares about and the rest of the time he strives to be this pure being of understanding and good.
Least favorite thing about them: His shoes and matching socks. Not even kidding. That color is terrible even among pink. I don't know if it's worse if he bought them that way or they somehow got stained that color!
Favorite line: "Are you my dad", (to Ragh) "It's okay to think that you're your own dad," and (to the Owlbear while flying and screaming) "Fight me in the skys!"
brOTP: with Fig
OTP: with Zelda and/or Ragh
nOTP: with Fig
Random headcanon: The fight with Biz aged him 2 years. His tusks only poke out of his mouth when he smiles.
Unpopular opinion: I think Zelda was a bit unfair to Gorgug. If he still sees himself as an awkward loser despite being on the bloodrush team and a rock star, then he probably has social anxiety and self esteem issues that need to be addressed. He rushed off and forgot to say goodbye to her, but he did message her the night before and never got a response, so it could have been misinterpreted as needing space. The stop at the mall wasn't just because there was time, but to try and find their missing friends. I don't think anyone should be mad at either of them though because they are just teenagers trying their best.
Song i associate with them: People by AWOLNATION, All Star by Smash Mouth, and Monster by Dev
Favorite picture of them
Ragh
Favorite thing about them: his level of baby gay. He has basically nuked his closet from space and I love it. Also, how much love he has for his mom.
Least favorite thing about them: his level of hoot growl
Favorite line: "Let's do it! I'M GAY NOW!!!" (while leaping up to attack Kalvaxus after he got kissed at prom). He has other great lines, but THAT is my favorite.
brOTP: with Tracker or Fabian
OTP: with Gorgug (or maybe Fabian)
nOTP: with Dayn
Random headcanon: His room was so overflowing with pride stuff and bloodrush stuff that some of it migrated to the rest of the house. He totally brought a few Owlbear and rainbow items with him on the mission.
Unpopular opinion: That it is possible to say Hoot Growl! too much.
Song i associate with them: ...I honestly can't think of any please help! I even listened to my music on shuffle for a while and nothing came up that worked O_O
Favorite picture of them:
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