#what if i cry about her FOREVER

[timeskip]

Imagine being Akane Kurashiki, 12 years old, and you get visions of the future and it's of you ruining people's lives to save yourself. Would that fuck you up. Would you feel loved by yourself. Would you look at your future self, 9 years later, hurting these people because she loves you so much, and be able to forgive yourself for it? And of course it's not JUST you who's trying to save yourself--she's just setting up the pieces to save you, knowing that you're going through nearly unimaginable horrors in two realities at once, because she is you. She's the reason you can see both past and present, and she's the only one who can understand, and she will do anything to save you. To save herself.

#zero escape #zero escape spoilers #akane kurashiki #what if i cry about her FOREVER #999

[demigod-of-the-agni]

FF7 REBIRTH SPOILERS ft A THEORY OF MINE

"Emptiness"

I may be reading too deep into this but bear with me. Sephiroth doing his damned best to reinforce that Cloud is nothing, that everything he feels his fake, that he's a puppet pulled along by Sephiroth's strings with no real purpose of his own. "Your tears are empty" is a line that really stands out to me, because Sephiroth insinuates that Cloud isn't a person and has no true substance as an individual. He's a shell.

Then much later, in the dream-esque Sleeping Forest, Aerith wants to spend one of their final moments focusing on Cloud, focusing on "finding the real [him]". Then Cloud hands Holy to Aerith, and she gifts him the clear materia in return, presumably having taken up Holy before she leaves. Aerith theorised earlier in the game that Holy was probably powered by her memories and dreams, and having lost them to the Whispers, to fate, has rendered the materia useless.

Basically, Cloud aptly describes not-Holy with, "It looks empty".

An empty man holding onto an empty materia.

I don't know, man. The thing about being given an empty thing after being told and tortured with the idea that you yourself are an empty thing is getting to me.

Part 3 is most likely going to deal with the fallout of Cloud's broken psyche and piecing him back together to "find the real [him]". I'm theorising not-Holy is only restored once Cloud has finally figured out who he is and what he wants to do.

Because materia isn't just the crystallisation of mako and the Lifestream. It's the physical representation of hopes and dreams and desires. The Black Materia was created to deliver the Gi from their unending existence. The White Materia ensures the prayers of the planet are answered.

And now not-Holy belongs to Cloud, so that whatever he finds in himself will fuel not-Holy and provide it with new purpose, maybe even allow him to finally heal after over two decades of suffering, because as Aerith said, "it's about saving the world — and you"

That is all

#ff7 rebirth spoilers #HOLLERING UNTIL I GET GIVEN FF7R PART 3 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO WAIT FOR YEARS #GENUINELY SO DISTRAUGHT OVER THIS GAME. FUCK #“maybe aerith doesn't die!!! maybe cloud saves her!!!!” oh sweet summer child past agni we got something even MORE CONFUSING #this has been on my mind all night. couldn't stop thinking about this. and also the fact that cloud needs cognitive reconstruction surgery #YEAH SO MATERIA JUST BEING THE SOLIDIFICATION OF NOT JUST MAKO AND THE LIFESTREAM #BUT ALSO THE DESIRES OF THE SOUL #YOU ARE HOLDING THE PUREST ASPECTS OF YOURSELF IN YOUR OWN HANDS #YEAH. ANYONE ELSE THINK ABOUT THAT #im going to cry about this forever now. and think about clerith...... fairwell #cloud strife #aerith gainsborough #ff7 rebirth #ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 rebirth

[hecksupremechips]

Details that make me FERAL

#aitsf #ai the somnium files #kaname date #mizuki date #AGHHHHH LIKE #I CRY EVERY GODDAMN TIME I THINK OF THEM #ive played the date somnium like. a bit too much 👉👈 #its just. they love each other so much you know 🥺 #and just like. mizukis parents do not give a single shit about her at all #and date cares quite a lot for her and wants to be the Ultimate Dad #but renju specifically asks for him to not do the parent responsibilities since renju wants to do that himself #but he doesnt even bother with most of it so for a long time date is in this shitty position where like #he knows what he should do and he would do anything to make mizuki happy but he doesnt have the permission #and he doesnt think hes a worthy father for mizuki #and then the date somnium is just Mizuki realizing and affirming that date IS her family #he IS what she needs and she wants to stay with him forever #the mizuki route shouldve been the true route ill be petty about this forever 😤 #yeah these clowns are my favorite characters ever im so sorry nirvana did that to yall

[binah-beloved]

mmm... distorted Binah

#project moon #lobotomy corporation #library of ruina #binah #binah lobcorp #binah library of ruina #i think they should've added a third bad ending where everyone in the library distorts after seeing the futility of their actions #is it possible? probably not. do i still like thinking about it? yes #make everyone despair. all of them. every single one #even the strongest. make them cry and weep and tear at their hair when they realize what they've lost and what they'll never get back #obviously binah's distorted firm will have bird-like aspects #she'd take most after big bird #a monster prowling a floor of dark trees and distant stars #looking for a certain someone to wrap in her wings and protect forever

[sysig]

When you weren’t looking (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Marceline #Fionna and Cake #Simon Petrikov #Just casually crying at my own art while I make it no biggie #Just ahhhh they do love each other! They want what's best for each other! But they missed each other so much!! And they still are!! #Both that they miss each other in the sense that they're lonely while together - Simon's Marceline was a child and Marcy's Simon was well #Not Ice King but also kinda yeah - and she'll never see him again #It's gotten be bittersweet #It's good that he has his mind! Very good! But he is forever un-changed/re-changed #I think it's canon that Simon was returned to being in his early 30s because Golb ate his age post him getting the crown? #It's not a retcon obviously lol but it's like his future has been retconned canonically in himself that's Gotta feel weird #But it basically undid the Simon that Marceline knew - the man who raised her was un-done even though they both remember him #Both of them just have to not think too hard about it probably :') #But even not thinking about that - Simon is still getting older! He's aging like a normal human again! And everything that comes with that #I love his crow's feet a lot <3 And his hair streak is so chic how did his genes know he would look so cute haha ♪ #Poor both of them - I do want them to be happy! They've just got so much sad! #I also think it's quite funny that all those years ago before I watched AT Marceline was the one fanart I made haha - the more things change #Still drawing her! I wonder if younger me would be surprised #I like her short hair :D Her long hair is lovely - all her hairstyles are lovely! - but the short hair is so cute #Really reminds me of her kid hairstyle ;u; I'm sure that doesn't hurt Simon at all haha #I draw it a lot like Tala's hairstyle as well haha - it's The Kid hairstyle!

[good-beanswrites]

I already brought this up, but for quicker reference:

Order of Attack: Mahiru nightmare sequence about Kotoko's attacks. Gotta round out the guilty trio.

Feel free to not prioritize this. :D

LISTEN, I CAN'T BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THE ANGST THAT YOU REQUEST (<- made myself sad over Mappi and worries I may be in trouble for this one). Obligatory "I don't hate Kotoko and think she's very complex but from these character's pov I had to make her solely scary I'm sorry." And of course I was prioritizing this 👀👀👀 I really loved your nightmare sequences, I tried to make one that completed the set but was still unique!! Thank you for the request >:3

TW for referencing her bf's suicide, and descriptions of the attack injuries

“Aw, come on, you can tell me~” Yuno turned her attention away from where she’d been helping Mahiru with dinner. “Both Fuuta and Amane have had nightmares about her. Hell, I’ve had a nightmare or two about her. I won’t think you’re a mean person for admitting it.”

“I’m not lying,” Mahiru insisted. Her lips rounded into a little pout.

Yuno studied her expression. The girl had a way of really looking at someone when she wanted to. Sometimes it was a wonderful feeling – her gaze could be full of understanding, warmth. You were seen. You were heard. She saw you for all that you were. 

But in times like these, Mahiru found herself shifting under the pressure of it. Yuno was truly seeing her. She could see how Mahiru’s smile was frozen in its forced shape these past few weeks. She could see the way she flinched at loud noises, or how all the blood drained from her face when Kotoko’s voice echoed from the room next door. In waking, there was no doubt Mahiru was afraid of her. In sleep, though…

Yuno took her hands in both of hers.

“Then… what do you dream about?”

—

Mahiru was in the woods. She was running, her feet bare, her breath hitching. 

At first, she thought she was fleeing something. Danger and death loomed around her. The trees closed in. The canopy plunged her into darkness. The branches reached out to tear at her flowered dress, or snag on her hair. The trees pressed close to suffocate her. She grabbed at her throat. 

At some point, it became clear she was running towards something. A figure came into her view, just ahead. Though he didn’t appear to be running, she couldn’t catch up to him. She had to. He was in danger. She had to get to him. She had to stop him. 

He entered a clearing up ahead. Mahiru could just barely see into it. She tried to scream out, begging him to stop, but no words came out of her wheezing mouth. She could stop everything, she could stop all of this, if only –

She burst through the clearing. The figure, now a young woman, stood in the center. She faced away. 

Mahiru tried again to tell Kotoko to stop, but it didn’t matter whether or not she could speak, now; it was too late. 

On the ground below, between tree roots and scattered leaves, lay two small bodies.  

Mahiru’s hands flew to cover her mouth. Her legs grew weak with horror. There was blood everywhere, and bones bent at wrong angles. Fuuta’s limbs were twisted and limp. Amane had curled herself to cover her face, blood streaming from between her fingers.

 Kotoko, too, had red-stained hands. She surveyed her work with pride.

“What… have you done…?”

Slowly, Kotoko turned. Mahiru wanted to turn around and run before those bloodthirsty eyes could land on her. Her legs stayed frozen in place even as her heart raced in her chest. 

Kotoko met her gaze. Then, she gave a gentle smile.

“Thank you.”

Mahiru stumbled back a few steps.

“You let this happen.” 

“No…”

“You did. You could have stopped this, but you didn’t. Thank you.”

“I-I didn’t –! This isn’t – ! I thought –”

“You knew this was going to happen.” She spoke a familiar name, and Mahiru shook her head violently. “You knew what he was planning. You had plenty of chances to stop him. You didn't. You knew what I was planning. You know how to calm people down, how to bring groups together. But you didn’t speak to me once about it. You wanted this to happen.”

“I didn’t!” She said it frantically, unsure if she was trying to convince Kotoko, the two beaten prisoners, herself, or someone else. “I didn’t.” The statement was true, but it didn’t change anything that Kotoko had said.

The forest closed in. Kotoko reached a hand out, beckoning to her.

“We make a good team, don’t we?”

“No…” 

Mahiru was struck with the thought that she didn’t want to take hold of such a disgusting hand, only to glance down at her own. They were just as slick with blood. She let out a shriek.

It was Amane’s. It was Fuuta’s. It was his. 

Mahiru’s legs finally gave out on her. When she looked up, Kotoko was still smiling.

“So… who will be next?” 

—

Mahiru slipped away from Yuno’s grasp. 

“Oh, don’t you worry about little old me!” She turned back to their work. She brushed her hands off on her apron, giving them an extra swipe for good measure. “I promise, Kotoko isn’t the villain in my dreams.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #kotoko yuzuriha #i kept it in the order i got everything but i was definitely thinking of it nonstop adfsdf #im forever crazy about mahiru's murder-through-inaction theme #since all of the others were pretty direct even if accidental #i firmly believe she knew what her bf was planning and didnt stop him/actively said shed join him because she didnt know how to handle #the situation properly #and if she prides herself so much on being good with people and making friends and bringing people together i wonder if shed feel #responsible for not deescalating kotoko beforehand #plus the more immediate survivors guilt that if she was just in the other room maybe it would have been her and not fuuta/amane #at first i wanted to work in more mv symbols (birds cake carousel horses) because i love wacky and surreal dream sequences #but it got to be distracting when i was planning it out lmao so i decided to stick with the two major trauma moments #vibing on my trip rn but i had just a few lines of this one to finish so i wanted to post it when i had a few minutes... #though now i need to go and pretend im not crying over mappi 😭😭😭😭😭 #drabbles #order of attack #(to go back and make it an official tag later)

[skyward-floored]

I finally completed the Anju and Kafei quest 😭

#spoilers in tags no peeking if you don't want spoilers #rambles from the floor #majora's mask #peggy plays majora's mask #Peggy plays #anyways hhhwwwwwaaauugghghgh #took me forever to remember how to do the parts I'd already done I remembered only pieces #but i finally got to the last bit #I didn't know where Kafei was #I'd looked all over #but I found Anju #and she said she was going to wait for him #so I sat next to her and waited #because I didn't want her to be alone while the world was ending #and right as I was wondering if I should go look for Kafei again and running through what to try in the next cycle THE DOOR CLICKS #AND KAFEI WALKS IN #AND THEY HUG AND THEY DO THE THING AND THE MASK😭 #and I hold off on crying because my siblings were watching but it was a very near thing #and I probably shouldn't be playing this game while I'm already sad/not doing great but #oh well #sniffle. #and anyway there's something weirdly comforting about mm #like it's dark and painful and terrifying #but it's cathartic #and I like that #idk

[siriuslynephilim]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[yououghtaknow]

genuinely kind of terrified as to what will happen to me when i see bare live in three (three!!!!!!!!) days. i will either go fully insane or transcend mortality or perhaps both. either way i will most likely end up full weeping.

#going to see bare with my mother will be on par with seeing deh with her in regards to our [gestures vaguely] relationship #we will hold hands. we will cry. we will have emotionally intense conversations on the walk back to the hotel. #but guys. i genuinely tried to listen to a clip of just an instrumental from the show and teared up. #bare is just. Such a big part of who i am. i literally wouldn't be anything like i am today without it and the people it brought me. #and i laugh and joke but this is Such a full circle moment for tvp nation. #like i am currently about to self-produce a workshop of my play that has professional theatre companies interested. #and all of that started from writing a silly little show about bare when i was 14 to make cool people online laugh. #and since then the plot of bare (peter's version) Has Happened To Me Twice but i have been so so brave about it #i haven't listened to the full soundtrack since last year and i've been going cold turkey in Anticipation #i just Know my ***** is going to have the most insane reactions on it. #god. it's so crazy to me. what if you were gay and catholic and an angsty pop rock punk opera teen and you grew up to be happy. #anyways. in my feels. going to have lunch and listen to bway breakdown before class. #BECAUSE I GO TO A CLASS NOW!!! EXCITING!!! it's for writing and marketing stuff :) which is super helpful and fun #anyways haven't done a tumblr rant in a while. miss you guys in my phone <3 if you're reading this i love you forever mwah

[dreamlogic]

2024 year of charlie gets a fucking break (hopefully. maybe. tbd.)

#ctxt #i'm on medication that's reduced my post-hysterectomy pain by about 70% #i have an intake appointment with a physical therapist in march & a referral to start trigger point injections #to hopefully finally recover as completely as possible from the nightmarish neuropathy that's plagued me since uuuhhhh #going on 2 years ago. holy shit. genuinely can't believe i've been surviving & functioning as well as i have for this long #while suffering a disabling & extremely painful surgical complication. fuck my original surgeon for brushing me off during that time #but the new provider i'm working with is so responsive & thorough in her approach & seems genuinely committed #to helping me finally get relief after all this time. she listens to my feedback & is flexible in her approach #and her assistant is a great communicator who's been handling most of the logistics of care coordination for me #and what a huge fucking relief that is. to not have to drag my doctors kicking & screaming towards maybe treating me eventually #i wanna cry. i finally feel like i'm being taken seriously and cared for. and i'm not BETTER yet (might never be the same as i was pre-op) #but i actually feel optimistic for the first time in over a year that i won't just have to deal with this agonizing pain on my own forever #i might actually see enough improvement that i can start to get back to living my life instead of just surviving it #money is tighter than it's been since i got laid off during early pandemic and that's stressing me out #but i promised myself that i would put my health first in 2024 and that means only working the bare minimum needed to pay my bills for now #genuinely i so fucking needed a break. i felt like i was trying to swim through a meat grinder last year #and it wasn't until i ended up in the ER about it that i finally was able to take my own pain seriously enough #to put my foot down & make some necessary changes that are now letting me focus on Getting Well With Myself at last #in hindsight it's like. really freaking me out how thoroughly i was able to compartmentalize & dissociate from how miserable i was #bc nobody who had the ability to help me would take me seriously & my shitty boss was like. extremely textbook emotionally abusive #and on one hand that was a survival mechanism that kept me on my feet during one of the worst times of my life. so props to myself there #but it was also very maladaptive how long & unnecessarily it went on before i snapped out of it & escalated things for my own safety #it was the same helpless frustration i often felt as a kid of like 'well nobody is on my side but me so i gotta suck it up & help myself' #and i think the family trauma shit that was going on last year definitely contributed to that. idk sense of doubling across time? #and things had to get Extremely Bad before they were bad enough for me to realize that although i felt like it #i am no longer an isolated & parentified island of a child who is beholden to the whims of ignorant & indifferent adults #i actually can and should take action to advocate for myself bc i am an adult and i CAN now change my circumstances as needed #instead of just enduring them as if i'm stuck there with no agency or chance to change things #and i have a really solid support system who helped me feel like it was possible to stand up for myself to get the help i desperately need #chronic blogging

[jonny-b-meowborn]

As time goes by I'm becoming more and more sure that I just can't survive on my own. I can take basic care of myself, but the second I have to go to a doctor or do some formal stuff I get paralyzed. I just can't. Fuck, I can barely even talk to strangers in general. Or even not strangers, I can't fucking text someone back if I'm not close to them, it's just so scary and exhausting. I'm becoming emotionally tired more easily and sometimes even talking with my mom about anything is too much for me and I love my mom. And I really need her, I can't do basic stuff without her pretty much holding my hand all the time. I can't get a normal job. We went to this blueberry plantation a few times but I just couldn't go there without her, and now the job is over and we can't go there at all. If I wasn't such a fucking baby I'd go there a few more times alone and get some money. I can't make calls, there's literally like two people I feel comfortable talking on the phone with. People used to say I was mature for my age when I was younger but I never grew up and now I'm almost 21 and can't do anything with my life. I'm scared of everything, I'm constantly exhausted physically and mentally. I'm like a fucking child. I'm scared that I'm gonna have to live with my mom my whole life. I can't see a future for myself, I'm just not able to survive without help and at some point I won't be able to get help, I don't want to be a parasite living off of my mom's money but I don't see anything else I could do. I hate my brain so much. I hate the way it refuses to work. I hate myself for being such a child.

#you know theres this weird idk. impostor syndrome about me and my autism #like on one hand i know that autism is a disability. but on the other i cant think of myself as disabled #cause im not 'autistic enough'. because i can keep myself fed and clean and healthy and alive as long as im provided with everything i need #but then i have a full on breakdown because my new laptop doesnt work and i have to go to the store to have it checked/replaced #i wanna throw up just thinking about it #i cant do anything without my moms help #i wanna throw up and cry and die when theres too much happening around me. i cant survive in the real world. i just can't #i cant get a job or a partner or go to college or move out or even just fucking. go to a store and ask for help with my laptop. #i feel like im destined to live w my mom forever and not achieve anything and die alone #i keep talking about wanting to make a living with my art but thats bullshit. i do want that but i know it's not possible for me #i cant even fucking finish the commissions i already have. im scared to get new ones. im scared to do anything. #my brain refuses to let me work on anything #and yeah i am burnt out after my diploma and exams and all that but at some point i just have to admit im not built for that. for anything. #im built to live like a parasite baby and die #my mom is too good of a person to kick me out but i wouldnt blame her. im useless. i cant make money. i cant take care of myself #i dont know what to do #bee buzz

[cookinguptales]

*googles to make sure The Mommy Market wasn't just a fever dream*

huh. I guess that movie really did exist.

#file that under movies that straight-up terrified me as a kid #it was about three kids that magically get rid of their mom #then go to a magical mommy market where they can pick out new moms #predictably the new moms are much less fun than they seem #but they can't get their original mom back and they're all crying and stuff #like obviously they get her back eventually but this movie instilled a sort of primal terror in me as a kid lmao #the concept of it really freaked me out #this idea that you could just... trade in family members if you didn't like them #would my parents trade me in??? would I decide to trade them in and lose them forever??? #they would never even remember that they HAD a kid if they got rid of me by this movie's rules ;; #people talk about what a existential horror rent-a-kid was but no one ever talks about the mommy market #fucked up movie lmao

[aeirithgainsborough]

imagine if part 2 had been about ellie learning her life DOES matter, regardless of her immunity, and that’s why joel saved her and then lied to her about it. yes, there was selfishness in it, but there was also selflessness in it. it’s so rare to get one without the other. he cared for her he loved her of course he didn’t want her to die! but think about the things he says to her, after the giraffe scene, that she doesn’t have to do this and how she reveals the burden on her shoulders - that it all has to matter. that’s so much for a kid and it should never have been on her.

think about when he tells her you have to find something to survive for at the end, when she’s grappling with survivors guilt when it was never on her that people died and it certainly wasn’t on her to save the world. think about when he tells her that if he had a second chance at that moment, he’d do it all over again. like really think about it. that moment led to their estrangement. it led to her telling him they were done. he has to see her from afar living her life. but that’s the point. she lives a life. she grows up safe. she has friends. she’s happy. and despite the pain of losing another daughter, he’d do it all again, the heartache and the pain, because she got to live a life. the lie was for them both. he wanted to keep her in his life but he also wanted to lift the weight of the world off her shoulders, the burden she felt that at 14 years old she had to save the world or her life wouldn’t matter.

but her life always mattered. this special, funny, loving, determined, fighter of a girl always mattered just for her. ellie’s life was worth something and not just because she’s immune. joel saw that in their year of travelling together. and he made a choice and told a lie because he saw that. because she deserved to live. i just wish we’d got her realising it too in part 2, instead of what we did get. she deserved better. she deserved that rather than ending up alone and still feeling like her life lacked any meaning because she didn’t die to save the world.

#im sorry i just hate the notion joel was purely motivated for himself #that it was JUST selfish reasons #ppl are more complicated than that and they can be both #i wish ellie had gone on some sort of a journey that led her to knowing she always mattered just as joel knew #i think about the birthday surprise scene and how he looks at her in that spaceship #she’s his whole world because of who SHE is not because of her immunity #and it just devastates me what it was all boiled down to in part 2 #and that ellie can’t see her life matters #crying just writing his honestly ill never be the same again bcus of them ill be insane abt them forever #tlou1 #tlou2 #the last of us spoilers

[oatm3al-c00kies]

meant to post this forever ago but here we r SO:

if i hear one more person say something about feminine rage in relation to ellie killing david i might riot. that was not “feminine rage”. that was fear and adrenaline and maybe definitely some hatred, but don’t erase the fact that she was fucking terrified in that scene because i feel like as ppl are talking about “ooh feminine rage she was so powerful you go girl” they’re also not talking about the fact that this might not have felt like a super empowering moment for her and it wasn’t really an active choice. like yeah maybe it turned into rage once she knew he wouldn't be able hurt her again, but it did Not start as anger or rage and i stand by that. it started as a little girl scared for her life and knowing that if she hit him hard enough and enough times he wouldn't be able to hurt her and she might be able to make it out alive. she wasnt like... fuming in that scene or after it, she was still scared. the close up we get of her face at the end of it? she looks horrified and in shock at what almost just happened and what she did. like yes i’m all for the rage and revenge and the fact that she was able to fucking destroy the shit out of david because he deserves that and worse but also... it was self defense. that wasn’t a conscious choice based solely on rage it was also based on terror.

#feminine rage this feminine rage that what about primal instinct and fear taking over in a survival situation #hot take but i really dont understand how people were cheering her on in that scene #like wdym you weren’t sitting there in tears??? ‘omg i went from happy to crying in 2 seconds when joel found her’ yoU WERE HAPPY???? #cheering and celebrating as she does the thing that literally scars her forever and (along with the rest of the #david situation as a whole) takes away any innocence she had left?? #anywayyssss just ma thoughts #the last of us hbo #tlou hbo #tlou #the last of us #the last of us episode 8 #tlou ep8 #ellie williams #bella ramsey #does this make sense? hopefully this makes sense

[twixfamily]

This panel is so meaningful in Twilight coming to terms with his own childhood trauma. It’s clear throughout the series that he distances himself from Anya “for the sake of the mission”, but in reality he can’t admit to the pain he faced as a child.

Anya chose a skeleton as her treat. It is a “morbid spectacle”, and one that mirrors his own decision to join the army as soon as possible. He tampered down his own stress by inflicting the pain he felt on the “enemy”, and Anya being drawn to that specific keychain suggests her flippancy for violence.

The line “Did I not see it, or did I not want to see it?” shows his reluctance to acknowledge the similarities between their lives. Had Twilight admitted earlier that Anya’s time alone was so detrimental to her emotions he would need to address the deep seated trauma that the loss of his family caused him.

He’s finally forced to confront a surrogate of his own experience and struggles to give her the affection she needs to be a happy and healthy kid, because that would be an admission of the impact his childhood had on him throughout his adolescence and into adulthood.

#i could go on forever about the parallels between twilight and anya #he also thinks that anya is 6 (the age he lost his mom) so that adds another layer to it #i’ll probably also make a post about the eden interview when twilight lost it after seeing anya cry for her mother #he knows what that loss means and refuses to tell anya to calm down and act like everything is fine #buuuuut that’s for another time lol #spy x family #twilight spy x family #loid folger #anya forger #spy x family manga spoilers

[marshmelonfluff]

also i have doubts that they would have tai feature heavily in a volume again but i really want him to meet up with the gang in vauco bc i want ruby to get a hug from her dad. please. just let this girl get a good cry in about everything she's been through and have her dad hug her afterwards

#rwby #rwby spoilers #like ik its not gonna happen but in my head i want rwby+j to crash their own funerals and have their tearful reunions #(nora must tackle hug jaune i just know it) #and then yang just shoves ruby at tai and qrow like PLEASE TALK TO HER ABOUT SELF WORTH #and ruby's all 'no i'm fine it's okay!' and wbyj just. looks at her. and yang just says 'please for me' and ruby relents #and just. lays everything on her dad who hugs her and crys with her and tells her she did everything she could and hes proud #and qrow can pat her on the head and tell her that it may feel like everything thats gone wrong is her fault but its not #please let this girl get some emotional support from the two adults she can trust at all PLEASE let this girl hug her dad and her uncle #i know she chose herself and had her realization that ruby rose is enough but i think it would help for her to hear that #from the two men she admired as a child #anyways. thats my little fanon thing thatll live forever in my head until we get vol 10 #and afterwards she can talk to weiss yang blake about her breakdown and get reassurance from her team again and everybody hugs hooray #seriously though if nora doesnt see jaune and immediately sprint towards him at full speed to tackle him to the ground in a hug #immediately followed by ren who hugs them both as everyone cries then WHAT is the point