#which should be the next step but...

[lenievi]

“Jim.”

The man stepped down from the transporter pad, and the Captain moved toward him, embracing him in his arms with a pleased, “Bones.”

Spock clasped his hands behind his back, straightening. The hug lasted eight seconds. It seemed a bit excessive.

When the Captain told him that the new ship’s surgeon was his personal friend for many years, Spock’s first thought was to tell him that he considered it a bad idea. Surrounding oneself with close friends on a mission where anything could happen, where their lives were in danger every day, did not seem very logical. He said nothing and hoped the doctor’s fate would not follow the one of Gary Mitchell, which hurt the Captain deeply.

-

“Captain. The way you let Doctor McCoy act toward you is disrespectful and improper,” Spock said two weeks later during one of their chess matches.

The Captain blinked at him. “Improper?”

“He questions your authority, never addresses you properly, and you yourself allow it with the use of the overfamiliar moniker.”

The Captain continued watching him with a baffled expression, mouthing “overfamiliar moniker”.

“Furthermore, the crew started to question the nature of your relationship.”

“And we can’t have that, can we, Mister Spock?” 

Spock understood the words as humorous, but the Captain’s eyes weren’t laughing.

-

The next time Doctor McCoy visited the bridge, the Captain greeted him with, “Hey, Doc.”

It felt somewhat mocking, and Spock could not shake off the impression that McCoy was glaring at Spock’s back, trying to burn a hole there.

He refused to turn around.

-

“Jim, they won’t hurt the doctor.”

The Captain stopped pacing. “I thought you said the use of my first name was improper and disrespectful.”

“I did not say that… exactly.”

“You sound like McCoy now.”

“There is no reason to be insulting, Captain.”

The Captain sighed. “Look, Spock. I don’t know what your problem with McCoy is…”

“There is no problem, sir. The Doctor’s behavior simply does not fit a Starfleet vessel and can cause distraction.”

“Did it cause a distraction?”

“Not yet,” Spock conceded.

“When…” The Captain cleared his throat. “When McCoy comes back, the next time he’s on the bridge, watch the crew, Mister Spock.”

-

Spock did as told.

McCoy did not only speak to the Captain. He’d stop at Lieutenant Uhura’s panel to talk to her, leaving her smiling. He’d ask Lieutenant Sulu about one of his many hobbies. He’d talk to everyone, addressing all of them by their names, leaving them relaxed and more open to joking with each other during the long voyages from one place to another that humans tended to find tedious and tiring.

It reminded him of Captain Pike, who’d take that role on himself. Perhaps the last year and two months at Kirk’s side made him forget something important.

-

McCoy would talk to everyone but Spock.

-

“Any time you can bluff me, Doctor!”

Spock turned toward the captain’s chair. The whole bridge was looking at Kirk in confusion and bewilderment. Spock wasn’t petty enough to remind the captain that this was what he’d meant when he talked about distractions.

He could tell the Captain understood anyway.

And to Spock’s surprise, so did McCoy. His demeanor deflated, and he oozed embarrassment, moving away from the chair, subdued, his hands curled into fists.

And yet, Kirk and McCoy’s uncommon disagreement turned out not to be a distraction at all. Somehow, it gave the Captain an idea. An absurd, illogical idea. But as Spock learned during his time serving with Kirk, sometimes it took such an idea to get them out of a predicament.

“However, it was well played,” Spock acknowledged, and in order to further lighten the mood on the bridge, he continued, “I regret not having learned more about this Balok. In some manner, he was reminiscent of my father.”

“Then may heaven have helped your mother,” Scott quipped.

“Quite the contrary. She considered herself a very fortunate Earth woman.”

-

Perhaps he did judge the nature of Kirk and McCoy’s friendship wrong, he thought as he watched McCoy step close to Kirk and touch his arm in apology.

“Doc… sorry,” Kirk said, and Spock wondered if the moniker “Bones” would ever make a reappearance.

-

When McCoy invited him for a group poker a few days later, Spock did not refuse.

He wisely didn’t react after Kirk kept calling McCoy “Bones” throughout the game. After the fifth time, he caught McCoy’s exasperated look. 

Maybe the two of them could find an understanding.

#star trek tos #spock #jim kirk #leonard mccoy #my writing #look i'm proud of myself for writing this within a couple of hours without questioning anything - this is raw me lol #i just wrote whatever and kept going #it's also not edited #which should be the next step but... #james t kirk #you can probably read this as pre #spones #i guess #it’s not far away from the way i typically imagine their beginnings in fics #or just purely gen #(or if you want to imagine mccoy and kirk in a secret relationship you can do that too lol)

[front-facing-pokemon]

#i really don't know what to do with the placements of these galarian forms with how fucked up the galar dex is #well shit i guess cursola has a natdex number‚ doesn't it? fuck. lemme look for it real quick 'cause #if i'm going purely natdex and ignoring regional forms then technically cramorant should come next #but this one came before sandaconda in the. galar dex #UUUGHHH HOLD ON #cursola is natdex 864. compared to sandaconda which is 844. this should be like 20 later #but it's going here because idk what the fuck is happening #and also i already made this post so you get it now #cursola fans rejoice. but like. galarian weezing? that doesn't have its own natdex number but i can't find a model for it anywhere #so cramorant is next?? ugh. pokémon company step up your game please #cursola

[taikanyohou]

there's an alternate reality where this vegas:

and this pete:

most definitely fuck.

#i have a scenario in my head where the bodyguard disperse to find porsche and as vegas is heading out back to main foyer area #he bumps into pete and pete just looks at him with disgust and knows vegas is Upto Some Shit and porsche disappearing is bc of him #and vegas who's already Mad does not need pete to be looking at him like that so he spits out a 'what the fuck are you staring at?' #and pete just cuts to the chase and asks vegas 'where the fuck is he i know you're upto some shit.' and vegas just smirks and says 'who?' #whilst he steps closer to him until he's trapped pete up against a wall and leans into his ear and says 'who pete?' #and pete spits back in vegas' face how 'i know you've got your eyes on him. don't think i haven't been watching your every move.' #and at first it feels like a bucket of ice water has been thrown on vegas but then he composes himself and says #'why? are you jealous?' at which pete just scoffs. and then vegas tries again and says 'or do you like what you see? the thrill of it? #eyeing me just to see what i do next?' #and pete doesnt respond. just bites the inside of his cheek. bc there is a thrill to it #but he is not gonna give vegas the satisfaction. and yet all vegas has to do is look at pete as he clenches his jaw and he gets his answer #and then vegas just rakes his eyes all over pete's body and says 'you've never looked so good'. #and pete isnt gonna get distracted by the fact that vegas of all people is telling him this. so he asks again 'where is he?' #and vegas just tuts and steps even closer and presses their bodies together and says 'fuck him. i'm talking about us. #stop being so fucking good all the time pete. doesnt it get tiring?' #and pete's trying to stay focused on the task at hand here and he knows exactly what vegas is doing as vegas carries on saying #'don't you wanna be bad sometimes pete? what if i let you be that with me? no one has to know.' #and the invitation sounds so tempting. the prospect of it. that he should be with kinn doing his job but instead he's fucking his cousin #and just being the centre of attention for once. being vegas' centre of attention .... it makes pete's toes curl. #and vegas glances down at pete's mouth that's fallen slightly open. and its so pretty. so pretty that he has to touch it. and as he does #pete opens his mouth wider and vegas runs his thumb along pete's entire bottom lip. and he can feel pete breathing hard. #'you want this.' vegas says. 'look how you open up your mouth for me so pretty to have more.' #and now vegas is calling him pretty too and pete's resolve is breaking brick by brick until he moans when vegas wraps his hand around his #throat and vegas says 'i wanna taint you so bad that you'd have to wear this to cover the bruises on your neck. and the next time i see you #i'd do it all over again.' and pete asks in a barely there voice 'next time?' and vegas smirks and leans into pete's ear and says #'if its what you want. because i do. i wanna see you be bad for me. just for me. i want you to come to me only. for me only.' #and then vegas bites down on the skin there making pete clutch onto vegas' blazer and as divine as vegas looks pete wants to rip it off. #and just as he's about to do something about it vegas steps back leaving pete's arm mid air. and pete hates that. and vegas sees it all #over his face and says 'what do you say pete? you either leave with me right now or you can go back and be the good little boy they think #you are.' and vegas holds out his hand. and no one's ever treated pete like this before. so he takes it. and lets vegas take him.

[agenttexsflippedshit]

In an effort to spend less time on doom scrolling and falling prey to buying dumb shit I don’t need, I’m trying to get into new hobbies and make new art and just like. Be a better version of myself. And yeah rn the progress is looking like “spend an hour getting lost in the bobbin lace tags while watching a show at 1.25 speed” but there’s a project on the pillow and I’m excited to make progress.

This is also a roundabout way of regretfully informing my friends here that I’m watching one piece.

#watching this show is v much like running a mile #where you keep your head up and focus on the next step instead of ruminating on how much further you have to go #but also I am at the base (85 episodes in) of an expansive mountain (some 1000+ episodes) #also I restarted doom and borderlands 2 so I should be playing those tbh #also also I go to the gym more! and I’ve got a personal trainer that I’m seeing once a week #which is like the most bougie thing in my life rn but I justify it bc my job reimbursed 50% of my gym costs #wow yknow these mood stabilizers are actually working. huh. #realizations that hit in the middle of a tag monologue #can’t wait to tell her about this shit

[deus-ex-mona]

wh. when they sing “i’m here”—

#ngl i want sth along the lines of ‘koko dayo’/‘i’m here for you’ to be lxl’s relationship keyphrase of sorts #kinda like ariken’s sukiyabai yk #if i got $1 every time lxl sang ‘koko dayo’ in a romantic-coded song i’d have $2. which isn’t much but it’s funny that it happened twice— #it’s almost 7 in the am… i should go to sleep… #4 more pages of the next chapter of idol sengen to go… 1 step closer to mitsuki’s intro… #ok gn (or gm ig bc i think the sun is rising lol) #染BODY ONCE TOLD ME—

[redstrewn]

You might have luck striking a conversation with her with an obscure snack. What would you give her? 🍴

#touchstarved game #redstrewn art #character bio #nava #i died drawing this btw #im actually scrapping this pre prologue outfit bc baby that shoulder accessory aint it #why does she have no bandages??? i forgot and then i got lazy #touchstarved art style got me high bc wow finally art of mine that i fuckin love #but also i was crying bc this shit was a huge step up my usual shit art style #its an amazing learning experience though. my skill really improved. red spring studio art team u r fucking amazing #if u read this far might as well ask u: whose route do u think she'd take? alternatively which route do you think she SHOULD take? #btw the raised shoulder pads are insp by the filipiniana dress #also does anyone know if tumblr allows spicy shit yet im tryna draw leander sussy next #I MISCOUNTED I THOUGHT THE BIOS HAD SIX THINGS IN THE LIKES . ITS ONYLY SUPPOSED TO BE FIVE. SORRY #touchstarved mc

[casismybestfriend]

i did it… i finally finished the english->arabic course

only took me three years give or take 😅

#well. until the next update hopefully #bc imo this course is very limited #it only teaches two tenses and it doesn’t even touch on the dual pronouns or any of that #and it’s quranic/classical so you learn all the short vowels which doesn’t help you learn colloquial arabic #which makes sense as an msa course but still #and all of the helpful grammar charts and vocab lists are hidden or only found on the pc format which is super inconvenient #they also need to make changes on the last few units or so bc those were just dozens of the same few lessons each time #and it was very annoying to not be learning anything new for a large chunk of this course #ever since the last update removing the tree it all got messed up and claimed i made further progress than i actually did #so. next step i should probably get proper grammar books and avtually practice with my colleagues #duolingo #languages #arabic #my posts

[jinhyun]

💌

#so um. i'll be taking a small hiatus from tumblr during march starting today #something kinda big is coming which i don't wanna jinx lol but yeah i need to step away for a bit #watercolor isn't being put on hold or anything i promise i'll finish it as soon as i can please don't forget about it 😭😭 #(if i happen to have an inspiration rush you better bet i'll be coming back to post the next part lmao but yeah so far it should be up— #—in april. maybe (hopefully) the first week of it) #also all the comissions i have left have been asked to be sent via email so i'll be contacting you guys over there!! #but yeah a lot is going on in my life rn and i can't manage with everything sadly kdñsks so that's it so far ;-; #see you guys in april ily 🥲💖

[devilsskettle]

things i’m trying to do for my life to be better summer 2023 edition —

-> exercise 3x a week at least

-> eat protein

-> find easy recipes with few ingredients so i’ll actually be consistent about cooking actual meals for myself

-> less caffeine: no caffeine on non-work days or after 3 pm

-> habit stacking

-> no phone in the morning (admittedly a challenge because it helps my brain wake up but at what cost)

-> california sober

-> read Something

-> fruit

-> hydrate

-> being consistent about doing the dishes + laundry

-> slowly but surely getting my room together in a way that is fit for human habitation

-> i am a body before i am a mind so i need to prioritize my physical needs

-> traveling as much as i can afford to

#framing these things as trying to make my Life better instead of just trying to Be better is helping also #and being flexible about how i’m achieving these goals also and forgiving to myself if i don’t do everything on this list every day #because i’m not going to be able to do that lol and it’s fine #2023 #anyway i do think i am doing well with a lot of these things! which is progress #what i actually need to start working on now is the next steps of my career #somebody hold me at gun point and force me to apply to these certificate programs #also i should probably make an appointment with a psychiatrist to refill my meds #but i haven’t taken them in a hot minute since i ran out and i’m feeling good so idk maybe i don’t need to do that #maybe that’s the devil talking but i want to see if i can manage my symptoms with these lifestyle changes before i go back to meds

[redpiperfox]

But mainly, and really:

#red's week in music #STORYTIME WITH RED GATHER ROUND KIDDOS! #was at kids club tonight and went in knowing little 8 year olds mom had her baby this morning and lil girl was now big sis if two #and knew she hadnt come from home bc her hair was a mess of someone who didnt know curls trying to do it lol #shes generally emotional and dramatic but we can all see that shes a lil more so tonight. understandably. lotsa change #well she kinda hinges on this one thing of not getting the verses said to earn a jewel bc she wasnt able to say them-- totally fine! we'll #practice and get them later! but shes distraught bc she worked on them with mum and wont get jewel so i keep telling her when we'll work on #them together and when ill listen to her and we can get it done. cool. then lesson time shes up and down sniffly and the lesson says smth #about childbirth-- bursts into disarray. i ask her if she wants to step out and we blow her nose and she keeps talking about the verse so i #tell her solutions for that and then shes working herself up so i work thru calming down and she goes from #“i think im mad” to “mom would let me do what i want!” and i know the real issue isnt the verse but thats what shes telling me so... #adult shes staying with cautiously steps in and she calms down to tell me “its not the verse... i think i miss my mom” #oh my heart i know honey i give her a hug and we talk about the sleeover shes going to have and when shes going to see mom #and shes sleeping next to lil sis so shes going to give sis a big hug and tell her theyre going to see mom in the morning #and then i ask her if she wants to go back and she does and i just hold her and hug her the whole time #i give her another squeeze when she leaves and tell her to enjoy her sleepover #her friend shes staying with i should not did a very sweet of coming over and saying “hey lookit this new book i got do you wanna color it #with me maybe?“ which was such an emotionally mature thing for her and to see lil kiddo cheer up warmed me #teachers we debriefed and talked about kids going thru stuff at home and not being able to tell and process their emotions and stuff #and then i shared with mum on the ride back and she goes “yup. lil toddler will just miss mom-- its trauma at this age. this is why i #panicked and called my mother to come for your sis's birth bc dad said he could handle you but my heart couldnt for what you would go thru.“ #i was six when my sister was born. my grandma being there before consistently made me giddly excited in that time waiting for dad to bring #us to the hospital. #anyway my heart was full and im praying extra hard for two lil girls in a sleepover missing their mom tonight. #red's personal sitcom #Spotify

[jaedoesart]

This goddamn textbox will haunt my nightmares i swear

#coding is hard waaa #i THINK i got the ''present item'' mechanic working #so now my next step is the interrogation system #which SHOULD be simple enough #considering it's just a long string of dialogue with item presentations sprinkled in #but man I don't wanna #i keep procrastinating by revamping the UI but i need to actually start making progress [sobs] #i also gotta fix the evidence screen bc it is VERY borked at the moment #that's a lie it's not that bad #I just didn't know how to do hover text at the time that I coded it so it doesn't quite work the way I want it to #i also want to redo the entire pause menu bc I've decided I hate the folder layout #i wanna make it like #a tablet or smth #idk

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

ok so if i can't tell the truth about how i feel because that's mean and i can't be passive agressive then literally what is left. how do i communicate that she has hurt me and that it hurts more that she doesn't even seem to realise it without either sounding like a complete bitch or a petty bitter bitch........

#YES this is the same friend #just texted me like ''oh i'm so sorry i never let u know when i was free'' (she has had literally three months to do this) #''i've just been so busy :('' (she's been meeting up with other people constantly) #''when do you move to [REDACTED]? i've been meaning to go there so maybe it would be a shout'' #(girl u haven't been able to schedule a time to travel five minutes to see me in the past TWO YEARS!!! #as IF you're going five hours on the fucking train all the way to [REDACTED]!!!!!) #that's what i WANT to say to her #but my mind is going NO be nice #and the next step down from that is saying something like ''oh i'd love to meet up but you'd probably be busy...... #.....wouldn't want to take up any time in your packed schedule'' #but then my brain again goes NO that's bad passive agressive is BAD #but i do want her to know how she has made me feel #an added layer of complexity is that she has had bad mental health issues and can be quite fragile #which i understand (i understand) but i don't think that should mean nobody ever gets to criticise you #🧃

[lunarrolls]

i’m gonna be a little incoherent here but i just wanna say. i’m actually really really proud of fcg for standing up for himself in this last episode. he is the sole truly godly faithful character among the hells and it was so exhilarating to see him actually stand his ground on his faith. i may not fully agree with him at all but i’m like YES. YOU GO YOU LITTLE ROBIT. YOU’RE BELIEVING IN SOMETHING!! it was honestly a wonderful little parallel to ashton’s development, and might have even been sparked by seeing that change—they were assured by ashton that even though the hells might argue or disagree, they’re always going to be family, and then later, fcg remembers that and disagrees with them rather than simply bottling their opinion and passive-aggressively bringing it up every now and then. it made me really happy. slowly, they’re getting better at this, and i’m so proud <3

#cr #cr3 #cr spoilers #roll insight #fcg #fresh cut grass #i feel like i always see fcg hate posts when i’m scrolling the tag #which makes me a little sad #they’re so interesting and fun honestly #i’m always paying attention to what they do next #and this episode was so nice because as ashton flipped they also took a leap of faith #and as often as he’s wrong about these things he’s at least *taking the steps to be wrong* you know? #he’s also just a REALLY cool foil for the rest of the hells #a creature inexperienced and made by human hands finding purpose and faith in something larger #of course he would be faithful. he was already created by something larger in his opinion #it’s a manifestation of what he’s always believed #and as we slowly work towards their relationship to faith becoming healthier #so too do we work towards their relationship with sentience and sapience becoming healthier #and their role as literally. a faithful caregiver #man i have so many fcg thoughts maybe i should do something about it eventually

[pastafossa]

Fiberglass nightmare update: So the construction cleanup guy came and he was horrified over what the contractors had done with the fiberglass in my room.

"And they left your fan on, which just blows the dust around???"

"Yeah."

"And they didn't cover any of your stuff???? The bedding, the furniture????"

"Nope."

"And they told you to sweep and dust, which just pushes the fiberglass dust into the air??????"

"Mhm."

"And then they told you that you could sleep up here??!?!?!? When I can literally see fiberglass on your floor?!??!?!??!?!"

"Yup."

Cleanup guy:

So basically, he confirmed it's bad, and not safe to be up there, so I've also had to cancel the drywall guys tomorrow (cleanup guy said they'd just stir up the dust). The cleanup crew is going to have to come in with a massive, industrial strength HEPA vac and clean floor to ceiling (since the fan + ac blew it onto everything, including the walls and ceiling). They're going to give all the furniture a full wipedown from top to bottom, and then they're going to bring in a massive air filter, hook it to the window, and essentially pump the fiberglass dust in the air out the window. That'll take at least eight hours after they clean up, so I'll be on my air mattress for a while longer. The good news is - THEY MIGHT BE ABLE TO COME IN TOMORROW.

He also confirmed my clothes are saveable, as is my mattress (though not the bedding). I told him to let me know if there's anything up there tomorrow that can't be saved, since a few of my desk drawers were slightly open, and at this point I'll just add it to the list of thing to replace.

#pasta life update #the ongoing fiberglass nightmare. #ya'll he was blown the fuck away at what these dudes had done #according to him everything that could be removed should have been removed #and everything else covered with tarps #there should have been no ac and no fan up there #and they should have done the full floor to ceiling vaccuum themselves before leaving #and they DEFINITELY shouldn't have told ME to clean it up OR that I could sleep up there #so you know that's validation which is nice #next step is cleanup and trying to save my belongings #but at least i've got people now who know what they're doing and will help return my room to a livable space

[heart-bones]

I have been here one full day and I am already ready to go back to my apartment why am I like this 🙃

also please lord tell me what have I eaten that has completely ruined my stomach, I feel like I've been nauseous since I got here 😫

#i will get over it and be sad to leave in two days haha #i got to walk around the koreatown plaza out here and got snacks and milk tea w my sister #then we went to lunch w my parents 😊 #and grocery shopping #then lin left and my parents and i went to a few places for fun #we watched the last voyage of the demeter a n d everything everywhere all at once together #(finally seeing it!!!! it was great & loving and i cried) #(because of course) #my mom got up at one point and got dizzy she fell and kept falling and it was Really sudden and very scary #all the plants were knocked over and i was immediately screaming like an idiot #but i helped her up and we walked slow to the bathroom together so i could look her over and make sure nothing was too bad #she skinned her arm in a places - she's so skinny so it bled a lot which was also scary. #i may have immediately stress cried while i was helping with her and we sat together for a long time to talk #then my dad was So Upset so he had to vent #(i understand his frustration to a point but i also feel like he's holding everyone else to this standard in his mind - ) #(- of how they should “deal” with my mom having cancer - that my older siblings aren't “stepping up to help”) #(but he literally talked about my mom fading away and getting weaker every day like she wasn't sitting right next to him ???) #(and she was!) #i don't know MAN #i dont have things figured out at all but ot made me so angry and so sad #i know he is just feeling hurt and upset 🫠🫠🫠

[starlooove]

I’ve already said all my issues with ice queen Janet Drake and idc enough to go into it again HOWEVER I will say if u want an abusive parents interpretation the very closest thing u can get to canon with her is Timmy turners mom

#SHE WAS KOOKY #this is my Roman Empire #can’t look at her as a character #as little as there is #so making shit up using misogynistic beats that only serve to prop tim up as cool and resilient #if it was genuinely about just taking the meanest interpretation #which I’m not hating I LOVE to do that taking an inch and running a mile with side shit is so fun to me #which is why I’ve never had a problem with the absent thing for his parents. very exaggerated in fandom but I like it #anyways back to the point #if it was about taking a piece and making it huge the next logical step is the vapid cruelty of Nickelodeon parents #specifically Timmy turners #in this essay I will #also same for Jack like turn up Mr turners anger issues more and make him less stupid literally #ALSO WHY CANT JANET BE THE STUPID ONE #not even stupid I don’t think either of them are stupid #i think they should be like. softest brucie variants possible #rich ppl who genuinely love to travel and they care for their kid like they would a lil Pomeranian #a kid isn’t easy to carry in ur purse and tote around tho #in mean but not meanest interpretation #but yeah the whole Girlboss Janet and bumbling fool Jack is so overplayed and irritating #why Can Janet have the soft moments between her and tim (REMEMBER THE VIRUS?! tim literally called her mommy he LOVES HER! and his dad! cmon #like idec about this white woman like that but the lengths y’all go… #like i Can see in the worst interpretation possible that Jack has a temper and is quick to be pissed and uphold gender roles etc. #like typical 40s dad tv or whatever yknow? #but WHERE did that Janet come from EVER #like ig it’s the romanticized wife equivalent who’s secretly running the show and looking perfect while doing it #but that archetype in itself is misogynistic and also does not take into account CLASS DYNAMICS! #but some of y’all think the drakes should be middle class so I’m speaking at a wall