#which to me feels unsatisfying

[anna-scribbles]

had a conversation last week with a 10 year old girl about the s5 finale and i can’t stop thinking about it. she said nathalie is the best because she loves adrien enough to lie to him about his father so that he stays happy. completely convinced that emilie was resurrected at the end and shocked when i suggested otherwise. i’ve been dying to know what the children think happened and it’s so interesting

#anna rambles #ml s5 #ml season 5 #ml #i personally don’t think that adrien’s gonna find out anything in future seasons #which to me feels unsatisfying #but it’s interesting that (from my sample size of one child) maybe the kids would see that as a good thing #it felt to me like the show was framing it as a good thing at least #so it would be interesting to find out how more of the (young) target audience perceived it #bc i feel like most of the adult fans i’ve seen online assume that adrien will find out or at least would find it unsatisfying if he didnt #when i asked if she thought it could’ve been amelie at the end her jaw dropped and she said ‘no because he’s always down there talking #about how he’s gonna bring his wife back! he says it all the time and that’s what he did!’ #& i was like. girl yeah you’re right😭 that is also what i thought when i saw it😭 #anyway I need to talk to more kids about ml. for science

[marinatedsaltea]

Wanted to practice drawing her face but got carried away a bit. I don’t think that it counts as a fake screenshot though because I was still using my usual brush

#transformers #transformers animated #tfa #tf art #tfa art #tfa season 4 #tfa swiftstorm prime #yeah I deleted most of old posts with her because the way I used to draw her was unsatisfying to look at #but now I think I finally got it #there is another doodle which works as a fake screenshot #might post it once I fix some stuff #grr this woman makes me feel feelings

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/" #i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do. #there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW. #i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends... #btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it? #they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone. #the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames? #something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

[dummerjan]

i just came across ai covers on youtube and people are requesting songs in the comments instead of getting enraged and i am further losing hope in humanity and turning to misanthropy

#meins #for a minute i got really excited about henning may singing take me to church :( #i hate people #have you no appreciation for or understanding of art? clearly not. #why would you want to listen to an ai generated song? even if it sounds like your favourite singer it's not them #it has no feelings to meaning to intention. it is empty and soulless #reading the booklet for sinéad o'connor's album of traditional irish and folk songs gave me so much appreciation for her #she wrote a little bit about each song. why she chose it or what it means to her. #it has added so much to my enjoyment of those songs and i think of it whenver i listen to it #they were chosen with intention with love with a deep appreciation for the music and lyrics and there is a story behind it all #it is art and love and human #i see aboslutely no appeal in ai generated 'music' or 'art' #and i hate that i fell for it for a minute #i was sceptical because i had never heard of henning may covering hozier and since it wasn't just 20-60 sec i am certain #i would have heard about it by now #and something was just a little bit... unsatisfying? something was missing which does apply to a lot of cover songs #(i could go on hour long rants about why people fuck up danny boy (and sinéad o'connor does it best (because she actually takes her time) #or trash madonna's version of don't cry for me argentina (again a song ruined for by everybody else but sinéad - once she has sung somethin #i have a hard time enjoying it by anybody else. the parting glass is an exception. hozier's version is phenomenal)) #but! henning may not giving it his all for a cover? unlikely. very unlikely. #anyway this concludes my tuesday night rant. rather here in the tags than some poor person's inbox. #or i would have kept fuming by myself for another hour or two

[bthump]

Idk I too want better for Casca but I really dislike the hype for Casca potentially becoming an apostle, these users put it far better than i would:

https://www.tumblr.com/deripmaver/723418827650727936/why-i-am-a-hater-of-the-apostle-casca

https://www.tumblr.com/deripmaver/723493450382802944/im-so-happy-to-find-another-casca-apostle-hater https://

I skimmed these posts to see whether there were any points made that I felt like "responding" to, and there's a few.

First, Casca being a good person has nothing to do with anything except people not wanting her to become a monster, which I obviously don't vibe with because I think the concept of a good person becoming a monster fucks hard, which is one reason I like Berserk a whole lot. And I think a potential Moonbaby sacrifice would fit perfectly with one of the "good person" sacrifice examples they give: the 'person you loved the most and hated the most' sacrifice motivation, since it's intertwined with Griffith in some metaphysical way and it could be a two for the price of one deal. It's almost too on the nose.

Second, I don't think it necessitates Casca joining Griffith. Griffith seems to be out of the Godhand now, incarnated on the physical realm, presumably no longer presiding over sacrifices, and my favourite worldbuilding pet theory is actually that the godhand and Griffith will be at odds. Something's gotta threaten the godhand's existence since something wiped out the last cycle that we saw in Skull Knight's memory, and an incarnate fifth that appears right on schedule seems like just the thing.

Third, Casca's apostle trauma is, if anything, a sign in favour of her becoming an apostle since like, everyone in Berserk is at least tempted to symbolically become their abuser/rapist/nemesis as part of gaining power, eg:

Why can't Casca get in on the interesting and complicated moral and emotional greys here? This is good shit, I want it for Casca. I want her to be tempted to become what she fears, to escape her own sense of powerlessness through abandoning her morals. It's just a more direct version of Guts wanting to become a monster since that's rooted in rape trauma and both the narrative and Guts himself equates monsters to both his rapist and abuser.

I didn't see them mention the fact that apostles are compelled to love Griffith which to me seems like one of the best arguments against it (though again, I skimmed so maybe I missed it), but Ganishka resisted that, and Casca has a long history of repressing her love for Griffith so I think it could actually be a neat, and overcomeable extension of her human feelings.

Another big and better argument against it, particularly after the last couple chapters, is that Miura clearly just did not give a shit about Casca lol. And I mean I already knew that, one reason I thought the apostle Casca theory held water is that it would be a way for Miura to avoid writing Casca's trauma realistically and instead veer into one big dramatic moment followed by fantastical metaphor while keeping her a less nuanced plot point, albeit a more active and fun one than she had been so far. Instead his way of avoiding writing Casca's trauma realistically was to have her faint any time she thinks about it and then take away her personality AGAIN. So yeah, unfortunately I just don't think Miura wanted Casca to be badass and actively affect the plot. Idk if he ever knew what to do with her after deciding not to kill her off just to motivate Guts post-Eclipse.

Finally I just don't know if there's really time for that anymore. My vision was an Empire Strikes Back style end of second act downturn. Casca becomes a monster and sets a new arc in motion, Guts falls into despair and succumbs to the armour, shit gets real and interesting again for a while. Instead Guts' second act downturn is being mad that Griffith is still a god lol. She could definitely still go apostle at the climax of the story, and you better believe I'm still rooting for that, but idk if it'd be as satisfying lol. But I guess we'll see.

Anyway yeah you're free to disagree with any of my hot takes, but you're not gonna convince me Casca shouldn't become an apostle, because my reasoning ultimately boils down to "I would enjoy it." I would certainly enjoy it a hell of a lot more than fainting damsel in distress Casca which is what we're dealing with right now lol. If your reasoning boils down to "I would not enjoy it" then I probably won't convince you either, and that's fine. We'll find out what's going to happen eventually.

And finally I want to err on the side of caution and make it clear that I have no interest in arguing with the user you linked, and I hope you're not planning to be like, some kind of anonymous go-between linking posts back and forth. I used the linked posts as a bouncing off point to explain some of my reasoning, and that's the end of it as far as I'm concerned.

#character: casca #theme: speculation #theme: behelit #theme: sacrifice #theme: inner monster #ask #anonymous #theme: revenge #a #b #also at the end of the day there is still the question of 'who the hell else is gonna use the behelit?' #guts has his armour he's spoken for in terms of manifesting inner darknesses #anyone else would need their motivation to be both established and executed between now and then which feels intrinsically #unsatisfying to me and a waste of a lot of time we could've been spending on foreshadowing #the exception being serpico who has motivation if farnese dies lol which lbr would suck. and who would he sacrifice? #casca is the only character with a thoroughly established reason to despair plus 3 potential readily available sacrifices #(moonbaby griffith and farnese) plus heaps of ominous foreshadowing surrounding her #plus hey she just got an animal motif to utilize

[scarefox]

Just gotta say I am glad that my gut feelings were right from the start THAT BUILD IS INNOCENT even though people tried to convince me and all his other supporter otherwise.... in the most toxic ways possible.... Had to get out of that war zone a while ago for my mental health.

Hope it is now reaching the last person in the back, that she was lying about everything.

#i can read people and her side just didn't make sense on him with his characteristics unless he was a psychopath wich was unlikely #but his side and proves on her did make sense with her character and behavior #also she is mentally ill af on a delusional level hope she gets better therapy now #a tie is the best outcome for both sides but i feel a bit unsatisfied with all the damage and harm she caused #on him on boc and the fans... everyone got massively hurt by this shitshow #build jakapan #poi #it also brought out the ugliest sides of people and fandoms on both sides which gives me massive trust issues

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a lot of things people blame for why fandoms feel like ghost towns these days, but no one's really talked about the way discord's contributing to it

#its like #people are trying to force fit discord's chatrooms into forum boards #except discord is just. really really *really* poorly setup for that #and theres no way to archive or share it so everything said in it is easily lost despite personal export or community pins or search option #and like #vaguely hearing about the way some people are unsatisfied with them/feeling unfufilled in the response to them #a lot of people would be better off posting those things to places like tumblr #where there isnt a time limit on when people see or respond to them #part of what's scary/frustrating on tumblr rn is some fandoms arent good about reblogging to posts or tag rambling #like with bad buddy a large part of the fun was the enthusiastic and in depth tag rambles and the way responses built on each other #vs something like kinnporsche which feels much more like-oriented #like? its not like theres any one way to fandom #and there's nothing actually wrong with likes or quiet reblogs #but vaguely hearing about the way some people were/are really upset with some servers im just kinda like #idk #feels a bit like people trying to force a square thru a circle or that they're looking in the wrong spaces for what they want #.......this is not a complaint for my space ajkds i think i've carved out a pretty happy space for myself! #im just checking the reblog graphs of some old vs new stuff and thinking about a convo other cookie and i were having over the weekend #i have a lot of friends around and i love everyone who's happy to ramble with me #but i do feel a slight case of DM burnout rn where mostly people reach out to me via DMs instead of reblogs #which is a very different dynamic #its like. hmmm words #i love DMs but the pressure of responding to a lot of individual messages #vs something like reblogs which is more open forum for everyone and feels more communal #if that makes sense? #the difference between visiting one person at home vs casually hanging out with a group at a cafe #and the lovely thing about tumblr specifically is that i can set down a reblog chain for several days if i need #before returning to it later when i have more time/energy #its got Longevity that discord lacks u know #........okay enough tag musings from me ajkfhjdgfhj BYE

[vt-scribbles]

Something seriously lacking in my art is the ability to tell a story in a single illustration.

I've gotten so used to drawing my characters standing around doing random things that I've never practiced telling a full tale/putting implications into my pieces that require more thinking/looking.

It also comes from a lower amount of details in my works by default [since I like to get pieces done fast], but I'm tired of using that as an excuse.

#vent #kinda #sorry I'm just having a rough one tonight but I'll recover lmao #I think the AI art thing is really getting to me cuz like. #Anyone can make pretty images if they study and practice hard enough #[not to detract from people who don't tell stories with their images!] #but something in my brain wants to fight back because AI will never be able to Tell a Story through its images. #It can't make narrative choices through its regurgitation of random elements. It will never tell a cohesive and interesting tale through #detail choice #the worst it can do is create surface-level 'pretty' images by smashing together a bunch of mushed up information #but storytelling? that's human touch #that's intention. Thought. Choices. #and idk it's really bothering me lately that my images almost never... 'say' anything about a character. #this does not apply to anyone else's art I look at #it's just a standard I'm starting to feel my head apply to my own work and nobody else's. #which I'm taking as a sign that this is something I'm unsatisfied with #but the thought of starting to develop a completely new skill like that? terrifyingly daunting. #Sorry for the wall of tags I'm havin' some hella moodswings tonight #happens a lot when I get inspired by art I see #which I'm trying to work on but yaknow #it's a long process #anyways how's your night goin #I'm gonna cheer myself up by eating some amazing asparagus casserole

[saltytearsofjoy]

Read bungo stray dogs (mistake) if this story ends tragically that’ll be it for me

#bsd manga spoilers #—> #I am not immune to the tragedy of a character dying and then coming back as something that doesn’t represent who they used to be #BUT im kind of confident he’s coming back #espec cause he’s facing atsushi (which is also rlly sad) #also I think he didn’t kill aya cause he’s subconsciously following his promise to atsushi 😼 #oh and I need sigma to live. he can hang out with the detective agency #or be roomies with Edgar Allan poe idk #i also doubt dazai is dying in this prison. that would feel really unsatisfying cause he wouldn’t get to talk to any of the agency #I think it’s possible that he could deactivate the vampire ability (whether by touching bram or fukichi. the sword thing confuses me sorry)

[spocksgotemotions]

Odysseus this, Sisyphus that, what about Antigone? What about devotion to a sibling? But when father and mother are hidden in Hades, no brother could ever bloom for me again??? you know what drives me crazy??

Helen was Clytemnestra’s sister, you know. They were sisters. Clytemnestra lost her sister and her daughter to the start of a war.

#captain’s own #dumb bitch hours #I’m just feeling unsatisfied creatively which means I’m thinking about women in Ancient Greek plays again #you get it you know #don’t get me fuckin STARTED on ISMENE

[skibasyndrome]

I'm about to throw all my academic values overboard to get this fucking article done

#linguistics are my enemy #not because I don't like the subject #I'm just........ so much less at ease with this than with literary sciene oh my god #I'm so glad I can mostly focus on lit in the future but let me tell you these few linguistics articles I have/had to do have really brought #me to my limit #and I thought I was already fed up and not giving a shit when I did that one article in summer... oh I had NO IDEA how much less of a shit #was capable of giving!!! #the thing is.... I think objectively I'm still? idk not the worst I could technically be doing #like there ARE people who straight up... idk don't even try to have a research question or who don't read more than a handful or articles b #t ugh #I like academic writing so much and I love putting in the work and I love actually getting into the reseach and finding the most important #texts and writing a balanced and well researched article but ugh..... I just feel like I keep reaching my limits with linguistics #and this time is worse than the others because this topic is SO FAR from being standardized and all I can do is ???? mention that there's #like a hundred different models and then just??? choose one and go with it? which is so fucking unsatisfying #but I swear... everybody in this field is just making up a new model that's just different words for the same thing (and not in the /normal #way that science /always/ is about making up a new model. no. this time they are very unnecessarily making up new models) #ugh. everything about this sucks #I should've chosen a different seminar I should've chose a different topic and I especially should've written more of this in summer when I #technically still had a little more time #sorry for blowing up your dash with complaints this festive season lol. I am just having a time (TM) with the different writing tasks on my #hands and I need a place to vent I guess #simon.out. #sounds so drastic btw I'm not about to cheat or plagiarize or anything but I'm about to do so much less of a proper work than I ever wanted #to allow myself to do. cherrypicking and all.

[shopcat]

you know i love to complain as much as the next guy but to be honest you could make a Character playlist and it can be the most basic bullshit ever 6 hours long and ripped from every top 40 of the last 3 years and a literal direct copy paste from some sort of tiktok spotify official playlist for the rest of it and people will lose their minds and it's like yeah it's annoying. and stupid. and then you can make one and it's got good songs and is carefully selected and arranged and flows properly and actually applies at least mostly to the character or what they like or even the soundtrack or something and the same cunts will actually foam at the mouth mad as fuck that they dared to touch Their precious carefully organically sourced underrated indie musicians such as "kate bush" and "leonard cohen" like. well i'm not saying that it's equally annoying or anything and if there was a kinsey scale of this entire thing i would be a solid 2 but still. at least the first guys are like having fun What was that. woah a tornad🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️o AHHHHHH

🌪️🌪️🌪️💨🌪️🌪️ 💨🌪️ 🌪️🍂 💨💨🌪️

💨🌪️🍂🌲🌪️🌪️🪵🪵🌪️💨💨🌲🍂🪵🍂

🌪️🌪️🌪️🍂🪵🍂🍂🍁🌪️🌪️🍁🌪️🌪️💨💨

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#🐾 #no sorry i mean it's wahtever #i literlalt hate 99% of all character playlists and find them incredibly silly but i also don't really let it bother me #like someone's bad taste is their own problem and while i don't think i have terrible taste it's not like it's fucking 😭 just Ohhh so good #it's just what i like 🙂👍 and i do try w my playlists but then sometimes i don't cuz thog don't caare #also that post going around abt this as well i do agree with like most of it but SIXTEEN SONGS no man.. You're crazy #8 to 16 songs is literally not enough a 2 hour character playlist is the sweet spot #i don't tend to go over it but if i do it's not crazy like come on. to be fair i'm usually listening to playlists to do things #but i feel like something so short would just leave me unsatisfied ... i want to live there for a few hours !!! #anyway. #but also soemtimes yeah ppl do just have bad taste and therefore it's not a characters playlist it's just theirs that they associate w #the character. which is what most people do anywya so the issue is kind of just ? idk whatever #sucks for them ...?

[kingdomoftyto]

Rotating Simon Petrikov in my mind again...........

Right now I can only envision the F&C series ending in one of two ways for him:

Simon is persuaded to permanently move to Fionna's magic-free world--a chance to live the peaceful, scholarly life he was denied by the war and the Crown. We see that he can't relate to the humans in Ooo because they're so far removed from what humans were like back in his time that they might as well be aliens, but this alternate world would be just like he remembered his old life to be, and thus more comfortable for him to settle down in. Even if it meant leaving Marceline and the others behind in Ooo, I could see this being a real possibility if Betty somehow finds a way to go with him. It would require moving on irrevocably from one part of his life, but they'd get their simple, mundane--yet happy--ending.

Simon is forced to reconcile with the fact that reuniting with Betty is either impossible or not worth some terrible price. Maybe he realizes he's not willing to cut himself off from his Marceline and the little ragtag family they've built, even for a life with Betty. Or maybe accepting the mundane life for himself would also doom Fionna and Cake to a life of misery and broken dreams, and he can't bring himself to betray his new friends for such a selfish reward. Either way the result is that he returns to Ooo, to basically the same situation he was in at the start of the season, but finally free from all the regret and guilt and grief that was stopping him from moving forward and finally embracing the second chance that Betty gave him back in "Come Along with Me".

I honestly don't know which I think is more likely at this point OR necessarily which one I would prefer, because they both have pros and cons. I maybe lean toward the second one because I tend to hate "the magic is gone, and that's good!"-type endings, but depending on the buildup I could still see it working. Ultimately it'll depend on wherever Fionna and Cake themselves end up, and I have NO idea where that's going lmao

#Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake spoilers #they'd BETTER not try to pull some crap about FIONNA being happier in the non-magical world because THAT would be nonsense #and like. hm... it would almost make the most sense to me right now for F&C to just live in the regular Ooo??? #despite their current goals in the most recent episodes I haven't really seen any compelling reason why the world Fionna started in would #benefit as a whole from becoming magical. and in fact it feels like it might be kind of a jerk move to everyone else to do so. #she seems to be the only one who's definitely unhappy with her life there (though maybe the Gumshall b-plot will prove me wrong later!) #but obviously it feels weird and maybe like. unsatisfying? for her to just exist in the same world as Finn #so maybe they're going to resolve this by creating a whole separate Ooo just for her (which seems excessive) or #OH OH what if Fionna and Cake end up able to just travel the whole multiverse at will!! #maybe they'll resolve the cosmic crime stuff and connect their home universe up to the rest of the multiverse web #allowing easier travel between the worlds because of some kind of convenient plot device #idk now I'm just throwing out baseless theories because they sound cool to me #I am gnawing on the bars of my cage WHEN IS THE NEXT EPISODE

[ilynpilled]

i am actually not all that opposed to certain very tragic endings for some of my faves if i sit down and dwell on it all and i am in fact morbidly drawn to some of the possibilities if executed in the right way but my problem is that after years of fandom misconstruing characterization and themes the whole thing is hard for me to separate from a visceral sense of frustration. like the way certain end points are used by some readers to further skew the text with reductive bad faith interpretations of so many things turns me off from possibilities that i might actually like if i had never engaged with the discourse

#i should learn to detach from it but it is hard sometimes esp bc i dont think this fandom encourages moving outside #its preestablished dichotomies #id still prefer existential triumph but i really do want his ending to be something that makes me feel a LOT #and in the right way #i love the bittersweet its always my favorite #but i also dont mind if its on the tragic end #really the only thing id hate if i just felt frustrated and empty about it #and unsatisfied ofc like wanting more from it #thats the thing w got like i have a visceral problem w the ending there bc it made me feel relatively indifferent #which is the worst thing u can feel about a part of art that engrossed u this hard #and i know its not the same character #but its still hard for me to imagine feeling like that about a jaime of any kind

[providnce]

vent post

#some days i love indulging in the ✨fantasy✨ whenever i scream about my hot band men #but really it’s one big coping mechanism to run away from my own problems and feelings of loneliness and being unwanted #because if i project any kind of romantic/sexual fantasy on someone who doesn’t know i exist then i won’t have to deal with any sort #of rejection or face my fears of being intimate with someone #like i would a real person #that’s why i turn to parasocial relationships as a source of happiness because my real life’s been nothing but unsatisfying for me #which. is admittedly why i pretend their respective partners don’t exist LMAOOOO but it really is sad #fresa stfu #because this is obviously about yannis despite being a ventpost #but not entirely because i’ve been projecting self indulgent fantasies on MANY other band men before my foals obsession

[failbaby]

Shiv is unable to have normal, healthy relationships as an adult because of her hypersexuality and Roman is unable to have normal, healthy relationships as an adult because he’s sex-repulsed. They’re textbook adult survivors of childhood sexual abuse on opposite ends of the same spectrum. So much of the twin/mirror theory comes down to this

#I’m not making any claims except that I as a survivor see this in the narrative #I feel like people are going to take this as me accusing logan of something which I’m not #also men are expected to be hypersexual and women are expected to be sex repulsed #so I feel like there’s an element of bitterness in the way they belittle each other for their unhealthy sex lives #Roman hates himself for being impotent and Shiv hates herself for being unsatisfied with one man #they each wish they could be more like the other #because they feel like they’d be more functional and less ‘disappointing’ if they were able to conform to gender role expectations #tw csa #oc #shiv trauma thesis