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sofasoap · 1 year

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Thistle and Thorn

Pairing: Kind of Simon "Ghost " Riley x f!Reader ( OC aka Mini MacTavish ) + Johnny " Soap " MacTavish + Captain John Price

Summary : Everyone's worst nightmare comes true. Something you don't even want to think about. EVER.

Warning: ANGST. PURE ANGST. Mature theme , death , swearing. English isn't my first language so expect a lot of mistakes with tenses. Not beta'd.

A/N : seriously, I don't know WHY the hell I am doing this to myself.

Thanks to @saltofmercury for agreeing to my silly fic request and also kindly letting me using her ideas/fic and expand the story from there. I promise her I'll always credit her story because she is my muse * holding Saltofmercury up high lion king style Continuation/parallel universe of “The Favorite MacTavish” , where the reader/OC is Soap's little sister.

“masterlist” for more stories to this Mini MacTavish expanded verse. ( AKA the true happy endings )

You knew something wasn't right when Johnny didn't come home for Christmas as promised, what is even weirder was there was zero update from Gaz ( who you actually became good gossiping buddy during downtime), or Captain Price, even Ghost.

"I am sure Johnny and the team just stuck somewhere with the heavy snow, the weather been dreadful this winter. They will be home soon. " Ma comforted you as you voice your worry.

You came home a week earlier, excited as you finally get to see Johnny again after half a year and scoring victory in " who gets Christmas off " battle when your shift manager was organising everyone's holiday leaves.

Sure, for his line of work, it is hard to expect them to see their family often or even come home on time. But this time you just have this dreaded feeling you haven't felt for ages, like the time before Aunty Esme and Uncle Evan's fatal car crash. You have a strange sixth sense which is pretty much dead on ( excuse the pun ) everytime there's a death in the family.

Sitting by your bedroom window on second floor, you saw a Jeep pulling up towards your parent's front door. Immediately got up, grabbing a hoodie and making your way downstairs thinking its Johnny finally coming home and ready to greet him.

Walking through the hallway towards the staircase, you heard a man's voice, follow by your Ma's anguish cry, you ran downstairs as fast as you can. There you see Captain Price, with bandage peeking through his bonnie hat and he look like he has aged ten years. Your Da holding onto your Ma, comforting her with red brim eye, trying to hold it together at same time.

".. What is going on? Uncle Price? where is the rest of the team? where is Johnny?... Where is Ghost? " You started calling Price " Uncle " when rest of the squad jokes about how Price is like the uncle of the squad and the rest of them are like rowdy teenage kids.

Price just shook his head, beckoning you move closer to the front door. he hold his hand out, and you automatically reach forward , palms up.

Two dog tags. TWO. You swallow hard. Hands shaking.

" I am sorry Mini... Gaz and I barely made it out ourselves...we couldn't.. " he took a deep breath, word stuck in his throat. Reaching into his pocket instead, taking out a little Polaroid photo, a little laminated paper with dried thistle and put it on top of the dog tags in your palm.

It's a photo of you and a very begrudge looking Ghost, looking away from the camera. Both of you look like you been off your head. This was the photo that was taken after you met Ghost for the first time and narrowly lost to him after the drinking game.

The thistle, you made it into dry flower, laminated it onto piece of paper and gave it to Johnny when he came home years ago, announcing proudly he was selected to join the 22nd Regiment, elite force specialising in counter-terrorism.

" Good luck charm for you Johnny."

" A thistle?"

" Ya, well, other than it represent us Scot, you know what the meaning of thistle is? resilience, strength, determination, protection and pride. I want my favourite sibling to come home in one piece everytime. "

" I am your ONLY sibling. "

"And I love you too."

You knew this day will eventually come. The day Cousin Alec dragged Johnny into joining the army , you knew somehow you will lose them on the battlefield. Part of you wish they will come home in one piece, every time, after mission, and discharge honourably and move onto some safer or non-combating jobs.

You barely heard what Price said, " ... Ghost always have this photo with him all the time in his pocket. He look at it quite often, but he wouldn't admit it. " You hadn't had the chance to tell him how you feel. Now you will never have the chance again. EVER.

" hey Soap "

" ... yes Ghost? "

"Two gold fishes in a tank. "

"... you told me that joke before. "

"... Soap. "

" Ghost. "

"... I am taking Mini out on a date next time we go home."

" .... Are you asking for my permission?"

" I am telling you. I am not asking for permission."

"Ghost."

" Soap."

"Don't fuck around with my sister."

".. I wouldn't hurt her. I will never hurt her."

I am sorry.

Usually I am a happy ending person.. look, you can read this as a AU and "non canonical ( pff sounds like I own CoD, but I DON'T ) ending to the Mini MacTavish universe, because I don't want them to have bad ending. I just want to get this out from my head.

#simon ghost riley #johnny soap mactavish #simon riley x oc #simon riley x reader #cod mw2 #cod #captain john price #why am i torturing myself #i nearly cried writing this #simon riley x you #simon riley imagine #simon riley x y/n

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loosiap · 1 year

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TS4 SP12 Twist Tails converted by Brandinotbroke – in Poppet V2

I used Poppet’s v2 natural colours and blended in Nouk’s Afro texture

Polycount 7.6k; for PF only; all categories; all colours binned in 1 file; mesh included in download; files compressed

DOWNLOAD: MEGA | SFS

or this hair as default replacement of pfhairmob

DOWNLOAD: MEGA | SFS

Credits: EAMaxis, @brandinotbroke, Poppet-sims, Nouk, xWhitepolar, and (since I don’t own this pack) special thanks to an0nymousghost for makig sp12 bgc so I was actually able to manage making this recolour

#it's wednesday my dudes #ts2cc hair #this hair had no buisness in being such a nightmare to recolour #why am i torturing myself #sims 2 cc hair #sims 2 hair #poppet v2 #poppet hair #brandinotbroke #loosiap #ts2 default hair #sims 2 default hair #DR:mob #DR-hair #DR-Fhair #ts2 defaults #dl-hair #4t2hair

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stonecoldsilly · 2 years

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captain hob thinking about rue

'I think I walk to the edge of the woods and look out at the path that Rue took from the forest to leave this place. And there is a moment of wondering whether, at this time, when all of my court will be asleep, that I might, in the dawn, find and apologize to Delloso de la Rue. And instead, I remember that I have already brought much shame and dishonor to my court by my associations with the Court of Wonder, and so retreat back to the Goblin Pagoda.'

'...the secret misgivings of tender sentiment to which even steadiest hearts may be compelled in the face of rank uncertainty and tribulation, defiant of all preparation in the narrow precognition of their host, to wit, the burden of execrable misery...'

'They have shed a tear over me due to some harm or injury rather than to sentiment?'

'And I will turn to face Wuvvy and Theodore, and I look and see Rue dressed as they are in support of Wuvvy, and, at an eight on my deception check, to hide how truly hurt I am.'

'I make eye contact with you and make that face, that sort of screwed up sour face you make, as you swallow a difficult emotion and walk towards the dueling field.'

'And then I'm gonna look right at Rue.'

'Then I will turn one last time to look at Rue and look at everybody else here.'

#why am i torturing myself #brainrot #a court of fey and flowers #dimension 20 spoilers #dimension20 #acofaf #captain k.p. hob #delloso de la rue #battlemaster of ceremonies

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inlovewithaspiderguy · 1 year

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the Fab Four’s name are all valid chumhandles

#why am i torturing myself #homestuck #mcr #fab four #killjoys

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collectmytears · 2 years

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I’m crying on the inside

#why am I torturing myself #g talks

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dreamersdiariesblog · 1 year

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Sometimes I wonder, where was I wrong? What did I do that was wrong? What was my fault anyway?,albeit I gave my best, even when at times I didn't feel like it I did! I have always put my ego aside and respected their feelings then how come at the end I'm the one to be blamed?

#feelings #late night thinking #is it my fault #why am i this way #why am i torturing myself #why am i thinking about this

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iminaworldofpureimagination · 1 year

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watching the velma show feels like school lecture by an angry pretenious teacher instead of an acutal adult show

all she does is complain its so obxnoxious she aint even that weird shes just annoying.

#velma show #why am i torturing myself #bordeom #curiosity #i miss high school #and i was the weird quiet girl #who had bullies #but i never hated hot girls i just wish they didnt hog the bathroom mirror #every show sucks at disaplying bullies i have yet to find one that replicates em correctly #no one cares about your miserarlbe school life mindy

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vesperverlice · 2 years

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Man, when I opened reddit...I was immediately assaulted by a bunch of gory pictures in the middle of the night. Curse you Eyeblech and Medical gore.😔😔😔