#why can't i just be normal

[shardkn1ght]

*Beat boxes in sad*

#god what is wrong with me #why can't i just be normal

[teddie-laundrybear]

don't make an oc don't make an oc don't make an oc

#once upon a witchlight #why can't i just be normal

[roselandsrl]

I am struggling. I can't interpret what people are trying to signal to me and I keep getting in trouble because I don't know what people are trying to say. I don't know what's wrong with me

#whats wrong w me #whats wrong with me #why am i like this #WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NORMAL

[machathecat]

I feel like I'm going to explode like my body as so much energy in it I need to move I gotta run

I wanna run on all fours but it's 2 am JDIS'JSOZM

I GOTTA KILL SOMETHING OR ILL BECOME CRAZY

#WHY DOES THE WEIRDEST SHIT HAPPEN TO ME LATE AT NIGHT #IS THIS A CRYPTID KIN SHIFT ?!?!??? #WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NORMAL #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[lhoandbehold]

Most of my fanart and honestly art ideas come to me as potential animation projects these days which is a CURSE, I'm out here providing art at absolute snails pace, do you have any idea how long it takes to just casually animate that moment that's stuck in your head, I-

#lho rambles #about art #why can't I just be normal #draw a banging poster for something and call it a day #noo it has to be an 8 month endeavour

[angeltism]

damn life hates me

#➳ valentin vents #i have most likely had someone threaten to assault me #i am convinced someone is replacing my locker's . lock . and i can't actually tell because i swear it FEELS different when it doesnt open #but what if I'm just imagining things #what if i misheard that guy #why do i have to deal with all of this #i already have so many problems mentally and physically and it's already so stressful living like how i am #but now i swear I'm also starting to maybe perceive things that aren't what is . well . what's going on in reality #I'm not fully convinced i didn't imagine seeing the guy in the first place . i don't recognize his voice i think and i didn't even really #see his face #so maybe i imagined it #everything feels heavy #my body feels heavy #my chest hurts so bad because i had to run to get my lock off and quickly pack my stuff and run to my bus #why does life hate me #why can't i just be normal #i have a bad feeling i can't explain it but right now i feel like i am going to die #I'm so scared

[bride-of-freddy-krueger]

Ugh! I fucking hate splitting! I fucking hate BPD!

#why can't i just be normal #this shit fucking sucks! #text #personal #fuck bpd #bpd splitting #bpd #borderline splitting #borderline personality disorder #mental disorder #mental illness #mental health #mental health awareness

[postfartumdepression]

In that constant cycle of I'm about to snap and run away and weed could definitely calm me down but it could also unleash everything I've kept inside for the past 25 years and give me a complete anxiety attack induced meltdown

#why can't I just be normal #I'm convinced it is physically impossible for me to relax at this point

[aecholapis]

There is this one artwork I should be working on because I promised someone to make it and I really, really want to finish it.

But every time I open the file it just stares back at me and intimidates me so fucking much I leave the program and draw something different instead.

#artist woes #why can't i just be normal

[mylifeiskindacrazy]

i think one of the reasons why writing is so hard for me (and why i hate "show don't tell) is because i am autistic and NEED to be told that a character is angry/sad/happy etc

i don't see "her nostrals flared and her eyebrows furrowed" as she's angry. i need to be literally told "she's angry" or else i won't understand

#this is so frustrating #i hate being me #why can't i just be normal #and understand facing expressions #I'll never get anywhere like this #life is unfair #life sucks #writing #writing prompts #aspiring author #aspiring writer #writers block #and don't come at me saying there's nothing wrong with being like this #because being like this literally hinders me doing/understanding a lot of stuff #so yeah obviously it sucks #and i'd rather be NOT like this #and live and easier life #austism #neurodivergent

[bellamyroselia]

Since Halloween is around the corner and I still miss ice...

This may not be one of my favorite programs but I do love that opening, it fits so well into the Dracula-theme

#it also took me a while to realize but they have bite marks in their necks! #probably done just by glueing red rhinestones but still creative #if i remember correctly something like that would be illegal nowadays #personal thoughts #synchronized skating #only way to get into halloween mood; old skating programs about horror icons #why can't i just be normal #Youtube

[gh0st-0f-s0rr0wzz]

just got told i'm violent yet again brb kmsing

#why can't i just be normal #i'm literally a horrible human being

[featherl1ghtt]

Just remembered that time I was having a fight with my dad about me being suicidal and he said "maybe just go it, it would be easier for all of us. I've thought about crashing my car into a tree because of all this" now he's strongly denying ever saying that, while this will forever haunt me

#daddy issues #father issues #family issues #why can't i just be normal #why can't my family just be functional

[heartshattering]

One song and two Wikipedia articles later and now I'm getting catastrophic thoughts again 🙃

#basically the song was disturbing but it wasn't clear what it was about exactly #so people in the comments were talking about something it possibly could've been based off of #so of course I looked it up #which then led to another article #and now I've triggered myself because reading about something happening makes me think it's going to happen to me (totally logical I know) #even just thinking about it is making me feel like I'm going to cause it to happen and I feel sick #I'm fixating on physical symptoms now and I feel like I'm going to die #I hate this so much :') #I'm trying to practice acceptance and sitting with discomfort but. UGH #at least I stopped at the second article and knew that clicking on related ones would trigger me more so I didn't #my mind is racing with worst case scenario thoughts #why can't I just be normal #I'll be fine but I'm just annoyed at myself and panicking a little #hopefully I sleep soon and this doesn't turn into an all-night thing #ughhhhhhh

[aftermathing]

I am like actually such a chore to be around and talk to and exist as what is wrong with me

#Why can't I just be normal #Why do I need help with all basic tasks and functions #why do i have a panic attack opening youtube because i see ads and data and tracking and ai and bots and spam and blotewear #Just had a breakdown and deleted all my data I'm so scared but like no fucking way the button that days delete data actually does fuckall #The company put that there to make you feel safe and in control you fucking know they're stealing your shit #I'm like so upset my ears are like. pounding somehow