#will check back in a few months <3

[spacexcowgirl]

today on online dating with rose:

#rose rambles #logged back into hinge so mil and I could have a laugh #I hate it here #logging back out #will check back in a few months <3 #mil tag <3

[lateral-org]

I love the moment when a piece of media goes from fanart on your dash to inhabiting your brain like some kind of mindflayer spawn

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #my posts #general fandom #i now understand all that art from *checks watch* a few months back

[httpiastri]

JACKIEEE OMG THE NEW OSCAR FF 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

My feelings are all over the place 😩😩😩 thigh riding… finger sucking…. just teasing him with wearing a sexy lingerie… kissing his hand up to his arm and NECK…. HOLY SHIT! Where is my holy water? I need a bath THREE TIME IN A ROW I HAVE UNHOLY THOUGHTS 🫠🫠

How should I feel composed and focused at work after reading this MASTERPIECE?? 🤯🤯 I’m going to explode DAMN!!! 😩😩😩

Thank you babes, love you 🥹🫶🏼

PS. Pairing says reader x Lando norris 🙈

BESTIE THE PICS 😭😭😭 IM-

same i feel like i need a full on swimming pool of holy water after writing that…. i still feel so so weird writing smut 🫣 idk why, it’s so strange! like in comparison to other genres??? but aw thank you so much sweetie aaaaa i’m glad you enjoyed it 🥺🥺 love u tooooo <3333

(pls me forgetting to change the pairing.... idk why i copied the intro thing from my latest lando fic? instead of an oscar one??? i still had to write new stuff in every thing?? i told myself "as long as i remember to change the pairing 😮‍💨" and then i didn't 😐 i used to make this mistake so much during the summer but i thought i was done with it.... also the way i lowkey don't even remember posting the fic, it's like i posted in my dreams, a fever dream 😵 like when we talked about accidentally posting a selfie in your sleep, this was the same.... 🤣)

#also the way that #back a few months back when i made that mistake #i would realize it by myself after like a week 😭 no one said anything 😭 but this time i got three messages about it #so thankful to have ppl keeping me in check <3 #asks! #formulola!

[mattodore]

best part of having ocs is that i can just write them doing whatever i want. like i can just do anything with them and it's like oh yeah. that's happening. and no one can be like hang on you can't do that bc actually i can since they're mine <3

#river dipping #like hell yeah brother of course i make aus for my ocs and daydream about them as like. vampires or whatever #anyway hello :) i really meant it when i said the suck session finale would put me out of commission for a few days #there's a ton to catch up on i bet but i'll take my time with it... tho i will be checking on kmik and valentine gen. 3 EXPEDITIOUSLY #i'm actually busy in google docs atm tho!! i'm using oc questionnaires to further flesh out mattodore. i 100% yoinked these questions #from an ask game i saw. there's like... sixty of them? theo's doc is already like 2k long and i still have ten more questions to answer... #matthias's questionnaire is finished but now i feel bad that his is only 1.8k so i might go back and add more... #sorry matthias </3 maybe be a little more nuanced as a character next time #i'll probably be posting these here actually so i can put them in my oc extras tag... tho idk how well the formatting will carry over #what else... oh i finally started working on editing the photos i took of mattodore back in march (and showed a bit of before) #i don't think i'm going to edit them as intensely as i did my pinned post bc that was... very time consuming... but we'll see #i wound up selecting just eight photos but that's still eight photos to edit so... hm. idk when i'll post 'em #oh and it's pride month!! so i'm determined to at least try to make the two final characters from echthroi this month... #i think i'm kind of getting an image of jackson going now but everett still alludes me... i'm also thinking abt changing her name #these two have gone through so many changes in the last seven months character-wise... fdgfhjkfgh #dutchie too tbf like his name originally was EDWIN... smh #OH....... and i see i have messages i need to reply to i'm sawrry </3 i will get to them........... i swear................................

[badmintonbuddies]

you seem to have caught them in the middle of something. and they're doing well, and when they're not air rallying they pretend they are!

#hellooo its been a *checks watch* 11 month while lol #i dont wanna say im BACK back but thank you to all the semi-regular asks and activity you guys still give this place ;v; #i have a few more asked planned <3 #badmintonbuddies #rhythm heaven #ask blog #rh #air rally #baxter #forthington #comic #nintendask

[c-kiddo]

o wait ok this is perfect!! i think yasha & the orphanmakers would b very inconstistent style-wise , but ! if they did more folky things, similar to this kinda sound (especially vocally) for sure :-3 

just imagine with extra jes vocals a little bit lo l. she’s playing a clunky xylophone or something in th background probably .. i love diane clucks vocal breaks n stuff so ., projects it on yasha bc she usually talks so quietly , perhaps some fun stuff happens when shes brave enough to sing loud 

#ive been meanign to listen to these singles and finally did and Worth it :-3 #been a big diane cluck fan for many years n meaning to listen to jeffrey lewis more #since my dad showed me th one . will oldham ?? song a few months back #*williamsburg will oldham horror. is the song name. i just checked #kiddo saw

[born-to-lose]

The feminine urge to block or at least unfollow people to protect my peace even if I still like them while also not wanting to hurt their feelings and make things worse between you

#several people. former friends. exes. etc #maybe i should just do it and pray they understand but idk i'm afraid it will only fuck everything up even more #sometimes i feel sick when i give in to the urge to check their profile despite promising myself not to do it today #and i don't want to feel even more terrible than i already do #but then again i want to try and talk to most of them after a few weeks or months break and some of their birthdays are coming up #so i don't wanna block them and upset them and then come crawling back like 'hey happy birthday wanna hang?' #solutions: 1) suicide 2) isolate myself from everyone so nobody feels discriminated 3) throw my phone in a river and live in the woods #mel talks

[xannerz]

Vigo has a heart murmur

#we went in today bc he hurt his back #and then the vet noticed this she checked twice #the vet ranked it a 3/6 #we did an x ray his hearts a little enlarged too #almost started crying in the vet office lmao #I’m just crying on the car ride back I’m glad my dad offered to drive lmao #I’m just floored bc a few months ago he got checked and he was fine #and last Jan we dealt w the tumor surgery #and I was like wow thank god we caught that early #the vet gave me a cardiologist referral #I’ll see how soon I can take him in #he’s not even on a grain free diet or anything I avoided that specifically #bc I know there are studies showing a link btwn those diets and some like heart issue in dogs IIRC?? #she told me it wasn’t anything I did to cause it bc I kept asking like did I do anything wrong 🙃 #xangoeswah

[bluesey-182]

this is so stupid coming from a seasoned high-fantasy reader but i just opened a book and saw 8 pages of vocabulary needed to understand the book and immediately closed the book again

#1.) i don't have the brain capacity for that rn #2.) my local library opens again next week after being closed all summer so i gotta be picky about the books i read before they're all due #bc all the books checked out from said library when they closed isn't due back till the re-opening (3 months apart) #and i have 30 books checked out. oops #and 3.) the first few pages made it obvious these vocab words weren't going to be explained in the story #and if you're not gonna do that and expect me instead to flip back and forth to your 8 pages of definitions... im not reading it #that breaks to reading flow way too much and way too often #text post

[deus-ex-mona]

there’s a non-non-zero chance of success though… _(:3 」∠)_

#long depressing rant in the tags incoming ig? take warning!! #maybe it’s bc it’s 3am and i’m tired or maybe it’s bc of the 8-9 hour old fried vermicelli that i just gave up on eating but my head hurts~~ #or maybe it could even be bc i spent like 3 hours unpacking my boxes (note: my fam moved last month) instead of chilling like i wanted to… #either way i saw some things while unpacking that i really should’ve left in the distant past and i’m feeling as empty as my stomach pre-米粉 #though i did uncover a dogtag i had engraved years ago with nothing but a ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) on it so that was pretty funny #but other than that… i remembered all the weird things i had given up on in the past via the things i unearthed… #like cooking! i unpacked this huge 1k+ page thick cookbook thing and remembered that i had a phase where i liked to cook #then i remembered that i had mistaken salt for sugar while making some meat dish with a ton of soy sauce and byebye cooking confidence :( #and to add to that i also read a past essay of mine about my culture and i remembered my grandma and i. yeah. #and i also saw stuff from my old hobbies that i had to give up on due to money/time constraints and i just. yeah. #and not to forget all the stuff from my former friends… i swear i always get ghosted the moment we affirm that we’re friends lol #am i a walking maxed social link or something? lol? yeah i have no irl friends. none. #i’ve gotten used to it though~ i don’t mind having no friends. it leaves me with more time for myself and my sleep~ #it’s just that… sometimes i get the urge to hop over the country border for some ~chewing gum~ shopping… but there’s no one to go with lol #or like when i see interesting-looking events going on at local attractions but there’s no one to check it out with… or something. #and that got me wondering… am i just wasting my life or something? it’s a new year right? so i should make some lifestyle changes too right? #…​and so i bought a hairdryer for the first time a few days back. yeah. that’s enough change for 1 year. lol #who needs friends when you can have a nice warm hairdryer? blast away good pal!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyways yeah. that’s my 3am rant of the day. sorry if you read this lol #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂 #h e lp i forgot to disable rbs on this for a bit i hate 3am brain smmmm </3

[sysig]

I thought I was done being feral about Tamagotchis but no, it was just a lull

#I was already interested in getting a Gotchi for the past couple months and then KKClue dropped that video (praise be) #And Then I learned that there was a cheap way of purchasing legit Japanese Gotchis?? I may uh. Have. Purchased a few #I never really had That Moment as a kid or teen of being impulsive with money - I'd either save it up and get one big thing #Or I'd buy little things until I eventually ran out - and that habit has kinda continued into adulthood lol #Nowadays the one big thing is usually something like a new computer when my old one dies but it certainly is a big thing lol #And I like getting little things like my puzzle cubes <3 But I'm fairly miserly! #Well. Until. #I've finally hit The Phase of impulsive purchases because of a perfect storm of Things Happening lol #I first wrote down that I wanted to start looking for Tamagotchis in March of this year and I was going about it rather casually to start #Just looking around Big Box stores to check pricing - then various toy and vintage stores to see if they had stock #Most of them didn't but I did get in some delightful networking :D I want to go back and continue! #I finally broke down a week ago and checked Amazon for the ''custom'' shell designs because I like the galaxy one hehe #And then - that accursed video (affectionate) #I may have watched it five times so far lol and then actually bit the bullet and checked out the sponsor and Fucking Hell #I can never get into gambling this does absolutely wack shit to my brain it's only half about the Gotchis themselves anymore #That said I am very excited for my Mesutchi to arrive! I really want to get an Osutchi to go with her and a Gen 1 and and and #I want to collect all the Angelgotchs so bad you don't understand I Must Have them in all the colours it's very important #I'm even considering doing some kind of Project with them once they arrive I don't know it's just all so exciting #I'm feeling very normal #Oh yeah and barely related other than IRL silliness - I finally got a haircut! :D #It'll take a bit for my sona to update but it was today! All sorts of things haha

[valandherweekofwonders]

yeah so apart from a small assignment a professor gave me an extension for, i am all done this semester and thank goodness for it.

#wrote my last exam this morning and you know what? even if i fail i really did do my best given my circumstances #which were INSANE these last few months and constantly changing too #idk im just im so proud of myself for surviving through this far its been really difficult and its still all difficult but yeah #celebrate the victories you do get #attempting positivity and bright thinking is so hard after being so sad and bitter for such a long time but also refreshing #already today i got myself yummy treats and watched a movie under my blankets for fun and it was so nice to just watch the movie and #not have to check my phone to sew if i was needed or to get back to working on a deadline or some task #and i actually have time to play video games now and i always say ill play for 12 hours but i usually get a headache after like 3 hours bu #but the point is having fun i just want to have fun i have not had any fun in months im not exaggerating #everything really has just been so grim and bleak for me but hopefully dedicating some time to forcing myself into an activity will help #i really need to shift gears and focus on recovery now because i let things get so bad #yeah sometimes i experience hope and various types of positivity #ezra.txt

[soulemissary]

i need...something to hyperfix on

#wandertext ♡ #it's looking like xenoblade chronicles. i have it but only played thru a few hrs #and tonight blasted thru like 5 hrs of it #i was hoping id hyperfix on enstars but ive already played thru all of the main story thats available #and i dont get into rhythm games enough to play it outside of that really #hollow knight worked for a bit...i really want to finish it but i simply. have not been able to. #my gf's been playing crk again and i also cannot get into that. weird bc i hyperfixed on it for like a month last yr #rummaging thru both my brain and my stuff to try and find a suitable option in case xenoblade doesnt work #i think hyperfixing on idv for so long really just killed me now if i don't have smth i flop over like a silly fish and stop functioning #cannot believe i played that godawful game for a year and a half and then also latched onto like 6 of the characters from it #given the opportunity i'd go back to pc league but the internet's so shit. i'm not even sure it'll work well enough for work if we fix it #im kind of just Hoping it will. lmfao. #it's also 1:30 and i am not asleep which is not a good sign for tomorrow. but whatever i don't have anything i need to get done #going to double check pocket camp one more time then try and put myself to bed #bc i have been nauseous for like. 3 hours. and i am sick of it #i talk like i'm giving a presentation don't i. or like a business meeting. i wish to study myself and invite everyone else to do the same

[totally-original-artist]

Hey you okay? Been silent and I'm assuming it's burn out or just a break but hope all is well <3

yea i have no idea how people manage to stay in one fandom for more than a few months tbh cheers to content creators making obey me stuff regularly for years 🍻

#ask #anon #annnd a few other things #also i got a part time job that eats into my free time after classes so i wanna use the few hours I do have to binge anime #also #thank you sm for checking in anon. it means a lot to me <3 #i'll probably be back in a few years like last time lol #months* #ehh not sure anymore time is a social construct

[blacktinnedpeaches]

wed morning 704- up at 7 with almost no sleep, haven't taken any valium yet but if Ben stays home from work again I will. feeling very bad: heart rate through the roof, not breathing well

cat is here sleeping on my bed - and that is quite soothing

messaged Ben 5 mins ago asking if he's going to work but no response yet and it's real torture. not knowing is the worst. I do feel pretty crazy which doesn't feel good. really hope he goes to work and that I calm down. really wish I could disconnect those two things BC it feels like it's not in my control at all. which it isn't, but that is making me more anxious instead of zen

708 he replied he is going to work. I just want to cry now at how ridiculous this situation is. I'm so tired!!! I'm so fucking tired and I am shaking so much I can barely hold my phone and I just feel so like thrown back into the worst of my life whenever I get like this even though I know it's changed I KNOW. and I'm always so scared this is going to be the time I don't come back properly, BC how can I expect to come back perfectly every time? like I feel all these episodes must chip away at my ability to live a normal life every time they happen. I can almost hear Ben telling me I'm a moron for that last sentence lmao but it's just how I feel 🥲

#gonna keep a record of Stuff over the next few days and compare it to the one i did like 6 months back to see if anything is better #just checked it was only 3 months ago lol fuck my life