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shdkrsk · 10 months

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Old After Pain theory I wrote during trial 1

It should still have some relevance!! (in fact, most of it still stands)

This is just a copy-paste from a drive document, so please excuse if the formatting is weird at times.

Things I’ll be referencing:

https://privatter.net/p/6558898 - translation of the blackboards

Muu’s profile, in particular these facts:

DOB: 5th of July

Age: 16

Japanese/Half French.

Wealthy.

She’s prideful and whines and cries when met with opposition.

These voice clips:

“That’s right. I killed someone. But I couldn’t help it! If I didn’t, there’d be no way to escape. I’m… not the bad one.”

“Whether what I did was ‘bad’ or not, how can other people know that? The kind of bitter experiences I had to go through, there isn’t a person out there who’d understand them.”

And, of course, the MV :)

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A few things to establish first:

There’s 6 main actors in the MV:

Muu

The girl Muu kills (I’ll be calling her Classmate) (UPDATE: we now know her name to be Rei, but just so I won't have to edit the whole theory she will still be named Classmate)

The bully trio

The girl who kills herself before the MV starts (I’ll be calling her Dead Girl)

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A rough timeline of how it seems to play out (please click on the references to read about each part): Pre-summer vacation (around April):

Muu joins her high school class

Muu joins the Bully Trio

The Dead Girl kills herself due to bullying

The class turns on Muu, blaming her for the suicide of the student

Post-summer vacation (around October):

Muu gets bullied by the Bully Trio (MV)

Classmate sees Muu get bullied, but doesn’t react to it

Muu is fed up, runs after Classmate who rejects her again, and she stabs her

MV ends

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Timeline:

The first elephant in the room is the timeline. It would be easy to say that the blackboards symbolize the start and the end of the story, but there are multiple hints as to why this isn’t the case.

The first blackboard is definitely meant for Muu. Reading the translation, this becomes very clear:

She’s mentioned by class, last name and first name, removing any reason to believe it’s not about her.

It also references her background mentioned in her profile, including her being a crybaby and her parents being rich:

The second blackboard, however, has several statements going against it being Muu.

Muu is not drawn to wear any special makeup.

She comes from a rich family.

The flowers refer to the flowers on the desk at the end of the PV, on the seat next to Muu.

You could argue the flowers that Muu is holding are what they’re referring to, but I think combined with the other statements it’s safe to say that they’re directed at a girl who already passed (Dead Girl).

To add more proof to this being the way the timeline is supposed to be seen, there’s another detail to look at - the calendar at the side of the classroom.

In the first shot, we see this calendar:

And in the second shot, we see this one:

It’s hard to decipher the type of flower on the first picture, but the second picture seems to be the iconic Japanese flower, the sakura flower/cherry blossom.

In Japan, these flowers symbolize spring and on a calendar, they would signify it being one of the spring months (March, April and May). Coincidentally, school starts in April in Japan, as opposed to Western schools that start after Summer break.

This means the second shot is taken at the start of the school year, either the first or the second year.

This part is semi-speculation, but due to how Muu’s birthday is placed, she would be 15 at the start of the year and 16 by the end of it. We know Muu is 16, but we have no clue of when Milgram actually starts. To me, it would make more sense for her age to be 16 during 1st/2nd grade, rather than 2nd/3rd grade, but it’s hard to judge by.

Sometimes, Japanese schools also mix up classes between grades. This is another reason I believe the blackboard is at the start of the 1st year as opposed to the start of the 2nd year.

Looking at the school uniforms, she also has a lighter version of her uniform at the end shot (showing her Summer version - maybe?)

Compared to the outfit she wears most of the PV, which includes her thick sweater (Winter version?)

They change uniforms on June 1st and October 1st. Of course, this is just speculation, but it would also suggest the bulk of the MV takes place after October 1st.

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Muu was a bully, or was at least friends with them before.

At around 1:24 in the song, we see her fallen phone with a conversation open. This is the conversation:

As seen by this conversation, Muu is on a pretty friendly term with these girls, even going as far as to hang out with them outside of school on multiple occasions and giving them leftover makeup.

The profile pictures of the girls match the Bully Trio we see in the MV:

UPDATE post-trial 2 start:

With all the symbolism of Muu being a queen bee (referencing honey, her birthday art, etc.), I’m leaning more towards her being the leader of the group during “After Pain”. It’s still hard to tell though, of course.

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Muu was ostrasized for causing the Dead Girl to commit suicide.

This one is also from the blackboards.

On the first blackboard, the one we know is aimed at Muu due to her name drop, we get comments like these:

Especially comment number 10 and number 15 suggests that they think she has done something illegal or at least morally abhorrent to the extent it would warrant such a reaction.

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Now the second elephant in the room is… who is Classmate?

Classmate seems to have a big role in Muu’s life - or at least the PV - as she’s the only character besides Muu that has her face shown.

I considered briefly if she was Muu’s sister or twin, but one of Muu’s answers during interrogation busts this:

The point where Muu kills her in the song (2:20), she sings twice: “anata ga suki yo”, translated to “I like YOU.”

This would suggest Muu has romantic feelings for, or at least very strong positive feelings, towards Classmate. It’s unclear currently how deep their feelings are, how close they are, etc. but due to her face being shown + the line “I like YOU.” I will be going by the assumption that Muu likes her romantically.

The reason Muu kills her is because she rejects her.

Classmate sees Muu being bullied (1:55), but does nothing to help her, just looks down at her as Muu lays on the bathroom floor.

We see Muu looking up at her with the line “I love YOU.”, the circles and wide nature of the eye hinting at her being at her wits end:

She runs after Classmate, desperate and grabs onto her, once again professing “I love YOU.” in the song:

Classmate pulls away and it’s at this moment that Muu stabs her, to the surprise of both her and Classmate:

To me, it seems either Muu’s confession or cry for help was rejected (maybe both?)

It might even be as far as Classmate rejecting Muu’s cry for help and Muu misinterpreting it as a romantic rejection indirectly.

Muu definitely seems to think that something bad was done to her:

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Summary:

Muu is a rich girl who joined a high school class when she was 15. Due to the nature of her person, being a person who values peace and having grown up being rich, she finds herself caught up with a group of three bullies that use her. They use her wealth to get extra makeup, but they also use her to help bully a girl into suicide. After the girl dies, Muu suddenly finds that everyone in class has been turned on her - calling her a criminal and such - and her old ‘friends’ are the primary bullies.

Tired and fed up of being bullied by these girls day in and day out, she reaches out to the girl she likes (one she perhaps knew before?) and tries to ask for help. The girl rejects her, possibly due to Muu being a bully before, and tries to get away, but Muu snaps and stabs her, causing her to die and cause her Milgram Murder™.

#milgram #muu kusunoki #mu kusunoki #theory #milgram theory #mu theory #muu theory

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herrlindemann · 2 years

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Hard Rock & Metal Hammer - February 2001

On April 2nd the wait will be over, the new Rammstein album Mutter will finally be released. 20 months will have passed as the band worked hard around the world on this next milestone in their career. Here are the individual stages.

Rammstein choose the setting according to the motto "Solitude inspires.” After Poland was originally considered as the ideal destination, the band's reconnaissance team finally found an empty house in Heiligendamm on the Baltic Sea, which they renovated for their purposes.

September to December 1999 - Heiligendamm

The first chapter of Mutter is all about craftsmanship: installing and connecting toilets. Seal the windows, get six beds from Ikea, set up the kitchen... "The perfect start," says Flake about this somewhat unusual scenario. “You're distracted, you don't feel any pressure, and besides, technical success is one of the most satisfying things in the world.” About the seclusion - “the next house is far away, so we can make noise undisturbed” - the first musical steps are dared. “Our rehearsal room is portable,” Olli explains the further procedure, “that's why the stuff could be moved to Heiligendamm without any problems.” Although the band speculate that the sound could spill as far as Sweden, a beech forest on the land side muffles the first pounding chords. In the next few weeks, all the songs that will ultimately be featured on Mutter will be created here, "and about 90 percent will be rejected,” says Flake. “We often create several versions of an idea, we often only make it after a long discussion process.” The argument often drags on for days, but it is important. “Unfortunately, it's not like I'm the advocate of the keyboard for us, but everyone has an opinion on everything. But that also has its good sides: I don't think like a guitarist, so I'm not so technically uptight when I criticize a part that I find problematic.”

Afterwards, back to Berlin, where the finishing touches on the material are continued. At the same time, the search for a suitable studio begins. The criteria for this is strict: "It should be abroad, the drums should also be able to be recorded on site, so that we can still make short-term changes and generally play together, and of course it should also be nice," Olli summarizes the requirements.

Spring 2000 - Miraval Studio, South of France

The object of desire has finally been found: The Miraval Studio in the south of France, a secluded 11th-century chateau, "properly medieval and solidly built of rocks", as Flake enthusiastically reports. This choice means another pause: before May, the studio is plain too cold to move into. The wait is grueling. “You fiddle around, but you don't get a decisive step further,” Olli sums up the frustration. The result is “operational blindness”, which is why many details are again in question when the band moves into their noble domicile on Labor Day, May 1st. “As a matter of fact, as soon as the studio door closes, you should concentrate on the recording work. Instead, we argue about Till's texts, which can really wait." The rural atmosphere and the beautiful spring weather finally work their magic, so that the six weeks, according to Flake, go by "like a day".

June 2000 - Galaxy Studio, Belgium

With the recorded material, they go to a proven helper for the first mixing attempts: Ronald Prent has already edited the first two Rammstein albums, he is the first to put his hand to the new songs. However, the enthusiasm is limited, although the record company already smells gold and invites the first journalists to the Galaxy Studio so that they can convince themselves of the quality of the music. At this point, six titles were made accessible to a wider circle for the first time, including the song 'Sonne', which is now being released as the pre-single for Mutter, but which still has the working title 'Klitschko'. This song is supposed to be the introductory music for Vitali Klitschko's first world championship fight in America, but is now appropriated for Mutter after his embarrassing defeat by Chris Byrd.

"It's just the usual," the band conclude after hearing Prent's work, implying, "It's not enough.” Two things dominate the long development time of Mutter: The extremely democratic and therefore time-consuming decision-making process within the band, and the will to absolute perfection. “We had hoped so, but now we know: It can't work with Prent”, Flake explains the situation. “He doesn't have enough time — we've already had to stop work from time to time — and we're hoping to find someone who can give the music an extra boost.” Names like Andy Wallace (Slayer) or Dave Ogilvie (Nine Inch Nails) are in the air, but as is so often the case, there is a price to pay: time. It will take time to find a new solution. The band can't be bothered. "It takes as long as it takes" becomes a dictum. Luckily, an event is coming up that will save the band from falling back into frenzied and fruitless do-gooding: the first gig in distant Japan.

October 2000 - MVG Studios, Stockholm

Scheduling difficulties for all the big names that were in discussion in the meantime ultimately lead to a pragmatic solution: Jacob Kellner as producer and Stefan Glaumann as mixer create the final mix in Stockholm, Sweden. Here, too, Rammstein take their time: They only spend a few hours a day in the studio in order to always work towards the optimum with the greatest attention and sharpened hearing. Although it is foreseeable that the result will live up to all expectations, the tension is increasing. Peter Tägtgren, the notorious black metal producer, can look forward to a visit from Till and Flake one weekend; they want to trade the autumn dreariness of Stockholm for some country air. At a biker club in Ludvika, the next settlement that's even halfway worthy of the 'town' name, they let off steam: Till gets involved in a fight with the local bikers and gets a good punch in the face. What looks like defeat is victory, a sign of liberation: Mutter is finally done.

Of course, the work for Rammstein continues. The visual concept is developed, the photo session is carried out. The biggest task, however, is to develop the new stage show for the tour through Germany and the world starting in May. Considerations on this have been running parallel to the purely musical discussions for a long time. “Normally it takes almost a year to fully develop such a concept. For a long time we could only collect scraps of ideas. It's going to be tough," Flake describes the never-ending stress that will probably only subside when the band is on stage for the first time.

#Rammstein #Till Lindemann #Flake Lorenz #Christoph Schneider #Paul Landers #Richard Krusep #Oliver Riedel #2001 #translation #*#*scans

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absolutebl · 3 years

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This Week in BL

March 2021 Part 4

Being a highly subjective assessment of one tiny corner of the interwebs.

This is a LONG ONE, it’s been A WEEK everyone.

Ongoing Series - Thai

Lovely Writer Ep 5 - a little slow this week, but at least Gene finally flirted back, and very cute flirting it was, too. Also we got Aey’s motivation, background, and love interest. Thank goodness for that.

Brothers Ep 8 - still pants, what can I say? Clearly I am a BL masochist. Very embarrassing for everyone concerned.

1000 Stars Ep 9 - the conflict over Tian’s father was REALLY well done. The plot of this drama is excellent, the leads are great together, and yes I totally cried. What, you didn’t?

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Word of Honor (China) Ep 16-18 - big battle fighty fighty stabby stabby. Ep 17 switches to “this drama isn’t big enough for two chaotic-neutral godlings!” So what do they do? Drink together and bicker... A LOT. Then in Ep 18 we all get the dubious joy of really freaky puppets. (I HATE puppets.) Also how is China letting this be so SO VERY VERY GAY? Also, I wanna walk through the forest wearing a smanshy purple robe and waving a big fuck-off white fan around simply because I’m a pretentious fuss monger. And frankly, I feel like this is an achievable life goal for me.

We Best Love 2 (Taiwan) Ep 4 - not gonna lie, this is looking to be one of my top 3 BLs of 2021. It’s SO GOOD. Big bonus to this ep for treating stalker behavior like the mental illness it is and not as some dumb representation of enduring love.

The Most Peaceful Place is My Place (Vietnam) Ep 1 - finally dropped (find it under NƠI BÌNH YÊN NHẤT LÀ VỀ BÊN EM on O2′s channel). It’s got actors already comfortable with BL and looks pretty good so far. An angry tsundere uke reunited with his ex, a stoic chef, giving us lots of snap, crackle, and pop out the gate.

Dear Uranus (Taiwan GL) Ep 2 - I want to love it, but it is just moving too fast. There’s not enough character dev and then they’re throwing flashbacks in? It feels like a treatment rather than a show, and a rushed treatment at that. Bummer.

HIStory 4: Close To You (Taiwan) Ep 2 (AKA Ep 3-4) - let the cheesy popcorn continue! Idiot remains an idiot; ingenue remains an ice queen; nice gay guy remains nice and gay; obsessive stalker brother is getting ever more whackadoddle. Of course these last two have the best chemistry. (It’s caregiver codependency and the salvation trope. We got us a Leo/Fiat situation going on.) Plus lots of classic BL tropes because OF COURSE there are lots of tropes.

Occasionally, I am tempted to argue that shows like H4 or Cherry Magic or Ossan’s Love aren’t technically BL because of the office setting and age of the protags - but then they all behave like high school students anyway, so *shrug*

Stand Alones

Cute little Taiwanese micro BL Friend or Lover dropped, about bisexual realization within a friendship group. Normally these are too short for me, but this one did pretty good with its 15 minutes of charm, plus it’s abad boy + shy softy pairing.

Breaking News - Thai BL

Fish Upon the Sky released its actual trailer. The upside-down kiss is gone, which makes everyone sad, and it seems far less rivals to lovers than the first iteration, which makes ME sad. But it still looks good and a more classic BL than GMMTV has given us in a while. New trailer focused more on the makeover trope and they’ve upped Mix’s role (the object of everyone’s affection) now that he’s proved himself. (Or they are using him more to carry the trailer since he has a fan base form 1k*). Starts April 9 on GMMTV in 1K*’s time slot, probably with a 10 ep run.

2gether the movie is apparently coming April 22 to Thai theaters. F4 Thailand must be having issues or GMMTV just wants to milk the BrightWin cash cow. It’s rumored to be a combination of 2gehter + Still 2gether with some extra scenes and ending. Also, one assumes a lot will be cut out, if it’s movie length.

Call It What You Want released its updated trailer. If anything, it looks more scary than before. What are we in for? April 9th.

Nitiman got a release date, May 7 on One31.

I Told Sunset About You 2 got an updated release date of May 27 on LineTV.

Second Chance the series is coming to LineTV on March 29. I don’t know much about this one. Tons of familiar faces (mostly TharnType side dishes) and some nice looking new talent but a dearth of eng subs. I think it may take on Brothers’ time slot. Line did eng subs for Brothers so maybe they will do 2nd Chance too?

Close Friend the series is coming April 22. This is a combination of 6 couples with 6 story arcs as music videos (maybe)? It’s an epic fan service with familiar faces like OhmFluke (UWMA), MaxNat (LBC also in Y-Destiny), YoonLay (YYY also in Y-Destiny), KimCop (GenY), and JaFirst (TT2).

Y-Destiny starts March 30, and has starting dropping couple’s trailers. I’m still suspicious given the director but it seems like there is plot (or plots) and a theme. Looks to be a series of 7 single ep vignettes (amended, see comments, might be 2 eps each for 14 eps total), different couple each time, some with supernatural elements, all with decent chemistry and acting chops.

Sun MaxNat’s tutor/student arc

Mon jaded rich kid meets poor innocent

Tues sports romance enemies to lovers

Weds the messy realistic actual dating one

Thurs hot ghost boyfriend (sad)

Fri YoonLayPerth coping with loss and finding new love (sad). This one will all rest on Lay's acting so we know it’s in safe hands. Our boy is going to KILL it.

Sat time-slip memory loss reunion romance

I’m thinking we can’t expect any of these to end happy or be classic BL. They’re gonna be more slice of life-ish.

Gossip - BL Outside of Thailand

Scholar Ryu’s Wedding Ceremony AKA Nobleman Ryu’s Wedding (Korean historical BL) got a legit teaser (eng sub here). @curriculumvtae reports that it’s releasing April 15th on WeTV (Philippines & Thailand) and Idol Romance (South Korea), while Will of Thai Bl says it’ll be on Viki too. It’s a short run of 8 ep built on a fake relationship trope (arranged marriage variant):

Ryu Ho Seon’s (Kang In Soo from You Wish) arranged marriage turns out to be with his expected bride’s brother, Choi Ki Wan (Lee Se Jin from Mr Heart). Ryu tries to undo the marriage, but his ill mother opposes this saying the scandal would be too much. Meanwhile, Kim Tae Hyeong (Jang Eui Soo from Where Your Eyes Linger), a senior at Ryu’s school, comes to congratulate him and falls in love with Choi. Then one day, the original bride disappears.

Okay it seems a bit twisty turny for ONLY 8 EPS, but oh my goodness how excited are we? Our first intentional historical BL out of Korea!

We already knew Hong Kong was doing a remake of Japan’s Ossan’s Love under the same name (not my favorite Japanese BL but so very popular) but it’s now reported to be coming to Viu in June. Who knows how the CFA will take it. Depends on whether Hong Kong bows before the NO GAY KISSES regs or if they are going to use this as a political nose thumb... things could get cray with this puppy (the original has several kisses and s shower scene). Are we back in Addicted territory only with added comedy and civil unrest?

Speaking of Japan, Absolute BL (AKA Zettai BL ni Naru Sekai vs Zettai BL ni Naritakunai Otoko) dropped sooner than anyone thought, March 27. But being Japanese who knows how/when/if we get subs. Protag finds himself trapped in a world of BL, but being straight he fights against any hot guy that draws near, but the whole world (literally) is conspiring against him. It’s a parody adapted from a yoai.

What with Absolute BL from Japan plus Lovely Writer and Call it What You Want from Thailand, is 2021 the year of BL being ultra self referential? Sure feels like it.

In Case You Missed It

Faded a gay micro film from Taiwan from 2017 deals with parental acceptance and serves up a ton of BL tropes (piggyback, forehead kiss, etc). I’m pretty sure this was a propaganda piece for legalization of gay marriage, and it’s an interesting nugget of BL history as a result. Yes, it ends happy. It’s cute.

Next Week Looks Like This:

Some shows may be listed a day later than actual air date for accessibility reasons.

Upcoming 2021 BL master post here.

Links to watch are provided when possible, ask in a comment if I missed something.

Man there’s a lot going on right now! Spring has sprung... I suppose.

P.S. I cannot believe I missed Absolute BL as a blog name. Numbnuts = me.

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justoneofthoseghosts · 3 years

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Break me + brettsey

A/N: To the anons who requested for this, I tried my best 🥲 Also, you know I love fluff so wow, this was really emotional to write but I do love a challenge so er, grab some tissues maybe.

Warnings: character death

Throughout the years, Sylvie has learned that life isn’t always fair.

No matter how hard she studied for the 2nd grade spelling bee, someone studied harder and got that big, shiny trophy. She had her first kiss at seventeen with a boy she thought she’d love forever but he ended up being a manipulative jerk, just the first of many who turned out to be frogs instead of princes. Her birth mom sought her out and just as they found their footing, she died at child birth.

But this one, it really takes the cake, Sylvie thinks.

She pleaded with Matt to get his cough checked out weeks ago, asking him politely when she noticed it getting more and more frequent. It crept in especially late at night in bed when they were supposed to be sleeping, instead, she would hear him try to stifle it so as not to wake her. He shrugged it off and told her not to worry, which is classic Matt. She should have known. Even after all these years, her husband is still so stubborn.

One night, when the coughing won’t stop, she manages to get through to him and he agrees to go to the ED. Sylvie grabs the car keys and leads him out the door.

They greet the new charge nurse, who brings them into a treatment room. Sylvie doesn’t think much of it as Ethan comes in and they make small talk and catch up with the ED chief, who at 70 seems to show no signs of retiring. He orders a few standard tests. They wheel Matt off to get an x ray while Sylvie goes to grab a snack from the vending machine.

When Ethan finds her forty minutes later, his face is grim. Her heart drops to the pit of her stomach and she knows it’s not just an ordinary cough.

Stage 4 lung cancer.

Matt Casey, retired CFD battalion chief has stage 4 lung cancer.

It’s like a cruel joke. Matt’s never smoked a single cigarette in his life but his career as a firefighter has finally caught up with him - all the fumes, the smoke, the dust have made their way into his lungs. Sylvie doesn’t cry while the oncologist takes them through their options. She’d gladly sit through a hundred rounds of chemo with Matt if needed.

Except he doesn’t want that.

They argue about it for several weeks. Matt says he wants to spend the rest of his days at home, maybe they can rent a cabin in the woods in Michigan where the air is fresh, the sky is blue and they can just be, waiting for the inevitable.

“Matt,” she starts to say, an edge in her tone. They've been going around in circles and Sylvie is ready to put her foot down.

Matt shakes his head, taking her hand and gently telling her what he's been repeating since that day they found out, “I’ve lived a full life. We have these great kids and grandkids. I can’t ask for anything more.”

Sylvie yanks her hand out of his grasp. She's had enough.

“What would you do if it were the other way around?” She yells, her voice trembling slightly. She doesn’t think she’s every screamed at him this loudly in all their years together but she doesn’t want to give up. She needs him to understand.

Matt sighs, running a hand through his now grey hair. After a beat, he looks her in the eye. She knows he can't lie and say he'll take it lying down if she were to tell him what he's been parroting.

“I’d be begging you to get the treatment because I couldn’t bear to live a day without you,” he admits quietly.

They hold each other’s gazes, neither willing to concede.

“Please, Matt,” Sylvie whispers as she feels the tears threatening to fall. She grabs hold of his arm, squeezing it. She needs him to fight, if not for himself then for her because she doesn't think she can handle life without him, not quite yet.

He finally relents, “okay, okay, we’ll get the chemo.”

He wraps his arms around her and pulls her close. Sylvie burrows deeper into his embrace, sobbing. She cries for the first time since they found out about the cancer and Matt rubs his hand over her back, comforting her.

Sylvie drives Matt to the hospital for his rounds of chemo while he jokes about shaving off his hair. One night, she wakes up to find his side of the bed empty and the light in the bathroom on. She peers in and sees him kneeling in front of the toilet, vomiting. She takes a seat beside him and quietly helps him, remembering their wedding vows.

In sickness and in health.

On the side, she starts to volunteer for the CFD’s firefighters cancer network, trying to raise more awareness on the dangers of such a noble job. She cheers with Matt one Spring morning when Gallo, Violet and Ritter decide to run the half marathon in full firefighter gear, in support of the cause. She’s glad that even if they’ve both retired, 51 still remains to be a part of their family.

Six months in, the doctor tells them that the chemo isn’t working as well as he hoped and the prognosis isn’t good. Sylvie still wants to continue but Matt sits her down one night after dinner.

“I think it’s time we just wait this out, Syl.” He tells her gently, interlacing his fingers in hers.

Sylvie wants to say no because this can’t be how it ends for him, someone spent his life saving people is about to succumb to a deadly, incurable disease. It really, truly is unfair.

But at the same time, she understands his request. He doesn’t want to put their family through another roller coaster ride of emotions, of uncertainty, waiting for the other shoe to drop. He’s saying he wants to take the reins and do it his way.

It reminds Sylvie of that quote from Harry Potter she read when she was younger.

To the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.

She didn't understand it at all at thirteen but she does now, glancing over at Matt and seeing the steely resolve in his eyes.

They’ve been together for over 30 years. They’ve built a home filled with love and kindness, full of laughter and running blonde children who all grew up to be exceptional adults with thriving careers. They have two wonderful, adorable grandchildren. She remembers what Matt told her, how he’s lived a full life.

She feels a tear slide down her cheek and Matt’s other hand brushes it away. She knows the next word coming out of her mouth will break her heart but she says it anyway because it's what's right.

“Okay.”

There’s something in the air, Sylvie thinks and her soul begins to fill with dread. Today, it seems, is the day. Matt’s been in bed for the last three days, not really able to move or eat much. Without the chemo, the doctor told them he had about three months to live and with each day that passed after that, Sylvie started to feel hope that maybe he had more to give.

It’s been a little over a year since the diagnosis. Sylvie’s trying to read a book while Matt is taking a nap. She’s distracted by her thoughts but hears him whisper.

“I think it’s time.”

She nods, her lower lip quivering. She approaches him and kisses the top of his head before making her way out of the room to make a few phone calls.

The house starts to fill with family and friends arriving to say their last good byes. Their kids are here, surrounding their dad and telling stories about how Matt always put them first no matter what. The remaining members of their second shift at 51 start to trickle in one by one. Sylvie told them it was going to be a celebration of Matt’s life, how she didn’t want them to mope around because it isn’t what he would want so they laugh and jest until late in the evening.

Matt kisses his grandkids one last time before they leave and Sylvie climbs into bed with him. He rests his head on her shoulder as she holds his hand and watches his eyes flutter close and his breathing gradually stop.

Sylvie recollects their many years together - growing from friends to something deeper, the first time Matt swung like Tarzan from the aerial after they got together and Sylvie telling him never to do it again and of course he did many more time and she never really stopped worrying, buying a house, their wedding day, the birth of their children, sending off each kid to preschool up until watching them graduate from college, meeting their grandchildren for the first time, celebrating personal and professional milestones together, cheering each other on.

She looks at her husband’s still form thinking yes, it has been a full life.

#you ask for angst and I try to deliver #but wow that was hard to write #and I'm sorry in advance #chicago fire #brettsey #fanfic prompt

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southernbell91 · 4 years

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Necessary Distraction

Character: Billy Lee (Bad times at the El Royale) x Reader

Rating: 18+, NSFW

Warnings: Smut, Cock Warming, somewhat public sexual situation

Word Count: 1874

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It wasn’t uncommon for Billy to hold meetings in the big house, especially ones that he didn’t want the rest of the collective to interfere with. No one went in the big house unless asked by Billy. That made things all the more strange when he sent someone to ask you to join him on a meeting day. You hadn’t been with the group long, only 6 months or so, you had been in the big house once. It was one morning when Rose, or boots as Billy called her, saw Billy leaving from your tent before day break. You got up early to start on your chores when you were jumped, showing up fairly quickly he stopped the fight, banning her from the house for weeks and taking you in to get cleaned up.

Shaking the memories from your head you nodded at the woman he sent after you and cleaned up, making your way up to the big house. Heading in you went straight for the kitchen, the girl in their pointing you upstairs to Billy’s room. Uncharted territory. Taking the creaky stairs one step at a time you worked your way to Billy’s room, your nerves starting to get the best of you. You couldn’t even begin to imagine what he could want from you, not today when the collective elders as he called it were set to gather to talk about who knows what. Letting out the breath you didn’t realize you had been holding you tapped lightly on the door. Footsteps thudding on the other side matched your rapidly beating heart as he opened the door.

“Well hello there darling” He greeted, his wicked smile beaming at you. “Come on in, I have a proposition I’d like to discuss with you.” He said, stepping to the side.

Walking through the door, the sound of it closing echoed throughout the room.

“Proposition? What sort of proposition Billy?” You asked, voice audibly shakey.

You looked around taking in your surroundings, thoroughly impressed with Billy’s digs. Silk sheets covered his large bed, the thing had to be big enough for four people at least, you’ve never seen one so big, everything was so large and each piece of furniture stood out, you couldn’t help but think of just how well it fit Billy’s personality.

“Don’t you worry sweetheart.” His thick voice broke through your minds ramblings, his face suddenly coming into view as he stepped in front of you. His hand moving to gently caress your face. “You know Billy lee will take care of you, I just need your help getting through this little meeting and I’ll make it worth your while. I’ll set you up real nice here in the big house for a few weeks, how’s that sound.”

You felt your eyes go wide at the prospect of Billy letting you stay here, but then his condition hit you.

“How-how can I help you get through the meeting?”

His trademark smirk decorated his face as his eyes ran the length of your body.

“You can help darling, by keeping my mind pre-occupied by other things.”

His free hand slid down your body, gently running down your sides to your hips and down your legs, lifting your skirt as his hand traveled back up. Billy’s fingers connected with the panties underneath and his demeanor changed, the air around him becoming near electric.

“Now, that’s gonna be a problem.” His fingers gripped them, sliding them down your thighs. You began to stutter, trying to pull away and he shushed you, his hand on your face moving to grip the back of your head, his lips gently ghosting over your own.

“Easy there darling, you know I’m not going to show anyone else what’s mine. Now, you do want to be mine, don’t you?” He asked you, his finger brushing against your folds, his eyes leaving little room to argue with. Nodding slowly you swallowed hard, closing your eyes while Billy continued to toy with you, his finger slipping just past your lips, a groan escaping him when finding you wet.

“That’s a good girl. Now, you sit with me during my meeting and help me out and I’ll take care of this for you. You’d like that wouldn’t you.”

Nodding again you looked at him, your breath catching at the sight of the lust in his eyes.

“Now now, don’t be shy. Let Billy hear you. Now tell me, are you mine?”

“Yes Billy.”

“And are you gonna be a good girl and make sure I get through this meeting?”

“Yes Billy.”

“That’s a good girl.” He whispered, kissing you lightly before pulling back. Your eyes couldn’t help but wander as he stepped away, the tent in his pants visibly noticeable.

“Now, I suppose we should get a move on before they come looking for us. Don’t worry about those,” he said pointing to your now discarded panties on the floor. “There’ll be none of that in the big house, ya hear?”

Taking his now outstretched hand you nodded again, following him out of the room and down into the dinning room, finding it still empty.

“Now, you don’t say anything unless I speak to you. You understand me? You’re here for one reason and one reason only and it’s not to interrupt.”

“Yes sir” You said, feeling suddenly very aware of your lack of underwear. Billy sat, quickly working his pants open, just enough to spring his erection free.

He grabbed his cock, stroking slowly as he took in your reaction, a devilish smirk on his own. This wasn’t the first time you had seen it, no the night before Boots attacked you Billy had been visiting, giving you his own welcome to the group. Your cheeks flushed at the memory, it was a good night that ended far too soon in your opinion, and it made the prospect of staying in the big house all the sweeter.

Billy’s hand on your hip brought you back to reality as he guided you over to him.

“Now turn around and have a seat darling, I’ll take care of the rest.”

“Yes sir” you said softly, turning as you started to sit, one of his hands on his cock, the other on your hip guiding you down, he lifted your skirt enough to move it out of the way, you had to bite back a moan as you sank down on his length, your whole body trembling as he filled you to the hilt.

“That’s my good girl” He said low in your ear, as he pulled you to lean back against his chest. “Now, stay just like that through this meeting and you’ll get your reward.”

You nodded, biting your lip trying hard not to make any noise. Right on cue the door to the dining room opened and the others made their way in, a few giving you a curious look before quickly looking away, clearly Billy’s face let them know not to say anything about your current situation.

The meeting droned on for quite some time, you could feel Billy growing restless, his grip on your hips tightening as he grew impatient. Occasionally his fingers would find themselves under your skirt, never touching where you wanted to feel him the most, your body reacting every time you felt his hands on your bare skin helped to keep him hard and you knew it was driving him just as mad as it was you.

After the 2nd full hour of meeting and pointless discussion Billy finally lost his resolve.

“That’s enough for today.”

Everyone glared at him, knowing the reason for him cutting the meeting short was perched upon his lap but no one said a word against it, your cheeks heating up as you noticed a few people giving you strange looks. Several of them nodded, not ones to argue with Billy, they slowly made their way out of the room a few of them grumbling under their breath as they went.

The moment the room was clear, you felt the air once again shift around Billy, his breathing picking up almost in an instant. Without any warning he lifted you from his lap, your skirt being yanked down your legs almost effortlessly.

“Now, I’m not in the mood to wait until we get upstairs, so do me a favor sweetheart and lay down on this here table and let me take care of both of our problems.”

Nodding you did as you were told, stretching your upper body across the table, making sure your ass was high in the air, putting yourself on full display for Billy. You could feel your wetness running down your legs and no longer cared about being embarrassed, to busy wanting Billy to take care of this ache you had in your core.

He ran his fingers through your folds again, brushing against your sensitive nub before pulling back, you heard his pants hit the ground, your whole body trembling in anticipation. You couldn’t help the whimper you let out when you felt the head of his thick cock push against your entrance, that sound turning to a drawn out moan as he pushed in all the way, pulling back slightly only to slam into you harder. It was one thing to sit on his length for hours, it was a totally different story to having him moving inside you filling you over and over with it.

Your nails dug into the table beneath you as he kept a punishing pace, grunting and letting out moans of his own as the table rocked.

“That’s a good girl, you take me so well. We’re going to have lots of fun the next few weeks in the big house, aren’t we?”

“Yes sir,” you couldn’t help but moan, feeling your orgasm building after hours of teasing. Using what strength you had you lifted up, pushing your body back meeting Billy’s thrusts.

“Fuck! Billy, I’m so close.”

“That’s right baby girl, cum for Billy, let the whole house hear how good I make you feel.”

Grabbing your hair he tilted your head back, his lips latching onto your neck where you were sure to have a bruise come morning. With a scream you came, hard, clenching around his length as his own pace became erratic. He groaned in your ear as he felt you peak, his own breathing becoming laboured. Letting go of your hair he gripped your hips as your body collapsed onto the table, a few thrusts later you felt the warm wetness hit your inner thigh as Billy came, pulling out just in time to cover your legs and the floor below, the sounds of your breathing and his moan the only ones in the room.

After a few minutes you slowly sat up, turning to look at him, not even realizing he had collapsed into the chair behind him, a wicked smirk on his face.

“I think we may even discuss extending your stay here, what do you say sweetheart?”

You couldn’t help but smile at his words as you sat across from him on the table, not caring about the mess.

“Whatever you say Billy, whatever you say.”

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pattinsonsgurl · 5 years

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Revenge Best Served.. Wet? Part 2 (D.D. X Reader)

You can read Part 1 here.

Part 2: You need David again. for an entirely different reason.

Warning: Smut, cussing

You felt a little sleazy after your confrontation with Tony. You were emotionally and mentally drained. Now you really did want to talk to David about what happened and you also needed a drink. So you pull up to David’s house and notice a couple of cars but you don’t care because you know you can drink with whoever is there. You head inside and hear loud music coming from the speakers. You see David standing there with his camera recording Zane and Heath and their drunken antics. He looks at you and raises an eyebrow in concern but you just wave him off and head to the kitchen to grab a drink. Natalie sitting at the island and smirks at you as you open the refrigerator.

“So, How did your date with Tony go? Did you get your revenge on him?�� She asks.

You turn bright red as you turn around and face her. “Um, how.. what do you mean?”

“You know, you wanted to let Tony taste sloppy seconds.” Natalie drawled out before bursting into laughter.

You grab her by the wrist and pulled her away from the kitchen and down the hallway, into her bedroom away from prying ears.

“Did David tell you? He has a big mouth!” You fume pacing across the room before you plop down on her bed next to Natalie.

“No, did you forget I live here too? Thank god my AirPods were charged up, I put them on once I heard his door close. So I don’t know what happened after that.”

You put your face in your hands because you’re so embarrassed. “Wow, I can’t believe you heard me. You must think I’m so sleazy.”

“Dude no. What the fuck? That was a brilliant plan! Did you notice David didn’t invite any of the Instagram models to hangout like he usually does? So what’s her face wouldn’t be around.”

You scoff, “She’s probably over at Tony’s comforting him as we speak.”

You hear a knock on the door and you already know it’s David.

“Come in!” Natalie yells.

“Hey guys. Everything alright?” David asks concerned.

“Yes everything is peachy!” You respond in an unnatural high voice.

Both David and Natalie give each other a look before they raise their eyebrows at you. “Um, I’m gonna get you a drink, because it sounds like you need it.” Natalie says as she walks out of her room.

You look at David as he crosses the room to sit next to you. “Are you ok?” He asks.

You sigh and run a hand through your hair. “Breakups suck. Like I know he’s a piece of shit for doing what he did but I really did like him. I hate feeling like I wasn’t good enough.” A tear starts falling down your cheek.

David reaches out to wipe it away. “Y/N, please don’t think that way. You’re the sweetest and kindest person I know and any guy would be lucky to have you. I--” David closes his mouth as Natalie walks in with a red solo cup.

“Here Y/N, this will make you feel better. Breakups are the worst and now you just need to let loose and have a great time with your friends!” She grabs your hand to pull you back out to the living room and you glance at David as a walk out and he looks frustrated.

Once you’re out in the living room, you go and sit down on the couch and sip on your drink, as you watch everyone else dancing around. David comes out and sits right next to you. You glance at him from your peripheral, he looks like he wants to say something but he’s having a hard time coming out with it.

“Did it work?” David asks.

You can’t seem to look at David in the eye. “Mmm yea. He got to my place at almost the same time I got there. We were supposed to go have dinner but I told him I wanted to fuck before we left. Well he always makes me go down on him first but I told him I was super horny and wanted him to go down on me first. So I undressed and he licked me all over, from ass to clit.”

You glance over at David as you pause your story, feeling yourself blush a deep red because of what you’re about to say.

“And I came. Because all I could think about was how good your dick felt inside me, and knowing he was licking your sloppy seconds got me hot. He wanted to fuck but I wouldn’t let him. That’s when I told him I knew about him cheating and to get the fuck out. He tried to tell me that I was gonna miss out on him because this was the wettest I’ve ever been and it was because of him. I confessed that I had fucked someone else and he sucked all the cum out. He didn’t believe me till I showed him your cum stains on my panties. He was so mad I thought all hell was gonna break loose but he left. So I came straight here cuz I didn’t want to be alone.”

You chug the drink in your hand because you can’t help but feel shaky after your confession and you need to calm down.

“So what are you gonna do now? David asks scooting a little closer.

“I’m gonna get fucked up with my friends.” You say as you head to the kitchen to get another drink. You feel his eyes burning a hole on your back but you need more liquid encouragement before you make your move.

You party it up with everyone else. David gets to record some great vlogging footage of all the drunken antics. As everyone heads out to go home, you stand to leave, wobbling a bit.

“Wait Y/N! You can’t leave. You’ll get pulled over and get a DWI. Stay here on the couch. I’ll bring you some blankets.” Natalie tells you.

You don’t argue, you don’t feel like going home to an empty apartment tonight. And you feel your buzz fading away and sleepiness taking over.

David is already in his own room, editing some clips from tonight.

As you lay there trying to get comfortable and fall asleep, you realize you can’t. You go over the day’s events and it all seems like a dream. You hate that you broke up with Tony but he wasn’t the one anyway just someone you were having fun with.

You start thinking about David and his dick. How perfect it felt inside of you. You’re a little horny now and you glance towards the hallway where his room is in and with the little alcohol left on your system, you realize that now is the perfect time to make your move.

You slowly crept into the hallway, you hesitate when you get to his door and quickly knock before you lose your confidence.

“Come in.” David yells.

You take a deep breathe and walk in, closing the door behind you.

David looks up from his laptop and quickly shoved it aside when he sees that it’s you.

“Y/N, uh hey. I thought you left already.” He says as he runs a hand through his hair.

“I was but Natalie convinced me to stay cuz she said I was too drunk to drive.” You explain, wringing your hands.

“Oh well I’m glad she did.” David responded.

You nod as you slowly walk your way to him. He gazes at you with lust in his eyes. It gives you confirmation that he wants this too. You get to his bed and straddle him. He reaches forward and slides his hands under your shirt and cups your breasts. He reaches behind you so he can unclasp your bra, sticking his tongue out as he concentrated on his task. Once your free, he goes back to your breasts, filling his hands and you gasp at the sensation, loving the way his palms feel and your nipples tighten as he rubs his thumbs . You fall forward with your head against his shoulder as you rub yourself against his clock through his pants.

Still caressing one breast he slips his hand down the curve of your hip and thigh and cups your pussy, through your panties.

“You’re so wet for me again, aren’t you Y/N?” David asks, moving your panties to the side as he slides a finger between your pussy lips, you catch your breath in surprise as he slides a second finger in as he slowly pumps into you, You open yourself wider to give him more access loving the way his fingers felt inside of you.

David pulls you from his shoulder and brushes the hair away from your face to give you a sweet kiss. Unable to help himself he plunges his tongue into your mouth desperate to possess you in any way. You answered back with the same desperate need.

“David. I need you now.” You demand as you pull away from the kiss. You lift up a bit as David shoves down his pants and his cock springs free. David reaches into his nightstand, pulls out a condom and slides it on his cock. You impale yourself on his dick, feeling very satisfied that it's in you once again for the 2nd time tonight.

He thrusts up into you, and you gasp as it feels so much better than before, You place your hands on the headboard and roll your hips feeling so much pleasure, more than anyone has ever given you. You moaned David’s name as you felt him thrust into you with a sense of urgency as you felt yourself on the edge of an orgasm,

Suddenly you feel your release come and cry out from the force of it, As soon as David feels you come, he pumps harder and shudders from his orgasm. You lay on top of him for a couple of minutes to catch both of your breaths, and he gets up to dispose the condom into the trash, before he comes back and lays back next to you.

Exhausted and overwhelmed by what just happened, you look over at David trying to decipher his expression, You're surprised when he looks over at you with the biggest smile on his face.

“I don’t know about you but that was amazing. We should go again after I edit my vlog.” David says wiggling his eyebrows at you.

“David, so are we gonna talk about this? I know the sex was really good. Amazing really, but isn’t this a little fast? Ok i mean I know I came on the you, first and all. But-” David reaches over and places a finger on your mouth to shut you up.

“Look Y/N, I liked you before you went out with that douchebag Tony and I never had the balls to ask you out. So when you came earlier today with your um, revenge plot, I’ll admit I was so happy that you came to me and not anyone else.. But I would like to make this more official by asking you out on a date later today,”

“I accept David Dobrik. But I do need to take a little nap first while you finish your vlog.” You say as you snuggle to his side.

He grabs his laptop and kisses you on the forehead Happy as can be that he finally got his girl.

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fanaticwriting09 · 4 years