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I have ranked the girls of TSLOCG since day 1, I’m not gonna lie, but damn they been screwed up the last 2 episodes!
SPOILER WARNING !!!!!
1. Leighton
Leighton has been number 1 for me through the entire show, but that’s because I’m gay, and the wlw character will almost always be my favourite, but also it’s more cemented itself here because of her growth for episode 1 to now. Seeing her go from a bitchy, stuck up, better than everyone else person, to a caring, still bitchy but understand my usually, open-minded person is amazing and I’m so proud of her. Also Reneé Rapp is super fucking hot and I would die for her
2. Whitney
Whitney went between 2 and 3 with Bela in season 1 but then in season 2 she stayed at number 2. She’s a smart character, who has been written well, even though her looking into Canaan’s phone seemed OOC for me until I realised that I remembered her thing with the coach guy (I don’t remember his name and I don’t care to), so I can see where this has come from. She was completely fucked over in these last episodes and she really did nothing wrong and has just had to deal with her friend being a jerk. She’s also grown to realise she’s smart and I love her relationship with her mum.
3. Lila
I’m not gonna lie, I fucking love Lila. She’s funny and even through the sexual side of it, she gives damn good advice. So yeah, she goes here even though some (maybe more than some) of her actions border on sexual harassment, people seem fine with it from what I can tell.
4. Bela
Bela is a very close 4th with the last scene of hers redeeming her a lot. I can understand (after reading some other people’s posts) where a lot of her actions come from, but it doesn’t make me like her enough more to push her up a spot. She fucked up, A LOT, and now she’s dealing with all the consequences. She is still funny and is a good friend to the other girls, so she lands at 4, not 5, not 3. I don’t remember all of the other stuff I was gonna say about her, but she’s realised she fucked up bad and is trying to deal with it, albeit in the wrong way, but she’s trying.
5. Kimberley
I’m not sure if you can tell why she’s here, but I’ll tell you anyway. She screwed up so fucking bad, and I can’t even find a good reason behind it. Bela’s stemmed from internal misogyny and too much power too fast, but Kimberley? I have no idea where kissing your best friend’s RECENT ex boyfriend could EVER be a good, sane, wise decision in her mind. I don’t give two shits if she likes him after one outing together, she shouldn’t go for a friends ex, it’s legit like rule 1 of girl code! I have a lot of feeling about this. Before that scene, Bela was number 5, but as soon as that happened? Boom. Demoted. The fact that Whitney saw and gave her an opportunity to be open about it, and then she didn’t take it? Demoted even more. I don’t have anyone else to put at number 5, otherwise they would be here and she would be 6. She broke up with a guy she seemed to like and treated her well, for her BEST FRIENDS EX! Sorry, ranting. Anyway, she fucked up, and at this point, I can’t forgive her.
That is the end of my ranking- I wanted to only rank the main 4, but I really do love Lila too much to leave her out.
Thank you all for listening to my rants and whatever the fuck this mess of a post is.
P.S I spelt mum like that cause I’m Aussie.
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junosmindpalace · 5 months
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i personally like the interpretation that stanley is a reflection of the narrator. he creates this world that's his, the one thing in the world that's his, where he's in control and someone else for once is at his mercy instead of the other way around, and projects these deep grievances of wanting to be free and being in control onto stanley, who is more or less the exact same as him.
i believe, in this interpretation, the narrator exaggerates his power. he's some mysterious nonhuman entity in the story he's self inserted himself into because he chooses to present himself in this way, it's the way he writes himself to be. it's why, regardless, he still has deep knowledge about storytelling and video games. him being seen as this god-like entity is very purposeful if you look at it from a perspective of the game he creates being a form of escapism. it would also make sense why he also celebrates alongside stanley in his victories, because stanley's success is his success. we could maybe take this interpretation a step further and say that the narrator (whoever he may be as a real human) also works an office job and is surrounded by other people, which i wouldn't say is too much of a stretch since the narrator's storytelling is all about literally narrating things that happen ("stanley did this, stanley was this." etc).
this i think would also explain the female narrator, who, from this perspective, i interpret as a co-worker of the narrators in the real life they live outside of the game. she sees how the narrator is grieved by his life, sees what he does to cope (or eventually finds out), and again breaks the fourth wall to tell the player (NOT stanley, as she specifically says how "these two need each other") that the only way to "save" the both of them is to quit the game; to break apart this fantasy that will only eventually end up doing more harm than good specifically to the narrator.
another theory i have in regards to this interpretation is that mariella is sort of a female narrator (whoever she may be in reality) self insert. it's the narrator's perspective of her, it's the narrator criticising her criticisms of him through the insanity ending, painting mariella in a particularly ignorant light to showcase to the player how the female narrator comes off to him.
it's what makes the story and specifically the player turning against the narrator all the more heartbreaking, and where a more supernatural aspect comes into play. unless of course we are to interpret that the endings, even the ones that disadvantage and put stanley/the player against the narrator, are all written by him just to create conflict and tension (which all writers just love) , it goes to show that the narrator is so deep into this fantasy that even his own story tries to fight back against it as a way of saying "get out. abandon this story. quit the game before you're in too deep." this could also be a representation of a part of the narrator's subconscious, one that gives into a voice that sounds like the female narrator that tells him this is unhealthy, yet tries to drown it out because again, the story is how he copes with his own reality.
various aspects of the game could be interpreted in this way as aspects of the narrators subconscious. if entities that work against the narrator, such as the female narrator and the adventure line are meant to represent the "knowing better" side of the narrator, then entities such as the settings person, with the need to keep the story alive forever, could represent the very opposite, the need/compulsion to succumb further and further into this fantasy. this i'm a little bit more shaky on since the devs decided to merge the settings entity with employee 432, (especially considering how he was a "test" that eventually went missing and was seemingly ostracized from the majority of the workers pre wipe) and the settings entity not liking the narrator. the settings entity seems to hold the most power out of any other presented in the game, or at least hold the same amount of awareness the narrator does.
i'm not taking much consideration for the ultra deluxe endings with this interpretation of the plot, which is a whole other set of theories and interpretations and i dont know how well this specific one actually applies to it
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Drunk adorable lucifer comes home later after a work meeting. Adam had recently told him to stop sleeping on top of him.
Lucifer comes home late. He steps up to the bed and frowns deeply when he sees Adam sleeping on his front. Huh. Guess he was serious about Lucifer no longer sleeping on his chest after all. Time to use his greatest weapon!
Lucifer: Adammmmmm!!!!!
Adam, waking up: er what?
Lucifer: Do you love meeee???
Adam: I wouldn’t have married you if I didn’t
Lucifer, hurt: you married somebody else??? Whoooo
Adam becoming done with his shit: look you either get into bed or I’m leaving to sleep on the sofa
Lucifer, gasp: you’re going to leave meee tooooo?
Adam: I will if you don’t go to bed
Lucifer, seriously: I can’t Sir, I’m happily married
Adam, completely done: I’m going to sleep on the sofa. Since you’re so drunk, I think it’ll be best if you sleep in the bed
Lucifer, crying: you can’t leave meeeee!!! Adammmm!
Adam: get in bed then
Lucifer: I can only get into bed with my husband
Adam: that’s it! I’m sleeping in the sofa
He stomps out ignoring Lucifer and settles on the sofa with a pillow and blanket. He closes his eyes only to feel somebody staring at him
Adam: go to bed lucifer
Lucifer: Adammmm come to bed now
Adam: I am in bed. You need to go to bed
Lucifer: the sofas toooo small for both of usssss!!
Adam, annoyed and tired: please just leave me alone
Lucifer: nooooooo!!! I can’t sleep withoutttt youuu !! Adammmm!!!
Adam, lifted the blanket with a frustrated expression. Wordlessly Lucifer climbs on top of him and snuggles into his chest.
Adam: fucking manipulate asshole
Lucifer: you knew what you were getting into when you married me
Adam: I knew you weren’t that drunk. You were trying to use your cuteness to your advantage
Lucifer: don’t ever take what’s mine away again otherwise I’ll do this every night. You’ll never get a peaceful nights sleep again.
Adam: fucking asshole
Lucifer smirks. He always wins
Lucifer knows how to get his way especially with Adam lol
That being said, Adam can play him right back to get his own way, most of the time that is lol
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lovebvni · 6 months
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things to look forward to + ways to move forward!! <3
hello, lovelies!! i’m finally doing a pick-a-pile on this blog… after about half a year of being active
this pap will be answering 2 questions, but they have multiple parts. what’s coming in (from what i can see) and ways to get to it.
disclaimer: this pac isn’t legal advice or what you should do in your life. it is just based off your current energy. and that can change. purely for entertainment purposes.
now please, close your eyes and take a deep breath. wait until you see a swirl of colour to exhale. let your breath and spirit guide you to a pile.
piles 1 -> 2 -> 3
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pile 1 — find it inside
hello, pile 1! here’s your reading :)
how close is your reward?
your reward is very close. 6 of pentacles coming out makes me have the vision on a banker grabbing their papers being put together before handing the recipient, you! maybe there’s like two more things you have to sign, or bring those documents to someone else, but at most im getting that there’s about 3 more steps left in the process? 4 at most. but seriously, you are close!
the papers can be to finally get your new business started… are you starting something like a business pile one? material wealth is coming through. the justice card comes to mind — perhaps in a legal argument with someone? i think this is the success about to come. or at least a satisfactory agreement.
what do you need to remove from your energy?
being too ambitious. you’re almost toooo focused and driven. are you cutting people off or isolating yourself from people and friends? honey you need a support group. it’s not always good to do things alone. you aren’t in a cage. your tunnel vision is too stuck on this goal you’re trying to reach. you need a breath of fresh air. just take a moment to relax and have a fun time. even students need a break from school, why do you think we have weekends? you’re wearing yourself out.
what do you need to accept?
finishing touches make everything look better. this is the final steps. just because i’m saying “oh you have abt 3 more steps” didn’t mean those are big steps. those are teeny steps. but material wealth(or a legal win) is coming either way, no matter what you change in the end. just trust the process.
a new focus & what to reject
stick to your plan! don’t back out of it last minute because you don’t like how it’s turning out. you need a BREAK! take a step back! but this doesn’t mean let everyone get into your business. keep it to yourself for now. it’s gonna work out, though!
thanks for reading, pile one! i hope this resonates, and i wish you the best!! now go have fun! stop working yourself overtime!
confirmation/additional signs: “don’t compare yourself to others”, don’t let others control you, have your own path and stick to it, “have some sort of tunnel vision”, the colour red, “girl trip!”, painting, “i need you to take a step back before i knock you on your fucking ass” — elita’s mentally not here, 555.
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pile 2 — gift from the gods
hello, pile two! this is your reading!
first off, i’m doing this reading with my friend nile (nile says hi bc nile always says hi 💯) and they said they REALLY felt the need to touch on ur overall energy. so here’s what they said!
“With the number of face cards that are in this spread, and the general theme I thought about while pulling out the cards, it seems like pile 2 is the type to ask others for 2nd and 3rd opinions alot? I mainly thought about family members but it could easily be like, friends, classmates, school counselors/teachers, etc. Pile 2 maybe feels like they're conflicted because they're getting way different opinions on something (or maybe that's the normal dynamic) and they aren't sure which one is good advice and which one isn't”
don’t second guess urself 😡😡 ur intuition is always right!
how close is your reward?
this idea is brand new, isn’t it? some something you just decided to try, to dabble in. to dip your toes in, maybe as a distraction? i feel like this is something you decided to do on a whim, so maybe you’re not that far along with it. i mean you aren’t even in the pool yet… how can you start swimming? so, i would say about a 1-3 out of ten.
what do you need to remove from your energy?
wow, fear of some sort of older male figure. you may have an older sibling, nile got a brother or a cousin. they have divine masculine energy. they may or may not be a male, though. they may be someone who reaches out when they need something from you. you need to learn to start saying no to them. i also think that this could be where your double and triple checking could come in. are you someone who asks “should i do this for them?” and most of your friends say no, but you only need that one yes and you’ll take it? why would you do that to urself :( it’s so harmful to give away your energy without gaining.
nile also brought up inner voices, “inner voices that has that sort of vibe, but this is the energy of a young, mean-spirited, holier-than-thou, smart-ass that moreso likes to spout their own ideals than to actually consider what is pile 2's idea of a 'reward'” and you know what i say to this energy? SUCK ON MY DICK!
sorry. that was out of pocket. but tell them to get a life, and cut them off !!
what do you need to accept?
have u had a romantic offer? or do you think someone’s attracted to you? grab them 🤭 get ur man!! this person may also be an important friend. maybe friends w benefits? that was js a side thought. but focus on them, accept them into your life, and allow them to make your life better! i also get the feeling they could have darker hair (dirty blonde at the lightest)!! masculine energy btw!
i got the need to ask if yall r gay but 💀💀 ok girl u slay!! i’m gay too!! dw!! nblm here girly 🤞🫶‼️
a new focus & what to reject
an older, calm spirit. they could be a father or grandfather — but they could also be the person in the romantic offer trying to support you. they may advice you to focus on the here and now rather than the future or the past. stay grounded in your truth and your faith. spend some time in nature, too! you really just need a minute to take a break.
is there a person with extroverted, wild energy? they may be an energy vampire. they could be a friend of a friend, and they might spread rumors around a lot. but don’t waste too much time with them. they could make you physically sick.
that’s all i have for you, pile two! i hope your messages resonated!! have fun :)
confirmation/additional signs: “on those we call”, rapunzel’s healing song, past lives, ancestors guidance, black panther, a calming energy, (air or water sign?), the colour purple (movie + colour), issues being grounded (root chakra?), Oh No! by Marina, knowing what you want but not knowing how to get there, knowing why you make actions you don’t want to, beating yourself up, spiritually, 555.
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pile 3 — black cat, do you belong?
hello pile 3!! this is ur reading :)
how close is your reward?
i also heard goal, by the way, so this may have been something you’ve been working to for a while. your card was knight of wands. homestretch, almost. i keep thinking of soccer/football. that may be something you’re into, but i’m gonna use sports references now.
this is the final quarter, not even. there’s 3 minute left in the game. you know you can win this! i feel like you’re almost too carefree in this moment though. i mean you have a carefree spirit, so that’s good! but you need more focus. overall, i would rate you the highest of any pile, a 9! at the least it’s a 9, at the most you’re literally on the last step.
what do you need to remove from your energy?
nile and i both thought it was weird/important that ace of wands came out. this is a card that obviously symbolizes new beginnings, and it’s probably the most creative card too. it shows swiftness and excitement in a challenge. you need to remove your carefreeness just for a moment to be able to grab the ace of wands from the hand of the universe. i feel like you’re being a bit lazy, so don’t! reignite your passion!
this is what nile said btw (it genuinely made me laugh 💀)
“pile 3 shouldn't just think about what they want - they should act on it! I really don't have much else to say, maybe pile 3's guides think that there's no other way to say it - it's a one way or the other type of thing, you do it or you don't - chop chop”
what do you need to accept?
5 of wands is usually about fights and rivalry, but in this context nile got sports, and i totally agree.
i mean, sports already came up in this pile for you guys already, so i feel like spirit is saying join a club or do something with other people!! stop isolating yourself! you need to do something competitive, primarily because you like fighting in a friendly way (maybe sometimes a violent way! anger issues).
if there isn’t a sport you can join, maybe because of finances or time issues, be competitive! race against yourself! do something that makes you feel good!
“if not sports, then something at the very least that gives pile 3 a sense of competition; something that makes them feel like they have to put their best foot forward to reap the best rewards! this isn't something that will wait for them if they do things half-a-step, every once in awhile kind of pace or attitude.”
in other words — DONT GO SLOW, GIRL! ACT LIKE ITS THE LAST THING U GET TO DO!! RUN!
a new focus & what to reject
focus on relationships. i want to say i get the feeling most of u guys are shifter and shifting for someone, but i could just be biased and projecting bc this like really resonates and resembles me in a lot of ways — and it’s scary!
anyways, there’s some romance in this pile. someone who has a calm spirit, maybe cold on the outside but warm on the inside. they may have been sending you signs that you haven’t been picking up much. or maybe you have been picking them up but you aren’t making an effort to reach out or you just forget easily. i totally get that, by the way, but try to put some time and focus into this romantic offer! even if it’s not in this reality, or in your mind (be delulu, and may it become trululu). nile also got this person may not want a romantic offer, but idk abt that one. getting a strong sense this is a romantic offer.
ok, sports coming through again! maybe you’ve been thinking about them a lot, but for some reason it’s in the context of something to reject. maybe this is a coach or a controlling person in a sporting way? maybe someone from your past? someone who thinks with his head, not his heart. they aren’t very emotional, and they could be cruel to you.
“maybe pile 3 is getting offers for more than one team/group? if that's the case, then I think pile 3's guides is saying to avoid the one(s) that have no-nonsense, frownie face leaders, the type of person to cut down any chances of fun and straight-up running things like a marine. whoever this is, they're way too tough on everyone else and they're allergic to fun, their authoritative stance prevents the teammates from develop a bond with each other, and this energy would probably damper pile 3's motivation.”
i’m gonna be so for real, pile 3, i had to hold off posting this pick-a-card because of yall — it’s not bad, by the way! it’s just that something that i need to say to you guys — its a personal message, i believe. i was talking to a friend, sigyn (love u girl, even if you don’t see this), and she made me think about my own journey with shifting and breaking out of a shell. i said these words: “but man, even tho i’m scared, i don’t care, because my happiness… no, im worth more than fear.”
i feel like this was what i was missing no matter what happens, no matter how scared you are of success or messing up, you are worth more than fear. it cannot hold you. and, as i said before, do it with fear. be like miles morales, jump off that roof fucking BACKWARDS. fear cannot control you, you control it. omg i’m about to cry, but you guys, fear is not all. i promise you this. if you need to talk about fear and how to get over it, send me an ask and i’ll dm you. this is not the end of this journey, nah man, this is the beginning of your life. i love you pile 3.
that’s all i got for you, pile three! wishing you the best, and i rlly hope your work pays off before the new year :) i know how hard it is to keep motivation, and keep moving after such a long time of hard work, but know it will all pay off in the end. nothing {bad} can last forever, as all things must come to an end.
confirmation/additional signs: football, hockey, sports in general, Doja Cat, fire truck (victim of sa), food, especially salads or greens, “almost there”, “i can’t give up now; i have to prove them wrong,” getting back what you lost, anger issues, self doubt, the colour blue (throat chakra?), 2020 music 💀💀 (my heart went oops by tiagz came on…! and so did savage by megan thee stallion), chaos, thriving in chaos, not from the us, barbie, sia, black and white, contrasting colours, i know better by noahfinnce — “and i won’t stop running until i hear the sirens coming…”, not stopping until you get to your goal, “i’m just ken” — ryan gosling, 69, miles morales, impulsive decisions, 555, 999, alien blues.
thank yall for reading my first pac on this blog !! it was really fun, and i hope to do it again soon <3
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pleaseeeimjustagirl · 2 months
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♡Weekly Chronicles♡
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Hey babesssss I have missed writing weekly chronicles updating you girlies on my life so here we are and welcome to my new babesss<3333
♡Education♡
The semester has been so gooddd so far! I am super strict on myself when it comes to homework and studying I like the fact I am taking this semester so seriously it makes me feel ahead of the game. At the beginning of the semester, I had trouble getting my hobbies done and I didn't want school to take over my entire life. I was able to reorganize my schedule so that I could fit in my hobbies and self-care days. I had to drop a class because it was toooo much taking 18 credits worth of classes this semester was alottt but I'm pushing myself to meet my credit requirement for my degree before graduation in 2025. 
♡Mental♡
I am doing well mentally. Last month was very hard on me mentally because I put in the refill order for my antidepressant so late. I was off of my antidepressants for a week which caused a huge imbalance within my body. It was a literal emotional rollercoaster I would feel really good for a couple of days and then really sad for a few days. But I made it through I kept taking my medication consistently once I got my refill now I am back to normal. So pro tip do not get your refills late lol. Other than that I've been journaling, tracking my emotions, and reading affirmations daily.
♡Physical♡
I started doing yoga recently which has definitely been a game changer. When I am feeling overstimulated or anxious I put on a yoga video on YouTube and follow along. I prefer videos that have no music and then I play rain sounds or brown noise as I follow along to relax my brain when I'm done I feel so good. Ramadan has officially started so I created a workout playlist that is similar to the workouts I was doing before Ramadan but instead, these are much slower and lower in intensity they will still help me reach my body goals. During this month I’ll be fasting for 30 days so I am doing OMAD(one meal a day) which I don’t mind I've done it before and have seen amazing results. There are so many benefits of fasting I'll link an article if you're interested in learning more about Ramadan and the benefits of fasting.
♡Hobbies♡
I have been very consistent with my Italian on Duolingo I started a 100-day challenge so I can hit a 100-day streak and I'll throw myself a little duo party lol. I am learning that it is okay to celebrate your little achievements. Blogging has been one of my favorite hobbies I've been super consistent with posting on here for you ladiessss. Let me know what other content you want to see. I started a new writing project which I am so excited and anxious about but I can't wait to share once everything is settled. I also have been on Amazon creating a list for my YouTube set up<3333 Expect to start seeing content in June I am so excited to start content creating again! I will be doing a lot of chit-chat videos on topics similar to what I have been posting on my blog, vlogging, and so much more. My other hobbies I have been keeping up with are reading, playing games, recipe keeping, pilates, and weight lifting. 
I love chatting with you babes and want you girls to chat back<3 So let me know what you have planned for this weekend and how was your week. Love you babes we are almost at 500 followers<3
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littlemissgloomexe · 1 month
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MaGir/GaGir headcannons
Just wanted to say; if you genuinely believe Gir is a child and wanna comment to tell me this is wrong, just don’t.😭 Seriously, he’s an ageless robot who doesn’t even act like a child at all, he just acts like someone with undiagnosed + unmedicated ADHD. Okay ty.
TW: BRIEF IMPLICATIONS OF CH1LD 4BUS3/N3GL3CT
[Before they date]
Mel being… well, Mel, takes a while to feel any kind of spark of friendship when she first meets Gir, she’s almost immediately aware he’s not a threat so she won’t be harsh with the robot. Gir on the other hand, immediately got attached and has had the biggest fuckin crush on Mel since they first met lol
Mel develops an attachment to Gir faster than any other friend she’s made, this is confusing for Mel. Why is Gir different? What is it about him that’s so special?
Mel starts to talk about Gir A LOT to Joz to the point she starts to believe that the two are dating, sayin stuff like “You two dating?” Mel just replies with a simple “no.”
Joz still teases Mel about this whenever they brings up Gir; “Gothyyyy, do you have a little crush~?”
When Mel actually does start to develop a crush, she’s once again very confused with herself. “But… I don’t get crushes. I NEVER get crushes.” Again, what makes Gir so different?
She starts to observe Gir a little more when they see each other to figure why she has developed a crush on him. She over analyzes everything about him;
the way he’s always loyal to Zim, the way he shows Mel how much he cares about her, always being there for her, cheering her up in any way he can, remembering the smallest details about her…
…maybe it’s how he’s a complete opposite to her. Is the contrast in personalities alluring? That’s a possibility.
Some time passed and Mel slowly starts to realize that it isn’t anything in particular about Gir, they just like him.
Mel plans the way it would confess to Gir, it thinks about this for DAYS, WEEKS even, until it can come up with a solid way to tell Gir.
She brings him into her backyard garden, sits next to him on the bench swing, and confesses.
“Gir, I love you. I understand if you think I’m weird or if you wanna get away from me because we’re different species-“
Until Gir interrupts; “I LOVE YOU TOOOO, GOTHYYYY!!!” and he pulls them into a tight hug.
They proceed sit along side each other and cuddle for a while.
[OKAY!!! When they start dating!!]
Mel’s pet names for Gir include: Sweetie, love, my love, puppy, honey [she’s basic, I know…]
Mel and Gir giggle a lot when they’re cuddling or kissing
Mel can actually teach Zim a thing or two about making Gir actually listen to him;
“Just be more gentle with him, you don’t need to scream at him.”
Gir quickly realizes that Mel is VERY easily startled, so he makes sure he doesn’t hug them too suddenly and tries his best to make his movements in general less sudden
Gir starts to learn Mel’s safe foods/drinks and gives them to her when she’s sad or frustrated
Sometimes there are days where Mel LITERALLY CANNOT get out of bed, whenever this happens, Gir snuggles up with them under the blankets, silently comforting them.
Gir almost always wants attention from Mel, just any kind of it is fine, even a simple hand hold is okay with Gir, just as long as he has their attention.
Sometimes Gir will pretend to fall asleep in the weirdest places just so he can be picked up and carried to bed by Mel.
If Gir is wearing his dog costume, his tail starts to wag whenever he does as much as THINK about Mel.
Gir likes to drag Mel back to Zim’s base when Mel’s having a hard time with its mom [which is… not a rare occasion…]
Zim doesn’t really like this and has kicked Mel out before, they just keep coming back to the point where Zim grows a tolerance for Mel [ig you could argue that he tolerates her due to the shared hatred for humanity]
Mel draws pictures of Gir at least once every week.
Gir starts to get really attached to Lily too, petting her any time she lays next to him, happily giggling when he hears her purrs, Mel loves to see Gir getting along with their cat and she thinks the attachment Gir has for Lily is adorable.
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astraystayyh · 6 months
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OMGGG HII AGAIN I MISSED YOU
(I will not apologize on my knees with tears u caused me to be unbelievably soft for Hyunjin and now u must suffer the consequences of my overactive imagination but seriously ☹️☹️☹️☹️ him painting on u oml I love him)
I WISH I HAD QUESTIONS FOR U LOL I DONT I JUST WANTED TO SAY ILY LOTS 🫶 and also your latest fic will never let me see an orange the same way again 🥲 I want someone to peel my oranges now (I actually don’t know how to peel an orange 💀)
ok actually one tiny question hehe. I love how u see the members sooooo what’s like one thing u would say u love about Hyune? Yes essays r allowed I wanna hear them all :3 just how would u describe him to someone that has zero idea who he is! Ur fics always make me see the members in different lights and I just wanna see how ur brain sees them in general hehe
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AKDJDJJDJD the consequences of my own actions...... (never complaining i LOVE ur scenarios) & ILY TOOOO,, manifesting someone to peel oranges for uuuuu U DESERVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now for ur hyune question wow the deep breath i had to take. u said essays are allowed so. U BROUGHT THIS UPON URSELF
okay if i were to describe hyunjin to someone who doesn't know him I'd say he's brave. I've always believed that it takes immense courage to feel in a world that vilifies you for it. real strength is when you keep on feeling, loving, trusting, even after being hurt, because those are the emotions that make us humans at the end of the day, and to open your heart again, to not give up on seeing the good qualities in people even after being disappointed takes a lot of strength.
it's so easy to hate, to close your heart off because there is nothing to lose in hate, or indifference, you know? but there is so much to lose in love.. sometimes you leave parts of yourself in other's people's lives that you won't be able to recover, since loving someone, whether romantically or platonically, is to blindly hand your soul to them, not knowing if they'll treat it with care or toy with it.
but for hyunjin the risk is worth it. hyunjin saying that he trusts easily, gets hurts easily, but repeats again because isn't that what life is about. hyunjin saying that he always tries to look for warmth in people even after being hurt. hyunjin saying that he doesn't love someone hoping for a good outcome, he doesn't love someone because he knows he won't be hurt but because they're lovable. hyunjin who's still so open about love, who still regards it in a pure manner, who thinks it is the very center of our world, who views the feeling under a good light despite being disappointed. all of these things take so much courage.. that's why i said he's brave
but also since we're on the same topic, and u said essays are allowed AKDJDJ i'd say he's the embodiment of hope, the way he views our world, the way he talks, the way he reassures stays. he feels like sunlight spilling between tree leaves, not fully there to brighten the forest, but enough to infuse you with hope to keep going, to keep seeking the way out of darkness. "there will be an end to the sadness too even if you don't end it" (this one stuck with me because someday you wake up and you haven't really done anything new but suddenly breathing feels easier and you swear you're okay again) "you have to find happiness in your daily life, because if you look for it in ideals then it will become an untainable illusion" like his words aren't like u will be happy always!!!!!! or you will quit being sad this instant!!!!! but more of, happiness will sneak up on you when you least expect it, you just have to meet it in the middle. and i find that very comforting, and hopeful.
i could keep going but i will shut up now. ur words about u loving how i see the members always make me feel very warm :')) thank you i truly love you
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miyaniacs · 3 days
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Corrupted by Darkness
- Chapter 11 -
Chapter 10 ; Wattpad ; AO3
A/N: Heyyyy again THANK YOU ALL SO SO MUCH! I was so overwhelmed and happy with your responses <3  I try to write more now while I take some breaks from studying and working out :D I finally more of a plan on how to continue with the whole Azriel or Xaden drama ^^and maybe You‘ll now get the  inner circle and the fourth wing squad together now ^^
Nea‘s POV
Warm rays of sunlight, warm my face and wake me up. A soft smile tugs at my lips as I slowly open my eyes and look out of my window onto Velaris. The city slowly wakes up under the orange and red sunlight. With a deep sigh I turn around in my bed and nuzzle my face into Azriels chest. 
“Good Morning my love.” He smiles and kisses my head. 
“Hey Azzie” I mumble and press a soft kiss on his skin. 
“How did my angle sleep tonight?” His fingers dance around the curve of my hips. 
“Mhhh good I guess… I don’t remember much of it.”
“Really? You woke my up tonight, it seemed like you had a nightmare…” he replies softly. 
“Did I? I’m sorry.”
“No no it’s fine… it’s just …”
“Yes?”
“Forget it, you were just dreaming.” He shrugs and pats my hip. 
“No, no what is it baby? You promised not to keep any secrets.” I put. 
Azriel sighs and looks in the opposite direction.
“Who’s Xaden?” He whispers. 
“Who?” I ask and lift myself up on my elbow. 
“Xaden… you mumbled his name tonight… over and over …” His shadows swirl around his shoulders and you roll on top of him, straddling his waist. 
“Azriel I seriously have no idea who you’re talking about.” With both of my hands I grab his face and force him to look at me. “Hey … baby - you said I had a nightmare? So he probably was the monster in it.” I joke and place a small kiss on his lips. 
His hands grab my waist and he rubs small circles on my skin. 
“One more?” He pouts and I laugh while leaning down again, placing small kisses all over his face. 
“I love you.” Mumble before placing a kiss on his lips. 
“I love you more my mate.” He smiles against my lips and spins us around, “let me show you how much you meant to me, yeah?” His voice drops and his lips find my neck. 
“Yes please show me.” I moan out as his teeth gaze my skin and I feel him smirking while his shadows warp around my wrist pulling them upwards and pinning them over my head. 
“Had some special training this morning?” Cassias greets us, as we step into the dining room, the table already full with breakfast. 
“Yes real special.” Azriel winks and I roll my eyes, sitting down next to Mor and opposite of Nesta.
“At least you had more fun than I had.” Nesta groans and stretches out her sore muscles. 
“I missed you tho, it feels like I haven’t seen you in ages.” I smile at her. 
“Invite me next time.” She winks and Azriel rolls his eyes. 
“Keep on dreaming Nesta.” He says and grabs some orange juice. 
Soft tipples run around the table and a soft “meow” echos from under the table. 
“Loooook who woke up toooo.” Mor beams and reaches down, lifting up a small black cat. 
“Noctissss where have you been? Why are you so dirty?” She runs her hands over the soft black fur, trying to get all the dust off him. Noctis meows again and stretches out his little paws in my direction. 
“Nawww do you wanna come to me? Get out of Mor’s grip?” You laugh and more hands him over. 
As soon as he’s in my arms, he starts purring and nuzzles his little head on my neck. 
Azriel smiles and reaches over me, scratching my in between his ears. 
“Such a happy little family - I’m going to throw up.” Nesta fake gags. 
“Hey Az, how are your wounds healing?” Cassian asks and looks over at Azriel. 
“They’re still not healing…” he sighs and I look over at him confused. What wounds? 
Looking at his beautiful face, I see a red tear running over his soft skin. And another… and more… blood spills out of his nose and eyes and ears. 
“Nea wake up.” He says while blood spills out of his mouth. 
I scream and shoot up, ripping the covers off. 
Sweat runs down my skin and my head shoots to the left and right, trying to orientate myself. 
This is my room. In Velaris. In the house of wind. This was all a bad dream. 
“NEA!” The door slams open and Mor storms inside. 
“Mor?” 
“Omg Nea, you’re finally awake!” She says and tears run down her face. 
“It’s the middle of the night, what do you mean finally?” I ask confused. 
“You’ve been asleep for about two weeks now.” Rhys answers calmly and walks around Mor. 
“Two weeks?” I whisper, “Why?”. 
“You don’t remember?” Rhys asks and sits down next to me on the bed. 
I close my eyes trying to concentrate on the last thing I remember, but everything’s dark. 
“No… Rhys I just know going to bed in Basgiath… and waking up here.” 
Basgiath… Noctis!
“You’re finally back little one.” His deep voice echos though my mind and immediately I start to feel more calm.
“… Do you want me to show you?” Rhys asks. 
“Yes please.” I whisper and a second later I feel him knocking on my mind. 
Nea‘s POV
Warm rays of sunlight, warm my face and wake me up. A soft smile tugs at my lips as I slowly open my eyes and look out of my window onto Velaris. The city slowly wakes up under the orange and red sunlight. With a deep sigh I turn around in my bed and nuzzle my face into Azriels chest. 
“Good Morning my love.” He smiles and kisses my head. 
“Hey Azzie” I mumble and press a soft kiss on his skin. 
“How did my angle sleep tonight?” His fingers dance around the curve of my hips. 
“Mhhh good I guess… I don’t remember much of it.”
“Really? You woke my up tonight, it seemed like you had a nightmare…” he replies softly. 
“Did I? I’m sorry.”
“No no it’s fine… it’s just …”
“Yes?”
“Forget it, you were just dreaming.” He shrugs and pats my hip. 
“No, no what is it baby? You promised not to keep any secrets.” I put. 
Azriel sighs and looks in the opposite direction.
“Who’s Xaden?” He whispers. 
“Who?” I ask and lift myself up on my elbow. 
“Xaden… you mumbled his name tonight… over and over …” His shadows swirl around his shoulders and you roll on top of him, straddling his waist. 
“Azriel I seriously have no idea who you’re talking about.” With both of my hands I grab his face and force him to look at me. “Hey … baby - you said I had a nightmare? So he probably was the monster in it.” I joke and place a small kiss on his lips. 
His hands grab my waist and he rubs small circles on my skin. 
“One more?” He pouts and I laugh while leaning down again, placing small kisses all over his face. 
“I love you.” Mumble before placing a kiss on his lips. 
“I love you more my mate.” He smiles against my lips and spins us around, “let me show you how much you meant to me, yeah?” His voice drops and his lips find my neck. 
“Yes please show me.” I moan out as his teeth gaze my skin and I feel him smirking while his shadows warp around my wrist pulling them upwards and pinning them over my head. 
“Had some special training this morning?” Cassias greets us, as we step into the dining room, the table already full with breakfast. 
“Yes real special.” Azriel winks and I roll my eyes, sitting down next to Mor and opposite of Nesta.
“At least you had more fun than I had.” Nesta groans and stretches out her sore muscles. 
“I missed you tho, it feels like I haven’t seen you in ages.” I smile at her. 
“Invite me next time.” She winks and Azriel rolls his eyes. 
“Keep on dreaming Nesta.” He says and grabs some orange juice. 
Soft tipples run around the table and a soft “meow” echos from under the table. 
“Loooook who woke up toooo.” Mor beams and reaches down, lifting up a small black cat. 
“Noctissss where have you been? Why are you so dirty?” She runs her hands over the soft black fur, trying to get all the dust off him. Noctis meows again and stretches out his little paws in my direction. 
“Nawww do you wanna come to me? Get out of Mor’s grip?” You laugh and more hands him over. 
As soon as he’s in my arms, he starts purring and nuzzles his little head on my neck. 
Azriel smiles and reaches over me, scratching my in between his ears. 
“Such a happy little family - I’m going to throw up.” Nesta fake gags. 
“Hey Az, how are your wounds healing?” Cassian asks and looks over at Azriel. 
“They’re still not healing…” he sighs and I look over at him confused. What wounds? 
Looking at his beautiful face, I see a red tear running over his soft skin. And another… and more… blood spills out of his nose and eyes and ears. 
“Nea wake up.” He says while blood spills out of his mouth. 
I scream and shoot up, ripping the covers off. 
Sweat runs down my skin and my head shoots to the left and right, trying to orientate myself. 
This is my room. In Velaris. In the house of wind. This was all a bad dream. 
“NEA!” The door slams open and Mor storms inside. 
“Mor?” 
“Omg Nea, you’re finally awake!” She says and tears run down her face. 
“It’s the middle of the night, what do you mean finally?” I ask confused. 
“You’ve been asleep for about two weeks now.” Rhys answers calmly and walks around Mor. 
“Two weeks?” I whisper, “Why?”. 
“You don’t remember?” Rhys asks and sits down next to me on the bed. 
I close my eyes trying to concentrate on the last thing I remember, but everything’s dark. 
“No… Rhys I just know going to bed in Basgiath… and waking up here.” 
Basgiath… Noctis!
“You’re finally back little one.” His deep voice echos though my mind and immediately I start to feel more calm.
“… Do you want me to show you?” Rhys asks. 
“Yes please.” I whisper and a second later I feel him knocking on my mind. 
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tlouconfidential · 7 days
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Some of y’all take this shit TOOOO fucking seriously. Telling people to kill themselves just because they don’t like Abby or Ellie is to far THEY ARE PIXELS. It’s a video game they. Are. Not. Real. I loveee Abby and I’m not losing my mind when people say they don’t like her because she’s not real. People always call out toxic Ellie Stan’s but I see it on both sides, it’s not that serious it’s a video game. I saw someone say that Joel would be uncomfortable with people calling him daddy and in the game he probably would due to ptsd but that’s why this is fiction it’s a fake story hes not a real person. I would say that in general it’s weird to be calling anyone that isn’t your actual dad daddy but that’s just me. And I also saw someone say you don’t get a reward for defending the characters you can have discussions and talk about the complexity of the characters without getting hostile and taking it too far anyways that’s all. Read your smut, masturbate & stay happy🫱🏻‍🫲🏾
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goodboytown · 1 year
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The most appealing thing you find personally regarding the dynamic of rivet and emperor nefarious?
we don’t get to experience their dynamic toooo much in the game, but it’s apparent, it’s there, i see it. those tiny moments are what i feed off.
when i draw/write them, i’m expanding on the part in RA where Kit says to Rivet “you two seem to have a lot of history” and she responds, “pff, yeah. you could say that.” that’s, uh, that’s what i draw and write about… the history.
i love when we first meet the emperor. rivet ignores his pleasentries, and you can see that bothers him. the banter on Sargasso - i love when she mock-imitates him. i absorb that behaviour like a sponge.
i like stories where the little people must rise up against the bigger bad, but the bad thinks it’s a game and doesn’t take anything seriously (because he’s really good at the game). honestly, i think i’m just grotesquely into good old-fashion villain/hero relations 👍 whatever that may bring.
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strangerthings1975 · 2 years
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Always flooding you with the ramblings of lyrics I find that draw me back to you and thoughts of MPG bestie 🥹🤣🫠
Basically I’m just daydreaming, so don’t take any of this toooo seriously. Just me finding comfort between updates 🖤🖤🖤
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I just picture their future. Eddie and Steve are in the GOOD place. Steve goes to every show that Eddie performs, the supportive lovebug he is. Eddie melts every time he locks eyes with Steve in the crowd. That’s the chemical reaction when you mix puppy dog eyes with doe eyes don’tcha know 🤓
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I just picture Eddie folding into his feelings of unworthiness mid-set on this one particular occasion and gets the band to pull out a cover of ‘Sparks’ by Coldplay. It’s admiration tied into pain towards the love he feels towards Steve. Love that hurts because he got in the way of it in the beginning. He knows he’s lucky, he know his love is secure, but damn if he didn’t make it harder on himself. On Steve.
It’s occasional pings of the pain that keeps Eddie open and authentic with Steve. Phantom pain of losing his person. The kind to jolt you feel when you avoid a collision by the skin of your teeth. It makes you hug your love tighter, and soak up the space that exists between you both.
Bestie you’ve brought me to tears. 🥺🥺😩🖤🖤
Not just because of the beautiful words of this message but by messaging me at all.
Every time you talk to me about MPG I get so happy (but also weirdly sad?) because the story and Steve and Eddie within it mean so much to me it actually feels painful sometimes. 😅 and every time you or anyone shows me that they care too…it’s incredibly overwhelming (I’m sensitive, okay? 🥺👉👈)
I’m so grateful and moved by every song suggestion or piece of your imagination you share in response to the fic. MPG is all I think about, and I’m so connected to it, and Idk. I just love discussing it in any context—canon happenings or imagined futures or songs. Anything. And as you know, I doubt myself/writing a lot, so I find your investment very reassuring. 😩🥺🥺🖤🖤
That being said, imagining Steve and Eddie being in a good place in the future makes me ascend to the astral plane lmao. Eddie being so grateful every day that Steve forgave him, and just so grateful that he’s alive. Still doesn’t know sometimes if he really deserves it but he trusts Steve so entirely that if his sweetheart says he deserves love then it must be true. And Steve being so satisfied that he gets to call Eddie his baby, doubts about Eddie ever taking it back and leaving him long gone. Because trust has fully been restored, and they feed off one another’s love to fuel their own self love. They’re just always touching and teasing and flirting. Only have eyes for each other. The kind of relationship where if either of them says something negative about themselves, they’ll get a “that’s my fucking boyfriend you’re talking about. You better watch your mouth. 😤” from the other. Everyone around them finds it disgusting—but they’re all moved by it because their friends know what it took for them to get there. Even Gareth admits they’re cute. 🤣🤣🤣
*Screams* I looooveeee them ☹️☹️☹️🥺😩
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eco15 · 1 year
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Some of y’all rly suck the fun out of reading ACOTAR.
Taking it toooo seriously it’s a YA fantasy romance 100% FICTIONAL book it’s not a biography.
You must be hella bored if you spend your time hating on a series that…doesn’t rly matter when you consider everything else in the word.
You don’t like a book series? Cute. Go find another and leave those who enjoy it ALONE. Make your critical posts ig, have fun but don’t go attacking ppl. It’s so unnecessary the way ppl be talking abt those who enjoy acotar. Not your cup of tea? Once again…
Cute. Go find another.
Acting like SJM should be writing like Dante Alighieri or else it’s jus not good enough like miss gurl cant help it if ppl like fae porn and drama🤷🏽‍♀️ it’s making her money too, a win for her. I believe she writes good fantasy even without the romance/smut and I’ve read a lot of fantasy but to each their own. Even if you don’t like it, there’s a reason the series has a big fandom.
I got my own things abt acotar that I don’t like but…ima peaceful kinda person it’s jus not within me to write 6 page long essay on how bad acotar is and why ppl shouldn’t read it cuz “ew so disgusting no morals every character is bad”
Now I don’t know if you guys can recall, but it is a FICTIONAL book and I also said in a recent post that ppl need to stop applying our morals in a fictional world. Characters are meant to be complex and have flaws, no one is perfect they aren’t god and obviously some characters are going to be viewed different when we’re reading through different perspectives (how nesta views rhysand in acosf, even cassian compared to how feyre views him). All characters aren’t meant to share the same views but it doesn’t necessarily mean one is right and the other is wrong. I believe that when we’re reading characters that are hundreds of years old it is bc of their age and individual experiences throughout time that they can become questionable in their morals and mindset simply bc they have endured so much and don’t see the world in black and white. Not every immortal is a wise old wizard in literature.
I didn’t rly like Rhys in ACOSF. I didn’t like Mor or Amren. Amren was not always fae, she is one of the oldest creatures In their faerie world and was not originally from their faerie world, I would be very surprised if she had the same beliefs/morals as the prythian fae from the get-go. Will never ever be on the same mental level as the rest of the characters. And I don’t mean childish I mean the exact opposite.
I’m not excusing the characters actions, they’re not written to be excused. But if the series and everything that happens in it seriously bothers you. Maybe it’s time for a break🙂
Now I know fs you guys wouldn’t be able to handle Game of Thrones with the way them characters be acting.
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sopejinsunflower · 2 years
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Hii!! I just wanted to let u know that the chapters have been up on my feed so maybe the bug is fixed!!
But also wanted to say, I’m a new reader and I’m so sad I didn’t come across your page sooner!! I seriously haven’t been able to stop thinking abt Eidolons. You are incredibly talented and I really appreciate all the effort that you put into the chapters! And omg the LORE!! I’m so excited for what’s in store!! Hope you’re taking care of yourself <33
Hiii anonieee! I’m glad it’s on your feed but the bug is mainly due to words not appearing in dark mode palette 😭 i do hope this gets fixed soon! If you’re on light mode, you’ll see my fic easier! 🙆🏻‍♀️
Aww don’t be sad about it! I’m always happy to see new readers. And better late than never, right? 🥰 im glad you’re here! Thank you so muchhh for giving Eidolons some love 🥹🥹🥹 i enjoy writing it and im happy to hear that people enjoy reading it too!
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I hope you take care toooo, love! 💜💜💜
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aehyei · 3 years
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WAIT...WHAT? 
PAIRING | lee haechan x reader
GENRE | !fluff, !best friends to lovers!au, !mutual pining!au
WC | 0.49
WARNINGS | wayyyy toooo muchhhh flufff 
SYNOPSIS | he asked you to flirt back— and so you did, just give Haechan a warning first before he might actually truly die from how much he loves you. 
— A/N | requested. (anon: maybe hyuck bff2l with mutual pining for short fic 😔☝️)
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“WANNA BET?” THE STUPID SMIRK ON HAECHAN’S FACE MADE YOU HESITATE TO SAY ‘YES’ AS YOU STARED AT HIM IN SILENCE. 
“Okay, I’ll take your silence as a yes.” Your best friend cleared his throat before telling whatever he had on mind. 
You mentally and physically prepared yourself to whatever idiotic idea he has—“I bet that you’re going to fall for me.”
—too late, you already did years ago.
“Sure, Hyuck. Whatever floats in your boat.” You rolled your eyes at him and continued chewing on your ramen noodles. The smug smile on his face fell and was replaced with a frown as he also slurped on his food, “You suck Y/n. Flirt back sometimes! You always just leave me hanging.”
“Ew, I’d rather flirt with the rat I saw on the sewers.” You let out a disgusted look and kicked his shin under the table, causing him to choke on his noodles and laugh under his breath, “Gosh. You couldn’t even kick hard enough to hurt me.”
“Don’t push it Lee Donghyuck.”
Haechan rests his chin on his palm, staring at you. He leaned in so suddenly and placed your bangs that’s covering your eyes behind your right ear, “There, now I can see your pretty eyes.”
“Seriously? What’s gotten into you?” You ignored your fluttering heart and whinnies loudly. What you didn’t know is how Haechan tried to hide how nervous he was. “Nothing, really! Your just extra beautiful today,” I like you, “You look stunning,” will you be my girlfriend? 
It’s too bad you didn’t have the capability to read minds. 
“S-Stop it, seriously!” You yelped, slamming your chopsticks on the table and reaching for the soda can and chugged on it, hoping that he wouldn’t notice how flustered you are. Haechan observed your shy figure as his heart swelled and ached more for you. He’s a sucker for anything you do—literally. 
“What if I don’t?”
You both stared to each other’s eyes, hearts beating in union and yet still blinded by insecurities to realize the feelings hidden deep inside both of your hearts. 
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“OKAY THIS ISN’T FUNNY ANYMORE GUYS! MY FAVOURITE SHIRT IS GONE!” Haechan hissed loudly and glared at his roommates— you and Mark. 
“Why would I steal it? I have my own shirts.” Mark snickered and popped the chips in his mouth with his eyes still stuck on the show randomly playing on the TV. Haechan groaned in annoyance and stomped in front of the screen, blocking the view of you and Mark, “Then who stole my shirt?!”. 
Mark glanced at you and you lifted both your arms on the air with a playful grin, “Well you stole my heart!”, you accused back. 
“Oh wow, dude.” The Canadian boy muttered out, surprised of your sudden confidence. Even Haechan was taken back as his face started to grow red. His mind ran wild, trying to think of any comeback— but all that escaped his lips were “W-Wait...what?”.
Oh sweet revenge. 
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© AEHYEI, 2021
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ptergwen · 3 years
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sorry i’ve been requesting a lot of arvin haha i jus love him 😩 but could i request sum rlly fluffy and cute where reader watches arvin while he sleeps , tracing his freckles and he wakes up and showers her w compliments and kisses .. maybe even a hint of suggestiveness 😏
no don’t be sorry i love him toooo and he doesn’t get enough of it :/
you’re smiling softly at arvin as he sleeps next to you, his arms tight around your body and breathing deep. he’ll never let you go because he doesn’t want to risk you leaving on him. you won’t.
the permanent frown his face seems to hold is there even in his unconscious state. it’s kind of cute, and a lot less intimidating at the moment. you brush your thumb over his lower lip, which is slightly parted, eyes trained on his closed ones. arvin would get all embarrassed if you did this when he was awake, instead shifting the attention to you with his gentle touches.
he isn’t the best at accepting love that he truly deserves because it’s been so long since he’s had any. well, you don’t mind making up for that. you just did a little while ago.
your hand drops down to his bare chest, and you can feel the rise and fall of it. you circle his skin with your fingertips. arvin is usually a light sleeper, always on edge, expecting the worst to happen. but, he’s too tired out from earlier to be awoken. typical guy stuff. it could be worse, though. he’s at least he’s a cuddler.
you lay your hand flat on him to steady yourself so you can bring your other one up to his cheek. face only inches from arvin’s on the pillow you’re sharing, you take the time to admire every little detail of his. the indented scars from playing with lenora as a kid, the hidden beauty marks you’ve somehow discovered, the endless amount of freckles covering his nose. what a sight.
still grinning, you trail your index finger down the bridge of his nose and stop at the tip. you manage to do this a few times before it starts to twitch. arvin is up now, watching you through hooded eyes. he squeezes at your waist.
“whatcha doin’, doll?” his voice is gravelly, having just woken up. “looking at you. how’d you sleep?” you wonder, stealing a quick kiss from him. he hums into it and runs his thumbs over your sides. they’re covered in bruises for the obvious reasons. arvin is so sweet with you, so careful with what he does and says, except for in the bedroom.
“always good with you,” he answers and quirks an eyebrow. “what were you lookin’ at me for?” “you’re pretty.” you give him a small smile, and he gets shy about it like you thought he would. you’re almost able to make out a blush on his cheeks, then he buries his face in your neck. “mm mm, that’s you,” arvin mumbles, leaving kisses right under your chin.
“a goddamn work of art you are, one of them picasso’s,” he insists while his lips travel lower and to your neck. you giggle at the fact that he’s comparing you to a literal masterpiece. “oh, quit playing,” you tell him with a poke at his chest. he’s more inspired to keep kissing on you, all the way back up to your lips. “when do i ever?” he feigns innocence, giving you another peck. “only all the time,” you sigh back.
arvin grips your sides harder, willing you to take him seriously. “not with you,” he breathes out and smirks after the fact. “‘less it’s foreplay or something.” a gasp escapes you. “oh my god! i can’t believe half the things you say,” you laugh, arvin chuckling along with you, your legs wrapping around his waist. he takes it a step further and pulls you on top of him. the suddenness makes you squeal.
“shut me up, then.”
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strawberrybabydog · 2 years
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I have a question about sharing your delusions and schizophrenia symptoms with a professional. I’m not sure how to word this but: how do I not come off as “too self aware/self dx/trying on purpose to list schizophrenia symptoms and get diagnosed.” I have a list of my symptoms and I’m not sure how I should tell them… just go in the list and say all the info at once? it’s just kinda weird bc they probably wouldn’t expect u to know about catatonia but then if u describe it along with other obvious schizophrenia symptoms it might come off as me trying to “push a diagnosis.” idk. I also don’t want to give toooo much info at once but I have many delusions I want to share and don’t want to spread it out like that. I might sound kinda weird saying I beleive these things yet I have double book keeping. they might not even know what double book keeping it. (I don’t say that word to them but that’s what it is). how did u do it? or like any tips how how to say it Like what do I even say “ive been scared of some weird things lately” lol
take this with a grain of salt, i've only dealt with canadian mental health professionals/health professionals and they are notoriously bad for communicating with patients and taking them seriously
in my experience nothing you say and no matter how you say it will really make them believe you. my best advice is just to pretend to be stupid. instead of saying "i hear voices" maybe something like "sometimes when im alone i hear people talking to me, but like, its real like theyre there. but nobody is, i check the whole house every time." if you have visual hallucinations maybe "sometimes when i take my glasses off the person i'm talking to doesnt become blurry, but thats probably something more fit for an optometrist...." doctors LOVE to feel superior, so the stupider you are, the more likely they are to listen to you. also - i've heard they often make their judgements within the first few seconds of an appointment. if they ask "how are you doing?" dont say "good!" i think this is more just me being paranoid and having terrible experiences with canadian doctors but i guess it doesnt hurt to try
the only MHP i was able to get through to in the past was my therapist, where i basically just explained that i believe these things even though they don't logically make sense, and it's really distressing to me. but at this point i had already built up a level of trust with my therapist and i knew she wouldnt man-splain me/would believe me
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