I'm not really on tumblr as much as I used to be, but that's because my life has grown to encompass so so so much more.
I'm no longer obsessing daily about my body and my progress towards a goal (whether that be a healthy goal or not).
Recovery is so so so important, but your life won't always be this hard. You can get through this to the other side. I struggled for yeeeeaaars and thought it'd never be over. And it was bad... I'm not going to quantify my struggle, but it was very real. (I realize some success stories are difficult to be motivated by if the ED doesn't seem "as bad"... I dont believe body numbers are relevant, but it did take me years of various levels of treatment to get to a good place).
I still struggle with food sensitives (ARFID) but my life is nolonger controlled by anorexia (or arfid for that matter). I'm confident in my body. I have a career that I love. I'm healthy. I have a loving relationship. I can take care of myself as an adult. I'm happy.
I can't tell you exactly what did the trick for me. Various medications. Careful mechanical eating for a long time. Controlled challenges. Mindfulness exercises. The biggest thing for me was trauma work. Trauma was why I kept going back to my ED, so it just kept coming back until I dealt with my trauma. And that was hard. So hard. But soooo worth it. I gained more weight than I wanted to. More than what is strictly BMI healthy. And that was so scary. But at a higher bmi, I actually found myself more comfortable. Way more confident.
There's not a magic cure, and it's hard as shit. Many of us won't get to the other side.... But you might, and if you do, it's so worth it. Why settle for misery when there's a potential for something better?
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reallyy determined not to use symptoms tonight. I successfully went for two brief walks without going to the liquor store so that's a success, I suppose. and having dinner now...this next few hours is the bewitching hours. fingers crossed
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I lost 2,6kgs (5,7lbs) in 3 days I don't know what's gOiNG ON
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if you have gone through treatment for a restrictive ED, can you please (PLEASE 🙏) tell me what your therapy sessions were like? what did you guys talk about? what kind of things did you do during and in between sessions?
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Shout out to people with GI disorders who have comorbid eating disorders 🫂 💕
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I am relapsing and I ate quite a bit today and now I feel absolutely awful and super unwell and I have nobody to turn to, I am totally alone, and there are still 8 days until I see my psychologist again.
I am all alone. I don't think I can do this again.
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Okay but like, the fact that I realised this afternoon that I can track the calories in my gummy multivitamins is SO fucking funny.
Am I going to do it from now on? Yes.
Am I irrationally upset that I haven't been tracking them before now, even though there are so few calories that it doesnt matter? Also yes.
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When I remember how I was told I should weigh myself once a week to “keep my recovery on track”
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i had a really good therapy session today and coffee date, challenged myself by splitting a pastry andd made an everyplate meal (my friend gave me a coupon) without focusing too much on the nutritional info. some anxiety about it but it was tasty and felt good about trying something new! date was #3 with this person and it feels really promising. i haven't drank since thursday so fully detoxed, feeling more clearheaded, sleeping better, not urgey.
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Reading y'all's posts saying stuff like "I'm so happy I'm not fat anymore", "My Shirt is so loose on me"
while I'm over here trying to lose weight in order to FIT BACK INTO my clothes is truly hurting my soul.
I've already lost this weight before. What did I do.
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minutes away from my appt and I'm screaming and crying internally and want to get the hell out of here, im gonna pass out from the nerve wreck I am
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