#find forgiveness as

[channelrat]

its 3am and i just wanna write which probably isnt smart but

#gotta figure out how to smoothly transition this chapter for decode #because like 3 chapters from now i get to have a lil intro inspired chapter and thats ALL i want #just the raw emotion of #when im 45 someone calls me their wife and he #fucks our lives in one #selfish night dont think i'll #find forgiveness as #fast as mom did #and god i love you but you're #SUCH a Dipshit #PLEASE.... #fucking FIX THIS #....cause you were all i looked up to #....now i cant #even look at you

[thequotegarden]

Imagine meeting someone who wanted to learn your past not to punish you, but to understand how you needed to be loved.

#quotes #love #love quotes #finding the one #finding love #inspirational quotes #life quotes #inspiring quotes #soulmates #past quotes #past lives #past life #forgiving yourself quotes #forgivness #forgiveness quotes

[justaz]

country bumpkin merlin not knowing anything about city life and accidentally courting arthur without knowing

merlin, watching gwen give lancelot her favor: why do you do that

gwen, heart eyes at lance and not paying that much attention to the conversation: so he knows i’m rooting for him

merlin, with an Idea: ah.

gwaine, lover of chaos, pisser offer of nobles and royals alike, ultimate wingman: merlin…you have such lonely lips. shall i introduce them to mine?

merlin, unaware of the game gwaine is playing: so you can steal my breath away? i think not, scoundrel

arthur, crushing his goblet in his hand:

merlin: arthur’s been in a bad mood recently :( i should cheer him up

merlin, remembering when arthur was put out when merlin brought morgana flowers and not him: i know just the thing

merlin, bringing a bouquet of carnations, roses, and tulips and setting them on arthur’s table while he’s eating breakfast: good morning, sire

arthur, trained on flower language in hopes that one day when he was to take a queen he could woo her easily, trying not to audibly choke on his sausage as he reads merlin’s declaration of love sitting in front of him:

arthur, who recently found out about merlin’s magic and was trying to find a way to bring it up, catching him in the act and watching merlin panic to explain himself:

merlin, Freaking: and i swear to you arthur, i have only ever used it for you. my magic is yours. my life is yours. i am yours. i would never do anything to harm you. i have protected you for years and will continue to do so at your side if you’ll have me

arthur, already believing them to be courting, desperately trying to figure out if that was a proposal for marriage or not but tired of being confused and deciding fuck it: here.

merlin, taking it: i…uh…huh?

arthur, watching merlin with hawk eyes and trying to figure out what he’s thinking and feeling: it’s my mothers sigil

merlin, confused as FUCK but is focusing on the fact that arthur is handing him something of his mother rather than a death sentence: my…my lord?

arthur, realizing how scared merlin’s must be about him finding out about his magic and trying to comfort him while also proposing, killing two birds with one stone: i will always keep you at my side, merlin, so long as we both shall live. if you’ll allow me.

merlin, almost collapsing with relief and tearing up, smiling at arthur as if he had parted the storm clouds to allow sun to shine down on them in that moment: of course…of course, arthur. always and forever.

merlin, watching the castle staff rush this way and that: wow. this banquet must be incredibly important

sir leon the long suffering, day one ride or die, one of the original merthur shippers: banquet? merlin, this is for your wedding

merlin, overworked and exhausted: my WHAT? to WHO??

leon, regretting everything he’s ever done in his life that led him to this moment: to…arthur?

merlin, over joyed but also absolutely befuddled: i’m getting married to ARTHUR?????

leon: you two have been courting for the past year or so, have you not?

merlin: i’ve been COURTING ARTHUR?????? FOR A YEAR?????????

#merthur #i spent like an hour researching medieval courting rituals to make this #and even then #i did not find much #so if there’s someone out there who is like weirdly knowledgeable about 6th century courting rituals #feel free to add on #bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #merlin emrys #sir gwaine #sir leon #sir lancelot #guinevere #i literally started this post bc i was thinking about the misunderstanding between merlin and gwen and merlin’s giving arthur his favor #and then i kept going #but i didn’t have much else in the ole noggin to write #i’m sorry #please forgive me

[awkwardalpha]

#do you know how difficult it was to find a frame from this scene where dream ISNT smiling? #sandman #the sandman #netflix the sandman #dream #hob gadling #morpheus #FORGIVE ME THE QUALITY the hour is late and i am stupid

[luneariann]

#bsd #skk #chuuya #dazai #bungou stray dogs #bungou stray dogs fanart #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #atsushi nakajima #atsushi #bungou stray dogs atsushi #oda sakunosuke #ango sakaguchi #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #bungou stray dogs dazai #dazai fanart #everyone please forgive the terrible quality at the end #I couldn’t find a way to split it wothout fucking up the panels #my god this is messy #anyways #ely art #ely-comics

[vorestarr]

ascended astarion and vampire spouses

so I've been reading the dnd 2e manual "Van Richten's Guide to Vampires" for fic/game inspiration, and there's this really interesting chapter on vampire brides and grooms. after reading it, it's very clear to me that Astarion didn't turn Tav into a typical spawn, but into a vampire spouse, which are two very different rituals with very different outcomes.

the typical vampire spawn creation process is exactly what Astarion describes happening to him: a painful death, a painful rebirth into undeath, fighting his way out of his own coffin, and Cazador's complete control over him. this is described pretty clearly in the guide to vampires:

According to most related tales, a vampire can create another simply by killing a mortal either with its life-energy draining power (draining all the character's experience leveIs) or by exhausting the mortal of his or her blood supply. If the victim's body is not properly destroyed, it arises as a vampire, under the control of the creature who killed it, on the second night following the burial. [...] Most vampires remember the instant of their death and the nature of their killer, and understand immediately their new nature. Certainly their new hunger gives them a good idea of what they have become. They must immediately free themselves from their grave. either by breaking it open from within or by assuming gaseous form and diffusing out.

so that's definitely what happened to Astarion, but that's not what happens to Tav. after ascended Astarion turns Tav into a vampire, they can ask him what happened, and he describes the following:

Astarion: You are so beautiful... And you will be beautiful forever. Thank you for trusting me. Player: What exactly happened? Astarion: You were drained dry, and at the height of your delirium, I granted you one drop of my own blood. Things will be a touch different for you than they were for me when I was a spawn. I'm imbibed with unfathomable new talents. I am fairly certain I can extend Mephistopheles' blessings unto you. Player: Does that mean I need not fear the sun? Astarion: You need not fear anything. You will be stronger, swifter, sharper, but you won't be different. You were already perfect before. It's hard to improve.

for reference, this is how the guide to vampires describes the ritual for vampire spouses:

To actually create the bride, the vampire bestows what is known as the "Dark Kiss". lt samples the blood of its mortal paramour—once, twice, thrice—draining her almost to the point of death. This process causes the subject no pain; in fact, it has been described as the most euphoric, ecstatic experience, in comparison to which all ether pleasures fade into insignificance. Just as the subject is about to slip into the terminal coma from which there is no awakening, the vampire opens a gash in its own flesh—often in its throat—and holds the subject's mouth to the wound, As the burning draught that is the vampire’s blood gushes into the subject's mouth, the primitive feeding instinct is triggered, and she sucks hungrily at the wound, enraptured. With the first taste of the blood, the subject is possessed of great and frenzied strength (Str 18, if the character’s Str isn't already higher), and will use it to prevent the vampire from separating her from the fountain of wonder that is its bleeding wound. lt is at this point that the creator-vampire's strength is most sorely tested. He is weakened by his own blood loss, and also by his own rapture as the "victim" of a dark kiss. Overcoming the sudden loss of strength and the inclinations of lust, the vampire must pull her away from its own throat, hopefully without harming her, before she has overfed. Should the subject be allowed to feed for too long (more than 2 rounds), she is driven totally and incurably insane, and will die in agony within 24 hours. Once the subject has stopped feeding, she falls into a coma that lasts minutes or hours (2dl2 turns), at the end of which time she dies. Several (1 d3) hours later, she arises as a Fledgling vampire—and her creator's bride.

this to me sounds like what Astarion describes. he drains Tav almost dry, and at the very last moment, gives them a single drop of his blood. (also interesting reading this guide, the single drop avoids the problem of the vampire spouse being driven ravenous with hunger for the vampire creator's blood and attacking them. did Astarion know this and give them one drop on purpose to avoid that and Tav potentially being driven mad by it? or was he being selfish and this is just a nice but unanticipated outcome?)

i kept reading and there's a lot more interesting information about vampire spouses, but the most interesting thing I found related to the game was this:

Although there are some folk tales that describe the bride of a vampire as its slave, in much the same way that offspring are slaves, a bride is free-willed from the moment of her creation. The creator vampire does have great influence over the bride. however although this control is totally nonmagical. When a vampire is created in the traditional manner—that is, when a victim's life energy is completely drained away—the new fledgling instinctively understands much about the vampiric way of unlife, and about its own strengths, weaknesses* and needs. Not so the bride.

so basically, the vampire spouse is not tied to the vampire creator in the same way as a spawn (i.e., not able to be fully controlled) but is still extremely reliant on the vampire creator to teach them how to live as a vampire. the guide goes on to describe that some vampire creators may lie to their vampire spouse about the control or powers they have, in order to exert more control over them.

interestingly, if you ask Astarion if he can compel you the way Cazador compelled him, he doesn't give a straight answer, he just says this:

Player: Cazador could compel you - can you compel me? Astarion: Why would I need to? You're going to be wonderfully obedient.

to me, all of this says that Astarion was telling the truth when he told Tav that they would be different from him as a spawn, and also in emphasizing that they are not a spawn but a consort. he didn't create a spawn, he created a vampire spouse. he married Tav, and because of this Tav also retains their free will.

of course, Astarion doesn't say this. if he knows, he withholds this information in much the way that this guide describes, as a way for the creator to maintain more control over their spouse. but still, extremely interesting implications for the ascended Astarion romance, imo.

other interesting facts about vampire spouses from the guide to vampires:

the married couple has telepathic communication that can span miles -- so Tav and Astarion can potentially have a telepathic bond even after the tadpoles are gone. (another note, this communication has to be consensual both ways for it to work, so you can't just dig around someone's mind if they don't want it.)

the vampire creator is extremely jealous and possessive. (yeah lol)

their life forces are linked, so one suffering a great deal is felt by the other.

the bond can be broken, but the ritual to do so has to be initiated by the creator. to break it, they both spill their blood on the ground and allow it to mix. this dissolves all aspects of the bond (i.e., telepathy and linked life forces), but the spouse stays a vampire.

#forgive me if this is already posted somewhere #i went looking for a post like this but tumblr's search system is so abysmal i couldn't find anything #so i'm just posting for my own reference and then tagging it for others in case :) #astarion #ascended astarion #astarion ancunin #astarion romance #for reference #meta #baldur's gate 3

[wearecrowley]

guard dog crowley reporting for duty

#good omens #gomens #goodomensedit #crowley #my gifs #tvgifs #tvedit #do you think he does it on purpose? #or do you think he just thinks this is normal 'friend' behavior #and no one has told him otherwise #least of all aziraphale who finds it endearing #also this scene is weirdly difficult to color so forgive the blue looking suit #I'm still learning these things

[chaiaurchaandni]

4 year old Ahmad Shabat - an israeli airstrike hit him, his parents & 4 siblings; he survived, they didn't - then they hit him & his father's relatives; he survived, they didn't - then they hit him & his uncle; he survived, his uncle didn't - both of Ahmed's legs have been amputated because of injuries. He survives.

i hope Ahmad gets to live. i hope he has a beautiful and fulfilling life. i hope he finds love and safety and comfort and success. i hope he finds happiness. i hope he heals. i hope he continues to survive. in spite of the violence, in spite of the trauma, in spite of the horror. in spite of the world.

#it feels like my heart is breaking over and over and over again #i hope this kid gets to live. i hope he has a beautiful and fulfilling life. #i hope he finds love and safety and comfort and success #i hope he finds happiness #i hope he heals #i hope he continues to survive in spite of everything #no child should have to go through even a fraction of this #never forget and never ever forgive #i remember seeing a video of him and his uncle. his uncle was speaking ab how they only have each other left. then they killed his uncle to #i am losing my mind every day #i spit on this world and everyone that has the power to stop this but wont #free palestine #palestine #gaza #long live palestine #death to israel #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #glory to the martyrs #long live the resistance

[itty-bitty-sunshine]

Say, what happens if moon tries to kill immorral y/n? How would immortal y/n react? 👀

What the eyes can't see, the heart can't feel.

#they just hope that if he ever finds out; that he'll be as forgiving as they are being right now. #immortal au #dca au #dca fandom #oc/y/n #fnaf moon #comic #sunshine draws #cw minor blood #immortal au art🎨

[asterlizard]

I wanna be with you My best friend

#artsterlizard #sailor moon #pgsm #pretty guardian sailor moon #usagi tsukino #ami mizuno #rei hino #makoto kino #minako aino #luna the cat #artemis the cat #heyyy did you know that miyuu's smile is shaped like a heart??? cuz that's what I learned while drawing her here #also forgive me if I got minako's uniform colours wrong I couldn't find a clear reference of her skirt + collar colours

[witheredhope2007]

hi. fnaf hw2 fun. here is sun dressed as a vocaloid figure. thank you

#fnaf #fnaf sb #fnaf sun #fnaf daycare attendant #weepart #if i find one that feels right ill do one for moon too maybe #if anyone beats me to it & finds other figures theyd like to see sun/moon or any of the other animatronics in feel free to send them my way #i think its helping me get out of art sludge (i haves not drawn in months) #ahh the more i look at this the more wonky it looks forgive me. ruffles are the enemy.

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

how do people still call c//a a tragic shakespearean romance when s5 entrapdak exists?

#lord that “what have you done to me” STILL gets me #it's so corny but also so so heartwrenching #the way entrapta changed him for the better helped him find his own path and identity #made him believe that he was beautiful no matter what his abuser said #catra could never #i'll never forgive crew-ra for the way they prioritized c//a over entrapdak #spop #she ra #entrapta #hordak #spop hordak #spop entrapta #entrapdak #entrapta x hordak #💜💙

[endlesslytired]

#yeah i made more as i keep up with my resources when i get brainrot #im tryna organise by character when I make these #fr i wish i could find a wider range of usable things for more unique stuff but man it's hard #honkai star rail #honkai star rail memes #hsr aventurine #i love him sm i forgive his crimes #hsr firefly #same as i just said #hsr black swan #hsr acheron #another that applies to for me #hsr duke inferno #hsr acheswan #hsr boothill #i am so down for their team up #hsr topaz #girl you just show up places don't you #hsr seele #ive been watching her en va's vods recently and she's so funny #hsr sushang #honkai impact 3rd #honkai impact 3rd memes #hi3 kiana kaslana #hi3 fu hua #hi3 herrscher of thunder #hi3 herrscher of void #hi3 sirin #hi3 elysia

[starbylers]

Do people not realise that using Vecna tormenting Will about his complicated feelings towards El to make Will out to be a bad person who just hates her is literally exactly what Vecna does lmfao. That’s his whole MO—he digs into the character’s pain and twists things, convinces them their worst thoughts and fears are who they truly are, tries to make them succumb to the black hole of their trauma. He doesn’t reveal some secret dark evil truth in the person, he exploits their internalised suffering and tells them they are an awful person for it. I fear the point of the show went straight over some heads…….

#byler #are we really surprised though? #how did I see someone say ‘Mike’s not gonna find this one easy to forgive…’ lmfao what #Will being a complex character and having negative feelings does Not mean he did something ‘wrong’ that he needs to atone for #in canon he grew and in season 4 we saw how caring and protective he is over El #he’s more than made up for his literal thought crimes in pre-season 2 #and that’s if we’re even taking this as canon which is not confirmed

[thepeacefulgarden]

#you are enough #you are worthy #you matter #you don't suck #finding yourself #you are not a failure #you are not your past #you are not your mistakes #you are not what happened to you #healing #trauma #recovery #self compassion #self care #self love #self respect #self forgiveness #body image #fuck diet culture #mental health #generational trauma #religious trauma #exvangelical #ex catholic #lgbtq+ #doing the work #doing the hard stuff

[piromina]

ok but what if félix didnt get off on the wrong foot with adriens friends. what if they all rly liked him and didn't think of him as 'a cruel and inferior copy of the original'. what then. we would have so many good friendships there. félix + nino = gabriel agreste hate club. félix + marinette = gabriel agreste hate club. félix + alya = gabriel agreste hate club. félix + chloé = gabriel agreste hate club. guys do you see where im going with this. guys.

#miraculous ladybug #felix fathom #felix graham de vanily #adrien agreste #alya cesaire #marinette dupain cheng #gabriel agreste #nino lahiffe #no but for real they all have one thing in common and if maybe they saw past #Félix's adrien thing like that was just for like. other stuff u can forgive him #like if they all forgave him then we could have so MANY #WHOLESOME FRIENDSHIPS #félix isnt that bad!!! luckily alya might stop hating him now that #marinette probably told her abt his........backstory #so they could start being friends #the 'fuck around find out' duo if u get what im saying.