This is kind of personal, but does anyone else feel disgusted when you find out other ppl like you?
Like it's just a pretty visceral feeling where I feel dirty all over.
I rejected a friend recently and we decided to stay friends(big improvement for me cause I used to just straight up ghost people or even quit jobs)but I can tell they still like me because no one finds me that funny when they don't and I just. I'm starting to hate them a bit and I really don't want to because I know that's not their fault?
For the longest time I just felt general awkwardness, but after a particularly bad experience with a guy who wouldn't take no I'm afraid it's tainted every possible reaction after.
Instead of fear I feel disgust, which is worse because then on top of my regular feelings I also have to fear guilt from rationally knowing it's not their fault if they catch feelings.
Idk, does anyone have any stories to commiserate? I feel like ppl would look at me like I was crazy if I said this irl.
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Platonic attraction is so wild it's like. Your hair looks fantastic. Please talk to me please talk to me please talk to me. I lose the few social skills I have when you're around. If you asked me to date you I'd turn you down. You're so cool, and I want you to think I'm also cool. I wish I could spend more time with you. The thought of kissing you, holding hands, etc feels gross. I want to be your friend so badly it feels like I will explode. I don't have a crush on you.
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i wanted to post this on twitter but i felt like it was too mean
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i i experienced platonic/alterous(idrk) attraction again recently and man it's been so long since my last squish i was so thrown off and confused. like i had a mini crisis for a second questioning my aroace identity. then i calmed down and like wait no it's not sexual or romantic attraction, this is exactly the same as last time, i just wanna chat and spend time with this person
i think a lot of my confusion comes from the fact it's always towards the opposite sex tho, ive never felt this way towards women and heteronormativity makes u think u have a crush 🫠
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Is this courtship?
Danny is going to Gotham for his scholarship.
Good news! There's another halfa in the city, and he seems to be a good guy. Bad news: the nearest path to his university is through that halfta's haunt. He could take the long way around, but the costs would be more than his budget can handle, and he'd like to avoid dealing with a pissed-off Red Hood.
Hopefully the offerings will be enough to sate his annoyance (and help maybe, god that man has the most malnourished core he's ever seen).
Jason is getting incredibly confused over the strange gift baskets that keep appearing on his patrol routes.
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im doing this again bc im obsessed with the human experience. also no one can stop me
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i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.
and that should be fine; but it's never fine.
i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.
for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.
we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.
i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.
restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.
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I bet choso is so weird when he’s into u like u go out with friends and he just stares at u and it’s like that for weeks like he just doesn’t say anything to u first ever but he’s just. Always there he doesn’t really know what to do about it but he knows in his brain ur already his and like sometimes he’s next to u in the bar like on guard looking over your shoulder and u don’t even realize it until u turn around and more often than not he scares the shit out of you but eventually u get kind of used to him always being there and you’re not sure what changed or if anything ever did but now your leaning into him and letting him hold his arm across your chest protectively and sometimes he gets this scary look on his face when people look at you but honestly you don’t even mind it
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feedin' time w/leader and the creepy ass leader's right hand
posting both versions cause i feel like both look good enough
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Does Flowey exist in this au?
Yes, he does.
Everything's pretty much the same when it comes to the regular story in this AU. It's just the past, especifically Papyrus' past (wich we don't know much about to begin with) that changes
Actually Flowey is one of the main characters in the story! (the main story of this au is divided between the past before the game and a post-pacifist timeline:D)
He and Papyrus will have a fun dynamic
-some thought I had in tags behind the keep reading
Srry for the spelling mistakes in here but I can't go and fix tags because I would end up erasing everything😭tumblr struggles
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I think a lot about the fact that Herobrine as a creepypasta initially was not malicious at all. Like literally he was just some guy who made very specific tunnels, cut leaves off trees and built pyramids in your world, all weird things but really not harmful. Like his worst crime was telling someone on a forum to fuck off when they kept talking about him.
But then with time there's been all this additional detail added on like the redstone torches and traps and shrines and he's seemingly gotten more aggressive as an entity within writing and other media. Like he'll actively go out of his way to hinder the player in game or in some depictions irl in some way.
All of this is to say I think the more we tried to figure out Herobrine and shit the more we pissed him off a little. Give the man some space I'm sure he's tired of the 12 year olds trying to summon him every other day.
EDIT: Please check out my Minecraft AU if you like MC stuff like this, I put a lot of work into it with my partner.
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