bleachmymind

[bleachmymind]

i feel like an infant; crying out for what I need but not yet wise enough to put it to words.

At the same time I feel like a mother; always putting effort into those i love while never receiving what I need to feel nurtured and appreciated.

I am fragile.

I am weak as I am strong.

#not me having my 73rd breakdown of the week and writing melancholic shit poems 🥴 #if this could even be considered poetry lmao #not bleach #personal #random

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hey not sure if i have any Jewish followers from NJ but FYI. this is really concerning

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okay, so this has nothing to do with bleach or Tumblr whatsoever, but there are things I can say on Tumblr I can't say on FB due to having family on there.

okay, so I am literally in tears over this shit because it's so fucking genuine. probably gonna get hated on for this, but whatever. like, me and my bf both bust our fucking asses off 24/7 just trying to keep ourselves fed and sheltered and whatnot, and then there are assholes out there who think stealing a fucking $75 bottle of tequila is a-okay because, why the fuck not, y'know? the employees can't stop you. the police won't do shit. just go in and grab whatever the fuck you want because you'd rather spend all your money on a fucking designer set of sweats than do something productive for humanity, right? Jesus fucking Christ. I normally wouldn't get this upset over this because I don't know other people's struggles. i don't know their life. fair enough.

but when I work my ass off, when my bf works his ass off just so we can fucking EAT SOMETHING today, and this happens to me first hand, imma get angry. the level of pure, unadulterated rage and disgust I feel right now is unimaginable. like, I don't think I can even put proper words to it to make you understand.

I was at work today, exhausted after having worked a 12 hour shift the day prior, and just trying to be polite and shit, and then this absolute piece of shit man comes in, grabs an expensive bottle of tequila, and shoves it in his pants before proceeding to walk toward the door. we've caught this guy stealing MULTIPLE FUCKING TIMES before and kicked him out, but he keeps coming on the same bullshit as last week.

please keep in mind I am a very non-confrontational person. I am insanely conflict-avoidant. but I watched as this guy talked with another customer on the aisle, walked down to the vodka until the other customer moved on, and very obviously nabbed the tequila in question before walking around the check out to walk to the front door. seeing as I saw the whole thing go down this time, i stepped in front of him so I was blocking the door (heart pounding because this is a liquor store full of crackheads and there's no telling if he has a weapon on him) and tried to get him to give the bottle he had in his pants. like, dude, I know you think you're tough shit because you wait for the employees to be all female before you go on your bullshit rampage, but there is no way in hell your dick is as wide as a Don Julio tequila bottle. hate to break it to ya.

so as im trying to reason with this man who is talking over me, he SHOVES me out of the way so he can make his escape. so now I'm left standing in the doorway, shaking, trembling, seething with rage and pure adrenaline. I'm still so fucking shaken up over this and it happened at 5:15p.m. CST. Jesus fucking Christ i purely and genuinely hate humanity.

you guys, family, and friends are obviously an exception, but everyone else needs to be thrown in a fucking volcano. we work hard to get shit in life and there are motherfuckers out there who feel so entitled to everything that they shit on the people who work. God fucking damn it. I am so fucking furious. I should e stayed in therapy.

(pictures for context because your girl just went OFF on Facebook, too)

#not writing #rant #like a hell of a rant

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okay, so I am literally in tears over this shit because it's so fucking genuine. probably gonna get hated on for this, but whatever. like, me and my bf both bust our fucking asses off 24/7 just trying to keep ourselves fed and sheltered and whatnot, and then there are assholes out there who think stealing a fucking $75 bottle of tequila is a-okay because, why the fuck not, y'know? the employees can't stop you. the police won't do shit. just go in and grab whatever the fuck you want because you'd rather spend all your money on a fucking designer set of sweats than do something productive for humanity, right? Jesus fucking Christ. I normally wouldn't get this upset over this because I don't know other people's struggles. i don't know their life. fair enough.

but when I work my ass off, when my bf works his ass off just so we can fucking EAT SOMETHING today, and this happens to me first hand, imma get angry. the level of pure, unadulterated rage and disgust I feel right now is unimaginable. like, I don't think I can even put proper words to it to make you understand.

I was at work today, exhausted after having worked a 12 hour shift the day prior, and just trying to be polite and shit, and then this absolute piece of shit man comes in, grabs an expensive bottle of tequila, and shoves it in his pants before proceeding to walk toward the door. we've caught this guy stealing MULTIPLE FUCKING TIMES before and kicked him out, but he keeps coming on the same bullshit as last week.

please keep in mind I am a very non-confrontational person. I am insanely conflict-avoidant. but I watched as this guy talked with another customer on the aisle, walked down to the vodka until the other customer moved on, and very obviously nabbed the tequila in question before walking around the check out to walk to the front door. seeing as I saw the whole thing go down this time, i stepped in front of him so I was blocking the door (heart pounding because this is a liquor store full of crackheads and there's no telling if he has a weapon on him) and tried to get him to give the bottle he had in his pants. like, dude, I know you think you're tough shit because you wait for the employees to be all female before you go on your bullshit rampage, but there is no way in hell your dick is as wide as a Don Julio tequila bottle. hate to break it to ya.

so as im trying to reason with this man who is talking over me, he SHOVES me out of the way so he can make his escape. so now I'm left standing in the doorway, shaking, trembling, seething with rage and pure adrenaline. I'm still so fucking shaken up over this and it happened at 5:15p.m. CST. Jesus fucking Christ i purely and genuinely hate humanity.

you guys, family, and friends are obviously an exception, but everyone else needs to be thrown in a fucking volcano. we work hard to get shit in life and there are motherfuckers out there who feel so entitled to everything that they shit on the people who work. God fucking damn it. I am so fucking furious. I should e stayed in therapy.

(pictures for context because your girl just went OFF on Facebook, too)

#not writing #rant #like a hell of a rant #im so pissed off and scared and i hate it here

[bleachmymind]

today's the DAYYYYY~

#bleach #ginjo kugo #bleach scenarios #bleach headcanons #thousand year blood war

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I work nights and bf works days, so when he's asleep I'm always up watching true crime docs and browsing the medias and sometimes when I look over at him he looks like a broken corpse he's so cute

#sorry let me vent about how adorable bf is #i'm not crying you're crying #i only know he's alive bc sometimes he talks in his sleep #not writing #rambling

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I have made an executive decision to be a piece of shit and just post WIPs I have in my notes bc I'm stuck on some and maybe some of y'all will have ideas

#bleach #bleach scenarios #writing #bleach headcanons #bleach fanfiction #fanfic

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Reblog if you will answer LITERALLY ANY anon questions.

BRING IT ON

challenge accepted 

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They did Orihime so dirty in the anime. They left everything out and turned her into the damsel in distress trope and that is just not what happened at all. Like, yes she had almost no offensive power in the beginning, and she is the defacto healer, but her character development in the manga is so good and so glaringly obvious and in your face. I literally dont know how people dislike her. Orihime is actually one of the best a most multifaceted nuanced characters ever, and she doesnt get enough love or credit for everything she did for Ichigo (and by extension soul society and their friends) without question. Unwavering loyalty, even when they questioned if she had gone to Hueco Mundo of her own volition, after the soul society arc wanting to get stronger so she can protect everyone too, so she doesnt have to look at Ichigo's back while he protects her, so they can fight shoulder to shoulder, even though she cant fathom the enemy that they're going up against, even though Tatsuki gets her soul damn near sucked out, even though Chad's arm gets ripped off right in front of her eyes and all she does is immediately step forward to use her powers to reject and reverse his injury. She watches Chad get his arm ripped clean off and then tries to fight against a monster 8 times her size, because she doesnt want to buy time until Ichigo arrives anymore, she wants to fight too! We dont acknowledge that she is a 15 year old girl being threatened with the lives of all the people she cares about if she doesnt accompany Ulquiorra to Hueco Mundo, and this girl has no family left, her friends are her family. Her absolute unshakable faith that at least Ichigo, if not all of their friends would come for her no matter the risk. (Six hearts will beat as one) WHY DOES NO ONE FUCKING TALK ABOUT THE MOMENT SHE IS HAVING HER OWN POWER SPECULATED ON BY AIZEN, SHE REALIZES IF HER POWER IS THE ABILITY TO REJECT PHENOMENA, THAT SHE IS GOING TO TRY AND DESTROY THE HOGYOKU BY REJECTING ITS VERY EXISTENCE? THAT IS ONE OF THE MOST GIRLBOSS MOVES IN ALL EXISTING MEDIA. We dont talk about how fucking down for Ichigo she is in that moment in his fight with Grimmjow, when she is afraid of him, afraid of the hollow inside him, afraid that he will be lost to it like her big brother was and have his soul consumed, about how the second she decided he was still Ichigo, and he always would be that Ichigo was able to pull out the win. We dont talk about how the boy she loved got murdered right in front of her eyes by her kidnapper and manipulator, and in that moment calling out for him to protect her was more powerful than death. Ichigo was only able to use his hollow powers like that without losing himself (and he almost did) to them BECAUSE it was at Orihime's explicit request. Orihime deserves everything, she is the ultimate ride or die and not just for Ichigo, for everyone she cares about, and even for the people who dont deserve it. She healed those two arrancar women who were beating her to a pulp after Grimmjow busted in and ripped them apart, one even called her a monster as she was healing her because she didnt understand how Orihime could be so selfless in the face of such violence directed at her. She calls Orihime a monster because she herself is a monster and cant understand someone like Orihime that will help anyone with no bias just because it's the right thing to do. Orihime is literally the best fucking character and you cannot change my mind. So much of BLEACH is about the words, the feeling, the symbolism, and Orihime brings something to BLEACH that despite all the amazing dialogue and intense feelings and amazing battles, other characters at their best just don't bring to the series for me. She was the most underpowered, uninformed character just thrown into the middle of a literal supernatural war all because she wanted to do the right thing and help her friends and the boy she loved.

#bleach #reblog #orihime inoue #orihime kurosaki

[bleachmymind]

one thing I'm discovering as I try to get back in the groove of writing is that

there is such a thing as too many details.

#fuck #bleach #rants n ramblings #writing #anyway

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oh, how drinking alone effects my writing.

#if only i could do this much when I'm high #r.i.p #bleach #kugo ginjo #ginjo kugo #ginjo #kugo #writing #bleachmymind #bleach fanfiction #bleach scenarios #bleach story

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this whole album tbh

head canon: this song represents Kugo to the fullest potential

#feel free to converse with me abt it once you listen to the songs mkay #bleach headcanons #ginjo kugo #kugo #ginjo #Shinedown #music theory #Spotify #bleach #kugo ginjo

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head canon: this song represents Kugo to the fullest potential

#this one too #not writing #bleach #kugo ginjo #bleach headcanons #ginjo kugo #kugo #ginjo #Shinedown #music theory #anyway #Spotify

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head canon: this song represents Kugo to the fullest potential

#bleach #not writing #kugo ginjo #bleach headcanons #ginjo kugo #ginjo #kugo #Shinedown #music theory #anyway #Spotify

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final product ft. Ryoka in the corner.

bf & I started drinking at 6 am and he randomly decided this is his newest photoshop project. i shall update u all with the final draft.

#thank God he removed the Kon tattoo #this goes against the hc i have about Kugo's back tat but oh well ig #here you have it #the first completely shirtless kugo *i* know of courtesy of BF #enjoy(??) #kugo #kugo ginjo #bleach #not writing #ginjo #bleach pictures #bleach headcanons #ginjo kugo #i know the character he used for ryoka is Shizumi from Blue Exorcist but idk where the bod of kugo came from

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#not writing #bleach #kugo ginjo #bleach headcanons #bf gone wild #idk how to approach this situation #h e l p #ginjo #kugo #ginjo kugo

[bleachmymind]

bf & I started drinking at 6 am and he randomly decided this is his newest photoshop project. i shall update u all with the final draft.

#help #bleach #kugo ginjo #not writing #why is he doing this when he knows i love him?? (bf) #bleach headcanons #bleach pictures #ginjo #kugo #ginjo kugo #pray 4 me