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thinking about my ex/best friend having a new partner makes me so so sad and heart broken so that’s something i need to work on apparently

#good to know #i would cry and throw up and be broken up with all over again #this is not good news #ruh roh

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Just found out I was thirsty not by receiving a signal from my body about it but by dozing off and dreaming about cold water from different alluring angles. This is great. I think all my wants and needs should be revealed to me this way

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resorted to turning my calendar into a star chart and giving myself a sticker every time i brush my teeth twice a day

#😐😐😐 #i am 18 years of age #sometimes i miss my germaphobia days bc what is this shit #it’s actually really helpful tho bro is DESPERATE for a sticker #recovery #pro recovery

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life gets a bajillion times better just leaving school

i haven’t even been able to move out yet and it’s been so improved

#IMAGINE the joys of moving out oh my god #but things get better #recovery #pro recovery

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pulling out the hours as long as i can

clinging to the christmas where i didn’t cry

i didn’t feel worse

or excluded

or less than

or fucked over

i felt seen and heard and wanted

i felt wanted.

dragging it on and on to grip the warmth in the colder hours

taking what i can so it still fits under the technicality of it was christmas

a free pass

a blind eye

a warmth in the colder hours

#tags are going crazy #i’m drunk can you tell #some of the warmth in the colder hours is the alcohol #pro recovery #recovery #christmas #trans #transmasc #anorexik #dysphoria #autism #ed recovery #christianity #christ #xmas

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sobbing on the floor of my childhood bedroom like i’m 12

#antitherapy core #i’ve been to therapy tho so it’s odd #pro recovery #recovery #i swear

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ATTENTION

IF YOU SUPPORT ISRAEL, UNFOLLOW ME. I DONT WANT YOU ON MY BLOG.

HOWEVER.

THIS IS NOT AN EXCUSE TO GO INTO MY INBOX AND BE ANTISEMITIC. RANDOM JEWISH PEOPLE ONLINE ARE NOT THE ONES COMMITTING CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY.

THIS HAS BEEN A PSA.

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i don’t have moots to tag so count me as a free pass to do it @everyone lmao

i'm so bored

Tags (no presure)

@httpsm4rycom @hearts4cara @i-am-an-arson-enthusiast @roselovesthestars @ray-of-midnight-storm @rosees3ray @in-a-state-of-crisis and anyone else!

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i’ve never heard anything more real

there’s no gender euphoria like slouching on a bus seat while wearing cargo pants and a baggy sweatshirt

[bunnyexists]

need an enemies to lovers with the vibes of agony from into the woods

#thanks in advance #the vibes are so good #the way they both rip open their shirts yes #enemies to lovers #into the woods #agony #fanfic #fanfiction

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oml i’ve never been tagged in anything this is fun

last read: red white and royal blue. my friends loved it so i borrowed ones copy to see the hype LOVED the book loathed the movie oh my god it sucked so much made a letterboxd account bc i was becoming insufferable everytime i thought about jt

current read: i’m glad my mom died by jennette mccurdy. technically i just finished it but so good loved it it was funny in its own way and i related to it a lot i’d be wary if you’re in early recovery but incredible book 10/10

next read: i don’t read a lot anymore so i don’t have my sights on anything my next read will probably be fanfiction books suggestions welcome lmao

@thefinaljediknight, thanks for the tag!

Last reads: I've just finished 'Dune' by Frank Herbert and I really enjoyed it. There's such a pervasive sense of doom throughout the entire book.

Current reads: Nearly done with 'Als ich ein kleiner Junge war' (meaning 'When I was a little boy', there seems to be no English version) by Erich Kästner. A super heart-felt and witty memoir.

Next reads: Spooky season is upon us, so I'll pick up the one creepy book from my TBR, which is 'The White Dominican' by Gustav Meyrink. And I need to check out some horror fanfiction.

Tagging: @al-val-meadow, @volunteerfelinedetectives, @snowdropnature, @dragoneyes618, @cleverqueencommander, @jacobsnicket, @acacia-may, @virginian-wolfsnake, @wimplee, @insane-author, and anyone I forgot and/or feels free to join. 😊

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yo, i rlly wanna relapse and i'm trying hard not to i didn't know who to ask but you seem nice

i’m never on this anymore so i’m only seeing this but i fully get this idk what flavour of relapse this is but any way there’s always those thoughts there and sometimes i want to just listen to it. i honestly find the i am sober app so incredibly helpful when the urges are really strong and don’t just go away after a day

could always message me!! i am nice and i like making friends <3 hope you’re doing better

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we’re not feeling very whimsy tonight fellas

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he couldn’t tell i was binding.

#i fucking hate all of it everything sucks everything is awful forever #god i hate myself #dysphoria #trans

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i want to watch tv and share a bag of crisps

i want to go out for dinner

i want to have popcorn on movie night

i don’t want to have guilt from eating or not eating

#i want food to come with love and vice versa #it’s not their fault but these are my desires #pro recovery #recovery #ed recovery #queer #@na trigger #3dtumblr #anorex14 #i wanna be weightless #tw 3d vent #mealsp0 #thinspø #th1nspø

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just came out

i feel like i shouldn’t have

#to my parents #trans #transgender #transmasc #non binary #we didn’t get into the specifics of it bc my mother started crying #i hate myself #why did i do this #queer #pride #gender queer

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i need friends who aren’t passively killing themselves