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Me: *to my therapist* I had the spoons, so I did heaps of stuff and now I'm so exhausted I feel sick.

My Therapist: This is where you got to treat spoons like cash. Just because you have them, you need to figure out if you have enough to spend, or else you're going to be in debt. Remember, you're autistic, so you regain those spoons slowly and use them quickly. Everything, good and bad, uses that cash for you. You may enjoy the activity but it's going to exhaust you just as much as a bad activity if you're not careful.

Me: Goddamnit....

#neurodivergent #adult autism #neurodiverse stuff #self diagnosed autism #autistic adult #autism

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Me saying “why didn’t I think of that?!” as I’m talking to myself about an idea that I, myself, did just think of

#my toxic trait #is that I often think my ideas are great and will tell myself so #and I laugh at my own jokes #talking to myself #adhd #adhd brain #adult adhd #self talk #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff

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*me, giving my guest a tour and showing them where the bathroom is*

“…and this is my home office: where I rapid-fire respond to all the 30 texts I’ve been ignoring for 2 weeks, whilst waiting for my neurodivergent intestines to do their thing.”

#neurodivergent intestines #it’s a thing #you thought only your brain was neurodivergent? #then may I ask why your bowel habits have never been normal? #texting is overwhelming #executive dysfunction #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #dopamine deficiency #adhd #lack of motivation #adult autism #adhd and autism #self diagnosed autism #autism #autistic adult #adhd brain #adult adhd

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Me 10 minutes after i put a letter in the mail to my grandma:

Oh I wonder if she’s responded yet!

#and I’m even a 90s kid! #I had a real pen pal and everything #how quickly technology changes everything #lol #90s kid #snail mail #mail

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My childhood dream has still not come to pass, and I’m afraid it never will…

I still have not had a substantial period of time in my life where I do not have a song stuck on loop in my head.

It’s hopeless 😭

#adhd problems #I got songs stuck in my head #on loop #forever #to the point of annoying me #but the only thing I can do is find a different song #it will always be playing a song #why can’t it just stop for a minute #adult adhd #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #adhd stuff #adhd #adhd brain

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I feel every fabric, every wrinkle, every seam, every crumb, any change in air pressure, any temperature shift… I feel it all & I’m constantly trying to Not feel it all.

Yet when I have to pee, do I get up to use the bathroom right away when I feel that?

No, why?

#I am in control of my body so it’s fine #but I am obviously not in control of my environment so I have to fix that first #interoception #poor interoception #great externoception (…?) #I feel everything #*on the outside of me #everything everywhere all at once #great movie #and great term #autism #adult autism #autistic adult #self diagnosed autism #executive dysfunction #adhd brain #adhd #adult adhd #neurodiverse stuff #neurodivergent

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When it comes to conservative evangelical childhood references it’s not so much iykyk, it’s more of iykisfsaisamltyftdomh

#if you know i’m so fucking sorry and i’m sending all my love to you from the depths of my heart #this also probably could apply to any trauma reference now that i think about it #tw trauma #tw religious trauma #religious trauma #exvangelical

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rb with your favorite verbal stims!!!

my all time favorite is “representational capacity”

#I sing it along to the tune of ‘Joshua faught the battle of Jericho’ evangelical kid song iykyk #stimming #verbal stimming #echolalia #autism #autism stimming #adhd #adhd stimming #neurodivergent #interactive post #pls rb <3

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🍉Data sources under the cut🍉

#tw genocide #free palestine #genocide in palestine #free gaza #palestine

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#fuck

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#PINEWOOD DERBY?!?? #new childhood memory unlocked #meme #memes

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I never understood the “autistics have a hard time with transitions” thing, bc doesn’t everyone have a hard time with transitions???

Yet I was only ever thinking about HUGE, life-altering transitions, like moving far away or having a kid, which is scary for anybody (but tbf autistics probably still rank higher on the “this is fucking terrifying” scale than allistics do).

But apparently, it also applies to the most basic transitions in day to day tasks. It’s harder for us to switch from one task to the next bc our brains generally function most efficiently when we are able to work in one uninterrupted segment on a task.

I’ve alwaysss struggled with this, especially when I need to use the bathroom - I will hold it for very long periods of time to avoid interruption in my task. For a while I thought it was just bc I also have adhd which causes lack of dopamine/executive dysfunction, and makes it difficult to *initiate* tasks. Which ofc plays a big part into it too. But I never knew it was a double whammy with the classic autism trait of “change and transitions are harder.” (Also the ignoring of my interoception doesn’t help with me avoiding using the bathroom)

#change is hard #transitions are hard #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #self diagnosed autism #adult autism #autistic adult #autism #adult adhd #adhd brain #adhd #audhd #adult audhd #audhd brain #audhd problems #audhd things

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you say transitions are hard for autistics????

well then try being a TRANS AUTISTIC!!!!

#how do I get my poor little brain to transition too #like how do I know who I want to be when who I was is so different than who I am now #disclaimer: being trans doesn’t automatically mean you’re autistic and vice versa #trans #autistic and trans #transgender #neurodivergent #adult autism #neurodiverse stuff #self diagnosed autism #autistic adult #autism

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#meme #memes #i lol'd #my kind of humor

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AVOCADOS THAT LOOK GOOD ON THE OUTSIDE BUT ARE ACTUALLY ROTTEN

reblog this w your weirdest fear!!! mine’s balloons

#it actually makes me want to drop over dead #and vomit #and implode #and cry #I’m not even kidding #also slimy lettuce #so bad #not exaggerating #I need to think of something else now #also yeah I’m autistic if you were wondering #so I have some very extreme food aversions hehe #even though it’s a pretty I universal experience to be grossed out by rotten avocados and lettuce #generally people don’t feel like they want to die and cry

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"The younger generation is so privileged."

Yeah, nah. They're fucking amazing. And been handed a shit show to inherit.

They're a bit odd but they've also only known war, surveillance states, online predators, and the integration of technology into every aspect of their lives.

"Back in my day-"

Yeah, they never had that. Glad you drank from a hose and played outside, but that shit doesn't exist in many places any more.

The younger generation are fucking terrified and have never been allowed to turn off.

I have only the highest fucking respect for them. They're bolder, and watching as everything they were promised is being sent back to the dark ages before they even graduate high school or college. Like... Holy shit, my little chicken tenders.

#cw politics #thisssssss #gen z #I am so proud of the youths

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*in the 2020s* he would do numbers on twitter *in the 2010s* he would get shares on his blog *in the 1990s* he would be a wiz on the multi-user dungeon *in the 1950s* he would get ratings on the television *in the 1930s* he would command the masses on the radio *in the 1880s* he would do dots and dashes on the telegram *in the 1790s* he would do arm signals on the semaphore *in the 1600s* his prints would be distributed widely *in the 1400s* he would sound the trumpet in battle *in the 700s* his words would be passed down by oral tradition *in the 300s* he would do smoke signals in the sky *in the neolithic* his artifacts would enter the archeological record *in the pliocene* his bones would be preserved in the sediment *in the mezozoic* he would do permineralization in mineral rich groundwater *in the paleoarchean* he would facilitate recombination of his genome *in the hadean* his molecules would self replicate in the early ocean *in the matter dominated era* his stellar nursery would collapse into a star and an orbiting cloud of dust *in the cosmological dark ages* quantum fluctuations in his density would form the first cosmological structures *10^-32 seconds after the big bang* his elementary particles would dominate in baryogenesis *in the plank epoch* he would do cosmic inflation in the energy dense early universe *10^-43 seconds after the big bang* he would be

#this is beautiful #although my autism is trying desperately to figure out who ‘he’ is and perhaps that’s why my brains hurts after reading this #but maybe bc it’s so much to fit into my one brain #or maybe I have a headache