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Happy lesbian visibility week to all who celebrate

#critical role #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr imogen #cr laudna #imogen temult #laura bailey

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Length: 1,300 words Rating: T for heavy themes and language TWs: general emotional distress

Laudna stops brushing away the tears in favor of simply ghosting her knuckles along Imogen’s skin. “I love you,” she says again, “and you’re shaking.”

Now she’s suddenly aware of it, the way she’s trembling against Laudna like she just woke up from a nightmare—

(I’ll see you in your dreams.)

Tries to push it all back down—

“We’re alone, Imogen. You have space to feel whatever it is. No one else has to know.”

And that’s all it takes.

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr imogen #cr laudna #imogen temult #angst #hurt/comfort #critical role spoilers #episode 92

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Liliana saying “Nothing is more important to me” and Imogen’s instant pushback, versus Laudna’s “I love you” and Imogen’s face crumbling with emotion and exhaustion because she KNOWS that’s true, because she sees and feels and trusts it every single day.

#critical role #critical role spoilers #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr imogen #cr laudna #imogen temult #liliana temult

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The thing I need everyone on god's internet to understand is that when @quiddie appeared in the DM chair just now I instantly screamed the highest pitch note I have ever physically emitted in my entire life, with or without being on T

#critical role spoilers #critical role #aabria iyengar

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a partner who understands your fixation >>>

#critical role #imodna #imogen x laudna #laura bailey #marisha ray

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✨ coming soon ✨

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #imodna #sugar you #gbbo au

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Length: 7,600 words Rating: T for language and lots of kissing TWs: brief mild descriptions of sensory overload

She’s squinting at the instructions like she’s trying to read upside down. “I’m not swearing to make you feel better, I’m swearing because I fuckin’ hate fractions.”

Imogen reaches for the sheet automatically. “Oh, then d-on’t w-orry about it, I c-an—”

Fearne yanks the recipe out of Imogen’s reach. “I didn’t say fractions were a dealbreaker,” she reminds her. “Now I’m gonna read this shit off to you, and you’re gonna figure out what the fuck any of it means, and we’re gonna make this last technical your bitch.”

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Welcome to THE GREAT BYRODEN BAKE OFF 🧁

Episode 1

Episode 2

Episode 3

Production Delay

Episode 4

Technical Difficulties

Episode 5

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #hurt/comfort #fluff #cr fearne #fearne calloway #cr chetney #vex'ahlia #vex'ahlia de rolo #the great british bake off #gbbo #gbbo au #fearne x chetney

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I can't stop thinking about what Sam did.

how that three hours of combat was miserable.

how nobody thought they'd make it out alive.

how it was the party's cleric who made the sacrifice.

how it was Sam Riegel's cleric.

how nobody executes an emotional suckerpunch quite like him.

and I'm still Extremely Frustrated about the combat itself, but I loved the Episode, and that's exclusively because of Sam. I don't know if anyone else could've landed that kind of ending, with that precise ratio of near-TPK devastation and desperately needed emotional catharsis, with a way to single-handedly take back the players' agency in an otherwise hopeless situation.

(maybe Liam, because Orym's a sacrifice guy, but I don't think that version would have nearly as much Joy at its foundation.

or maybe Travis, because Chetney's an old man and one of the few PC's with the privilege of some narrative closure, but I would've been a thousand times sadder.)

I can't stop thinking about what Sam did.

#from the desk of someone who almost stopped watching during the solstice split because of fcg #and someone who's generally always felt neutral about them at best #the same someone who SOBBED through the end of 91 #we contain multitudes over here and it's all sam's fault #critical role spoilers #critical role #fresh cut grass #cr fresh cut grass #cr fcg #fcg #sam riegel

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Thinking big thoughts about Betrayal being Laudna's trigger of all time, and how Delilah promised Laudna she'd help protect Imogen if Laudna kept absorbing power for them both, and then how Laudna chose to H.O.T.S. the willmaster, and then how Delilah went radio silent for the entire brutal combat that almost killed Imogen, and how that Feels A Lot Like Betrayal To Me, and how maybe Laudna should yell a bunch about That Betrayal, maybe

#critical role #laudna #cr laudna #critical role spoilers #delilah briarwood #imodna #imogen x laudna

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"Otohan has us in the tunnels. It's about to be over."

You know what's Crazy about this message, is Imogen specifically sent it toward the end of combat as a Hail Mary, but still couldn't bring herself to ask for help--to ask for anything at all, even in that moment of desperation--because when has begging Liliana for something ever worked for her?

#critical role #critical role spoilers #imogen temult #liliana temult #remember i was recapping for my partner 'oh and imogen asked her mom for--' #and then my stomach dropped when i realized. No She Didn't #she didn't ASK her mom for anything. actually

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Length: 8,200 words Rating: T for language and heavy themes TWs: very descriptive panic attack (see author's note)

Another silence settles between them, and Imogen might actually fall back asleep after all.

“I could make us chocolate chip pancakes,” Laudna offers after a while, hushed and close to Imogen’s ear, like she’s trying not to disturb her any more than necessary.

Imogen hums in agreement, but doesn’t move a muscle, and neither does Laudna.

“Or,” she continues, voice soft as silk, “I could stay right here.”

Imogen nuzzles into her pillow a little to try to hide the sudden heat on her face. “Yeah,” she replies, with fully formed words this time. “You could.”

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Welcome to THE GREAT BYRODEN BAKE OFF 🧁

Episode 1

Episode 2

Episode 3

Production Delay

Episode 4

Technical Difficulties

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #angst #hurt/comfort #fluff #panic attack #disabilties #the great british bake off #gbbo au

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Length: 9,685 words (5/8) Rating: T for language TWs: panic attack, emotional shutdown

Imogen’s never laid it all out like this for anyone, not even for Laudna, and she squeezes the back of her neck as she processes her own explanation.

“That sounds extremely stressful,” Yasha says, calm and gentle and full of empathy.

Imogen can feel herself about to shrug but contains the motion, and instead thinks about the last few weeks, the last several years. “Yeah,” she admits, almost to herself. “Yeah, it is.”

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Welcome to THE GREAT BYRODEN BAKE OFF 🧁

Episode 1

Episode 2

Episode 3

Production Delay

Episode 4

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #bells hells #mighty nein #gbbo #great british bake off #angst #hurt/comfort

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Length: 6,190 words (4/8) Rating: T for language and mental illness TWs: panic attack

“This isn’t an emergency,” is the first thing she blurts when Laudna answers the phone—or maybe she forgot to let Laudna answer first? She already can’t remember. “Just thought it might be easier than typin’. But if I caught you at a bad time, or—just tell me, and I can…”

Imogen cuts herself off there and takes a few beats to catch her breath. “Hi.”

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Welcome to THE GREAT BYRODEN BAKE OFF 🧁

Episode 1

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Episode 3

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#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #angst #hurt/comfort #great british bake off

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Length: 1,560 words Rating: T for language and heavy themes TWs: panic attack and brief mention of vomiting

But then, like a yawn slowly building right after she’s committed to staying awake, Imogen feels something push up against the back of her eyes and she pushes right back. Most of her waking hours are spent holding everything in, but this solitude isn’t for letting go; it’s for that razor-thin line in the middle, for doing absolutely nothing at all, for the blissful numbness she can wield like armor while she has a handful of hours alone.

She doesn’t want to go in the opposite direction—she just wants to stop.

(After episode 88 Imogen finally gets a moment alone, for better or for worse.)

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #bells hells #angst #hurt/comfort #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers

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Length: 7,271 words Rating: M for non-explicit smut TWs: gender dysphoria

“So, if I’m understanding correctly,” Arlo recaps, “you’re not flat, but you’d very much like to be. That’s your intention.”

Auggie takes a deep breath, lets it out slowly, and nods.

“And how would you do that?”

He has to clear his throat to make his voice work. “There’s this, uh—surgery you can get, to take ‘em away. It’s a whole… it’s somethin’ I’ve been thinkin’ about for a long time.”

Now Arlo smiles again. “Oh, that’s wonderful! If it would make you happy, Auggie, then of course you should get the surgery.”

“It ain’t that simple,” he mutters softly. “Costs a lot of fuckin’ money.”

Arlo blinks. “I have money.”

#candela obscura #arlo black #auggie james #arlie #ao3 fanfic #critical role #cr fanfic #transmasc character #candela chapter 1

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Length: 2,400 words Rating: M for general mature themes TWs: references to past abuse

“Good evenin’ to you, too,” Imogen deadpans. “You got a problem with me wantin’ to chat?”

Are you really so arrogant as to think I would bother attempting to satisfy your naive curiosities?

Laudna looks distressed, but Imogen's been ready. “What I am is capable,” she corrects without batting an eyelash. “You know damn well that I could go in there myself and hear every single word y’all have exchanged. But that wouldn’t be fair to Laudna,” Imogen points out and gives her a sympathetic pat on the knee. “So, since yappin’ away seems to be your favorite pastime,” she continues with nothing but pleasant sunshine, “why don’t you be a good little parasite, and tell me what you’ve been sayin’ to my girlfriend lately.”

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(Post-86. Imogen decides it's time for a proper three-way conversation. Title from "Question...?" by Taylor Swift.)

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #delilah briarwood #critical role spoilers #c3 e86 #my 100th fic!!! #life comes at you fast

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Length: 2,050 words Rating: M for mild dubcon (non-sexual) TWs: emotional manipulation, partial mind control

“Sorry,” she whispers automatically.

There’s a thoughtful hum near Imogen’s ear. “For not telling me the truth?” Laudna asks, her nail now tracing a path along the top edge of Imogen’s shoulder blade, from arm to neck. “Or for being so afraid of a little touch?” Laudna ends her question with a straight line that goes all the way down Imogen’s spine, and the sensation has Imogen curling into an even tighter ball.

“M’not afraid,” Imogen insists through gritted teeth as she tries to take deep breaths, tries to keep her mind out of Laudna’s thoughts, tries to remember if she’s ever been this tense in Laudna’s presence—

“Then why don’t you be a good little girl,” Laudna encourages, shiny and pleasant in all the wrong ways, “and tell me what your nightmare was about.”

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(Some post-85 stuff. Rated soft M. Title from "Electric Touch (Taylor's Version) (From the Vault)" by Taylor Swift.)

#critical role #ao3 fanfic #cr fanfic #cr imogen #imodna #imogen x laudna #cr laudna #imogen temult #bells hells #angst #c3 e85 #laudna