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[newnamelesswriter]

Today I thought about myself.

"One of the biggest challenges for me these past few years was putting myself first without feeling guilty about it. You see, when you continually place others’ needs in front of yours, they get used to it. They start to feel entitled. Like you owe them your attention, your time and your care. And if you don’t sprinkle little particles of affection that you had originally gifted them out of choice – they make you shrivel with guilt. The very people whom you chose before you, make you feel inadequate for choosing yourself over them. And that’s my biggest challenge – learning to put my own needs before others; my mental health, my emotions and my heart without feeling dread settle over me. Without feeling my chest tighten with guilt and regret. Because what good will any of it do if, whenever I take out time for self-care, I’m reminded that I’m being selfish, that I’m not putting others first as I should, that I have taken something away from them just by thinking about myself for once. Remember this – if someone regards you highly and cares about you, they won’t make you feel bad about asking for space. Especially if you tell them that you want to put your mental/emotional health first and that you’ll message them when you feel better. And when you take that time to focus on yourself, to pour love and happiness into your heart and do what you must to cheer your soul, people who care about you won’t hold it against you. They won’t make you feel small about how you used that time – because that time is yours and yours only. Those who respect you will not turn your need for time off as something that attacks them and their value in your life, they won’t see you choosing yourself as contravening with you choosing them."

words: @r.dhalwriter #starsouls

#selflove #mentalheal #putyourselffirst #chooseyourself #loveyourself #care #love #life #lifechallenges #challenge #betheheroofyourownstory

[newnamelesswriter]

There are some who bring a light so great to the world that even after they have gone the light remains. 🖤

#grief #imissyou #love #hope #feeling #sadness #life

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“I think it’s brave. I think it is brave that you get up in the morning when your heart aches and your life is messy and you do not feel like being soft for the world. I think it is brave that you continue to love, and express, and open your soul, despite the way you were treated in the past. I think that it is brave that you keep going, that you keep believing in something more, something bigger, even when you may not know what you are hoping for. I think it is brave that you fight, I think it is brave that you choose, every single day, to move forward – because that is what makes you strong.”

– Bianca Sparacino

Today is not a good day. I feel like I’m falling in a hole. All my friends are falling in love. And thats all I am craving. I’m starving and nobody seems to notice it. What would I give, to just have that feeling again....

#brave #love quotes #starvin #allmyfriends #down #falling #depressed #though #midnight

[newnamelesswriter]

It’s exam time guys. I‘m not doing so good this year but still trying my best.

Recently got out of a relationship so that’s kinda throwing me out of the boat. How are you all holding up?

#examtime #howdoyoufeel #stress #ocd

[newnamelesswriter]

Yesterday I had a big exam. 

I had to finish a term paper till Friday last week so I only had the weekend to study for this exam. It went well I guess, but I’m always not quite sure... It helps me to write everything down again, even if it takes up almost all my study time. On Thursday I have another big exam and I’m not quite sure if I will be able to pass it, considering the short time I have for studying. Today I had another practical exam from gymnastics in Physical Education. It went really well and I’m glad that I don’t need to do everything again. I’m not really good at gymnastics so I’m actually really happy that it all went well today. My grandma called earlier cause my mom told her how nervous I was for today's practical test. She was quite happy for me and said she was very proud. Sometimes that is all you need to hear. She made my day today :)

#examtime #studyblog #grandma #happy

[newnamelesswriter]

Today I was anxious.

Dear Friend, 

I’m in the middle of a whole week of exams. And I really don't know how to get through with it. I’m just so scared that I will fail and disappoint not only my family and friends but also me. It is so hard to keep up with all the knowledge and newness of every subject in uni. Really scared that I missed something on the way. Really scared that I can’t take it all in.

Today I have my big linguistic exam. I failed it already last semester, so this is my last chance. If I won’t succeed I won’t be able to study English any longer. That would really break my heart! 

So please, please my friend, stay with me. Give me the strength and courage and all the good thoughts that I need! I could really use every help I can get...

Love, N 

#exam season #important exam #help me #last chance

[newnamelesswriter]

Today I thought about friendship.

Dear Friend, 

today I hung out with two of my best friends. I only met them 8 1/2 months ago when I moved to the city. We study together and so we get to spend quite a lot of time together. Sometimes it seems to me like I’ve known these guys for years not only for months. 

I think it’s pretty fascinating how fast you get to know new people and how fast they appear to you as good friends. And I think it’s funny how different my friends are. Sometimes I wonder how all of our personalities fit together. Do they even fit together? Or are we all to different if you look at it from the distance? Is it possible, that we might fall apart because we are so different?

I have no answers to these questions. But maybe you can give me some answers Mr. Universe? If you’re not to busy with all the bigger problems in the world (like war, starvation or climate change) of course. 

Waiting to hear from you!

Love, N

#friends #universe #friendship #time